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30th of December 200SIXX, Have A Good One - Later
7:02PM CET
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So it came the end of the year fucking before many of us were even prepared I guess? I think personally this year has passed by faster than I cared for. Then again it was a year in global tragics. It was a year where we all became a little more naked and insecure. I think the world picture is about to get even nastierto us all in the new 2007. How ever I have kind of had enough losses in my life this year. For the first time in a long tie I trusted something to happen and it didnt. It was the ONLY thing outside my Motley world I wanted to function but alsos that i was taken away. I feel I am not sat here to succeed out side this world of being a collector. I think its a little more sad than what I care to admit. Next year was meant to be my huge change in life and for the rest of my life but other would not that it went that way!! So, here I am stuck in Denmark single and in worse and worse shape, in many ways. I have sadly also sat a decision to wheater or not I should stop this collecting business. I have had a little too many heart felt dissapointments since summer of this year to say things are ending in happy thoughts and satisfactions in that matter. I am now hoping for 2 last things or they arent really last things if I end up being able to pull em through but two things I really would to get which was also mentioned in my last posting on here. Huge fucking collectibles!!! Over the top killer awesomenss to have and say they are parts of MY personal collection. Get out of here. I love it. Right now the latest on that matter is gonna have an answer to it perhaps sometime at the end of next week. So.... there are a few things that I think can make my dream happen how ever it takes a lot of will on my own part and it takes a sacrifies and a hell of a lot of luck!! But its now its the right time to make it happen if it can happen. You see things are not gonna come to me easerly at all. It will be a bitch to take this one home but if I do I will be ass proud and like I say I will know more and there by inform you of it late next week.

So on a more positive side of things, inspite of all my shitty deeply cutting losses I have also had a line of really awesome adventures. not to say this site!! We have worked hard to make it more and more attractive and expanded it a ton of times through out 2006. We have reached a path now where we like to say we have finally found our skeleton to be the one for the future for a long time anyways!!! There are more coming and getting added on here for sure in the new year also. You see we have still a few ideas untested and unadded on here. This is the only and single thing that I have that I fully trust now a days. I have the motley life and the collcting thing that really is a hell of a lot important to me. Words are peanuts no matter which I choose to put together to describe that feeling and that truth so I wont. Those of you who knows this you know what I am talking about those that doesnt well..... its just over whelming. I have no other way to say it.
I have had a doctor vicit last week with my yearly body check as I do. I know I have had a bad heart for some years now. Well the latest test says I am very unstable sitting here having a chat about it with my webmaster and it felt weird to be thrown the question "what about the site and the collection should something happen?" Wow!! Never quiet thought of it. I have not but a single idea about that one. I think I instantly have like three people in mind should it happen. Morten, Jesse and Corinna. But somehow I cant really say that after all. Why?? Well Jesse - my dear dear beloved missed brother in Cruelty course I have seen him sell shit in need of the fucking money we are all so damn depending on. Would be hard to think of my collection going to him should I be gone. Dont really want him to sell shit .. Not even his own stuff. But rather expand the collection the best he can. Morten my brother - should I die I think he would hold on to it all in my memory. But then again not him either course he collected ones and I saw what bad it did to him. now he is not collecting only helping out and I have never seen him happier. Its been the best gift to me in 2006. Glad to see him growing and smiling again. Good going brother. Good going!! And finally a girl I think I never fully get over. My travelling partner in passion. My heart touched love of my life - Corinna. And in a very complicated way I dont want her to have it either. She is way too unemotional about my shit, me and things in generel. It crushes my heart to know she is not as passionate end emotional as she let me see and thought the first half year I met her. But I will never ever fully get over her. We have shared and she has been a part of whats most important to me in life in a deep, deep way!!! So for a life time Corinna .... love going your way!!! Want it or not. You see, the thing about me is that I am a passionate fucker that lives LOYAL to my hearts sayings. I will go through fire for things and persons that holds a piece of my heart. I have not seen any anywhere having this, this massively. Not to polise my own glory or anything but I havent. I think people would have to get to know me to fully see and then perhaps understand me.

But hey lets just say we had an action packed 2006 of good and bad and 2007 is but another year. I am walking into it with HUGE goals and hopes and I will be the first to say I am willing to die for my goals. To all my friends, family and the men behind the reason for my ways of living .. thanks for all this year!!! happy new year fuckers.. Love you all even though I dont see many of you all that much. If you only knew.. If you only knew....
A huge thanks and special salute to my new found musical passionate friend in Russia... Anya ... bitch!!! Thanks for all so far - Tommy

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28th of December 200SIXX, The Ultimate Test To My Collecting
12:12AM CET
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"Hey T Ive almost reached an agreement with xxxx to get you the curtains and backdrop. I thought for a minute that I lost them because MC management said they didn't realize we had them and they wanted to get them back. They now work through the law to get em. Butthey NEED to come up with and show papers of ownership from the past and last storage contract!! And since the mangement they have now is a different one this will take them a good 4 months to do. So law says i can do anything with it till March 18th!! So this means a GOOD situation for you, I hope? Also, I didn't have enough money to buy xxxx out completely for them, but we are coming to an agreement. Based on the plan you sent to me, you will have until April to get us $4,500 USD. Let me know how much each monthly payment will amount to. This is way way way cheaper than originally asked for but based on the fact that you have a far far shorter time to deliever I give you both ofr the 4,500.
I'll pay shipping to get the stuff to your Boston friend from the $4,500 that you send. Plus, I'll throw in more goodies from my old storage stash. Then, I'll keep Nikki's toy, skins and TL prototypes for you to buy from me at a later time, whenever you are ready...and at a very good price that we can determine later. These items are small enough that I don't need them in storage and when you want them, you can have them. I hope your Christmas went well and I hope this thing all works out for you just the way you want it to. Drop me a line when you get a chance. This is sadly the ONLY time chance you can get these so dont think too long!!!"

So what now you may ask? Fuck dude I just dont know. I need to get some things working. Gotta try to get myself a job different kind of job, selling the rest of my KISS awards and more. I am willing to do absolutely NOTHING for the next six months should not do or go anywhere but to some hell hole job and just pay off the what ever if thats what it takes to get this shit. May very well be the ultimate collectible out there for my personal and private collection. Fuck I have two huge hopes for the new year about Crue. This is one of them to get these two items. If it fails and the second one will too, Ill stop collecting. I have suffered just an inch too many this late summer and fall 2006 for being able and willing to accept these hopes and dreams to not happen for me too. Its just not acceptable. I could not live with it. I have not had the best time and year of my life. Lost way too much....my inner US dream and girl. Many Crue dreams and shit. Lots of lost crap in sales and buys and what have you. You have no idea well actually you do if you have followed my brains walking through out the year. I am just so very dissapointed and hurt like you cant even begin to believe?!! I WANT THESE ITEMS. I am willing to pay any person that would borrow me the money first hand a huge advantage and promise even a contract to be the next owner of my shit or pieces of it when its selling time for my private collection.I need this to happen for me and my Cruecial future.

There have been new shit added to the collection online too the last few days. Not a whole lot but bits here and pieces there. I have a line of things I like to do and all still with it. And there will be refined things going on new started ideas and shit!! I think its time to change my ways for a good six to nine months. I dont fancy the idea but I need it. In order to make this above mentioned shit happen!!

I posted a new headline too asking if any had read the the Heroin Diaries yet!! Through the official site of motley.com guess what happend. Here is also the posting and the staffs reply and more.:
Me: Who have read the Heroin book yet? Anyone? Let me hear from you at...
Reply: stop trying to release un authorized copies of the heroin diaries if you continue to do so your account will be suspend..
Me: so again the things between fans gets censored!!! dear Mox... I am amazed how many rules the staff throws together to stop ppl from awesome chances.
Unlike many other bands and their universes.. fans help eacother, help getting rare stuff.. only in the crue world is this going on!! Can you out of kindness and helpfulness tell me why this is and who sets these rules?? A lot of times I talk to fans and collectors that wants things not out yet or redrawned for what ever reason. And if its not coming from here you guys dont aprove of it.. in other words you kill the chances for fans telling fans about some pretty great chances. Just please tell me this... I am just amazed thats all...!!!
Reply: no you are basically trying to rip off profits from Nikki by giving people his book before it is even released.. and as i said i have no idea where you got it from and as such it may not even be the official copy.. this is nothing to do with censoring you this has to do with you basically taking cash from Sixx..

I am amazed in ways beyond words. I am not trying to promote a sell pre release with this. Yet its turned around to threats and more course it is all about protecting Sixx for income. What The Fuck????? People are fucking retarted. I am all weird feeling. I am only setting up a subject to be talked about. I ´kind of get off on how stinky things are run on certain things in the Crue camp. What the hell? I dont get it man... its too low and too non fan like. I get the picture and more of the financial shit (as if he dont have enough if it really was all about that) but... it isnt. So now, now what? It has been taken off there too. Not to anys surprise really. What the hells this? I do not get it. This is partly also why the official sit do not aprove of the www.motleycruehitsquad.com which by the way in my mind is cool. Way cool. Man ohh man...
There have been a good few talks too with new to me not previously known so called Crue fans. Again my `dissapointment was over whelming. You see I still sadly see too many, way too many being pricks and egoistic sons of bitches in all kinds of ways. cant forget the talk I have had going on and off with Jesse for some time now. The bands fans are so unlike any other. In a cool way? No. Sadly not, no wonder i dont talk to too many of them. Its like ... ohh well. Might as well just give it a rest!! Nothing is going to change or anything so never mind. damn I can not forget the offer and the changes it has taken. Its tightening in on me like I am just about to choke. And there are only two doors out of this. One leads to the end of times on these doings that I live for almost the other is demanding a hell of a huge portion of luck timing and no life at all for a long periode of time and more. Which one is the most attractive you think? Like asking one would you rather die by gun or blade the outfal is pretty much the same so who the fuck cares? Alright I may have overdid that one in writing and thinking. But you get the idea dont you? I am seriously a bit concerned. How will this end? I am not at this very minute able to say or even predict. But if you force me to I have to say I just lost it. It is really not something I believe in getting. But I am sure as hell gonna try!!! Wish me luck!!!
talk to you later, Tommy


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24th of December 200SIXX, Wrong feeling, Know Whats 2 Come
1:48PM CET
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Merry christmas folks. I have a good feeling this is the last time I am doing this what I am doing today. Skipping the holiday cellebrations. It is tragic lonely affair how ever I think I know why and I know whats to come, hopefully in the next coming months from the decition I have made for this years holidays. I so badly want the things I have talks about getting with the seller. I think this is hard as fuck and to not have a loved one either is just a really stinky thing. Above all the reason for this crappy feeling I am sure can be blamed on the financial situation. I see people having a job that brings a rather fairly good income do not have these feelings about anything like htis that I have today. It can also be that I am just this very sentimental fool. Who knows? No one can answer me there. I have been sitting for the last good hour thinking not out of pitty or anything but rather another thinking about what to go after in the next month to come. I so need to have some things to believe in. And I feel I am so extremely in need of something cool again. I think a lot about what I have been blessed with the last ended year of 2006 on the Crue side of my life. I have truely had a lot of greats again this year. Its hard to deny that one. Why should I? I have had more in a year than many have had in 5 and thats the story too on the previous 2 years 2005 and 04. So hell no I should not complain and yes they still mean a lot to me. it is still heart felt but small parts have changed. At least a little bit. I cant quiet figure out what it is that have been touched but something have. As I figure it out I will let you all in. It will be as natural for me as putting on a shirt in the morning. Motley Crue is a band that still makes my actions being controlled in their name and I can at times wonder why. Why do I have this passion thats so stinky deep and massive? Why this, why not something else or another band? Why not go back to KISS then? Well I know the answer to that one so thats kind of ruled out. ...... yeah in short its just really, really strong. The feeling that takes me on this constantly ongoing journey. But I still have plans for doing this till I am done with my passionate inner feeling or there comes other things or forces in life that takes me out of this quiet isolating universe it is to be a diehard collector and cruehead.

Anyway this is one last call out to you all on the day ... have a great one.... I gues yo uall are huhh?
I am back on the 28th or something with new addings here and there. There are a few things here now that needs to be scanned and all. 8x10s, mags, tickets, cds, dvds, personal, yeah still a lot in the mail that has not made it here yet too. What a massive control of me it has this thing. Or to be honets it asnt .. not more than I myself alou it to have though. The whole family have already gathered at moms house by now here I am still doing Cruecial thinkings and shit. What the fuck.....? I know as said I have fully understandings for all that may have wonders to why or how the hell I can do this and do that. merry christmas people...
See ya all later !!!!! Your cruester lee

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22nd of December 200SIXX, Santa Days & Appreciation
6:56PM CET
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Its on!!! Christmas and the end of the year is closing in. Also the day today is the day that turns things around. Its getting to be longer days and brighter days slowly yes, its going to change back from today and on so, all that doesnt like the dark and colder times .. smile fuckers.!!!!! I love winter I love snow (we dont fucking have any) I love most about this time of year but ... well, its just all different for me this year. I am personally not really gonna have an old fasion christmas...Not much else is gonna be on here till we return later. Next posting might be round the 27th of December and then we are with high speed closing in on 2007!!!! I wanna personally thank all of you each one of you for a truely appreciated support through out our second year!!! 2007 will be taken us in on the 3rd. I am highly happy to say we have more plans with it and it sure as hell will expand a great deal in the new year too. I know its big as it is but listen up, its such a cool thing and it is MY LIFE still just as much as ever. On the matter of the site(s) its been a cool year. On the Motley front its been a fairly cool year. Shitty ending. Hated the fall tour as you all know. On the emotional side of things it could easerly have been better !!! WAY BETTER!!! But I am used to stand left as the looser on all fronts on that subject But hey,...I have my fucking music dont I? Things are not looking any better what so ever on that front so ....fuck it. I miss a love to share yes but I have pretty much stopped believing so, for good or bad reasons, I have now fallen even deeper into the collecting thing on the band and there by also gotten to the point where I have dropped all hopes for now anyways about a love life!!

I found a new loyal partner sadly a busy one right about now on regular jobs but a seriously cool one. Jesse of Boston.. hail to you brother thanks for all so far .. we havent even begun yet!! Morten the baby brother of mine the one that handles all my audio video shit simply course its a riddle in itself thanks for what ever has been looked in on and dealt with still loyal in a different way to the band I know But I know the best gift you ever gave your self was stop collecting. You have never been happier and never felt better .. youre alive its obvious to see and I know it pleases you more than you can ever tell me. The webmaster - we need for sure to take this fucker to another level how ever we have done a good deal through 200SIXX and we are heading for another mountain top in the new year right? Merry christmas!! In fact to all my friends and the fucking non believers .. merry christmas . may you all have a good one. Corinna my cruecial bonding for so long. We have shared Crue shit together more than any of us have with anybody else and you know its a missed highly missed minor thing now. There wont be any other of these things for a seriously long fucking time. You tell me if you are still hungry? You tell me if you have fel what I have .. and you tell me if you still fucking miss it. I do. More than anything. But what can one sacked shitster do on ones own two feet... fucking nada!!!! merry christmas to you too...

So till after the big day .. I will return and it will be with a new years salute and the latest fucking thoughts depressions and more thats on my god damn mind!!! Love to you all out there.. Thanks again. Tommy
Merry Chistmas - Happy Holidays

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20th of December 200SIXX, Friends, Thoughts & Rock n Roll
5:50PM CET
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Here I am on a Wednesday its feeding time for my lonesome.. and I am sitting here with tasty duck and all that goes with it. Fucking nicë!! Have no fucking woman, but then I have the meal!! Quak quak quak......
So much for toast fastfood and shit. ths is MY evening and its all shitty awesome. There have been a few things going on today and the "Rock Fest" merchandise offer to me from the company comes in today I have heard hope i can do it ... its gonna be a nice end of the year deal should it come through. that was a festival hoped for to attend but I never did half a year ago, Now at least the merch is in reach if the offer sounds alright. I have a talk going back and forth with the president of the firm that holds the festival. he said he could put an offer together for me holding one of each items so... cross your greased five!! Thanks.
I think it could FINALLY come through for me but mostly cause of the helping hand right now from my brother. Thanks a great bunch.
Now its gonna be a good half a year till even the Darron dude of the crue touring staff is gonna be seeing the the band again so I have to chase other rock n roll sickness till I myself have any Crue related live activities again. The American boogie rock and that I love too. I so fucking love motor bike rock and boogie rock like i cant ever begin to tell you. Georgia Satellites are gonna be in Roskilde on feb. 9th I would love ot go. Are you kidding. Have seen them so many times too they always bring on a rocking evening making everyone forget about the stinky every day bills and doings. Its sweet .really cool. Other than that I have a lot of Backstreet Girls, rammstein and Weezer on these days. Still the generation Swine album kicks my ass blue too. have not changed that line of artists in the player for a good 10 days now... shit it just hit me.. .and i have loved the crap every time I have had it on. Well that gotta say something . The shit worls for me then dont it? Lol...... yeah the satellites are cool. Igf you havent heard them give it a chance a high blasting volume. Its insaine. Keep your Hands to Yourself, and others they roll ....and I am on the rollercoaster for sure.

Not the only old school boogie beats coming, Krokus comes in january too to this hell hole of a country.... hmmm should I go?

I have follwed them to for a long long time decades. Buut well wewill see. i am thinking about doing a try out for all the shit on here to be a book in a couple of years is that a cool idea or? I cant quiet figure it out but I like to try to get it done and set it up right and all... guess i have to talk to someone that is in this sort of business I guess? What do you think? I dont think the book of Paul Miles is extremely cool. I think I can easerly do just as cool a book when it comesto creating an inside picture of a dedicated dude. I have thought more and more about it and I think it could be fun to at least try to look into and then throw a few tals together with some possible interested companies.. maybe try to have a few talks and possibilities under the belt till I decide weather or not its cool to go for for real. And then maybe aim for a book at the end of the boys next world tour... could be shitty cool. I would love it.

I have been going solo for a long kind of time now. Jesse is still more than much with me just worlking 24 7 right now and that is just something needed on his parts right now .. he returns i promise .. I am sure he sends all an xmas wish and al lhere in the coming days too in his diary section!!! I will be throwing my last diary posting on here on Friday morning I think. So there will after that not be much else but holidays for my sake. Well untill around the last Decemebr that is...I will return then and try to give it al la good twist before new years. What are you al ldoing for the holidays? Me? Hell if I know? Have really no plans this year what so ever. I think I am gonna just follow the flow and be stupid!! Doesnt atke much for me to fullfil that act! Lol.... 4 days to go and its decemebr 24th thats christmas eve over here in denmark where my newly bathed ass is sitting...Its not at all snowing or anything its about well close to 27 to 30 degrees (USA) here .. not cold or winter at all. SUCKS!!! I miss snow. But cold and snow or not a lot is going on in my Crue world and shit is still in the mail working its way over from all corners of the globe. Insaine. lol. You get to see it all in time as it goes up on here. One thing is for fucking sure. There is going to be a damn hard drive on the Motley shit and buuys the first three months of 2007. I have three HUGE (financial) deals that hopefully goes the way I want it to. Its badass and pretty insaine. But its a must. I as of this point dont have plans for any travellings this side of June next year. it kills me and I am NOT sure I will be fine with it .. but lets just wait and see what the stinker called life brings and offers this old fart.

My space - online the site that is (you can find ours othrough the link on www.mcrueloyalty.com check it .. on there the last couple of weeks I have gotten so,me awesome new friends . hell a cuple of them are fucking even tring to hook me up with something nasty!!! Auchh!!! You wanna have a few clues to what and who they are? you try find them on there and hunt them down....
I gotta say there are a few hotties on there one I have seen makes me get a third leg so easy. Another one is or should I say seems to be thesweetests of the sweet and I will try to get in better contact with her and that is not gonna be too easy I dont think. Well again never say never. We will see. I truely hope thing will turn out cool and that all will be going the best way possible. Its just a hard hard time to get things on that front in focus. If you know what I mean? No? Then never mind. Doesnt matter to anyone other than the fucker posting anyway!!! But the My Soace of the MCrueLoyalty is highly vicited thats pretty cool. A lot of people have asked about all kinds of things. its cool. A lot of new people have seen the sites too. Nice. Always feel free to mail any of us in the contact section if you wonder about anything. Cheers

Rocker DAVE NAVARRO is heading out with his band PANIC CHANNEL in 2007 to support supergroup ROCK STAR SUPERNOVA. Navarro hosted the TV talent contest to find a singer for TOMMY LEE and GILBY CLARKE's new band earlier this year (06) and now he's touring with them. The Panic Channel will support drummer Lee's new band on dates from 7 January (07) in Florida. So all you have to do is get the ticket for it all if you wanna go see these fucks. So ... till next time on Friday.. be bad .. sick fucks I know tyou will be ...
Tommy

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18th of december 200SIXX,
3:34PM CET
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So this is the last week before the Christmas days knocks on all of our doors!!! Well for most of us anyways. I sat yesterday with a dude, fucking almost in theraphy about my ways of collecting and all. It was just like 99% of all other talks to different people. He just could not understand either. I post this cause the more I talk to people, the more I understand how unreal I live my life and how unreal I set my limits. All I truely want is my Motley life and collection to top my dreams nothing more nothing less. I do how ever miss the female in my life. But I just see it like.. being around her every day its doomed to kill my passion or (more likely) what I have several experiences with, it will kill her and the relationship. I need to find one that ... and that is not gonna happen in a life time. But this collecting and heart felt honest and very open talk about my Motley life is for me like living in a fairytale. Its an adventure unlike anything else!! I am constantly on the edge of turning myself ill and shit cause I spend all thats got anything to do with finances on ... you know what!! I begin to have a home that seriously need to have everything from A to Z replaced for something new. TV, Stereo, Bed, Furnitures and .. damn man you name it.....
But I dont. I have a good while ago stpped believing in a ton of things so I dive deeper and deeper into the universe of what I do on this matter. Isnt it wonderful? Yet shit scary??!!!!!

I wanna prove to myself certain dreams can still be turned into reality. Its not many I have had going that way with in my life. Its actually, when I think of it, all been about music in some way or another. In every other way it just has not been going my way. And my life has now been lived so long I have stopped believing in chances and shit for other things outside my musical life to come true. I just dont believe it. But dont wanna course I know what its gonna go to me. I am living a life with no, absolutely no social life anymore. No sex, no bettering in the apartment, no small every now and then little doings that could bring me something thats non Crue related. I do all this as if I was walking towards the only place I dont wanna go to yet HAVE to, cause its needed and its honest. Its who I am. How fucking sad is that? You tell me.....Its pretty sad. But what happens when I say its all the way through HEARTFELT - HONEST - and no BULL? You get stunned dont you? Hell even I do when I analyze it like this. I can get a little bit scared. Its aweful to think about it. I am fucking 40 now and its still not a hobby and still not a thing that I feel Im done with. Next to this Crue living all I am actually looking forward to ... well you dont wanna know. Or at least I should not tell thats for sure. You would think of me as a phyco and we cant have that now can we?? Fuck no!! lol lol...or maybe you already do?

here in europe a lot of us still talks about the fall tour seen with Aerosmith. My feeling is a lot of Americans dont agree and see it the way the press in the United States have said about the Motleys in the reviews. We do!! We the europeans .. or at least a lot of us it seems. Have so far talked to 9 people and 7 of them said it was not something to go apeshit about in a positive way. The final shows were something i should have thought would be cool and all. But look at these reviews too. They dont really say too cool things about the Hollywood boys. Now its pretty silent as said only Tommy and Nikki instore apperences for their respective clothing lines and then Supernova hits the road in a good two weeks. There is a "new" Supernova fan site up and running if any should have that kind of interest? www.supernovafans.com

Saddledome, Calgary - December 11, 2006
Rock train keeps a-rollin'
CALGARY - They may have been billed as co-headliners, but the main attraction at last night's Route of All Evil show was definitely Aerosmith, not Motley Crue.headliners, but the main attraction at last night's Route of All Evil show was definitely Aerosmith, not Motley Crue. While both bands brought their A-Game to the 'Dome, the Crue came off as a bunch of junior high boys, throwing a rockin' party for their equally immature pals, compared to Aerosmith's much more professional and toned-down set. Motley Crue showcased its usual bag of rock show cliches -- massive explosions, showers of sparks, tons of smoke and a couple voluptuous women in cages suspended above the stage. Video screens glowing with disturbing images of more of the same ol' situation -- scantily clad ladies in bondage gear, fire and an array of devils including George Bush -- added to the locker room feel of the 75-minute gig. Fad? In a way, but it was no surprise that these boys, who celebrated Nikki Sixx's 48th birthday last night, still haven't grown up. Even less shocking was the band's set list, which ran much like it did in the '80s, the '90s, when they were here twice in the summer of 2005, when Vince Neil played Cowboys during Stampede and so on. Dr. Feelgood, Don't Go Away Mad and Kickstart My Heart and their anthem Girls, Girls, Girls were the obvious crowd favourites. But in terms of performance, the highlight was definitely Home Sweet Home, which featured an acrobat hanging from silk panels twisting and turning. The band was tight -- Tommy Lee ripped on drums, Sixx was even more impressive on bass and the walking corpse that is Mick Mars looked -- dare we say it? -- lively. The power of singer Vince Neil's vocal delivery was a far cry from what it used to be, and at times he seemed to forget the words. Not that it mattered much to the sold-out crowd, which savoured every cheesy moment the masters of '80s hair metal threw at them, including smashing a guitar. Considering all of this, it was odd the Crue went out of its way not to be seen. Between the constant smoke and lights pointing at the crowd, it may well have been impersonators onstage. We know all too well what you look like, Tommy Lee. Aerosmith didn't rely on the special effects and side shows, opting instead to focus on Steven Tyler's voice and charisma.


Chantal Eustace, Vancouver Sun December 14, 2006
Motley Crue, Aerosmith deliver an explosive spectacle
Motley Crue - also known as the opening act for Aerosmith on their extensive Route of All Evil Tour - put on a smutty, raunchy, tacky and positively explosive spectacle. The animalistic, ‘80s hairspray metal band was so bad that it was good. (And it was so good that it was a tough act to follow.) R-rated video screens illustrated lyrics that would be better off left to the imagination. A chorus of vampy burlesque dancers of undefined genders hammed it up to the Crue’s trashy-but-catchy anthem, Girls, Girls, Girls. And when things seemed to be calming down, they’d throw in a wall or two of fire so hot waves resonated through the stunned crowd like in the song, Shout at the Devil. It was totally out of control. The crowd seemed to buy it too. Cougars with thongs peeking from low-slung jeans, 20-somethings in vintage concert tees, boomers in leather jackets and tweens with dark eyeliner all suffered the cochlear attack with arms pounding overhead. And when things felt too crazy, the veteran rockers - Nikki Sixx, Vince Neil, Mick Mars and Tommy Lee - just kept going. It was the same old situation with their banter too. At one point they told us to grab our "nuts" or "titties." Lee or Neil dropped f-bombs between almost every song and sometimes during. And Neil waxed poetic on the year they spent in what he calls “V-town,” when they recorded Dr. Feelgood in 1989 with producer Bob Rock. Next door, Aerosmith was busy recording Pump. That was the first time the two bands collided in this city. In the midst of the Crue’s heyday of sex, drugs, car crashes, prison and more drugs, they have fond memories of Vancouver. “We’ve spent a lot of time up here. We spent a year up here. It’s sort of like a second home to us here,” Neil says to the cheering fans. “Vancouver. I just like how that sounds Van-f*cking-couver.” After a few more gut blender tunes, Neil tells the crowd: “The relationship we have with Aerosmith goes way back. We really f*ckin’ bonded together when we were here in Vancouver” (During that time, both groups reportedly even shared the same counselor, Bob Timmons, according to the book, The Dirt: Confessions of the World's Most Notorious Rock Band.) The Crue also enjoyed the Vancouver’s exotic dancers, Neil says, and the song, Same Old Situation, was even inspired by a local stripper who dumped one of the band members. Things wrap up on a boisterous note with some cheerleader tactics – a vocal ping-pong challenge with the words Motley Crue - led by Tommy Lee, who also passes a bottle of Jagermeister to the crowd. He tells us: “Goodnight F*ckers.” So with all the shock and awe of the notorious Crue – all the ruckus, pomp and commotion caused by the big-haired brats - Aerosmith’s performance seemed a little clean cut. A little sanitized. A little quiet at first. That doesn’t mean Steven Tyler didn’t slink around the stage stunning us with his fit 50-something physique and big-lipped, vocal acrobatics or that Joe Perry’s fingers didn’t singe guitar after guitar. It doesn’t mean that Joey Kramer didn’t pulverize the drums while Brad Whitford’s fast fingers kept tune on lead guitar. Because they did. The rockers were sensational. Instead of gimmicky devices like flame guns and hairspray, they focused on good, solid music. Nikki Sixx band-hopped into the set for a cameo in a rock version of Helter Skelter where Tyler added signature screams and raspy vocals. Perry mixed in some raw, bluesy riffs in their solid version of Baby Please Don’t Go.

The Leader-Post December 14, 2006
Aerosmith isn't a Motley bunch
Published: Thursday, CALGARY -- It was hard not to wonder if slightly long-in-the-tooth arena rockers Aerosmith were still a formidable live band, or it just seemed so because they followed Motley Crue during the pairing's double headline bill at the Pengrowth Saddledome on Monday night. Billed as the Route Of All Evil tour, Motley's harshest evil is on that of unplugged ears. Wailing like a wounded moose, Vince Neil remains one of the lousiest live singers in rock, and his cohorts Nikki Sixx, Mick Mars and the infamous Tommy Lee (the fourth and fifth member of the band) remain the loosest live band in '80s metal. Still one has to marvel: After all, never has anyone gone so far for so long with so little. For those of you who attended the group's headlining show at the Brandt Centre earlier this year . . . it wasn't an off night. The Crue is nothing if not consistent in their supreme lousiness. On the last night of two years on the road. the group's finale was more welcome than Cher's final show of her third Farewell tour. Aerosmith? Different deal altogether. The Beantown heroes led by the former toxic twins of rock and roll, Steven Tyler and Joe Perry, are a real rock band -- a musical abnormality during the latter days of calendar year 2006.
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A lot of Crue minded people may have thought that at least Sixx would have participated in the new coming release of: "Six-String Masterpieces: The Dimebag Darrell Art Tribute" but he isnt. Rather Ozzy Osbourne (BLACK SABBATH) and Ace Frehley (KISS) are among the latest artists who have signed on to participate in the "Six-String Masterpieces: The Dimebag Darrell Art Tribute" — the art exhibit of guitars that have been hand-painted, illustrated and sculpted by top rockers and modern artists in tribute to one of the most influential metal guitarists of all-time, "Dimebag" Darrell Abbott of DAMAGEPLAN and PANTERA. Over the next two months, look for new Dean ML guitars painted by: Ozzy Osbourne, Ace Frehley (KISS), Al Jourgensen (MINISTRY), Dean Karr (award-winning video director, photographer), Paul Raven (MINISTRY, KILLING JOKE, PRONG), Jim Root (SLIPKNOT, STONE SOUR), Cristina Scabbia (LACUNA COIL), Alex Grey (legendary psychedelic artist), Billy Gibbons (ZZ TOP), Leslie West (MOUNTAIN), Jamie Jasta (HATEBREED), Aaron Lewis (STAIND)!!

A new eBay auction from the people behind the Texan Crue fest (as far as I have understood it) have made and got it Vince sigend the Skylar banner!!!!
NO EXCEPTIONS.FOR THE ULTIMATE COLLECTOR OF VINCE NEIL AUTOGRAPHS. This ONE OF A KIND 3" x 4" custom leather and vinyl handmade tapestry was created by designer Kevin Sockwell of American Drag Seats for CrueFest Texas. It is being offered at auction and all monies raised will benefit the Skylar Neil Memorial Foundation. Skylar is Vince Neils's daughter who died of cancer at age four.This tapestry was personally autographed by Vince Neil at a private meeting before his concert in Dallas on November 15, 2006. Guaranteed authentic. I took the pics and the model is my daughter.Original artwork has been autographed by the designer and will be included in this auction. The art is of the tattoo Vince has on his chest in rmemory of Skylar. This tapestry is the only one of its kind a true collectors item. About CrueFest. CrueFest Texas June 16, 2007 at The Firewater, Dallas. "A Tribute to the past...to benefit the future!" Music fans organized Crüefest - a music event to benefit charity. An event inspired by good-will and the uncensored energy that Motley Crüe's music embodies. Since its inception in 2001, Crüefest has grown in audience attendance, musician participation, and dollars raised to benefit cancer research. Crüefest grows every year because of the dedication of organizers, sponsors, artists, and fans who plan, donate, and travel to make it happen. Proceeds from Crüefest Tëxas will go to the Skylar Neil Memorial Fund for Cancer Research. Skylar Neil is the daughter of Vince Neil (lead singer of Mötley Crüe) who's battle with cancer resulted in her death at age four. Event supporters share their money for a great cause at Crüefest, and artists donate their talent and time. We all share love and verve for every one of us whose lives have been transformed by experiences with fatal illness. Crüefest's continued success is testament to the strength and lasting power of the glam-metal-punk-rock phenomenon. Musicians under this wide and vibrant influence are recruiting the next generation of fans with every show. We at Crüefest know we are partly responsible for fueling the momentum of this edgy musical alliance.CrüeFest Tëxas will be held at The amazing Firewater Bar & Grill and is a 21+ venue.

Okay I guess a couple more diaries are gonna come up on here before christmas day so..... talk to you all later friends...
Chill!!!! Tx

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16th of December 200SIXX,
9:15PM CET
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Thats Right, After We Had the Site Removed We Received alot of Emails Asking For Its Return and Alot of People Were Missing The Site,So Back by Popular Demand Here it is..I Couldn't Recover Alot of Are old Content Like Bios,Discography,Ect,Not Sure if Thats Coming back or Not...If Anyone Has a Request That they Would Like to See on this Website please Contact Administration...Unlike Motley.Com This Website is Run for the fans And by the fans.You Can Become a Member of HitSquad by Joining Are Forum..Are Forum is a No Holds Barred Arena Similar to that of Metal Sludge!Our moderators do not play favorites or reply to whining requests to ban this person or that person! It's a very Motley place so enter at your own risk!
Does any of you guys know this mutha fucker? www.motleycruehitsquad.com ? No?? Well you should check it out. Its pretty cool. beem away fom the world wide web for a while.. but its on a return now and its hopefully here to stay this time. I like it. Got this in my inbox a good 45 mins ago "Sup Bro,Rude From HitSquad here...Just letting you Know i brought the Site Back...Went through some hard times and had to let it go awhile... " Guess what I said? "hell yeah brother .. back in business..." I think a few actually very few fans real and loyal honest dedicated fans are making their whereabouts go public. We have not much else than the god almighty Paul Miles in Aussie land and the official site(s)!!! So to hear this was on return made me smile. Welcome brother hope you stay arounf this time. Check it out brothers andsisters this bad dude even holds the respect and love for us sick fucks on loyalty.dk enoough to have us added as the featured website on his!!! THANKS A TON BRO!!! Respect.

Here is a new auction that is up and around I would so love to get this baby...
MOTLEY CRUE received aplatinum award from the Recording Industry Association of America (RIAA) for the sales of "Decade of Decadence.” RIAA awards (most commonly known as “gold record” and “platinum record” awards) are given to the artists for their sales achievements (a million copies sold merits a Platinum Award), and beautiful presentation plaques are traditionally given to music industry executives who the artists choose as instrumental in their success. You are bidding on a 100% official, beautifully presented RIAA platinum presentation plaque. The award was given to a high-level executive at MTV, who has generously donated this one-of-a-kind item to the Bid 2 Beat AIDS auction. There is also an acknowledgment of more than 50,000 sales of the home video for the album. The plaque is accompanied by a Certificate of Authenticity. The executive who originally received the plaque has personally signed the Certificate of Authenticity. Proceeds from this auction will benefit LIFEbeat - The Music Industry Fights AIDS LIFEbeat is a national non-profit organization dedicated to reaching America’s youth with the message of HIV/AIDS prevention. LIFEbeat mobilizes the talents and resources of the music industry to raise awareness and funds, and to provide support to the AIDS community. For more info on LIFEbeat check out www.LIFEbeat.org

Some concert venues and companies have had European talks about Supernova should they think of fulfilling the rumored tour 2007. Some have even said they dont want the band to play there course its (in short) bad shit. Auchh!! I cant believe it and especially not in these days where everything that brings in money normally is signed up for!!! Ohh well, not of my interests anyway. This is only short - quiet short there is a tiny work on the sitetomorrow as the webmaster and myself are gonan sit together for some hours and go some things through!! We will see what the end of the day will bring out. I think it could be rather interesting if cwe should come up with some new ideas or something. And I guess yo ucan check that out Monday maybe or Tuesday.... As said yesterdya in the world of the band itself after the now ended tour nothing is really ahppening. ONly things up and running were mentioned in the posting on here yesterday. Actually Tommy is in a promo instore in a good 5 hours from now in Cal. The MÖTLEY CRÜE drummer Tommy Lee will appear at Nordstrom South Coast Plaza in Costa Mesa, CA today, December 16 from 6:00 to 8:00 p.m., in the Savvy department. Tommy Lee will be appearing in support of his tattoo-inspired limited edition collection "Peoples Liberation for Tommy Lee" (PL for TL), an exciting extension of premium lifestyle brand People's Liberation. You'll take home a special gift with your purchase from the line (one per customer, while supply lasts). For more information, please see your favorite Savvy or The Rail sales associate. The limited collection consists of premium denim, hooded sweatshirts, and hats for both men and women. Deriving inspiration from Tommy's edgy tattoos and personal artistic taste, the collection fuses modern tailoring with an edgy, super sleek fit. Spreading his talents beyond the rock stage Tommy is intimately involved in the creative direction of the collection from graphics to fabrics to wash development. You go if you are near that ...If not well tough!! im not going either (tease) lol... later freakos!!!
Lee

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15th of December 200SIXX, End Of Tour N More Income
4:56PM CET
******************************************So the last date in the tour of the Aeroheas and Crueheads is over. It has been a carreer cool feeling for Sixx. One of the best three in hislife he sys? Well good for him. I did not like it at all. Then again I am not the musician playing with my heroes anyways so what the fuck. So NOW it has officially begun. The silence. For a long time to come. Its over and done with the massive merch release and the much worrying for many what can be done about getting the money for the shows and all thats available. Plus what to expect next since a lot of fans thought the Crue were on a shitty path with the way things were sounding and all on this fall outdoor touring. I am one of them. I had many questions. I rarely got them answered. So it is a huge undescribeable hard time to go through for someone like me. In all honesty looking back I think it is actually amazing that I got nothing taken away from me during that time. Meaning about my passion. That it not loose a little bit. But now I know the answer to that weird shit too. I am in too deap. I hold it too close to my heart. Its stronger than a relationship between a girl and myself. Or so it feels like. I have been asked about my situation on that too. Well keep guessing folks. Thats just a thing that is totally irrelavant to this posting for sure. While sitting here the laundry and shit is spinning in the washing machine and I am about to get a few daily ordinary and boring stuff cleared out of the way. While doing that i remember back as you can perhaps feel from above?

I think I am about as close to a highly risky move asI can get in a financial sence that is. I love to do and get shit done win some BAD WANTS to get added to my collection and I am still ready as long as I am not taking anyone with me (family, girlfriend and others) I am willing to really risk all I own for things I really want so its cool. Or not... depends on who you ask. Aks me and I say "Sure....Ill give it all up for these items you offer me" Ask anyone else they would say "The T dude is insaine. he is givin up STILL all his fucking belongings and risking health and life greats for dead shit to own that more than likely only goes in to a box in a corner of a room in his appartment" You figure it out. I gave up a long time ago ... just stopped to focus on what it is all about for me.ANd trust me that takes a monsterous bite out of me too. My grave stone should read "LOYAL CRUEHEAD" only!!! Fuck name dates and all.. just that. I have a line of shit to get handled over winter and hopefully get over my huge America dissapointments and all. I only want not to get another job work like an ant (HARD LONG) and get huge paychecks to get huge collectibles and then not much else untill summer 2007. Sounds boring? nahh its all cool. I know why I do it or would do it if I found a job. Trust me!!! In the meantime while I go take a piss you cam have fun with the latest official diary note from SIXX;
"December 14th, 2006
TONIGHT WAS THE LAST NIGHT OF THE AEROSMITH/MOTLEY CRUE-ROUTE OF ALL EVIL TOUR.THE AEROSMITH GUYS HAVE BEEN THE EASIEST BAND TO TOUR WITH IN OUR CAREER.NO DRAMA, NO COMPETITION.WE ALL HUNG OUT TOGETHER AND HAD A BLAST.ILL MISS THEM AND I KNOW THEY FEEL THE SAME.THEY ASKED ME TO PLAY *HELTER SKELTER * ONSTAGE WITH THEM TONIGHT AND IT WAS A DREAM COME TRUE. ( NOT TO MENTION WE KICKED SOME FUCKING ASS…..))
IM SOOO PUMPED RIGHT NOW THINGING BACK ON ROCKING UP THE STAGE WITH MY HEROS…THANK YOU GUYS…FIRST THE STONES,NOW AEROSMITH,I COULD CALL IT A DAY AND BE A HAPPY MAN AS FAR A HANGING OUT AND PLAYING WITH MY CHILDHOOD HEROS.

I PERSONALY CAN SMELL THE FINISH LINE, LIKE A HORSE HEADING FOR THE BARN, THE LAST FEW DAYS ITS LIKE IM ALREADY HOME IN MY HEAD.FOR ME, THIS HAS BEEN THE HARDEST YEAR OF MY LIFE IVE EXPERIENCED IN ALMOST AS LONG AS I CAN REMEMBER.GOING THRU A DIVORCE DURING A TOUR IS ANOTHER LEVEL OF STRESS I DON’T WISH ON ANYBODY.BUT WE GET THRU WHAT WE HAVE TO GET THRU AND NOW ITS TIME TO FOCUS ON THE MOST IMPORTANT THINGS IN MY LIFE, MY CHILDREN AND MY SOBRIETY.SOMEONE ASKED ME HOW I DIDN’T GO INTO A DOWNWARD SPIRAL AND I TOLD THEM BECAUSE IT ISNT AN OPTION ANYMORE IN MY LIFE.

IM EXCITED TO GET BACK INTO PHOTOGRAPHY AND WILL POST PICS WHEN I GET THEM.PAUL BROWN AND MYSELF WENT INTO SOME BACK ALLEYS HERE IN VANCOUVER AND GIANED THE TRUST OF SOME LOCAL DRUGS ADDICTS.THEY ENDED UP AFTER TIME ASKING US IF WE WOULD PHOTOGRAPH THEM GETTING HIGH AND WE DID. (A FEW OF THE PICS ARE UNDER FOTO-REALITY ON MY PAGE) DAYS LIKE YESTERDAY AND TODAY ARE REMINDERS HOW GOOD WE HAVE IT, EVEN WHEN WE FEEL LIKE OUR HEAD IS TO THE GRINDSTONE.
GOD BLESS

IM HEADING INTO THE CREATIVE UNDERGROUND FOR A WHILE,HOPEFULLY TO RESURFACE RECHARGED AND READY TO COME OUT SWINGING. HOW LONG?HOW EVER LONG IT TAKES…………..YOU JUST GOTTA ROLL WITH THE PUNCHES,ITS ONLY LIFE…
NIKKI SIXX"

Now another thing I think is fucking awesome to have had is the now upfor auction FAMILY SIGNED Gene Simmons Collectors box of "Family Jewels"
Would have loved to have that one. But not fucking paying the bucks its up at, 350 plus dollars with still 5 days to go. Give me a fucking break. Yet still cool I admit that. Shit just read the text to go with the auctions. Yes there are a few of these babies set up:

"You are bidding on a rare AUTOGRAPHED Collector's Edition DVD set for the 2006 A&E real-life series Gene Simmons Family Jewels. Take an unprecedented look into the life of a rock-n-roll icon. Includes a must-have for any Gene Simmons or KISS fan - two previously unreleased, never-before-heard songs from Gene! Only TEN sets have been signed and made available for auctions to benefit the Elizabeth Glaser Pediatric AIDS Foundation.
AUCTION DETAILS
Rare AUTOGRAPHED Collector's Edition 3PK DVD set for A&E’s Gene Simmons Family Jewels.
One of only TEN kits signed by Gene Simmons for benefit auctions.
Signed by the entire Simmons Family, including Gene, Shannon, Nick, & Sophie.

3 DVD's / 385+ Minutes Includes two previously unreleased, never-before-heard songs from Gene.
Faux leather hard-bound photo album with family photos and captions written by Gene.

Halleluja!!!! No I will not get that one. Will get the boxset though .. yet again not till next year. Sadly. Its coming to Corinna as the last thing this year I guess before her moving and all. Out of the bible belt headng to California. Now.. another eBay auction is up. cant really think of the seller from the ID but it says "Heavy solid silver necklace custom made for Nikki Sixx with Motley Crue logo and skull-engraved with Nikki Sixx's name under skull." Has a 15.000 dollars amount starter.. FUCK!!!! Thats a line of cash there baby. No, dont think this will sell. It could easerly be SIXX himself seling from one small detail only. How ever I cant tell you which!! There have been a lot of Sixx auctions on the net over the last year and a half. I guess there have been some things out there from his house that are paid good money for and other shit that to me in mymind has not been worth half the amount they sold for. There will be more. no doubt about it. 2007 returns with more auctions. I guess a lot of things now have found their ways to hapy fans. Some winners of these things are truely idiots in my mind treating their shit so very bad its fucking ripping my heart out. But who and what the fuck am I to judge others on theeir hard earned money theyspend on these things? its sick. But thats just my opinon. Okay thats about it for me this Friday evening. I have a good load of things to do this weekend so .....
I may not fully return till sometime next week. But there should be stuff done on the site(s) on Sunday. Just dont know how much just yet. Keep it clean my friends. Dont do things I wouldnt do... then again that isnt much!!! Also be careful what you wish for it may come true. Hell yeah.....Your dude ... the dane!!

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14th of December 200SIXX, More Gold From the Past
4:45PM CET
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Thursday, a weird kind of day in many ways. here goes a list ,.. I have started getting sick again. Fucking shit!! The computer has something shitty I cant get rid of. Corinna mailed me this morning saying "we wont talk chat or nothing unless there is something on mind and we do it by phone course the moving and a lot of xtra work will keep me busy off of time to do things for you and off of the PC." So thats the first time in 2 years we have this kind of situation. So weird... once you get used to something you really appreciate it truely is hard to let it go when it still means something to you and you still in one way or another care for what ever it is. just weird. Plus I also have started some contact to one near Copenhagen and there is PC trouble and illness there too so we wont talk for some time either .. man feels like waking up on the wrong side of bed. Not at all attractive. Damn....

On a good note.. the dude from the past Michael from Coffmann and Coffmann have mailed more answers and I am for all truely greatful. This is a dude I wish I had known way earlier and been way closer with!!! Ohh well I am scum and I have no other choice than to say this is what it is and I shall just bow say thank you and appreciate his liking of my ass. Not litterally though. I think he likes me. I might be some what different than most fans and he can sence it. he told me ones anyway. Are you ready for more golden eggs and stories from the man who lived the shit we all only dream off?
Here it goes;

Tommy: Did you never get close to try look the band up again in 82 or something and work with them again?
Not really. Shortly after I quit there was the ill-fated Canadian tour, then the Electra signing, then Coffman's firing and the Santa Monica Civic show where they met Doc McGee.
Looking back if I had any brains at the time I should have contacted McGee and basically asked for a job. That probably would have been easy. It wouldn't have even been a matter of money as I was doing pretty well at the time with other things. The guys would have vouched for me and from what I've read/seen about him, McGee and I would probably have gotten along well. (Never met him)

Tommy: It seems you wanted and certain band members wanted what KISS had and was all about back then - is that true?
Let's put it this way... Fourth of July is my favorite holiday. (Next to Halloween of course) I love fireworks and a SHOW. I feel if people pay their hard-earned money for a concert ticket they deserve their money's worth. A spectacle, not just four or five guys standing on stage in jeans and flannel shirts playing music (unless they're the Eagles or a similar band). Motley gave the crowd that spectacle even in the early club days with lighing and costumes but when I was pushing for pyro Nikki kept nixing (no pun intended) it as he said 'If we can't do it 110% right we're not going to do it at all. We're getting too many KISS comparisons as it is.' All we ever had during my involvement was the stageing (Tommy's riser, the amp scrims, etc) some fog and strobe lights. As usual, Nikki was right. W.A.S.P. did it back in the day and in retrospect, especially after the Great White fire I'm amazed I'm still alive. Youtube.com some early W.A.S.P. videos at the Troubadour and you'll see what I mean.

Tommy: As you started Shamrock did you ever hope Crue would come in??
Actually yes. Tommy was the only one who ever came in, always with Althena Flynt, Hustler magazine publishers wife. Great lady with a bad habit. To this day I believe she was the one that turned the guys on to the needle. She liked her little rocker boys (and girls)

Tommy: You have been there for all the big Hollywood bands before they made it. Why did you not start working with GNR?
It just was in between the lines that something awesome between you could have been?
In between the lines is a good way of putting it.

Tommy: As of today 2006 do you have any contact with any of these bands and members?
Only Tommy and that was three years ago when I ran into him at the Rainbow. It was the same day that the Malibu Judge released him from his successful probation (It was on the evening TV news) for hitting Pam. Details in the book, it was very friendly yet brief. For what it's worth that night he was squeekly clean and sober, just drinking soda. Tommy's a good guy, just never grew up I guess. LOL.

Tommy: Did you after all this hoola hoop continue to do drugs?
Yes and no. I was never that into drugs, never an addict. Maybe a line or two at night. I kinda gravitated to my old crowd of friends which was different from the music folks, but there was a heavy coke (don't laugh, high end disco clubs) scene there too which I can't say I didn't enjoy on a limited basis. Fun while it lasted, I haven't even seen the stuff in fifteen years. (Well, there was that one time LOL) I don't even drink hard booze anymore, just wine.

Tommy: What do you know about the Nikki childhood.. .what did he tell you? What was he willing to talk about?
One thing comes to mind. Apparently he lived with his Mother (Grandmother?) in a public welfare apartment complex in Seattle, Washington. He would watch this neighbor kid who was retarded spend hours each day on the community playground riding the merry-go-round. Hence the inspiration for the song years later.

Tommy: what back then was perpaps each Crue members biggest secrets?
Not a secret, but a funny story Nikki once told me. It was Halloween night in Hollywood and they had been partying at the Rainbow and Whiskey for hours. As hundreds of people in costumes paraded the Strip, Nikki passed out in the gutter by Tower Records. When he came to, he looked up and saw ghouls and devils and all sorts of weird shit and thought 'Oh my God, I've died and gone to Hell.' Then he remembered that it was Halloween. LOL.

There you go my friends more gold from a man in action. Thanks again Michael..its seriously awesome and the memotries you have and a trip down your own memorylane with all the shit I throw at you dude. Thanks a lot for the constant doing sharing and all. It is this coming weekend also gonna be written in stone if I will get the Nikki Sixx Heroin photoshoot used boots Sixx was givin from Donna. Love to have em and try to get em signed sometime too. Its all awesome. There are a few things in the mail these days too. And there have arrived some few things too. Not gonna add those till I have a little more thats already in the mail so I let you all in on that what it is and when that happens later on alright? Thanks.

I am also hoping for things to not fuck up for me on the matter of getting the late Decemebr and January things looked in on. I am trying to sit back most possible and not really do too much hasty shit so things can become bad lol. Seriously I hope things are al lcool as this year rings out.. Talk to you later my dear freaks...To all my missed ones out there I dont get to see much these days .. I miss the crap out of you and I hope you havent fully forgotten about me either.... If so sit on it and pump it bastards.. lol lol lol. Your hopeless T.

Mcrueloyalty.dk

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13th of December 200SIXX, Crue Birth From Satans Ass Of Salt Lake
3:48PM CET
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While the attitude of attitudes rolls out the loudspeaker on a wednesday afternoon home in the devils backyard of this shitty hell hole of a town I get to meet new shit stinky cool fucks every week. Latest sexy "sixxety" of satans smeely ass of a dump town in Salt Lake US. For fuck sake I meet these shit cool people all over and the next thing would have to be me getting one of them for more private involvement. I can not go with a so called ordinary. Or canI? I have tried it before doesnt work. Then as they are all ruled out the rest are kind of nutty and really doesnt work either. I have in the end as it is right now my musical passion ONLY as a steady thing in my life. So the other dream just has to wait a while again.. But "Sixxety" has started a new MySpace page today and she is gonna refine and work on it for some time to come .. pretty neat. You gotta check it out. To get a short and quick inside look on what she is all about in the Crue world here are a few things "Sixxety" said about her Cruecial visions and wants. Here is a little something on it from the girl herself; "WELL MY MOM GOT ME INTO THE CRUE AND SHE HAS BEEN A FUCKING CRUE HEAD SINCE ABOUT 85 AND THEN SHE JUST PASSED IT DOWN TO ME. SO THAT IS WHY IM A 2ND GENERATION CRUE HEAD 4 LIFE. NOW MY MYSPACE IS JUST FOR CRUE HEADS TO KICK BACK AND LISTEN TO SOME KICK ASS MOTLEY OLD SCHOOL AS WELL AS NEW SCHOOL STUFF.

How did you react to Crue firt time you hard them?
MY FIRST TIME WAS WHEN I HEARD SOS COME ON THE RADIO AND I THOUGHT ''FUCK WHO SINGS THIS? I FUCKING LOVE IT SO I TURNED IT UP AND MY DAD WAS LIKE....UM? ''IT'S MOTLEY CRUE DUH!'' SO THAT SPARKED MY DIE HARD LOVE FOR THEM What is so cool about them for you? THEY ARE NOT FAKE PANSY ASS MAMA'S BOYS. LIKE ALL THE OTHER BANDS. IT'S FUCKING AWSOME THEY DON'T TAKE SHIT FROM NO ONE. AND I RESPECT THAT Fave member - why? NIKKI FUCKING SIXX ALL THE WAY. CAUSE HE HAS A WAY WITH WORDS AND WRITING AND HE'S JUST TALENTED ALL TOGETHER Fave album - songs? Why? CARNIVAL OF SINS. IM STARTING TO LIKE THE LIVE STUFF NOW How are Crue givin you something in your every day life? THIER MUSIC JUST HELPS ME GROW EVERYDAY What is still cool about the band now 2006? THEY KEEP UP WITH THE GENERATION NO MATTER HOW THEY LOOK OR HOW OLD THEY ARE THEY ALWAYS HAVE A WAY TO REINVENT THEMSELVES Anything you would like to see them do they havent done? YEAH COME GO ON TOUR AGAIN.....SOON Your best Crue memory? HAVEN'T MADE ONE YET BUT WHEN I MEET NIKKI SIXX (I HOPE I WILL ON THEIR NEXT TOUR)THEN I WILL MAKE THAT MY BEST MEMORY Your biggest Crue dream? JUST MEET THE CRUE Having any Crue fans bonds that are special to you and why? UM? NOT REALLY EXCEPT FOR MY MOM AND MY FRIENDS WHO LOVE THE CRUE ALSO!!!
Link: http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=138121862

There you have it .Hell maybe we shoould ad a new section on here and start doing something new like ones a month or something post a lill something on a fan every now and then to let what its all about be the center of attraction? What you think? Could be something cool!!! Let me give that a thought or two and tqalk it over with my staff folks lol!! I ahve a few new things that have almost been made promises to me too pretty cool. Looks like I am now getting the merch from the June RockFest 2006 with Crue headlining the Saturday bill. Thats rather cool I ahve tried without luck for a long long time now to get just something from that event but no luck for so many months. Its insaine. I also have some other various shit coming already!! Its like christmas but sadly self paid and financed a long way ... so the only people that find it to be really christmas with my name attached would be the bank. Ohh dear not going there. Long and sad stories ... have enough of them just watch the bloody news. Its all bad and negative. why? Well I tell you why!! Thats how we are put together dudes or rather thats what we have become .... the human race is not interested in nice little every day sunny news stories. But tragic actions murder and natural disassters are highly wanted .Blod and shit uhhh we swallow it then!! Its a sick minded generation of people that have the globe in their stinky little hands these days. SICK!!!

I have also today gotten a note of the much wanted thing being backdrop and curtains from OOOOLLLLLDDDDD tours. I seem to be the one to add it to my personal collection in 2007 at sme time. FUCK ME!!!
And do it HARD!!! Good and long!!!!! God damn it . have no word what so ever for that little something. Just all over fucking exstatic about the idea that all of a sudden now its a far, far safer and more SURE THING
its gonna be mine. Now only one ingredience to go... MONEY baby!!!! And lots of it. Another thing is a package from THE MAN to work woth the band on tour .. no I will let him remain nameless...... a package deal there is gonna be up and on too!!! Shit cool stuff coming from there too... cant wait to see this shit coming!!! Its gonna go to a US address for a starter as the shipping taxes and shit would kill this one!! Further more there are so many ideas and future plans for me about things. In the name of Crue i have already booked most of 2007!!!! So heyyy there you have it. now its only hard work for it all to happen. Im cool with it. I gladly work for my shit to come true. There are a good few things thats been added this week already too... as always you get the latest in the top rolling banner and the little NEWS stars next to each section on the frnt pages... just click the links and you get right to it all.
Hell its gonna be a rough and well packed year too. Not too much travelling i dont think. but a lot of addings gaining and changes in my filthy little shitty excistence called LIFE!!!!
Its gonna be a road that will test my ass like it hasnt been in ages. There just has to be found some ways to create energy, possibilities and cash!!! The will the suffering and the other shitty needed ingrediences are there and they are ready to used. You all know me. I live this shit and I am gonna die before its taken away from me too. One thing that is not really worked on yet is gonna come under my wings next year too. New ass, new bitch, new toy, new jummi dummy!!!!! Like this here that is so far not even out of this world. Look at this fucking ass and (I know tyou cant see really) the legs on this baby is insaine. I have officially turned MAN!!! I dont give a fuck ... hate me if you like. I loose nothing .this dool is amking any living man from 12 to 80 sit back with a hard on!!! Fuck sencorship. Tell it like it is. Thats an ass and legs that just hmmm...
Next up dinner here, and then back to next step on all ongoing deals... Your personal hell boy!!!
Txx

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12th of December 200SIXX, Im Going Up Not Coming Down
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So the bastard turned one summer older. Fucker Sixx just wont die now will he? Hell never mind we love him ... most of the time .lol, lol sorry Sixxdog you fucker. I sit here with a good feeling on a Tuesday afternoon its been a few good days and I have more or less isolated myself from the world after working hours due to gain focus and energy to what ever comes next. One person in particulor or it would be fair to say TWO .... have been givon me that extra little nicely felt something. First and foremost my partner in crime Jesse.... yeah thats right!! He and I have talked like shitty little horny punk ass kids these past few days. He is up to his neck in work thats awesome for him I guess. Im pleased hearing this as he has had enough bullshit running his way lately. Great to hear dude. Just nothing like good times and positive energy. And you have gotten that back I think I can say right? I`ve missed his stinky bad ass smartness. We are so bad together its gonna be a dangerous something when we next year hit a night out together...we have already agreed and promised one another to get a CRUELOYALTY tattoo together tying the life long bond between us together for life. Its gonna be cool. So year next June its gonna be done. The inked brothers ...nahh just kidding .. then again I guess we are .. love the fucker to death!!!
The other one thats been making my days these past few is from a shitty little hell hole like mine in Denmark called Koege!!! Lena, so far thanks for some really nice talking and great vibes back and forth. You have made the every day living a little more fun. Youre too cool for ... well.... hmm!!! I hope the coming times will still hold this something thats there. Wonder whats gonna happen. But for sure, you are one of the rare. You just hold some really awesome thoughts, opinions and ideas bout things in life. Thats pretty fucking cool. lol... how odd "FIND MYSELF" just started on my PC thats set to shuffle mode. A sign? Well... if you believe in that crap. I believe this coming year for me will see new things if I want it bad enough. I have a mission or two and they are all holding things that could be a bright nicely appreciated future after all.. woops did I say that? Well, thanks Lena its awesome!!! Youre one in million in many ways, end of story!

I did not really cellebrate the hero´s b-day too much yesterday!! Could have been stronger but the music was on repeat shuffle mode so all the tunes blasted to their tribute to the 4 stringer. Hope you had a good day Sixxter. A miracle that nothing bad has happend to the band yet... two years on and still alright in the bonds across the four rockers. Nice to see. Now its an end for the tour and then up next comes Tommy`s Supernova crap. I am sorry dude but I just dont like it. Hate Lukas` voice and I think the music on the CD is non revolutionary and will quickly pass into the forgotten and not really being appreciated. I give it 8 months and then no more unless suprising new things comes to surface!!

On a more cooler note my old great pal buddy n highly appreciated rock n roll creature Michael whom you may know as being the right hand partner in and with the Coffmann Management in the early Crue days.
I have every now and then sent him questions and here are more with his replies received today!! I have before posted some questions and answers in on here and here comes a few more.. happy reading he is surely one with the coolest knowledge in the RNR book of hair shit history!!!

Tommy:The history books on Motley Crue has it that Mick was one staying pretty much for himself. Did you never have anything with him?
Well, Mick was surely the 'quiet one' not unlike George Harrison of the Beatles. He didn't have much to say often times, but when he did open his mouth, he actually said something if you know what I mean. I think it had a lot to do with his age, being older as well as his experience. He did to stay away from the Hollywood scene more than the other three, not entirely, but lived in the Marina area with his then girlfriend. If I recall correctly, most of his friends were bikers that he had met when he worked in a Harley shop rather than other musicians.
Interesting triva. My friend Bruce lived in the same condo building as Mick (after Shout was released) Bruce couldn't get his bike started one day in the garage and Mick, who he only knew to speak as a neighbor found the problem, a clogged fuel line I think and got him rollin'.

Tommy: Sounds like the "Motley house" was a place that was the frames for a lot of dirt. Of interest in their carreer and health why did you never say STOP to their thing they did. Drugs booze and all?
Well Alan did. At least until he himself became involved with the 'scene.' Mostly alcohol on Coffman's part but I've recently heard that he partook of coke too. I never saw it but it's possible. Remember in the book where Alan had the roadies beat the shit out of the boys dealer? That was in the VERY early days of Motley House.

Tommy: Ever had a talk to Nikki and them boys about the Wishbone Ash support of Europe? What did they say?
Not really, just that night at the resturant. I think that things had gone so far downhill between Coffman and the guys at that point they had a 'I'll believe it when I see it' type attitude.

Tommy: Was it a try to win trust of points again that Alan offered this Europe tour you think?
Yes. Absolutely. Although in fairness I truly believe that Alan thought it was going to happen.

Tommy: When did you hear Motley starting to talk about not being happy with Alan?
When Alan stopped showing up for rehersals at SIR studios and later it escalated when Nikki was in jail and Alan was nowhere to be found. (He was banging that fat-ass DJ) The it got much worse that New Years Eve at the Troubadour with David Lee Roth.

Tommy: The thing with Greenworld was that the best move for the band back then you think looking back?
Without a doubt. Greenworld was a good Company, good people. They had done well with Missing Persons and as far as I knew were very honest with us in the sales/accounting reports. Too bad they went out of business a few years later. Having said that, remember that the Greenworld deal was the only deal at the time.

Tommy: So you eventually did get paid all you were owed from the partnership?
Easy answer: No.
I didn't feel too bad though a few years ago when I sold my last un-opened copies of TFFL (original Leathur pressing) some tee-shirts and a few other goodies on Ebay.

Tommy: You were suprised that it ended up being Electra that took the band. You mention it course they had diff. kind of artists, were you worried the label would not do them right?
I felt that Electra was signing them not because they thought they'd be the next big thing, but just to keep other companies from getting them. That happens (happened) a lot in the business. Sign a band for a few dollars, keep them on your roster, if something happens big great, if not, no big loss. I couldn't see the Crue on the same label as the Eagles, Linda Ronstat and Steely Dan. All great artists of course, but Motley was certainly the first real hard rock act in their stable. In retrospect though, I was wrong. Electra did indeed put their full resourses behind the band.

Tommy: What label would you have liked to have seen taking them?
Warner Brothers. Or better yet Capital. A few months after the Crue/Electra signing Capital signed W.A.S.P. for more up-front money (adjusted for inflation) than they paid the Beatles in the '60s. Amazing, but the story goes that the top brass felt W.A.S.P. was the new KISS.

Tommy:The place in the hills that Nikki wanted to meet some specific girls (that had the drugs) with you at - think it was a place that was located on the corner of some place that had this long and tall stones made stairs up to a huge house..
That's the place.
Tommy: Who lived there. Or was it like the daughters of the place? Who lived there? (I drove by there last month but we could not park as there was heavy trafiic.. .so I never saw it for real....)
That was Houdini the famous magicians house. A strange fire burned down the original large house fifty or so years ago, all that's left are the stairs.
Interesting reading here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Houdini The large home across the street was rumored to be a Satanic cult 'boarding house' where people could come and study the black arts. I seem to remember (and I could be wrong, it might have been someone else) that it was Nikki that told me about it.

Thanks Michael for this, so far another inside scoop for the site and my knowledge and chapter to my Crue life....Thanks brother. You`re one of kind. Awesome knowin you.
We (Michael and I ) are both worried bout another dude in the californian area. The old original member of the White Horse. If you re not familiar with this band it is the pre-Crue band for Mick Mars. This dude have had long, long time contacts to Michael and far less but still appreciated contact with me too. You see we have had silence from him for many, many weeks now and are worried for his well being. I will let you know more should I get to find out whats going on there too brothers and sisters. Thanks.

We are getting things in in the mail these days so smaller stuff will be added here and there too... but the rolling top front page banner tells you whats new and where to find it so....
Just keep coming back guys. Things will be going on n off the rest of the year here!!! But a good few diaries with thoughts and shit still to be published for you all so you all can continue a travel through my Cruecial nutty brains of mine. Can be one scary ride though lol you have been warmned. no bullshit censorship here. Hell no... its all attitude honesty, openness, stiff dick and wet puss here. But thats the god damn way we love it... ask Jesse if you dont believe me (dont blame me single handedly!!!!) Now a toast to the loyal . cheers fuckers!!!
Your personal punk!!! Tommy

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11th of Decemebr 2000SIXX, B-day Sinister
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Happy
48th
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10th of December 200SIXX,
8:45AM CET
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Sunday bloody Sunday for ones its a nice bloody Sunday too. I am off today and it feels awesome. I so need to relax and not do too much. Hoping for only one thing today. Its a much thought about "Down Crue History lane" dvd I like ot put together and get out there with all these special places that they all lived at and did shit at and so on. The last 4 times i have been to Hollywood and the Los Angeles area we have gone around and done all kinds of things filmed and shot a lot of things. I think its time these things got put together nicely for a cool finished thing. I cant wait to have it in my hands ready for viewing too.

Crue is closing in in the last few shows for this tour and this year and then its a long long silent time for them beinga live band. Tomorrow is Nikki Sixx birthday and Corinna as well. They will be live on stage then at "Pengrowth Saddledome" in Calgary BC, Canada then. And on the 13th they end the tour at "General Motors Place in Vancouver, Canada....So I guess a happy birthday is in order for them both!! 31 and 48!!! There are not gonna be any Tommy, Corinna adventures and crue ongoings for a long long time. You see its a busy time financially and its a slow time when it comes to activities to go to. There is the up n coming Supernova tour. But I would not want to go. I still after such a long time dont like it. There is the Tommy clothing line that he has and every now and then show up at an instore for... not gonna collect that. Its a waste of money and nothing special at all. Then there is the Sixx clothing line and he too has his instore events here and there... havent really seen it all yet but ists damn high prices and I am not going to hit America for just that either. Then sometime next year is the new vince neil solo album andhis solo tour. I am not gonna do that either I dont think?? But I am not fully sure.He has an attitude as a solo artist that I dont appreciate what so ever. So yeah in short myfeet are not gonna be over ther for a long long time I dont think.
We ill see what happens!! I still hope for the requested stuff to get positive answers to about some buyings. And that means it is a well high amount that I once more have to find with in a good short period of time. We will as said see whats gonna happen.

On antoher account Mr. John Corabi`s ex-wife have recently like Sixx set up in agrement with john some of his old rock n roll clothing gear.Selling it to raise money for their sick kid that needs constant medication. Sad but okay life was never promised to be pretty I guess. But a good lot of the stuff have ben set up with reserve prices extremely high like a belt he had in 1994 1500 dolalrs. The Corabi dude is not that kind of an individual in the rock n roll business to have success with such high prices. Sadly not. Hope they decide to set their prices down so its helping all parties ....good luck John andsorry to hear about your kid.

On another note that has take its room on there the last quarter of the year KISS. I am unsuccessfully trying to sell my last KISS stuff. Its sick how hard it actually is!! I need the money for other Crue items and there have been a line of KISS interested people and they are just not too reliable. They have a lot of talk but not much of the walk if you know what I ean. Fuck!!! Sometimes thigs are just not as easy as they should have been!! Fucking weird. In a good 2 weeks the new Gene Family jewels box limited fan and collectors edition is coming bt to Corinna for me. Its gonan be well unknown when I will have the set here in denmark. Sucks ass. Next from the KISS men to gain for myself would be KISSvideology part 2 and the Gene box to come next year too.

Gene`s Monster the next 2007 bomb to be released. its gonna be a huge fucker.
It will hold a complete carrer spanding music trip from hom and its gonna be a MONSTER like the title of the box will be. Rain Keeps Fallin’ This demo was an early version of a song that was even considered for use on the “Psycho Circus” album. Several different lyrical versions of the song exist dating from around 1991 when the song was first demoed by Gene and members of Silent Rage prior to the “Revenge” sessions. One version has interesting lyrics such as “Burning crosses in my own back yard” and “My name’s on a cool headstone with a pretty rose.” This song and “You’re My Reason For Living” are scheduled to be included on a special bonus CD included with the “Collector’s Edition” of Gene Simmons’ Family Jewels DVD set from A&E. “Accompanying the songs is commentary from Gene — a letter describing the history of these two tracks and the thought processes behind their development. A required addition to the collection of any Gene Simmons or KISS fan, this DVD set should not be missed”

The Vince Neil Ink store has also since last time I was posting had its opening day on the world wide web. Part form what i aleady have and bought ther in Novemerb while standing in thestore, there are two new items I better get asap. The logo belt buckle its bad ass. its rock solid and its nicely made. Plus there is finally the tatoo artists working shirt buttoned front and its all cool Need that one too. Much much much more is coming. Including the earlier talked about jacket. So ... I know perfectly well where to throw my money at. have too many places alocations and people to take my cash for yet a good 3 years as it looks right now. You do the math. Its insaine. But I knew it would be like this should I at least TRY to get all there is and was and will come you know its hopeless to say its covered course its like impossible to do just that! But I am as i have been for the last 3 years giving it a damn hard and serioustry though!!

Alright guys .. there are new stuff added on the Tommy solo section posters and this n that check it out and I ll be with ya again soon...Love to ya all....
Practise hard sex, eat well and dont be a prick!! Fuck normalcy.....Lee

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5th of December 200SIXX, Stiffie Thoughts Xmas Wishes & Cool
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Think are nuts these days. Going nuts over the male needs in life thats not there .. you put two and two together and you get a dripping something. What the fuck. I am only human. rammstein and the Backstreet Girls are blasting my god damn stereo and I am all for wet kittens and rock n roll these days. damn!!! What the hell that may be my shitty christmas gift to myself. Rock n roll and some .....So how have you all been? Jesse is gonna get the last few probs covered on cam any day now then we begin to be on top of things for real. Well thats untill we have the next lot in ... things are coming in all the time. Either to "my" address in the states or here to Denmark. There is a good lot in the mai las I post this so... should be coming over the next few weeks. Always something. You know from how things have been going the last many months right? Like hell you have ... its a never ending rollercoaster ride isnt it?? Like fuck it is.

My buddy in Detroit attended the Gun N Roses show there a little while ago and with his passion for airbrushing he of course made himself a cool classic design vest and got it sold on the spot for a good amount of cash....he is a really missed and highly appreciated friend of mine. I miss him way too often for it to be healty. Had I been even closer I would have maybe been as luck as having gotten a christmas gift from the fucker... lol lol but heyy no santa finds me to have been this good all year. Its a blessing when one can actually do shit thats appreciated like this guy and jesse can. They make wonders and I envy them both. Really wish I had a chance to be the god of doings sometime. Its all cool I think. Love a lot of their shit. Its wild. You like KISS, Maiden, Crue, GNR, or what ever you turn to this dude DON ARMSTRONG E-mail-adresser: armstron.don@sbcglobal.net !!
he will do everything exatly the way you like it .. Down to every detial there is.... So dont think twice.. this dude rocks.. youre into KISS? he makes them fuckers look alive on canvas and jackets dude.

London LeGrand a well respected and missed frined in the Californian Holy Wood has finally also gotten the latest shit going. new band coming ... ROCKSTARS ON MARS he has just included the bass player of "ChrYst" so I for one am shit thrilled. I have hoped for his return for way too long. He is the shit and he is by far the cooler front man ....I say no names.. but he is. Love you London.... you fucking kick ass... Its gonna be fucking cool to have the man back on the rocking stages. I love to have these things going right. lets see if he can use his smarts to get the ball rolling the right hills. You go kill em London....As much as I have said it on here about the people and so called fans of motley that they are fucking sad news and a bunch of loud speaking ass wicking (is that even a word) bad mouthing fuckers constanly so damn negative, they should NOT have the knowledge of getting this news. But some do and they already bad mouth him and the name and well in short you name it. What the fuck is that? Jesus leave what you dont like alone ... its not a MUST to say all the crappy stinky shit people always let out on there. Thats why I think boards are way too often a bad thing. Its a snap of the fingers and you are fucking bathing in shitty issues and comments. And trust me there is no way out. It stinks!!! Welcome back London.!!!! Love you brother .....

Nikki Sixx Autographed Stage Boots
This auction brought to you by SWAGROX the official store and auctioneer for The OFFICIAL WEBSITE FOR NIKKI SIXX is for a exclusive Autographed WORN stage Boots from Red White and Crue and COS Tours. Both boots are signed on the toe in black marker by Nikki himself. Boot are New Rock - 591 - Black with Dark Silver Flame size european 43.. size 10 US. This is a rare opportunity to buy a real collectable item WORN and SIGNED BY NIKKI SIXX! And to help the Kids of Running Wild in the Night. Motley Crue bassist Nikki Sixx founded The Running Wild in the Night Foundation, which is dedicated to raising funds for Covenant House. Covenant House is the largest privately-funded childcare agency in the United States providing shelter and service to homeless and runaway youth - So the Nikki boots that was taken off of eBay last week is up and back again. Its all cool. still 5 days for it to end so you have christmas self pitty and money you go get them. I would had I had the cash. But there are things out there offered I wanna try to go at!! I need to at least try. These items can kill these worn stage boots by the Sixxster many times over. Hope I will manage to get the shit.

I will be back here shortly if not before then Thursday or Friday with more news and updated items in the various sections here.
-Love you all and as always I myself and jesse thank you endlessly for your kind support. Its well worth it. Thanks a lot...Tx

Sick my duck honey no matter how much you try
Sick my duck to the day I die
Sick my duck honey think of apple pie

Sick my duck honey till the day you die
Sick my duck honey please dont ask me why
Sick my duck honey uummmmm thats good

Sick my duck honey !!!!!!!!!!

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3rd of December 200SIXX, Misunderstood & Ho Ho Ho`s
12:21PM CET
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I think its time for me to say it again. I have for the best oart of my life. Been misunderstood. And by one that I like to think is close to me she had been totally misunderstanding me recently.
I think it is with great irritation these days that this ones again comes to surfase. Ton of blaming and shit because one dont understand a person. Then sure its easier to label the fucker and just blame him or her. What the fuck is that all about? Have some interest and a little bit of patience and ask the person about whats up instead of accusing the one. God damn it fucker. I have so had it with all that bullshit.
Yeah yeah its December and santa has officially entered the month to ring out the year later on and ring in the holidays. Well this year for my sake you can take your santa and your holidays and send it all off with a one way ticket. I am so full of peoples bullshit. Christmas has oficially been cancelled ho ho ho. Why is it I always am expected to be and do so and so and so.....but hen I do it in return to the people that asks of me then I am givin hell? Okay thats all on that matter - I hope you all out there reads this and tink a little before you label me fuckers. It is not even with one week no more that these shitty things seem to hit me. I am so not satisfied with this and I feel more and more that I am not really happy on this planet they way the people have it shaped. I am so against the masses and I am .. ohh dear. I should not really say all this it makes no difference and all there is about it when listed here is a negative posting.

The site has been givin us some major problems recently. There have been weird stuff posted in our KICKSTART section from some one out there. We think that that can be the reason for the problems so for a little while we are gonna ask you to send your guestbook postings to : bellajes@msn.com or lee@tdcspace.dk !!! Sorry bout this.. but we have to do something ot make this site functional since somebody out there wanna give us problems. I ask kindly for your patience. Sorry for the trouble. As you may have seen there are a ton of things out there that can so easerly fuck up what you are doing and it sucks. Well we wont give in and its being worked on. Hopefully tonight we will have a continued adding of guitar picks some Supernova stuff and such things. We have almost gotten through evertything and we have handed you all a new look. A colourful cool I think, how about you? Pretty cool eyy?

Jesse - hmm my good buddy Jesse ...I begin to only have one thought about him. he and I should see each other face to face much more than whart we do. We are so alike in ohh so many ways. I know he has been busy and he has been a little over the top of bad luck and crap. But he has dedicated time to get it looked at and the man is better. he has still some stage probs photos to get around to. It will come and we all look ofrard to the addings for sure. I know its something a few peolpe have asked for and mailed me personally about and i thank you for the interest and comments. I know it is truely making the personal section a monster these days. Give the man a few more days and I think he may be able to get around to have the last pictures for you. Jesse is better and he is gonna be with us here shortly. I am hopeful for the impossible to happen next year. I will know in a good week or so. There is a small chance that I may be able to get the original backdrop fromthe US leg of the 1985 Theatre Of pain tour. The huge Alister one. And the original red curtains to front the stage with the band logo from the Girls Girls Girls tour. I would really love to have these items. Its sick how cool they would be to have in a private collection. I have made my offer and I will know in a good few days I guess. You see I have so much right now its insaine (again) and I have so totally no money. I need a serious make over both me as an individual but also my home. Everything needs to be traded in for something new. Man everything I have and everything I own needs that. But all I do is spend on them 4 men.

I hardly eat right. I have had lots of bad feelings due to bad eating and more. Trust me I am almost like in a self destruction fase the way I am doing this every day living. It is so shit far from being healty. But I seem to not really give a shit. All I care for is to get some things added and some holes closed in the collection that is but so dear to me. It is not a thing to fuck with for me or to take lightly, Fucjk the none believ ers and the ones to give me shit about the none understanding for this that I do. I wish I had a chace to ...well let that be left as a thought only..

There has been yet another SIXX auction up on eBay. Sixx boots worns on stage last year. But eBay has their weird policies and all and they ended the auction and killed the listing. Swagrox.com have had no understanding for this crap and they are relisting it again next week. So for al linterested parties look in there next week again. It will be back on. There have also come to sufase for me an offer onthe totally missed ROCK FEST in june 2006. I never went and there for never got the festival items there are a shit load of shirts from that festival. A few new things have actually been up in the air too about more stage probs fromthe guy that sold me the first lot. But this time its more minor things like guitar stands drum parts and shit like that. Sure it would be cool to get the remains he has but money money monye . must be funny... in the rich mans world!!!! And that world is not mine. Lets just see what we can do about it all if the curtains and the backdrop goes through then the rest of the probs can be going through later on too I think. We will have to see. I have a lot of shit to clear .. so I am ready for a sucker punch of a shitty job to gain some cash and kill whats wanted. And kill whats needed.

I have a lot ot clear and get in gera in the new year to come. I so only need to be active and put all my personal goals and dreams a side since they are not gonna be fullfilled no mre. At least not for a long time. So I have almost givin up on that and now its time to just take something shitty and just do something money wise. I am just gonna wing it and see where it all takes me I guess. I only wanna be alive if I can have my fucking rock n roll. Or get to meet the girl of ones dreams. But thats a task I dont believe in so .... im stuck with my rock n roll.
Suck it !!! Off - T dude

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28th of November 200SIXX, Has Pam Got Shit For Brains? New Deals?
5:00PM CET
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"PAMELA ANDERSON has filed for divorce from husband KID ROCK after less than four months of marriage. The couple married in a lavish "celebration ceremony" aboard a yacht moored off St Tropez, France on 29 July (06), but made it official when they returned to the US and wed at the Beverly Hills Courthouse. Anderson, 39, has hired famed celebrity divorce lawyer NEAL HERSH, whose clients include KIM BASINGER, HALLE BERRY, DREW BARRYMORE and DENISE RICHARDS, and cites irreconcilable differences. Anderson's representative TRACY NGUYEN tells American publication People, "Pamela filed for divorce last week. It wasn't a happy Thanksgiving." Earlier this month (NOV06), Anderson miscarried what would have been her and Rock's first child together. She has two children - DYLAN, eight, and BRANDON, ten - from her marriage to rocker TOMMY LEE. According to entertainment website TMZ.com, the couple did not have a prenuptial agreement, but because they were married for such a short time, it probably will have little impact on the divorce proceedings. Anderson is currently in Vancouver, Canada filming BLONDE AND BLONDER with DENISE RICHARDS."

So it got out this too huhh? Well wupdee do muther fuckers. has she got shit for brains? Does she have to fuck and marry every male that looks her way? Get a grib chico!!! Its a farse. Its a bloody joke. How can this not be? Admit it both of you. Tommy and Pam, just get back together and stop making shitty scenes for the papers. Behave and live good. For god sake. When will this Pam news be old news? Does she really have to turn 80 before people and magazines starts to loose interest? Damn....Well T-bone she is available and if youre lucky you could manage to become married again before new years. What do you say? Tempting? Or is it more fun to bang every pussy nation wide and just dont care? No I am not pissed about the news .. I find it just so absolutely hysterical. All males should have an alarm going ones getting close to Pamela. Fuck her? Yeah dude, who wouldnt? But marry her? Hell no, not in a million years. Are men really this fucking stupid? Guess so. Give us nice ass and titties and we all jump to your saying. For a while anyway. Till the meat is everyday news then fuck it ...loose interest and just dont care. Ohh well....

Have ones again had a talk going with the good friend of mine and recently the suplier of the stage probs. He has more to offer me. He has more to let me have if I can get a solution to the financial side of it. I am so amazingly thankful for his doings. But I am also on the shitter with what is coming and going around of offers and the chances to garb the lots. I really dont have too much to do with I need a new job after new years. I really do. This is not working. By far its not. I should ahve an answer to this for myself, him and you all at the end of this week. I simply have too much going right now. So sorry to have all these long term things going. but that has most of my life also been the case when it comes to offered cvollectibles. Have a constant flow going with more than one two three or more people going all the god damn time. Never has been any different. So yeah its creepy at times I guarentee tee you.

Talked to my swedish friends Mattias and Pearl yesterday. They are going to the beaches and the sun next year early for escape from winter and shit. I have and will never ever have a romantic doing like that with any one no more. I envy that like nothing else. I guess christmas is cancelled for me this year for a line of reasons. The only holiday I have my entire life loved to cellebrate for I found it to be warm and sharing with only nice atmosphere .That ended this year. I am not gonna do anything on that. I have tried a little too hard to find it to be worth it no more. I am totally fine with it. I miss the right reasons for cellebrating it so this year I am not gonna. Instead I am givin myself some cool collectibles if things goes right and say santa can stick his ho ho hos up where the sun doesnt shine. I am anti christmas this year. So there really isnt that much else to look forward to this year part from if corinna should send something off from her place thats mine anyway. I am not really gonna make a big fuss about things just let the last part of this year slip by and enjoy the cold winter days. Thats my time of year. I love it. Sadly I miss more snow than what we have here. But who knows maybe this winter will be different? More snow? I am only hoping things will be fine and go right. By the way my finnish friends in Private Line have gotten back to me and there is a package on its way down to me from the cold Suomi!!! I love to get to see them again. One day somewhere. Also the boyfriend of one certain webmaster has returned home so please bare with me. She is not the most reliabe person on planet earth as he is home so....

But a lot have been added as you can see and sadly we have bumbed into some new unseen shit ... our text in the link buttons online begins to dissapear on us sadly it sucks. I apologies for this shit and I promise you she will look in on it and figure the shit out. Of course none of this shit should be messing with the coolest website on the world wide web on our boys. My younger brother is coming by me tomorrow for a good couple of days so that will also bring some light to situation as he is the one that deals with my audios and videos. I know we have a few things to get around as he comes here too. Also there are a good few things that I like to get fixed and there is hopefully some time with the webmaster tomorrow to getthings on here again so things can be packed away from here. i don have a home saving all unadded things in piles all over around here. You know what I mean dont you?

I really have a good few conceerns about things. Corinna called me yesterday too. i know you all probably hate me when I say A and dont finish with B. But I simply can not say what I was told I was just all together chocked. Wonder when and what I will hear from her again. Jesus Corinna, get real. C`mon. What the hell? Also need to know a few things from her about certain things before I can get on with what I have started here too. Ahh I should not have opend up on that one it all makes absolutely no sence to you out there sorry bout that. Hope to have good news for myself and for you out there at the end of this week as said!! Right now i cant say there is much else to win over other than thoughts that right now are but prayers for a good and positive perhaps even supriseing outcome to it all. I will be back Friday on here I guess hope to have heard from both then. Cruecial loyalty to you all...

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27th of novemebr 200SIXX, Got A Minute? Whats UP?
3:03PM CET
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Another week and a last week before December knocks on every one`s door. Hell Christmas seems to be coming early this year. Its not a suprise only I never fully realized that I needed to hurry up so badly with things like i do. There have been so many things around me that has and have had deadlines line hell. Some I have turned down. Some I have ignored and otheres have been agrred to but yet to be future doings to also. And finally some I have just grabbed a hold of and said FUCK it. It has to be dealt with. Like a few things on and about the sites. As some of you may have notised. There are a few changes and here are a huge pile of added stuff in the collection section. Also there has been givin birth to a few new ideas like the search page. Many often asks for where to find this and where to find that. I hope the "Search" page will kill all your wonders and concers. Lol. have fun.

Most of all the stuff is now up and added to the various sections of things and collectibles on here. A few things are missing still things are in the mail on its way to me and more. So It is a constant flow and incoming on this one. I said it before and I will again - Motley is my life not a hobby. Right now I only hope and pray for my partner Jesse to come around and be and feel better. If you have read his recent diary you knew what I am refering to. Thanks. he is the brother in this I think I have been missing. The gang was sadly never what I want edit to be and my biological brother . ohh boy. he did the best thing for himself. Ended collecting while ahead so to speak. Yet he is extremely helpful in getting me stuff that is highly sort after and I htnak him deeply for all of it.

I have in Jesse what I so hoped to have in Corinna. She MENS AND PROBABLY WILL FOR A LONGER TIME than whats good for me - be a really important person in my life and crue doings. How ever she never really managed to give in and be the part of the "brotherhood" and more like I have with the Boston dude in Jesse. I still love her for all we share and all she more or less always does for me. Jesse get better brother. I miss you and our talks. I am kind of suprised to see how much I myself is able to do and how many shitty beatings I take like constantly and always gets back up and stand loyal to my musical passion. Ohh dear here we go again. I will spare you guys.

As you have perhaps noticed the old and much talked about stage probs are finally getting added on here too. Its been a long, long hard road to make all that shit happen. But now i think its about time to have all this crap listed. Thanks for the patience. i knwo there have people with doubts to if I really did have it or if I was just kind of loking for the attention. Well the answers are listed on the .Dk site under "Looks" and then "personal" and thats that!!!

Also yesterday late night I got a really cool suprise my newly found latest friends of Belgium have been writing me. (Thanks Davy) I love these kids. Hope that afternoon and evening in Atlanta, GA was the start of a long beautiful friendship. they are KISS idiots like I used to be. They are I think... (??) trying also to help me get some Motley Crue items to add to my collection. And there are already now some shit down there they say I have not on my list on this site so .. they maybe can help me get more soon? I love them. Some really dedicated guys just the kind I like to get to know much more. One has been and still is a photographer at rock concerts. I am sur if you have any fave bands you collect or something this dude can help you. he may sell you some shit awesome ones. I dont know you can try reach him at: Davy Cleenewerck davy.cleenewerck@pandora.be tell him tommy Lee sent ya. Guys if you read this heres my big warm arms around you. Warm winter hugs. I miss you guys dont be strangers now you hear me?? Love you lads.

We are trying to make a few more changes on the sites and next week will hold a few more addings. Hopefully the last of the stage probs and a good 20 new audio and videos more. And some minor stuff.
So its not really over with the adding yet. Or to be more frank with you it never will be. Not till I actually stop collecting. And that happens when.... yeah right!!! There are more coming as said. stuff for the sections of CDs, Personal, Posters, Passes, Picks, Tour Itineraries, Magazines, and more. Its all in the works or in the mail. Sit tight and come back to see us. Remember werre loay l to you all loyal to the band. And for the Belgiums - dont forget us now. Love you Tommy Lee

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25th of Decemebr 200SIXX, Closing Another Month With New...
10:23AM CET
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SO we are closing in on the final month of December of yet another year. Fuck me if we dont get old before time. Time just fucking flies away like I dont know what. It is insaine. I myself am closing November with a lof of new added stuff on this site and yet a few more new ideas brought to life. We are right this very day working on a "search" section that should make it a helpful detail for finding what you are looking for on here if it has been listed anywhere. It, being the site(s) are beginning to be so big now that even our fucking webmaster cant find things no more. Then its really about time to get our selves one of these things.

Seven more dates to go and some of them are in Canada then the "Route Of All Evil" tour is history. Thank god. That was a really hard one for me to swallow. I did rarely enjoy that tour, but now the boys can sit back do what they should do at this point redraw from Crue and do other things get fresh air so to speak then next year come together for the movie and the new album to be made. Thats all. THE YEAR HAS SO FAR BEEN EXTREMELY FULL OF DELAID SHIT. Nikkis book, the action figures set two, the Corabi book, Vince solo album and much much much more. Wonder if and what of it al lwill never see the light of day. 2007 can only be a better year. Not that this one has sucked ass. More like so much bullshit has been thrown around and there has been so many twisted actions taken from a band member (not just one) through ou the year and now its just time to jump off the Crue wagon for a while or they become a joke.
((Private Line & KISS - sæt et billede på hver af texten i mint blå så txten ligger i midten ))
There is also a new release (thought I just had to mention this) of the band of Finland / Suomi that is in my link section PRIVATE LINE .... you should get it. Its good. Love these guys and I miss them a lot we have not talked much for quiet some time now. KISS also have released their new 4 Live disc box set. But the promise of the xclusive Best Buy 2 bonus tracks on their sold edition failed. This is the official KISS messege to the ones that have been bouying their release and got cheated:

"KISS Fans are the greatest! Not 15 minutes after the KISS ALIVE!!! 1975-2000 CD Set went on sale this morning, we started receiving fan emails informing us that the Best Buy store version did not contain the advertised bonus tracks "2000 Man" and "God of Thunder." Thank you for bringing this to our attention so quickly. Though not directly involved with Universal's Best Buy store promotion, Paul and Gene were made aware of the bonus track problem and have chosen to help rectify the situation for the fans. Several solutions are currently being discussed by Universal Music and we expect to post more information in the next day or two. Bottom line - Paul and Gene appreciate your support and any fan who bought the CD at Best Buy expecting these two tracks will receive them. Just heard from Universal Music regarding the Best Buy bonus tracks for the KISS ALIVE!!! 1975-2000 CD Set. They apologized for the situation and also for the delay in announcing the solution because of Thanksgiving. We will be able to announce the information on how to receive the bonus tracks early next week.
Stay with us - you will get what you expected!"

Fans have waited for the Millennium Concert recording for several years. On December 31, 1999 the reunited KISS, with the original
lineup, played BC Place Stadium in Vancouver, Canada to ring in the new millennium before a crowd of 45,000. The career-spanning concert was originally intended to be Alive IV but the KISS+orchestra KISS Symphony: Alive IV appeared in 2003. Meanwhile the Vancouver concert took on mythic status. KISS ALIVE! 1975-2000 finally fills in that gap in KISStory.

Thats a shit cool move. I have said it so many times and I gladly say it again... KISS has always been the most loyal band to its fans. Crue have so many times been told and gotten aware of things but they have acted like they dont give a shit. In many ways they are money men like KISS . but money men in a way that they care first foremost and almost ONLY about their own pockets. KISS do too but with the added little bonus that if you are a fan is so appreciated. You are a fan and you have trouble with something thats an official doing that doesnt turn out right, then come hell or high water the band will fucking fix it to please the fans what they were promised.
Good job guys.

Motley Crue and Trunk Ltm.. also has a few new designs.. I dont support the company of the Trunk and their doings. I think its a shitty thing. Well cool to have the old shit reprinted for sale 2006 but for the prices they have ... hell no. Other than this not much is up or on lol.... the ongoing handling of the site is still happening and I like it. There are a few fresh things some new things and all the added new items all over the place. But that in it self should be something ... right? Hell yeah. I get a few emails here and there about the silence from Jesse again. He is working on somethings and his picture taking of the remaning stage probs so ... he will be back in style soon.. he has done some refreshments too on the my space site we run. Things will get bigger and better all the time. Just wait and see 2007 what we come up with.
Till next time enjoy your week-end. Here its off time thats good but the weather is fucking bad. Guess the lord (if you believe in him) is for sure now telling us the summer is officially over lol. lol.

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23rd of November 200SIXX,
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Okay things have gotten a little out of hand some how. There are updates going on and there will be a few changes on the already stuff up on here. I am gonna try to get more smart ass moves going for the site later on. How ever right now I just have to get all set up on here. Added all thats totally all over the place here. Its a hell. All the time, I am floading in stacks of new this and new that around here. Cant wait to get all that cleared out of the way and get put away some how. Its been a good while since I actually had the whole place cleared for shit round here. My god. its been nuts. I kind of begin to miss that a little bit again. There is no way I can have guests here at this time. No places to sit. i barely walk around here. damn all the Motley stuff totally covers my home. Gotta have that changed. Its a stinky fact that I need to have that air here. I actually often think about my good and missed friend in Sweden. Alexander - KISS nuts. He is so lucky to have done what he has done. Gotten his own place a two store apartment where one floor is a home like away from the hobby so to speak and the other floor his KISS world. I wish I could do that dude. I really, really wish I could. I would so kill for that to happen. You see every now and then because it has been there for so many years you sometimes need to get away from it. Get it on a distance. But I see myself in a like constant move on deal upon deal upon deal and all. Its nuts. Its a fruitball. Its a totally ...well I cant explain. Im a Crue addict. I begin to slowly see the price I have to pay and the lousy living I am offering myself from doing this. But I have no regrets. Its all good. Just so fucking damn hard.

Ohh you now hve a chance too to get an orderst up for the "DISASTR The Movie" http://www.disasterthemovie.com/ But be prepared ones ordered you will get this:Thank you for ordering from Screen Media Films. Your order dated November 21, 2006 has been received. For customer service please refer to order# 00146.Upon shipment, the following items will be charged to your VISA credit card with last four digits 1938 and will be shipped via US POSTAL PRIORITY to:

TOMMY LEE C/O Xxxxxx Xxxxxxxx, GREER, SC 29651
SE68100296 - DISASTER DVD
Qty Ordered: 1
Price each: $24.98 Total price: $24.98
This item is on backorder and expected to ship on 02/06/2007

Thats right sadly its not able to be send to you before next year somehow. It sucks. But hey what can one do? You know its all just taken the time it takes and thats final. Not to be argued. Should be a hell of a fun one. Crue is also in it with a live performance in this kind of puppets movie. Ìts a laugh. My god. Cant wait to see it. Also there is a Hard Rock Cafe, DVD out you may wanna check out too?
"Hard Rock Treasures" DVD. Get a behind-the-scenes look at Rock n' Roll Royalty and their most prized possessions! Travel with Hard Rock's Director of Acquisitions Don Bernstine on a globetrotting, deadline driven search for that next great addition to the most extensive rock memorabilia collection on the planet. Search through the tour buses, homes and garages of rock superstars KISS, Aerosmith, Motley Crue, Jimmy Page, Van Halen, Metallica, Velvet Revolver, the Chili Peppers and more, as Don uncovers the treasures that make up Hard Rock's iconic collection. DVD Specs: 16x9 Anamorphic Widescreen. 5.1 Dolby Digital Surround. Dolby Surround 2.0. Run Time: 90 minutes 25.00 Dollars.




This venue helt a rather unusual concert on Tuesday with the band in South
Carolina. I had not a living chance to attend but my from time to time soul partner in business doings when it comes to M.Crue attended and said it was really god. Band staff contacts got me a fairly cool lot and Corinna met to bring it "home to me". Thanks for that. I think its a quiet cool thing to have whats there. I can not fully tell you what that is just yet. In case shit happens I like to have it all in hand actually before I do anything on it and let you all know whats in the goodie bag lol. I need to let time pass by quiet a long time, to regin the chances of active doings again. And I am a sucker for that. Period. I have actually thought about getting another job that pays lots but sucks keep it for a long period a good way into 2007 and then get back to loyalty towards myself and drop the shit that doesnt feel right for me. I will see whats possible to just go grab right after new years. I have done way too many buyings and done way too many ... ohh well all words in the active catalogue can be used here. Just need a kind of change for a while thats all.

Right now its a still ongoing refreshment to the site. We hope to have the new stuff added in the next two days the last of it anyway.. parts from a good few pictures awaited from my man Jesse on the stage probs lot. He is taking all thepictures there and I have only but a good few of the total of maybe 15 to 20 shots. But it will get on here. Latest addings are marked "NEW" on the different pages most of them are in the LOOKS section on the .DK site. Check it ... talk soon. Your loyal hore,
Lee

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20th of November 200SIXX, Updates & New Countdowns, Or?
6:11PM CET
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It is a new week and a new ass kicking doing on the site. We have changed a few things and there will be more just started. Its new times again and with new times we also have a few new things and ideas. It will take more than likely the last of this week to bring it all up to date but we are on it. Just bare with us. Hope you like the new shit on here. We are so gonna make it worth your time everytime or at least try to. Again thanks for your loyal interest. There have been added the Supernova section that is slowly taken shape under the SOLO section and then Tommy. Vince too has gotten a new section the Vince neil Ink. The reason for it to have a page of its own is simply cause its said to be a monster. There are stuff on there already and shirts to be photographed so they too can be added one of the next days. And a second new line of items is already made and ready to go into the shop there in Las vegas and online for his new site thats still inthe bilding stages. But we have it up already.

Then we have a good few new places added in the meet n greet section on .COM it holds some recent vicited places. Pretty cool. Just trying to collect time and money to go vicit more of these places but it wont be anytime soon as it looks right now. I am still working on hoped for deals to go my way as the smoke clears. There are simply a good handful of things that can be seriously cool to have. but the items I say that about are really not the cheapest shit to be found. So well... its a hoped for happening only with the things I try to win time and set a deal or two about. You know how I am and you know how it goes.

So there are countdowns for a line of things these days. Maybe not for new doings and happenings like travelling and all. but in these alternative ways of getting things together and try to pick the longest straw and have a future that will include the much dreamed for items to get added to the collection here. For now i am tryong not to think too much about tomorrow cause that is a night of another exclusive live show in South carolina I can not go to. Surely its gonna be a far better one than what has happend up till now. They are doing a solo gig at the House of Blues in KISS Coffeehouse country. Excellent. That too did I miss. God damn. i am not the luckiest dick spreading its seed. Shit. But if I am lucky Corinna that of course is going tomorrow will get me something from there. but then again what does that count for? What kind of cool is it to have others get the shit for ya? Naa its uncool.

Anyways, things are to be dealt with like everything else. Also today is the release day of the Rock Star Supernova CD. Its out today just as KISS Alive the box set. Supernova CD is more than likely at Corinna place for me today. Hope she sends it to me this week. I would appreciate that big time. Getting it added as quickly as possible. Speaking of Tommy. He is on Kimmel today recoding the bands first minor live thing for the TV land. A mini concert of perhaps a good 4 to 5 songs. Interview. Goes on air tomorrow and his website is also setting up a new 4 choice thing is you like to renew your membership. Pretty lame as always material but its there to grab for a pay of 50 or 60 bucks depending on if you are US citizent or not. Sucks. If you wonder what the choices are to choose from for the 50 bucks and a years membership well here they are. You take your pick. His clothing line has gotten a fairly good start for him too.

Other news from us here at MCrueLoyal well I think the site in itself and the stuff worked with should bring you a good portion of greatness. And satisfaction perhaps. I am so far pleased with the things going on. It can be better for sure but with the shit we have that limits us right now that would simply have to be a pleasure for the future. There are still to come more in the "looks" section on .Dk and there will be a updated audoio video list onthepages of "Cruecial Facts" for sure there are much new stuff added this week. Should be a little something for everybody. I constantly try to get things up in a hurry. there are way more live audio and video on its way to thisaddress and there are still a few things in the mail that goes in to most sections on here. So event hough its over for me and this tour 2006 it does not equal a silence on here. No sir ree. Fucking enjoy all you feministic gay loving wankers. Love you all......


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Sunday 19th of November 200SIXX, Promises & Losses Life`s Grand
3:10AM CET
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I am sitting here this weekend with very little sleep what so ever. Had been looking forward to this weekend since I would have had a chance to recover and regain the lost sleep from since I got back home last Tuesday from the USA. But no that has not happend. I have done a lot of preparing for the work with the webmaster for this site from tomorrow night and the week to come. So last night I did not get to bed till around 4AM. Slept fairly late today and now its fucking 3AM again Sunday morning already. My guess is its gonna be a noon wake up and a shitty Monday morning again and that means the coming week and work will be all crazy ones more. Shit. It is not easy. But oh well one once told me "Tommy you see people are like this, if you have a hobby you dont care spending a million hours a day of your free time to do study on your interests for nothing. But if your job is for the pay check only and not a hobby then you will not even think about doing half an hour overtime for free one single day." I guess the man was right on the money with that one. We all know more about our hobbies than what we know about our jobs anyways. You see my point?

Read the kickstart postings from you guys and YES the STAGE PROBS will go on here in the coming week. No doubt about it. As will the new shit brought home in October and November. There will be new pieces to the meet n greet and personal moments too. There will be added all the missing pictures from the already posted diaries part from the ones that...well lets just say I sat with Corinna this evening my local time in Europe and we discovered a HUGE and sad shitty los. A line of our photos taken are missing the camera of hers must have erased them by itself or she as she put them on to her computer in files something must have happend or accidently erased the damn shots. That is really shitty. I am a bit sad to have had this news today. This was photos of the Tommy and pamela house, the Vince Neil malibu yearly golf tournament location in Malibu, Ca., The old 1981 82 83 Country Club. And the location of Tommy and Heather`s wedding in 1986. Yeah it was a long drive and a long cool day. I am really sad to have these photos missing. That kind of kills me BIG TIME!!!!

MÖTLEY CRÜE drummer Tommy Lee and Amy Lee of EVANESCENCE are among 36 stars who appear in the new video for the JOHNNY CASH song "God's Gonna Cut You Down". If you happen to watch music videos look out for this one. Other stars who appear in the video include Iggy Pop, Kanye West, COLDPLAY's Chris Martin, actor Terrence Howard, Anthony Kiedis and Flea from the RED HOT CHILI PEPPERS, Chris Rock, MAROON 5's Adam Levine, Kate Moss, Sheryl Crow, Woody Harrelson, the DIXIE CHICKS, Keith Richards, Bono, (+44)'s Travis Barker, Kid Rock, Jay-Z and Johnny Depp. The boots listed the other day an in the last diary of mine went for 1100 US dollars. The military proto short is still running. But not for long. I guess there are a good few people out there that still tries to hang in on a personal item from the man. I sometimes wonder myself what would my collection or some of my single items bring in should I decide to sell?!! Well now is not the time to sell out or anything. Still in the expanding collection situation. Some few new "old" items have been bought so lets see what we can do for the winter on things on that front .... right?

All tour picks from the fall tour has been covered . ahh okay not fully but a good 8 of them. I will get them in a good two weeks or something. So look out for that to be added at round the end of this month too. Hopefully I will know more about the still missing Rock Star Supernova items later today, will they be covered or will they be missed out on. They are not to be reprinted as noted yesterday. And some of the fuckers are now already in limited suplies. So ... better get my ass in the swing if that is to happen at all. But lets see if we can do magic there too. You will read and see all on it for sure in the section you sit with right now. I have no doubt to that one. Some of the things Jesse as a solo individual and as my team player and partner in this will take on should take a fairly good time to get ready. But I tell you he is looking into some really cool things for us and there would hopefully come a shit nice result out of it. I guess you can say there are things in the planning stages that are so shit cool that even I cant wait to get my own "copy" of the things we are going to do, hell yeah man. Just you wait and see. A few plans on Jesse part too to maybe change the My Space site a bit for us too. Should be quiet interesting.
Here are a few new shirts that have come out recently, if you shoud have interest. Also check out the new shit from Tommy and his clothing business if you like I personally is not all for it. Nope thanks.

Now if there are anything we could have done better on the site please send either of us a mail and we will seriously take it under consideration. All we really wanna do is make this site the best possible and as attractive to most loyal fans possible. You know what I am saying. Just saying you could actually sit with bigger or better ideas than maybe what I myself am sitting with. Anyway I think with out knowing we will see a fairly large line of things to come out over the next 6 to 8 months to keep the fans busy and reminding us all about the band as they are gonna be laid on ice for a good year. No new music, no movie, no touring. In short no nothing. So the business men of course will make sure to remind us all about spending our money on their name in other ways. I would be the first to be suprised should this not be a solid fact for the time from now till maybe August next year. Ohh well thank god there is no forcing to to buy anything .. .said the hopeless and loyal money spending idiotic dane. Shit lol....
- www.amazon.com has too some still pretty cool things if you are missing some items in your shirt or cd collection. damn there are just holes everywhere and a constant excuse for spending money right? Hell even money we dont have. Who the fuck invented the credit card. Boy my boy was that a stupid move for and towards the human kind. We are so digging our own graves with crappy temptations arent we? I say no more. It is fucking morning here now and I am about to well ... carry on with my fucking doings. But its all good after all I will be greatly prepared for when the webmaster and myself are gonna sit here from Sunday evening. So yeah all in all my doings are good and there by excused for skipping sleep when I absolutely should.

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17th of November 200SIXX, More Auctions & Sunday Addings
4:33PM CET
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Right on. Had a chat with the webmaster last night she seems bettering. And she and I have set a time together for working on the site here getting all the diary photos added and the collectibles in "LOOKS" section on .Dk over the next days in the coming week. Starting Sunday evening central European time. It will be great and there will be a few good things to see. The long awaited "personal" section will have a rather cool new look and all the stage probs will finally go in too. I have had two trips to the US with only one week between them so I have sadly not had the best of time ot do all that the last month. For that I am sorry I know I promised you. And had the webmaster been a little more into the Motley story and all she could have done this like in her sleep. But she isnt too into it so she constantly need me with her or at least very direct and to the point data and explanations to every picture andall to get it on ... so we have just waited so it all will be right the first time we touch that baby!! Again the next 10 days starting Sunday night we will try to get all this on and uploaded. Thank you.

More news in the sence of the clothing lins from Tommy and Nikki. They both had their opening thing this week and they both Tommy in San Francisco and Sixx in Houston, Texas were present to meet fans and sign shit for the fans that did buy the stuff from these clothing lines of theirs on the day. I would have liked to be there yes, but I couldnt. I have been to too much the last long time already and my pockets says "back off" for some time at least. besdies I have other things in the works and that too will for sure cost me like a mutha load of cash should I in the end be the one to pull the longest straw from all I know are interested in what I refer too. I would rather not say too much right now for the reason of not being sure where it will all take me and what will actally be the outcome of the whole thing. But I will get back to you on that note.

I am gonna try to clear the official Supernova stuff too now that they have changed their name and all. I have been told the items printed shirts, caps and more are to be this one printing only. It may change for a second pressing but NOT with the Rock Star Supernova on it. As they were not aloud ot have that name used no more. So before all that shit gets sold and are gone I like to clear that. There has already been a Supernova section started in the light stages but it will have its addings. Just give it time. You find it under Solos on .COM alright?!! Thanks. Check it out brothers and sisters. Speaking about boots you have two new Sixx auctions going. And there seem to be some sort of a boom on these things again for some time now there was not much of interest or people just didnt have money or something .Others may have saved like fuck to have money for just one owned and worn Nikki Sixx item as there may be put up more. Well now is the time and there are like two items up right now they are:

Autographed Nikki Sixx Stage Worn Ankle-Boots.
This auction brought to you by swagrox.com the offical store for nikkisixx.net is for a pair of Autographed Nikki Sixx (106-1 Italiy Nomada Negro.) Tower Negro Acero, " Ankle-Boots" . Size is european 44 / 11 USA made by New Rock. Item is signed in silver marker on toe of each shoe. And he has also added the words "Motley" on the left and "Crue" on the right! Shoes are black and worn and very heavy. This is a rare opportunity to buy a real STAGE collectable item worn by Nikki Sixx! And to help the Kids of Running Wild in the Night. Motley Crue bassist Nikki Sixx founded The Running Wild in the Night Foundation, which is dedicated to raising funds for Covenant House. Covenant House is the largest privately-funded childcare agency in the United States providing shelter and service to homeless and runaway youth.

N-Sixx Prototype Short Sleeve Military Shirt.
This auction brought to you by swagrox.com the offical store for nikkisixx.net is for a exclusive never reproduced prototype shirt for the N.Sixx Clothing line. Shirt is designed with print from N.Sixx Thermal on a green military shirt… Shirt is size M mens, and has been custom treated to have an aged appearance.. Shirt was never produced in any quantity. This is one of only a couple in existance.. This is a rare opportunity to buy a real collectable item! And to help the Kids of Running Wild in the Night. Motley Crue bassist Nikki Sixx founded The Running Wild in the Night Foundation, which is dedicated to raising funds for Covenant House. Covenant House is the largest privately-funded childcare agency in the United States providing shelter and service to homeless and runaway youth.

So if you have or had money for it and is a serious fan these two items were alright to ad to your private collection if you ask me. All of these items of course are always to be found and auctioned off on the world famous www.ebay.com so if you have not checked that out yet you should but be careful its poison. It will take your money away quickly if you are not careful. You hear it from one that really have done his share on that site. Huu haaa.
And a recent red Sixx stage worn shirt went for 2025,00 dollars as his nazi cap went for 3500,00 so these things are not to be owned for a walk in the park. You really have to have the money and really have to want these things bad if you should own one of these things. I think he has worn shit I would still LOVE to be the next owner of but lets see what shows up. its no longer as interestng as when the band wore actual costumes like in the older days. These things now are yes owned and worn by him but still its just regular shirts, jackets and pants and boots that he fucked up with some patches or some embroided shit on them. Not as cool as back then if you ask me. But then again you dont so .. so nuts go ahead invest in your dreams buddy!!!

talk again Sunday as we get started on the new things. Should be rather cool. See you then. Lee

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16th of November 200SIXX, Pissed Off Mood & Piles...
5:47PM CET
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It is Thursday end of the first week after I got back home. It still feels really weird. I tell you all that much!! I am not fully aware of what ishould do here from now on. I am not tempted to even give it a second in thinking. But soon I have to. There is not much for me to actually do about it. I have to say it is a shitty feeling. I miss my American plans and sceduals and ofr the first time in almost two years doen it NOT say USA under any future date n my calender. It has done so almost every second or third months since March 2004. It has been crazy times and wild beyind dreams for me. I know I should not complain and I am not either. its just I got so used to all this now and I loved it. 82 flights are behind me in that period of time and i have not a waiting ticket to take me anywhere now. I was not born a rich man son so ... my pockets are empty now and used well out. I gotta say thisthough; there are a few things I can only do so many times and this travelling seems to have been one of them. I guess my situation and timing and luck all together have been in excellent place wouldnt you say? Its been possible for the BOD days and tour, the reunion tour and all up till this fal ltour that I just could not deal with. it was too bad for my taste. It drowned in a whole lot of nothingness. And it makes me sad to even say it.

Thank god for all the stuff I have been able to do besides the shows seen on this Aerosmith / Motley Crue tour. They have all been cool. Really interesting and all. man I could type shit about the shit I have done and seen from here till I turn 80. Which of course I will never be. I will hopefully die way, way, way before that. Please god if you are real I beg you to take me way before that!!! Anyway the webmaster is sick and we are so way behind here with things to do and get added its crazy. I promise you all that as soon as i get her back on track we will continue this adding and changing. We have so many things to get done its nuts!! But things takes a good periode of time and there has to be both of us working on it to make the best of it.

We hope to have it all back on track sooner than later.
I have a line of the latest Vince Neil Ink, Las Vegas merchandise home with me too. I think it is a huge line to come and it alone can be quiet a huge task to cover. Anyway I think it is a way adding your collection something new and something from the solo member like the Nikki clothing lines from the old Draginfly and more. You know what I mean. Only thing is it is really a hard thing to keep up with. I do not like the fact that you now get a shit load of stuff from three members in the near future to focus on unless you collect Crue and the band`s doings. Skipping out on the solo stuff. I have a lot of things to catch up on but right now it will not be in the near future what so ever. I simply have too much to get around of so called ordinary things before I even throw myself into some new stuff on that front. But there will be a still continued flow of small things I am sure for the site in the next coming months. I just cant say how much or anything. But sure there is a line of things laying here already that needs the attention. bare with us.

I have also today gotten myself a really shitty suprise. The Crue DNA connected family member to a band member that i said earlier had taken a line of my precious things and collectibles a good two years ago or something have come out of the darkness and sent another friend of mine an email where it said this person had already sent my shit out to me over a year ago. I do not beliveve that for a second. Simply cause this person has received a line of mails and notes from me about it. That all I wanted to do was to get my stuff back and not having to regain the contact of frinedship if the person was having a problem with this how ever why would this person have sent the stuff out to me a year ago and not been telling me? And now I get to know about it one year later and nothing has arrived at all? And it should all have been sent in ONE package. There were lines of Coffmann stuff from the old to many familiar online auction a good two years ago and also 2 full cases of Crue Brew. How can that get in one package and on top of it get lost? Plus why all the silence from my requested mails and then now LL OF A SUDDEN ITS BEEN SENT .. AND A YEAR AGO. I cant really swallow that one. And to even start thinking that the lot is lost and all is so not real to me. And more painful than I can even find words for describing it. I know almost for a fact now that I will never ever see this shit again. Ever.

That is aboout all that has been happening here since my home coming part from of course unpacking, laundry and all other kind of borring stupid things one just has to do. You know.. so till the webmaster is back on her feet there is not much else from here really. You take care and be safe as will I try to be here ....... peace out.

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16th of November 200SIXX, My Last day On Americn Soil
1:55PM CET
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Its been a few days since my home coming now and I have been stinky beat since. Hpw ever here is my last day on Amrican ground. It was Sunday the 12th of November.
We had still things to get covered. And yet we knew it would not all be!! I know there are a line of things and places we have not been able to get to before all trips have been over. This was the third one and we still have not done all. There are just so much to do see and get around. Sadly this trip would end with yet another bunch pof locations uncovered. But we started round the corner from where we stayed in Hollywood. Started to shoot pictures and video of the Tommy Lee owned "Rokclub" he has one here in Hollywood and one in Miami under the same name. We have done all possible coverage of this one from the outside. it was right now under some sort of restoring. So there was not a chance to do much from inside. But we did what we could. From there on we went to see some other place that was no longer there. Sadly assaid a few times earlier this is what has been the case with quiet a few places in Motley history. Its sad. So better do all possible and treat it carefully.

Off to the Bloomingdales as Corinna wanted to check out Tommy Lee`s new clothing line TL but guess what this specific Bloomingdales had not the line in stock. they had chosen not to take it in. Hmm suprise so that was kind of a fast check out. Then it was the hospital that had Nikki when he in 1987 December had his death experience and overdose. We took some video shots and a few new photos. It was just all weird to be there. But even more weird the last time we saw it. We got out from our "breakfast" visit at the Los Angels Hard Rock Cafe after having what we wanted to eat and that would be our last things to do before we actually had to say bye bye Holly weird. We could not get more out of it should we not miss our flights. Well One more stop and that would be an enjoyed one. Off to the place that holds one certain London LeGrand we simply had to go say hello and goodbye. He is this time far more open and willing to talk, than other times we have seen him after the split of Brides Of Destruction.

I am dead sure London was hurt and dissapointed more than any of the three other guys in that band. That was just insaine. The BOD should never had ended. It was acool one part fromthe second album a littel weak. In most peoples minds. Okay so we met and he was all cool with gving us a good 10 - 15 minutes before he had to get going. We video shot something woth him and here is the cool news. London is forming a new band on his own. That is fucking wicked. Superb. I have missed him on the stages and I fucking hope he does get around to build something strong up and get the shit out within next summer. He was actually pretty psyched about the idea of his. And I for one am too. You may not fully know but london is a piece in rock n roll that I just do not wanna be without. He and I have been sharing so much. He knows just exactly what i like and dont like what I am all about and what not. He knows me and he is like my american brother litterally. I love you dude. you know it.

He said some things and we vidoe and photo shot it all. As said not too long but all is "IN THE CAN" and we now only wait to getthedamn pix back. I cant wait. I always treasure this manand the few minutes we share here and there every time I get to go to Hollywood. Nice with some new photos and all. I gotta say I am more than pleased with what we got and it will just be a man I will never ever push for more than he from the get go says good for. I respect him too much!!! That you can take to the bank. I always want more of him but never if he does not offer to begin with. But guess what - London was as most times cool and friendly to me so hell if I should complain I should be ashamed. So there for I wont. Thanks a great bunch dude. You with your new attached dreadlocks in black. Guess its more important to you to signal the rock star attitude than anything else. Lol.... its alright. I am but me and thats all I will ever be. An open book so easy to read if you really have the interest!! Thanks again London.

Then we started rolling off to the car rental place at "ACE, 11101 S Hindry Avenue Los Angeles.
We drove and drove and the way we chose fooled us the last time and this time too one lousy turn off the 405 South Shit. but it wasnt any worse than we took the next exit and headed back and then 3 minutes later we were there. It was kind of weird to say goodbye to the Hollywood place again. For two reasons we have always known we would come back and do all missed, We always said goodbye with the next plan set to do. But this time was the first one if more than a year and a half that we had no plans no nothing. Didnt even know when we would see each other again. It was just strange. Very strange. I have to say the trip to the car rental was fast anyway. And not till we actually turned in the car key and sat on the shuttle buss on the way to the terminal and stopat British Airways was when I started to really see and feel how strange the situation actually was. I could somehow see it in her eyes too. Even though she is so different than me she had something going on within heerself too. It was just a wicked situation.
At the arrival of the airport we sat on the sidewalk with all our shit and I went to the counter to see if my changed ticket was actually all good. I mena I was not supose to go home till the next day actually but had caleld the airline and changed the ticket to go home one day earlier due to help Corinna out from something that really concerned her the lnely trip back to the airport .. worried not finding her way. I would do most for her. Incl changinf this ticket pay 160 dollars and go with her and leave USA one day erlier.

At the ticket encounter I got my ticket checked in my two bags and I was all set to go to London UK then on to Cophagen Denmark leaving LAX at 8:45 Pm that evening. We went ot North west with all Corinna baggage and checked in her two suitcases as well and then we headed abck to my departure terminal and sat down. I helped her get another jack D. bottle for her collection but had to bring it home and its now here till next time we will meet. Then we went upsatirs got something to drink and I paid her off with what I could and owed her. We talked till it was time for me to go to my gate. We hugged goodbye and it again just felt really weird. Motley land shows and historic location had ended ones again. This was not to be repeated for god knows how long a time again. She has givin me much and i gotta say she has been more nice and all than I have ever before shared time with her. As stupid and all I may be .. I miss the idea about us. But what can one guy do? it takes two. Shit...
Then it started the engines got turned on and the dark was calling me home. A long but fairly okay trip back. Home safe and all with no shitty happenings. All that was on Corinna this time cant believe the story she told me the next day of how her trip back to South Carolina had been. Damn!!!!
But now its Denmark boredom and crappy feelings again. Not easy!! Tommy

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15th of November 200SIXX, Devore US fest ground 83
8:31PM CET
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So Sitting here still on this god forsaken day of Wednesday and posting the last week-end doings. I gotts do this before i forget.damn the tecnology when you get depended on the shit and it doesnt work. Cause that, as said, is what happend to our labtop in hollywood as these things were happening. so a little delay ..sorry bout that. Still worth the stories though. Saturday was another meant to be huge Crue history day day but it never got to be that since we had so shit much a need for rest in the morning. And we just did not get up at proper hours. It was all kind of weird. This felt like our last chance part from maybe a few hours in the morning Sunday. That was the day we checked out to leave this loved loved place and to hed back to reality and every day doings each seperately her to South Carolina and me to Denmark Europe. But we still had a few things and a few hours to go nuts in. We just had to get some things over with. The traditional hotel coffee FUCK thats a great coffee. Love it had two cups every day went for one ot Corinna in the lobby too while she either showered or still was a sleep. I loved the mornign start with the coffee. Then after all theusual hoola hoop morning nuts got done with we took off. We wanted to check outthings today. Axl Rose house on Whitley his first self bought one in early 80s after making it with the Appetite album. From here to the Manson murders ...or rather to the house of where the murders were comitted. It was shit many years ago and we only hope that there now was a chance still to see it. A bit out side Hollywood. Actually in what is called North Hollywood was where that horror took place.We drove up and had an address. but there was no such address no more. We both wondered if they had actually torn the house down after the horror here. We at least could not find it. It skipped that exact number so we had a hard time getting any pictures or anything. Drove back and tried to find the very famous house of the Wonderland Murders. In the Hollywood Hills. guess what we found them.

To actually be at this place was like holy fuck. It was like if it was untouched since the days of the murders. It wassick. The owner of the Starwood club inHollywood where Motley had their very first shows this dude was involved and had now murdered people. he was an old hotel owner in the 40s and 50s but he was a nightclub and venue owner in Hollywood inthe 70s and early 80s and was a number one big guy intown. Police hardly dared to touch him. he was a huge drug dealer he was into kinky sex and asked often girls to lick his asshole clean after having shit without wiping his ass. For that the desperate got the heroin and cocaine they all begged for. man it was a man you just did not wanna mess with. He was the whole reason for the Wonderland murdersin Hollywood early 80s. Huge story. Starwood owner half arab.
Man this house and this street was so unreal. You could almost feel it happening as it wasnow. There is a movie called WONDERLAND have you not seen it you should chck it out. Bizarre shit for sure. Realstory and this was the house that hold the story. You tell me if this doesnt give you the chills. You see besides crue there were so much we really wanted to do and go see that held stories of mass interest but as always for us in Hollywood TIME was not a thing we had enough of. Butwhat we did see and what we did have time for was awesome.

From the murders the dark side to a more Crue orientdand brighter side. Sunset Blvd. We had another address both back in the day sigend on to both Tommy and nikki. WOnder if they lived together here. It was just before you get into Beverly Hills.. of cause a lot has changed since when ever so the actual address was also no longer to be found anywhere. So we headed down to Beverly Hills tryng to find a few locations there too. Now one we did not really find and we asked around. Was a hotel where Vince on the 13th of March 1986 announched at a press conference that the band would participate at Live Aid II which of course did never happen. But the hotel it was helt at was not to be found we even asked a black dude who ws extremely cool We video filmed him and all. Cool dude. He knew a few things though about hotels and Crue history. They had most history at Biltmore downtown Los Angeles and at a rather huge hotel in Beverly Hills. We drove by there and found that. That was after he told us that athis hotel where he was working a band had just 2 days ago checked in there ad they were staying for a week. The god damn Rolling Stones. Here are a few pictures of their tour buss parked next to the hotel too.

From here on to court. We were to find the court house of where on january 13th 1998 Tommy Lee pleads no contest to misdemeanour battery over the Viper Room nightclub incident with a photographer on September 29 1996. This too we found and took a few fast pictures. You see we are often in a kind of risky situation about doingthese things. For one reason only. It is not at all legal to shoot official buildings in USA no matetr what they are. not even airplains at the gate in terminals. Its all risky business and you get cought doing it its not no more a warning its jail time dude. We were told so two times lat we were there. So hello America sorry but things has to be documented for the Crue books. Its jus tinsaine how few things we really were aloud to have informations on and there by go to places and document them and see them for our selves obviously had it not been for years and years of long pullings and gained contacts. It was nuts . So of course as we were here now we took them chances and shot away all we possibly could. After this we drove off by Sunset sw the Hisue Of Blues had finally set up the official word about the long sold out show for Tuesday by Paul Stanley. Duck I would have loved to see him there..Glad I at least did get to see the tour. And at the opening night on Atlanta last month. That was wicked. Loved it as you may remember from the diary.
Then on the infamous Capitol records sign .. we never got pictures of that so we snapped a few and moved on to Melrose after something to eat. Melrose had one certain London LeGrand there and I have never so far missed a hi and hello with the man since the release of the B.O.D. debut album 2004. Now he was a little busy but he was very suprised to see us there. He waved us in from the street and he wanted to say hello again. That was kind of nice. Then to make a long story short he wanted us to come back the next day being Sunday since he had better time there and that would be our last minute hellothenaswe were leaving there. But it was arranged and set as a deal. So Sunday would be a short hello London time .. .as always nice. Wonder what he had to tell me he said he had good news. Cool!!!

The day here in Hollywood ended more or less there as we were about to go and find Blockbuster video store and then see if we could find the movie "Wonderland" if we could we would soon head out to Devore for the concert sit tight at the parking lot and onthe computer watch the movie before let in. And what do you know. We did find it and bought it for Corinna private ownings of the thing headed back to the hotel and then off we went. Another good 75 minutes drive and we were there. It was a show place that helt so much history it was almost insaine. The classic US Festival where the bandhad its break through. A three days festival with all kinds of shit on there. Super fucking legendary. Had one only been that much older to have seen all this crap . had been awesome.
Anyway we wnet there and we saw the film. it was just as we had been in it due to the scenery of the movie. As said it has almost not been touched from the outside. Looks exactly the same. Its frightening. Shit.

The movie was awesome highly recommend it. We then began to move our asses toward the place and stranded in a huge line to get in. But it did not take long so fuck it. We found our frint seats and sat our asses down. I could hardly believe the thing wewere about to witness. It felt unreal. it was such a legend this place man sorry for repeating myself but I had a hard time to really think straight. I think there were more coolness than bitterness there. as the show started more people came to the front seats but far from fulltill Aerosmith came on. As the crue hit the stage we could actally move closer and Corinna did so. I stood still at the place that was mine. I had a fine view from where i was standing. One bottle hit a dudes head no one reacted including me. I saw corinna jump a row to get a water bottle from Sixx. I didnt care for it so assaid I stood still. Those things can not make me jump for battle no more. I dont care about them. She was well how can I put this pretty happy even fucking worried about her not getting the last drops that were still inside the bottle with her home. Okay that is where I start laughing. Sorry. Not to be a prick but .. well... lol lol lol..Motley did fairly good there that evening. It was a better Vince for sure but still not a cool blasting concert. I found it still to be a bad tour. have explained myself mor than enough why I think so in past postings on here so.... let me just leave it at that. Aerosmith rocked as always. they are just really cool on this one. They fucking own this tour. Superb. Dont ask again I will give you the same answer. Superb. Really thrilled that we went. Thanks for the show bitch!! It was cool. Really aweosme to have seen them there no matter what. Wish it was 1983 though. Went out of there bout half into the Aerosmith gig we had a long way home and wanted to avoid traffic jam frm the 10s of thousands that were to leave at the same time later on. And we wanted a morning to be good as that would be our last and final one there. so Off we wnet and in 70 minutes we got back to the hotel and just .. .wow... resting. Felt so damn good. I thanked her for it all. I really fouond it rather an honour to have gone cool... off to bed!!!

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15th of November 200SIXX, A Vegas lost Posting - Inked
4:25PM CET
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Sorry for the miss out on tons of pictures. They are being added with in the next few days from this trip. You will have a blast going through them all so many cool ones too. Trust me. Thursday was as you may have read a kind of dissapointing day for me. So we took revenge today. Last night we simply said lets do something that can really rock our stinky socks off. What can we do to make yesterday kind of be alright as a loss? We can do what this day (time wise) would the only one allowing to - go to Las Vegas. I know how it sounds. It sounds crazy right? hell yeah but you know what??? It was something that could take us to two things really wnated to do. A - go to Vince Neils tattoo shop. And B - go by the chopper shop where the crue have had their bikes built for the last two tours. And you know what we did both.

Viva Las vegas, Viva.. ohhh yeahh baby.
I could not belive it. It was a ride out there like none other and ohh well why not just start from the beginning.
We packed what we thought we would be in need of and then took as every morning, the hotel coffee and a shower ... not really in that order and certainly not together. Lol... Would I have liked that .. of cause but under different ... well you know. Okay so I got my shit together as did corinna and we said why not get something with us candy bar or soemthing so a cold large drink and a bar was bought and off we went. Towards the San Bernadino where also the show would be at the infamous US festival grounds of 83 as of tomorrow. We passed this place and took off towards the desert. damn it was a ride I have not done before neither had Corinna. So we again shared something that was new to both of us. We have done so many things together the past two years its insaine. The desert drive was hot long straight and extremely . well am I aloud ot say boring? It kind of was. At the same time of course also very differetn from anything before and quiet stunning. It really was WAUUU there is fucking not a pot to piss in out here. Its so amazing to see this. If you get fucked here you really are fucked in the ass like you havent been before. Hell it was impressive. Sand, mountains, sand, mountains nothing else. Really nothing. That is simply something you can only be impressed about even though after a good couple of hours its getting kind of boring.

I think there are so many things in the world that makes one really excited to go do. But to see the city slowly coming around in the middle of nowhere in the desert ... seeing the city of lights Las vegas pop up in the sand between the mountains is really soemthing that cansoon take your mind of things. Shit dude this was something. We entered a few turns andall and surely we went wrong one time. It was a wonder to find your ways around to this place we were looking for. The home of the owrlds coolest choppers. Build also for the motleys and it was just something I had to see. I had been emailing back and forth with a guy working with the guys there. He had said to me come on by and you`ll be givinthe grand tour. That was fucking killer. we came to the place and simply went in. Not something we could just do it seems. And of course I could not remember the name of my contact to this place. And further more he wasnt there. But the guy that shook my hand going in was kind enough to show us around. It was a true thrill to see them do and work and create. But it was also simply shit awesome to do things like this. Things that somehow are only linked to the crue but takes up a cool part of what they do .. including in their live shows with the use of these bikes. Man that was terrific. To you all at Kostume Choppers hell a huge thanks and hi five to you out there boys. thanks for the kindness and willingness you showed us. it was awesoem. And guess what? They had the Mighty Mike mini chopper there too. now it seems owned by the owner of this place. And in case you wonder the choppers are costume build from 32.000 dollars. Thats right. not more lol. Lol. Yeah right like we I you or any of our kind has that kind of cash for a damn bike. Would love to through but no. 32 big ones and more.. hell its insaine. The ultimate over the top xtra special bike would cost you about 100.000 they said. But then its a bike none other in the world can find nearly like your personal costume made one. Got it? Start saving.

It was a good 30 to 40 minutes I would say that we got there .. .told stories and all. Cool it really was super cool. We could not vidoe film in there but got to take a good bunch of photos. So surely they turned out alright and that was just all a blast. lol. From there with out proper thank you´s and goodbyes we headed off to the strip. the main street of vegas. Next goal the newly opened November 3rd shop of Vince neil Ink. It was easy to find. It was easy to see. Buut parking wasanother factor. not that easy at all. So we crossed the street at Ceaser`s and found a prking place there. It was easier. But it was not as easy to get out of the damn building. This fucker was huge. And I mean huge. We walked through a casino and stores after stores after.. then we just stoppedand asked our ways. Finally got out and had been getting out at the right end of the building. Right cross the Neil Ink shop. That was kind of neat. Okay so this was the next thing in our trip to Hollywood the Las vegas Strip and this newly opend shop. It was kind of cool. very detailed with his "VNI" of course reading Vince Neil Ink. We got in and ohh dear .. yes we had talked about a shop shirt if there would be one. But hell there was a whole line of merch here. And from what i was told in about 2 wees the next lot would be coming in. Right here and now they had; one hat, one cap, 2 buttons, 2 stickers, girl panties, one long sleeve shirt and 7 other different shirts. Fuck man it was nuts. This alone was a whole new line of crap that was to be covered slowly but surely. A COOL jacket was to come out in a good month or something. Yeah there was no ending in sight when it comes to buying and expanding your collection do you want all or most possible. Even though the band is not gonna do a thing next year as it looks right now there are now Vince tattoo line Nikki`s clohing line and of course Tommys already ongoing one. Shit dude. Its insaine. Not possible to keep up. It will ruin anyone with just a small portion on trying to get all. The shit is not cheap either. the shop has an online order service too so all who wants something can get it through there. Glad I took all there was on the day beng there. Fuck me I was so low on the dollar it was sick. Still I spent my good last few bucks there on a tattoo. Got the shop logo VNI inked on my inner left arm with the rest of the tats . slowly but surely covering the arm up now. Right where you bend your arm so still of today it is a painful fucker to have tillits fully healed and over with.

The day had also been a on and off with Joelle and her maniac guy Chuck on he phone cause we wanted to meet. So we met there in the shop. They too had taken the trip and with a visior from Florida they all now were here to sy hello. Cool. I love these people. They are so cool .Sadly we always only get to see them so shortly. Things get changd and rearanged andall so we rarely get to do what we talk about doing.
But we met and it ws cool. Corinna has a thing with the number "11". So she thought about getting that tattooed there on her left shoulder. I was thinking about getting the Vince shop logo myself. So as it all got down to it we both did our thing. Was then inked in the chair that Vince himself was the first to have used for himself by the man that did his and was about to do his next to come a girl in a glass. dont get it. but so fucking what. That was to be soon from what I could understand. Then some video shooting and some pictures taken and all the shopping was done and off we went. had already said goodbye to Joelle and Co. again as their gust wanted to go gamble. I would seriously never do this myself. Ohh we ll we agreed to meet at the Vegas hard rock Cafe a good 90 minutes later. So Corinna and i headed to the car and after yet another hand full of bags and fresh ink we took our car and headed to the hard rock. Here we just got in, sat down and waited till we could get our ordered meals. man it was perfect. Corinna was still up to this point nice to be around that I had an emotional issue was just my own fucking problem.

Hard rock cafe las vegas was actually pretty cool. There were a lot of KISS and Elvis not one item on Crue though. i liked this place. it was a party and it came to show as they played the old 1970s Village people and "Y.M.C.A.".. all the working staff members here got up on the tables and bars and started cheering the guests to join them in the YMCA dance. It was shit funny. Think about it some few tunes from the past actually still has it for a good party. Man i admire the thing called music. It is simply amazing. There is no way round it. I have said it for years music is, besides food, the most important engredient for the human kind. It just really gets to your bones in all kinds of ways. You your self know what it does to just you. I know what it does to me too. Yeah Hard Rock Cafe was a cool place to end our dayin Vegas. Yeah I know you may be thinking what the hell you only stayed half a day? The answer is yes a quick in and out. I speak for both of us though when I say we had a blast. It was simply a thrill to have taken this ride out here. Loved it. And got something memorial home with me too. Lot of new Vince stuff and also the inked little thing. You should all have been there with me. I felt happiness for the day. It was so cool. Nothing was better ....

We then sat after eating waiting for the freaks to come in Joelle and the rest of them. Lol. They came but way, way, later than we had agreed to. What the fuck it was alright. To begin with we wanted to get out of Vegas no later than 5 or 6PM. Yeah right. We added with the tattoos we got done added with the Hard Rock and more.... we simply stayed way longer . took a lot of pictures and shot a line of video clips. nice to have the little things for a memo later in life right? Sure thing. But as they finally came in to the hard rock joelle etc. We sat and talked a bit and had a fairly blast i would say. The situation was a little so and so due to me and corinna but also cause we never met for as long as we had wanted to now we finally were there. That was kind of sad. We all got a few pictures taken and rejoined in fresh group photos. Loved it. I like these fucks as said and i think it was new picture time for my arcives to have. Joelle had a few things for me like older TV show tickets and newspaper. It was nothing much but as all should know by now everything small is appreciatd too. Simply cause it ads the collection up to that higher step on the latter. It all makes the collection grow. So surely I appreciate it more than one may think?!! Thanks a lot girl you re so very sweet. I have missed talking to you for too long....
So nice to have this new chance to catch up.

From there we went outside were offered to stay and all. But we kind of had to go back to Hollywood even though it was like 11PM soon. Nothing to do about it. We had things to do in the morning before the evening show in San Bernadino. So no other obtion. But even though we had stayed there way longer than planned it was really appreciated that we did. Thank you Corinna for this and all the day brought. I am really grateful for the day. You can only guess how I feel ... Thank you!!!

The ride home was ... peeewww hard. Hard to stay awake and we couldnt either. Corinna who was the driver had to pull over and lay down a bit I think we stayed there for a good 2 and a half hours cause as we woke up or maybe it had just been me sleeping it was nearly 3Am. And we had still a good couple of hours to go. we went by a gas station in death Valley or something I bought post cards not to send home but to keep as souveniers. it was cool to have these from places I had been at. Now the state f nevada could be added to the states I had vicited in my life. Have done most of them now I think. In there we at the gas station we bought some vanilla coffee and had a small stretch legs a piss and alla in all it was a nice 5 minute rest and well needed. We heard poison all the way home again. The first album Corinna had bought at the Hollywood Towr Records that to my huge suprise was now closing down and going out of business. I was in shock. this was the place I had had so many great memories from. It was a cool place and my friend Kevin had worked here and all. It was insaine. To loose all that was not appreciated. man the next Hollywood vicit on my part will not have the Tower Records no more. I can not believe this. It is like so not real. We drove up to the hotel round 5AM Saturday morning.... what a cool fucking day it had been. Still as of now thinking back on this trip to Las vegas looking at my still still fresh tattoo I remember every detail so very well. Again Corinna thanks for doing this and being able to push yourself so hard on the driving for us to do all this. I am highly appreciating this. Thanks for a great time.

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15th of november 200SIXX, Lost Diaries Part One
3:45PM CET
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I am back home but there are so many stories I have to fill you in on from the USA trip last week. I normally post them as they are written and they are normally written the day they are experienced. But we had major labtop trouble so there was none made. I apologies for this mess and try to make it up to you here and now.
Thursday the 9th of November - this was planned to be yet another Crue History day... it never fully became one. Let me tell you the story. We got up and took off around 9:30 AM local time there in Hollywood. had plans for going to Calabasas, Rodondo Beach. and other places today. It was not to happen. As we drove off and were almost at the first stop an old house and home address of Mick Mars Corinna got a call she had hoped for could have been yesterday. In short she has replied for a job at the hospital in San Diego or parts of the city at a place she wanted to get an interviee set up. She of course heard nothing till after we had left and were on way to this place being Mars´house. I can only say this; It was cool for her to have this call now that she actually was in the area. And she really wanted me with her for directions and shit. She seems pretty lost going alone. And that is fine .. I would never mind helping her on this. Actually now that she did wanna move out here it was cool to have the interview at the hospital at the same time. Only for me it was a long nothing but a waing day and a los for me and a line of crue historic locations. Simply because we had to leave after the first place was documented. It took a good long 90 minutes to go south and the interview took 2 hours and 35 minutes. Plus the ride back it was dark already at 6PM there so we got to do that one location only. I was ok with her interview but surely also dissapointed this was why I had gone to Hollywood with her. And a full day was waysted for me. Not for her. It was so fucking bugging me the last hour I sat there alone in the car waited for her to come back from the talk. Neither of us had any idea how long it could or would take. but still it sucked ass. I just really hope she gets it. The job that is. She will know in a good 2 weeks.

The location and house we did see felt really weird him had living here. Mick Mars. It was liek an ordinary area and nothing high class or fancy at all. Oh well we went and we saw and it is filmed and photographed so we got that one in the can too. I felt kind of weird having this address being his but then again a lot about the boys as we really get to it feels weird. And not at all as fancy as one can think it to be. It is a weird thing. But of cause as always shit cool to go round and see these things. I am totally happy about it. It makes me really feel good. I love it. No one still to this day even though the lost relationship between us and all and yes I do miss her... no one have so far made themselves equal with her about sharing the shit with me. Did that one make sence? I am not entirely sure but she still stands out as the one to show most willingness to do all this with me. I thank her for that too.
But this day of Thursday was not the coolest in the name of Motley Crue. Kind of a wasted day for me. Oh well cant change that now. and we had more coming the day after .. which would actually turn out to be a shit cool day!!!

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9th of November 200SIXX, Bowl Ball N Pacific Ocean
4PM Local California
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The Tuesday night ended with the show at the Hollywood Bowl obviously. That place is just all together a gold mine. Its so cool, awesome sound and all. Totally out of the ordianary. Loved it. We got there a good 45 minutes before show time and the place was packed with cars and shit. Damn that was like a little city in its own. Really cool. Was kind of looking forward to this one it was the bands first time there at the bowl and it had to be a cellebration for them ....and with their own long time wish ...doing it with Aerosmith. Oh yeah baby they had to do good. But they hit the stage and things sadly had gotten to be just the next written chapter in dissapointments. Vince is a done toast. he just doesnt have it no more. He sucks. Sorry people but that man has had his days.
I was not exactly psycked about seeing them but being there was the shit. And yes they ended up with another crappy show. Cause Mr. Neil cant cut the cake in proper order. Shit that fact begins to hurt my bones more than I can even care to start saying. What a shame. I feel so sad about that. Its a stinker of a feeling and there is nothing one can do about it. They were so not cool. Shape up or bowout before its getting too embaressing please. Its a mystery to me why no one at the managemnt or Sixx doesnt take actions to this crap.
Oh well enough said It was bad .. we stayed for Aerosmith they were superb here. It was sick. And guess who attended the show: Slash, John Corabi, Steve O (BOD producer) Lemmy and more. It was al lthe people thaty either wqanted to see something cool past members or just respectful rockers that rockd the joint. Man it ws killer. We had super seats in my opinion. Not front row but 3rd. Seats in booth and all. Toptally cool. The weather was excellent not steaming not rain no nothing .All perfect. Everything about this eve was perfect part from... Motley.

Headed home to the hotel after this show well after a shot cruise up the Sunset and back. It was crazy. But what a night it was. What a first day. Loved it.

Wednesday morning was meant to be a 7AM start too but after I got up wnt ofr fresh awesome and excellent morning coffee had my shower Corinna was long gone she was so beat it was sick. I let her sleep. But did some diary shit and all. Yeah she was all cool. Not saying much lol. How ever as she did get up and got ready it was closing in on noon local time and we had a long drive should we manage todays program. Hell dude it was wild. So off we went. Started by grabbing a visit in the Beverly Hills.... to visit the house the man upstairs. GOD!! Mr., Gene Simmons home and ressidence. Fuck me if we found it. Yes we did and it was beautiful. I loved it . Obviously we could not come in there but helloooo we stood by the gateway and filmed and took shots. Shit I loved it. It was a long time small dream for me. He lives like 7 minutes away from the Whiskey A GoGo and al lwe know. But what a fucking cool house and place. I have to admit the man did the shit and is now living the shit.

From God to king of comedy in my mind. Stan Laurel and Oliver Hardy. Yeah I know they have been dead longer than myself being alive. But we went by both their houses and took a few shots. I loved it. As I often sy ... "its been documented next location". That was like 2 times a minute that I lived on alone. I had so many memories from watching these two idiots and here I was standing in front of their houses now. Stil lthere and people still live in them. Whom ever they may be.

Then we wanted to go to Marilyn Monroe house but missed a turn and will do it later. We just continued down Santa Monica Blvd. and all the way to the sea. Down to the Pacific Coast Highway turned right and headed towards Malibu!!! I had the location address to Tommy and Pamela Andersons house when it was them at their peak and them in tragedy. This was the house you can see all about in the VH1 presents a celleb in his own castle. That was cool. Now of course they are not together nor do they live there any of em. And the house now is a manssion ofor clean and rehab individuals. Yes sir. But shots were taken and video was shot best way possible. So yeah it was alright. The field or rather hills behind the house where Tommy rode all his dirt bikes and shit. Saw it all.

Pretty cool. Off and crossing the road in the mountains here to head to the yearly held and famous Skylar Neal Golf Turnament. At the Malubu Golf Club. Found it did it biut sadly forgot to video shoot that one. Stole a sign though. "Course Closed" lol, lol!!!
You know what I mean? So we took off from there and thought kind of that that was really not much from the outside never went in. But I am sure that inside it was cool. Really awesome. It has to kind of be doesnt it? its Malibu for the rich and fame as the clubs gets in the swing. You get the hint.

From there it was just so way more north. For what? Well the hotel of the famous 1986 world known wedding. Tommy Lee and Heather Locklear. yes sir. And i gotta say this .. its beautiful that coast ride up to Santa Barbara. ANd the hotel itself .. hell that has got to be the coolest I have ever laid eyes on myself. Up to 4000 dollars a night per room. ANd think about it Tommy and Heather had 500 guests there and ..well do I need to say more? Shit. All in al lit was a blast. Super unreal place. Went through it all and just had the video and camera running nuts. Loved it.

From there we went south again toward Oxnard to see the old 1981 venuen that had the band playing there one time only. The band was here asked to never come back as they never paid their fee for renting the venue. Bad? You can say that but bad for whom? The band? The management? Or for the venue itself?? You decide. I have to say it was strange to see it. Most of all the places that holds some sort of history attached to the band does that to me in one way or another. I guess it was a quick visit there but it was really beginning to be rather dark now. Here even though its warn as fuck still its dark after 6PM. The sun sets low and quickly dissapears behind the mountains here. Its crazy ... we had like one more location still to do. And it was just well a chance to take so we needed the fastest way out I guess. So we went.

It was like a not too long way to go. A good 25 minutes and we had the shit located from the out of L.A. venues this was the one from the early years. The much talekd about Countery Club in Reseda. Not too long away from Hollywood really but still. We found it it was kind of dark to film anything so it was mostly photos from there. And then home like Hollywood and now. There went another day. Cool sightings but another long day too....
We did not go out late simply cause we were counting on two long days tomorrow and the day after .. so .. from that day Wednesday in Hollywood.. cherrio mutha fuckers
Lee

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8th of November 200SIXX, First Day
9:15PM CET
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After having been up 39 hours before turning to bed last night I still got up after only 4 hours of sleep like 5:30 AM local time. Why? Cause we had a downtowm LA thing to go through. Some locations that we wanted to have under our belts in terms of more video and more photos .. so as I get home again next week look for more added things in the Meet N Greet section on here. Now it was a tired Tommy and Corinna that both got up but the morning hotel free coffee was excellent so it all had a great start for the day.

Well as you all know women taks a good half a life time to get ready in the morning so up this early meant that we could be and were ready to head out the door at around 8:30 in the morning. We took of and left for downtown Los Angeles. have never been there myself so it was an experience. I can understand why people would feel nervous and overlook signs and shit there are a gaillion of them down there and they can be really hard to see if you are nervous to start with.

Well we got there anyway found the Forum. The arena that has so much Crue history to it and all. And we found the store / company / what ever where the band and Supernova singers from the TV show and Tommy himself have bought their stuff. We got in and I taped a small video interview with Tod, one of the guys that has build this thing up as a designer company. It was awesome. I loved it. he told us about their latest things and how they got in touch to work with Crue last year and more. It was a thing that I think no one has ever done. As a fan I guess. I have a line of things in my mind about things and places that are simply too cool to miss if you have this kind of interest. So further on to the place of court rooms and more for the case of CBS on new years eve 2004 and more. Nikki clothing line and deal with Dragonfly and all. The prison that Tommy spend several months in some years back and more. Then heading out of LA again towards Hollywood and shot a few things here. Some places were not documented as I found out by going to certain locations that these places were no more like:

The place Tommy and Pamela ate and caught attention at on Sunset . It was a Sushi bar and now nothing. It was the evening theywent from this meal to go oto the Key Club further down Sunset and attended the Monday night attraction of Metal Skool playuing where Tommy at one point got up on stage and playd drums with them through Girls Girsl Girls. And Pamela started bar dancing as if she was attraction on a strip joint.

Also the Franklin Hotel on Sunset where Nikki Sixx overdosed in 1987. No longer there either. Nor is the tattoo shop where Tommy had his back tribles done on La Brea. A lot of things are gone. Its kind of sad not having documented these places back in the day. O well its way too late now so....

Junker Designs was the name of that thing. And it was like so easy to overlook. It was not a thing a place a store or something that was at all like a store you would think of. It was kind of hidden and it was like really out of the way in the area of where no people go and all. But we rang the bell and then went in. A dude Tod opend the door and then invited us in after having told him who were were. He had been in on this site already and said he thought it was awesome now thats a pretty cool comment to our madness. Thanks dude.

We were aloud to take some photos of things in there and we were aloud to see some things while it was being put together. There was some brand new designs to go on Vince leather pants that were laying there and he signed it out to both of us ((could be a problem)) and he gave it to us as a thanks for coming. Did not go to Vince then this one lol. He has one like it already on his pants side lower left leg. Cool.
But I asked for beong aloud to film a bit in there and tape some questions I had. He gave that permission and its in the can. Pretty cool. Yeah man..Thanks again. This is for the big boys costumers Motley Crue, Aerosmith, and more. Right now they are to work with new things for Mick Mars having a Friday meeting with him some where round here. And They did some things that at tonights concert at the Hollywood Bowl would be givin to Steven Tylers new girlfriend. Plus new man in the list of shopping fames is Iggy Pop. Awesome.

From there to the real downtown end of Los Angeles. The roads can easerly confuse anyone that does not live here. But keep your head cool and focus ONLY on the signs that you are looking for and you will be fine just the same. Its all good. We had one wrong turn in there and other wise all things went smooth. Now off to the court buildings of Nikkis case with Dragion fly and the CBS new years show 2004 where Vince wishes Tommy a happy FUCKING new year. It was right there all the bad mouthing happnd in that building..
Next door almost the court house of the devorse from Donna to the Sixxster. Yep it was all there. And just 2 minutes at the south east corner of the city was the jail that Tommy was spending months in after the Pam abuse and all years back. It was just so weird to see the buildings and knowing the stories you know. I guess you can say the memories and the films rolling in my head suddently had locations added to it in front of my eyes and it all just felt kind of more real.

From downtown Los Angeles we went on to go back to Hollywood. It was just all together okay what we had gone for and seen. So fr not the biggets amount of shit between us either. I have to say I am pleased but also I am on a constant emotional reminder of the cold air that I wanted to be love and heat between two people. But ... well you know the story so on that note I am kind of locked up in an emotional cage and it feels like I am not too happy about that. But I still keep focus on trying to have this as a good way!!! A good trip and a positive something.

Now back to Hollywood and on our way from downtown we tlked about what to do next. I have such much info and locations listed of Crue history that we havenot even touched yet so ...It would be a rathercool thing to have under our belts I would say... But there is no time to do it all. SO its a choice of what to skip.. all the time. There is a location on Santa Mionica Blvd. that holds one of the biggst ever 80s LA hair metal history all together. That place is now in the so caleld dangerous part of Hollywood. Its in the East Hollywood bt I would so fucking like ot go and check it out. SO we took a fast decition and just went. We found it and stopped and a guy was on his way out from that ally between the two buildings there. I tell you it was with a little shaking hand that we urned to him and asked for permission to see the place. Not at all knowing what we were going in to freaked parts of me out. I so badly wanted to see the place my now music retired man of men had been dealing with in the early and mid 80s. Involved in Coffmann management too for the Motley boys. Fuck I was now on my way in.

I cant even begin to describe to you how i felt or what I expected from this place. One thing though I found out that it was so n so still active as a rehearsal location for bands that wanted to rent a roo there for their gear. I would like ot hear how what what and all... so the now manager of the place a seriously SPOOKIE person called Zagg Zagg. He asked questions of what I knew about this place and why I was there. Then out of nowhere he said he turned his back on us and went into a small room where I am pretty sure he actualy lived in private. Holy fuck it was a shit hole a dump and he lived there as if he had lived on the streets. Anyway none of my business i guess. So he turned and said feel free o lok around and in a myserious way he open up he can of coldness and mind trippin for what would be seen here. Fuck dude it was a place with mile long stories from the hay days. Shit if the walls could talk. It was shit cool. But a ratt hole. I could not belive I now got to see this place. It was a highlight for sure. Guns N Roses livedhere while they were still Hollywood Rose and bare ly alive. Steen Adler was there scrubbing floors for a very few dollars aday to takle the band to the local cross street burger bar for food and drinks every day. Poison before they were called Poison and had Bret Michaels in the band. In short this place was shit important ofrhte 80s metal bands history. Tommy lee had this place back in the day as the chosen localplace to come and party out. It was 1983 then. For fuck sake how can I possible type here ...type anything that would justify my feelings for having seen it. Nothing. It was just simply an emptional mindtrip that totally kicked my brains to the 7th heqaven.

At the same time it was sick. Twisted and spookie like hell. I had that feeling like a psycopath was looking at me from holes in the walls and ceilings al lthe time watchin my every move. It was shit seriously givin me goosebumbs. Damn.... The pictures says it all and yet they say nothing. It was insaine... But I went.

After this we just went out of the car sat there and said nothing for many seconds ...then came the feelings and all. I was in a state of mind I could not even begin to describe. It had been shit awesome. Huuu haa..from here it was on to the Sunset and cover the infamous "Palladium" the place that helt the opening night in late 2004 and a good handful of songs played for the first time on stage by the original band since forever and they had a reunion started that simply killed up till spring 2006. Now it sucks. And they have a singer that is not ever gonna be cool again. Its sad I think. How ever we did the Palladium and then started to head back to the hotel for things. Cleared the camera and all for video and pictures. As we were about to do that two busses came in from the Freeway and headed towards West Hollywood and Beverly Hills. Aerosmith and all had arrived in Hollywood for the show at the Bowl. They stay at the Hiatt on Sunset. Yeah it had been a seriously cool day. No ned to say more right no it was a day of many new experiences that had been just all cool. You see it things could have gone very wrong even between us .. but so far not happening. Thank god.

Okay more downtown shit. We had an address to a 1981 rehearsal place. Slash studio facility I guess. We got there but the place was as expected not active like that no more. The pictures here dont really tell but there were like a factory or garage repair kind of thing going on these days. But we found it and it felt kind fo weird to me that they would go from Hollywood and down here back in the Too Fast days as they already had like a line of places in Hollywood to be at. Ohh well it was there and they used it reheased a good 9 songs every day for a longer period of time .COuld have bee to prepare or ciddle around details on the Too Fast album song list before going to recording studio or something I sadly do not know if this was actually the case. So Naomi Street Los Angeles held a bit of early Motley history here then...alright.

From here it was on to the place that helt the 1997 music award show where Pamela introduced the band playing live with the 97 version of the "Shout At The Devil" track. It was located just at the outer corner of the skyline downtown. A place that has this Egypt kind of shaped building with its towers on top of the building and a not too huge place really. But I guess for an event like tht it is not nessesary cause TV kind of does the rest of the work for you. We may all remember the event and their performance but have maybe not a clue about the looks of the building. Here again are a few shots. It was with a curiocity tha we asked the cleaning staff there if we could take a quick pick inside to get the shots and get the feeling of being there kind of. well you have the answer we went in and we did all there was to do ... pretty much nothing .. but the memories of having ben her e now are documented. Thank you very much!!! Vince was back and introduced here now.

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8th of November 200SIXX, So Far So What - For Fuck Sake
7:15PM CET
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Okay now here I am sitting in Los Angeles or actually in the Hollywood glamour. I am not too sure where to start this thing. But I have a line of things have have actually gone really well. And I think it is a good thing so far at least to say I have had some rather cool experiences on the trip that in all honesty was so close to being dropped in the hour of travlling. I was not too happy going. I am still not a changed man on that front about the things that were the reasons for me wanting to cancel. There still is a mountain of pain in this one. Trust me. But on a note about the things that are happening and all its been a fairly good trip so far. Let me try to just sum this one up the best way possible.

-I left home about 11.15PM local time Sunday night from Denmark and I was all up to the last 4 hours still not even close to having packed my stuff. I seriously did not wanna go. Too much heartacke and pain. Too little money and too much worry on a line of things about it all. I felt that this was not right no more.

By 11.15 as said I closed the door behind me and I started out my almost 33 hours long trip to but feet on American soil in the afternoon local time in LAX Los Angeles the next day. I started off by going by train with 4 other people from Grenaa (my home city) to Aarhus a ride that was almost a good hour and a half. Then arrive there a little to 1AM. Wait for another hour and some minutes and board another train to Copenhagen that would take me there after 4 hours and some minutes. To arrive in Kastrup, Copehangen International Airport. Then wait here for another two hours and finally after check in and all I was at the gate about 35 minutes due to take off. It was hell.

Just too long a time for such a shitty little distant. I think there is only one thing to say about it. It had to come the classic headacke. And trust me it came. It was constantly on the edge of either being just a painful headacke OR going that one step further and making me puke like shit. Thank god the last obtion never happend. But most likely only due to the fact that after I arrived in Heathrow, London, England I went to the phamacy and got myself some pills Man it was bad it was extremely bad. Also to my own suprise I got Corinna a toll free only available double thick plasticlimited Jack Daniels bottle set for a good 52 US dollars. I knew she collectd this shit and I again felt like I was just wanting to be nice to her.

In the UK while waiting for my flight from there to Los Angeles directly I sat and waited again for some time. Could not get water to take my pills either before we had actually boarded the plane. I began to feel realy ill. I had not been eating much and also not drinking enough that was a fact in it self but hell I also had a really bad feeling about the whole trip to begin with so no fucking wonder I felt and got ill. You see there was only so much to do about it. My pain was real and my financial situation was a stinker. There were plenty of well deserved doubts and issues that made me sit in the "I DONT WANNA GO" situation to begin with. God damn it I was torn to pieces. Boarded the doubledecker flight to L.A. with a good 20 minutes delay - of course. Its always happening to me. God damn it. Sucks. But thank god it was a delay for the final flight had no connecting flights after this one so it kind of did not matter.

You see I kind of have this shitty feeling all the time that this trip would be bad. But at the same time i also knew this was to be my last one in a hell of a long time. It simply was not cool to be without no matter the emotional turbulence. Fuck it is hard to explain in words. Cause the feeling is so massively strong you cant even begin to understand.

I have been sitting with a few cool friends that knows about my situation Joelle in california. Tine in Aarhus Denmark and all and they all said go or you will regret it but also think hard. The pain is there no matter if you go or stay home. The expensences have been paid already and you would after you get better only regret not going. Thanks guys I guess you were right so here i am....

The plane from London to L.A. was super cool. A hell of a jet. My god. It was a huge and awesome comftable fucker of a metal monster taking us all to the skies. The serving staff in my section were bloodie awesome. I have never met a cooler guy in this line of work ever. So awesome. but the black Brazillian kid next to me was a shithead. Constantly moving in and out of his fucking seat. laughing out loud. Takling loudly in his sleep and more. Man some shit head. But time passed on anyways and guess what, after my pills and a couple of things to eat I tried to sleep a little and most likely did and now i felt better. Motley Crue were on my mind too. But sadly I missed the good thoughts and all about the band. It just was not there. I guess there was a line of things that had led me to this shitty position about the band and there was nothing it seemed that could take me away from that feeling.

I watched none less than 4 movies onboard this flight. "Pirate of the Carribean II", good one "Cars" the animated movie about emotional and talking cars .. so n so ..not too cool. But with a few good messeges to the people I guess. Then 2 more I cant even fucking remember. All in all I got over tired but could not sleep. All I did was minding my worries about the whole thing. The concern about the sucking ass tour we were to see again. The situation with my head and the freaky guy next to me. I never fully slept anything. Fuck!! But with a heck of a lot of turbulence in the air and in my head we got to our destination a good 30 some minutes late and then we had it coming. Los Angeles in sight. Down from 36000 feet and below the lower clouds and we were safe. The landing was sick too. Like we were side sliding for a minute. It was crazy a few people around me gave up a little scream or signal as they did not feel safe about the landing at all.

Off the plane and in line for costume and immigration it took forever today cause all of a sudden thought the lines were shit long two officers left their fucking booth and not to return. So we ended up in a line of a good 100 or so thanks to my racing down to get as far up to the front as possible I did not have as long a time as the rest of the poor fucks behind me. But it still took forever. And as it was my time it took 50 seconds to get through. The officer said man you have been here a lot of times (he could see the marks in passport) the last couple of years youre probably good for it have a nice visit. Welcome to the US.
Yeah thanks pal....have a great day..

Then off to baggage claim that went smoothly. My only suitcase was already there. And my mind began to wander about the things to do. The Motley shows and all. Yeah I had a time coming that could be either fairly cool or really stinky bad. Grabbed my suitcase and then it was off to finding Corinna. Or at least try to. That too was easy. Well hi and hello to you my sadly missed ex.
How are you? She had been waiting here for like 5 some hours already. And she had not had a cool trip. Been sick and all on boaurd the plane. We were absolutely off for a good start huhh!!
Now we needed our car and to get to that we needed the airport shuttle to the rental car place ...well there we went. It was insaine. Back "home" !!
Welcome T-boy welcome to the place you had huge plans for to move to. Welcome back. Enjoy.
As we found our way out of the L.A. area we took off to Hollywood a road we or I began to know by the back of my hand. It felt weird yet soooo good to be here one last time this year.

Whitley Street in Hollywood was in sight and we ....drove up checked in and then left al our baggae there and went to get somthing to eat. The very first thing I paid for in the states got to be a pizza. lol. I was so freaky hungry it was sick. We had on our way to Hollywood from the airport gone by a grossery store and done a little shopping. So it was a cheap way to get started. Food for a few days and drinks and all. Yeah this was a good choice.

Now the trip had begun and we were to have a final ride in the Hollywood land for our Crued Motley passion. A lot of places to visit and document as we get to them....There goes the Monday and the first day for this USA trip. It had now turned in to Tuesday it was now 1:15Am and I had been up for like 39 hours. I was waysted as the trash I can think of.
Tomorrow Tuesday it will all start ....again welcome to another diary in the adventures of US trips.
I will try to make the best of it for sure, your fucked up host Tommy Lee

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5th of November 200SIXX, A passionate Move Has Never Been Tougher
3:52PM CET
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I am still not entirely sure that this my LAST chapture in the name of Motley crue 2006 is a wise and wanted move. I feel on top of things have not been breaking down as such but been extremely bad feeling down and sat with more than an empty feeling. I do not feel for going to L.A. this evening. But my own self says I should. Should as I will not get to these places that were originally planned for Corinna and myself should I stay home tonight. I know I can be there and i know I can do all planned. But I will do it with a feeling inside that is so in the way of anything that has to do with pleasure and joy. Nothing can change that little fact. I feel really bad for the sake of all that has changed in my life with is more or less everything I have planned and done my first step preperations for. Now I can take all that and showe it up my ass. I have a good 6 hours left till the train takes me through Denmark to the other end and there by Copenhagen and the international airport. It is not a thing I like to do right now and I have not at all started packing should I go. Never ever have I felt this before about travelling. The sadest point I think is that my "then partner" cant no matter how hard she tries see there should be anything to be down about. All there is of changes is NO SEX. I cant help but think there is no way on earth any person with a brain cant see the huge change at least for one of the two. My whole life has changed due to the things not in it no more.

What on earth can possibly be said to cover my shock from her reactions towards me?I have none, absolutely no idea what so ever.
I did get to see the last and ending part of a great spring summer turn into litterally a fall and winter in many ways. I see darkness and cold, pain and other troubles i can not just clear from mind just like that. What the hell is possible for me to do? I have no absolutely no idea. It sucks to be here now and it will suck to be there. But I think the last straw will tell me to get my ass in gear and have that misserable flight. I seriously need that one thing. One trip and just close the doings and all. I know of none other that does not have the slightest interest in other peoples well being and more. So I cant say I do a smart move by going into the company of this either. But then again I know there most likely isnt any good solution. So take a pick and stick to it. No matter what I do it will feel wrong. End of story. So why not just go. Just go and experience and then you know ...return and say i got this and that under my belt too now. It will for sure be the last as said all along. I cant do more trips more anything and now things have to be looked at from another angle too with my life.

A passionate move like this one has never been tougher. And I hate it. its another fucking eample of what I have said so many times before. Involve another being in my doings to be shared and things will go wrong. It fucking sucks ass!!! Not to be argued about. Hate the fucking fact. Now I pack my ass away eat something and then I see what will be off from all this mess. I will return in a couple of hours.... hate this.

5:20 it is no different but I have decided to close my eyes from the shit to come and just go to L.A.
I am not at all up for it and it kills me. It brings me to tears. I never thought this particular girl would and could ever hurt me. But without even trying too hard she has done a perfect job. My inner guts are screaming for ending this suffering. I wanted this year to come 2007 to be the new and perhaps life long first year in my "new" life. What happend....yeah right. I am without words of what to say and / or do about this. I guess the only medicine would be time. Time heal all wounds? Yeah kind of. I fully agree to that one but I will never see what was so highly wished for. And that perhaps is the biggest suffering of all part from the dissapointment in her ways of seeing me. And allthings always . no Tommy fucking stop this shit dont type no more on this matter and try focus on the Crue.

Motley crue - fall tour 2006 ...said it before and i can again, I do not like this tour. I feel really dissapointed about everything that has my passion this fall of the god for saken year 2006. God damn it. I need to let Nikki know another new happening about me but that is not really for this site or anything. So I will go around that one. I really hope you can all bare with me on the turbulence I am going through this and every storm has an end and I will come through this one too. But my god it takes time. There have been a huge setback too in the eBay actions taken against me and their fucking policy has limited me from a line of doings now. Thats really not helping me on the front of being a collector as you can so easerly imagine. Hell no.

There arent too much to say other than this really. It would only sound like an old recorded 7" same ol song and dance. Nothing new should I carry on. There for - this will be the last before my travel to the other side (of the globe) and return the 15th here. I am not sure if I will be posting from over there. If I can then yes. Other wise I will just keep all written down and then post the diaries as i return home.
Thats all . have a plesant week. Your fucked up host - Tommy

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4th of Novemebr 200SIXX, Let It Rest In Peace - Damn It
11:33AM CET
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Saturday morning. Not a thrilled boy today. I am having so many second thoughts about not leaving my home to go for tickets to the train that tomorrow night ALL NIGHT should take me to the international Airport in Copenhagen. It sucks. This feeling about not really wanting to go. Not really wanting to be with this trips partner. I have gotten everythiing about this out on a side track that simply is nothing but a heartless, painful totally ass sucking activity if I do go. There are about 20 minutes till this place with the tickets is closing. What the fuck. I really dont know what to do .I am without words I tell you this much. I am so not cool with what is moving inside of me. I have also to saý that this trip holds so many cool last time things in itself. The last history round trip of Motley places, the concerts in Hollywood and at the old place of their 83 break through at the US Festival 83. All these things should be reasons enough to go. But I have this very over shadowing thing, and its killing me.

I am so all about company, good times and what that brings. And it used to be like this way back in time for the company going. It is not a thing I care going more in on. It is just kind of killing the pleasure and the REAL reason for going. So what do one do...I guess I could at least make a covered kind of guarentee with the tickets. 11 mins till closing. I guess I will go and get the tickets should I not use them then fuck it. If I do not buy it and then at the last minute wanna go then I am screwed. I will be back....Give me 15 minutes.

Back its done now let me see how I feel as the time comes tomorrow for leaving. I am not really cool with it right now. Feels like there is nothing but bad things going on. And since I hate the tour of this fall to begin with I have a huge need for the company and the doings to be great. But that is not gonna happen it seems. I will have to win myself over and kind of just say okay, this is a trip alone and though there is another person with you you have to just kind of pretend there isnt - really. Find me 3 people that can tell me that is still a cool idea. Its not its a bloody waste of everythign there is about it.

I guess my diaries from there will be none covering of anything else but my view to things. Just leave out any more of this emotional shit. That also means these diaries could become very short and quiet none personal. The touch in open up my mind and soul to you all would be buried. Its been a rather long time since I had something really positive to say here and it kind of kills me big time.
Now what is up on other Crue doings? Well, there is no more eBay auctions for me to join in on thats a thing. On there is this second and latest worn late 2005 early 2006 shirt of This auction brought to you by swagrox.com the offical store for nikkisixx.net is for a Autographed Nikki Sixx Red Plaid Stage Vest. Size is X-Large made by Mad Toys. Item is signed in black marker on the back. Also has F**K patches on the upper and lower front panels as well as skull patches on the collars. Back has Sixx patch work over a screened skull as well as a F**K you xxx screen, & a screen at the bottom that says i am just a rock 'n roller with another skull patch to the left of that...This is a rare opportunity to buy a real STAGE collectable item worn by Nikki Sixx! And to help the Kids of Running Wild in the Night. Motley Crue bassist Nikki Sixx founded The Running Wild in the Night Foundation, which is dedicated to raising funds for Covenant House. Covenant House is the largest privately-funded childcare agency in the United States providing shelter and service to homeless and runaway youth

I love to have this one too buut I am not a registered user no more. Really cool. Fucking not. I will just have to NOT go do anything and too much looking on there no more. Period. I am not gonna say I dont care about the eBay situation on my part. I do but I just wont continue to do all there is to be done in the battle of reinstate the account and all. Its just kind of like a FUCK IT!! I am so worn out on the matter of the constant fighting and solving with people around me. You have no idea. I am just sick of this stupid and childish ongoing bullshit. I dont know what to say about anything of this matter. I dont even have alot of thoughts no more just . a simple tiredness filling my body!! Things were so cool till the end of spring and early summer this year but there after things have really step by step gone down hill.

There have been a few ofers to me on two extremely cool collectibles. One is the front stage curtains to the legendary 1987 "Girls Girls Girls" tour. Its mind blowing how cool a collectible these curtains could be as part of one dudes private collection. Its just things you either thought were long gone not around no more or maybe at a place with no really ways of ever getting these bastards offered. They are still in really great shape. And this was the tour that really fucked the members up and took Nikki and Tommy to their high in cocaine and other drug abuse. Took Sixx to visit death for a brief moment and thats all. Sure these stage curtains are really wanted ....time will tell if they are gonna be mine at all. Then there is the US part of the 1985 Theatre tour the stage used huge backdrop behind Tommy`s kit. hell were they for that use only? I think so but awwweeesome item to hold in your hands and say THIS IS MINE!!!!! I own this baby. Holy hell brother its a cool thing to have. I would love to get it. Buut ime will tell. Right now there are no way in earth I can had it been like RIGHT NOW!!

Its just some things that many dont understand what are worth in sentimental value. And there even have people turning to Jesse asking him why would I want something that have been up on stage? What is with that? Well people no comments. If you dont collect like massively and from the heart you can and would never understand. I have a good 20 years of experience with this so its really of no point that I say eny more on that one. So I wont say anything. I just think I have a good emotional reasons to why I would die to have them though. As said time will tell but time is limited for grabbing these bastards so I will have to see what the hell can be done. I will have to get pass new years to do even, a minimal of serious concideration to this one. Due to financial reasons. And the story is not any longer than that!!

Okay I think this will do for now.. as I reach a deciion to my going or not I will have a posting done tomorrow about it and how things are ... so stay put and as always thanks for stopping by. We truely do appreciate your support in every way. Peace Tommy
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1st of nov 200SIXX, Cheap Wedesday Entertainment
10:30PM CET
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I have after all, on top of some sick experiences today had some rather joyful times this evening .. Who would have thought a huge passionate thing like collecting these fucks could actually be a tearful laugh from two sick no cure in sight diehards ....even though we arent too well with the daily feeling about things. Man I have sitting with one brother, a work of art I tell you guys, its a stinky brother to have he is the funniest shit on my lawn and I love him to death. One day in 2007 the to be chosen location will be so in trouble as we knock the doors down there and grab a piece of fun night out.....

here is what I talk about......I have gotten some rather awesome cool collectibles offered today and the joke is ... you gotta be sick if you do this but I fully understand. Lol...
On messenger with my man for a good while . here is a part of that crap. I laugh so I almost pissed myself.
lee2@tdcspace.dk siger: huge fuckers
Brother siger: Damn they are
lee2@tdcspace.dk siger: hell yeah
Brother siger: Is that the last of his Motley stuff?
lee2@tdcspace.dk siger: nahh but by far the best two pieces I think
Brother siger: I see
lee2@tdcspace.dk siger: what you think
Brother siger: Man that is quite a load. do you think anyone else would even buy it though - that is alot of $$
lee2@tdcspace.dk siger: hmmm.. good question.
Brother siger: I mean it is kool as fuck to us, and we are the guys willing to pay, but really who else is gonna pay that for something so huge
lee2@tdcspace.dk siger: I could not say .. but there most likely is a person like me or two out there that thinks like me .. FUCK THE BUCKS its an emotional thing ... nothing less nothing more and if the number on the tag is high then .. well tough, I just would not know ..
Brother siger: I would try to get him down some more
lee2@tdcspace.dk siger: but my inner feelings tell me that I may have lost this / these if I dont.. cause there always is a fucker out there when I get things offered . and dont take , you know... my life is filled with that luck
Jesse siger: Yeah. I guess. You would know more than i in this situation
ee2@tdcspace.dk siger: he hehe
Brother siger: Like when I had the chance to get Tommy's SATD drum kit. That killed me not having the loot and the price was right
lee2@tdcspace.dk siger:

Jesse I have paid 3000 bucks for the two 1981 original contracts alone - actually a little over - money is a stinker .... but no matter the amount ones its paid I no longer think about it ....have i bought something
Brother siger: yeah
lee2@tdcspace.dk siger: do I scare you?? He he ....im fucked up i know
Brother siger: No, i just don't have those rsources anumore
lee2@tdcspace.dk siger: i hear ya
Brother siger: I was the same way for a while when I first discovered ebay. It put me in the whole deep. I'm still diiging out of that one
lee2@tdcspace.dk siger: who does in the ways they have their things done these days of modern times.....put ya in the hole....its freaky. He he he
Sorry not laughing AT you but it is..
Brother siger: Yeah
lee2@tdcspace.dk siger: why do we do this
Brother siger: I don't know
lee2@tdcspace.dk siger: why do we agree to put ourselves so far out for this
Brother siger: sometimes i think it's a disease
lee2@tdcspace.dk siger: why, why, why, ha ha it is
Brother siger: with no cure
lee2@tdcspace.dk siger: its a junkie thing .. just not through a needle
Brother siger: only temp. sanity....yep
lee2@tdcspace.dk siger: yep, he he
Brother siger: ha ha ha...Yeah some of the stuff i bought then...what i see it worth now. FUCK!! I over paid alot and made out alot
lee2@tdcspace.dk siger: i hear you there too....so have i done
Brother siger: I've got like 5 copies of the GGG tour book that aren't worth shit
lee2@tdcspace.dk siger: he he - some way you put things bro "not worth shit" ...he he he he
Brother siger: yeah, must be funny to read those american terms
lee2@tdcspace.dk siger: no different in these parts of the fucking world - poor thing .. he heh e you crack me up ... cant see my eyes are all watered ... he h
Brother siger: ha ha, well gald to see I'm not the only one who finds my ways funny. I wonder how I'm to take myself serious
lee2@tdcspace.dk siger: wait till meet mine its the cheapest entertainment youll ever find
Brother siger: sometimes I can't help but say FUCK if it's what i want fuc it...no need to please others
lee2@tdcspace.dk siger: go see a dr pls he he he
Brother siger: ha ha - I canceled my appointment last week can you tell. ha ha
lee2@tdcspace.dk siger: it shows yeah, if there is any legal or none legal medication ofr this crap.. buy me a glass. This convesation has got to go on in my next diary
Brother siger: ha ha
lee2@tdcspace.dk siger: you stopped . dont go into shick my friend .shock,.. shit
Brother siger: My shick is thinking of big boobies
lee2@tdcspace.dk siger: really
Brother siger: another weakness
lee2@tdcspace.dk siger: got spare parts?
Brother siger: or disaese
lee2@tdcspace.dk siger: what else can you call it? pleasure? hobby? if so ppl will judge you as a sick perve, gotta have a night out at a bar withyou one day he he
Brother siger: Yeah yeah last time at the boobie bar we got thrown out in true Motley fashion
lee2@tdcspace.dk siger: ohh no what the heck did you do now?
Brother siger: 5 hours of drinking and leaving with the dancers he he - Me nuthin'
lee2@tdcspace.dk siger: not quiet as fancy but I intend to be thrown out of fucking bowling centers locally ...wtf
Brother siger: nuthin' i'll admitt too - they have bowling over there?
lee2@tdcspace.dk siger: jesse what do you think? Its not quiet the planet MArs here yet
Brother siger: ha ha - I thought that was more a american way to waste time
lee2@tdcspace.dk siger: no its world wide .. only funny thing about it is in Japan... weird lill creatures biiiggg balls
lee2@tdcspace.dk siger: Japan loves anything american yeah, ha ha ha ha
Brother siger: goofie eyed too wonder if they actually see straight, always be aware of the silent types and the small thingies you and I
lee2@tdcspace.dk siger: ... pretty simple straight up and all.. just plain fruitcakes but who cares in the end never thought a home alone night on a
Wednesday could be this entertaining!!!!
Brother siger: ha ha

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1st of November 200SIXX, Cheesy News & Winter
6:59AM CET
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So it happend. The eBay blocked me and my account for good. A totally bad thing and childish thing is the reason. I have asked a contact in USA to have my wins shipped there for shipping savings and they felt a violation was made. Fuck it I am not gonna go in to all that. Its a stinky weird way and so ...almost kindergarden behaviour its sick!! I am right now not gonna be doing a comma on eBay no more so who knows where this shit will take me. I have a few offers for things but I need really need to get some numbers on the table to see what can be done early next year. I think most of the things that are really cool will pass me at least all listed on eBay I have no account no more and they are not gonna be hearing from me on and on and on about reopening my account. I told them it was wrong I have done NOTHING but their policy is I guess their policy!!

Now the people at Swagrox and motley.com have again listed the second oftheir test pressed long sleeve Nikki shirts and more is about to come from him the next 4 to 6 weeks as it looks right now.
Vince Neil is opening his Tattoo shop in Vegas on friday and The 2,200-square-foot shop located at the Flamingo in the area where O'Shea's Irish pub is being replaced will be part of "a rock and roll vibe" in the space. Also

The adding of all Crue articles and tickets and smaller things got on the site yesterday. You can see them all under "looks" on the www.mcrueloyalty.dk site. More will be done today. Today and tomorrow will see most of the solo adding and it takes a good time to get the changes in mind done and also added the new stuff or the solos of Tommy, Vince and Nikki. There are picks, posters, articles, magazine covers and more just wait it will all be up shortly. You just return to this site every now and then and I guess I then have to see what will be next!! But things will come ....

Dont know really what else to do or add to this posting right now. Not much else in the Crue world for me is going on right now part from adding the latest stuff. Today is just another damn day of normalcy and boredome. That part of life is ripping me apart slowly but surely. Its sick. November huhh? God how time flies by. Later Tx

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31st of October 200SIXX, Spooked!! In More Ways Than One
4:56PM CET
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So its here huhh! Halloween 2006 is here and for the day today only. Bg thing in the states a little less to nothing here. God bless it. Suckers. Spooked!! Fuck I got scared myself this morning . What the hell. All that was around to wamke up to was a suspended eBay account and it was nothing but a bad feeling. Limits all there ever is to buy from. What the fuck. The reason is rediculous and it is not a thing I even wanna spare a line on here about. I have contacted them and said heyy fuckers listen up this is the stupidest policy... what the fuck.... part from that I have more or less ONLY had a so and so day. I am about to add more right this very minute but I seriously dont care for anything about going to the states this coming Monday! I am just not really up for it. Always like to be there but the whole feel about it with the ex and all just limits the joy. I am not an ego fucker but I have ( I admit this ) placed my ass on a self made ego cause and I will perhaps learn to be just as huge a fuckhead as I see others in this business. Let it be allabout me, me, me, me, me!!! And to hell with the others aroundme part from the one... Jesse!!

People really one by one seem to just really dissapoint my ass big time. Ohh well dont cry over spilled milk! Yeah right buddy! not easy to just say it like that and be a sport about it. I think there are a good portion of dissapointment that sadly has ruled my doings in life a little too long and a little too much the last 15 years of my life. you see ift really is quiet "funny" a lot of the times I have been doing something involving other people then shit goes wrong and mostly when I do things solo .. mostly... then things go well. How can that be? Anyone? An idea? No? Well, it just gets extremely fustated very, very often and I cant say I particulourly like it. Right now the addings are in full gear. For the people that have not figured out the NEW section items yet here is what is so far added: Posters, CDs, Vinyls, This N That, Magazine Posters, Magazine Covers, and tonight the Magazine Covers will be finished and the articles will get started on.... more to come too after this.

And with the new Paul Stanley CD on and spinning "LIVE TO WIN" .. things kind of get into a perfect created frame for the evening. I liked the album before I saw him solo this month. .... "you make me bulletproof thats what you I feel ...when I am next to you... " .... uhhhh great fucking album. After seeing him .. I love it even more. I miss my KISS days but there is not a rotten apple in my basket. So there wont be a secind attempt of my KISS re collecting. No sir!!! I have my fucked Hollywood men in Crue and that functions fine. I just need to find them doing something cool agian. And end this fucking tour. I hate it. Go Stanley.......Woops sorry lads...I didnt mean to .. well you know. Or do you? Lol..... "I cant take it Ive been working myself to the bone.......I dont care where it ends tonight its all about you.." damn paul welcome back and to the solo stages cross America. Hell youre good.

Motley Crue wins and contacts have gotten lost the last 24 hours for multi reasons. Web shit account fuckers and more. I almost give in. This is simply too much of a good thing ....NOT !!!
I think I will simply have to just sit and wait till this year ends and then see what the heck to do. I realyl do have a ton of things I want and wanted to do and get done but its not the easiest thing to do when other people fucks with your goals and activities and make your ones plain road be an uphill struggle. Im spooked in more ways than one I tell you this much.
Anyway hello Novembr, hello America and goodbye October and other things. Fuck I really have a shit of luck to get my ways. I rarely do. So the new mission is .. BE A DICK BE EGO AND FUL OF IT.
See you on the other side of kindness.......your bitch T Lee

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30th of October 200SIXX, I Pledge .To Rock n Roll
2:20PM CET
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Okay its time for me to get a little note out to you all. The day before halloween is here and there is not gonna be much of that thing going on here for me. Its gonna be a day of work and site update. I have not a halloween party to go to anyway. On another not the Halloween is beginning to come to Denmark too but has never been much of a thing in Scandinavia. But like everything else also here on certain things we get Americanized slowly but surely. As long as its not gonna be certain political changes down American avenue style I am happy. Cause that for sure it fucked up. But yet Happy halloween to all of you out there. Here is old gang member and for life my good friend Don Armstrong and wife. I love this family to death. Really do. Will always treasure them as my foreign family. That is a guarentee. Buuuaahhhhhhh!!!

So there are a line of things brueing again with the old familiar BIG boy collectors on eBay again huhh? There have been some silent months now from certain ones that are always competition to my kind. It will never change I guess. Thats what makes the eBay people so filthy rich. The small lads like us over bidding each other and there by cold $ right down front pocket of the people behind this machinery. damn why is it I dont care to study and figure out something new to make money off? Shit I could have been a multi millionaire times over dude. But now... its a laugh, its a joke. Its a struggle. But I have a home of boxes upon boxes of Crue memorabilia instead and I am rich on memories. But could have had more. Shit sucks ass.....

I pledge alligence to stage of rock n roll for which it stands and for what it gives me. I love it. And that line could for me easerly turn into a book kind of thing. I tell youthere are so much cool shit in that life that simply keeps me alive and well. But also extremely poor as fuck. I love what i get out of it but ... wellthat story too is to be read about on me elsewhere on this site. My partner in crime Jesse of Boston does not seem to have too much hope these days and too many great adventures in the name of Crue. But is my loving dude and part ner on this shit since Corinna changed colours again a while ago. I constantly try to hope and see the good in people in the long run. I have now stopped that. She made me see that its not worth the wait, the struggle, nor the hopes and denial on other things just for one person. It simply isnt. I will not do it again.

Last night the first few things got lined up on here and I added ad new things to the collection on the .DK site and under the "Looks" page which holds most of the collection I own any way. More comes on there today guarenteed. And all is on before the weekend comes.. no worries. Jesse is bettering though.He has some aweosme ideas for soemthing to do for himself and for us. Just you wat and see...Yeah you will love these shitty ideas for sure. Hell they are awesome. Every now and then we actully get something useful to mind. And these ideas now are brilliant. Hell I am not gonna sauy anything just now we have to look into them and then see what kind of thing we can actually turn into reality other than just an idea. Now back to scaning the last bit and start adding the stuff to the site again. Its rather great. Thank you all for your patience. And happy Halloween. Booh All !!

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29th of October 200SIXX, Adding Begun & Countdowns
4:56PM CET
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Sunday the 29th they have promised winter here now like from next week. So time has really come for a serious line of changes now I see. I am finally in a state of mind where I can say i feel I have catched up what was missed out on in sleep and shit from thehome coming last week from South carolina. And now there is only one week to go before another couple of flights takes me to Hollywood again. Sunday next weekend will be the day of my ass leaving home again. I am almost getting tothe point of being tired of flying. 74 flights has it come to so far since march 2004. And now a good 4 more flights are lined up over the next 2 weeks.

While thinking of all that and getting ready with the totally outrageous financial situation I am sitting with here makes me not happy!!!Ohh fuck never mind. Should I die next week I at least went for the shit I wanted ...so why complain? I wont. Suck that soda bitch!!! I am gonna be grateful for all I have done the last long time. No matter the balance in my pocket. I loved and still love every monute of it. Well...almost every minute. Right now I have spent the last 3 days or so in scanning things broought home last week. So from in a good half an hour from now the shit will start to get added on here and that will be kind of cool....it will most likely take more than a good few days. But by Friday it should all be here. I am all up and on it. Trust me. I will be bringing home a few more things as I return from L.A. the 14th so ... yeah there are a line of cool things to be seen here. I am gonna make it easy for you all. How youcan see the sections that have gotten new studd added will have a "NEW" star next to the name of the section like in SHIRTS or where ever there may have been added new stuff. But there will be a lot to look inon should you sit with an interest in the sections that will have these added things. That of casue can only you know that watches.

But there will be added all the new stuff more or less in the week that starts now. Everything we can possibly find time for to get added will go up on here. be excited i am. I sometimes hear that people go "but that wasnt much you have added" well... sotry lol, lol butu because there are so much stuff already there sometimes seems to be like 30 new items is but a drop in the water. And with the collection on here in total then . yes... 30 items can seem like nothing. It really can. I agree to the fullest. How can we get around that? we cant. I feel proud to have reached that sick fact that so much can seem like so little in the general total of this collection. really. Its nuts!!! but I like it. I am sure most of youaout there agree.

Now there will be another good thing coming shortly. The solo collections will go through a lift up or what ever you may choose to call it. All the solo pages will get split up like for Tommy:
Methods page and all thats from that part of his carreer, Never a Dull and all thats from that time, Tommyland and Supernova... and so on.. you know. Its been a harder and harder thing to keep setting up nicely as more and more gets added from these ereas of the members. So we change that one soon. Maybe that will be only AFTER I return ones again from the USA in November. We will have to see how long these new things take to put on there. For now I guess thats all and thats that. Enjoy the new stuff. And come back through out the week. Yeah cool......Much love your loyal dude - Tommy Lee

More of the stuff is coming from Sixx...damn there have been some pretty sick endings price wise too on some recent autions lok at this:

Autographed Nikki Sixx "F**k Off" SS Visor Cap.
This auction brought to you by swagrox.com the offical store for nikkisixx.net is for a Autographed Nikki Sixx "F**k Off" SS Visor Cap. From the Carnival Of Sins tour comes one of the most requested Nikki Sixx items in Swagrox.com history, the SS Visor Cap. This cap, the sister of the infamous "Sixx" cap, was worn by Motley Crue's Nikki Sixx during last year's comeback tour. Fake "blood" stains can still be found in the white piping just above the autographed bill. In addition to Nikki's autograph on the bill, he's written a nice little message for the winning bidder on the underside of the hat. He also signed the hat box which is included. This is a one of a kind item which very few fans even knew existed. Bid so far 3166,00 Dollars.

Autographed Brides of Destruction Cd Jacket. Item is autographed in silver by the ORIGINAL band memebers. Nikki Sixx, Tracii Guns, Scot Coogan and London LeGrand. And is an actual CD insert from their 1st Album "here come the brides". Bid so far 176,00 dollars.. WHAT THE FUCK ARE PEOPLE SICK ????

Autographed Nikki Sixx Blue Plaid Stage Vest. Size is X-Large made by Mad Toys. Item is signed in black marker on the front left (bottom) of the shirt under the F**K patch work. Also has F**K patches on the upper and lower front panels as well as skull patches on the collars. Back has Sixx patch work over a screened skull as well as a F**K you xxx screen, & a screen at the bottom that says i am just a rock 'n roller with another skull patch to the left of that... Ended at US $4,216.00

Autographed Sixx worn jean jacket. Size is Large made by TBY JEANS. Item is signed in black marker on the back with hand written CRUE and Nikki Sixx 2006. Front has hand written Rock and Roll above pockets. Ended at US $2,650.00

Autographed Sixx 2006 COS Stage Jeans. There is no size avalible as these were worn and customized for the show, by sixx himself.. Patches, holes and blown out stiched up crotch what more could you ask for from an original pair of Sixx jeans. Jeans are signed on the front in black ink and COS 2006 tour is on back. Ended at US $1,585.00

Man I guess there are a few things that can really be cool to have trust me had I been able to I had taken all these items but that is for sure not gonna happen. And it on most of this also DID NOT happen. There are a few cool winners out there. I hope they treat the things right and not like one I know that last year won two shirts worn and sigend by nikki athen wore and washed them. I cna not even begin to think about the bad words I have for such actions. you see there are so many things that could be awesome to do but this is fucking not one of them. What the hell..... Only asking. Thank you very much.

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26th of October 200SIXX, Unpacked & ready For Adding
6:24PM CET
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All stuff unpacked and ready to go through. As you can see from the pictures below this is the pile so bare with me. I really need a good few days to do this. I am still not over my jetlag have not slept much or anything. But Friday and Saturday will have the best of it added for sure. If time alouds it and all I am going to the tattoo store Saturday too finishing up my my Theatre masks and background on top of my left shoulder / neck!!! Yeah good to have it over with I am sure. I hate getting inked its just the shitty pain and all that really gets in the way of it being a pleasure. Yeah, yeah call me a wuss I dont care. i can even say it myself I am a wuss. There happy!!? Well I am fine about it. But I need them finished and thats that. I really, really have to. But the pile in this picture is just something that really is gonna have to be dealt with AND NOW!!! cause this is what we have not had much of in a long, long time. You see I have really need to get this added and also for myself. With all the shitty experiences I have had and Jesse too from this tour i can only say the adding of the new stuff would really be a nice relief to the shit going on!!

What else? Well not much really I guess I just need to have some time alone and getting all these things dealt with and then come back and say I am back feeling good and I am ready for the next chapter of what ever in this shitty thing called everyday life. What do you think? Good choice ey? Yes mama it is. No doubt to it. I have got to have this done. And find some rest its just every day from now on till I leave for Los Angeles and Hollywood again on the 6th of November is so full already. I have not one day off to myself at all. None. Well you know whats up and you now know whats on and coming in the next few days. More in the section on www.mcrueloyalty.dk under LOOKS the collection pages. And the SOLO pages on www.mcrueloyalty.com yeah my sweets its all gonna be cool. Wait till you get to see the stage probs addings too. that department in on Jesse... he is not too optimistic, he is not having the coolest positive wibes out there right now. He is not away from the site or anything hell no. he is now inked with this shit for life. He, he, he, he. With this I am gonna end the diary of today and just say wait a while till you see it all and there are more shit in the US of A that I will bring home in November not as much as this but still stuff .Lee

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25th of October 200SIXX, Danish Between MyToes - Smells
8:30PM CET
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Danish are for danes on a Sunday morning this is Wednesday evening. This is danish ground under my feet again. Not a nice smell. As said so many times before I have been looking forward to the USA living for more than a year now. No further comments at this point. Anyway this is a situation I have to deal with. This is a way of dealing with it...for me. Trying to look forward to the next and coming times to get in on the web here for a lot of uploadig and adding. There will come a load just be patient. Right now while I can still hold focus (I have been up for 29 hours now since my ass left Greer, South Carolina for the last time on Tuesday local time there. Now lets go back and start this one on Monday. It was a day of the final east American Crue show for me this year. It was Raleight in North Carolina 7:30 local time. Motley again supporting Aerosmith. I have here at the labtop one more cup of coffee and this will be my last before bedtime and all. So bare with me if this should at somepoint sound staange alright lads? Thank you. here we go.

Ohh while I remember I have to add the pictures from Monday on here a little later sorry bout that.
Ok got up or should I say sat the clock to go bananas for Corinna at 9AM. We did this cause we wanted to go for the show at around 10.00 but that did not happen. Corinna was too personal this morning with her bed cover, sheets and pillows. She stayed in bed till around 11 or so....Never mind all we could do there was sit in a car or walk around anyway no way to meet the band or anything for the simple reasons of two. One there are so new ways and shit this fall tour and there was at this venue no way we could get to the busses or nothing there. They were behind the theater and that was a blocked area for special personal only. So we did not leave home till we actually had the clock striking 12 noon. and more. We had on Sunday evening packed all we wanted with us. The CDs for the car stereo a late 10PM shopping for chips paper and chocolate bars. I only had one thing to say and that was we were ready. ready as we could be.

Funny all the way up there a good 250 miles which is about a good 4 hours drive and as we drove off it was with the danes in D:A:D a lot of the older shit and just blasting it out. It Aint Funny Making Fun Of Money ... yeah I hear ya DADs. Its not funny stil that one and more took us right in to North Carolina. Then it got nasty Rammstein. All the fucking way. A few stops to the gasstations for refuel and some drinks. We talked a fair bit on this day it was a solid shared feeling that none of us were really with too much excitement for the actual show. I know its fucked up isnt it. Hell yes!!! But honest to god we werent excited. We kind of expected to to suck so what could we do??

Now I would say we had a fairly good time on our way up there Corinna the driver as always was a bit tired. She gets that these days from driving she seems to kind of hate it. Sorry for not switching seats. I can but then again should we get pulled over it can be quiet bad you know what I mean right. Yeah, so there goes that story. Ended. We talked about a good lot of things and we still did not fully know what to do with the show tonight should we stay for Aerosmith and leave like in the later hours and just get ass tired as we hit home and then tomorrow (yesterday) would have been hell. What? We still didnt know. So we took it all as it came I guess you can say. Talked alot about the things that would get us together agin for November. It was not a thing that felt easy to do anything about. How ever we were okay for now and agreed on just letting November and California roll as it roll would. No pressure in or of any kind. I had done so good on my worrying, lost love, low financials and more. Yeah I had done good and I had done a lot of things that I will not forget from this trip there had been so much. Last stop to go get something to eat before we arrived there and I got myself a HUGE fucker of a Corona bottle nice.. .needed that I felt good.

I think its fair to say that we had a lot of cool things expeeriences and we had had good fun with most of it. been in many states, Michigan, Indiana, Ohio, Georgia. South Carolina and North Carolina. What couldyou more want? REally getting around. Not more than a good few more things and locations I would have loved o go to but didnt happen. Tough shit. Anyway we came to the place we were looking for; Alltel Pavilion Walnut Creek, Raleigh, NC. The bands last gig for the time. Now they are in for a good 10 days break all gone home to rest and all. So we attended the last before the big break. We had still some backorder shit from fanfire that had not gotten to us yet. So we actually talked about looking at these items at the location we had not bought them till now cause they as said were ordered. But now they were on back order and what then would the next thing be we got a call or an email from the Fanfire fuckers saying cant deliver sorry??!!! Fuck that crap. What happend then? Well we went to the merch stand and hell dude... some things had actually been seen more expensive else where ,, but we bought the shit wewaited for and then called the Fanfire on our wayhome and cancelled the missing. Thank god. That ment I would be able to bring this long sleeve and hootie home too. And so done.

Alright 7:30Pm sharp. Light went out and the Motley boys got on stage all the same..... opening with Dr. Feelgood and then it started .... the shitty sound. This time it may not have been the bands fault. But the sound sucked the wind took it and threw it around and it sounded aweful. No bass at all a hell of a lot of guitar and floor drums. damn it was bad. Vince still skipped a ton of the words. What the fuck happend from 2005 and till now. Have they proven them selves they think?? Fuck that. It sucks this way. Please get this shit over with and move on. This sucks. To be loyal and travelling fo this and get these experiences like this tour gives me is fucking not worth the money. Sorry but it isnt. I am glad I went and all cause it sets the records complete ofr what I have attended since the reunion assaid many times over. But it sucks. Get some serious coffee table talks going boys. You need to regroup or something. I dont know what it is but something, cause this is fuking not cool.

It ws a coldnight to in North carolina. Not as cold as in Indiana or Detroit but fucking cold enough. In the 30s (thats a good 10 - 13 degrees in Scandinavian countings) not the best frames for an outdoor show. Vince could not sing "Home Sweet Home" he simply could not reach the high nots so he faked it and instead of going huu huu hu huuuu in the end he went . na na na naaaan aaa ....bullshit. Saving his own ass on that and others this evening. Sounded shit. I guess a good 80 minutes later it was over. With a show that could had been abouot 10 times better easy. One nice little detail was the little kid perhaps 5 yrs old or something Nikkis side of the stage second row Sixx took him up on stage and up on his chest asked him if he liked Motley crue then told him "just say yes" the kid did in the micophone and then he put him down saying we all fucking started that way. Little kids and were still here. Growung up listening to the AC/DC, Black fucking Sabbath, Aerosmith and Motley Crue....... after the last song being "Kickstart My Heart" Sixxsmashed his bass tonight only the bass top broke off .. but the whole thing the whole lot was givin to the little kid. Nice gesture a happy mum or dad now has a smashed bass wanna bet??

We sat there with another "ohhh well feeling" god damn it. This tour sucks. Aerosmith is good dont know why they dont really suck its the same stage same conditions and all maybe just a better sound on full gear and better sound dude for the out doors but we decided to split head hopme after Crue nad then just have a good mornign together before I was on my way back to here.. suck country. We drove off easty no traffic no nothing at 9:12 Pm frm the parking lot. Had about 4 hours home and a 4 hours that had been good nice and easy to get through. Thank god. Had a minor staying awake problem in the last 45 minutes on the road. But Rammstein still kicked our heads... lol..lol..lol... Asche zu Asche... right Corinna?? lol.. lol!!! Anyway we got back home from the last east coast kind of show this time around and I now had nothing more in store for myself on this one. We should have spent Sunday for a southern drive in the state of South Carolina a good 5 hours drive each way but didnt. Too tired and there by wet as said the KISS Coffeehouse for my part. The crue plays a club gig in that city on the 5th Corinna is going maybe I can have her shooting som video and taking some shots and all of the place for me. Not the same but .. well...

Tuesday morning I was up at 9:5 after Corinna came back from the car rental place returning the car we had used.
Got up took a shower and packed the last clean washed clothings of mine and tried all I possebly could carry. Fuck me it was all heavy and overweighted. Shit how the hell am I gonna get this home I asked myself. wll things turned out in the end that I did get home ... I am here arent I? Sure is. Anyway I posted a small somthing to say goodbye America and had my serial and then a cup of corffee and we packed the car at around Id say 11:30. Went to the Bets Buy store and returned something for Corinna and got myself the Paul Stanley CD out today (yesterday) it is sooo good. Now I had it fucking ey.... cool. that Paul Stanley experience was the greatest. Form Best Buy to the belk also for Corinna and then we found out we were ahead of our time and Rammstein got on at loud vloume agian and we went back to her place. That was not the plan and it felt weid .. I know its sick but I had kind of woked hard inside myself to say this was the last time you see the place. And here for just a short while I was back. I started miss us again. Damn it.

Okay some mac and cheese got made I ate that took something to drik and we went agian. Spartanburg airport it was not more than around 2:15 or something .My plane left for Atlanta at 4:50PM. But I had no idea assaid earlier about the weight. And surely I was right .. all fucking thing were in overweigt - but a few nice people and few this and that and I got checked in after all. Thak god. The bagpack and the bag I had to carry on anyway were both heavy as hell. Shit heavy...carried the Crue bowling ball for one a good 25 magazines and all kinds of what ever .. damn...

As I got checked in and we both went up on the first floor. Up here was where the hard one was to be tested. Would they alou me onboard with the bowling ball... or what would they think it could be?? Corinna and i never really got to say goodbye before I went through this one. but ohh well.. security 2006 is a monster ... damn ... I had to yell good bye through a glass and she then gave me like a highfive and the security dude went apeshit. No, no, no, no damn it take off your shoes and jacket and jogging shirt. spread em and lets go agina. JUST FOR A HIGHFIVE?? yes people its insaine. Fuck that shit ohh well we said hi bye see ya and she left. I got aloud onboard with the bagpack and the bag .. thank god. Not that I really wanted this to be carried home but if I did this this time I had gotten a good load and that would be awesome. I was givin green light now so I went for the try. as said SHIT HEAVY!!!

Ok on board the plane I began to feel nuger. Thank god for the bagels I had brought. The flight from Greenville was of casue delayed but it was ok. In Atlanta I discovered something I had not even thought about they had fucking checked in my two suitcases all the way to Aarhus a place I did not even had a fleight for. What the hell. I could not ask about it till I actually came to Copenhagen in Denmark, it was weird. i felt I had had a fairly trip over cause we been flying night time so it was not hard. Went to the baggage claim and said what the fuck is up here. They honestly thought I lied. I could NOT have a baggage checked in if I had no ticket she had worked there 26 yars and knew that that was NOT possible. Hell girl ... heres some news for you.. This dude can have all the impossible made possible get used to it. After a long time and a missed train out of Cpopenhagen airport towards Grennaa my home town I finally got it out there and now had the whole fucking hoola hoop to carry round all the way through Denmark. damn it wass shitty. And ones morethe fuckers had broken my suitcase. it was fucking not possible okay I guess it was.. cause it had already happend.

On the train and home it went had only one switch... in Aarhus and that I missed of cause by 60 secs cause of a train delay from Copenhagen sa the other train leave and had another hour of waiting here now..
But I made my way and I felt .. well tired.. looked up my neighbour and it was a friendly sight and welcome home.... nice. Liked that. SO now its evening time here and I have fucking 8 AM work to attend to in the morning. BAD!!! But I will overcome that too.. the bags have been unpacked and here I sit with a late noght jerkoff and then its bed time .. America I am gone for a short time only will see your fat ass again on the 6th in L.A. then god only knows when again not till June I guess?? I cant really tell. But its home ground for now. Stiff dick and a cup of coffee. later. xxXXxx

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24th of October 2000SIXX, Home Run
4:15PM CET
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Tuesday morning here 10:15 local time. Its gone, over, done with. The trip of Tommy and his American little adventures. I am kind of in a time limit this morning so this will have to be a short one for only saying "goodbye, goodbye America so long kiss it goodbye." I am not really gonna have time to get in on the trip from yesterday to North Carolina and the Crue show there. A hint would be shitty sound. How ever a ton of DAD and Rammstein on the car stereo back and forth. I tell more in the next diary on here.

I am about to rip the last zipper and call it a go. It is with a weird kind of feeling mixed emotions and all that i say farewell to this place. It was not meant to be like what ever it has turned outto be but this is how it is and there is not a return on the matter either. I have had my time in the southern Carolina and there now will come no more of where that came from. I will be back after a hopefully easy clearence of the security in the airport and we will see.... Delta airlines has a job now to bring to an arrival in Copenhagen at 09.00 from Atlanta Georgia. Lets see if this will actually stand scedual.

So from South Carolina on a Tuesday morning have a good one.
I will be home with a line of new things to get added to the site so keep an eye out over the next amount of time its really going to be quiet a lot that will go on there. Okay sorry for a fairly short and none telling on the Crue adventure lkast night.
Later peace Tommy

Mcrueloyalty.dk

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23rd of October 200SIXX, Crue Time & Last Day
3:00PM CET
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Alright this is it. The last day here tomorrow it will be home going day. In the afternoon I am gonna board my flight to Atlanta and on to Copenhagen again. Man it kind of suxks back to working days regular forms and shit. How ever I have done a lot and been really lucky with things on this one. Thank god for the KISS member experiences or this trip would have been sucking ass like I dont know what. Today we are heading to Raleight in North Carolina going in about one hour for thelast for for me this time and the last show for the boys for a short week long break. I guess thats about it.

Yesterday is now in the past but it was a Sunday at home territory only kind of day! Should have been at the beach fror the coffee house and all but we didnt it became too much of a muthful to go that far its a good 5 hour drive each way after the long Saturday and the long one today too. So we stayed home took it really easy looked through a lot and cleared a lot of smaller things. It was all good. No worries. We took it easy ate talked and did. I can only say it is of no interest to complain.

I think there will be a fairly good feeling about today. It is weird in the sence that what ever roads we drive down by today in an hour will be the last time for that for me for good. Isnt that weird? I think it is. I have wanted more and I had set my mind for more on this and about and with the girl that this was all about, but now its like a...just keep the memos and forget the rest. Tomorrow is Paul Stanley CD release day and I will get it as the last South Carolina thing I ever did. You know its really what Corinna hate but I am all about. Its a sentimental kind of feeling saying bye bye to this thats here. Its bad. Yet the first step in moving on. SO we will see right now for the day though its about North Carolina and a Motley Crue show. End of story. The story about the day of today I will post tomorrow if I can make it in time if not then it will be as I get home to Grenaa in Denmark again.

News; Supernova is starting their Australian ticket sales now but guess what even before the whole shit starts bass player Jason Newstead is now NOT gonna be touring his shoulder is hurt and there is a replacement in place. Already now its fucked up. Already now its a weakend experience. TOUR DATES ARE:

Thursday March 15 MELBOURNE VODAFONE ARENA ticketek.com.au & 132 849
Friday March 16 SYDNEY HORDERN PAVILION ticketek.com.au & 132 849
Saturday March 17 BRISBANE RIVER STAGE ticketmaster.com.au & 136 100

TICKETS ON SALE TOMORROW - TUESDAY OCTOBER 24.
Special guest support JUKE KARTEL with TOBY RAND is sure to have a huge fan base of their own on this tour. The five-piece band, who have been cutting their teeth around the Melbourne scene for the past 18 months, featured on the Coke Live 05 compilation album, scored the support to Nickelback's Rod Laver Arena show in April and were about to record their first EP when Toby landed in the Finalists for Rock Star Supernova.

Two new shirts too from the company most loves to hate and that are sadly the official merch company for Motley, Fanfire. It isa hooded shirt that holds the 2006 spring andsummer motive and the 2005 band tour shirt picture on the longsleeve. Cheap shot really if you ask me but you dont so...lol, but there I said it anyway, available now for the ones that collects or just would like to have one or both of these... I know of one person.

Guess that just a bout raps this one up and I am beginning to be ready for this mornings shower and a little serial and off we are. About four hours of drive each way today. Now I will be back before you all know it. Peace out ...the suitcases are packed the stuff is ready and I just need the Tuesday after noon to knock on the dorr and this southern visit is by gones. Love to you all out there people....live to win till you die.....

Mcrueloyalty.dk

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22nd Of October 200SIXX, Slap In The Face & Flashbacks
6:00PM CET
*******************************************I just got up an hour ago 11AM locally. We came to town again from the Paul Stanley live in Atlanta GA. Some crazy shit that was. Man it was awesome. I can not wait to get the photos from this one. Posting a few here but from the different camera that I refer to. How do I start? How do I cover this one the best .... I really should start with shower to get the morning feeling washed off of me. I will but let me just start this one off and take a minute in the shower for the review too. I am so going through a big HELL YEAH here. A KISS kind of hell yeah with a huge kick in the ass flashback to my old days and living ways in the past millenium. Fuck Paul ruled the evening. I was numb. But the event started a little earlier for us really. We got off from Greer, South Carolina, about 12:30 noon.

There was a bit catching up to do sleep wise for her from the late late late working night before. All good all cool. Nothing bad in that. We had not even gotten the Stanley CD in the car for the ride. Somehow actually that made me feel good. Not over doing it. Just getting more excited about the REAL thing and not a car ride stereo spinner. You know what I am saying?? Corinna was not really into it. She was not the one with the excitement not on our way to the thing at least. We talked a bit on our way about a lot of things. As usual I was the one trying to kick in some issues to be talked about. Hard girl .. hard keep being the one to do that. But we drove and got there still in great time. There was a little Corinna worry there about getting closer into the city. Cause the roads are so filtered in and a gazillion signs. But guess what we had no problems what so ever not a single bad turn or anything. Cool. We parked the car in a 4 level parking building. Went down to the venue we could see from the car.

Here we found a bout a good few people waiting kind of behind the building to wanna have a shot for the hand of the man to sign their brought stuff. We got to take a few pictures and video clips of the place. Just for own pleasure and things to remind us with later in life how that was. After a good hour or something the band of Rock Star started to pass by and throwing stuff in. A few pictures and shit were taken and then Corinan decided ot rather wanna have the car right here out side the venue insteadof having it cross the street up on level 2. She moved the car while I waited for her with the camera and all. I had started to talk to a few people there. It was what I loved to do. I love that new people fresh minds and exciting personalities. Its what I am all about. Corinna came back in short we stood there all afternoon but every now and then we had our ways and our luck with things of the smaller kind. I see a huge difference in Corinna and myself in just a simple thing like that. But no matter the difference we picked up a few of the things that we could and I ate it up in the calmest way I could ... my natural way!!!

Three people I had quiet a talk with shared contact information with and more were awesome. I loved them all. Such passion going from Belgium to Atlanta to Florida for 2 more shows and then opne gy of the three goes to New York too on Halloween October 31st to meet Paul and Gene in makeup. Fuck off dude. Dont wanan hear about it actally i do. Shit man. Well more about them later. The next thing was Doc McGhee coming through. Still attached to the KISS boys. What a life he has had some stories to tell. Some huge wins and some stinky also huge looses on that dudes shoulders. Doc was all cool to the people as he simple walshed down throught the lot that were there. I grabbed my chance for a quick shot with him. It was cool. Nice one lookinggood there on my rock n roll highways. Thanks Doc for that short second. Yeah he was cool. Still a midget though. Lol....As the clock faten rolled and passed 6Pm, 7Pm, we had had Paul Stanley arriving. He had been delayed on the highway due to a car crash (NOT HIM) but the highway had been blocked off or something. Anyway Paul was fine, and as he came to the venue he arrived where we were. Guess he was wha twe call a bit behind scedual as he really did come in late. So he said a quick hi and hello and then headed into the building. It pissed a few people off that was there hoping forthe gold an autograph from the Starchild. Well did not happen so tthey were all over it with bad mouthing and behaviour. Oh dear. Sorry ass looser. PAul did return though sigend some things and all. Took a good fair time and then he had to move on. I had placed mysef in a position where I was nowhere near the first lot of people he signed to casue I would rather have him on vidoe than an autograph as i still have a few from the old days. You know what I am saying.

He then went to, not the buss that he arrived in, but a car and was driven out of there for a while. The Rock Star members still walked around so I grabbed the guy on the keyboards again asked ofr a shot together and again no problem. Just be nice dont hasllse or give any a hard time and just be yourself that gives you so the best chances. There are idiots enough out there really. One thing I could not stop notizing was the difference between the KISS fans and the Crue fans. Kiss fans are way way way more willing to be "family" with you helping out become one with you and all. As to most of the Crue fans are all about me, me, me, me, and a bitchy attitude and all. It sucks. Guess thats also why I have a problem with these so called fans. They are a pain in the stinky behind.
There was nothing after this I would rather do than go eat and have something to drink and take a piss. But guess what I didnt. I stayed there. For what ever reason guess a part of me wanted to wait for the return of the man but the waiting was long. There was a support band and they started at 8 and we never saw then dont even know who they were but I didnt care. I did not want a support act to get in the picture in anyway so .. no. All of a sudden at round maybe 9.15 there was a noize in the building Paul had arrived but through a different door. We went to the car 15 secs away left camera and all and in we went. It was like WOOOWWW there he was. Had not seen him since new years eve 1999 2000 ... had his music and all on still quiet often back home. But there in the flesh opening up with the title track of his Tuesday release LIVE TO WIN. Man it sounded good he sounded good. No way on fucking earth this man could be closing in on 60 yrs old. Look at him listen to him. He was making Vince Neil sound and looking like yesterdays trash. Sorry people but he did. Fuck me it was mindblowing. I just kind of stood there sucked it all in. It was sugar sweet man. God damn it. All of a sudden one of the three guys comes down and says "we sit in the balcony and I was wondering if I could borrow your pen. Gene Simmons is sitting up there. Regular amongst the other people watching his band mate strutting his ways. Fuck off. No way. Really? Yep there he sat, there he was. The demon was in the house.

We went up there with him. Did not go to Gene I did not wanna disturb his joy or what ever just found the idea really cool. Look at that the two some what most important men in rock n roll had now supported one another for more than 3 decades Gene busy doing his promo tur with the perfuse and bathing products but yet .. he got here and seemed to not wanna miss this for the world. Fucking awesome. With that information surely I could not help thinking what would Gene think of these things Paul did? How did he like the songs? What did he think about the setlist and more? Just an exciting thought I think. But I never got away from the focus of attending the show really. I loved it ... man some of them songs played were .. solid gold and close to give me teary pleasure. Man it was Stanley set all the way, "Magic Touch", "Hide Your Heart", "78 solo stuff", "A million To One", "I Still Love You" and more. Make me cry dude. It was so well done and such a solo pleasure I wish these words were for the Motley boys but hell no they have not done it on this one. Say it gain someone needs to kick some shit into the heads of them and do a restart or something. This tour has been bad and for the first time in a long time I back up the critis of the daily newspapers and shit. They are not a band worth its name nor money paid to see them.The Crue has turned into poo. And it bugs me as hell. Thank god for all the other experiences on this trip over here I just would have had a stinker of a trip had it been for the Crue boys only.

Back to Stanley.
19 songs long set and I have no idea maybe a good 90 minute set or something he bowed out gracefully and the house went crazy. He was givin so much love respect and appreciation you could cut it with a knife. The air was thick with KISS and Paul Stanley love. Love and dedication to the max. Loved it. For all that sits wondering loo, no I am not going back to collecting KISS or anything it will never happen but I am going back home with some things in my backpack I am not at all sorry about having done here. Fine memories. Outside the building aftyer checking out the merchandise stand that helt; a key chain, bandana, a jaket kind of thing, panties and 5 or 6 tshirts there was a little shoppingdone and then out we went. Left all at the car and waited there at the afternoon spot again for some time till I said okay enough lets head north find Greer and get some sleep. The Belgium guys, we met them again talked a bit shared thoughts and took a "group picture" for the site and said....we are out of here!!! Good luck happy travelling guys (from Belgium) dont forget me now lol..we will for sure talk and meet again) I was over the event I had been really looking forward to. I could still not believe the talent of the house band of the Rock Star Supernova. It was a bunch of guys loving what they did. And they sure as hell loved the Paul and KISS tunes. Man were they sparkling.
Paul you did a stunning return to the solo stage and I would not have wanted to be anywhere else this evening. Mind blowing .A guy that I have no idea who was was there to film something for a DVD. Wonder if there will be a DVD release of all this later on. Anyway I back off from the first Paul Stanley LIVE TO WIN show tonight at the "Tabernacle" in Atlanta, Georgia USA on a fine and beautiful evening.

We drove till we had about 75 miles left to go out of the totally 140 then we pulled over and took a short nap. I was not the one needing it but the driver Corinna had to be fresh or close to it so nothing bad would happen. We carried on after a good 45 minutes and the Paul Stanley evening ended again after we had done this gone by a taco bell to get something for the road and then pulled up in the parking lot outside the house of Corinna? again at 5.20AM this morning. The event will lately be forgotten. What a fucking killer of a show. Paul congrats on the album and tour. You did good dude. Well deserved stading ovation at the end. The next and last 16 shows for the man will be givin the audiences out there a killer night. I know Jesse talked about going to the show up near him shortly. Brother dont think about it trust me just go. Live to win till I die.....Tommy
PS:tomorrow is my last day here Crue time in North Carolina. Today we should have gone to the KISS Coffeehouse south but not gonna happen so that was one thing I did not get to see. Shitty for me. Would have loved it no doubt it was awesome had we
done it
Mcrueloyalty.dk

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21st of October 200SIXX, KISSin Time USA
4:02PM CET
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I have a ball with the seriously exciting things we are doing together here on my last bible belt visit. To hell with the devil huhh?!! I dont think so. God is an evil caracter that is only but an excuse for happenings and lack of self respect and inner balance. Screw that shit. Deal with the real life not a god damn old written story authentic or not. Fuck that. Now the only real evil shit Iknow of are politicians, religion and money. Nothing but!! Thats what all fuckers goes for and some of them out there would do anything for it look at the Bush family!! I say no more.

No let me have my rock n roll and leave me in peace. Its done me fine all these years and today in late October is a continuation of it all. And I tell you why. This trip is the final to this place in my life time and it is being handed a huge bang of a final for me personally!! Motley Crue shows and Motley talks Motley packings and Motley doings. But the old 1976 to 2000 second passion of mine KISS has been so in over it this time too. And tonight will be the final of that Mr. Paul Stanley is starting his solo tour cross America today in Atlanta and as said a few times now I am so gonna be there. With the house band of Tommy Lee Supernova TV hit they will rock the night like I cant even start to tell you.

There will be no this no that no walk abouts but a night in the name of what its all about for me ROCK N ROLL!!!! I cant wait to hear him. I love the new CD thats coming out "Live To Win". I think its a heck of a great one. There will be a night to remember for little old me today thats for sure. Taking the evening's memories and store it in my head with the rest of all the Southern memories I have from this weird place. Tonight it all belongs to me and tonight I refuse to have a thing coming in my way!! So Cool kind of last time round here though the love life died and got dropped like yesterdays garbage and there is not a single comma of memories from that alley around what so ever. So ....leave me be and let me have the only thing I can truest and be n self control of rocvk n roll. Now rock it!

Motley and th Sixxdog have again set more crap up for grabs and are right now online with the lot of stage worn clothings you can bid on all on eBay. I am not gonna do it. I have enough to deal with as it is right now or I would have taken it all. You can see things above here and there will be more much more coming I am sure. I have one more Crue show to attend to myself on this trip and its coming Monday in North Carolina. Tuesday I am going to be leaving for Denmark again. I like ot get home with all I have packed just praying for none overweight either. So for now I sit with my coffee waitng for Corinna to get up she sadly had over time at work last night so it may have been 3AM as she got here. Thats kindo f blows looking through selfish glasses on the only day of KISS member live attraction. Oh well she gotta have her sleep. I am now gonna end this and send you a mail tomorrow of the day how its all been and more. Stay Crued.... but dont forget your kisses!!

Come on Charlotte
Wake up San Diego, Milwaukie, Miami
Put your two lips together and kiss

We're kissin' in Cleveland, and Cincinnatti too
Way out in Chicago, I'll tell you what to do
They party all over, even in St. Lou
So baby get ready and I'll be kissin' you

Oh, oh, 'cause anytime is kissin' time, USA
So treat me right, don't make me fight
And we'll rock and roll tonight

We're kissin' in Dallas
And Philly's goin' wild
So let's Kiss Atlanta, ho
You know we'll make it smile

We love the women
Way down in Tennessee
So baby come on now and start a-kissin' me

Oh, oh, 'cause anytime is kissin' time, USA
So treat me right, don't make me fight
And we'll rock and roll tonight

Kiss all of Seattle, LA to Baltimore
You know we been kissin' in 'Frisco, so lets kiss some more
Let's do it in Detroit, they all know the score
So baby, oh baby, what are we waitin' for

Oh, oh, 'cause anytime is kissin' time, USA
So treat me right, don't make me fight
And we'll rock and roll tonight

Oh, oh, 'cause anytime is kissin' time, USA
So treat me right, don't make me fight
And we'll rock and roll tonight

Oh, oh, 'cause anytime is kissin' time, USA
So treat me right, don't make me fight
And we'll rock and roll tonight

Mcrueloyalty.dk

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19th of October 200SIXX, All American Man
9:45PM Local Time
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That was the place for me to be at today. I would have walked to this place I am sure had I had the time and the directions. Anyway I had a car now so it was all cool. As we foound the place after the driving time of a good two hours there were like no one there. We went in saw the items for sale and they were moret han I could possibly do anything about. I hate to say this but I was in a trance did not know what to do or anything. How could I? Things were not too cool really. I wanted this like nothing else. But I was so fucked for cash right about this time so how could I do anything? Corinna then offered to pay half of it that is making me ill even posting on here cause I feel weak. But I do cause it was a big deal. She didnt though I bid my tongue and closed my eyes bought the perfume and got my access pass to the VIP line for signature and photo. There I was on the shitter but for a reason of meeting shaking hands with my god..no my GOD pardon me!! And it was the best thing so far. I had an airbrushed portrait from my man Don Armstrong and here it is Don .. its at Gene's home in a few days for sure. He has it now and he could not believe the details in it either. I should have that. Not that I think it will have any effect or anything but Gene now has all info on Don too name and number lol.

Okay so We stood in line there for a good two hours and the Motley's crossed my mind a few times over and then it seemed it went back to Gene Simmons all the item my old KISS days and all. I tell you man it was just one of them things I thought would never ever again get to see. but here were were sitting now at the Gene Instore and I was .. well... a kid again. As the man came on its was about 4.10 PM in the afternoon he was scedualled for three hours but he stayed longer the line was endless you can only guess. It was insaine.
Now as he was about to step up on the small stage set there Corinna started shooting pictures and me trying to video film a good half hour. Then it became kind of the same feeling only a new fans face in the picture so I stopped. But yeah its here now the video and some photos.. cool.

I need to say this as it was my turn to get up there I was not nervous only happy as hell inside thought I had seen the man for the last time 1999 in Vancouver. He was today the sweetest of the sweet I tell you no one has been this touching that I can even remember. Nikki has for a shit long time been really nice to me but again he still is but the learner in many ways. I know Sixx does not like Simmons but Simmons beats most I know of my miles in gratitude and all when it comes to being face to face with fans., Ohh yeah and i gave the portrait brought to Atlanta and he held it in the picture with me as you can see below and then he wanted to give it back to me and I said "no no no Gene its a gift and a thank you for going strong and for all you have been givin me the last 3 decades. It was well worth the trip from Scandianvia, Europe for these two minutes of your time." Gene replied "You came from Europe to se me? You have got to be kidding me. ANd you paid for geting in line. I should pay you and you have probably paid me a fair share of your earned money over the years already and I thank you" than was that we shaked hands and off I went. Inner happy. It was a great fucking day for old memories. The mall was over killed through the loud sound system with KISS music and shit I tell you it was mind blowing. Old shit new times. Congrats Gene you did it again another success to add to the pile of all the ones from the past. I tip my hat to you. You are a smart and kind man....Fuck dude this was Way awesome. Thanks Gene for making my day. Thanks Corinna for doing this with me. I will never forget this (either)!!!!! ....I wanna rock n roll all night .... party every day!!!
Lee

Mcrueloyalty.dk
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19th of October 200SIXX, God Goes Local
2:47PM CET
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Yes I know it is a fan site for the Motley boys. But this one has got to take the cake or the cookie since we are talking about Dr. Love, the Demon the blood spitting monster of the softer kind in Mr. Simmons. Gene Simmons to the fans. Yes sirey, the demon is going local well not quiet but we do not wanna miss out on this one. It is a meet the man. Step up and stand face to face with god. For all the none believers well - never mind. You love him or you hate him and it doesnt matter to me to be honest. He is gonna have an instore for the new KISS perfume line and bathing products and all that buys will have a chance to meet god. And I am gonna love this. I have not touched a damn thing with his name on it since 1999 new yrs at the millenium show in Vancouver and it killed my heart. I lost most for the guys as a collector anyway so I sold out. Sold the or one of the biggest KISS collections in Europe at the time. But now he is coming here and I wanna have a flashback and meet the man again. Sadly next week he and Stanley are gonan dress up meet and sign for the fans in full war grease in New York. Shit dude that was what I wanted toto do but two things would be wrong with that picture. One I am not in th US of A and second I would not have had a chance to go that far up north anyway had I been here. SO today is the day doing a face to face with Gene and its gonna be a great one I am sure. Tell you all about it with pictures tonight after the return..... lick it up lads... lick it up...Txx

Mcrueloyalty.dk

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18th of October 200SIXX, Catching Up & Appreciated Thoughts
8:08PM CET
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Its Wednesday noon locally here in South Carolina. The last 36 hours have gone by fast. A lot of thinking and a lot of ideas for the site to be tested as I return I think. I know its a lot to kind of understand when things are written in this section. But I still have this as the one and only passion and energy in my awaken life and it is this that gets me through everyting else I do not fully find loveable in my life. I think the site at one time should still be the coolest of the cool sites on the band we love but it needs to get more new and untried stuff added to it. It will come I am sure.

I have had a lot of thoughts about my life in Denmark as well while I have been over here. I think I can easerly say due to changes in the bigger picture about my personal life for the future I need to reasemble and get a plan B. Cause A is not happening. Too much nonsence and too many "nay sayers" in my life have been pulling shit and I have tried to be supportive, the helper, the listener, the guy with a long leatch and more. Nothing in the end when the smoke clears is to my advantage so I have now stopped that.

There are other doings to come that will not include the people I had so many hopes for and with for various things that I will now only do on my own. I have my Boston dude and he is the single one to fully get the god damn picture of what this is all about. Jesse my site brother he, he, he, he is such a clone of one self that I can only say this; may he be with me for life. Now of the things to happen later on here will be something you will enjoy I am sure. First to come will be addings of all the stuff that I am trying to get home with me next Tuesday as Denmark will be a destination. Dont wanna go back but ordinary life and shit calls upon me. You know. I then have a good week and a half to get most added to the site and updated before there will be part two of the fall tour 2006. And California calls for me. I have a hope that all will be added in time or else the last missing for this time ...will come up after next home return.

Yesterday besides a lot of thinking I tried to do alot of packing. I have most of the small stuff now after a couple of repackings and all. Lol... Still missing a few things in the mail so its not like there will be all brought home. I also think it does hold a chance to have Corinna bringing some stuff out to L.A that I from there can bring home cause this is my last visit here in S.C. for sure. Corinna seems to be moving in December and then what? Well I honestly do not know but I will say this....There are so many things that can still be cool and positive if we both just keep our heads cool. You know its not like we have to be shitheads and dicks to one another that is at least my intentions.

Many ideas have gone a little old in mind cause they have still not been tried out here but one thing thats new is a forum. Like you all know it from the shout board. Its functional and open now. You can start sharing your thoughts and get people to comment on it. You do not have to be a member or anything just do. Get in there and open a subject. I know fansites dont have the biggest success withthese things but we try one out anyway. Thats what the site here is all about. Dont follow a leader. Be the leader. Dare do ..
You see there are so many things we will get in around in the future of this site all we need is some sort of gang to appreciate the shit though. I guarentee you there will be a hard time trying to find other people that are as dedicated to this as Jesse and myself. We dont get paid a nickle for this. We are not approved and on some credit list with in the Motley world of management and label etc. We do this cause we have a pasion we cant seem to find anywhere and we do this cause we love it. Its not a forced on thing. Its a passion like none other. And it has been with usin the most serious way for decades now.

We have had so much contact to all kinds of people over the years individually and we besides each other still have to meet and shake hands with our kind. Its not a "putting people down thing" its just a fact to life. Our lives. We try so hard to do what we do and from myself I can only say this - I have been so hard on myself and so to people around me cause of the band that I seriously hope some day to get the ultimate experience from the band themselves. It is a dream I dont think will come true it is a dream that I dont think stand a chance but I am a hunter a believere a survivor so I refuse to give in and give up on dreams that I have. What is life without dreams and heroes anyway? A buss stop from birth to death? What else? In all honesty I dont fucking know dudes. But today Wednesday I have the last day to gain energy ad all before god comes to Georgia and shakes hand with me. Gene Simmons is out doing his business in 12 cities only. I would not miss this for a hundred thousand dollars. So in short tomorrow morning we are going. And there is nothing noone can do about it. Since 1976 the man has been in my life one way or another tattooed to my skin for life that should say something. Now after 6 years I will see god in the flesh again. And I will be honoured. Now bow to the man. His life long music partner gives us a concert on Saturday same state same city and that will be the crown of roadtrip this time. Thank you very much. Have a great one...I will!!!!

Mcrueloyalty.dk

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17th of October 200SIXX, $ Sucking & Addings
3:33PM CET
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Sitting her e Tuesday morning home alone again. Corinna just left for work. Got out of the shower and now its catching up on the diary side of things here too. I have gotte na few news mails last night so some of the things here are more like information to what is happening and not only here for me on this trip. Let me just jump right into it okay?

As eBay has Paul Stanley's Porche listed for 15.000 american dollars and not selling so has Tommy. Well Maybe not Tommy himself but the old "2000 Tommy Lee's Ford Excursion" Right now it is in Tarzana, CA!! You want this beauty? Its an 18,000 dollars opening and still can be yours. This car belong the Rock Star Tommy Lee. This car has 83000 Miles. It is in a very good shape, with plenty of extra. It has a custom made Stereo, and Entertainment system. It has custom paintwork on the outside, and has custom wheels. For an additional fee we can arrange for Tommy Lee to personally deliver the car to you at our facility. For this option you need to contact us in advance. Winning bidder must contact us within 48 hours of auction end, and make arrangements for payment. A 20% deposit is due within 48 hours of end of auction. The remainder is due within 5 days of auction end. If no contact is made within 48 hours we reserve the right to cancel your bid, and sell it to the next high bidder, or sell it otherwise. Make sure if financing that your financial institution accepts the year and miles of this vehicle before bidding. Please arrange financing prior to bidding. We can arrange for pickup or shipping of this vehicle, but you need to contact and have an agreement before the end of auction. The car is sold as is. It is the buyer’s responsibility to check the car. You are welcomed to have the car inspected by your own inspector at our facility. Please feel free to contact me to arrange to see the car 323 316 6113. If you are not sure about something, please ask! Do not assume anything not listed is included.

Also Nikki has been digging in, in his closets again finding some old worn or owned stuff now auctioned off through Swagrox.
This auction brought to you by swagrox.com the offical store for nikkisixx.net is for an nikki's custom brown fur / felt cowboy hat. Custom made by Charlie 1 Horse custom designed hats. Size is 7 an 3/8. Item is signed by sixx in black ink.
This auction brought to you by swagrox.com the offical store for nikkisixx.net is for a Autographed sample of the Vintage Sixx Self Portrait T-Shirt. Item was given to sixx to approve the design before mass production. He has signed and given back to us to auction off to raise money for the kids of RWITN! The size is Women's Med. This Self Portrait design from the all new Nikki Sixx Vintage Design line is enzyme washed for a butter-soft feel and features burnout details which make the shirt appear extra distressed. Ground edges and hand painted splatters make each shirt unique. These are officially licensed Nikki Sixx designs and are exclusively available at Swagrox!
This auction is for an exclusive never reproduced prototype shirt for the N.Sixx Clothing line. Shirt is designed with Nikki's Self-Portrait on a green military shirt... Shirt is size L, and has been custom treated to have an aged appearance.. Shirt was never produced in any quantity. This is one of only a couple in existance.. Has skull and cross bones pin on right pocket.
This auction brought to you by swagrox.com the offical store for nikkisixx.net is for a Autographed Customized Personal Vest. Vest is sized large with bronze studs on the shoulders and a US army patch on the left breast pocket. Vest is signed in Black in on the back under a airbrushed skull design. Vest also has leather iron cross, 3 bone skull pins and iron eagle pin on the left front breast. The upper right shoulder has a pair of skulls painted and sports black trefoils up the right side!.. and there is a raisen brain happy sun Sticker on lower left pocket..
“THE BOOTS WITH THE SILVER STARS
WERE GIFT FROM DONNA AND I WORE THEM IN ONE PHOTO SHOOT..FOR THE HERION DIARIES”
This auction is for a pair of black leather boots owned but never worn as far as we can tell by Nikki Sixx. Boots are black with silver stars on out sides of boots and zip up on the inside. They were made in spain, and are produced by a company called Destroy.

These are rare opportunity to buy a real collectable item worn by Nikki Sixx! And to help the Kids of Running Wild in the Night.Motley Crue bassist Nikki Sixx founded The Running Wild in the Night Foundation, which is dedicated to raising funds for Covenant House. Covenant House is the largest privately-funded childcare agency in the United States providing shelter and service to homeless and runaway youth!!!!

The chance for fans to get a signed picture again from Nikki from Swagrox now is up again. It is a live picture of Sixx holding the model to be smashed during "Kickstart My Heart" and it is available for 55.00 dollars if one should have the will top pay that for an autograph?

More on the Crue news front is that there is now a chance too to see the band after the first official ending of thetour in Fl next month. Because in Dec they will now hit Canada too. There are a total of five new shows listed and they all can be bought tickets for tomorrow and the day after. Please note: VIP packages will be made available for all the above dates all sales will end 6 weeks prior to showdate.
12/7 Minneapolis- Target Center- public on sale 10/21
Presale begins: Wednesday October 18th @ 3PM-CDT
Presale ends: Friday October 20th @ 12:00PM-CDT

12/5 Montreal- Bell Centre- public on sale 10/23
Presale begins: Thursday October 19th @ 3:00PM-EST
Presale ends: Friday October 20th @ 3:00PM-EST


12/9 Edmonton- Rexall Place- public on sale 10/23
Presale begins: Thursday October 19th @ 3:00PM-MDT
Presale ends: Friday October 20th @ 3:00PM-MDT

12/11 Calgary- Pengrowth Saddledome- public on sale 10/23
Presale begins: Thursday October 19th @ 3:00PM-MDT
Presale ends: Friday October 20th @ 3:00PM-MDT


12/13 Vancouver- GM Place- public on sale 10/23
Presale begins: Thursday October 19th @ 3:00PM-PDT
Presale ends: Friday October 20th @ 3:00PM-PDT

I myself have packed a lot of stuff again and I am now gonna see what is at all possible to have brought home. There are still stuff in the mail to here that I hope will come in time so I can have that brought too. But I slowly begin to be out of room for more home bringing. Hopefully Corinna would not mind bringing some of this stuff to Californioa with her next month than I can take that home too. From there. Not a problem. Actually that would be super cool. We will see how we part and all. She does have her ways with things temper and short fuses ... all in all not a totally cool combination but what would be? Hell I begin to have a wonder about that about anyone really. Now its time to have my morning juice roasted bagels and I am ready for the day to hit me with what ever may come.

NOt much else will happen today I guess. I am most likely gonna chit chat with some on messenger, reading my book and just all in all male time go by. Two more days till Gene Simmons in Georgia. Its gonna hopefully be a good experience. I am glad I do not collect KISS no more whats happening right now with releases and shit is extreme. This is not a KISS site so I leave it out of whats up with the masked men. But its amazing. Shit dude so much. I have more than enough to keep up with the Crue right now. Its insaine too so the Gene thing is gonna be the experience only. Yes I will buy a product ofthe new bathing and perfume line cause that is the condition for meting the demon. And I do wanna do that!! What else? Hmm.. nothing really I mean there really isnt much to tell from here. Not under the secumstances that creates the frames for this visit. If you know what I mean. Corinna will be having a day off tomorrow so thats good. Maybe there will be a chance to talk some and do some really good stuff? Okay well thats all for now I will return later in the week.

Its the first diary postings from the USA ever for me with so little Crue in them. Nothing is going on. Well there is but its not as exciting as any other trip to here really. I am leaving a lot of things out from time to time as you can perhaps imagine? Ohh well there will come more things in the days to come no worries. Its actually also kind of nice to have these few days off not doing much being by myself and all. You know. So let me enjoy the day and let me wish you all a good one where ever you are and with what ever you are doing. Crued baby ... Crued!!


This auction brought to you by swagrox.com the offical store for nikkisixx.net is for a Autographed Sixx 2006 COS Stage Jeans. There is no size avalible as these were worn and customized for the show, by sixx himself.. Patches, holes and blown out stiched up crotch what more could you ask for from an original pair of Sixx jeans. Jeans are signed on the front in black ink and COS 2006 tour is on back.

Mcrueloyalty.dk

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16th of October 200SIXX, War Zone City
3:59PM CET
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Welcome to War Zone City I say. This place looks like the US army has entered a place being part of a war. Fuck Corinna how the hell can you live like this? I refuse to take pictures of the place here and add out of respect for the guilty. This is not good girl. You should have a little more respect for your surroundings. Now how can we do this the best, the todays diary I mean.? There is I guess no better way than to start from the beginning which would be Sunday morning 7AM. Local time here. I woke up and felt like "what the hell" knew where I was but it was kind of wrong. I must have fallen asleep to the "X-Men II" last night. Me and television does not go together. I must have never heard her go to sleep and unlike what I would have done she did not wake me saying "lets go to bed the movie is over". Ohh well what can I say its not important. I got up and after having talked briefly to the webmaster. I got to find out that all the postings I have done were lost and I had a lot of retyping to do. That sucked ass. But of cause I did it. Its kind of going with the thing here right?

Now the most of the day has been a time with Motley stuff laying around. I have three fairly huge lots here. I also have a good lot of lost memories from some of it. See there at times comes this problem that has a doubt to my mind if I actually ever got this and that item. Should I buy it as I now have it offered or did it actually come to me in USA a long time ago just waiting for me to get it? Some of the things here were like that!! Now that I am here I can see a lot of the stuff thats here yeah... it was forgotten. And now the next worry is coming to me. How can I get most of this home with me? I have no fucking idea. I cant thats the bottom line. I have to choose. And there for if Corinna is moving anytime soon then I wanna get all the small stuff with me simply cause it can get lost in the moving and I do not want that to happen. Lets see here....

A few of you guys have for some time over summer now asked for new stuff to get added. Added to the sections in the collection pages so here is the deal It will happen now. And the time for it would be in the end of this October. I just have top get home get through the luggage the day work and what ever. You know what I am saying. Then I will get to it and there will be a fair good share of new listed things in sections like; posters, CDs, Vinyls, this n that, picks, personals, shirts, and more. Including the solo sections. Ohh yes. There are more to come than I can sit here and start listing. Then remember there are still a load left behind here too. I like to say its a good thing and I liketo also say its kind of bothering me. I had a fine feeling as Corinna did not jump to killing our thing due to pressure in her everyday life that had nothing to do with me ... but again we are so different. She is so fed up in her own world so things as said a while back have simply just changed like 100%. Of cause I am not pleased with things.
But what did come to my knowledge was that this thing here is just good I should not complain or anything. I will do all I possibly can to bring home as much as there is possibly room for and thats a promise. Probably gonna try to ask at the post office what a large tube of posters can cost to have sent home. Can I do that then there will be a good chance that only displays and guitars are left here for later. And that is kind of a relief cause they are all such huge things that can not be lost or anything. Now do we have an understanding for the situation between us over here with me leaving shit behind again with her? I have no idea but right now it just feels like I am not to bother with that not now anyways, simply cause it is not a thing I can do anything about at all.

But I do see a line of things that could be issues for her. She and I are not the happy couple as I have tried for it to be like since the get go. I simply miss some things and now I cant have that either and there for I choose to just mind myself here a great deal and lot is being held back a lot of nice talks and all too. I think I can almost say I am getting a feeling, a taste of her world - this how I am here - is how she is in every day life. I hate the feeling I hate the situation and I hate the odds for finding good self satisfactions. Not happening. OK I am thinking out loud here dont wanna put her down or anything that is not my goal. I loke her and she is more than helpful in many ways too so I am only saying, it is hard to be here for reasons like this. We got together in the first place cause of Crue then passion and then what I like to think was love at least from my side of things. She has her view and thoughts on that I am sure too. There is just nothing left of anything here from what led us together. Shit I have no idea what to say more abiut it. But my Crue trip to the USA this time has also now giving me this lonely feeling and not even the Crue shows have been all great and all the xtra bonuses we have or at least I have always had, have not excisted this time. It is a trip to lonely island for me and it makes me kind of think. But I guess in the end after I see the end of this one I am after all glad I went cause it means that I have then supported and seen all the tours and all since they got back together for good or worse and thats that. Just wish she and I had had better obtions to do and share more with a better line of rules and ideas.

Okay enough of the sad bullshit. I am having my hands full with the 3 huge piles of Crue shit here and it is nice to have it fiunally. Have waited a long time and it has not been too cool with the long waiting and all but everything comes to the one that waits or so it goes. Not for this boy it doesnt. I am back to where I have always been. The single only thing that holds me good together is my music. That only I can take away from myself everythign else in life is being taken from me. I honestly cant think of a single thing I have had and still have left lets say a good 5 to 8 yrs after I ones had it. What ever it may be. But the music and the musical things .. different story. THURSDAY, OCT 19TH, 4PM - 7PM -- ATLANTA at BELK'S is now the next thing I look forward to. Gene Simmons. Just that the prices for the products are not cheap either. Maybe its cause its actually good shit not just a crappy item again from the KISS boys. From 29.99 to I guess it was about 75,00 dollars a piece depending on what kind of item you want. Hmm well... I dont really know. I am not collecting and I am not buying for anyone so I guess all it is, is a pick to make and then from there meet the man. Thats more or less all I really wanna do.

Most of my Sunday went like all written above. Going through the Crue lots and pack all down and then think things through. I wanna watch the "X-Men III" again today as I did not see it Saturday evening. I have not really a clue how to get the money to reach as far as I want it to. I jus tknow the more I spend on this one the more fucked the next Californian trip in November will be for sure. Thank god all is covered Crue wise from the tour now. Nothing more to get there. SO I guess only hotels food an gas will be what I first and foremost need money for on that one. A good long thinking will have to be made and then I need to have the list of things and changes refined so I know exactly what I have to do and deal with after a home return from this trip. Now its Monday noon and there is nothing but a continueation of whats told above for the day. Corinna has full day job today and tomorrow so there wont be a thing to do except what my mind gives me of ideas and all......talk to ya later.

PS: for all that have wanted new things added to watch in the collection pages .. start getting excited. There are a lot of things here and you'll have it all added in a good 3 weeks I am sure. Love ya out there xxx

Mcrueloyalty.dk

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15th of October 200SIXX, Syber Shit & More
6:31PM CET
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First of all sorry for the long delay in getting these last few days listed in the diaries.
I had all sent to the webmaster and nothing seemed to have come through to her. Shit. So here I try to go again remember all the details that have accoured on the road since Wednesday. So do as I do get your coffee your tea your coke your beer your drug your girl what ever you fancy and sit down cause this may become a long one. I know the lost ones took a good 70 minutes to write so let me see what kind of details I have still in my head or on notes here. The Crue has not filled up much on this trip as hoped for. Weird feeling but I get to that later. Are you comftable? Need to go take a piss or something? Alright here we go.

Thursday morning 7AM I woke up the second time. The first time was when Corinna was yelling at somebody in her dreams. I have taken a punch in her sleep earlier in life so I know what can come from that. This time it was only verbal. So I went back to sleep till as said 7AM. Then I woke up cause the Vince buss left. It later returned as we checked out it was still there. But I was awake and did nothing but turned back and forth in bed till 8:40 I got up took a shower and waited for her to get out at 9. So I sat by the labtop sending the webmaster stuff that she as said never seemed to have gotten. Sucks ass.

As we pulled the curtains there was a ...SNOW STORM!! What the hell? Yes I am not kidding you. It was fucking storming no shit. We checked out went to our car and for the first time EARLY this year I was walking in a snow storm. Hell it was freezing. Last night was a rainy shitty cold windy day. And today it had beentaken over by snow and more wind. Poor Michigan lol. SO early on the winter time. Shit!! Another plane has hit a building in New York while we were at the 101WRIF radio station. I remembered it as .. damn all the shit that happens but it was but a football player oops ..

We had directions but if they were right or not I cant say only one thing is dead sure!! We never found two things that were in our directions so we went south , south, south adn all of a sudden we were by the state line the Ohio turnpike. Yep thats right welcome to sightseeing winter style. Hell we had no idea where we were at one time and it was just like wh t do we do? Lets pull in and ask at a gas station. We did. Ohh its cool. Youre just 15 miles form Ohio turnpike then you just go west and you come to Indiana. Sounded easy. So we did. Passed two tolls and way later we had had the originally 4 and a half hours long ride from Detroit to Indiana turned into a 9 hours drive. And the weather did not make it better or more fun for us. Thank god for good inner balance and not having problems with attitude or a temper!!

We got to Indiana and asked again just to make sure - ho far till Indianapolis? A good three hours the dude said. Huhh? Really? Well refuelled and off we went. Okay so as we got closer to Nobelsville about 35 miles north east of Indianapolis where the venue for tomorrows show was at we started looking for hotels. The first one Quality Inn was near by a good 10 -15 minutes from the venue so we asked there. Made a reservation and then off to the next "Super 8 Motel" and there what was that, the Vince buss again. The roadies and more stayed here then. We went in took one room but they were full for tomorrow so we called the Quality Inn took a room there for Friday so we were now covered. End of that speculation. Nice. Okay so so far things have been going well fairly well. I have not done any shitty drastic buys or fallen for any temptations of any kind. That has all been good. Good boy Tommy you shithead. We checked in and had a fine couple of hours here. It, due to the long delay in wrong goings and bad weather and shit it had now tunred into 8PM or a little after. We sat down did not do much this evening. It was fine. For the first time in days I watchin TV as she was on her computer. It was a good rest we could get us here. So we did.

We didnt really leave the room till we actually had to at 11AM. To go to another hotel the Quality Inn only 2 minutes away. But we could not stay at the place we were at simply casue it was booked full for Friday. So we had to leave. It was okay not a problem not really a hassle in any way either. There was also for the day not eally anything to do. We had nothing we were obligated to do or didnt have any plans before the show tonight. So I offered for us to go see a few things in the area. We did, started after we had checked out and inn again to leave our baggage in the room and go do our selves a favour in getting breakfast. Then off to the local post office and I shipped the two foreign Dirt books off to my man Jesse. It was good. I now also had a bit more soace and all to fill in with what ever I had coming.

It felt good sending Jesse these two books. Now crossing the road to go to Best Buy. Wanted to check out a few releases that I wanted anyway. But there was nothing there at all. Not one single title of the wanted I had on my list. So we checked out somethign else "the Studio 10.5" vidoe editing programs. Found it on sale bought the bigger version of it hell yeah... Now getting home to play and all. Have to learn how this mutha fucker works and learn it fast too. Shit. But that was a great buy. Have wanted that for a long time now. So the editing program was bought and of fwe went. Went next door to the "Barnes & Nobels". People dont know that in Eurtope but its generelly a book and magazine store with a limited music corner too. I went here to search for local papers and see if they had anything in them for the concert of the day. It did sadly it had only one paper. I got it. We then took off to the hotel again and we this time Now we sat here talked for a good hour or something then I was about ready. Ready for what ever. We did not do much its really weird company this were both there phycically but its like we are not even in the same room quiet often. She is one weird individual I tell you that.

But round 3 something we said why not go out to the venue see if there is anything to see. There wasnt. Nothing the guys that were there were opnly there this early to share info and guidence on parking etc. They opened the parking lot at 4PM and the doors to the venue or gates ios realyl what it is. Its outdoors. At 6PM. So what the heck to kill time with? I had offered a ton of things but nothing was of her interest. So we didnt. But at around 5 we did go out there. It was no rush wee had givin seats so if we cam early or at the last second it didnt really matter. We got in at 6 they Crue was to get on at 7:30 so we found our seats I waited to see Darron Nikki' bass tech to come by say hi. I saw him went up and we talked briefly. I miss that guy. We connected so good but now it feels so far apart. Ohh well. He was rather busy. Never got into a deeper conversation with him. Not really. So we just kind of stood there like.... waiting to see if he should get another minute!! He did not. While waiting Mick came round saw him arrive never greeted or anything. Then Nikki he was there with the whole kids parade. I think he had his family there. WIth no acceptions really. Then Vince Tomym was not to be seen till he actually sat at his drums.

I was curious to hear and see if this would be just another fucked up experience. It began to feel bad. The lights went out we got to our saeats again and after the first three songs I have to say ... it was promising this evening. It was simply alright. But could it continue or was this juts a lucky start? The answer ws; no this was not just a lkucky start. They actually reminded me of the tightness energy and more from the 2005 shows. Finally. We sat just long enough back to not be in the4 really exciting section but still we could have eye contact for sure. It was a stinker of a cold day. Fuck if they did not jump around and release the energy upthere they would be cold. We were. But in all the show was great. Sadly we did not take any picturs and video anything. Why not? Cause as we got there at 5 we took a walk about and checed things out and 3 huge signs said the rules in writing for the event. And they said it clearly. NO CAMERAS. So great I say just great. Fuck it had been cool to have kind of a good line of pictures. Dont have that from this tour. Will I? Yes I will... I will juts not have them shot myself. Ohh well. It was hard enough to even getthis trip together in all ways so I am not complaning. We did shoot a few of the signs and sights out front though. As the Motleys ended their thing.. We talked and quickly agreed to stay for the Aerosmith boys. We were both cold as fucks. But no warning one another. No nothing. Fuck in hell there was nothing but a crazy time and my feet asthe Bostion rockers hit the stage were like icecubes. I found out how much as I was to leavethe place .. could hardly wallk. It was insaine. But how were they then? How were the Boston hurricane? They had gotten very old they had gotten very worn out. But did it show? Could Motley beat the Aeros? Hell no not in a milion years. The Boston gang smply ruled their tour. No exception.They were fucking awesome.

What I like especially was the setlist.They did almost only old material and I loved it. They did them so intence and so good it was hard to believe the facts. Tyler and Perry are the Aerrosmith. Its all about them but they pulled the train like was it a bicycle. The easiest thing in the world. They are rocking like if it was their last day on earth. Fuck man they made most forget about Motley Crue right there. Even me. Yes I know I hear you but its true. They did.

Fuck a good rck show. Nicely done boys. Looks like Vince and them guys are still in 3rd grade learning the doings. When you have just witnessed the Aero bomb hitting hard. I said to Corinna they still have it what ever it is it takes they still have it. Holy shit. People if you cna go see thier show. Its a blast. Its so ...awesome. No one cna be a better competor that Steven Tyler forthe lead and front dude of a rock act of the year. Who can top him from what I had just seen? Hell I am blnk. I simply do not know.

We got out of the Nobelsville verizon outdoor venue and headed back to the car. It was shit freezing everybody were shit cold. I said to Corinna I HAD to see for bootleggers., I needed to get my missings covered never saw a sould selling anything. Damn. Not today either. So what happend? Nothing part from our trip back to the hotel that was the 10 to 15 minutes drive now took 2 hours and 5 minutes. Had we walked home we had been there way faster I am sure. Why do long? Cause the locla police had a check point and a test of most drivers for drinking. We slipped through. Not pulled over but fuck me it took forever. Felt long as hell.

As we did end up crossfrom the hotel though we continued down a block or two trying to see if we could get a bite to eat. Only obtion was fast food. We did that but it sucked and the things it self were shitty. Not worth the dollar paid. For sure....Back toi the hotel shoes off and feet up trying to find heat for my feet again. Fuck me. We packed our shit and sat for a while then we got to it. Bed. Needed the sleep tomorrow it was bye bye time ofr the norhtern cold to the warmer and also shittier south. South Carolina was tomorrow. Saturday. We said goodnite and then we minded our own business. No nothing happend. And nothing will...

I got up at 7:40AM the alarm clock was set to 8 think it was She did nopt get up till mabe ten past or something. I had been up two times already for one time she started bitching someone in her sleep and Iknow how that can go so not to take a possible coming swing I got up. Took a piss and back to bed. Then again at 7:00 as I heard the Vince buss leave. It came back so may have gone only to refuel the monster. We checked out around 9:15AM and started to head down south. Next and new state but first a flight or two. We needed to locate the international airport of Indianapolis. It was fairly easy. So okay we got there and we tried to seethe weight of our suitcvases. Mine was already 5.5 pounds over the limit shit not easy to pack your shit. SO we checked in our shit shared for ones the check in and after that we left with almost nothing . A Gene picture framed and a backpack plus the computer bag that was all to be split between us. I took the computer bag the heaviest of the three pieces and we said see ya.
Yep thats right,. Again we did not go together. She went off from Indiana to memphis for a onnecting fleight there and me to Atlanta and on from there bot hdid we have the Greenville / Spartanburg as our final destination. We got there just fine no problems what so ever. None of us had.

As I arrived in S.C. again I was met by her and her old neighbour Sari. Have always liked Sari for some reason. And her kid she always has her kid with her. They were there to pick us up. Extremely sweet. She took us straight to the house of Corinna's. Easy so ... we off loaded everything and we sat for a while Me resting and she unpacking then we talked briefly about eating and we took off again in her car to the Wall Mart ... food store...back home after I also found myself a new pair of pajama pants nice... forgot my own at home. we then cooked a bit and decided to watch "X-Men III" and cal lit a day....
more tomorrow....WIll try to post Sunday and its going through shit here in a few hours..
Swet dreams my little europeans....love Tommy

Mcrueloyalty.dk

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12th of October 200SIXX, Bad Endings On A Wednesday
5:52PM CET
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So the Detroit day is here and its now kind of over too. Slept as stated last night at Don Armstrongs. Not a too good night really. I have a few things that really did not make the night go too well. Well its all about slleeping anyway. I felt it was not really the coolest sleep I have had. Corinna kind of shared that one. Yeah well... it wasnt that bad. I had an early morning of showering at 7:30 and then my day kind of started. But that was good. Corinna I let her sleep a bit more or resting anyway. I then had a talk to Don and his family about all kinds of things. Said it before I love this man. We are really good together. A totally good friendship I can only say positive things about. So yes I am thrilled that we actually went up there and stayed with him. Thanks Don thanks a great bunch for your hospitality. Friendly beyond words. The whole family.

Breakfast and coffee my kind of morning. It was nice to get that as a start after a shower and all. Again Thanks Mr. Armstrong thanks a great bunch. Corinna finally got up and did what she had to do and then around 11AM we headed off. I am thrilled and happy about the trip here but I am still praying for the rest of the trip to come around good. Thank you very much. From Don we or should I really say I wanted to go by 101WRIF. The Tommy Lee rock radio number one. I love that shit. My pal there radio manager Doug Podell was the guy I wanted to see. And we tried to set it up. So I emailed the king of radio and said "dude I am in the motor city, meet me" he said come by at 3PM local time and we did. It was fucking the wworsst rainy weather ever. I tell you it was madness. It was simply NOT a good day for rock n roll. As the day would show later on it was rather bad.

At three we knocked on the facility door to radio heaven and I gotta tell you I was psycked about coming here man. As a radio rock DJ myself it was simply a cool experience. Some hightech shit of a studio they have. Fuck me... loved it. Doug met us and welcomed us. He had already on air before we came in been saying a lot about me being there already. The biggest Crue dude on planety earth. Yeah well thanks for them kind words Doug. Lol...lol. He gave us some logo shirts, stickers and shit and said you got two sadly only lawn tickets for the show.. here you go. And then he showed us around. Talked and told it was all over before I could even say YEAHHH... so 15 minutes later we had had the tour of the place a talk and the pictures were taking and we headed out of there again. Yeah it was quick alright but we did it and I loved every fast going second I tel lyou that. Still no Crue had been too much on my mind for the day even though it was a show day. Maybe also the rain was helping me not to think about it too much.

We took a ride out of town going north again to the venue where the show was to be at. Only 2 minutes away from there we stoped at a place they helt a pre AeroCrue party. Boring as always. But we went there and had something to eat here and all. So now it was like done with the eating part for the day. Not a healty hing to do I know but it went that way and thats that. I had fish if anybody wonders lol. lol. Jummy. At the pre party you could say hey to the 101WRIF staff who were putting this together and then you could sign up for winning Iron Maiden tiockets at 5:30 but we werent gonna be around then. No .. the doors opend at 6PM to the place and as we pulld up top the parking lot it was coming down like I cant even describe it. What thefuck... Awesome frames for the rock evening. Hell no.... Then at 5:55 we took our chances in between the rain drops we ran and in we went. Was even able to bring in the video cam recorder. Awesome huhh? Yeah it was or could have been. Went to the merch stand and simply had to get over a pretty huge concern financially anyway....what was I missing? Shit dude since the early dats on this tour a few more shirts had gotten added. Now besides the online ordered stuff there were like 6 more shits and shit i was missing. Man its sick. But suck it I took it got it over with and then its done with. You see there is a chance to say this ..... the merch on this tour is uncool. I dont really think its the best they could have done but what the hell its here its bought and covered.

So another line to wait in after this shopping stuff. We waited and agaion the rain was close on setting its rules and present itself with cold cold chills. It was so freezing. Only in the 30s here....
Man the night was gonna be even longer. Hel lyeah what a day it was and whjat a night it was turning out to become.... are you ready for this? hang tight and I get to it....

Got in on the ground and under the pavillion. Found our seats till were actually asked to just get away from thee for some time. Never found out why. But after a few minutes we were aloud back to our seat like everyone else. It was shit cold and guess what. They had promised snpw for the day to come tomorrow Thursday. Huu haaa.. Thats gonna say a bit about how cold this outdoor show actually was. Holy mother...

As it was about to begin we took out the video cam recorder and guess what. We started shooting. This could be a great bootleg recording of the Detroit show but then it happend. Three songs into the set a guy, a huge black dude came tipping my shoulder. Bad fucking luck, there gos that. That was the end of that show. Or therecording of it anyway. The dude did not give up till he actually could leave with the disc or cas or chip card it was recorded on. Well he took the card but he didnt understand it was on the harddrive. Not on the card . Took the card anyway. So sorry to say we got but three songs off of there. Shit. There is not much luck when we are together Corinna and I. I am all for getting the best results for all doings but that too is not always something we share.

The show itself was like well..... I have to say I think they did what they thought they could. But damn it was not good. Sadly my own experience going from Denmark to this place is now added to the Motley dissapointments. I could not believe it. They seem like a financial interested band only on this tour. I dont know cant help but think the band is not all that super excited to do this no more. It really is a kind of weird tour like I first thought fucking even before going to and attending it. It felt cool like a club thing almost as they have such tiny space on the stage but then aqgain the places are a little too big to actually be feeling like one - club tour. There for that great club kind of feeling falls apart too for me.

The thing simply is too weird. And with too much aloud bad details. Vince sings like crap and mike problems or not he is doing a shitty job. I cant help bu think back to the start and sumemr of al lhe meet and greets of 2005 when I time and time told him face to face hat he was doing a shit cool vocal job. I cant say that to his face these days. Not at all. The show too has way too much smnoke and shit ... nahh not complaning abiout the amount of it as such,. Had the stage been bigger. But for a band like them to be pushed all the way out to the front of the stage like this tour the band totally dissapears and you cant see hem half the time anyway. Makes me think why not just put on a live CD that even gives one the benefit of good sound quality on top of it too.

So I guess in short you can say they did not deliever what I hoped for with an investment likethis. They did not ake me forget about the weather and daily doings. That is normally what a successful concert should be able to give you. Really. Playing in front of 20.000 or 200 people you can not complain about the feedback andsingalongs and more fromthe crowd. You as a professional act shall be able to deliever no matter the situation. And I know Crue can dliever. But its gotten fucked for some reason now a days. I think there is a possible chace for the band to actually not be too close no more. They dont do much together outside the 90 minutes on stage no more. Not saying they have to but they were getting really tight earliron as they reunited and now its like .. we have done this enough just be on time as the stage curtain falls. Thank you.

We decited to leave after theband ended for two reasons. It was bad weather and it was also to kind of try to get o figure out where the heck the boys were gonna stay. So we followed the first buss out. The new Vince Neil Vineyard commercial buss. Bad move I have to say. Fuck!!! We ended up atthe Hampton Inn in AuburnHills. Guess what it was a cheap kind of 2 star hotel and was where the dancers and roadis etc etc would stay for the night. The four members? Nope. Not a chance.

We did not really know what to do so we booked one night here just in case .of us ending up with no other place to stay. We got told by one roadie that some of he members had gone to Indiana already for the show in two days time and a couple were still staying locally. At the 100 Townsend Road hotel. We went. Some busses were there yeah but they belonged to Aerosmith. And they were well there already some of them. A member came (bassplayer) after a few mnutes. And then some of the already 8 fans there went nuts. Wanted pictures and autographs. Understandable and all but you know not the coolest dudes there are around. A couple of them were actually embarresing. We got wha twas wanted. Well thta means I didnt cause I didnt want anything. Then a few minutes later Joe Perry came. Asked for a picture of and with him ..got that.

then also there was a long time here we kind of only talked with the people there. One half swede was a total dickhead. Man what a shitter. What was he 15 or 30?? hell I cant tell. But one thing was for sure we decided to just cal lit a night and head back to the hotel. Then as we turned on the engine of our JEEP a buss came rolling down the road. Turned out to be drummer boy Tommy Lee. What did he do? In short?! Nothing. Stayed in the buss for a long time then came out but only to take the shortest way from his buss door to the hotel door. He did not say anything do anything not even a hello!! He does not care too much for that stuff. He has enough in himself his ego his girls and his what ever. We left - screw it.

Vince was at the Four Seasons and Mick and Nikki had already gone to Indiana. Mission not really fulfilled no. kind of like ...okay doesnt matter much. Its a damn situation anyway and there is not the coolest feeling about the tour. The fan and dedication status is still intact but the tour and their behaviour this time is not attractive sorry.

As we headed back another incident happend also a thing that happens everytime we are together Corinna and I. We got pulled over. Another ticket was in sight. For fuck sake when will the lesson be leaned?? Okay the officer was a little out of line if you ask me. We reached out for help not being bitchin and there simply was no mercy. Period. Back at the hotel at close to 3AM. The Vince vine busss stood parked next to us and we took a few pictures here too. Just a few and we hit the sack. So very tired I was. I gues you can say that thta was it. That was the Detroit rock n roll day. not much to be psychd about at all. Shit man what else could have happend? Well I only know it could have been a well better day in all ways. Tommorw is a day off and we will probably ry to reach Indiana. The state for the nxt show on Friday!! Friday the 13th.....hell yeah...stay cool T boy

Mcrueloyalty.dk

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11th of Octobr 200SIXX, Night Out Airborn
4:PM CET
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Off to Roskilde 9th of October at noon. The concern about everything was at its minimum. But for the first time too I really felt for not going. I was lost for excitement. Right now its Wednesdaythe 11th and I post this from the man Don Armstrong house. Back as I travelled to Roskilde onthe 9th my head was going from a thought of dissapointment to a lack of thrill for what s gonna happen and on to a feeling of having no future in the USA after all due to Tommy and Corinna changes in pvt and to a new search in mind for what ever I could do for myself in Denmark or a neighbopur country and a functional love life.

Arriving in Roskilde I met with my brother Morten an old Crueead and now the guy that handles all audio / video doings on this site. And yes now retired as a collector himself. And he is thrilled about his new situation. A huge burden and a constant worry has been taken off of his shoulders, I am going through things with him and he is as I see it a new kind of kid. I spent my night in Roskilde cause the connection for my Tuesday morning flight out had shitty morning connections from my own place so this was like an obtion and I took it. He now works for the national railway company at night time so while he was at work I slept like a baby at his place. As he got back home at 6:30 AM local time I was up and ate breakfast with him then at 8AM heading out to the airport.

Still able to spare myself some concern yet with a crystal clear memory of all that had previously happend at past trips to America. I am a magnet for bad happenings. Well guess what? At time for check in I ran in to yet another two problems. A) A bought limitd odd shaped bottle to Corinna fromthe tax free was taken away from me ... no liquid onboard they said. NOT ALOUD any Delta flights, excuse me. Yeah out of fear for what ever recently dsiscovered liquid for terrorism in the UK at Heathrow airport this had gotten to be the new rule to limit the last bit of freedom as a travelling party in these modern days. So lost cash on that buy. No refund.

B) then they would not print the boarding pass for me for Atlanta GA, if I had not gotten a fulladdress on me of where I was to be stayong the first night of the arrival. It was insaine - 3AM US time I caleld Corinna I had no choice, to ask for Don address. That I had no on me. It was insaine. Thank god that got workd out. Sorry bout that girl but as said I had no choice. Then after spending 9 dollars on a call she asked if she could call me back. She did but at a time with only 10 more minutes tillthe check in for this flight was closing. She caleld yeah... but atthe time she caleld I was turned to with the messege of NO PHONES HERE. You have to go to another area and cal lthere. So her call was never answered and i caleld her back. Man all that crap for such a little thing. Ok dealt with. I was the last person tobe let onboard.

Right "now" two movies onboard have been watched a slight nap and now a small headacke has started coming on to me. Not a good sign. Simply gotta be drinking water. Lots of it too. This is my last trip to South Carolina probably ever. Another era in life of love future dreams and more has ended. PS: my brother thinks this falls tour is gonna be the end of the band. We will see.

Now sitting at gate C35 with about 50 minutes to go. In Atlanta GA on my way to Detroit MI. Came through 3 chck points yep you read it right THREE security checks its almost a joke. Fuck nothing is aloud no more however so far no luggage trouble that in it self man is pretty amazing. Aweful shitty pizza bite onboard from Copenhagen. Nasty shit. Peewww....

So right now sitting here I have spent like not a cent part from the call to Corinna from back in Copenhegen for the address this morning. I still feel fine, no headacke no shit not tired or nothing. Flew over Masachuchettes earlier and thought of Jesse a lot. Should have had a parasuit then. Two things hit me as I stepped out on American soil. yes im back and fucking christ welcome to the home ofthe fat ass fast food fucks. Sucks!!! Hell yeah I am so not gonna deal with that craop of junk food and no physical doings. Gonna have long walks and all while i am here.
Motley Crue????

Well Motley Crue have not been on my mind too much till now typing their name. Why not? Well as everyone that have been reading these posted diaries I am not too fond of this fall tour. This is where people go "then why dont you just stay the fuck at home then?" What a laugh, ha ha ha. I look forward to it as this is the next step in what I do. And with tht I have not missed a thing since the excluse thing in Hollywood at the Palladium n the night of the reunion. Late 2005. Its al lcovered and i have a ton of things to bring home and So at this point only two things to be worried about but I refuse to let it bring me down: theme and Corinna sitution .. how will our company do us? And B wil lwe meet the band? I have a banner and a jacket I want signed. I tell al lThursday as the Detroit gig is over and we willthen see if there have been any Detroit luck at all.

3:45PM landed finally. found my suitcase without a problem same with Corinna and then off we went to the car rental for our Jeep. Cool ... no warm hi and hellos just a brief hi. Thats all. So nothing is unusual with the situation here. Its cold. And totally unpersonal. Nothing to be worried about no more. Alright will wrap ths up in the morning we are on the shuttle buss from airport to AVIS car rental a good 10 minute ride.

Wednesday morning ... here I sit as said and the fist night is in the past. Slept cool. To see Don was a stunning momment for me. I dont think the man realizes how much I love him. Well do you Don? The huge Vince banenr was taken pictures of again and being brought down. It was now a few chit chats and then ready to do this typing the first fal l2006 diary form the states. Its done now. Today is Detroit show nad hopefully WRIF101 radi omeeting with Dou Podell. If we can find him and the place. Looking it up in a second just closing this diary and then packing the stuff here and I am off.

Tioll later my little shitheads. Hugs hugs kiss kiss... Lee

Mcrueloyalty.dk

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9th of OCtober 200SIXX, 4 Hours 30 Mins
8:18AM CET
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From now on for a little while Jesse is gonna be stearing the Loyalty ship. I am about to head of. the time and day has arrived. I am not gonna sit and say anything about it here cause I really have no where near any idea of what to expect. I say its prety open. It can turn out to be one hell of of a cool ride or it can totally leave me hanging like I never ever wanna do this ever again. Have no word on it sorry.....
Yes its sad and weird and it really should ONLY with out the slightest doubt just all together be a YES fucking eyy I am going. And I am gonna have such a blast. It cant possibly go wrong. Well that is sadly not the case. It just isnt. I will be posting a diary if not every singel day then at least most of them and I will return here to Denmark on the 25th. Anything else from now till then ... you will know all about it as I get there and as I have the days rolling up on me....
Be good my dear pets. Detroit (Rock City) here I come,
Lee

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7th of October 200SIXX, Blowjob & Crueloads
7:37PM CET
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Its a magical Saturday, the lights are out and thats alright. Its Saturday night come join the party, well there could have been one. Party that is..... I so need to rethink my shit my life and this misserable little stinker called isolation. Im not lonely as such. But fuck me I miss to be in a relationship. Something that works. I have just kind of lost all belief in suck a thing. So right now just give me a hore. Give me a chick with no name. Should have had a deal on a night like tonight. One to ask no questions, no rules, no nothing just suck cock and bang the brains out of me. make my dick hurt!!! Put that action on repeat and make me forget about Motley for a split second. Please.... somebody!!!!! Do we believe in santa? Not really so ... right about now its nothing but empty thoughts on and around that subject and my long loyal diaries. Yes today is the second last one that will be posted just before my stinky feet will land solidly on American soil. God damn I begin to feel I am of the male speices and I fucking need to spread the god damn seed around. Fuck it look at me nasty I could at this minute not care less. Sorry folks thats what we are like ... the so called ... men!!! I will never be one but just a sad shitty excuse for one .. always go under that cheaper model one called BOY!!!! -Oh man .. just give me somethin 4 nothing ... all night!!

Today my buddy and soon to be perhaps, best friend fast Jesse, has picked up load one and two of a total five the rest gets picked up Monday. No more ass fucking around. This dude says the does. no bull about it. Not a whole lot a hulla hoop about it. No its just a straight to the bone with this fucker. And I am on his alley with that attitude. no fucking shit. no fucking blah blah blah blah... just plain rock n roll and open minds about most. But the important ingredient here is as of today NO BLOWJOB but Crueloads to the museum big time. You may reconize something in the picture here from the official DVD release from the new tattoo tour .. the "Girls Girls Girsl" door. Yeah.. its the exact one. There are several things in this load here and much much more at the location to be picked up Monday as said. So....Crueloads in the house. About to get added to the collection online here. It has been a long hard road and a lot of headackes to drag this deal in. Trust me its a thing a deal and a financial set back that will be felt for a long time. But its a life passion a as said before ONE TIME ONLY offer and I took it. Still have no sex from that though. Jesse is gonna be the one to unrap everything and the hawk watching over this load. I hope there is a no worry situation here. But he unlike every single one I have ever met that is human gets me fully so I know it could have been at a no better place than this. Since my orginal idea sunk to the ground.

I dont know how much I can actually have brught home with me as I return from the USA this time but I hope there is a rather good chance to get most of all the smaller things home with me. You know what I am saying!! Really thought I would love to have ha an American someone to build something with .. maybe it will come maybe it wont. Its just that I need to have a strong belief in the future for myself Right now I cant even focus on it. Most of the times I start something with a girl it goes like well like it has so far. Things just wont cut it. Always a line for fucked up excuses or different opinions to it all.
But now today besides no blowin` I have Crue on my mind tonight. Though its Mr. Starchild on the spinner right now. 1978 nostalgic. "Its Alright" cant wait till he hits the god damn stage. Fuck this CD still stands man, its also bringing back memos like I have hardly had. KISS were huge for me and the thoughts are back not as a collector but as a music fan of theirs. And this is the month of Stanley and Simmons again. I just fucking have to have that Simmons experience. Corinna if you read this which I doubt I am begging of you to do this. hope you will give me a plesant suprise with that one, I really like to think of that as happening.

On the buy and sell subject of the day there are more shit up for grabs around right now.
There are a few new items wonder if they are websales only or also tour sales?? there are a CD thing and shirts. Also there are a Tommy vest for auction. Nikki shirt too. A lot out there these days that are up for grabs should you fancy an easy spending. I will say this already, on my trip to the USA I will make a diary posting every day to let you guys - and of cause for my own pleasure - post a little something so you all know whats going on. I will NOT this time go out of my ways for meeting the guys. But I will try to meet them ones for a little something I surely need to figure out how to do that. i have the ultimate tour jacket to wear on this tour and it will be a ride like none other with that bitch on. Hope to get it signed I really do!!! Its mind blowing man and I love it more than I can find words for. I would love to get al lthe stuff pictured here too for grabs. But this time around I have gotten a few steps closer to focus on the items I really wanna go for. So there is a no do situation on the other. And right now I also need to have that October US trip covered first and foremost. You know what i am saying....for the day... JESSE BABY!!!!! thanks a fucking bunch!! Nice talking to you too man. Always a pleasure. I really need to kind of relax tomorrow before I go. I will throw in a short - extremely short hi and hello and a salute to you all then too before I have a lift off.

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6th of October 200SIXX, Survival Of the Fittest & Museum Arrivals
6:57PM CET
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Thank god its Friday!!! Remember the movie? yes. Remember the song? yes. Remember the feeling? NO!!! And I need it back. I need to feel alive again. Another huge dissapointment about USA hit me less than a short while ago. And now I need to feel alive again in a new way. A new felt way that holds me up on things that makes me smile again. I wanted to and I still want to move to teh Statesbut under different conditions now than before. I am through with getting sacked and shit. The ex took a big bite of me ones that nearly made me quit collecting Crue. Then my ex took another one or two huge bites of me and made me bleed and now my ex has taken the last bite there was to take. It is not happenng agian and it was a boy she never decided to get to know much. An invitation to ego world - come in and see if you can survive my game. I couldnt, in my own way I refused. I now as said want another try. Want another chance. Everyone around me says to me I need that one thing. LOVE. Everyone that knows me and that knows about my situation says it. "Tommy you so need to get love from someone that can actually appreciate you. And that you can be with. Other than this fase you are going through. It is kind of hurting me bad to hear and even more to fully agree with. I am so aware of the shit that fills up my awaken life. Probably the biggest shit there is, is that I need to acknowledge that I ones again bid on the wrong horse in the way of having hopes for a solid great girlfriend. Now a friend yes she can be that. But till she gets some things changed about her individual there is no hope. No hope for any guy about her. Its not even possible. She doesnt want life. She wants life in a cocoon.

Motley Crue; it seems to be bombing me with offers these days and it is the absolute not right time for that kind of thing. I think there is a line of things I could have wanted of it all. Hell I always want all of what I do not have in my collection already!! I think there is a very slight chance that I will be able to get some of the stuff I am missing. You see there are so much this fall it is almost killing me. There are a few things that are of such importance for me to get. I promise you this; there is a fine line between undescribeable happiness and slight madness. I know its sick. But its always this go damn way when its rough. I look at myself and go what the bloody hell is this? How can I actually do so and so and so? I am risking a little too much by doing so and so and so. Ohh well been in it for too many years. There are a few things that are really just too fucking cool to pass on should there be good chances for working things out on the wanted too. I am again so sorry I kind o talk in riddles But I cant really say exactly what it is my dear brothers and sisters. I only know that I am really excited about the chances I have for getting it. And then from the excited idea to actually be the proud owner of th stuff.. hmm well, yeah there are a few miles to go and sadly no guarentees. I love it though. Hop for the best. This business is all about money luck and patience and tons of it ..... all of the above. But today the museum has arrived.....I love it.

The stage probs lot has been shipped off. Has been travelling and has now arrived but a bit away from what we hoped for. So there is a huge load in form of a pick up to get organized. Dude (you know who you are) I am so sorry for this man. Everything had been way easier and way cooler had the original word talk promises and settlements been unchanged. But everything is changed. Nothing is the same nothing is ever gonna be the same again for the rest of my Crue collecting days. For a number of reasons. But they wont. Now right about now I just wanna hear this person contacting me saying "T dude the shit is safe. its here its taking up an assload of space but its safe and its cool." Just gotta make it a safe ride man. I really really do. Wanna know this shit is as safe as it gets. And then hopefully most of all that is not guitars or huge monsterous displays would go home with me I really pray and beg for that. No doubt. I am not gonna be over there again after November till sometime next summer so I need to have this shit covered man. I truely do. I was prepard to let me and my girl be the ultimate Motley couple around share passion and emotional love and devotion for life together. Some just did not see it that way. So somehow some where don the line I am gonna have to figure out a way to get my shit to either Jesse or Denmark. I am not pleased with the situation can you guess why? Sure you can. I am still shit much hoping for a good trip. And Iif I can bury my emotional ongoings to her I will have a great trip coming this Monday and 18 days ahead. I just need to be on a constant ware of the finances. I have not much to roll around with you know what I am saying.

Is there any other way to say it but; I am excited about whats happening and at the same time I am shit bugged about another and here by last fucking chapter in the book of ups and downs between two people.

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5th of October 200SIXX, The End & Birth Of New Beginnings
5:35PM CET
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So Thursday it is, another wasted feeling taking a piece of my heart. Wel well well arent I the one being used to this? T boy is single again. And I cant even say a comma about it. Its like what the fuck is this couple thing all about. Fuck if I know. I am only kind of smiling. Anybody wants me Im free on the market. There is a winter wish for someone that cares for a loving guy if you are out there give me a yell. but please no bullshit... have had enough of that in my life time.. ha ha ha....

Have not yet had a truck load arriving at Jesse`yet but maybe today or maybe tomorrow. it will get there no doubt. There are more stage prob offers to me and a coouple of them I am going like .. FUCK ME I have to have that and that. Almost no matter the loose of apartment and crap . its just too unreal. No I can not tell you what it is or from where. I can only say I am pleased for the offers. Lets see in a little later in the year if there will be a chance to work something out with the dude that has this crap. Mr. H. thanks a lot for be the talker for the fan here druelling like fuck. There is not much else to say on that fact. My guy Jesse the man is still on an almost every day basis with me and this is kinfd of communication and team work I had hoped for we all could have had across the gang that ones was the loyalty staff. Where did nothing go? Hell I dont even hear a deep breath from the guys so I guess it truely wasnt that important to them after all. Still I hope they are happy where they are and with what they do!! I think there is a way to see a paddon in many things and many things paopple say and do. Some have a whole lot of what ever but only till they feel they fullfil them selves with satisfaction

then they drop out of things. Not much heart in things. Me? Well I constantly get blamed of the most weird cocktail you can imagine. Im selfish, too sensitive, too emotional, too unappreciating too risky, too hard on myself, a line ofthings that all mixed together would be a god damn sick monster. Is that really what i am? Just cause i am passionate and romantic? Helpful and careing? Is that the word on the label people put on me these days? Well well well.... arent I the fucked up bastard?!!! Hail the weird one!!

I still have a little doubt if my wish for the meeting with god would be coming true. But I still hope so. And I could not care less about skipping other things if this as my final doing in a visit to the South Carolina state and address would give me that. Gene Simmons. I am just over all amazed. I am in for a pretty good solo kind of trip and I have to say its about time that I figure new ways in life out. I am not gonna be hopeful for any of the long time planned things now. Thisis normally my kind of life. I always come out with the shortest straw in everything. part from what I do musicly and what i set my mind to in that direction. Fucnny and people dont get it why (or partly why) I hang on so hard. Its the only thing that does not let me down like that way other things in life does. Music and collecting is my passion at heart and it is the biggest best and most appreciated satisfaction I can think of as I have all the other shit like constantly against me.

So now The Gene meeting and all at the sale of the new KISS products. I am so looking forward to this... hell yes!! Just really wanna go...4 more days and I am out of here til lthe 25th late afternoon my own local time. Thats when the key goes in the door locker if nothing happens and shit goes bad as it intend to do for me on the trips to the ol America.

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4th of October 200SIXX, 5 Nights, Trailer Load & Fucking health
5:15PM CET
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There are five more nights to get through before I am out of here and that will take me to a place I need right now. I am so not gonna be the same .....
I have had a terrible time here at home this summer. Very very sad depressed and feeling shitty. One person can change all that by suprising me with some good moods and a right spirit too. I seriously need this shit. Life in normal settings is killing me slowly taking the best of me. And I do not like it. I am not functional without my shit. I would rather die. My doctor today has told me to be FAR better and MORE aware of my own care taking. My bad heart has no good for that that I do. I am fucking my own health. That being ignoring all physical and health things that I and all humna beings should focus on much more. All that happens is that I get worse and worse and all of a sudden it can go really wrong. Amazing how shitty things can be in life. I need something that really takes my breath away. And not much in the ordinary world does this for me and now with extremely sad finances I am not gonna be able to get or do as much as I would have wanted since so many things eats up what I should have used on my passion. Too much travel money gas and food money.. hate it. Well I do. It rips my heart out.

Today on the other hand SHOULD be the day of a trailer load coming to an address on the east coast. All the now many months long talked about stage probs are landing. Finally!!! I cant wait to get it all added to the site and see it all next year. Its just insaine. I fucking did it. I cant find words for how I feel about it. Its sick. Its a mther fucking brutal pleasing like few others. Trust me. I had for ages no belief in getting this stuff. Simply cause it was a huge load and the price tag was a pretty huge lod too. But like I said before there are things that simple are not offered to you morethan only ones in a life time. This lot was one of those times. I cant tell you how cool I think things are with this. There will come pictures in sortly. but let the shit arrive first and be checked if all is there. I can not wait to get things going again but it will be two or two and a half years from now unless I find myself a different job that I couldnt care less about and earn more. That is THE one and only other obtion to get money. Really. So you try o find a will to give in on so many things and just simply go "I dont care. And I feel fine about the many sacrifices I do for this" ...thats all thats going on in my life I promise you. I miss love tenderness and what ever else that crap brings. But I believe in that when I start believing in farther Christmas. Ho, ho, ho!!

Sixx on the cover of Nov. Burrn issue again. A line of shit I wanted is now all fucking gone and I have ha a bit of a ahrd time not getting these items. Yes, yes yes talking eBay here. Of cause....damn it. Oh well moving down on the list of wants and watched items there are still a good few things i almost feel I HAVE to have. But then again when dont I? I dont know.... Rarely I guess. Its time for bad health, holes in my pockets and a trip to dreamworld and make the best out of it. I am gonna be tested like shit much on this one. It will not be easy. A lot of serial and shit is going down the drain ....(ME) no fucking loads of fast food shit and all. HATE that crap about America. Cook some fucking decent dinner and all. C mon. I really need some real food. I am getting ill and getting so damn overweighted. Heelllllllllllppppppppp......
Be back as the Crue "museum load" lands at its destination.. later

My pal Don is gonna get my second thing ready for me of a total four. Here are pictures as the rocess is going on. The four huge banners are really old ones. Buut to follow how it has eveloped as it all was going from a blank canvas to the ultimate finished thing is simply something I find extremely awesome. Its just too cool to be real. and the best of all. Itslife sized or bigger. There are a few things I have in mind later to ge done but things are gonna be really slow as said for a long period of time. There is no doubt about it. Financially its mayhem. Its a none functional state. But its a week and a half this one now coming that holds so many things details and more that if the lady and I will be good with each other its gonna be an awesome trip for sure. No doubt about it. I think there is going to be a huge chance for it to be quiet cool. All I need is to be on a constant reminder towards myself about one thing. DO NOT spend money like you feel for. I have fucking got to hold back enormously and only do the Crue thing and the needed. This will NOT be a holiday like I hoped for. Its stinky hard as hell. I can not say how bad it is.

The latest Paul Stanley has been spinning like a none stopping fucker the last couple of days. I really like his latest LIVE TO WIN solo release. he has really done good on this one. Only like 30 some minutes but not a filler on there at all. Just great and great mix. I am more looking forward to that one than I find words for. I know this can be the final time in my life time I get to see paul so I am really excited. And it simply has to be a great night. You will read all about it in 19 days. Lol..... Some have asked me about why I sem so silent on my Crue excitement. Well I dont know if I am silent like that ? Am I??
If so then its because all the ones I have shared tons of opinions with the last maybe 5 to 7 years have said that they were dissapointed in the band on this fall tour. For all kinds of different reasons. I guess I can not really blame them. Again from how I know them. And I have not yet seen them on this tour so.... and further more there is a chance I may share that opinion or maybe I get some lucky gigs to my adventurous backpack. you know.. I cant really say too much at all except I am shit worried. You have no idea. I really truely am.
Its not an easy thing for me to deal with. i am low on cash as fuck I travel half way roun the globe AGAIN and I have been hurt beyind words recently with a line of things in the name of the band and members. So GESS IF YOU FEEL I have been silent I couold choose to call it I have been laying low and try to think and focus positive thoughts. Hope that minor explanation is acceptable for you. And yes Jesse is gonna be posting a line of postings on here very shortly. Also while I am in the USA. He and I are gonna try to keep contact as much as it is possible. So there should be plenty of covered postings to go through. As always. But thats just all cool isnt it???
Sure lads... Hugs Tx

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2nd of October 200SIXX, Cheap Smiles & Clearences, Waiting For God
7:28PM CET
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Monday the last one before the next coming one of its name takes me on my second last 2006 journey in the name of my passion. Route to all evil..... could be. I will let you know as I am there. Its gonna be good. Hoping for a complete buy of the merch line. I have had that as a gold since they reunited and till now it has gone quiet fine so come hell or high water I need to have it this time too. I have not seen ANYONE having that by the way. Its always a couple of shits or some smaller things and then its getting won and all... so I think I have a pretty good bunch there already. Mint fabric new ... and it stays that way thats how I have always done it. You rarely see me in a Crue shirt unless I for some odd reason have two of it. I have burried myself now for two days with the music catalogue on high volume and it slowly takes me back to the heights of danger and brain washing like the old days..... Public enemy # 1???? In manys eyes your reading his posting. Fuck normalcy, society and the fake bunch out there. I am back true to my heart and what ever else kind of shit that I have ....... that sill fucking works. Its time for a serious stiffie and an orgasm that just really trips my mind. Thank god the right hand still holds all 5 fingers for a rub off.

Gotten to a decition to on the final tattoo thngs. Its gonna be killer. It wont be till later this year but I really need to have it done and all....
You see there is a chance for me to be actually really pleased in the end. Hurts like a mutha fucker but it will look cool in the end and be some what completely different than what I see others have.......
Not so sore today from the vicit a day and a half ago at the tatoo shop. It is all good all healing and shit. You see had I had more cash I would maybe have done something that is just over the god damn top but maybe thats a good thing yeah, lol, THANK god i havent got a penny. Lol, I have a few new things about the site too so there will be a busy fall on many things for me us and the team. US trips, tattoos, web doings, updating, adding, picture taking, framings, and more just on matetr of Motley. Then comes a few things in the boring shitty old same ol same o living I guess. So I am getting ready for a kind of exciting fall and winter. Here are a couple of shots from the chair of pain on Saturday! Nothing special just kind of nice to have some from time to time as I go there. Its pretty cool & the final looks will most likely be hot.

Jesse my brother in life - no one understands our kind. But I ask myself does it matter? Not really no!! Actually fuck it. I have you and with what we have we will be going towards aseome stuff man. Next year the gods givin 2007 we will meet and we will go hand in hand to the cruefest in New England. Share what we have and do man. It will be great so I guess lol, see you in June. I will look forward to that actually. But till then we have a ton of things to look into try out and allwith this baby here. Loyalty sites expanding like none other fan site there is. It will be pretty hot as we get further into winter and all. Right now we have a good few things that simply takes time to get ready and done. We will be fairly busy from late this month and the rest of the year and that my friends is a promise. There are so many pictures too to go in here so we will for sure have a good share of hours with our hands down in the bucket of the world wide web. Yes sir. Today also my - what I choose to call - October check has reached South Carolina so there will be more stuff cleared and a few more worries and started doings cleared! Nice man. Sooooo nice. I like that. That was a good day, a good sign of positivity on this second day of the month of action!! Thank you.

Now what really is beyind belief fro me is that the Nikki owned regular CDs of Dr. Feelgood and Theatre even though they are band signed ... they are not specila but sold for 300 some fucking dollars a PIECE. What is wrong with people? I am sorry but a lot of doings on part of people calling them selves fans - I do not get ... AT ALL. And perpahs I should not get them either. Hey, people dont get my doings most of the time if not all of the time so screw it. But its shitty buys and I am amused. Sorry dear winners whom ever you are. You could have gotten the CDs signed for nothing and not a soul would have been able to tell the difference if they had been in Sixx`s house or in yours. I guess this is one of them sentimental issues. But one I myself would never jump on. So .. I didnt. What else? Not much really ... laststraw to be picked is the YES or NO to my one last unsecure dream for the trip. Will we go to meet Gene Simmons. God!!! In the demons body of the tongue man..... Mr Dollar Sign!!! Well.. I fucking hope so. But I know Corinna right and she is truely as we are about to meet always trying her best to make things happen. And this is just one of the last few uncertain things that is not quiet in place yet. I BEG for the right result.
This here was a couple of REALLY BAD DEALS and they werent mine THANK GOD!!!!

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1st of October 200SIXX, God, Girls & Who knows
9:18AM CET
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Sunday morning. Its a new month a new time and a new sumthin 4 nuthin section!! As Motley crue continues their god forsaken tour supporting Aerosmith I sit in this hell hole of a dump thinking; "today shall be a good day". why? cause I want it to be. I do not wanna have any worries or shitty remarks for this whole month. I have decided this. I wont. I need air and the air that I breath is gonna be wisely chosen by me. had a as always extremely short 10 sentences comversation with the little South Carolina chick. For sure things are tighnening in on most things but I saw something yesterday that will just quiet simply not fully be a too cool and accepted miss out if I did not do it. hat are you talking about you may ask? Well I tell you. As I am in this kind of touched haze on the Motleys these days. And returning to my 70s masked new yorkers in KISS, seeing paul Stanley in Atlanta LIVE this month ..cant fucking believe it woo hoooo!!!! God himself is coming down to earth that very same week, second last of October to cities I could get to. God in the body of Gene Simmons is gonna back up his or the new KISS Fragrance line. Instores in 10 chosen cities cross America. I really would LOVE to do this also. Money is not gonna fucking vover these long lists of "I wnat Iwant I want"....But I will try to go. Corinna said if you cover this and that and. I`ll do the best to get off to go. So I guess I am gonna miss out on the last few missing latest Crue merch.
Item: Pictured with this story is the inside of the packaging of the .05 ounce sample versions of KISS HIM and KISS HER. The hole at the top is where the small glass tube containing the fragrance sample is attached. Gemini has done such an excellent and classy job packaging the entire KISS Fragrance line, that even the small glass tube (not pictured) has the KISS logo printed on it!
I am gonna try to go for the Atlanta one oct 19th. Not very Motley but with whats happening now and another chance on the old KISS field - Ill grab it thank you very much!!

Gene's Appearances For Fragrance Promotions

THURS, OCT 12th -- PHILADELPHIA FRI, OCT 13th -- RALEIGH SATUR, OCT 14TH -- MYRTLE BEACH
MON, OCT 16TH -- FT. BRAGG, FAYETTVILLE FRI, OCT 27TH -- LAS VEGAS THURS, OCT 19TH -- ATLANTA
FRI, OCT 20TH -- JACKSONVILLE/ALA SATUR, OCT 21ST -- B'HAM/ALA SUN, OCT 22ND -- JACKSON/MISS
THURS, OCT 26TH -- FRESNO

Speaking of the masked force; You wanted the Best, you got the Best -- KISS on the Big Screen. Experience KISS ALIVE! at Cobo Hall, Detroit 1976. This never-before-seen special one night event will feature a historic Rockumentary - KISS Day in Cadillac, Michigan 1975. This special Big Screen showing is to promote the "KISSOLOGY Vol. 1 1974-1977" 2-disc DVD set on sale 10/31. For Only One Night, October 26 at 8PM local. In select theatres nationwide -- tickets on sale Friday at www.bigscreenconcerts.com And as the official product comes out on Halloween it will be

KISSOLOGY - VOLUME 1

"KISSOLOGY VOLUME ONE 1974-1977" first installment on DVD in stores October 31, 2006. Monumental 6 Hour 2-DVD Box Set Chronicals ascendary of KISS from New York glam rockers to Hottest Band In The Land. NEVER BEFORE SEEN FOOTAGE of the band's rise to music stardom with more than 70 live performances and FOUR full concerts. Signal the troops for an enormous KISS Army alert! KISS will be the subject of a three-volume DVD project (volumes 2 & 3 are being prepared for release in 2007) chonicling the career of the hottest band in rock & roll history. The rock 'n roll journey begins with "KISSOLOGY VOLUME ONE 1974-1977" which will be released on Halloween, Tuesday, October 31, 2006 for SRP $29.99.
Disc One of "KISSOLOGY VOLUME ONE 1974-1977" takes a look at early bar-band KISS quickly on the rise. 1974 is covered with a live concert in Long Beach as well as KISS' televised appearances on ABC's "In Concert" and an interview/performance on "The Mike Douglas Show." By 1975, KISS was playing San Francisco's fabled Winterland, headlining NBC's "Midnight Special" and making videos for "C'mon & Love Me" and "Rock And Roll All Night," all of wich is included on "KISSOLOGY VOLUME ONE 1974-1977". In 1976, KISS came to Detroit for an incendiary concert at the Motor City's Cobo Hall, also captured on Disc One.
Disc Two of "KISSOLOGY VOLUME ONE 1974-1977" picks up the threads of 1976 with the bands interview and perf,ormance of "Black Diamond" on "So It Goes" a must-see and much-discussed interview and performance of "King Of The Nighttime World" on "The Paul Lynde Halloween Special," and PERSONAL BAND FOOTAGE from May 1976. The 1977 material on Disc Two captures the band at the pinnacle of its international fame, performing to tens of thousands of fands at the legendary Budokan Hall in Tokyo in April '77 and, a little more than a month later, headlining "Don Kirshner's Rock Concert." Disc Two coles with scorching concert footage from The Summit in Houston, TX on September 2, 1977, showing KISS doing, quite simply, what the band still does better than anybody else: Rock & Roll All Night And Party Every Day!!!

Did anyone say this was suppose to be a MOTLEY CRUE site? Shit lads - sorry!!! Kelly Gray + Nikki Sixx = WTF? Well, Apparantly Nikki Sixx from MOTLEY CRUE has teamed up both professionally and romantically with Kelly Gray, corporate executive and former model "of the St. John line of durable knits for ladies"! Say WHAT?! Yeah, apparantly Tommy Lee set them up and now the two are hanging out on the band's tour bus and collaborating on a new menswear line of rock star inspired threads called Royal Underground. Hard to believe but even harder to believe is the revelation that Gray is 39! Ohh well some fuck their pain away I guess. Knows a couple of youngsters that seems to have been tasting the dick on one certain ....now Kelly is the lady and - do I have to say more. No matter what seems to work or is disfunctional in their private lives they dont get a lot of great feedback or delieveer a heck of a lot cool shows it seems. As co-headliners for Aerosmith, the reunited Motley Crue proved unworthy - loud, cartoonish and often buffoonish. The band needed pyrotechnics, scantily clad dancers, trippy video projections and gratuitous profanity just to hold interest. As many people now tell me - but my buddy Jesse gotta have vitnessed the worst; It didn’t help that singer Vince Neil had blown out his voice nights earlier, or bassist Nikki Sixx brought little in the way of rumble - smashing a Fender bass at the end of the band’s set seemed put-upon, not rock ’n’ roll. It was up to drummer Tommy Lee and guitarist Mick Mars, who has serious blues chops, to keep hits like ‘‘Girls, Girls, Girls,’’ ‘‘Same Ol’ Situation’’ and ‘‘Kicksteart My Heart’’ afloat. Aerosmith and Motley Crue At the Tweeter Center. Boston.

9 more days and I have a lift off!! Fuck me if there should be any shitty delays or shit!!! I have a constant worry on these matters. I am extremely good at being picked by the big dude to be the one holding these fucked up happenings in my pockets. Always me...But as said I will not have this month of October 2006 to have me worried or anything. Just enjoying the shit as it all happens. Thats all I can say!! I begin to think it is a kind of doomed thing for me to be unhappy. I wanna change things on that matter - change things on matters of Motley as well. I truely think there will be a better Tommy coming out of it all in the end could I change things around. I am still dead loyal and freshly inked lol, lol, lol but tthose things alone does not help me one bit. I have to say is bigger things like my inner self that needs to be looking at a make over too. With or without already hoped for future plans. And the near future will tell exactly what is in need for me to get pass the warzone i hold inside.

The Gene Simmons axe bass was sold very few weeks ago and is now "traded" in for some original Coffmann material. feels stupid on one hand really. I think some how I shot myself in the foot on this one but maybe with time I will learn to appreciate my actions. Hopefully never regret. A few new things will have to be looked at for sure on the me myself and I and well being - but for now, breakfast Sunday sunny morning and I have a day off. All good Nothing is in the name of any rock n roll this hour lol. But it will be..... Man all the old times are haunting me now .Kiiiisssssss...

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30th of September 200SIXX, Inked & More & more endings
4:32PM CET
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So been there again. Getting tattooed. It is not something new more a finished touch on something that just has not been touched for months. I am getting closer to getting things done in full. Not quiet yet!! But I am getting there and it is such a pain every fucking time. My skin and my nerve system under it is just not too fond of this thing. How ever things are done today that makes my Left arm more or less complete finished finally. Well not really but it will be gonna take a good few times still. Man I guess in the past I never really fully thought of how much i have actually done or going so there are several more hours in it than I remembered. LOL...I have been sitting in the chair for a good three hours today and it was tough. But no need to cry over things you wanted in the first place. I think there will be some rather cool chances to get it all put tighter together as time goes by.

My floating basement I have more or less givin up on it and I dont really care. Actually I seem to have become numb bout things I really cared for but due to so many things going bad like constantly for me I just end up going "fuck it" I dont know why that is. I guess its just a feeling of reaching my limits for how much more I can take before I actually go numb, I dont know??? Thank god no Crue stuff were damaged ... then again I dont have crue stuff in my basement. What else? Well, I have now talked to 7 people that are not happy aboout the band on this tour. And 5 of those people are what you could call diehards in their own way. Three of them people have said that thay have seen their last Motley concert. I emidiately came to think of two things. Actually three. One is ohh fuck what about me myself? hat if vince or others get their shit hug up and a show or something gets cancelled as i come over. I dont see it happening .But that would suck ass. So much mone and such much this and that to get it organized. Two; I remember my own last KISS concert. I lost everything. Exceot the pain it brought me to see them dissapoint me so bad. That was new years eve 1999 - 2000 in Vancouver millenium show. Fuck man. I was not happy. For me the ultimate dissapointment. I am a little bit afraid that this will actually be happening to me on Crue too. Yet again why should it? Why all these fairly negative thoughts? Cause I have not had a lot of cool positive things going dummy. Thats why. I am not the life happy kind of guy no more. I have stopped searching for new or keeping a lot of the old conncetion with fans of the band. Im anoyed by them. I am so sick and tired of their ways. I am not above them or anything like it. I am just so much more serious at a completely different level. And i cant help it I can not deal with these fucks. I more or less only have one Crue fan thats down my alley left. No further sayings on that subject. Three; one told me the other day or rather asked me "What would I prefer, a good performance or a good SHOW?" Fuck to me thats easy. I want a combination. A good show as it is a show band not a musical band. Motley and Kiss and others are show bands. But I want a band to deliever not kiss ass and stink like yesterdays garbage and dont give a fuck about it. You see there is a demand once you have put your better beriod of life and finances in a band. you dont go "ok the band was present so it was cool" FUCK NO!!! Not gonna cut it. And why should it. The band have had several shitty things said especially Vince about things. Childish and unforgiveable responds to his behaviour.

I think my USA dreams of how they were and how I wanted them to be in the first place surely about and with one certain person has changed and it will change further I think. Again its just a feeling. I am not too pleased with that either. But I have things to get done and all answers to work from as I come over. My partner Jesse would also like me to move to the States and start getting our shared dreams together. Well again, I will see how things unfold there. So many thoughts and ideas from that dream are cooking in my skull. Things just dont seem to be on the most positive track I have been on. I need a partner a sweetheart too that supports and cares more too. I begin to feel there isnt any. NOT!!! jumping to any conclutions here just saying that it is not too cool onboard the loveboat right now. I have more a friend in this person than anything else. That too is something that of casue wears me down.

I have had one long talk with a person that knows me really well. And i have had this talk about almost everythign that means something to me. There are advices for dropping the US and still hunt my dream on the Crue side of things but dont force on a feeling listen to the heart of mine and listen good. If things should be put in a lower gear or something for a period of time then thats okay. But all my emotional things in my life I should take up for a fresh check up and fix what can be fixed and dump the rest. You see I have this one person in life that really makes me take nseriously and THAT is worth fucking more than I could ever tell you. This person sees things about me and feels things about me that I at times dont always see or deal with myself. Its like a little outside alarm clock thats yelling out attention attention....so I listen a lot to that. And my next fase in that matter is absolutely to have a talk as I come to America in a good 10 days.

More and more are ending their collecting life. Well I hear it more and more too. It just sucks. Yet again thank god some can be true to them selves about it. I think there is a way of maybe (for the band) to start thinking seriously about if they really do wanna end and go out on top like they have talked so much about. Right about now its going fucking down hill. Not all they do is great and I dont have a problem admitting it to myself either. It just is a stinky kind of way - and even having a situation where you should say it and mean it is of casue not easy. Some of the people that have stopped that I know of are collectors that have stopped for them the right reasons. Not cause they have gotten a girl or a boyfriend or a baby ar what ever. That s something that goes on a lot but for these people its been cause they dont feel it no more. They have simply lost respect and passion. I remember how close I was a little while ago. It was hectic days due to inside shit I was told and I could not take all that in as only information and then dont care. I still get morethan weekly inside information. Things that are really not always my business as they themselves too have a private side to life but i cant say it is not affecting the bnd and in the end me.

So far I have been holding on in that stormwind and come through - out on the other side. Now it has come down to this; my passion is still there. But Its just a financial hell and it is also a lot in my private life mixed emotions on things that really has nothing to do with the band and that side of me. But surely taking its toll on me and I am not in a good balance before these too are cleared out for myself as said above in its own kind of way. How ever I have today found a bunch of older KISS posters again....fucking hell will it ever end or what?? I think it is aomething I have had tons more of than I ever myself expected. I had a gazillion things sent to the boyer of my stuff back in 2001. It was my whole fucking collection. One of the biggest in Europe. Well there it is again .. I can feel it has to stop (this story ) or it will never end. But I am gonna try to take pictures of them all and sell em. period. Tons of awesome memories in them .....

Okay man that was kind of the lot for the day. Im broke, Im fucked, Im a sad excuse of a man and trust me...... I am little bit of a "I dont give a ratt`s ass" these days. Its so tough getting to that point in life. And it kind of hurts when you get tothat level. I am hungry for positive things and adventures. Hope so badly I will have that when USA is for my feet in a good 10 days. I really need it. no I NEED IT!!!!
later my friends. It is still a heart felt passion this is .. and I am doing all I can not to have Jesse loose his faith either, peace Tommy

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28th of September 200SIXX, Sick Shit & Countdowns
8:22PM CET
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Its been a day with a lot of talk between people and a lot of communication in all corners of the world. But one thing i just cant seem to forget is that there are so many (in my world) weird so called fans out there. nahh ahhh before you all take a bite out of me I have to say I am NOT bitchin any of you. I am only saying this is I have had myself so full of all the things many of them say and things they do. Fuck its annoying. I cant have it. Its a small thing like a brain fart but it stinks for fucking ever. You know what I am saying. It is just pure and simply sick shit. But I guess the Motley men dont and couldnt care less what kind of a fan you are as long as you leave your dollar bills behind for them to cash in. Speaking of that there are so many different opinions about this tour as I have also said before. I gotta be honest and say .. things are fucking so pointing to a possible end ......

What am I saying? Well I think I would be one of the least suprised persons out there to go "figures". I just think they are showing a good longer list of signs that kind of leads me in that direction for some reason. Dont particulourly like it but, well what is there to expect from what is going on and you in the mix have these totally honest and different ways of and for and about your passion for the shit you do and collect. I just think it is not improvements we see from the guys. Not one bit. But a lot is actually worse.

12 days till I stand in Detroit. And my nightmare kind of actions starts. Yes looking forward to it. Yes need to get the fuck out of this shitty place. Yes need to kill every day living for a good couple of weeks more than I care to open up about ... so yes I am on a countdown. Jesse had a fucking huge dissapointment from his show the other day. I so feel for him. Have talked to other people that were there. Some agrees with Jesse. Thats just fucked up. I hope as he says in his diary I will have a little more and better luck. Corinna my so far best and most willing travelling partner is a mystery to me now. Wonder why she is and has done some things she has on this tour. I fully am beyond words and so pleased - cant wait to do it all. I HOPE it all will be done. I think we will do the best possible to get things covered of what we have set our minds for. Weird to think this can very well be the last BIGGER tour. Who knows with how things are right now.

All auctions from the Supernova thing ended last night was actually up in time for bidding but I only bid on ONE thing and never raised my offer or bid on the item so did not get it. I think all I had in mind was "ohh man, Tommy this is Supernova." Dont waste your cash on this. So weird sitting there with such thoughts. But today the new and first single Promo of and from Supernova or now Rock Star Supernova is available. I do want all music things and official merchandise but everything else not really.

This is a VERY RARE Single CD PRO on the EPIC label. From Rock Star SUPERNOVA "Be yourself & 5 other cliches" This is a very RARE Disc, with a front insert only. Lets see if it actually could come this way...
NIKKI SIXX PERSONAL CLOTHING (VEST) This is a black mesh vest from sixx's personal collection of clothing, that he has donated to raise funds for running wild in the night. He has been seen many times wearing this cool garmet. Don't miss out on this great item...Well if you like to get rid of a good 5 6 7 800 dollars or more in a heartbeat. Seems like Sixx ones more is clearing house for stuff from the tour. I dont think I am gonna be doing heaps of biddings on anything really. I am so ...... low after all I have done the last long time. Lol lol lol lol

Really not much else from here right now. get back at ya later ..... kisses..

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26th of September 200SIXX, Boston Rock Night & Supernova Shocks
3:17PM CET
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After the Supernova thing went on as one of this years biggest entertainment shows on US national TV the show left a few things in the fog to be auctioned off on eBay over the last period of time. Most of the shit has ended. And let me tell you its been a super shock what the damn things ended up at in the old gods mighty dollar. Let me give you guys a few examples. I for one did not bid on these things they are not worth the amounts they went for and further more I dont think I can ever be too convinced to like this band much. It is kind of sad to say but what the fuck. Just cause its a crue man in the 4some you dont have to lick all their doings up and liking it. Hell nahh ahhh!! How ever a lot do find the stuff attractive obviously. And there are much, much more than whats ended already to be auctioned off. They squeeze every little drop out of this one for sure. Seems to be already a totally overrated sick thing. Man if anything is successful on TV you can easerly and as sure as there is an "amen" in gods house on any givin Sunday bet your bottom dollar that people try to milk everything they possibly can out of you. People are funny. They have such an easy time to spin money on these shows. Ohh and by the way next Wednesday the 4th of October they will shoot their first video in Los Angeles for the song "It`s All Love".

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Tonight The Tweeter Center, in Boston, MA is the frame for the first of two shows in the arena and my buddy and half of Loyalty.Dk & COM is gonna be there. I am sure Jesse is gonna have a few things to say about all in the next coming days. I know he has been busy but inspite of business he and I have talked a lot the past days and there are now a lot of future ideas on the table. Seems both of us have come to a point where we are kind of just well....had enough of a lot of things about well..... again a lot of stuff all kinds of things and it feels like its time to do something on our own. And I am dead sure we will too. There are a few ideas that are pretty cool. Pretty awesome but as said last time long term plans and all. Nothing we can do like in a heart beat at all. Some asked about the so ever much talked about stage probs!! What happend with it all? Did I after all not get it? And if not then for what ever reason? Well, here is the final info to you all. Yes I did get it and it is as I type this on its way to its destination in the USA just not to the place I had hoped for and agreed to in the first place. Things have changed drasticly on that front. In other words the partner I had in all that Crue business is still in my life but a line of things are not as it was no more. I am not really having a togetherness in form of a collection there no more. I have new limits to work with on that front and there for the lot containing 5 pallets and a couple of smaller UPS boxes to go too. Yeah its gonna be a monster adding to the collection. And to all of you that have waited .... dont forget SO HAVE I !!!!! And I have paid a mutha load for these things. So trust me I am just as excited about these things as you are to let it all go on the site and late October will be that time. Much stuff will come on there again. No worries. You will get your satisfaction.

Ohh you all better watch out for the probably coolest tour item out there for the Route of all evil tour. The jacket is gonna kick fuckin ass to bring around. And there is a wish to be meeting the band and have it signed like the last time out there. Some of you might remember the the first jacket with the stiff middle fingers raised up in front of the white house. This one now coming, is gonna be even more bad ass. I cant believe the god damn turn out on this fucker. It is just a bitch killing mutha .NO doubt!! In all honesty none of the official merch is this cool. I can now only hope the jacket gets to its destination in good shape and in time... Gonna be a thrill to wear it. Not a soul should miss it. Mine or not mine its cool. 15 more days and its Detroit (rock city) time for this dude. Lots of great memories from there man. Good friends many past concerts. The new years eve show last year and well a good portion of dusty bad ass rock n roll......I cant wait to get this mutha on the roll.....new times and new settings for things in the daily as I return again!! Hate the idea but I got to have it done more than I care to explain on here. Its just a need.

Have the ones with still a few bucks in the pockets seen the auctins going on right now with more Supernova stuff .. a couple of Tommy worn items from the TV show and a Nikki signed Dr. Feelgood CD from his personal arcives. And also Theatre of Pain. Ok that one gotta take the price. What the fuck is that all about? That is just stupid. Just because it was in his CD lot and now signed by the band people are willing to pay over 200 or more dollars when its over? Thats gotta be the thing that makes me laugh. Part from the Lukas singer in Supernova - a kid no one cared for 3 months ago all of a sudden sells a 8x10 signed photograph (by the way his signature is the slobbiest I have ever seen. Even kids in the kindergarden I used to work at wrote nicer than him. Not the drukiest rocker I have met could do a worse signature) sold for over 300 dollars. Thats insaine, not real. Then there is Supernova Tommy shoes, a vest and a hooded shirt. Guess these things are gonna go up over 3 - 400 each in a second. But there are here for anyone to grab if wanted. And if willing to pay top dollar for. Alright kids I think thats all thats been brueing in my skull on the Crue or Crue related front the last couple of days. Of news anyway. Or concerns or what ever you know....
Till later - have fun, check in on Jesse`s adventures in his diary most likely in a day or so. There will be plenty of shit to read from him in the coming future Im sure. All be good now ya hear..T Lee,

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24rd of September 200SIXX, Answers & Healings

10:10AM CET
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In a dream a long time ago
We fell in love, but what did we know know
Years seemed to pass as time took its toll
You're here at last, so why must you go
But tonight you belong to me, yeah you know
Yes, tonight you belong to me
I know you're leavin', goin' away
And I'm goin' out of my head
Well, go on and leave me, what can I say
You don't hear a word that I say lets go

Ive been lonely but I feel alright
You got another baby, hold him tight, you
You been pushin and you wont get me tonight
I`ve been your lover, but Im not your fool
You wanna to teach me but Im not in school
You been pushin and you wont get me tonight
Wouldnt you like to know me
And wouldnt you like to show me you care
Wouldnt you like to take me
And wouldnt you like to make me, whoo yeah


When I was a baby mama sat me on her knee
She told me "boy you listen theres a lot you oughta see
A lot of pretty women is gonna try to tie you down
You dont know what youre missing if you never look around
Move on, thats what she told me
Move on, mmm yeahh
Move on, whoo oh, oh
Move on, Im leaving on my way

Sorry to say it but the paul Stanley solo tour coming up is just taking over most of my thinking these days!! Which kind of leads me in on my headline for the day. Yes I see there have been a good few postings in the guestbooks recently. There are two to keep track with so.... One on each .Dk and the .COM one. Its all good. i am glad to see some still have comments to things going on here. Its things like that that kind of makes this shit worth while. I know what you are all thinking. I could have done this without the guestbook. Cause so much is still going on that I may not have needed this section. You are probably right. but you know I am just what I have always said I was. I share I love to share. I am not an ego fucker. Most of all the people out there are and I cant stand their stupid little sad n shitty selfishness. You dont like my ways? Fuck off. Pleaaaaseeee!!! Never mind I learn my lesson every day here. And I know I have only one guy that is fully, slowly but surely, getting to understand me he is outside Boston. hell not even my girl after a couple of years gets me. How fucked up is that? My mom has tried for years to change me but finally last year after about 2 decades have givin up. And thats, well I think good.

To the one posting that I have not mentioned a hell of a lot about KISS on here recently. No thats right. But there are reasons for that. First and foremost there have not fully been a lot of KISS that has been in over my Motley thinking. So there for there is and has been no need for me to share whats been in my head about KISS on this site. There was the HV1 Honours... that was kind of recent but thats all. Now there is this Stanley tour. Another funny story. He was originally meant to be the opening act of the Crue / Aerosmith tour but his CD release got pushed a bit late so it did not happen. Now out October 24th. So Paul then wanted to be his own self headliner on a intimate club tour. A rare chance to see him in small places. He has only done it ones and this could be a single final chance to see just such a tour. I have had Paul and his masked co partners of KISS in my heart since 1976 so this is a dream come true for me. People have even asked me how I can be so hooked up on that when I have all the Crue shows lined up next to this club gig. Isnt Crue more important? Of cause it is. But I guess its back to the saying about people have got to understand me and REALLY know me to follow my heart and doings.

And speaking about heart. I have said it before. I live from the heart NOT from smartness and minds. Not even close. If I should have done that I would STOP collecting in a heartbeat. Trust me. Cause it eats you up in a way you have got to be willing to pay for. Its the most lonely thing you can almost think of doing as no one out there understand the willingness in me for givin up everything for a mucis interest. Well thats where my word lies in what I keep saying ITS NOT A HOBBY ITS A FUCKING LIFESTYLE. But it is very lonely to have such a thing meaning so much to you and then there is no one to share this with. In other ways than you feeling you talk to a door almost cause people just dont get it. thanks again Jesse for not being one of the masses.

Some asked a while back if there will be a Supernova section of merchandise and all on here as well? Al lI can say is - yes I will try to have that. Try to gather what I can of that stuff. But I am not gonna collect Supernova in the sence of getting everthing there will vome on the different members in the band. Cause I dont like it. But it is a Tommy solo thing so yes I will try. Further more its also a money thing. Things cost a little too fucking much to cover al lthe shit right now. But yeah im gonna try. I know that the first few items from them will get added here late October. I am bringing home a ton of things again and there in the lot are also some of hte Supernova stuff.

Would Jesse and I be throwing something together for the people to attend to other than this site? If you think of things that could have some sort of events and all then the answer would be - maybe. its been talkedabotu butall that is so far int othe future its not even worth talking about right now. It just has a little too long list of financial details and time scedual and plannings to even be possible just now. but its been talked about. Nothing is set yet though nothing is in the planning stages.

Next lot to be added to the site? Well it is a thing that simply will not really happen till after I return from USA late October. I have too much to do and most shit is in the US of A till I get there. We are thinking of something new in the set up for the site right now and time will tell if our long time future plan or talk will be our goal. If so then yes we will be changing it when we have the right idea and layout for the sites. but riht now you will have to wait a good few weeks for new collectible addings. Thats al lI can tell you all right now. Sorry guys. That should sum it all up I guess!! have i missed out any of your questions posted let me know and I gladly answer you.

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23rd of September 200SIXX, Day Of happiness & Sadness
8:27PM CET
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So the world is a strange place. YES it fucking is. Since my last diary I have had really shitty things going. My basement has not only leaked butu fucking floaded the shit down there. NEVER EVER again will I Wave stuff meaning a lot to me in a basement. But the problem is I have NOT had room for shit here in the apartment. so what happend? Well to put a long fucking story short - I have LOST things that are totally ruined ... 6 garbage bags of music vidoes and personal recorded moments with bands and other shit. I have been working on radios for amany years all together gotten shit load of things from many of them. More or less any one you can mention thats been rock n roll history or something there were signed releases special memorabilia ultimate rare collectibles and more all GONE!!! Its ahrd to prices on things but I would say from my experiences in what things go for here and there I lost a good 5000 dollars worth of personal memories not ever to be recaptured. Nice ... really nice. Most of the people dont get it. I am in shock when I year in and year tell the same stories and people still dont at least can be listening to me take it in. With no questions asked they dont have to understand as agreeing with my passionate music life.

Its been all bagged and set for the garbage man to pick up and thats the end of that. I have had as you know from the previous few diaries laid on here - had a line of concerns and worries. Especially with what the fuck to expect from the trips to come fro me to the USA in a few weeks. Some of the worries were killed yasterday as Corinna called me and had me on messenger and laid down a few things a few answers and a few solutions to what I been thnking a lot about. I tell you more in a minute. For everyone that has been tryng to start deals either buyings or trades from the audio and video lists on the sites here all Crue on the .DK site and al lthe solo stuff on the .DK one, well there have been a few problems. Extremely many people collecting these bootleg recordings dont have any clues to what they have it seems. In short I guess the interest isnt big enough. With that I mean they are not listening to whats on the actual CDS or DVDs as they get them from whom ever either. A lot of wrong information is whats going on. Thats also why its Morten that takes care of that here for me. he does nothing but dealing with that here now either. Its such a huge field and getting all right and all. So I have to say - sorry to a few that have gotten wrong audios from here. I was told from the people that I got my shit from that they were from there and there ... well wrong. So other people have gotten wrongs too. Sorry. you all get the right one plus a free xtra youhavent got as my way of saying SORRY!!! its unacceptabel. I appoligies.

Corinna went to the Charlotte show in North carolina 2 days ago. A show we both originally should have shared as said a few times before. but it got pushed back from October till now. And it now over with. I think she was more excited about Aerosmith in all honesty according to herself she said "Aerosmith have not been this good in a long time i dont think. Crue looked like they werent there really. More there inth flesh but not really into it." Well okay thats cool. I mean there are so many opinions depending on who you talk to. About whats good and whats not with this tour. So I have kind of stopped doing that. i am slowly beggining to drop a lot of things that I had missed sharing with somebody or rather many in the world. I have tried to do so for 3 years and now I am not gonan do a whole lot of that no more. It makes no fucking sence no more cause people dont get people like myself and my man Jesse from the sites. they just dont. So I stopped asking and telling and sharing. Its just not worth the hoping no more. I gotta find other kind of bondings with people from this shitty world.
Anyway It has been a show as said from Corinna` mouth that was good but not overwhelming. But I have now my own line of shows to see and make judgements to. I am some how in need of these things to come to me. These trips. I am so in need of something that is fucking NOT of everyday living. I am fed up with all the stuff thats going on and arent going on in my life right about now here. And speaking of shows. There are Detroit and Indianapolis first. Theyll be cool for a line of reasons I will get to meet some really missed people in those areas too. Then I have had a line of hopes and all about one solo tour form the KISS man Pauul Stanley. i would maybe not go if Corinna wasnt gonan go with me. I mean we are together in more than one sence so why and how should I not bring her. Well today Saturday the newsbroke. We got tickets. to the opening night for Mr. Starchild in Atlanta, GA October 21st.

Now the tour for me personally is still having a line of unhealed wounds from what I have been experiencing and told from inside sources about the band and whats going on in Crue camp. So we will see if I can bring back that EXTREME special feeling I feel I need to move on. Guess this is just another story you guys out there cant really understand. But we have such beyond hope great seats for the Californian gigs in November. So there will be a final for my part about 2006 that will be over the top. Thats kind of nice. Wouldnt you say? Heres a few from Charlotte;

Then something has really made me go WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG PEOPLE today too. One person attended the Sixx auction last year buying used stage wear. 2 shirts this person now wasselling due to financial trouble. fair enough. I wanted them. So I bought em by recevement there is a note in there with them saying .....have been washed!!! I totally fucking freaked out. These were auctioned used and personally owned Nikki wear that this person wore and then fucking washed!!! What the hell - how can any fan REAL fan do this? Its beyond stupidity. its beyond common sence of any kind. No real collector and all would EVER do this. I bet I can name a good handfull that would loose their pulse feel their on chin drop to the flow even standing hearing this. man you DONT FUCKING DO A THING LIKE THIS. Buy shirts to more that 1500 DOLLARS a piece then wear it and WASHING IT after wards. i am glad I have them they will go framed and all. but its the fucking actions taken on this. What the bloody fuck .... SPEACHLES.

The Nikki hat that i found so childish and stinky bad went for 1529 dollars. thats more than I can even begin to think of being a rip off. Now there is another auction going: Autographed Nikki Sixx Black and Red Chuck Taylor Converse Shoes
These Red and Black Converse shoes (size 9 1/2) are signed and customized by nikki sixx himself. Right shoe is black with star laces and the left is red with iron cross laces. The red also has hand written on outside left F*ck! by Sixx as well. Item is actual autograph in black ink on toes of each shoe. This is a rare opportunity to buy a real collectable item signed by Nikki Sixx! And to help the Kids of Running Wild in the Night. -a lot of Supernova or now Rock Star Supernova stuff from the show as been auctioned off too lately. Still are stuff to get. but they go shit high too. for a god damn lukas signed photo 325 dollars. WHAT THE FUCK!!!! Again ... lame and stupid. Till next time brothers and sisters...Your fucked up andemotinally split host ....Tommy

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21th of September 200SIXX, W.A.S.P. Man Dead KISS Dreams & Hopeful South carolina Wishes
11:59PM CET
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I sit here trying to get over things I heard. Sitting here hopeful for my South Carolina girl to show some willingness sitting here praying for a final KISS man dream to come to life for me.I know its a huge mouthful. There are things that are able to take my mind off of Motley right now. One is The paul Stanley - Mr. Starchild singer and rythm guitarist for moe than 3 decades - he is starting a solo tour of extremely few club gigs here and there. The one that starts it all is Atlanta, GA almost like a southeern capital city for me. Stanley starts his tour here and tickets are on sale NOW. I am praying Corinna is gonan get back to me today with a - Okay for you we are going. I really like to see and hear this one. One final KISS before I let go. October 21st. Its a dream and that dream is a thing I can only right now PRAY for will happen for me. I am sure every one that reads these diaries from me will know before the weekend is over - we are or are not going. Besides these tickets will fucking sell like HOT BUTTER !!!!

Motley Crue had a and gave a cool, cool evening the 18th at the Hard rock in New York. The probably only event this year I did not go to that I would have givin all fall shows for no doubt. Fuck!!! MÖTLEY CRÜE bassist Nikki Sixx has comed in from the band's "The Route of All Evil" tour with fellow music veterans AEROSMITH with the following update: "Last night [Monday, Sept. 18] we played the 35th anniversary of the Hard Rock Café's private party. All the usual and unusual characters were there… fun night. Steven Tyler [AEROSMITH] came on and did 'Helter Skelter' with us. Tonight we have the second show at Jones Beach… and then we're back on the road (being in New York for five days has left the luggage under our eyes a little more visible) Royal Underground [Nikki's clothing line] had a boatload of appointments by day and MÖTLEY by night… and then the after parties and fashion shows... Thank you, New York… But a bigger thank you to mom and dad for not being from here… I can't imagine the havoc I would have wreaked living here growing up… Well, actually, I can…" Sixx recently told John Benson of Billboard.com that he's in no rush to begin work on the band's next sudio album, despite previous reports to the contrary. There's a lot of [new] music but I don't feel any urgency," he said. "I guess in a perfect world, the ['The Dirt'] movie and the album and the tour would all kind of come at the same time. But in the MÖTLEY world, I doubt it."

The CRÜE's journey is about to be transformed onto the silver screen with an MTV Films/Paramount project that is slated to move into production this fall. The biopic, which has yet to be cast, is based on the band's autobiography "The Dirt" and is due out next year. Sixx says the band will be "completely involved" in the production. The Motley tour buses were parked on the side street where the crowd had convened, and the Crue had been spotted a few minutes before. The scene was one of bustling confusion, as media members were scurrying to get their credentials, while a line of event attendees formed, snaking its way half way down the block. As no tix had been sold for this evening’s festivities, the line consisted of VIP list fans who had either won access, been given access, or blew a roadie for access. The red carpet was rolled out, there were tons of media photographers, and the glare of the spot lights was quite intense. One by one they trickled down: Matt Sorum (VR, GN’R), Scott Ian (Anthrax), Vinnie Paul (Pantera), Steven Tyler (Aero), Hootie and his Blowfish (Hoo-cares?), Evan Seinfeld and Tera Patrick. Crue finally appeared surrounded by a phalanx of handlers. They went up the stairs and outside onto the red carpet for the big photo op, where they remained for quite a while. Eventually they returned, but disappeared quickly from sight, whisked into the top secret place where headliners are taken pre-show. The HR stage is modest in size, but can sufficiently accommodate any band, minus props. The SRO area in front of the stage holds 200 +/-, with everyone else taking booths or standing on the second tier, with others hanging over the railing on the main level (where the bars and buffets are). The set list was consistent with what has been performed thus far on the tour, although Tyler coming out to assist with “Helter Skelter” for the encore was a welcomed surprise. Aside from the rare opportunity to have MC in a small venue, the most memorable aspect of the festivities came by way of watching band dynamics. the boys were in better spirits or enjoying themselves more. Mick was smiling and joking around several times, which is ample proof that’s he’s doing well. And yes, he did tear up “Voodoo Chile” prior to “Kickstart My Heart”. Tommy was suitably impressed by the level of audience participation, as was Vince. Nikki? He appeared to be thinking back to the carefree Whiskey days as well, reveling in the small setting and the incredible crowd response. This wasn’t a corporate crowd at all, but rather a good collection of Crue fans mixed with celebrities and assorted glitterati. Media coverage was huge for this show, and there was no question who owned the night: Motley fuckin’ Crue. The set lasted a bit under 90 minutes (including the encore and “Happy Birthday Hard Rock” sing-a-long) and was, without a doubt, a rousing success for the band. FUCK IN HELL A THING LIKE THIS CAN AND SHOULD UNDER NO CERCUMSTANCES BE MISSED!!!!

RUMOUR THAT BLACKIE WAS KILLED LAST NIGHT IS NOTHING MORE THAN A SICK JOKE!

As reports continue to surface on this ludicrous bad joke, Coallier Entertainment's Daniel Stanton, manager for WASP, has released the following statement from Blackie Lawless - "If I died, I wish someone would have had the common decency to let me know, besides,a car crash is way too mundane, I would have opted for something more spectacular" Blackie Lawless.

Blackie-Lawless was pronounced dead at the scene by paramedics responding to the accident. Highway Safety Investigators have told reporters that Blackie-Lawless lost control while driving a friend's vehicle on Interstate 80 and rolled the vehicle several times killing him instantly. The vehicle was believed to have been traveling at approximately 95 miles per hour in a 55mph zone at the time of the accident. Witnesses have stated that Blackie-Lawless's car crossed the double lines several times prior to the accident and hit the center lane divider causing the vehicle to flip and roll. Toxicology tests will be performed to determine whether he was driving under the influence. Memorial services for Blackie-Lawless have not yet been announced. The service is expected to be a closed casket funeral due to the severe head trauma.

No further comments from me at this time Only one thing COOL to say - NEW CD out next month ..............................
Blackie gave ME the CD release that have meant the most to me ever in my life. Not to be asked to, be understood or appreciated by any of you. But he did 1992.

THE CRIMSON IDOL is a full length conceptual album that tells the twisted tale of a suicidal rock & roll icon and the perils that come with fame. With guitarist Chris Holmes no longer a member of W.A.S.P., Blackie Lawless recorded THE CRIMSON IDOL with guitarist Bob Kulick and drummers Stet Howland and Frankie Banali. Voted one of the Top 20 conceptual albums of all-time by Metal Hammer magazine, THE CRIMSON IDOL is obviously more of a soundtrack than say a straight rock n' roll album. Released internationally in '92, THE CRIMSON IDOL was not released in the United States until 1993 and gave W.A.S.P. their first U.S. radio hit single with "Hold On To My Heart." Ironcally enough, it was the way Capitol Records handled the push (or lack thereof) on "Hold On To My Heart" that made Blackie decide to leave Capitol Records. "The main theme of the "Crimson Idol" which is a haunting acoustic guitar riff was in a Sister song called "What I Am,". "I've always been very economical with my songwriting. If something wasn't working out I'd scrap it. But if something was a good idea but not ready, or didn't quite fit what we were doing at the time, I'd go back to it later and re-work it." During an interview conducted with RIP Magazine, Blackie Lawless had this to say- "THE CRIMSON IDOL is an enormously complicated story. There are ten songs on it and each one is a euphenism for something else. Nothing on this album is really what it appears to be at first glance. Everything is a symbol for something else. The story was written from a satirical point of view. That means that wherever a person is at their life and whoever's viewpoint they're listening to in the story are going to determine the story they're going to get. If you're 18 and you listen to it, you're going to see one thing. If you go back and listen to it five or ten years later, you're going to get a completely different story. I didn't want to create fast food for the ears. I wanted something that I thought was going to have longevity.
WASP coming to Europe next month doing a full 2 month long tour. in between my USA trips I wanna go see them : Kulturbolaget, Malmo, Sweden, 05/11/05 Sunday

Be Careful What You Wish For...It May Come True

I think there are a few things I could say about some things, thoughts and feelings but it is a line of things I would have to change my typed sayings to if a certain person does not come out with decitions and more to my liking and there by with decitions on the next line of doings and more too. So I guess on my part it is kind of simply wise not to really say a pepe and just kind of sit back for a day or two and then see if there owuld come anything good out of all the stuff I right now only hope for and that includes all the stuff that partly been mentioned in here the last few days. I cant even begin to tell you all how important this October and November thing is to me. I know it takes a big bite into what I should not have givin, paid and done for this doing. Ohh well you see there are nothing to be said other than I am in hope but hope is all I have within me right now. No more no less. Its stinky and it hurts. Depending on somebody where nothing is certain or a guarentee is like a vacation is hell. All these fucking guessings and ....later Tommy

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20th of September 200SIXX, Cruise With Motley Singer & Countdowns
9:36PM CET
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Look at this!! Some god damn serious coolness! I can not believe it. Aweosme idea going or not going.
I guess I myself will be kind of unableto go but SHIT man. This is so great. A almost total Motley tour at sea. Can anybody actually argue. Wanna go? You have all the details below nad can get your reserved ticket right now. Fuck man this is over the top cool. What the hell can you wish for more than that! And in them stinky cool awesme visual surroundings. Hellooooooooooo....

ALL ABOARD VINCE NEIL'S MOTLEY CRUISE! - Vince Neil and Carnival Cruise Lines Join For Rock & Roll Cruise Miami to Nassau, Bahamas, January 12-15, 2007
MIAMI, Florida - September 18, 2006 - Motley Crue front man Vince Neil will call the Carnival Cruise Lines "Fun Ship" Fascination his Home Sweet Home in January 2007. The four day, three night rock and roll cruise sets sail on Friday, Jan. 12th from Miami, Florida, to Nassau, The Bahamas, and returns to Miami on Monday, Jan. 15th. In addition to a live concert by Neil and his band, a wet and wild shore excursion is planned, and several on-board activities will help to raise money for his Skylar Neil Memorial Fund and The TJ Martell Foundation. "I can't wait to rock the Carnival boat with my favorite fans. It's going to be a blast from start to finish, and will help support a cause that's very near to my heart," said Neil. In true Vince style there will be plenty of bikini-clad babes on and off the ship. Hooters will send thirty of their most beautiful models to compete in The Hooters Girls Girls Girls Bikini Contest, as part of Vince Neil's Tres Rios Tequila Beach Party. South Florida's finest Gentlemen's club, Pure Platinum, a long-time supporter of Neil's charitable efforts, is sending a bevy of Platinum beauties to be caddies for the Pure Platinum Miniature Golf Challenge, which will help to raise money for charity.
Cabin rates start at only $399 per person (based on double occupancy, subject to availability)
Add $155 per person for taxes, gratuities, port fees and ticketing (trip cancelation insurance available)
Full payment due at time of reservation confirmation(contact reservations@motleycruise.org for further info)
Guests are required to be 21 years to travel (unless accompanied by an adult, see FAQ for full details on age requirements)
All passengers MUST have a valid passport in order to travel!

Vince Neil's Motley Cruise passengers will also enjoy a slew of other Rock Star Style amenities and events including a custom Motley Cruise Survival Kit, Vince Vineyards Wine Tasting Party, a one-of-a-kind live charity auction, photo and autograph session with Vince, and a No-Limit Texas Hold 'Em Poker Tournament where one lucky winner could disembark with an extra $10,000 in their wallet!
Cabin rates start at only $399 per person, and you must be 21 or older to sail (unless accompanied by an adult). For complete pricing and other details, and to reserve your spot on the cruise, visit www.motleycruise.org , or call 1-877-666-8539. The Skylar Neil Memorial Fund supports research for children's Cancer, Leukemia and AIDS research, via the TJ Martell Foundation. For more information please visit www.skylarneil.org and www.tjmartellfoundation.org

My travel partner have her debuing showon the tour going round the US right now in Charlotte North carolina in just a couple of days. The show I SHOULD have been at but got changed and pushed back a good month almost. The summer have been really UNcool to me on the note of Cruecial doings!! I can only and do actually hope that Corinna will have this fucker in mind as she goes there. Bootleggers and what ever else may be there she could get for me. I have three weeks more to burn before its me that takes a seat onboard the plane from Copenhagen towards Atlanta, GA and further on to Detroit!!. Then my thing begins. I think there are going to be a fairly cool trip for me. But that little detail will really be absolutely depending on how she and I will be geting along. Said in a fun but also serious way. I think we can have the time of our lives but that is possible for anybody that is willing to do team shared experiences. I am such a person and everybody visiting my site knows this. And some people that have had me close in their lives also knows I get extremely hurt and disssapointed when people acts like piss ants. And trust me I see that a little too many times compared to what should be fucking legal.

Three more weeks and its my time. A trip that has probably cost me the most of all trips I have taken the last 3 years. I have this feeling that there will be a line of questions to this one. Let me just say this; this time there have been so many things and so many miss outs of all kinds of things that in all makes this one the most expensive one to do. And also MY last for a very long time. So it better be good. My travelling partner have all these facts too and its pretty much her situation too. he last call out for doings for a long long time from now. But you see there are hopes and there are great hopes for fine results. I will talk to my partner on Friday most likely and get her show report ...
You all take care guys... Be back at the end of the week, Tx Lee

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19th of September 200SIXX, KISS, Supernova, Hopes
5:28PM CET
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Dont know if any have heard KISS` paul Stanley is releasing a solo album for the first time in 28 years. New Door Records/Universal Music stands behind "LIVE TO WIN" CD. The CD will be available at retailers on October 24th. Just in from The first radio song "LIVE TO WIN" should start airing on radio stations in early October. Old KISS fans and pre Crue fnas cna find ads for the CD to appear in Blender, Rolling Stone, US Weekly and Hit Parader. I am gong as said in these diaries of mine to USA for Crue shows and a visit and togetherness for and with my girl Corinna Hargrave. After the Detroit and Indianapolis shows I am returning through Atlanta to South Carolina again with her for some time off from the roads before the final evening of the trip will be spend in Raleight North Carolina in October for yet another Motley show as well. But speaking of Atlanta Paul Stanley the oldest true rocker in the metal and rock n roll music in my life starts his new solo tour in Atlanta Paul Stanley's LIVE TO WIN Tour kicks off October 21st in Atlanta. The current tour dates are listed below. Additional shows may be added.

10/21 Atlanta, GA - TABERNACLE 10/23 Ft. Lauderdale, FL - REVOLUTION 10/24 Orlando, FL - HARD ROCK LIVE 10/26 Baltimore, MD - RAMS HEAD 10/27 Atlantic City, NJ - HOUSEOF BLUES 10/28 New York, NY - IRVING PLAZA 11/01 Pittsburgh, PA - PALACE THEATRE
11/03 Milwaukee, WI - RAVE 11/05 Detroit, MI - EMERALD THEATRE 11/06 Chicago, IL - HOUSE OF BLUES 11/07 Minneapolis, MN - QWEST
11/10 Seattle, WA - SHOWBOX 11/11 Portland, OR - ALADDIN 11/13 San Francisco, CA - FILMORE 11/14 Los Angeles, CA - HOUSE OF BLUES

The LIVE TO WIN Tour will begin in late October. Tour merchandise is currently in the works and from what I've seen so far, there will be a lot of happy Paul fans! Work continues on Paul's official site, www.Paulstanley.com and should be completed around October 1st. Lots of exciting Paul Stanley news is coming soon! So stay tuned! I would really like to go see this one. I am BEGGING for Corinna to have the time and will to do this with me. That and the much popular KISS coffee house a bit away from her house but still in S.C. I will never ever see it if she wont go with me and I will never see Stanley solo EVER if not this Atlanta gig. Tickets are not up yet but they will be shortly and sell out. Any other gig in the tour is out of my reach. Yes I am going to Hollywood in Nov. But I am heading home the fucking day before he plays at the Hollywood Sunset Strip House Of Blues. Guess if that one hurt? man I have to see paul once more in my life. There iwll NOT be a new KISS album but there will be a new tour Only question is when how with what and why!!!
The Kiss Army may be able to pack its gear for a tour in the near future, but not an album. The group's Paul Stanley, preparing for the Oct. 24 release of his solo album "Live To Win" and an attendant tour, tells Billboard.com he's "sure there will be a [Kiss] tour at some point." He even confirms that one of the ideas being discussed is a traveling version of the orchestral shows Kiss played in 2003 in Australia, which resulted in the "Kiss Symphony" CD and DVD releases. But it looks very much like we have heard the last new KISS tunes in our life time. Things in life begins to slowly remind me that we are closing various books every year - time goes by and we all gets older and the things I had and loved and that started my rock n roll interest and leading me in on huge collecting - well those are lacking towards the end. So again I really really like to go see Paul !!! No doubt!!

Thinking Supernova and the TV reality thing that formed Tommy Lee`new band well... the so called HOUSE BAND behind the singers well;
Paul Stanley's backing band for the LIVE TO WIN Tour will be that House Band from the CBS TV Show, ROCK STAR. The band appeared on the first season of the show - ROCK STAR: INXS, as well as this year's ROCK STAR: Supernova. Comprised of Paul Mirkovich (Keyboards), Jim McGorman (Guitar), Rafael Moreira (Lead Guitar), Nate Morton (Drums) and Sasha Krivstov (Bass), the House Band is an eclectic, skilled group of professionals who know rock and roll. Earlier today Paul enthusiastically spoke about bringing the House Band on the road with him. "From the first time I saw them perform, I knew they were the band that could help deliver the songs for my solo tour with lethal force. Trust me; this is going to be awesome!” Paul told KOL. Thats pretty cool and proves ones again my rock n roll world of roads and mysteries arent that far apart. Have to see Paul. Corinna if you hear me I am begging you on this one. Please....Visit http://rockstar.msn.com/gallery/houseband
to view more photos of the guys.

Okay I guess time will show if this is gonna happen for me. But for me as a single individual this is jsut a big a wish as for seeing the Crue on the fall tour. many of you wont really get that with me but its a past still sticking loyalty to the love for a New yorker masked gang that took me by suprise and fucked me up good in 1976. So Mr. Stanley is surely still an important individual in my life. Not gonna hit the US for the Supernova tour at all. They should come to Europe next year as well. And go through the world pretty much like the Brides Of Destruction did with Sixx. one year turbulence then comes another Motley album and tur. So we will see if this holds water or if it leaks and die out. In the mean time I have my faithful loyalty.com and .dk partner Jesse to cover my ass with the Supernova stuff and Corinna the constant helper so far. So right now that is what is going to be the frames for my life in the Super name - If no Europe 2007 then NO Supernova for this dog. I have a line of cool things inthe wait and things have started to knock on Corinna´s doorstep so far and slowly are arriving at the place ..so with a return from the US next month (o answer peoples questions) YES there will at the end of October come plenty of new addings in form of collectibles in all aspects once again. No reason fro doubting that one. talk later .....Soon up Detroit (rock city) .lee

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16th of September 200SIXX, Hang High
2:12AM CET
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Only One God Damn Thing Say It!!!!
Dont Fucking Quit Your Dreams - Without Dreams Youre Mecanical Might As Well Die

The Autographed Nikki Sixx Carnival Of Sins Custom Cowboy Hat.
After numerous requests by the Motley fans to make a Custom Motley hat . American Made Outlaw has joined forces with Nikki Sixx and his charity Running Wild In the Night American Mad Outlaw is very Proud to Announce that this one of a kind Custom Carnival of Sins cowboy hat that will never be reduplicated and was created By American Made Outlaw & Mr. Sixx for his charity Running Wild in the night is Autographed by Nikki himself and is going up for Auction to the highest bidder. The hat is a L / XL black straw hat that is Bendable and shapeable with a comfortable cotton head band inside of the cowboy hat that is a custom designed Jonathin Harris hat line. American Made Outlaw is very excited to be apart of the Nikki Sixx Charity "Running Wild In The Night". We look forward to many more Years With Nikki & everyone at Motley Management and help Raising Money for a Great Cause..

Item is actual autograph in silver ink This is anopportunity to buy a collectable item signed by Nikki Sixx! And to help the Kids of Running Wild in the Night. Auctioned off by Swagrox.com
American Made Outlaw are the Leaders of the Fashion & Music industry American Made Outlaw is a Custom Clothing Company that works with various Artists in the Country & Rock Music Industry Custom making One of a Kind Custom Cowboy hats & Custom Jeans and Jewelry and has helped raise allot of money for Numerous Charities for the last few years. Website www.americanmadeoutlaw.com

Here is a chance to get it. A Nikki owned something. Personally I dont think its worth the money its up at. 510 bucks with still a full week to go. What the hell...
Its not an item I would personally pay more than 200 for. Anyway there are enough people out there that are all messed up ones things gets thrown to the table and being offered for the public to buy.Ohh well let the kids have their fun.

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15th of September 200SIXX, Countdown & Spinnings
11:25AM CET
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I am sitting here gearing up for a return to some restaurent business for a borrowed time only. I am not at all pleased with theings as they are right now. If you have read yesterdays diary you would know what the fuck I am talking about. I am in a state of "LOOSING MY MIND" .trying to find the spike again about this life that I lead. I need more than ever to have my travelling companion, girl, love an more to join me and do the best possible to make these USA trips to come sparkling best way possible. I have been spending most my the late hours sitting listening to the back catalogue trying to find the old familiar answers to why I do this. Why I live and love the band so much that it alous me to go overboard in any so called normal life. How can the 4 Hollywood men still drag me to their world when the rest of the life that I live is totally fucked and with absolutely no satisfaction what so ever?? I am amazed and shaken at the same time. Yet I seem to catch myself al lthe time in the one single reaction and thought the more I go through the fucking music and more. I AM LIKE THIS. It is not a put on thing, act or feeling. It is not a thing taken on cause of boredom. I truely find myself loving this dreaming of this living and leading this .

The self titled album from 1994 is spinning on the CD player right now and it is just another kind of weird felt thing. The music goes in like a needle to my bones and I cant seem to slip my mind digging in on the lyrics that a lot of these lyrics on this album on the 94 release was thoughts emotions and demons on paper from nikki`s herion years of 1986, 1987. Wonder how many knows about that? Anyway, I have so many dreams still to live out and to ful fill that it is almost mind blowing what the hell is going on in my skull. And to be pushed back into a corner like I feel a huge part of my life is, makes me think alternative big time. I have reasons to believe I will not fully die a happy guy. Life - Death - its all the same to me these days. Its all the same kind of hula hoop. Fuck it. Live it like it loose it. What the fuck?!! Does it all really matter? Isnt this thing called life just another version of gods huge puppet show? Arent we all just fabricated to to what we are meant to when he pulls his shitty stinky strings? never mind, I CLOSE MY EYES AND GO SMOKE THE FUCKING SKY!! There is no god, never was even though that is another story and totally besides my point here. And if there ever was, god fucking lost his game of chess and the devil took over. yeah ... when its time we fucking all smoke the bloody sky. I dont get the god damn ways of the world no more. No matter what we do to outdo each other we fucking all loose. The world has taken a crappy turn and ... ohhh why bother sitting here giving lecture ones again. Nobody cares and all ther would come out of it would be a "Tommy you dick, you are a sorry ass of a sad shot head - lightend up"

Thats why this ends right here. I am a mad dick... not happy with the world it sucks and there inside myself a comfort in this one sentece - life sucks .then thank god you gonna rot n become the dirt that you are!! What the fuck .....I am tryng to win back some belief in things, I kind of know what broke me recently and yet I cant put just a finger on it. Its not right its not enought with just a finger on one thing. A little more complex than that. maybe I should try to just rest my life close my eyes and slowly drift away. been thinking about going backl to making music but I dont have the full passion for it besides it would be some really dark shit anyays and the most of it would end up becoming diary penned shit that would not go into actual music results anyway I am sure. No I need to find that old inspiration from the music the adventures from the band that I live for and love so much! Only question is is the mountain these days a little too high? I dont do things from a forced on will. I do cause I wanna and thats the way it will go for this bastard till I turn to dust.

There have been a lot of thoughts abotu the Supernova stuff too. Do or should I also cover this? Cover it in a collcetive kind of way? Its a two faced monster really. I dont like the band dont like the whole smell about it. So I am tempted to say no I dont wanan collect it all. On hte other hand it is what i started off by doing trying to cover allthe 4 original members and their past present and future in a musical way!! So arent I just really looking at a something that needs to take its share of my money and time and in the end apartment space?? Just asking.. myself. well I guess it is like that. It is a thing I have ot do and have to cover. It is a thing I may learn to find okay or for all I know learn to love. I seriously do not think so but I could be wrong....

Its going to be a full time week with not much website work at all from today. There will be a focus on other things now till I return here with hopefully a better feeling gained from what ever the coming week may give me. I am hoping for something to make me reach the point of brief smiles in an honest way that cna only come from something hinest and heart meant stunt in sime way. I do talk alot about HEAT dont I? It is something I am fully aware of. But only cause the one thing in our excistence to give us a warm bubbly feeling is just that ... shit coming fom the heart or having been touched by our hearts. No other way everything else in your living years is shit you force on yourself cause you feel you for one reasin or anther have to. Or pure and simple greed. we are people of the western world and society so yeah there are things that arre forced upon us we dont really care for and take in. but we have to or sociaty will fucking punish us through its own written books or laws and complications they them selves cant always figure out. Its a rotten place......have an awesome week(end) later.....

Charles Set To Break Ground On “The Dirt”
Larry Charles, (”Borat”) is in pre-production on his next film “The Dirt,” a Mötley Crüe biopic based on the rockers’ 2001 book “The Dirt:
Confessions of the World’s Most Notorious Rock Band.” Rich Wilkes adapted the book penned by bandmates Nikki Sixx, Tommy Lee, Mick Mars and Vince Neil with writer Neil Strauss — tells the story of the band’s rise, complete with all the ups and downs in friendships, on tour and in the studio. The film will shoot on location in Los Angeles.

Whiskey and porn stars, hot rods and car crashes, black leather and high heels, overdoses and death. This is the life of Mötley Crüe, the heaviest drinking, hardest fighting, most oversexed and arrogant band in the world. Their unbelievable exploits are the stuff of rock ‘n’ roll legend. They nailed the hottest chicks, started the bloodiest fights, partied with the biggest drug dealers, and got to know the inside of every jail cell from California to Japan. They have dedicated an entire career to living life to its extreme, from the greatest fantasies to the darkest tragedies. Tommy married two international sex symbols; Vince killed a man and lost a daughter to cancer; Nikki overdosed, rose from the dead, and then OD’d again the next day; and Wick shot a woman and tried to hang his own brother. But that’s just the beginning. Fueled by every drug they could get their hands on and obscene amounts of alcohol, driven by fury and headed straight for hell, Mötley Crüe raged through two decades, leaving behind a trail of debauched women, trashed hotel rooms, crashed cars, psychotic managers, and broken bones that has left the music industry cringing to this day. Its starting to take form after manys stops and goings. But then again whats new in that way in the Motley world? Nothing....

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14th of September 200SIXX, To Die Or To Win Love & Understanding
12:36PM CET
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I am sitting here at my own little musical castle in life trying to do something a few people acuse me for doing a lot, which by the way is a lie. I am ANALYZING my life as of now, my inner feelings, my feelings and heartfelt pain and pleasure dissapointments and joy bout everything I have in my awaken life. A line of things in my life is going under the microscope and I dont particularly like it. A lot of things and people are dissapointing me. I end up in a corner asking myself "am I really such a misunderstood person? Am I really such a loner cause I refuse to be round ordinary that bores me out of my own skull? Am I really such a requesting or demanding dedicated soul that I am slowly slipping away into another world where its almost a comfort that there is a death waiting at the end of the road?" What is a guy to do when all he knows, all he cars for all that makes his engine spin, is the music and the passion he holds .... sitting here with tears rolling down my face I wonder if I was ever meant to be or do something else but through a tough long youth of fighting standing up for my discovered passion for music ... I also waved goodbye to love and sharing. Love as to nobody I have met so far can handle my love. My passion, my dedication. I have been lost and found many times over.

Heaven can wait and a band of angels wrapped up in my heart will take me through the lonely night through the cold of the day. And I know I know ...heaven can wait. And all the gods come down here just to sing to me and the melody`s gonna make me fly without pain without fear. Give me all your dreams and let me go alone on your way give me all of your prayers to sing and I`ll turn the night into the skylight of day. heaven can wait. Yeah... heaven can wait. But till I meet heaven I wont have tasted home. I feel all revved up with no place to go. I live in a world that doesnt aply to me. Live in a world where I sadly have good intentions and postitive thoughts and all about every new face that steps into my life. But mostly it ends up me being a substitute for weirdness in a person. Or I simply go fighting a fight for a friendship or relationship that I am doomed to loose. People have such a way of polishing their own backbones. There are not many team players around no more in this modern day form of society. How much good will and honest love do I have to share and dig deep for to get just a spoonful of what I work so hard for? I hear the voices out there going "what do you think? Youre more special than any of us? We too work hard and fail on things" yeah well there you have it. Whats the point in shouting it out. Gonna get nailed to the floor anyways. What happend to people listening and then trying to be a bit focusing on something else than themselves?

I begin to feel a need for changes of some sort. Changes for things that means a lot to me in life. Changes on things that I love. For the simple reason that the stuff I love in life the most is wearing me out. It is a dangerous feeling what passion for things and people can do to you when it isnt fully covering your needs. I have asked myself many times the last month what I can do to keep things as they are and not really change things around a hell of a lot bout my ways of looking at things. The only thing is my love for my girl, my love for my collccting and my love for people around me are just eating me up due to the fact I do not get back what I myself put into it. I can not fully explain it in other ways than this that you are reading. Unless you have been there yourself and kind of know what I am talking about. I am extremely alone it feels. Yes I have people around me but they are kind of only there in the flesh. I kind of have a girl but she is not acting or sharing what every living soul is looking for and more importantly not giving what I need back to feel calm good appreciated and all that a relationship is supposed to be all about. My collecting ...well it has limits now to what I can do for quiet some time now. It has a set of new rules to what I am aiming for and it has limits for what and who I can trust without a glimse of second thoughts.

I guess I have managed to find myself in a new aspect of life called; dissapointment. I am so hugely dissapointed in the ego and the selfishness people carry around these days. There are a lot of words and promises like constantly. But the words and promises - 19 out of 20 times falls apart or all of a sudden they have a book thick explanation to why and what is the reason or more likely reasons for not backing up those words and promises. I dont think I can or want to live with that in my life. I have sat here with a pause after every line written here in this posting thinking "Tommy you fuck, why not just create a thank you and goodnight note and quit this kind of living?" -I am not known as a quitter. I am not known to myself for being one to give in and give up. But people that means something to me that are around me and in my life one way or another are looking so empty to me. Filled up with a whole lot of nothing. Not to them but to me. I wish I could see things differently...And I dont know what the hell to do about it. I am not gonna ask them to change again or think one more time about their ways and what they send out as signals to me, for me and about me.

I am in the middle of nowhere near the end of the line but there`s a border to somewhere waiting and there`s a tankful of time oh give me just another moment to see the light of the day take me to another land where i dont have to stay and Im gonna need somebody to make me feel like you do. Then I will receive somebody with open arms, open eyes and open up the sky and let the planet that I love shine through.

My life is a song book. Every song is a chapter or a feeling in my lived years. I know only this type of life that I live through a few musicians really. I cant say or see it any other way. Is that sad? or is that exceptional excitement? I have no idea. I only know things are not what I wanted them to be at this point in my life. Only in the sense of collecting. I have had the last couple of years going better and been holding up more for me than I ever dared hope for. But then again now the limits have been reached and now the next three quarter of a year will be holding more or less nothing. So many things and so much have been coming to my attention and so many items and adventures have been added to my basket of Motley life.

This world has just kind of come to a point where I dont think I fit in. That sentence could have ended with a question mark but I chose not to put one there. Cause I feel shit sure ...
You see the three people that means the most to me in my life are all living lives and sending me waves of really fucked up this and that, that I can not handle and no matter how much I say things directly and gives hints and signs that I need things to be differently, at least see them too, having a will to rethink their ego freaky ways yet asking me constantly to do and not do so and so.....where is anything fair in that?!! I have made my decition to all of it. But After November things will just change. Things will either have sunk in for these people or I am not having anything major with them. I cant. It is fucking tearing me apart. It is killing me slowly. But surely. Should you be a slave to your frinedships and realtionships? I dont think so. Both ways are there to ......hey, look at the words. FRIENDSHIPS.. thats a positive wibe in the word right there. RELATIONSHIP that is an emotional and heart meant thing of positive wibes and sharing in that one. I dont feel it in either - about the persons I am referring to. And it is like being stabbed and alouing myself to be constantly fooled BY MYSELF and I dont like it. Its hurtful and painful. I could put up a fasade and pretend... but I wont. What good is life if you half your awaken life should do that?? Fucking wake up. People are selfish and ego bitchin. And I dont seem to be able to say or make a note of anything for these people to even make them give it a second thought.

Have you who read this also experienced something like this? Or can you imagine that everything you care for and fight for kind of well.. works against you in smaller or larger ways?!! It is a true hell to have in your life. It is a doubt of where to go that would give you the feeling of IT being the right way! I am at that cross light. I do not know where to turn or anything... I just do not know. I am blind screwed and fucked up from how I get treated. And how I see the reactions from the ones I tell the ongoing wrongs, it is ..... I guess I am only feeling comletely lost from all this. And I can in all honesty NOT say what can make it better. Well I can That the people start thinking about what the heck is going on, and start to listen and try changing just a fucking inch. Meet me at lats half way instead at their end like all the bloody time. Here we go ..... some are about to get really extremely pissed even more. Stepping on their egos is not popular. I am now willing to pay the price should it come to that .

I hear also some saying Tommy what is this posting about ... why is it qualified ot be posted on here. Becasue it highly touches my Crue life too people. It highly gives me a second thouoght of what I should do as my next move after the touring. I am not selling out if thats what you all think it begins to smell like. Thats not it. Thats not it at all. I think a lot about my future doubt will get either harder worked on or get dropped after I return from my next two adventures in the USA of October and November. How they will go, how they will turn out will set a lot of marks for whats next!!
I am one with (at times) many inside informations and maybe I should just start not to share them and keep them to myself. I have been wondering too if they are what people treats me from? Is it envy?? Arethere really things like that, that have influences to how we get along me and some people?? People I thought were amongst the closest to me in life? Okay it begins to feel end and pointless to go on but I feel I have to do something to get it out of my system and the diaries have been the best obtions for me to this ahort lighted self theraphy right here right now. Thanks for keeping up with me and alouing me to get it off of my chest!!

Last episode of the Supper Soda is finally over. It holds my 25% of the thing I have a life long passion for in Tommy. So here it goes here goes another little fact to back it up ... the above typed thing and suspition. I said it a couple of weeks ago and it was settled then and there already.. go back in my diearies and see for yourself. Thats what I touched above. Is this something that brings people to aggresion and envy? Hell I dont know. i should maybe keep things to myself. How ever I said Lukas would win it. it leaked and it has been set as something that would give the Supernova workrs time to get the new shirts and more done in a hurry. It ended yesteray so there are already new double sided shirts and shit available online from the "Supper Soda fanclub" right now. There have been other Supernova things prepared as for Lukas being the winner that has not been officially said yet!! So I know and hear things from along time and hard rock gained social net of people over the years. I have on the Motley dot com shout board been accused for being a liar and more just like woth the brides chat board when that was around. What the fuck..... people are idiots. Yes I went as far as saying that - idiots. Fuck the consequences. Yes it was live TV part from, it was recorded in the morning hours of the day it was sent on air. That does not mean its not set up or already, decided in details on how who should go where and why!! Are you guys that believes this really that blind? I give you the credit of not being aware of it but dont fucking tell me I am a liar - you who said that are small ignorent little fucks. I dont aprove or share the Lukas caracter but - congrats to the guy.

San Diego U.S. District Court Judge John Houston grants the request from the members of the original Supernova (an Orange County, California, punk trio formed in 1989) for a preliminary injunction to halt Tommy Lee’s new band from performing or recording under the name Supernova if they fail to change or add any words to the moniker. The injunction keeps the producers of Rock Star: Supernova from "performing rock and roll music, or recording, or selling rock and roll music recordings under the same, pending a trial of this action on its merits, or until otherwise ordered by the court." I dont fully get it either why not just change a detail in the name and get the unhappy people happier? The three Supernova giants Lee, Clark and Newsted. The band that holds some TV advantage now from all the shows will have a great deal of succes indeed they tour US for a couple of months beginning of 2007 if they come by here then I go see a show yes. But if not then no. The Crue is my passion not the other. But I will follow it from a distance. It holds some people that could attrack fns of three bands that were the cream of the cream in the day Crue, Metallica and GNR. And then of cause the people that are simply new fans and not thinking of these memebrs past and presents. There are as said already new merchandise and there are prices that would make a dead guy roll over in their fucking grave. Some pretty cool lithographs yes but fuck me is they arent also WELL paid for by the fans that buys them. No kidding. I cant believe it. What is kind of funny though also some what sad is that the Supernova shirts are gonna be like 30 bucks (US) on tour and the Crue ones out there now are fucking upat 40 each. I think there have come new times in touring merch now huhh? The band really wants huge profits for their stuff. Having been in the music business for some time either actively or just of interest I know that there were a time back in the late 90`s where bands began to say there would come a new revolution in form of bands earning their money. Even Nikki Sixx jumped on that idea and wanted it to be true on their behalf also.

That being ticket prices should with time for a show go down and what should bring in the money should be the merchandise. Thats where the bands should earn their money from. Yeah well it is surely going in that direction. Now Supernova even have lithographs for 10 and 400 dollars. I think the prices have gone up more than anything BIG time but the quality in the material is the same shitty 100% cotton that looks like yesterdays something only after a good amounts of washings. That is sad I think. Not for me personally cause I buy everything but never wear my shit. Never. The stuff I buy is in the exact same shape and quality as when I did buy it back in the day was it bought new and not from hands of an earlier fan or collector that had worn something.....Anyway, seems like the Americans are all over the Supernovathing right now more than on motley compared. Some how i can understand it though I do not share the opinion. Peace you all ...and please bare with me till I get over the hill top again. I feel like shit and as you can clearly see I am not in the best shape of mind at all these days. Love ..... the few I hold dear at heart .. you know who you are!!!!!
Lee - the probably most lonely dedicated soul out there

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11th of September 200SIXX, Just A Change Thats All
12:09AM CET
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I know this is not really a time about Motley or such things so in a way I should not really post this one. But its 9-11 and I have to say it is for many reasons a date for me that is just really heart felt. I had a past passion for New York and felt really shitty about what happend in 2001. Five years dead...... well, doesnt that have a shitty ring to it? I never forget the times I was in them towers in Manhattan. Been up there a couple of times myself. You see there were so many things musicly then too that was attached to New york for me .... a line of stories that have never been shared with you all on here. Just too many .. and I might as well had written a book about my passion in the musical life that I lead. I have a huge interest in the thing that happend back then and these days in Denmark we have 4 days in a row started tonight on national TV with and about a lot of things about the tragic happenings from that day in New York. Fucking aweful. I remember it well, I was at a fucking cafe as the news hit the TV here first flight had already hit the first tower as I heard about it. I was in chock. And I have not really fully gotten over it. Easy people I am not in a shitty health bad dog ass carma kind of situation ... It just means a lot to me that is all.

Now being on here I wanna thank my latest only partner left on here Jesse for the talks, the many talks and cheers we have had the last week or so. It is good to get close and get to hear your inner thoughts and ideas, wishes and other shit dude... thanks man. We are so on the same rail track - and that is what we need to be brother, to stear this thing to its supposed final destination. People if you have any questions about anything or comments or something use the old fasion way - "kickstart my heart" section. Either me or Jesse will answer it. I have givin him free hands too people, to answer things. I - with where we are on this consider he and I equal .. this is no longer a Tommy - Denmark only site. Later guys....Tboy

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9th of September 200SIXX, Pittsburg, Future Adventures
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Its Pittsburg day!! The 3rd show of the 30 some listed for the fall with the not too highly talked about Aerosmith. Well I am kind of suprised to hear the stories I have heard so far. Seems a few more people have turned to me now with som more positive thoughts to the Motley show on this tour. Thats kind of nice. I begin to look forward to going myself too. But there are things that needs to be dealt with on my own in my own world of fan dedication before I go. I have had some rather serious doubts to a line of things that I am kind of supised to say they have not gone too deep to my soul a created a lost passion for them. Shit jesse and I have talked a ton about it too. As you may rememebr from reading his own diary , he too has been marked by certain things and is not fully just sitting back with wide smiles and open arms.
Right now I have to say I am over excited about the trips I am having with Corinna in October and in California in November. We are pretty much closing our "Crue History" doings. We are going to see a line of things again and they are right now in the planning stages. We will go by so many still (for us) unseen places and some how get in on a talk about "do or dare" thng about other locations. Meaning some of the locations are in East Hollywood and is said to be shit dangerous places. I would just really like to see them since they hold the creem of the creem in the Hollywood hair days.

I dont know if you guys have seen it but ther is the Hard Rock in New York that will have Motley playing there .. two of a very unique Gibson guitar will be made one to be hung in the Hard rock cafe there and the other to be signed by the band later in September and auctioned off for one fucling lucky winner. So far its up at 1000,00 dollars. 13 days to go. Guess if I would love to have this one? Thats a fucking big hell yeah!! However I have my hands full right now I think and the trips with and for Corinna and myself are of such high priority that I guess I have to throw this auction way, way, way back in my head and not think too much about it. Besides I also have other offers in these tight "do full days" lol. So we will just see .... but it is a fucking beautiful guitar not a band owned one but just really really beautiful.

Mötley Crüe Signed Gibson Les Paul Custom Guitar
The band that gave us "Girls Girls Girls" and "Dr. Feelgood" is giving you the opportunity to bid on and win a piece of rock 'n roll history. Nikki Sixx, Tommy Lee, Vince Neil and Mick Mars will commemorate their Ambassadors of Rock New York performance by autographing* a custom-made Hard Rock Ambassadors of Rock Gibson guitar! The guitar is one of only two in existence. One will adorn the walls of Hard Rock. The other goes home with you! A Les Paul Custom Shop original, it was hand built by Gibson’s Custom, Art and Historic Division and comes with a Certificate of Authenticity. It also features the signatures of all four members of Mötley Crüe over a Hard Rock Ambassadors of Rock logo, created in celebration of Hard Rock's 35th anniversary. Winning bid includes photo documentation of the band signing the guitar at the show. Proceeds from this auction benefit The Chris Farley Foundation dedicated to educating the next generation about the risks and dangers of drug and alcohol abuse. Place your bid today and help touch the lives of future generations! And don’t forget to bid on VIP tickets and a limo ride to the show as guests of Sirius Satellite radio host, Jim Breuer! This guitar will be signed and authenticated by photo by all four members of Mötley Crüe at their Ambassadors of Rock New York performance on September 18, 2006 at the Hard Rock Cafe New York.

Next up for myself should be all the stuff I am now waiting for to come to either me or Corinna`s place. Its going to be such a good feeling knowing the handful of deals are done and over with and items are safely gonna be added to the lot and collection. I think I can honestly say I am quiet proud of the doings and expanding addings this year (too) and a few people have been showing extreme good will and understanding to all as it has gone along. I love it - a few things I think I will really love to get in on too are .ohh well maybe I should not bite over more than I can chew? what ya all think huhh!! Yeah maybe save a little on the gas... we still have a long road to travel down by. Its all okay!! Its all good.

But yeah time is ticking and there is soon a plane to take me out from Copenhagen to Atlanta and on to Detroit. For the first show for me. Corinna and I are gonna be seeing a few people including the old gang member Don Armstrong. I kind if miss him its gonna be good to see him again. Really good. Thats kind of the hard part for me I intend to like a few people and we get close and then I get this "missing" thing going. I guess I just dont really take my friendships and relationships lightly. And why the fuck should I? enough dumb ass shit heads doing that. Life is way too short to just be a dick. A decade is going by so extremely fast and all of a sudden what you had and / or could have had is fucking far gone. Its sad but the hard fact of life really. Its everyone`s choice yes I am aware of that ... I just stand by my word and opinion of that one .. life is too fucking short to be fucking around. later bastards...
Tommy

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7th of September 200SIXX, Relaxed Feelings Tour Start & Dissapointments
12:37PM CET
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So its been a few days after the killing of the loyal gang. I still feel sad that I couldnt find the gang of people to want equal doings as myself. But now that its over with I have learned my lesson and its now just a feeling of being more realxed, than sitting with a constant wonder and worry, about why the folks I wanted in on it seemed so silent when they claimed this was a heart felt passion for them too. No one is pissed at anybody it just was not what I wanted so its gone. And to have the better relaxed feeling now gives me kind of a new energy too to focus on the things that are now going on. Jesse and myself will do all we can to bring this mutha to another level. We only need to convince the webmaster to find personal interest in expanding her doings and will to learn more and all too. Heidi get that school thing going. If you really want this we need better creativity on here from you too lol. But in generel just a cooler feeling. Much better. Thank god.

The Supernova thing has passed another week. Week 10. One week to go. Still I say Dilana is showing true colours now and all I have said since the get go now shows to be true ..... it fucking amazes me how good my two boys Toby and our guy from Island still does. Their personal songs with their covers this week was just showing their private talent and I still say they are the better ones. Dilana I have nothing left for her. Storm - good but its not fully right for her to front this thing. Lukas who is winning this (sadly) I still see as having major things in the problem zone so I dont know why they will not choose Magni or Toby for it. Ohh well... what the fuck. Besides Dilana in my book is about to maybe make a huge step to really insolt herself. She has threathend the show to leave before being kicked out as she is "Officially" angry with the producers of the show that sets her (she claims) and others in a lower standard / bad light... so she will now perhaps leave the show. Dilana grow up. Your ego and downfall from the last two weeks has gotten to the best of you... what the fuck. At least loose with pride stop being this freaky little .(Ill spare you all who loves her - the words) Ohh brother how fucking stupid. Wonder if she does it. Quit!!! Pussy!!

The Fall tour has had its first couple of shows done in the much talked about Aerosmith support tour. And most of the people I have talked to about it that have seen the first show(s) are not having a cool feeling with it. Looks "great" visually with the new stage but it is way, way too much alike the past 18 months. Only cut shorter. Think of it like this; they started our in 2005 with a 135 minutes show - two part thing with a 10 minute pause. Then came winter 05 and spring 2006 tours and the shows were the same - part from being an edited version - fewer songs and all....
Now its a new stage set but same songs only once again edited. This time its a good 80 minutes and thats it. Nikki says; ""The first show of the tour was pretty good considering all the little wrinkles that need ironing out. All I saw was smiling faces from the front row all the way to the back of the place. There were a few of the older Aerosmith fans holding their ears, but we like it loud." -Well guess what Sixx, your fans can smile and be happy about being there but still be with a dissapointed feeling insde. The prices in the merchandise is said to have gone up. A Key chain and 6 shirts are the new sale products for the tour.

I have to say this; Not having seen it yet but I will shortly I have to say the new stage was needed no matter what it had been like. But more importantly the music GOT TO see some changes too. They have a shit long back catalogue with each a good 11 - 13 songs on there so there are tons to mess around with. Its a god damn professional band that should be able to see and know such needs. Its a tragic thing for the real supporters of the band the so called DIEHARDS - we can not 2 years and more in a row be satisfied with being fed off with the same kind song lists. C`mon Crue you have got to change things around. What about other songs from Too Fast, Theatre, Swine, Dr, there could really be build up a shit cool totally suprising set. I understand the new "theme" is horror dust and bones and that with some new songs could really be awesome to throw in some long time none played songs. Some may think I am travelling down ego street and dont seem satisfied with a thing. Like the boys them selves say "no matter what we do there will always be people not pleased" ... thats right!! Big time!! How ever I would still say the people you should give that xtra inch of understanding and respect are the diehards that have fucking stood by you through thick and thin. I know a good 10 people recently that have stopped collecting because they sadly have a feeling of the band being a repeated version of their own selves. I would really hate to see them make the same mistake that KISS did. Go out on a line of tours year in and year out playing more or less the same sets their greatest hits things and then say its all cool.

KISS - they are still my childhood heroes along side other artists you can read more about in the "Public Enermy" section on here.
How ever I lost heart felt interest in the band because they did what Motley is now slowly moving in on. I am frightend to think about the future if they dont change it ....Like Jesse says in his first own diary posting on his own page "they are only human" and that is true too. But c`mon dudes - this is not fucking too bright a move. Change the set list I beg of you. Love and respect is what should go both ways but it seems one of them things or both is constantly hanging in a thin string and it breaks if there is not a kind of care taking feel and activity ......

Corinna - thanks again for all the stuff you have done recently. You know its a huge and a personally important thing for me. Thanks a great bunch!!!!
Later freaks, peace!!!! To Doug, Don, Darron and all see you soon guys ..my take off to the USA has again been set to a countdown. Lee

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5th of August 200SIXX, Burying Some Waking Others
9:33PM CET
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So today is the day in a good few hours the band enters the stage again for the first time for a bigger tour in Nikki`s single life. There is going to be some sad shit happening out there if you know what I mean. Never the less this is the day. This is the day of the motley boys going back on the road The long talked about tour supporting Aerosmith. New stage looks and saldy and most likely also only a short best of set. Anyway they are tonight being woken back to life as a band after a summer off of the roads. PLease dont dissapoint us. We are some loyal dicks that have supported you since back in the first reunion days bring us what we deserve.

Bringing life to some we are on the site killing others. The highly wanted GANG OF LOYALTY was a dream I had but sadly a line of reasons was in our way to make the results show. It is wit hgreat sadness I kill this section tonight on the site and it will most likely return no more. Due to a lot of turbulence for many they sadly arent with me no more. This kind of kills me they were great people I am only thankful that they will remain in my life as good friends most of the retired gang members. Thanks a million for trying the time you were all there. You can only guess how much this meant to me.

Now only Morten is with us together with Jesse. Corinna may be on the side line in the shadows.... we will have to see.
Morten is only to be contatced if you see something on the site thats got to do with audio or video. he is the guy talking care of all that listings corrections and tradings and all. You find the info on him where you always have been able to find infos. Jesse of Bosten is now my single soul partner on the sites here both this .Dk and the .COM and the My Space is in his full control and its working fine. I am sure he and myself will try to do all we possibly can to change things and bring the hopes back for the ultimate effective site that yet has to be seen on the world wide web. Welcome to new times in the partnership of Motley Loyalty.
Peace, Tommy, Jesse, Morten

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4th of Sep 200SIXX, Changes & Killings

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I am loosing two of my most "dedicated" workers on the Loyalty thing. I am gonna give it this week out and then I am just gonna say its not really holding up. If thats the case. It does seem like the grand idea is sinking to the bottom of the where ever.... Things are not cool in the camp of Loyalty it seems. I have a ton of rearrangements to do too. I am planning this Oct and Nov thing with one too now that has what I am tempted to call "lost interest" at least the fire is gone. That too is now gonna feel really weird and all. Hell I dont know. I guess I am just not fully in a state of mind right now cabable to judge the situation. But there are surely things going on that are all of negative caracter.

Loving life these days? I can not say that I do. It is absolutely smelly and slimy. I seem to run into people big time the last week with not much faith and all for the band no more. Certain people have said a few things too but not explained them selves so I am not really aware of where they stand and all. It is simply a stinky fucked up little situation. Ohh well I seme to have more than enough on my own two shoulders to sort out. Things are not gonna be easy from the end of next month and then a good what....year ahead!!!! Well I have to say a new job is needed. I can only hope the people close to me will work with me in the new rules to come. I am in need of a time away from Motley Crue after this fall tour too. I need to have a little fresh air that does not include their name for the first time in years. Had been nice to have that special someone that shared that thought. We will see what happens. Hopefully this week will start show some arrivals at Corinnas - of the items from the thousands of dollars paid a while back. Long postings could have been givin these days but I am kind of finding myself in a waiting position on what to do change loose and more. So I will just wait and see whats up.

Supernova - Think maybe Magni and Dilana is gonna be sent home this week. That leaves three and as said in my posting last week Lukas is wininng it all. But the thing is both my bets for the job Toby and Magni stood up all till now from the start of the show thats good judgement man. Enough of that right now, next Saturday will have a clear picture of whats going down. Love to you all
Tommy

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3rd of Sep. 200SIXX, Gang Changes & Huge Crue Support Los Woooww!!
11:11AM CET
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As I post this I am on my way to Rolling Stones in Horsens Denmark to the tour the Motleys should have been on. Now it feels like . okay its gonna be great to see them but I could have been without.
I will post more tomorrow as I get back and try to give an honest opinion on Stones and what else of news I have coming in from fans. But right now I am looking ahead to something that is just so out of what can be called EXCITEMENT. Its kind of ...ohh well. Not really cool. Gonna be stranded AGAIN in the streets for 5 hours in the middle of the night and then its gonna be thunderstorms and what have ya too. Ohh yeah its gonna be a treat. Guess who is sick Monday Tuesday? Yep!!! You guessed it. Fighting with a cold as it is already...

Now, the Crue have lost a fair share of support and all from loyal fans. Some just fans as of the band and the music and others have been die hard collectors and more for years. What the hell am I talking about? I tell you ...sort of. Without saying what I cant say - let me say this. There have been and are activities going on that has crushed the hearts of serious Motley supporters. They have had it, they have had enough. They even use words like "not gonna support a band that no longer treats their fans with serious respect back". I for one totally understand. And from that I can hear it now - "Tommy what about you? Are you stopping too?" I have not a clue to what will happen or anything. I have been shit close to things in the crue camp in many ways for a long, long time and I have to just see if my reactions goes beyond me being chocked from all the shit I have been fed with. If it does then YES I pull the plug. But I of casue have to let the feelings speak for themselves. I need to have that .... this is not a free time thing as you all know by now for me this is my life. I have givin up everything for this world I live in of Crue collecting and all. Should that be torn away from me or if I myself decide to put it away I will have only an empty life and absolutely nothing to build other things on. It will be like beng born an adult over again.

No one out there have and I dont think ever will fully understand my situation on this. It is just a thing that has a lot of impact on my excistence. I hope for many reasons my girl will be able to take me in and give us a life I dream of and there through maybe have an easier time saying its over when it one day will be over. We will see what happens. But there are doings from certain members that right now are stinky. certain members gives themselves the ultimate ego ride on Self center Blvd big time and it just feels fucking totally uncool. And a lot are (I know of 7 ppl) the past ten days that have said enough is enough. It is not something I had expected in all honesty I have to say this. A couple of my beloved gang members have the same feeling running through their bodies and I see some leaving us in sadness. It breaks me to know this but I understand they are fucking not pleased either with the way things are and have in more ways than one stopped supporting the band.

It rips my soul to pieces that I am in this situation and witnessing this shit. I am respecting all my friends that have givin me this information gang member or not they have just had enough. I am just extremely touched by the ongoing. It is not just a " ohh well its their life" thing.... I can not look at it that way. It is a truely shitty way that there. Never thought it would come to this. Wonder how I myself am gonna be treated should I meet them in Oct or Nov. And this has nothing to do about having a bad day either. No mam. its ego street and stiff middle finger attitudes and revenge towards some somehow. Its just really not cool in even the smallest way. I have to find inner peace again on this again and right now my mind besides this here is filled up with a lot of things that I have to look in on too the next 3 to 4 weeks.

Talk later my friends......to my loved ones I miss you guys....you all know who you are.
Looking forward to be with you all later on, Lee

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30th of August 200SIXX, Mystic, Addictions, Unreachable Goals
5:59AM CET
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-Tommy are you alright? Tommy is something wrong? How are you doing dude? The list of personal emails the last 72 hours have been long and full of these questions. People have been curious to my well being after having read my last few diaries. Well describe okay? what is it, when you are okay? Is that when you are in fairly good health and the world is still standing not tipping down over your shoulders or is it daily plates of food on the table or simply being alive, breathing? You tell me. I have kind of givin up on seperating these, and weighing these boxes in life in each, of their different aspects. We all look on these things very differently. I bet you, ask the 8 gang members individually what they would consider "being alright" you would get a good 5 to 6 different answers. Mine may just be a little more extreme. I have things in life I have to have to be or at least feel alright and there are a line of them things that I do not have right now. But I am being kept in a "waiting position" that yet aquires quiet a large and active energy just to be even aloud to be in the waiting position. So for those of you thinking ohh, thats all".. or "stop whining" or something "you already have what we dream of." Well then in your world I am fine. My cold has gotten way worse too so its another fairly great shitty thing I just dont feel good about but had that been all, I would have felt cool.

Want it explained? Well let me kill the "love to hate" issue first. Supper Soda. The family entertainment Tommy Lee TV project. Just sat and watched the latest of the performances of the remaning six fighting singers. I still say this - listen in on Magni`s voice its still fucking pure and clear as crystal. Maybe thats not what the guys want. But a cool voice to front a band and a tight drummer which they already have are the keys to have the tools for putting a cool band together. And yes he at times sounds a great deal like the singer of LIVE. Thats not a fucking bad thing. Magni has most of the cool things covered too. He will NOT win but I still say he is the golden egg in there. As the rest of the Americans, I guess, I was kind of curious to see the Dilana performance and the Lukas one this week. Hers for the reasons that she is on the shitter and after the stunts she pulled she lost points. And she lost just enough points to loose the god damn contest I think. And I was not cool with her tonight. She was a thing on stage. Not a singer. She was a desperate thing that longed for revenge. Convincing the masses she is the ace in the card deck for this thing called Supernova. Thanks but no thanks! Lukas because he will win this and I was in all respect not impressed with him today either. For some reason just does not apeal to me. And his singing gets shit lost in his songs when he starts being agressive up on stage. No dont like it. Magni I say it again. Toby still cool but not for the band. Wrong fellow. Storm - same story I see them two or Storm and Toby (sadly) leaving next week. Cause two will leave next week for sure. And two the week after that then the final with 2 remaning for the 13th of Sep and its all over.

Now my closet ghosts are in my life simply because I want things a whole lot. I dont know where it comes from. I dont know who else has it in my family, no one that I see. So I think it has just been a rebellious thing in me that has kind of said "Tommy look around too many people doing too many things they have been put up to do not self chosen from passion or anything. But things in the every day Monday through to Friday that brings them butter on the bread .... I have for as long as I can remember asked myself how can people sit back being satisfied with this kind of living? I have never understood about 95% of the human publilation on planet earth lives that way. That is why its called "normal life and doings". I too have had a line of things in my life like that. I have been well feed from gotten sex or something but they have never meant more than .....to me. It was not a touch of heart. I have in music always had my heart. My problem has always been I have just been unaware of what to do in the music field. What would give me the shot of satisfaction? I have sold records in a record store - fucking boring. I thought it was a work under god before I tried it. Sucks. I then have been in a booking agency for bands. Inspireing but there right there I noticed had things to do with music then I was more serious than just about all around me. And i time and time again got let down by the people I worked with. We just simple had different views to what we wanted to gain of it. I fastly found out that ws I to be in a situation depending on other people then I would surely get dissapointed - big time. So far in life it has just never failed. In everything I have touched. Jobs, relationships, off time activities doings in sparetime with friends. And so on and so on. Fucking not cool. I have been in managements and even aqt an independant label in Denmark.. over all things sucked. Then radio DJ and spinning and making rock n roll radio shows MY way. Cut backs and shit again you are depending on others and their shitty decitions. So What was left for me to do. Well collecting and doing it my tempo and my ways. Only I and thats litterally ... I alone could decide on when and why to end that so here I am...

I think in the end I have to bury my own dedication to things in my life that I truely love and have a passion for or else I will never ever reach happiness.
Now with Motley Crue - man if you guys (read this) have had any idea what, I have gone through to be here with the collection and the ideas I have thrown on the site and all..... you would know how I at times feel. But you dont and for one reason only. You have no clue to the kind of dedication I lead into my passions of life. Why can I not just collect and be pleased with what I can get and afford? Let me spell it out to you all in this way (without putting you all down cause that is NOT what I wanna do or even try to). You love cars. You love your car. You like the colour on the seats and all. But then you start geting curious you wanna know whats in the seats WHY are they so great to sit in? You wanna know about the engine. Whats its secrets compared to cars you dont like. Get the picture? Thats what I have in me, about the band slowly but surely I have gotten more curious. I have expanded my goals, to find out, to see, to do and to have. So as the site got up and running I have with time since this is new to me too... gotten new ideas for this and for that. But ... ok, let me take the example of what some people have requested on the kickstart / guestbook page on here...

1. Why not put together a gang of people to have a inner circle of dedicated Crueheads that simply would work together with me on goals for various things. I did ..
2. Why not start a gang diary after a while where people who now was in the gang could share their things with others like I do all the time. I did ...
3. Why not set up some ... you know the list is rather long on what people would like to see on here if you go way way back and read most of the postings in the guestbook.
I think I did meet most of the peoples requests. But there it is again The gang I have put together or the people I have tried to work with on the outside to get things in gear .. have just not had the same kind of passion or the same kind of priorities (which is probably more like it) with how to spend time in their lives. I am simply too dedicated time wise and all. I have to simply learn to not be depending and further more expecting that others would do and / or have the will or time to do what I like to get done. Very simple.

Does this mean that I can no longer have this collecting and site thing going on on the level I have it at now? the answer is NO!!! I can - but I have to make room for the one thing which is - only set goals you can do on your own. Like in the older days of my collecting life, it was always like this everything done solo for the one reason, nobody wanted it as much as I. For most others it was a hobby. It is not for me. It is a life style. I have these last few days after having had a kick to my "memory lane" and way of living and feelings for what I do .....due to the read of what I referred to yesterday...... gotten a very unpleasant wake up call that has givin me new ways of looking at things, Even though its the same drama looked in on. Its the same cartoon I just put on different glasses. I dont particularly like it. Have I too high expectations of life? maybe but still I say no why should I have? Should I just sit back and say "well this is how life has been presented to me so thats what I can do, thats what I can expect and thats what my limits are"??
I refuse... I refuse to live by that kind of rules in the long run. There are ways around it but all you have to ask yourself is "are you willing to do what it takes or are you just talking to get the 2 minutes of attention?" I guess I know the answer to that one about most people.

Like I said yesterday this kind of posting could be endless - long - and again I ask myself why do that? Would people get this? If not, well is it then important to you Tommy to make them understand? I dont think so except for one. My partner in life. My love - my future. Do I have her yet? I hope so but I cant say till the storm has laid itself to rest that is over her head right now. Too much to do to give us any attention. Nothing but a fact to that one. Period. You see I also want this bad enough and had it been singlehandedly up to me and me alone. we had been somewhere different already. But its not it takes two to bild the beauty in one, takes two to tango. One relationship, partnership .... love in life between two people thats honest true and loyal. So many things to change and test and try out but time goes slow in that part of my world. Time goes slow while waiting while the clock on life in generel feels like running a 100mph. You know what I mean? Shit ......
I just cant get my goals, dreams and all like I truely wish for, thats a promise from the big dude upstairs, I have just refused to listen to that too......

I think when the smoke clears I am gonna sit either alone for life or with this one that I hold in my heart right now and say this, that and more has to change and / or go for good for us to make it. And if thats the price for a perfect life as two I am willing to pay it. Fast and cash at check out box numeber one. No questions asked. If these things makes sence on my being then great if not then tough. Live with it or shake your head, make your comment to it all and forget it. Its not important in the big picture I guess. One thing is sure; its fucking hard wanting things badly and ppl around you kills the chances for reaching it.....

PS: thanks a billion to Corinna this morning for having gone through things in a tough scedual in the weekdays ... things are moving even closer now for the many AWESOME items to come to her doorstep and be part of one of the most awesome personal and private collections hold by one...Thanks a fucking bunch honey. And to Jess in Boston - TRUST me I am torn about the you know what!! Thx for the mag bro....

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29th of August 200SIXX, Thought I Could Control IT But.....
2:36PM CET
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As I know Sixx loved it - I too now have the SWEET on the spinner "Desplation Blvd". A lot of the Americans dont get Sweet and a lot of todays people outside the age rage of 35 - 45 dont like them either. Really who cares. The Sweet are cool. I treasure so much of the same shit the Sixxdog does. It actually amazes me how much we are alike only in different ways. I thought I could control my collecting and my ideas for the site. But I got news for myself. I obviously can not. It sucks to sit with that feeing. Some how I am feeling I have not really any goals to aim for no more cause all I aim for gets ripped away from me in the early stages of what ever. I seem to be rather alone in my little Motley universe with not much else to believe in than my own goals of sizes where I know I am not depending on no others to gain these goals with me. I feel sometimes the world have never and will never fully get me. Do I sometimes even wish I could get away from this for other things? Not really. Well that should be for a girl and TRUE love then. I am not in a position where I can alou myself to say "I dont have to think about ordinary people and the ordinary life". I constantly try to avoid it these years. But ONLY to have the freedome to do my Crue things and all. It is so sick to even read my own postings in here at times cause I see it is a so not normal way of living a life. Fucking giving the needs of daily doings like eating and all that the stiff middle finger. Something I Have not really any honest lust or passion for living without it. I feel at times that life is great when its shared with some that shares your beliefs and doings. I have this and ... yet I dont.
One should seek counsling. Yeah right....the day hell freezes over.

Is this something I should try to just re-organize and say ... "Tommy you simple need to rap it up and bow out" Say to myself this is something that took the best years of your excistence but its time to let it go for the one reason its isolating you and keeping you on a track where you simply feel too much alone in it and all. You are letting things eating you up. It is for sure not an healthy thing to do. Right now I am sitting here thinking; Hell if people ever wanted to be a bit close to a maniac and wanted to find out what a psycho was like in a world of his own? Well I am RIGHT HERE. I am alone on most of my dreams and doings. I can only hope and pray the chick in South Carolina wants things bad enough like I want them....in SOCIAL ways and not only in a spoken sentence kind of way. Did that make sence? ohh well if not tough!! I know what I am in for and I know what I want and have worked and made decisions from for a long time now. If it does not successfully go to my advantage then I have to learn how to resaddle my horse (life) and make a brand new life for myself. Time will tell. motley is just not a thing its a tattoo on my muscle called a HEART.

I have followed the few postings in the "kickstart" section too on both sites. The latest one from "Cruester" as well... hard to swallow. I to a point agree. We are not having the loyal gang going as I dreamed of it is a pot of individuals that simple have their own doings and others quiet simply there in name only. I feel like that was a great idea but not one to bare any fruits. sadly. I m not pissed dissapointed or any of that. It kind of only justifies my strong beliefs. VERY, VERY few out there actually has something these days they would kill for at least when it comes to what I have a passion for. Motley Crue. Man I just dont know. Its all a blur right now. Im not in haze oops did it sound like it? Well I am not. I really just need to solve somethings for myself and maybe change a few things around. I just see it as a thnk constantly hunting my ass. Everytime I reach out and offer others to team up on with me I get "burned" Burned in the sence things fail mostly. I cant help but think its just not as high a priority to others tommy as it is to you. And maybe thank god. Good there are some saine people left on the planet. Maybe it really is just you thats so way off of reality and fuck things up that as a living soul of society sooner or later will get hit by a ton of bricks telling you you can fucking not live this way. You can not have a stiff middle finger to most around you and believe that this passion you have as long as you are not an employe in the business that you can go on doing these things and in the size of how you actually have done it so far the last few years.

Fuck it!! it feels like I am my own self apointed "brain twister".... in this one. I am fully aware of all the letters and commas in here - can I help I just really want this to go right? can I be accused for having a dream I would die for? Is that so wrong? Is it not okay to try to go around rules and shit to be happy and to be avoid a feeling like being in prison doing things with your life that could not interest you less? Okay I should maybe end this posting right about now before something really ugly comes out. later people***

PS: cant believe Lukas won the Supernova singer role. God damn it. Shit!!!
Ohh well, I better get back and find a clinex... have catched a fucking cold.

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28th of August 200SIXX, My Collecting Life passing For Me Eyes - Supper Soda Shit
5:09PM CET
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I have discovered my own story with in a stripped very disturbing naked feeling. A version of my own view upon life and society around me as a dead serious collector dedicated to the Motleys for life.
This is gonna be a hard one for me to type right and even harder to describe my just discovered devilish look upon things as I have stood loyal and true to the band and my collecting over the years. All I can say is there is an official story coming out to the public next year that I have read now and so many parallel lines have been drawn to this story in my own ways of acting and being "against" society and its norms. I do realize that already here you are asking yourself what story? What is he referring too? Well I cant say. I am just not able to so forgive me. but the fact that I have been reading the to come peace for all fans have made me see things just in a way of my own activities and willingness towards gaining things to my collection over the years. for the first time ever in my life I could read and pretend it was my own tellings and told in a naked brutal way that makes the section of my own story in "Cruecial Injection" look like shitty baby food. I just never wanted to write the story in the harsh way that it at times really has been for me. I feel a need of getting it off of my chest after having briefly talked to a great friend about it today Tine.

I have so struggled to win things over and have so struggled to win and fulfill my inner dreams. I have always been looked at as the music freak that would do ANYTHING to get these dreams turned in to real life happenings. And nothing out side this universe should or would I allow to fuck these hopes and dreams up for me. I refused to let a house rent or a job or other things come in my path of where I was riding down at to gain something I really, really wanted. In many times of my life have I (too) been bugged and pissed off when the so called ordinary people have called to to chit chat about things. I ONLY wanted to have to do worth the people in my own chosen inner circle that had an understanding and a passion in some serious ways for music and at times my collecting. I have said it before I find it a miracle I have never gone criminal or an alcoholic from being this so very out of the ordinary. Almost a freak. An abnormal person in many eyes. I think I have never fully don't anything to attract my persona to normal things from the heart. I still today look at ordinary life as something that pisses me off and bored me to death. I can say it is an ugly way just about the same for me today. I hate it. But I also know why I hate it. I LONG FOR A TRUE LOVE LIFE. A true love OF my life. I have tried to erase that hope from my mind a gazillion times cause I have never believed SHE was out there. The single ingredients of TRUE LOVE and an open and butt naked honest relationship in good health is what I seriously need to get my ass to the next level in life. I have giving one girl all I possibly could. I am still not giving up its not that but I need it and I need whom ever she may be to understand this and to be wanting a real honest loving partnership too. For it to work.

Funny how the "to come story" from Crue next year holds that same search in life. I need that one thing to make me complete. I have said to a line of females you could make me complete a handful of times in my life. But I have always been the one to draw the shortest straw in the end. The real center heart dreams have never been fulfilled for real. The next best thing has many times Motley Crue and personal adventures. How ever there are things you as being part of the human race has got to have for some reason or get extremely hung over from weirdness as a single and solo living person for a number of years. You loose your fucking social skills and more. You crawl into a closet and its your own private world where no one can find or see you. Again a parallel line to the story to come. I have had that experience not with a closet but a mirror. It kind of only shows our face. I somehow I have been able to see behind that and give myself belief in things no one could. Mirror - my personal little crystal ball.

I have often wanted to talk and tell Sixx the inner felt and experienced story and what MY price has been to do what I do all in the name of them. But I have never done so. I just have not. to sit with him one time alone and do it with no other issues or news lines to be read form him to me or nothing. Turning the spotlight on this ONE FAN of his / theirs. hat is what I really would need and perhaps cherish more than anything I have ever managed to add to my personal collection. Tell the band what really has been inside ME of demons and crap to do and be where I am today. Unlike him and his millions I have only managed to collect a shit load of boxes filled with collectibles. Awesome ones yes - but my god have things been expensive and not only DOLLAR wise. Not the price tag alone. I have too even died ones for doing this being a fan of the extreme. The reading have just really been giving me my own self in many yet different ways than the printed thing I have seen.

I have many times over; As much as I love my friends , I also hate them, because they are with people that love them. I don’t understand why, as big as my heart is, I’m alone. Maybe I just choose to be this way? Maybe I don’t have a choice? Maybe I don’t know? Maybe I’m just asking myself questions to hear myself talk? Has it been like this forever? NO!!! But it pops up every now and then still. The longed for solid true love the sharing and the idea of a male and female connecting to win the one time passion of human love. Sharing things. Going crazy in a positive way over things that only a good couple could get crazy about. An understanding and longed for passion from both sides. Funny how love and care literally controls a person up through life. A child not giving love will eventually gets fucked up. I had a good amount of love no doubt. The time it went wrong was when I decided to have a full blooded heart felt seriousness about my collecting life. I was never happy at any job I had. I had only the jobs to get a paycheck for buying what I wanted. As the Crue did with drugs and cars. At one point in time the music too for some in the band was secondary bu it was what they had to do to get the things they needed. As with me same thing. Just not drugs and cars. They lost girls friends and relationships and more .. me too only in smaller amounts. But each living man has only one heart so we have been broken and sad and lonely longing for the same one thing ultimately: a loving and positive functionally relationship. Like Mick and Nikki I too have at times in my life giving up hope on that one thing, for my own reasons and sunk even further into the Motley collective land of life.

I will never ever forget what Corinna my still partner in crime when it comes to traveling round doing Crue things. She just don't understand me and my extreme silent and still standing actions at concerts and more. I feel the shows the presents of being there in a TOTALLY different way not many would understand. Then again as she has said to me a few times "I am not a collector. I am not social I am not looking for anything " and so on.... She is just one of a shit load that has said these things to me over the years. I guess I might as well bury my hopes of meeting someone that understands me 101% and can relate to all I am about and all I constantly try to do. A girl that has been very close to Nikki for years and years now living in Florida is one that also has not fully understanding of my being. She has also chosen the family life and have struggled shit hard to get that going ... now from a distance it seems like she has succeeded. Beautifully. I envy her. But only I have the reasons and stories to why I do that.

A shit load of smaller things have been forming the Tommy that I am today as with everybody else. I just am so very different than most anyway. I bet some people that would be reading EVERY single comma on this site of mine about me my thoughts my doings my sacrifices and more would say "that kid needs a god damn brain eater (therapist). You know what? I tried it and guess what I felt she totally fucking didn't get it with me. In short she tried to kill my passion and let me become what I did not wanna be a kid from the masses. An ordinary working eating shittin pissin guy that was gonna have a family and a house with a dog or something . funny I split after two appointments there. Fuck me i live for music. Know not many if they aren't musicians that does that. LIVE for the music. Then again if you are a musician and a successful one you forget music and turn your first priority to being drugs or alcohol or some shit like that. I consider myself a rare and dying species of the fan kind.

I Think had I not been me and looked in on a life of my l´kind in another fans life I would have said he or she would be a loony but now I AM he and I have giving up on making people understand my purpose. There for there are also an even harder smack in the face by reading the story I have just read and there from seen these parallel lines from my own self. My own way of living and seeing things through the lence of a collector like I am. Healthy ways of living? Fuck no not at all. Will I stop it on my own just like that knowing these facts? Most likely no. Why not? cause that's me that's what I am all about. I ma a music junkie and I am shit true and dead serious about my collecting life. Will it bring me down if I do not find the love that will make me move in on a soul mate partnership for life? Most likely yes. Why? Cause it is like being on what I don't do. Drugs!!! It is. It is a rush it is a hunt that is a continuing never ending road. You get a smashed bass you want a whole bass. You meet Vince you wanna meet the whole band. You Get one glove from one you want a full costume. You just act like a mountain climber. You climbed the one you dreamed about. Fine then you stand on the top and go ... whats that mountain. And you wanna clime that one and that one and that one. Like I imagine people at least Sixx in his drugs days. "Wow that's something new. What will that do to me?" ....You know?!! It could be another one of these never ending stories told a million times - but i just had this extreme cold sweat running through me from going through this story. To come.....
Needed to get it off of my shoulders. And as always I do that best by writing it off. It is a satisfaction that is known to many. i like my diary. i like to have the chance to let people get under my skin still. Not many respond to it and getting back at me with it but it really is for me a good available thing for me to do. Mis understandings to my own individual is massive. Even the people that are the closest to me can not fully understand me. thats a nother reason why I have at times gone under ground stayed silent and just done what I do. It suprises me that I am looked at as being so very different. What is it that makes people think that? I guess my line of questions to the people around me at times feels endless. So I ill just stop it here and say sometimes doing things in an abnormal way and being over the top in what ever it its that you do can sometimes make you a really really, lonely guy. Soetimes I even give up on people for understanding me perfectly and fully. I no longer seem to have the urge to make them understand. I will take my "weirdness" to the grave I`m sure.

We paint the outside of our bodies beautiful but the inside is like dead men’s bones. The hurt topples on top of itself until the hurt gets so big and ugly, growing like a cancer worm, webbing around the walls of the heart, which ultimately turns cold and callous and dull of love. We mistake lust for love and believe in a vision. A fantasy that does not exsist. We want it to but it doesn't`t. For it to do we have to grab the root of our inner problem and change and become a new person. If we are not willing to do this we will never get the center hearts biggest need. A shared love and healthy existence that promises a bright future.....

Now Supernova or like I like to call it, Supper Soda - wow wow wwoooowww... Dilana got her wake up call last night huhh? Holy fuck. I still say if it was and had been a matter of ONLY looking at her stage presence she is cool and all. BUT!! The whole package ... no way no deal no ahh ahhh...... Don't care if she had a rude awakening either. Off she goes. Don't hassle with it no longer. But I say it again the people of America looks through the fingers I am sure and she is still uhhh so cool and popular. Two people will be kicked off the show tomorrow I am sure. i got a feeling its gonna one of my faves Magni or Toby but no one of them deserves to go. What she said about Toby being there for the fun of it and Magni being there but ONLY had family in mind... is a weak shitty sorry ass excuse for a comment on her part. Dilana my advise would be you have learned (I hope) great things from this but you could do even better and bigger LATER if you go home and try something serious if you "HOPEFULLY" gets send home tomorrow or next time. I still am not high and doubt I will be for the Supernova or what ever they will end up calling themselves with the lawsuit they have from the already existing band of that same name. Anyways, they sell fairly well ticket wise in presale and their meet n greet tickets ago smoothly. Fuck even the 700 dollars ones - that's just so WHAT!!! out of there. Its sick. A couple of the gang members on here may full on disagree with me and think its a hell of a great act and go see the band a few times I am sure. All the best to them. No matter if I like bands or not its always nice to see them sell tickets.
happy Monday everyone!!!
Tommy
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25th of August 200SIXX, Pop Diva Town & Cruecial Thoughts
5:15PM CET

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Some are gonna hate me for this I am sure. I am not gonna argue or anything. it was pop diva night in the city. And I had a line of cool experiences happening. I will say this to you all guys. Crue were on my mind but there were a totally different thing going on. The uncrowned pop diva gave the only live concert in the whole of Scandinavia last night in the town of Horsens. Madonna. Denmark of all the countries took the whole package alast night. Madonna took it but she did it like not many other I have ever seen do. Madonna gave us the mother of stages as the short 5 feet something totally took and gave all a kick in the ass to the Danes. Madonna was coming and Denmark saw her first ever live performance on Danish ground. The county has been on another level the last two weeks. its been Madonna in everything here. Fuck even the weather forecasts have been ALL focused on the area of the concert... 10 days to go and it looks like we can expect ... 5 days to go to the big bang we can look forward to weather of... and so on. Everything has been M-A-D-O-N-N-A !! But now its over. It all went down last night. 135 minutes of Disco night. And a few classics.

Why do I post this on here? Well because it was with many Cruecial thoughts I attended the diva pop show.
The "Carnival" circus stage set show from our boys the last year and a half was a backyard barbecue show compared to the size and all that the stage was of from Madonna. It was a fucking state of the art show. Everything high and mobile. that stage changed so many times and all kinds of shit came up of from the floor or down from the roof. Like every song that had a story or something got the stage to change for something new. You never fully could tell what was coming next. It was god damn awesome. I really was amazed by the whole thing. I think it came to a point where I was even close to being speechless. I can only imagine how big an operation this was. from time to time I was thinking this was something that would top and outdo everything the Motley guys had ever done to date had it been them that delivered....
Think of it. Through out the show the stage could turn and change and change from new sets lined up under the stage floor with things coming to show from below or above depending on what kind of era we heard songs from. I don't care what anyone says that had been the shit of the shit. Completely outrageous. And not ever to top again.
ramps to and thought the audience and so so so much more.

If anyone cares, NO she did not do a line of old stuff SO sure but it was a more recent and older disco dance Madonna we had seen last night. I for one was pleased with that. It all worked well. Well more than with a best of tour for sure, I can actually only bow and say it was pretty cool. The 48 yr old lady was not old in any way or form. She really nailed it down. She with the body and physical shape she has now a days she really, really was making a line of females jealous even down tho the ordinary 30 year old. She is extremely fit. two years form the big 5-0!!! damn. The dancers she has with her. I am not sharing a comment about them. They make EVERYONE look fat and out of shape. Fucking awesome fit. Almost frightening. I tip my hat t where tipping is due. And was here.
For you who cares; here are some shots from the event last night. And Madonna at hotel.

AERO bassist TOM HAMILTON has been forced to pull out of the first month of the band's forthcoming US tour, after being diagnosed with throat cancer. The CRAZY rocker, 54, has just completed seven weeks of radiotherapy and is currently resting at home with his family. The group's guitarist JOE PERRY has enrolled his musician pal DAVID HULL to play bass until Hamilton's returns. That's the latest bulletin from the fall tour from the guys that hits the road. They are all seeming to fall slowly but surely apart. Mick Jagger comes to the same Danish city of Hhorsens in less than two weeks bringing his Stones and he has now too been in the rumors about having cancer. Haven't really paid that one too much attention. All I see is there are a lot of the 40 some old and up that are having more and more problems. Let us just hope this will not be the issues of our own boys. The tour is still happening according to high sources of the tour this tour will not be cancels or anything no matter what happens to and with Hamilton. Let us just hope we are not really about to loose another member of the giants here.
On the Supernova front there are a few offers to the really Super fans of the novas... Look at this:
VIP DIAMOND $700:
This package includes one reserved ticket in the first 2 rows, an exclusive Supernova T-shirt, an authentic VIP Laminate for access to the Supernova meet and greet and pre-show sound check, a Q&A session and personal photo with the band, a limited edition Supernova track jacket, a copy of the new CD and a $125 voucher good for your next purchase in the Supernova Web Store.

VIP PLATINUM $350
This package includes one reserved ticket within the first 4 rows, an exclusive Supernova T-shirt, an authentic VIP Laminate for access to the Supernova meet and greet, a personal photo with the band, a copy of the new Supernova CD and $50 voucher good for your next purchase in the Supernova Web Store.

VIP GOLD $250
This package includes one reserved ticket within rows 5-20, an exclusive Supernova T-shirt, a Gold Package Laminate, a copy of the new Supernova CD and a $25 voucher good for your next purchase in the Supernova Web Store. Gold Ticket Package BONUS! If you are spotted wearing your Gold Package Laminate at the show, you may get upgraded and taken backstage to meet Supernova and get a photo!
What do you think worth it? I don't ... its shit load of cash for that and them. Ohh well its all but one guys opinion.
I am not here to rule any offers in or out. We are all different. But now you have a line of things that is up in general and whats been taking my time off of Crue actions the last couple of days. Tommy at a freaking pop diva show who would have guessed. lol lol lol.... Talk again soon !!
Well I'm all Hung Up .... I'm hung up on you......
Lee

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23rd of August 200SIXX, Mixed Emotions

***************************************As always the Motley world is a rollercoaster sometimes it goes up and sometimes.... you know what I mean. Things have not been the coolest from things I hear of many kinds. It is a sick twisted thing this fall and recent things coming to my knowledge about members and more. Sorry folks cant deal with this on here. cant say more. Just sharing with you that I personally am not all great with what is. On a tour note things surely dont seem to be the coolest of cool either. Latest news has it the band will be the opening act in every city and they had only a good 60 to 75 min. to do their thing.
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I cant help but say that that sucks. Coming from europe going ofr flights hotels food and all plus concert ticket that is just kind of so not cool. If this holds water so to speak this is just about the badest investment I have yet made in a long time. The band does have an awesome new stage set up but hellooooo .... for 75 mins or less? Hope that surely is not true. Man that seriously sucks big time.

I have learned my lessons in many ways about Motley Crue and things that goes in their name - things can and often do change a million times before it actally goes into action. I can now only hope that the tour merchandise line is not gonna be totally fucking huge. That is my one and only worry right now as to what I am doing in my collectible life. Money!!! There are a lot of smaller things again in USA for me and I have another full suitcase (as always) with things to come and all to bring back to Denmark if I wanna do that! I think its a lot of constant activities that there are for things in the collecting world for me. I think we have as said so many times on here a ton of things to look forward to, but if you are like myself collecting any and everything the 4 members throw at us you also have kind of a hell in the waits in the next year or three to come!! A lot of things are in the making and we all know whats up first - the fall tour with the Boston guys.

Supernova is gonna have all in place in a good 3 weeks time. Then only one thing is missing. The vocals to the album and to get the tour started. The tour is planed and the tour merch is in the making the music and cover and all that is finished for the CD part from the singer to join them. In short there soon is to come but a ticket sale. At that too for the whole northern US tour is about to hit you too.Tickets go on sale to the general public on Wednesday, August 30. It is up for grabs now for the members of the Supernova fanclub. And what do you know. The tickets are not even more than 35 to 75 dollars or around there in all cities part from the new years debut show 150 - 250 dollars a ticket.

I hope to be able to cover what is there too as it is Tommy´s solo carreer and project. Told you all it would be hell to be me. Lol !!! But I have to do this. If i am being forced out to choosing I would rather have these things than the fashion clothing line from Tommy thats coming. it does not apeal to me at all. Ohh boy fell like I am sayng this a lot of Tommy´s stunts recently. As for this weeks live performances - hmm well, still magni killed it. Still my boy number two TOBY hell yeah brother....dont know why Dilana is not on the online internet version. But Lukas - no its cool you can go home now. Storm - she is okay but a Supernova with her and the voice not really. Ryan good too I guess but I personally think he tried a little too hard to be honest. So I have still my cards and money on the two guys. They are just somebody that could really do it well for the band. Thety are really good in their erformances and they have in my book this week 8 of the serie totally squazed Lukas a so far all time fave in many peoples eyes. So dont think I would be not worried should the boys not send home the others one by one.

Would I personally go see Supergroup? I think I answered it in my last posting but yes I would for a show or two now that the US is listed and up for grabs I may do so but Crue is by far more important to me and all. Would Corinna and maybe my baby brother go for it yeah I could see myself do it. right now its all but a thought. Really - it takes cash baby and a sick load of it. But for now let me focus on the fall tour and TRY to cover the so far released merch itmes from the band I have babtised Supper Soda..... my own lill personal joke. Later friends!!!

Dec. 31 - Las Vegas, NV - The Joint
Jan. 16 - Hollywood, FL - Hard Rock Live
Jan. 17 - Orlando, FL - Hard Rock Live Orlando
Jan. 20 - Buffalo, NY - Shea's Performing Arts Center
Jan. 24 - Toronto, ON - Massey Hall
Jan. 27 - Wallingford, CT - Chevrolet Theatre
Jan. 28 - Worcester, MA - DCU Center
Jan. 30 - Philadelphia, PA - Wachovia Spectrum
Jan. 31 - New York, NY - Radio City Music Hall
Feb. 02 - Columbus, OH - Schottenstein Center
Feb. 03 - Chicago, IL - Rosemont Theatre
Feb. 05 - Detroit, MI - Fox Theatre
Feb. 08 - Minneapolis, MN - Roy Wilkins Auditorium
Feb. 09 - Fargo, ND - Fargodome
Feb. 11 - Dallas, TX - Nokia Theatre
Feb. 19 - Vancouver, BC - Queen Elizabeth Theatre
Feb. 21 - Sacramento, CA - Arco Arena
Feb. 22 - Oakland, CA - Oakland Arena
Feb. 24 - Phoenix, AZ - Cricket Pavilion
Feb. 25 - San Diego, CA - Pala Casino
Feb. 27 - Long Beach, CA - Long Beach Arena

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21st of August 200SIXX, `81 Michael, Nostalgic & Kick Ass Honour
8:53PM CET
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It is a hard time for me. Lots of decitions to be made and a lot of things to get in on. I think there is gonna be a huge time ahead for me with the things I have plans for, for myself. I have not missed much since the reunion days and still I have been able to cover a fair share of things on the side. Actually I do not know of anybody that is at all near all the shit I have done. I guess its course I show disrespect to normality and set rules. I have been givin the written law book and its norms a kick in its ass and now I have a ton of things to deal with from doing it. But it was all expected. Surely there are things like all the monthly bills and all that just has to be dealt with. I seem to have taken distance like never before to all these boring things in life. I need to have a chance for ending my Motley collecting years and part of my life in a proper manner. I refuse to give in and change my ways till its actually all endning. 2009 right now is the earliest for that. Only two years after that the band could have its 30th year anniversary. That I can not really see happening at this point for many reasons. It would be nice to see them do it but, well no I do not see it happening.

Supernova; People still ask me about the TV and media created super group. I stand by my previously said opinion. I dont like the idea of how its being put together. It is fun, cool, and blah blah blah entertainment for many yes - but not for me. I watched week eight about the days of the press thing being set up at the mantion. And the strongest individual and fave for the masses Dilana, she is a bad lyricist in my opinion at least of what we have been aloud to see. And she totally blew it on the press day of the 8th week. No way would I trust and work with one that have the nerves to say the things she said. What I did how ever notice was ..... remember how I on here always said Magni and to a point Toby were my faves? Yeah, Dilana totally backstabbed those two at first then moving on and bitching about Lukas (even though I dont like him) you just dont do that!! She has it on stage I will give her that. And if MUSIC and SINGING were the only things to worry about in the music business I would say she perhaps took it for the hype of it. But no way on earth is that what it is all about in these modern days of time. So still I go with the two said. Magni is just shit over the top cool in all ways. Never ever trying to gain cheap points. And he can do the shit high or low keys and all... I rest my case

And now as they say on to something else.
Are there anything I have plans for right now? -YES! it is a line of activivties that holds the deals going on right now and the tour that is in the wiat for us all this fall.
I have been lucky to stumble into a lot of exciting people the past many years and I`d love to take more advantage of that. If you think there are more cool things to do for me than the things above this year you may be right you may also be wrong. I have not much planned. I have a huge amount of money to figure out how to get and pay off what ever and then the year is about gone. What can I say? I guess I wont say anything. It is just really, really hard to keep up and I know already now that I will have huge problems with things getting covered, bought and paid for and all. The clothing lines from Tommy and Nikki that are just around the corner will not be looked at for a long time. Corinna is gonna be my saviour if any - this fall. No doubt about it. We really have a line of things to work with and work on. There are simply a ton of things we have to get settled and solved. We are still working hard for two trips to kill the times together in October and November. I only hope there will be a good result to it all. we have as earlier said new long listed plans for more Motley history locations to be found and covered.

One thing can scare me pretty good. There are a couple of places that are located in the East of Hollywood and people have STRONGLY advised me / us not to look them up as it is a dangerous neighbourhood.
-At least make sure there is day light and all. Still it will be dangerous as hell. Any wacho can come jumping. Totally go apeshit and do you harm. But ofcause we have to document it no other way round it man. We simply have to. It will most likely be a fast and over with thing but what the hell can we do? Not do it? Not an obtion. This was where the Hollywood Rose (pre- GNR) Poison, and others hung out. All of the Hollywood rock n roll trash and all went there to the SHAMROCK place owned by my man Michael Flaherty. The Alan Coffmann partner for an important time in their carreer - of 1981.

The old places they all lived in dividually in the days of and round 1981 round the times of Too Fast and all. We will go there too. Would you not just love to sit in the car with us to see these places? I can only say there are a lot of things that are so not there no more but everything that are we need to have documented before its gone. Its a long lasting thing I wish the band would put together for a release. I know Sixx have several hours of material laying around that are from all past tours and all. No doubt these things could have become shit cool official releases. But I seriously dont think it will be released. He is dreaming and thinking though of putting a movie (or something) together with all these things laying around.

I contacted him after reading some of his stories and I gotta say he can spread a lot of light to a lot of often asked questions in the name of the band.
Michael Flaherty have a lot of things in his mind, a lot of memories we all wish we had been there for. He has so far shown me great kindness and I have decided after bringing it up with him, to post a line of questions and answers here in the diary section!! I will put up that something part two (later in the week, maybe) as I have all replys from him. I have to say its really awesome facts he can bring to the plate.
Here we go:

Michael, the Nikki on fire stunt when was it first tested? Was it tested off stage - ever any real bad happenings you were present for?
It was tested in the apartment, no damage.

Live Wire - the video where was it recorded?
As I recall it was filmed at S.I.R., the original location. I think it was the same room that Van Halen filmed the 'Jump' video.

There are other videos from the days like "take me to the top" .... where were they filmed?
Not sure. Probably S.I.R. as well but I wasn't there for that. I know that the were shot on commercial 3/4 inch tape and I was getting requests from clubs (with video screens, which were becoming big at the time) and local cable channels for VHS. I kept asking Alan for money to convert (it was expensive at the time) but it never happened. In fact, when I received that response from MTV (see book) I kept begging (litterly) Alan to get me a dupe of the 3/4. That never happened either. VERY bad move on his part.

Were you ever in over things of what the band should wear and how they should do their thing or was it up to the band alone?
I was never in on that, before I came on board Alan had taken them on a massive shopping spree for stage clothes. I did take Nikki to Koontz Hardware store in Hollywood as Alan had given him $100 cash to buy chrome chains that he wanted to make into belts and other stage items. I should add that the guys never wore their stage clothes off stage. Usually just jeans, sneakers and tee-shirts, maybe a leather jacket. Little if any Aqua-net hairspray either.

Was David Lee Roth really the big role model that he seems to be from the tellings? Did all in Crue like him?
Yes and yes. A good guy, full of himself sure but impossible not to like. I just learned a couple of weeks ago that my girlfriend at the time (the flash-pot girl) who I'm still in touch with has a picture of Roth and I made that New Years Eve. Hopefully I can talk her out of a copy and I'll send it to you.

Any ideas like stage activities - special effects or even songs YOU told Nikki or the band NOT to use why?
Only two come to mind. It was a Saturday night show at the Country Club in Reseda. We had invited a number of record A & R people to the show. (This of course was before the Electra signing) Nikki was in the dressing room with his white Gibson bass. He proudly showed Alan and I what he had put on the back with red duct tape. A Nazi swastika that he planned to flash at the audience during the set. (There's a picture of it floating around the internet somewhere) Alan just about shit. As anti-semetic as he himself was, he knew that wasn't a very smart idea as it's pretty common knowledge that many record executives are Jewish. I backed Alan up on that one and Nikki pulled the tape off. Around that same time we had a Whisky show. The line to get in snaked around the block and Tommy was hanging out the dressing room window teasing the fans below on the sidewalk. 'Mike! Alan! I'm gonna show these dudes my dick!' Alan was funny, he said, 'No dick, just moon'em with your butt if you want but NO dick!'

Mick the oldest of the 4 had kids and most experience - was he ever thought of as maybe he should be replaced?
Certainly not to my knowledge. I would say I'm almost 100% sure that was never thought of.

As you met Alan Coffmann were you ever sceptical about joining forces with him after the experiences you had had with your own band and the dissapointments from Bob?
No, quite the opposite in fact. I was excited to have a partner that (I thought) was stable financially and was very business-like. I felt I'd 'paid my dues' with Bob and Images and was ready to move into a more professional situation. And it certainly was for awhile.

From the book of yours, its pretty clear that you had the knowledge of the buisness way more than Alan how would you describe him?
Smart but naive as to the ways of the music business. Although successful with his contracting business he was rather 'back-woods' and as smart as he was (and indeed he was on a certain level) he was out of his league when it came to dealing with music executives. He was power-driven, nothing wrong with that but his ego exploded when Motley became such a local success. He even said to me one time, 'Mike we've got the next Beatles!' Meanwhile we still couldn't get a record deal or even a gig out of town.
Overall I liked Alan, but that doesn't mean I couldn't get so angry at times that I wanted to hit him. He had his quirks and the success went to his head (much more than the guys frankly) but his intentions were good for a long time. There was a severe alcohol problem, then the 'lady' situation developed. Drinking and fucking is all well and good for the guys, but a manager should be more restrained. I can't honestly say however that I didn't 'partake' in some of the temptations, but I tryed to keep it more discrete. In the end, Alan blew a gasket under extreme financial pressure and perhaps family pressure to give up this 'music fantasy' and come home to his kids and wife. I never knew until I read 'The Dirt' that he had emotional problems from Vietnam. We'd never talked about it, I didn't even know that he had fought in the war. That's cool, it was his decision to talk or not talk about his past of course but I do think I could have understood him better had I known that. I was too young for 'Nam but have many friends (Biker Lyle in the book for example) that were there and looking back, he displayed very similar personality traits.

After Alan got involved (even though he was married) with the girl from the book, to me thats when it looked to be starting going wrong. Why did you not confront him on that?
I've always been told that there are three types of people that you can't talk to: (And I believe it to be true) An alcoholic, a drug addict, or someone who is in love. He was a grown man who was in charge. I didn't feel it was my place to say anything frankly. Maybe I was wrong on that I might add that the guys (especially Nikki) were not happy with the situation that developed at all, but they too didn't say anything to him, just complained to me. Again in retrospect, maybe I should have talked to him, but how do you tell a 40 something year old man who to fuck or not to fuck?

You had a close relationship with Sixx it seems, how would you describe him?
In a word, focused. He had a dream and knew where and how to take it or at least give it his best shot. It go's without saying that he was/is Motley Crue. And yes, for awhile I felt we were becoming very close. The RATT show at the Whiskey, the breakfast at Denny's, the night's at the 'Motley house' where he would take me aside and read me hand-written lyrics to new songs he had written, to the two Sisiters we each 'dated. Nikki at the time had a huge fear and it permeated through all of us, including Alan. He was almost paranoid. That fear was that M/C would become just another L.A. band not unlike Quiet Riot, Snow, Smile, Al Carte, London, White Sister or numerous other 'Starwood' bands that never received a record deal or gotten out of L.A. and had been around for years just playing clubs. At the time the last 'heavy metal' (I use that term loosely) band that was signed out of Hollywood was Van Halen. That was seven years before Motley was even conceived.
Nikki was all business most of the time. There could be a house-full of barely clothed young ladies around and if a business matter came up, there was a 'time out' and he was all ears.
I liked Nikki a lot. He may have been a street kid but he also had street smarts. For example I suggested some additions to the stage show which he nixed. (See below) Looking back, he was right. Nikki was (is?) the type of guy that if he loves you, he loves you totally. If he loses trust for whatever reason, he's outta there. That's what happened with Alan and to a lessor degree with me. I'm sorry that the stresses and events of those early days did not allow us to become a bit closer. I think we could have made a great team in the long run.

Seems like "Casa Cugot" and the "Hilton Coffee Shop" in Beverly Hills often were the places you guys had meetings. A coincidence? Or was it comfortable? Also the Sunset Denny´s!!??
Close and comfortable, that's all. Alan had a policy (I feel rightfully so) to conduct business meetings and lunches at more conservative places than the usual Hollywood haunts such as the Rainbow. It did look more professional.

Michael, did Motley have another place they had all they gear - a rehearsal room, where?
During my involvement with the band all rehersals were held at S.I.R. (Studio Instrument Rentals) on Sunset near Gower Avenue in Hollywood.(I don't have the exact address, but around the 7000 block) They (S.I.R.) have since moved from there several times, the latest location is still on Sunset in the area. And yes, all the gear was stored there. Stick and the roadies would arrive early and set up the stage, Tommy came in an hour early (before a full band rehersal) to work out on the drums. Lucky for everybody, there was a liqueur store across the street! It was a great place/deal until we became behind on our account and were threatened with eviction.
After the Electra signing, and Coffman gone the label rented them the entire upstairs at S.I.R.' second location in Hollywood and the equipment remained set up.. Again, I don't have the exact address, but it's a two-story building on the North side of Santa Monica Boulevard, immediately next door to the yellow Army surplus store on the North East corner of Santa Monica and Vine. It's no longer S.I.R., but another type of studio. That's the room where the final part of the video 'Girl, Don't Go Away Mad' (where you see Tommy teaching his dog drums) was filmed.

As the band recorded their first "Toast Of The Town" and "Stick To Your Guns" at St. Crystal Sound Studios located at 1014 Vine St, Hollywood -
were you there? Or was this JUST before your time?
That was just before my time. I came into the mix during the recording of 'Too Fast For Love.'

What do you know about the guy that was in the studio with Nikki, Tommy and Mick as they were meant to record the songs before Vince was in crue?
Very, very little. Never met him, never even saw a picture. Just heard a few comments, nothing negative except that he was over weight.

Michael the places the band got booked in L.A. area, were there any of them you think they should not have been playing at? Why?
That's an easy one. 'Pookie's' in Pasadena. It was a sandwich shop with a small stage. I've seen bigger stages in Holiday Inn bars. I don't know who's idea that was, but it was basically a disaster. Maybe all of 25 people in the crowd, and this is when the band was selling out the Hollywood clubs. The guys made the best of it. It was less than a year leter they sold out Perkin's Palace which is a 2000 seat venue directly across the street at a show produced by Gina Zapperelli, who now works for Sharon Osborne/Ozzfest I'm told.

Were there any ideas and wishes you had in mind for Crue that you would have loved to see happening that never did?
Well, like I mentioned in the book I would have loved to have seen them get an opening slot with Van Halen. I talked to Roth about it and it was a no-go. V/H had strict polices on what type of bands opened for them. In fairness to Dave though, he did help the Crue out in other ways, particularly in 'moral support. I was upstairs in the dressing room at the Whisky one night before a show. Nikki and I were talking, just hanging out when we noticed a billboard across the street on Sunset that was for Ozzy's first solo album. (Blizzard of Oz?) I remember Nikki asking "Think he's gonna make it solo?" My reply was "I don't know, but I would love to get an opening slot on his first tour, I'll make a few calls next week." That idea for whatever reason was forgotten, at least at the time.
Another thing that I was pushing for was pyro to enhance the stage show. Except for a dry-ice fog machine (that never seemed to work) and occasional strobe lights, there were no special effects. I wanted fireworks! (This was before Nikki discoved lighter-fluid for his leather jeans) Nikki's response to me was "If we can't do it right we're not going to do it at all. Not yet anyway. KISS has walls of fire and if we did anything like that on a small club scale we'd look lame as shit. Besides, we're already getting too much KISS comparisons." In retrospect, as usual Sixx was right.

Any ideas you tried out that did not work - which and why not?
The self-promoted shows were a great idea but Alan couldn't or wouldn't come up with the money to produce them. I'm talking about larger package shows with RATT, Stormer, Quiet Riot or WASP like the one we planned in Oxnard, not the tiny shows Alan produced in Northern California and Nevada.

The mentioned debut tour of europe that never happend, had a Finnish promioter involved did you ever talk to that promoter?
No, never talked to him. That was Coffman's deal and frankly I'm not sure 'him' ever even existed, it was all a scam by some Hollywood hustler to get Alan's $10,000 bribe money.

-More cool short stories will come from Michael as I get them. You too can now enjoy these things and infos. There will be so many cool things also from others as the late summer comes over us. many things have been set up and many cool inside and untold stories hopefully will find their ways to the biggest and most dedicated fansite of the Hollywood Four.
Enjoy talk to you all again shortly!! T "mutha fucking" Lee

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19th of August 200SIXX, Holy Fucking Shit - I Am Honoured!!
10:25PM CET
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I have been sitting the last couple of days with the stories from one certain Michael Flaherty who was Alan Coffmann´s first and right hand in a business partner in 1981. Michael is a guy that really lived the early 80s hair metal. if you still today 2006 sit with wonders about who was actually amongst the first and biggest metal names in Hollywood. Well Van Halen had already made a name for themselves as it happened. it was a name everybody knew. Roth - that's David Lee Roth singer and front man in Halen was a rock god. Everybody knew of him. And Crue were friends with him as well. UK act Def Leppard had broken through on American rock radio and Quiet Riot had made it big with "Metal Health" and a strong front man in Kevin Dubrow. 1982 had RATT and W.A.S.P. in the works and they both were names in the scene that draw an audience. At one time RATT`s Stephen Pearcy was actually an inch away from being our heroes front man. There were various happenings that really makes it a wonder Vince has been with the band all this time. And now back with them again. To say the least.

Michael was witnessing it all. he was friends with Blackie Lawless who's real name is Steve Durannd and he loved RATT. He housed a ton of musicians in a place he build up that was rock n roll hell and heaven in one and same time. Placed on Sunset Blvd. he bought his ways in to a place that used to be rehearsal rooms for up n coming bands later closed down. And now Michael wanted to reopen it. But things went well... both right and wrong. A young band called Hollywood Rose came by first in form of a skinny little guy named Steve Adler. He was a hungry starving man that would do anything to have roof over his head and a place to house his gear. He brought in the rest of the gang that was later to become Guns N Roses. Michael saw them all. he fed them with money for visits daily at burger king. he met and saw the guys in Poison before there ever was a Bret Michaels. He offered them maybe half hearted who knows a female singer. She auditioned but got sacked later after they had Bret and the name Poison they came by Michaels new place and held rehearsal and studio room next door to Hollywood Rose.

I personally can only imagine all the adventures Michael hold in his backpack. he is an amazing guy to hear about.
Michael have had his with the band in 81 before the "Too Fast " album ever saw the light of day. I have gotten in contact with this man from the golden days of when everything was about to happen.
One day he and I will meet. I am dead sure of it. Michael has a book out that is shit cool telling all his stories and it has turned into a sell out first and second edition. His third edition is in the making and should come in a couple of months I think it was. Michael moved out of Hollywood that he loved so shit much and now lives in Florida.

I am gonna get some things talked through with Michael and have a so called questionnaire ready for the diary to tomorrow for you all...
I for one cant wait, Michael thanks in advantage - your new found friend
Lee, Denmark

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18th of August 200SIXX, Crystal Eyes & Set Doings
10:55AM CET
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Yeah I see it. A lot of you people out there question my ways of handeling the gang of loyalty. Well not question it as such but how it works.
Well I will put it short as I have done to the members already on there."Why join something you cant put time into? Would you join a baseball club if you never showed up for practice? Would you join a school or education if you never attended? I wouldn`t. So there for I would not really see why anyone would join the gang of loyalty unless you would like to work some sort of teamwork in the name of Motley Crue. Aiming for goals we set together. Its just not something I understand if you did join in but didnt wanna participate. You know what I mean??

I think I have a few new doings up my sleeve for the near future. I know that the thing in October with the USA trip is something I like to get expanded and get great feelings about. I have a couple of hopefully cool doings set up already. Hopefully we soon will have a video thing on here too taht could grow with time. We will have somw awesome times with the gang memebr Don Armstrong video shooting at his place outdside detroit. Ryan another gang memeber I hop to meet in Detroit. The WRIF I have plans there too and finally hopefully the boys themselves will be a-okay with their time sceduals too as we get there. Just a few weeks later I go to the US again and then its LA / Hollywood.

We have a few things set up. There is going to be some Sunset Strip inking. There will be a new Londin LeGrand hi n hello. There are more Crue history travellings lined up. The shows and my man Dustin. Tommy Lee`s own personal photographer. He did the shots for the methods cover shot a lot with Tommy then, on his Never A Dull thing last year with Crue and more... Its fucking awesome what he does. he and I have talked for sometime now. Finally in Nov we will meet and he will take us through the vaults in photo land lol. I can not wait. He has promised me a POSTER sized awesomeness in his personally fave pic of all times. I cant wait to get it. Expensive but .its a thing that makes you fucking proud to have.

You see the funny thing with Dustinis he lieke London LeGrand like ... well others often say that we are a like in amny ways. We get each other. We get what the other does thinks and where he coems from. Why he thinks like he does and so on. I am but so fucking pleased to know these guys. I love em. I respect them all and there is nothing - nothing - on earth that would make me say or do anything to kill that respect. cant wait to go see all again. Also my other Californian friends in MANDY LION and Joelle....I love them all... I am a lucky son of a bitch. No doubt about it.

Now I have a line of great frineds out there now that has givin me some really cool chances in many ways. I miss you all. I also wish people would not have the kind stubburness and egos many carry round.
I could go on and on about things but would most likely bore you to death si this is gonna be the final news fillings for the day from me.
Any one from Europe that reads this - get in touch with me at lee@tdcspace.dk if you are SERIOUS as a fan and collector and would like to try to do things on European ground.
I am all here for you guys!!! what do you say ???
later perverts, Lee

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16th of August 200SIXX, Elvis & Supernova
8:39PM CET
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Guess where this dog is RIGHT NOW!!! this very minute as I post this it is about 20 minutes and 20yrs ago that the danish national television informed the nation here that the king of rock n roll Elvis Presley has died. 42 years old. The king is gone. i sit here posting with goosebumps all over my body with my salute to the in my mind still king of rock by playing his records. it is 20 years today and i feel like I miss him so much. He is the reason my music interest is so intense today. yes it was KISS and it is Motley Crue in 2006 but yet Elvis is on the player every now and then. He will forever and ever be the one I appreciate the most. Elvis is the one single person that can make me really emotional and go totally inside myself. I treasure you Elvis. hail be your name and your talent. You were the one that gave me the urge to dedicate my life to music in the way I do it.

Elvis Presley has sold over one billion record units worldwide, more than anyone in record industry history. In America alone, Elvis has had 150 different albums and singles that have been certified gold, platinum or Miltie-platinum by the Recording Industry Association of America (RIAA), he In 1956, Elvis made his network television debut with the first of his six appearances on Stage Show, a weekly variety program hosted by Tommy and Jimmy Dorsey. Elvis starred in 31 feature films as an actor and two theatrically released concert documentary films. Elvis Presley’s three network television specials - Elvis (1968) , Elvis: Aloha from Hawaii, via Satellite (1973), and Elvis in Concert (1977) - stand among the most highly rated specials of their time. His 1968 special, Elvis , is one of the most critically acclaimed music specials of all time. His 1973 special, Elvis - Aloha from Hawaii, via Satellite , was seen in 40 countries by 1 billion to 1.5 billion people and made television history. It was seen on television in more American homes than man’s first walk on the moon. The United States Junior Chamber of Commerce (the Jaycees) named Elvis One of the Ten Outstanding Young Men of the Nation for 1970 in a ceremony on January 16, 1971, one of Elvis’ proudest moments. This award has been given since 1938 and has honored men of achievement in all areas of endeavor - sports, government, science, medicine, entertainment, etc.

Graceland, Elvis Presley’s home and refuge for twenty years, is one of the most visited homes in America today, now attracting over 600,000 visitors annually. It is also the most famous home in America after the White House. In 1991, Graceland Mansion was placed on the National Register of Historic Places. In 2006, Graceland was designated a National Historic Landmark. Currently, there are over 625 active Elvis fan clubs worldwide. Elvis' popularity is at an all-time high, and his legacy continues to reach new audiences. Half of Graceland's visitor ship is age 35 and under. Elvis died as a 42 year old lonely man. he would have been 71 this year had he been around. For my motley friends to understand or not - I pay my respect to the King and his voice tonight. Nothing is being done tonight rather than listening to his music.

Supernova the Tommy Lee Project has opened their official fan club this week too. There is a pre-order chance to get the debut CD to come. Should be delivered if you do pre-order it round Nov. 21st.
To actually follow the original four members of the Motleys are on top of the band itself hell right now for me. I am in financial bankruptcy. I still ma not fond of the Supernova thing. But I do try to collect all i can for and on the band. I think it is a little too ..hmmm don't know .. irrelevant and well, not too revolutionary and cool. But I can be mistaken as it starts rolling sure. But right now no... I really hope to see Magni getting it. The way they do things in the band and the things that are lined up with the debut gig on new years in Las Vegas can be looked at as something they will have success with but will I myself attend it at all? maybe to just check it out -one show one something somewhere. I guess that could be. But for no other reason than Tommy being in it. I can honestly say that without blinking. It is getting closer and closer to the last handful of singers around too. More exciting to me now? No!!!! Just still hope Magni get it. Hope they will drop the Rock dude... mention no names but they are pretty fond of him everyone is. Me, no...

I think we can look forward to a shit load of things to come from now on till the summer of 2007. There simply is a hell of a lot of things to look for if you are like or even just a bit like me. At times you can even learn to hate being like me. Its a never ending thing that sadly really takes its toll when there are activities in the solo member camps like solo music projects and clothing lines and more. It is fucking not easy to cope with. Financially its a living hell kind of!! - on qua flash news the Diary drug new to come book from Sixx has now been pushed to Early 2007 as well. Its really weird how the deadlines and first couple of official dates that's being brought to us always gets pushed up some when its something about KISS or the Crue. First new things from Sixx`s new clothing line is in stores late Oct early Nov too Hang tough. Love you all, Lee

PS: the last time mentioned payment sent to the states I was worried about has seen its destination today. Thank god. So soon there is another line of shit getting added on the Loyalty.DK site

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13th of August 200SIXX, One Out Of Two & New Sections
12:36PM CET
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Alright the week-end has been giving me one of two great results if you will. I have two payments sent to the US for things to be dealt with. One and the bigger of the two has arrived and that is super.
I really needed this one to arrive in the US now. And it is. That covers things that are about to come soon later in the month. I think I will have a cool time going through whats there to come at Corinna`s place. All the stuff that has been talked about now for some time will get cleared early next week and there by getting packed and getting shipped out. I is things that are somehow so hard for me to believe that I actually now has ended up with. Its quiet simply amazing. It has been a lot on my mind the last day or so since Corinna informed that the 9000 plus check arrived yesterday. Think about it. Who - being a serious fan - would not be in heaven if one could go shop Motley Crue collectibles for 9000 dollars? Fuck !!! Its almost a joke. But this isn't. It`s as real as it gets. The real deal. And I am loving every minute of it.

Also on the .COM site there are new sections added these last few days. As something new we have put a little "NEW" mark next to the sections that have been added things to it. many have requested something so they would not have to go through everything every time. Lol, I sure would not mind. Lol, But I know what you're saying all. many are regular visitors on here and its hell to go through everything every week to see the addings. I know what its like. So I get the picture. And it just gets bigger fucking all the time. I know this too.
But that's the whole point. Let the sucker grow. Let it take over. Let the site dominate the motley sites on the world wide web lol. I would love if that site here could become a really talked about and appreciated one. becoming an unavoidable site for the collectors and the diehards. I've no ego in that field but I long ofr throwing the ultimate site together that quiet simply holds what many longs for but never ever get to see in a fan site. Hell a lot of bands and their official sites aren't even cool. I think take the news section and the shout board out of the bands official site on our boys too then it begins to be a whole lot of nothing. You know what I am saying?

Hopefully my second payment to the US and Corinna will reach her Monday or Tuesday too so the next line of shit can be covered. I am still running in high gear on the spending front and the expanding of the collection. The day I stop this or the day I die (again) I AM SURE I AM GONNA DIE WITH A SMILE. Idid this and did that. and all. I have sort of already planned the next Hollywood / Los Angels visit is gonna be in November and it should once again hold a line of locations and stings to add to the "Meet n Greet The Motley World" section on the .COM one. have some fairly cool places to get on the list. Amazing that these things are just about as big as meeting the persons of the band in person for me. I have maybe done just that a little too many times lol. Anyway its gonna be a blast fucking eyy it will.

I dream of something. You wanna know what it is? Really? Okay here it is. I dream of all of us that are working on this site the Loyal Gang to put it short, that we will ones a year get together for a day or a week-end and just share our passion with everything that's in this for all of us. the shared passion for the band. I would seriously adore that. I would forever be grateful could we do that and keep it going and just ..... ohh well I will have to see if we can do that. wonder if any in the gang member section are gonna respond to this idea? We still need people in the European field to join us. We could do something totally untouched here as well. It really kills me I cant reach people on that. I have posted on all official sites about this and people just don't seem to be interested. I get a lot of excuses for this and that NOT to get active on any of my ideas. Well - fuck the non believers. I believe and I have dedicated my whole existence to this. Ohh well we will l see if I can make another shot at it.
don't give up. Don't let go. Till we have given it all we`ve got. Its well worth the fight to show all that we can and will do this. I think we can really do this together. Give me 3 or 4 DEDICATED people and we can do more much more than you even dare think about.

Anyway till next time - may you all have a good Sunday. take care - peace, Tommy

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10th of August 200SIXX, Whats where?
8:35PM CET
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Some have asked after splitting the website up what is where. It is really simple.
The collection on Motley Crue and everything that has got to do with any item on them is on the www.mcrueloyalty.dk site. There is also the diary and guestbook. And links to the new site and the My Space one. It should be really simple really. Still in doubt or having ideas or comments use that kickstart section. Thanks

The www.mcrueloyalty.com site is now holding the solo careers of the members. Their side projects and bands. My own story about what and who I am and all. It also holds the diary and guestbook there so that any one can read all thats going on. No matter if they prefer the collection site or the more personal ongoings site.
It also holds a "guide" kind of things with short notes and pictures from places in southern California where the band or a member ones wrote history. There is a link page to other likings of mine in rock n roll. And there is a Crue Shop that will later on hold some LOYALTY.COM and .DK items you will have a cool chance to get your fingers on. Everything about the gang members are on the .COM one too and the soon to come video clips and MUCH much more. Either way you
will as a TRUE fan and collector get a kick out of any of the sites I am sure.

I have tried to build them up as something totally new and so far unseen fansite on the boys .. still far from my goal with this .. but its getting BETTER!!!
Enjoy!!! Your host T. Lee

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8th of August 200SIXX, New Site Premiere TOUGH!!
7:13PM CET
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Just a quick one for ya. Have already posted my thought for the day! But the very latest as yu can see the MCrueLoyalty.DK has changed a lot. Much is now to be found on the sister site of www.mcrueloyalty.com and that one is online NOW!!! Not fully in perfect shape we are still working on it and still doing minor changes. But you can still go through it and you can still see a few new things on there. I think we will have a great couple of teamworking sites here. Also dont forget the all active My Space site too from the Loyalty gang. Link on the from page of both .com and .dk thanks a lot.

Check out the new one & spit out a comment in the gang diary if you are onboard OR just a vicitor post a thing in the kickstart my heart section. We appreciate your time to stop by andcheck us out. hell yeah!
W W W . M C R U E L O Y A L T Y . C O M W W W . M C R U E L O Y A L T Y . D K

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August 8th 200SIXX, Added New Show & Creepy feelings
8:50AM CET
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Shit man, it looks like there is not much going with sales in the band right now. A lot of things on eBay does not even sell. Its a tricky period of time. You could if someone put up stuff for garbs actually get something for a slick. Man that blows me out. I am not having anything more bought for some time. I am having 2 trips over in October and November and right now i am not gonna see all the shows planned for .Simply course there is not money for it. Period. It sinks in more and more that I would not have mind not seeing this tour as I felt it even back in March as I decided not to go. But now I will but in really scrapped version of a trip or trips. I so rather want the tour merchandise I have everything that was sold on the tour(s) so far since 2004!! Not gonna miss this.

Speaking of tours or shows another one has just been added; MÖTLEY CRÜE will headline the New York stop of the Ambassadors of Rock Tour. On Monday, September 18, MÖTLEY CRÜE, will take the stage at Hard Rock Cafe New York, performing legendary hits such as "Dr. Feelgood" and "Shout at the Devil". MÖTLEY CRÜE will take time out of the band's packed tour schedule to celebrate the company's 35th anniversary and to rock one of the world's most historic stages, in the former Paramount Theatre, joining such greats as FRANK SINATRA, ELVIS PRESLEY and THE BEATLES. I am not gonna be there and that fucking blows. 25 times more rather see this that 3 concerts. That is a fact of my personal opinion. Fuck!!!

The Supernova shit is just not awesome I dont think. Its another TV hyped something in the limelights of Mr. Lee. As I saw the chapter of them writing their own songs individually, that chick Dilana who seems to be so popular SUCKED ass. She was not haivng it. She totally blew it she is not a good lyricist. Lukas -- yeah he gets it but he has a singing problem. he is singing in his throat and not his stomack. NOT GOOD: I still say Magni and Toby as I did from the get go. They are just greater stage persons as a full package.

It just gives me the creeps. I am sure they will get a good amount of attention But I do not see the band Supernova being any more than a GOLD status selling act at the most. I could get suprised but I dont think so. I think people have had a little too much of all the TV land hyped serial shit. Good clean family entertainment you can trust. I dont think so. As said the other day new addings are in the sections of what ever in the LOOKS .... my collection. About 35 new pieces have been added. Talk again soon. Chin up folks. Rock out!!! Later
Me

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August 6th 200SIXX, New Addings, New Site
1:23PM CET
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Sunday it is. And what a fine Sunday. We all love the way it is here. Not too hot, not too cold. And I have gotten a shit load of cool things to do and say. First of I have gotten a great idea from an activity a friend of mine in Sweden, Alexander has been doing. A KISS fan since 88 or so ... and he has a yearly KISS Excibition in Sweden. My god it is so cool. Such a shit cool idea. Things from his collection is displayed for people to see there and all. Its awesome. I can hardly believe the idea. Its a blast. Like KISS or not. I should do this with Motley Crue. Its just Denmark .......no its not the place for it. And more much more than half the collection is here in Denmark NOT in the US of A. You see I have so shit much stuff it would ruin me to bring all over there. So an excibition would be maybe a little bit too much to dream for. But it is a thing for the future maybe? Hell I dont know here are a few pictures from his KISS excibition by the way. Awesome...

Another thing is site two : WWW.MCRUELOYALTY.COM it is coming up online this week we are heading towards. Yes!!! It is really happening. It has been ready for a long time but we surely have also been stalled waiting for the codes and all from the host master. From the company we have bought web space from. Trust me it will be a cool, cool thing that we are about to open up for. Things in there are what we already know of from the .DK site but yes.... more new sections are being created and so too. New things will be added to it, slowly a few new things will be there already as it goes up online. I tell you guys it will kick ass. But I am not pleased until I can actually say "ITS THE BIGGEST AND THE BEST" and we really do wanna aim for that one I tell you. Just be patient. It takes a lot of money and a lot of time to do. There is a new section coming up on the .COM one called "Meet N Greet The Motley Crue World" it holds only extremely short sections and pictures from places they created history some how. That is one short page but it took 100s and 100s of dollars a lot of days and patience to go round to vicit the places and get the pictures to put up on there. If you start looking at the site like that you will soon enough get ill and puke. It has costed a shit lot of hard work money and worries to get the things thats on here. But I have decided to build the site for 2 reasons only!!! I want to bring a fan site of the Motleys that has previously been unseen. I have never seen a site that truely kicked my ass or pleased me in a way beyond words. I am still not there with this one but I am aiming. And I am not quitting till its done. the second one was for my own self to have something listed so I could see it here instead of going through box upon box looking for a poster a CD or something before I could actually say "ohh I am missing this and that" or vise versa. You know what I mean?

This week-end here now is holding new stuff added to the site in the sections of; Posters, Tommy solo, Nikki solo, Magazine Posters, Magazine Covers, Articles, This n That, Singles, Vinyls, Displays, Picks and Shirts. More is coming shortly. A larger audio and video listing is under way. And then there after I guess its time to add more of the stuff again like we have just done. Soon upon that we are closing in on the HUGE personal lot to come to South Carolina I guess. the much talked about stage used items. That will be a lot of cool shit too to get added on here. At least a lot of money in them pictures. And then hopefully we are closing in on the vidoe clips to get added. It is something I am personally looking forward to for sure. Also I am as some of you may know going to the states again in October and meeting up with a lot of great people and bringing home yet another lot of stuff to go on here. Ohh shit. Yeah I am almost exausted from just thinking about it. Coming home and then 2 weeks later I am going over there again. it will also be a fast tight packed trip with new addings to the above mentioned Crue History location page to come. And a lot more video coolness. Yes freaks it will be some shit cool late summer fall that we are heading towards. And in the mean time this old fart here (me) has a lot of preparations to do with all kinds of things. I can only say this - you wonder if I dont do anything else in my awaken life? Lol, lol I can understand why the question may be on your lips. But the answer is yes. there are the every day things I too have to deal with like all you others out there. So maybe woth that in mind you now understand why I do not have time to have kids, family and most of all the so called ordinary things people want out of life. THIS IS MY LIFE.

I REALLY need to get my shit together though. I am totally horney when it comes to meeting new people and i do so much of it right now. Like a danish band that recently contacted me about management. they wanted me to be in over them. I dont know ... I have not seen them live so I have booked a gig at a little local place just to see them up on stage. So who the fuck knows? maybe that is my next thing. Maybe that is what i am going back to also. Working with bands like this. Done it before but quit. Long other story ......

Anyway, Jesse and I are gonna start looking more into the crue Convention to come 2007. It will be a really hard job to do and pull off. But hey its gonna be a cool thing if we can have it done in the way i dream of. We will see how it comes around. Corinna have been busy doing pictures and gaining things for me over there too. She has been quiet active for a couple of long days, Morten the new and latest adding to the gang is in full work on checking out things to be made in the name of Loyalty.DK and .com........ Angie is always busy like fuck with things we try to get in on. We wanna try to break through to some magazines, TV, Radio and what have you. To get in and spread the word. Jesse just is a constant mover - awesome buddyy!!! The other guys are doing theirs and I just need to catch up with them all and so on.
It is all in an expanding movement. Really. Sadly there have been too little time for other things right now. But maybe you guessed that from what has been written here already? More to come - Stay Loyal -
"Your host of The loaylty gang"

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3rd of August 200SIXX, Drugs, Delays & Others
8:39PM CET
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Alright yet another new member in the gang of loyalty is listed. I think it looks fairly good. When I think of the things we could actually do together all as one gang it blows my mind. But we are gonna have to of course - do way better. It think it is all priorities in each our lives. I wish sometimes I did not have so many contacts to people. I dream of meeting my own kind. but no matter what I do where I go and whom I talk to everyone says the same thing: YOU WONT FIND THAT PERSON. Unless you look in the asylum or someplace like that, cause you are fucking not normal. Normal?? Fuck normal-icy. Smoke it !!!

There really is not much going on here trying to over come my long lost cash sent out Friday!! 9000 plus dollars for MOTLEY ITEMS... that's fucking not real when you have just done what I have the last long long time. It has been a lot of this and that for a long long long long time now with absolutely no break. So I find myself sitting here going "I think I will back out a bit for some time not getting to know too much. not being fully updated and all. Just focus on the every day life the site and what is already going for a while at least said. Catching my breath again and trying to get myself back in better shape. Trust me I need that. I know what you all are thinking too. How can I? And why dint I just drop that idea? Course that sure as hell wont happen. Well.....I will try just for a period of time anyway. Think of it as a "refuel my engines". I need it I feel. I am normally quiet good at listening to my body. But now I think its time again for such a move.

I just got off the phone with one Herby Bowman. Finally we talked. Sorry dude for calling you driving lol. But you guys are heading out for vacation and I am just a happy duck to finally have catched you on the phone. I think we will have some great future bonds. Only Herby and Corinna kind of knows what what this means to me what he and I are doing. Ohh pardon me - how rude ...lol... he is the guy that helped me getting all the stage probs to come. In a good two weeks or something it should be slowly but surely getting packed and shipped off to South Carolina. I am so happy about this. I still see it as a hard fact with out cash you are fucked. But when it comes to Crue for me personally this is ONLY MONEY. Paper with some ink on it. That also makes me receive things that gives me bigger better pleasure than anything on planet earth could ever give. part from a girl - if it would a girl willing to and wanting to do those parts of my inner dreams as well. But that is one thing that life can and never will bring us any guarantees for. No bonds or relationships are guaranteed. I know I can guarantee myself to ONE single person if only I see and get what i would do and give to that one person in return. So I in the end, end up with this one thing:
my MUSIC PASSION.

That is the only field if you will I can fully trust. As it is up to me and not a girl friend, a brother, sister or boss or anyone. Its me only.....
I can trust that. With out hesitation. I never let myself down. I am very loyal and true to myself on this. Life is too fucking short to NOT be!!!
So from talking to Herby I got comfortable for sure. I am so thankful for your willingness to settle this deal with me. even though it was at some point a long shot. You could NOT!!! have sold to a bigger fan. That's all I can guarantee you man. But I truly wish i could give you or show you my appreciation for everything in other ways than a shitty phone call. But for now alright, Thanks a million. Can not wait to get it, come to U.S.A. and see it for myself and also receive the video of it all before or while being packed. Yes folks that's right I threw a request to Herby on that and he promised to do so and send it to Denmark before I head over. So you people can see the video online later. Or parts of it at least. There is this video clip section to come up on here once the second Loyalty.com site comes online in a few days. Thanks man really!!!!!

While sitting here gasping for a relaxed atmosphere and all I at the same time can almost not wait to get started on new things. New things with the website. I want it to blow peoples minds. It does not in my own mind quiet do that just yet. Its big yes - its cool yes - interesting yes - but still fairly far from what I would like it to be. Patience? Is that what I hear you guess out there say? Well I do have that - just so keen on working on the site some more MUCH more.... adding and getting new things that aren't on any sites anywhere. New turns in the fansite universe. I long for the ultimate rush with the Loyalty.dk and .com.
I want it to kill not just kick ass. I am just too bored here in ordinary life and then I need to have some goals and right now them goals can not be with things costing money GUESS WHY lol lol ohh well.... I just need to be busy and all. Creative. That's my rush in life.

I hope you guys will be cool where ever you all are. I again thank all that is supportive of the site and checking in ones in a while. thanks a lot.
There will be a few more things put up on here in the collection section "looks that kill" in the weekend. Remember all new adding only happens every second week. At least for some time .
But damn its gonna be good to have some structure too lol. For a while at least. A lot of new audio video things in the "Cruecial facts" section too will come up on there. have a couple of bigger deals in the works too. I think about a good 70 concerts on video and a good same amount of audio shows will come on there with time. More after that too sure, but that's about what I have deals going for on that field right this minute. A bunch of things are in the U.S.A. still. Corinna has scanned and done some pictures of some of it but she is not fully done so the rest will come in time. Always good to have something in the waits isn't it? Lol... sure it is. I think we will all be enjoying the things that are in the works on this site.

Mr. psycho!!!!

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29th July 200SIXX, Fuck I Did It And It Feels Good
10:46AM CET
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It is Saturday the so called "Day After". Yes the huge long talked about thing on the deal holding lots of past tour stage props got kind of sealed yesterday!! I sent a huge mutha fucking check to America of over 9000 dollars and that should cover what I almost wanted. Lol, lol, I know its like "WHAT ? What did you just say?" yeah You heard me people. It covers almost all I wanted in this one lot. I got the master pieces I think and a lot deal that took my sickness of doings to even greater heights. I just could not say no!! All in all you will see it as it arrives at my second Motley house. The one in the U.S.A. Greer South Carolina.

It holds so many great things. I am almost scared t think of it. Lots of used things drum parts and pedals drum heads in the 100s, lots of backdrops, stage / tour fans many items from the "lued Crued" live DVD the girls girls girls door the Hollywood strip tattoo backdrop, street light and so many more cool things. I am so pleased. Tommy Lee`s old tour make up box still holding a few personal things. Drum stool seats, the Rocket platform used on G.Swine tour Mic stand and mic. Older things like the thing with what Tommy keep time, the sport marked DRP 20 is where the Dynatron DRP20 would patch in, the Stunt Kit MIDI A and B, is that spot for the brain from the electronic drum pads, From QX1 Out is where they hooked in the Yamaha QX1 sequencer, and last the K-1000 out was Tommy's Headphones, bass chord made and personalized for Nikki.... and the list is so long. Guess who feels its Christmas all over.

Plus remember the auctions from last year Nikki sold out of used shirts jackets pants etc? yeah I got a few things back then of that stuff. Now two people are a Little bit in financial trouble leaving no names at all. And I have been offered some of these shirts auctioned off. I will get 3 of those now too. Also money sent to those yesterday. Saving a lot of money as a complete deal. Had I been the winner of the three shits back then and paid what the winners did. I should have paid about 3500 dollars more than I am now. Great fucking save. That's is idiotic not to do anything about would you not agree. I mean especially with me being a fan and collector of the magnitude that I am. Shit yes. it is totally cool. I bet also the stuff that I get of the stage props would have cost me a good lot more had I been bidding on it piece by piece on eBay or somewhere else for that matter. Holy crap. It was a huge and sick sick lot of cash to ship out of the account and pour into Motley items for god knows what time... but hell this collection is only with this and the huge award deal I did over the past few months getting so much more exciting.

There are so many things still in the works of smaller deals too. It is not stopping. I promise you. Recently got an original wedding invitation and other cool paper stuff from the Lee Locklear wedding 1986. The seller attended this wedding in person and has a full photo album holding shots of the event. I like to get that lot out of her as well. I think its actually possible. very kind very friendly people. Today they have no contacts to either of the two Tommy or heather. But there is a chance we that too - the house of the pair back then - can be added to the section coming up on the new .com page end of first week in August.
I really think it is a house that could be shot for the listing there too. It has been a heck of a busy month of all kinds of actions. Ton of worries too but most of them are now over the doubt have been dealt with the deals have passed their deadlines some have been missed and most of the cool ones have been won over and acted on.

I think there are a lot of ideas in my head still that kind of haven't been looked in on deeply. But it has been because of these other things like deals, the site and others ...they have simply taken all my time and energy. I have been sick as a dog from it too. Not slept well. Not eaten well and so on. Now it is kind of over I have passed the last mountain top on this trip. And there now is a chance to actually feel a Little more relaxed. And oh my do I need it. I have been worryng and sitting still with computers and phone calls and paper work like you wont believe. gained weight as hell I feel and "grown out" of half my closet holdings. Lol. It is hard for me to deal with course I have absolutely nothing that eve reminds any living creature of "good shape2 left in my entire body.
But I did at the end of my suffering and hard work get a lot of Motley stuff out of it. Which all are about to find its way to the collection here - damn right !!

I have also grown out of room here at my house seriously - so the kitchen has now been taken over the holding of records and CDs, computer and all crap. Shit that is really giving one something to think about. There simply is not much to work with no more here space wise. It is kind of a weird feeling but I saw it coming a long time ago. I think it is a wicked thing that the fact has now finally hit me right in the face here and there are nothing I can do except live with it or move out. Guess what I do? For a longer time at least I live with it.

Alright all my dear and global friends, it is now time for a thing to do and say I have not said or known for a long - I`ll rap this one up and then i will have a nice meal and REST..... yes the man said REST!! It feels even fucking weird to say the word. but after today the huge check of dollars the re decorations of the kitchen lol, lol and more is really something that took from 1PM yesterday till 3.20 Am this morning. And yet still I was up and have been up since 6AM too. Had a lot to tal to Corinna about and so I did. One more dude may be joining the gang of loyalty he is pretty active in his own ways anyway. Morten Foldrup. I think he can be a fairly good and different kind of guy to invite on board the loony train of Cruesters. We will see what happens. Till next time folks .... enjoy your week-end.
Peace, Tommy

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27th of July 200SIXX, Heavy Deals, Hot Heat, No half hearted Actions
11:11 AM CET
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With heat locally over 125 degrees here in Denmark there is no way I feel or anybody else for that matter it is a nice day. 14 people have died in the little country this summer alone from heat.
That is quiet a lot. We are only 5 million here. My god it is killing everyone. People are screaming for cooler times now. We where we live are used to and feel extremely comfortable at about 70 80 perhaps.
I personally like the winter. I always have. I just feel good with the fact that next week it is going to be August and Oct and Nov will soon enough come over us. That will bring a far better temp. too. Ohh boy.

This is the last day before a check of over 9000 US dollars will go to USA for Motley doings, it feels kind of sick to say it out loud. But that is whats gonna happen. In 24 hours there is a check on its way to the states covering a lot of heavy collectibles again. That will set me back for a long, long, long, long time but its all good. I can not believe it. Hopefully I will not regret it. Or I will be in shit trouble. Morten my brother has thought about joining in on the gang situation. Providing all with team work and maybe some future site items and all. Yes he has been thinking about things and he may do some shirts key rings coffee mugs and other stuff. I am not all sure.

We have a meeting this weekend and we will see how things unfold. Two of our gang members have already done quiet well on a birth to yet another Cruefests next year. Much more on that too on here. Later.
It is great to see all the things that are growing. It is great to see all the things that are coming but it is also great to see on astricht personal level that the collection is still growing as it is. And with the payment tomorrow going out there will be added a new hot line of things to the site for sure. Tons of things in the personal section, posters, magazines, shirts, this n that, records, CDs, DVD`s and more. But it ill take a while to do all this and of course it has to come first too. This is not going to be send to Denmark it kind of stays in the US for many reasons. How ever there is a chance to have these and other things in use later on if things will it that I move over there in 2007 or something. We will see where it all takes me.

Heavy dealings in a fucking hot summer time of 2006!!! NO half hearted doings here. Not in the name of the band anyways.
I see and have talked to several people now that have attended the first show in a while which was last Saturday at this years Rock Fest. They were nothing to proud of. There were something everyone talks about at least if you are a fan. Vince Neil. His alcohol problems are getting worse if that is a word that could describe it. He has been for years an alcoholic but he has the last 12 months now been seen in various cities they have toured in less and less sober. And with his blood spitting thing and all going on he or the boys and their management should take actions. This is not only killing the him it is also killing the band and a great career. It is terrifying to see him do this to himself. Lots of old issues are undealt with for the man in his personal life and maybe this is what it all comes from.
He just needs to get things done about it.

There are things to come in a way that would set many of us on a hard test. If you are a collector like myself 2007 will be a year that will or at least easily can kill your economy. There are so much coming its almost sick. Well - unless as it happens from time to time that things change and it from there will get delayed or simply canceled again. I don't know. It is just a weird thing from time to time. I love to say I want to keep up and have all bases covered but with what things costs and all the travel expenses too on top of it, it is just not possible to keep doing things. Sorry but its not!!
I am trying as hard as I can though. This huge deal tomorrow was just a one off chance and offer and I could not say no to it. The thing is done and the thing is now in high appreciation.

In a Little week or so the second MCrueLoyalty site is coming up. It is ready for uploading we just need codes and all other small needed details from the company!!
That means that we have a Loyalty.dk and a .com one. Yes it sounds sick and it sounds unreal for a fan site only. But its that big here now. Its a huge thing and its done in a way we want it. A way that makes us way different than anyone else. Its just cool period. I so hope for things to go right with all that's coming from here too. We need a lot of things and we need a lot of doings for the many goals I or we have. The group of people working on this here together.

That's kind of all from here today I guess. I get back at the end of the weekend with some updates on how things have gone with some of the projects that we hold on to here.
from hells backyard steamy greetings
Tommy
PS: If anyone is interested in an extremely rare edition of THE DIRT Scandinavian edition then now is your chance. It is limited edition and it is very hard to find. Officially not in sale outside Sweden. 10 Avail. Brand new hardcover edition. Collectible and rare as hell!!! $100.00

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22nd of July 200SIXX, Motley Yes butThere Is Something Else...
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Yes I know funny how life can turn out. For the first time in a long time I feel for posting something that is not exactly news. Not exactly Crue loyalty exclusive as such.
It is Friday evening again I should be out there in the dark in the streets going "whhoooo Hoooo thank god its Friday lets go apepoo". But you see I am not that kind of guy. Sure I love to party but not at a disco with the so called ordinary rules and politics. No it would make my ass scratch. I would be one of two things. beat up by the god damn fashion freaks they are so on dope at the discos these modern times. Or I would be extremely bored. hell who knows maybe even both. You all ask Corinna I am not the guy to impress the easiest. I would have to see something new and something new that would be kicking my ass too. Not much these days in life does.

SO here I am chicked out staying home with my god damn lap top and ones again missing out on the parties out there in the world. It so hit me for the gazillion time I LOVE ROCK N ROLL. But I enjoy it in a so different way than most. As I post this the latest from Buckcherry is spinning close to midnight at HIGH volume so I bet tonight will be the latest for me getting a knock on my doors from the blue cap man. Also known as the local police. "Could you please turn the god damn noise down and shot the windows" See what I mean? Man rules ordinary misery and the list is endless. You see every day I am forced to ad another name to the list of people that pisses me off. I do not know about you guys but I would say this.....I am freaky lucky to be solid self loyal. Following my hart still now the big 4 0 hit my ass this month. I do not do whats safe and smart in this rotten world that i love so much. I have brains but I do not use it much. I go by heart. I follow my heart. I follow my passion. It is by far the most insecure to do unless you are already a successful Miltie millionaire. Which I think I could have been but now never will be. I like to hear what is honest in life. Truth often hurts the most? I agree to a certain point. You see I like critics. Especially towards myself. It is the only thing you learn from. You do not learn from success you get greedy. And I hate greed. I would give my baby the world. i would give my mom the world. She gave me life. And it kind of stops there. Right there. I would be there in need for my friends. For life. Some out there knows this already!!! Some out there knows me better than 99. 9999 of all people around me and they should know I will ALWAYS AND EVER be there for them. Right now i have a gang in my loyal site of the Motleys and I tell you they are as different as the 4 seasons individually. But I love them all. I am just getting to know some of them. But if they would they would in me have a solid trust and good friend for life. I do not look at things lightly. Things and life are way too complicated for most in that field. I am and have fought hard to break that rule. And I hate life for the fact that I have had to fight so hard almost waste so many years of my short life to win over what I today can call inner balance and pride in my doings. I will forever love what I do or I would not do it no more.

I often feel it is me against the world and the biggest enemies in my existence are the Crue fans fighting with me over items I want and the employers. Every one else I am not in fear of. Every one else is either a friend or just another living soul out there. I love to get things build up to my own satisfaction but I rarely do. I am also always a one man army for life. It will most likely never change. I love one girl these days but she is far far from willing to do and head for the things I would like in a bind between two people. And NO!!! I am not talking about Motley here. There is are a few other things in life part from them 4 sick bastards. Oops! Did I really say that? Damn right I did. And I fucking meant it too. I seem way too passionate about things in life not having things in my life course I have to or anything like that. No. I think life is shit short and you fucking sleep one third away of it too. So with 2 thirds left minus work obligations and shit whats really left in life for true glittering gold? relationships love music and all could be some of the things. So open up show a will and try to aim for goals. Set goals. Don't make a list of ego bitching sickness and excuses for not do this and not do that. I hear it way too many times in life "ohh but that's not me I am so n so n so and you cant deal with that you take a hike". Why don't these people not just say ITS MY WAY OR THE HIGHWAY. That's what they say anyway but - politely. I am sick of their sorry shit.

I guess tonight has made me think in peace about the things in life I have done people I have met fights I fought won and lost. The joy and sorrow I have had. It has been a rich life. I tell you out there. It has been a rich life. One I am getting to know these days "A. W." I think alot about things in your life these days. i hope your heart wont die these days from what you may or may not be going through. I truly am here if you want a shoulder or just a listener. I will never let you down. Bets of luck with the ongoing.

I have a few things here that I need to focus on, where I am in life right now. Things that also has Motley involvements. But they are things that is a now a never thing too not right this second but rather long term actions that could give me a totally new kind of life. It is mind blowing how great things can become and how great things can turn out if two people just really open up and stick together support one another and what ever else is needed to be a success.

have you ever asked yourself sitting isolated with yourself, where am I in life? what do I have? Do I have what I want? or am I right now on the totally wrong path in life of who I am inside my heart? Am I willing to change for that that I dream of? Do I dare show weaknesses? Do I dare being vulnerable?
Life is best when you let people see your true inner heart. I have been n both worlds and I prefer the last. The totally nude personality. Be proud of yourself. Don't hide behind something and get aggressive as you get weak. Work on it and learn to be loyal first and foremost to yourself Most people are not. Do not give a shit what they proclaim to be. They are not. They a a facade a walking play. You see what they aloud you to see on the surface. I am not good with that. I have lots of weaknesses but then I tell people that. I need hello in this and on that please would you help me. I am not that strong in this or physically or what ever it may be. I have no problem what so ever admitting it. And that is why my inner balance is so eased so calm so great.

Hope I am not boring you all out too much here. I simply say - think again in everything that you do. Follow your heart NOT your brains (too much) and your life will be a bit more appreciated but you wont fully know till you have tried it. I promise.... Your personal little bitch - on a Saturday
Lee
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21st of july 200SIXX, One Week To Go & Then Boom!!
11:50AM CET
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Wreck that shit!!! hell yeah all my dudes and dudettes... lol....I am so freaky busy have so many things going I can almost not find hours enough in the day!!
The so called ordinary life is a thorn up my ass and I hate it. doing everything I can to avoid the crap. sadly it has its imput on the every day life. Especially since I am not a rich fucker and there for not fully able to ignore it as I really like to do. I have a few things I have got to do and they are so gonna set its limits to everything else for the next long long long time. i am on the shitster here from next friday andon. it is freakin me out every now and then. Good I am not a family man a dad or something like it. the family and the kis would have been so left out in the cold.

I just can not find joy in that part of life. I like to share shit with a life long partner. This dick here is one that like and hunger for adventures aqs often as possible. Live life in every other way than normal. I am one that really needs to be looking for challanges and passionate things like on a daily basis. It will quiet simply not work other wise ......I get bored and the next and only exciting hing that can make me curious is leaving this life. Then again like Sixx I did that about 10 years ago. I am here for the music and thats my life. It is a thrill to have things expanding in what you do in life. I have a few expanding issues in my own these days. Thanks for the care and all so far to all of you.

I wonder if Corinna really knows hat she has gotten herself into with the ship load thats coming to her place in a good few weeks, lol lol ??!!!
It is a load full that will be a little more than what can be stuffed away in the closet and then from there we have again like when the massive Motley awards deal was going on - this collection will rise in value.
This time with things that are again not mass produced and all. it will be a treat to add it in the section of personal. God damn.

In short in a week my finances will go BOOM like a 4th of july firework show. Up, up, up and ka-boom!!!! out the window. Gone left with a shit load of stuff we have absolutely no room for. But we fucking have to make room then right. it is a thing that can and will be fun to go through. what else is there? Right now kind of only the same things as posted here and in the last few postings. All right now are long time processes that will take a good amount of time to come full circle. I have a lot of things to get through. But you all know what? it is alright. actually it is extremely appreciated and there is not a thing i would trade for the business.

there are a few things that are still but ideas on the table and I need them to be looked into deeper than that and also there will be a chance to do new things if a few more things will go in hand. Right now things on the unsaid are a bit tricky but iso want it so I will not give up. It it kind of mind blowing how far one is actually willing to go for his dreams.

PS your fucking host is looking in on a totally NON Motley thing too. Been asked to help a band out so I am also looking to that dont know yet though what I will do on that.
Also I have gotten a totally fucking stinker of a heavy dance beat from the finish band Mighty44 in my head this stinky hot summer of 200SIXX. cant wait for a fall and some colder situations.
Now back to work and the Mighty44 and let that subwoffer punch a hole in my chest with the .... yeah yeah yeah you dont have to say anything
Just say one thing - Tommy YOU SUCK ASS!!!!!
i can deal with that!
Suckers, T Lee

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16th of July 200SIXX, reached Limits, Changes & New Ideas
10:53PM CET
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It is new times exciting times and more than ever busy times. The new site has just gone up online and already we are changing it. It should be on here I predict in about a good two weeks time or so!! What do you think? Am I shooting too high? well I Dont think so course most of it is actually ready as it is more considered a split of the site thats already there now. Only the new site is going to be Mcrueloyalty.com and then we have the Mcrueloyalty.dk and we have the My Space one too. And more is in the making. We are expanding like fuck and we like it. No we love it or at last some of does. I am one of them. Course I have full control not loosing it at all. Feels good. Ohhh so good. It will be a sight, a thing to go through that will be a great thing to run through if you truely are a fan of the greats. It still is a huge and still rolling thing that is NOT at all ending. You will love it once this is coming along too. But the new site is not gonna be torn apart so things will be missing all of a sudden. That will not happen. I promise. It is not going on till the split is fully done OFFLINE but expect it up around the 1st of August. Seriously I think you too will enjoy this one. It will be even more easy to look in on and it will be even more easy to figure out. kept in the same style as the new one here that just got online.

Another thing is i am thinking of doing a few things that could go up for grabs. is it something that would sell if it was cheap? Like shirts with the web link on and more. Like key chains, anything that could be a positive and useful something. Uhhh thinking big now huhh!! Well yeah why not!! you live but only ones so why settle for beans if you can have lobster? You get the idea right? I am a gambler and I dare do thats the whole difference thats where the fun is!!! Man its awesome if it could happen. But in the near future I will know more and you can actually see a sample of the things I hope - IF there will be any of it. I will have a look in to the chances for those thoughts too.

Remember the gang members will have their own diary section so you all can get to know them a bit more too.
go in under sumthin 4 nuthin.... untill the site splits in two then it will be GANG Diary. But not right now. For the gang members that have not fully understood this bit yet; you send a posting to the webmaster who sent you all a usefull e-mail address today so you should take care of that one. but send her the posting as if it was a regular e-mail and she will put it online for you. All gang members have only one obligation to post at least ones every three weeks. so we all feel there is life round lazy lol lol lol....

Talk again later my little ones.... Love to you all.
Tommy

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15th of July 200SIXX, The Mutha fucker Is Too Huge
6:06PM CET
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The all new and monsterous site is online for the second day. And guess what my dear friends? The fucker is already over 2100 mb that means we can get no bigger sized site from our company. So instead of worrying ourselves to death we are gonna do the totally unheard of. We are gonna buy a sister site to this one and split it all up. The way we are gonna do it is most likely the collection off the band one one and all the other ongoings on the other. makes sence. Course with the ideas I have to get on here too is like WHAT THE FUCK!!! Cool of cool and huge as huge can be. In short its all for your benefit youre viewing pleasure and more. Dig it?

Hell yeah we now soon have a MY SPACE page - a MCRUELOYALTY.DK - and the new to come - MCRUELOYALTY.COM Hell man its gonna kick serious ass. And ad this little sentence...."..and growing".
I have gathered a well working few sick minds in the world of dedicated Motley followers. So I am so far on appreciated ground. We will be a one a little further down the line. I am kicking butt here to make it all the coolest of the fucking cool on the world wide web of M.C. You tell me if I do wrong. You tell me if I have too high thoughts too high goals. There is no such thing. Its all hard work but full steam ahead is the only answer. Every now and then we fall but then we have to get up again I refuse to fall and stay down. This here will be bigger than any fan site I have ever heard of. This maybe already is how ever its still in its early stages and it is still taken shape.

The end of July sees me killing some rather huge deals. Killing deals that financially will rip my throat out for a long long time.
But the stuff I get out of it is well worth it. And it is a couple of moves that sets the total collection in even bigger value. it simply is a huge thing that can not be denied as crazy but still keep in mind this is a one man collection. I do have my Baby c in over it but till she gets out of things and more into this here it pretty much is me myself and I. In short it even blows my own mind what I have been gathering as a private collection and its not quiet over yet. There still are a few years to gather whats possible out there before I turn the key lock the room to that part of my life and go "wasnt that fun?!!"

Sixx is okay but his latest posting in on his site is of course giving many people a lot of worries for the time. I can understand his tumbleing around and his partly lost lust and energy to jump right back in the pool of Motley doings. yet thats where he gets fed from. Thats where he is picking himself up the best. So just sit tight and give him the time he needs to do this fully.
On a note of the Tommy Supernova thing, talked to a friend of mine that said he met the boys at The Roxy in Hollywood this week. Said the boys were actually extremely excited about it all. My friend said Tommy looked more than happy and said Tommy had told him not to worry on the Crue matter. There is not likely gonna be any changs made on that account. Seems like the movie and the Feb - March 2007 release of the new Crue CD will not see the light of day now till late 2007. Personally thats fine with me. I have way too much on my hands to even think the thought of yet another tour merch line and more. Fine.

the late July things will have a bunch of personal stuff added to that section too if all goes well. I can only hope and pray that it does.
The things here are hard to keep up with but I dont mind going totally insane on the life style that I lead and then drop dead saying in that part of life I did it all and I did it well. Thank you and goodnite.
back to the spilt up and ongoing works on the even bigger to come site(s)......

Love to you out there,
Lee

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12th of July 200SIXX, Well What Do you know - Fucking Eyy!!!
2:07PM CET
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A huge and well meant "I AM SORRY" for the delay the screw ups and the fucking unforgivable excuses for all.
I will not have this happening again and you can take that one to the bank. I will not happen like that again. Now the new site is her e its on line and its well working so far. We still have some awesome new things to get started on here. Quiet simply unseen things so far on any fan sites before. Just bare with us and give us time we will do it we will give it the spot on here and all. We just need to have other stuff looked at right now that have been forsaken due to the heavy work on this site here now.

As for the site itself I hope you guys find it a bit more easy to get around and a bit more cool for the eyes the everything. It is a thing I have tried to be aware of since the site has grown so huge now a days. Its not possible to sit with colors together on a page that irritates the eyes. So that I hope I have succeeded with? If not tell me please. And it will be fixed. Absolutely. We have on the front page the page we call Home Sweet Home at the bottom of your screen the link to another new doing for the Microlight.dk - the sites brand new MY SPACE page. Click on the box and it takes you there. It is in heavy growth already. Please take a minute and post look in on there feel free to leave a comment and also still as last time on the old site the KICKSTART section which is the guest book you can still make your comments and all there. I hope you all still will do that.

Now there is also a new section in under sumthin 4 nothin which is my diary. There has been added a section called GANG DIARY. That is all the other members or staff personal that bust their asses for a common goal for us all. They can be posting on there and they will a minimum of ones every 3 weeks. So look there and get to know the so far invincible staff a bit better. It will be a cool idea. it will be a fucking cool idea I am sure. I count on my staff and we have so many things going right now that have not even been mentioned in on here. But we have a mission or several lol, lol, but I will get to them all and share with you eventually. For now enjoy it all and get used to the new look and the many new adding in almost every section. It has been a while since new posters, awards and what else have been added to the website here but with this the new one and its premiere its all on here. Its all good. And many new cool things are to be viewed here so go ahead spend a good few hours and druell.......

The thing you do if you wanna be a staff member contact either myself or the head of gang staff Angie. All email infos you can find under the gang of loyalty section.
We have a good few future try outs in the works. There is a possibly that next year will see something new on the east coast of the USA but we still have a shit load of doings and tryings to go there before we can actually say its a rap. We did it. So I am not opening up for that bag just yet!! But stay tuned as they say and we will see what happens. I personally hope we can do this and that we will succeed. It will be a KILLER!!!

For now we just have or at least I do a day or two to relax let everyone take in the new and let me hear from you all my Friends and foes out there. Feedback is gold. So we have so many things to work with right now as you can see that the rest on my part is poor but I will take it. Its been a hard long road and its been a hell of a ride with an almost closing of an era. This site was so close to be killed but here we are hope you all enjoy it.

Lots of new postings inside and more in the next couple of weeks... welcome back to the coolest fucking Motley web in the world.....
Crueloyalty and its staff rules the world wide web. Now bow........

Your captain!!! T. Lee

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7th of July 200SIXX, Where The Fuck Is the Site & Whats New?
2:04PM CET
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Right I hear you all. I have been an inch from shutting this whole thing down. There is not much that makes me believe in the active staff on this monster can actually pull off something that holds time limits. And that to be honest worries me big time. For one reason only. I have goals where partners shall be involved where others can be depending on the doings we in camp "loyalty" deliver. And so far not a shit like it has been living up to that goal what so ever. I think I too slowly am falling apart here. Fallen apart with the belief in the greatness of a staff worth gold. Just not the dedicated people this at times requires. Enough said. There is a try on getting this one online for Monday now. I said it before and here I say it again. If that can not happen either then I just give in.

A lot of things and wrong doings have been corrected on the new site and still about a good few fists full of crap is hanging behind and lacking from making this one a perfected site. Actually I think it begin to suck ass. My personal apology to all that's waiting for this one to appear, I would think less and less of the whole thing too I am sure. I think things are going up and down like a storm these days in most things that I do.

There are so many things in the making so many things in the bucket of "maybe`s" and there are a lot of things that I hope for.
People are extremely non psyched on the fall tour I think. i don't know how many I have talked to about it from many countries. Everyone agrees it will be nice to see them again but besides that it is no over the top feeling. Not over excited due to the feeling its gonna be the same ol same o. And we have had about two years of that already. On the other hand I share the feeling about hurt, worry and disappointment to Neil`s statement recently to the extremely bad Florida drunk performance

:"I was pretty buzzed. I tripped, fell off (the stage) - sometimes it happens. But, this isn't’t a tour. This is just me going out and having fun and sometimes, yeah, I drink a little too much. That’s just the way it is. I just finished 185 shows with Mötley Crüe, so one show in Tampa where I drank a little too much - whoopdie-doo. I am still doing my shows and I’m going to record another Mötley Crüe album and then be back out on tour; by then nobody’s really going to care anymore. We’re actually going to be writing a lot of music out on the road and should have an album out late next year. We’re not ever going away."

What the fuck is that Vince. C`mon. You cant just piss on people like that. Then please rather stay off of the stage. It is actually shit sad to see him not being either able or willing to deal more serious with the drinking problem. I really don't know a hell of a Lot of serious fans that thinks that's too cool. Rather they all go "I`m hurt" and that includes myself. It is not a thing I like to see.

Actually I can see things go down hill for the man and the band if this don't get taken care of a.s.a.p.
What ever there is not hing I am sure one can do about it. Lia what you do and deal with is on a guessing on our hands but you should feel more for getting the shit looked at if you love your man. I don't get it. And I hear a million people say "Tommy it is not your business either". Well no its not but I invested my time my life my money in the 4some and I don't like to be treated like that had I been at the show like Tampa or with these issues at all. Okay I hear how that sounded. It sucked. And it was extremely negative. But what the heck. I speak here like I always do with a free mind.

Have been shit sick the last few days. Guess it has been a mixture of bad eating, too hot in the day and too hard pushing myself. Fuck I hate the place I am at right now and all my life is on hold for I have not finances to just go do and pick from all I love. I am trapped here it feels awful. I hope things and solutions to some things will be in place with in the next week incl. this site. Course this is smelling ass's!!!

I too have now heard and seen some things from the Supernova thing. i am not keen on that what so ever. Funny how Crue fans gets swallowed up in this just course he is in it. I don't mind saying I am not expecting much from it. I will and can only be pleasantly surprised. But from what the thing i have seen from the intro first episode. no thank you. Only one voice was awesome Toby form Australia. But I bet I hear how things go and all. On the other hand we know nothing about the material they will come up with what voice will fit that? How are they gonna work around it. I fear shit .. but I m open. Like the Supergroup with Sebastian Back ted Nugent and others ... IT SUCKS ASS!!!!! ted for god sake take your six string and go do what we all know you are awesome at and let the joke be left alone.
Creepy!!!

Tommy
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1st of July 200SIXX, My oh My - & More Loans. Also.........
3:16PM CET
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Your host is celebrating or not his birthday today folks. It has been Worth a non really existing interest in yet another number in line of the summers I have now been around. But more like okay so things are a little more Grey now lol. But I still feel 25 and there is nothing nobody can do about it. The year will be cool A lot of things and doings will be done and looked into. I have tomorrow or Monday pardon me i am getting old. Things begin to slip my mind. No they are not. I really like to get things on the roll and they ill my grayish (lol) ol mind is just fine and fully functional. Trust me.

Things are expanding but of course people may ask themselves today "hey where the fuck is the new site at?" It will be here hang tight - stay with me here. Things have been more fucking with us than expected. But you know what? It will be here Monday. Guaranteed what ever .... It will be here by Monday. And be excited too my dear friends. It is a thing that is simply growing almost by the day. The site has gotten its new things too. And the site now have its MY SPACE too and it holds a few new ideas and there may be something HUGE and OVER THE TOP 2007. A happening in New Jersey. I can not tell about it right now but trust me its going to be awesome if we can pull it through. And I am the guy that promises you all this - I will go out of my ways to make it happen.

I have to morrow the plane ticket for my October USA trip. So that is a solid activity. I am going It will so kill. I am sure of it.
We are gonna try to look in on Hollywood and grab the Hollywood and US Festival 83 spotted live event too. That was a dream I said out loud "cool to actually see the band here now too should there ever be a chance. Now in November there actually is one. and I want it. hell yes I want it. So . Sure i am going to sit on the grass there. FOR SURE... Glen Helen park 2006 - let us rock the shit out of this place. Hollywood Bowl a few days before this hell yes....Nothing is going to be any different. I am so going.

Corinna is back in business here too. She will be posting something soon. And the new thing about the gang of loyalty is that at least ones every 3 weeks you will have a diary from them all on here too. On the new site. I have set up a GANG diary for the people to get to know the gang a little more too. TRUST ME ... yo will love it. Like with myself it can be anything big or s,mall positive or negative as long as it is Motley Crue related. It will be a sick mutha fucker.... so awesome so extremely cool. I am personally looking forward to THAT ONE big time. There will come so much more attached to the new site as it gets going. no worries. There is a shit long list in the wait for us all.

More deals have been set today and I am pleased to say it looks like the stage props dude is gonna let me make a deal with him for doing something. It will sadly NOT be the lot but so be it. Tough. I can not cover the monthly rates what so ever. But I will do a good job with the guy next week I hope. And grab maybe about half of the stuff he has. We will see. I am just really happy about things IF they do go the way I want it to as a thing I call plan B.

Also a huge thank to the staff of people I have on here with me. Its going to be so much more exciting now with the new to come. Only wish people would bury their aggressiveness and start communicating to and with me and each other much more. It would and it SHOULD be a all together bigger pleasure. This is not a thing I have built up course I can. this is a thing I have built up course I want to.
no go drop the work for the day and enjoy your big day Tommy.

Between you and me people "I CANT TOO MUCH TO DO TOO MUCH TO SOLVE TOO MUCH TO COVER ..... all in the name of my passion...... MOTLEY CRUE
Your proud host
Tommy Lee

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28th of June 200SIXX, Kimmel, Site & A Huge Mission
8:28AM CET
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It is a huge thing. It all is. I do not take things lightly. In any way, I tell you. The site has coursed us more shitty problems and some of the over the top ideas to go on the new and coming site are just not fully there when it goes online. We can not fully make it happen. I have "fired" A COUPLE OF PEOPLE, yes I have. I am sad about it always am but I have to look for my own personal interests and put the individuals up against their own words. If that does not seem air tight if you know what i mean then off you go bye bye. We are some now that are on a mission. A huge mother fucker of a mission too. So many ne and head hunted things will come to surface in the near future. Trust me.

A few of the gang members are really excited to get started onthe whole new direction too. That`s just so awesome. They too feel more much more involved now too. It is great. I think a lot have been tested the last long time. I have been shit busy and been talking and dealing and doing shit every day almost ofr about 18 to 20 hours a day the last month. I am so beat. Once the site goes online there will comeanother short time fase that will have me on my toes watching all making sure the shit works and all. Then I seriously need a rest. Wish I could go away on an isolated island for a week not having to deal with anything. But yeah....in my dreams I guess. There are so many things going on and there are right now also another line of closings for deals. Deadlines to keep up with and more. There are so many things right now that I need to be a litle careful. Not to loose the grib.

The fall will be huge Isence it already. As said before we are aiming high too for things to happen and we really wanna make sure the shit will happen no matter which of the gazillion things I refer to. Just a line of hopes and thoughts like constantly on the table for, with and about everything. It is a tough thing to try for buut I feel I gotta do it. I think you will like it all once it is all ready.

Tommy was on Kimmel TV last night did you guesssee it? Also the band in LA and Aerosmith in their home town of boston had teamed up for a Detroit radio special brought to you live from 101WRIF the radio I love to talk about so much. Listen online. www.wrif.com It was goos. Fresh. Let me in that sentence take a minute and say thanks to Doug Podell for all he has done for me so far. Thanks brither. I appreciate it maybe more than you will ever know?!!

Also watch out for the new paperback book to come it is available from www.amazon.com right now. More new shit to come liek.. ohh brother the list is endless. just keep an eye out in the news lines on the official sites like; motley.com, swagrox.com, amazon.com, and others. The stuff comes out on all of these I am sure. Axl rose was arrested in Stockholm yesterday guess if the danes at Roskilde Festival have been worried they will play there tomorrow though. I have myself gotten a positive flashback with GNR. God they are good. Shit. But good old now 46 yrs old Axl has not gotten better it seems. Still fucked up with his temper and still letting the crowds wait for an hour or more as he did ingermany with the Rock Am Ring festival. Ohh boy.....
But he show was worth it and .they are back GNR 2006 oneof the HOTTEST tickets at all at least here in Europe.

No Motley in europe till 2007. The US tour has taken a line of changs since the early plans and it is now kind of a weird thing. At least it is to me. But who am I to say anything? Nobody I guess.

A few more days and a lot of things will change. And I have a stinker of a bithday. many are on my ass.. but you have a huge cellebration to look in on. NO I DONT. I dont care about birthdays that way. No reason to cellebrate you get older. whats up ith that? People are far more nuts about my day that I am. What the hell, let the masses have their fun. I only have a few wishes and they will not come true so.... have a good one!!!

Your exausted host xXx

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=89034465

You can all see some of the gang members are already hard at work on the new road we chose to try as a group challenge. Mcrueloyalty.dk has started to expand with now a MY SPACE page.I think all can and should be invited to go in and see this and offer any what ever to us of ideas and thoughts. It is a personal pleasure for me to see these gang members be active already. This is what we are going to try to do - kame it a unit not a bunch of people but all become ONE and try to set a huge mutha fucking snowball in activity only to grow and get visual and unavoidable. We are proud to have our gang member of Boston Jesse to control this site. Now if you have any questions to and about anything thats got to do with the "gang" on the loyalty.dk mission you contact Angie in the gang of loyalty section on this site here.

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25th of june 200SIXX, God Its Hard, Closing my Eyes And moving On
4:05PM CET
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Sunday normally a day for resting is it not? it that what the big dude upstairs wanted this day to be. I think this was not meant to include me at all. I am busy shit no matter if it is a Sunday, Tuesday or Friday does not matter one bit. All my days are like 20 or 20 some hours long trying to deal with things.

I am right now not in the biggest belief of getting things I really wanted from the tour and stage props guy. Tough shit. How ever I am going to try to talk to some people in the next 3 days and see what I can do. Course as you know I thought this was a set deal already but no.

Then today I have been kind of hoping for a miracle with Casper the new dude in on the site. I have had a serious problem with him for several weeks now. And now today I ave told him his Sunday too is doomed to be a work day. he had to for us to even make sure we will be ready in time for the first lot of the new site. First lot you say? Yes more ideas are being worked on and more shit is going to get added on here but I have a feeling it will not be on this side of August or something. We have too many balls flying up in the air to ,make it all happen over night. Still the site is gonna come on here the new cool version. It is a site that for sure will be great. Trust me. It will just get better and better as time goes on. And more and more shit added to it.

Another not hoped for issue is also with gang of people. They are not really responding too well. This will have to change too from the 1st. I think we will have a lot of new thoughts and a lot of new directions on here for everyone to follow. If you are sitting out there right this minute thinking wooww I would like to get in and be a part of it. All you have to do is email Angie in the GANG OF LOYALTY section and get her send an email telling a little bit about your self and so on. On the page of the gang you can read more about what you need to do. But we can always at this point still use new and fresh diehard Crue blood on here We need to stand strong and we need to be standing with a belief in what we do and have and share the same common goal. I do stand as the bitching bastard and swinging the whip as I have now learned that some one has to when you work as a group one has to be in charge or it will just all of a sudden get really bad and the lot will loose control. So I am the bitch on here and it is fine.

But anything you wanna know or hear about concerning the gang of loyalty email Angie. She is your "guy" for that one.

I am going to take some actions towards the USA trips to come for the rest of this year tomorrow and the coming days. I think and I hope for some good things and doings then when the time comes for these things to be happening. I really begin to need that ones again. There is a lot of things still in the works how ever things are just so damn hard to keep up with as a one man gang. Just fucking hoping for the best. As I go to sleep tonight I will be one huge step closer to the end of the site. It is a day of highly importance...

So - will I jump round in joy and a celebration dance or will I be sitting all rapped up in tears over a day of fucked up doings and begin to fell the deadline will not be met? I refuse to have the last option being the reality.

Now the next few days will be like so telling a story on all that’s going on. It will be so easy to settle things from the outfall of that. the next days will be saying a lot. The days will be so telling what is and what isn’t going to be happening. I of course will be hoping and praying for the best and all. I just have to get the best and most possible there is absolutely no way round it.

But so far things have been planned and have been set in gear so where it all ends and what will actually be in my favor at the end of the day. Your guess as of now on things is just as good as mine. I have so many things to deal with the next few weeks its almost scary! Damn!! Anyway back to work here for me. Just sharing the updated info on it all. I will get back to you all later.

Lee

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23rd of June 200SIXX, Sunday Hollywood & Dropped Deals
6:46PM CET
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There is a line of things going on and a lot of things that was meant to go on that is now NOT!! I had so many deals going just a few days ago. Now some have blown me off, fucked me over and times have a different ring to the many activities around me. In short some deals that really meant a lot to me are in posession of people that seems to be like 99% of all beings. MONEY MAKERS nothing but. No looking towards the coming owners or anything. I begin to seriously believe that I am the only one that cares about passion and things in the way that I do it?!! Anyway I am extremely dissapointed and feel bad about this in a way not many of you can even begin to understand. So I am not gonna waste time on here bothering any with even trying.

I really am in a world of minds, rules and ordinary that I can not at all cope with. I am SICK of it. I know we all have our daily things to deal with. Course that is how life is. No getting around it. You live on planet earth you live by the rules or as far as you fucking have to. But I refuse to let me my passion and the site from July 1st be told there are limits. I am and have told the "head of my gang" - a line of people that are with me on this, a line of people that are so tight up in this aiming for greater things. I have told my chosen head of the gang that even the people in that gang will get their booties kicked out and off of this IF they do not start to be more visual and more active on this here. I need the gang that does this to do it from passion not just for having their name on the site. *****

It is new times and more serious and better times, more fun times to be on here and together the group that we are. There will be a list of things you all can and will see that the gang will be much more a part of. And I love it, it is an awesome idea and it is a seriously needed change. I would love to have things differently but the REAL believers and the team workers are but so seriously hard to find out there. You have no idea. Its a smelly stinker of a competition out there and no one wanna be the giver. The ... you choose the words .. I have givin up a long time ago....

Anyway the latest news is I am going to USA in October for a handful of shows, seeing my old man again Don Armstrong getting another one of the missed SHOUT banners picked up I guess and I am then going to HOPEFULLY get them signed as I have my Sixx one .. collecting all 4 of them and then get them framed and hung. Anything else is unacceptable. The band is in LA this Sunday as Aerosmith is in their home town of Boston doing something special that in the middle of the two cities will be broadcasted in Detroit. That is one fucking KILLER IDEA!!!!
I would like to have that one under my belt if you all know what I mean. I will know more in a good hour or two. I think it is a time for some killer doings of all kinds. How ever I am also in serious need of that to get over (if I ever will) the los of the deals I had set EVRYTHING up for. I am seriously devestated over these moves from the few that just took a 180 degree spin and changed all my chances. Fucking sucks!!!

The tour starting in September is a good 27 dates and it ends Nov 24th. If there will be the rumoured new years eve show still I can not tell at this point. How ever there is a serious chance of that not happening. But ,.....lol we will see. I will be going to see the tour and I hopefully will have a blast of what is being done. It will hold a good few new places I have not yet attended a Crue show. So that in itself is kind of cool. And if the new yrs will not be announced with in the next 40 days I will be doing all in my powers to go to the Hollywood Bowl and see em. We will see what the devil will bring me. I just really hope for something totally cool!!! I have a good 3 - 4 years left before it can all be over and then this will be a serious bad ass collection by that time. But not as ASS KICKING as it could have been with the goods that I seriously was dead sure of would have happend.

-There is a huge lot of things and ideas in my head as I have referred to before with the gang the site and all. And I promise you there will be more openness about it as time goes on and the new site takes over this one here. July 1st. We just really need to have this one to come being functional and being right from the start. I am a litle bit concerned and there is a REALLY good reason for that!!! There is ABSOLUTELY no acceptance of it not being 101% in order as it hit the internet. We have as said before some ideas for this one to come that WILL NOT be here from the start simply because our man to do these new things have been a bit tied up and a bit more lazy than what good is. It is simply not good enough either. Shape up young man or hit the road.......

Okay I guess I have said enough for the day maybe?? What do you think? Dont forget your shit thats on the ONLY god damn rockin the airvawes radio station. Listen online. www.wrif.com say hello to Doug my man should you throw them an email or a request shit of the boys.

later my friends,
Lee

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20th of June 200SIXX, Dont Tell Me This Is How Its GoingTo Be - You`d Kill Me
11:47AM CET
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I have a thing gong a deal worked on with a lot of stage 7 tour used items. Its true for you taht have asked in the guest book on here.
How ever the guy is killing me right now NO !! I am not pissed at him or anything but he cant seem to cope or figure out how to get the stuff to South Carolina. So this may be the end of it He said in an email today he is seriously thinking about selling the stuff piece by piece on ebay. This is killing me. I have taken some actions to make sure it at least could get started on so this messege kills me. I have emailed him with the note DONT CHANGE THINGS DONT DROP OUR DEAL. I want this and this is now really eating me up. That there is not going to be a deal MAYBE!!!!!! I have talked and told a TRUSTFUL good 4 people about this and they too know it would kill me to see this not going down.

I know its sounding like a cry out. well it is. I am dying to have people coming up to me and telling me things I have passion for then they come on to me later on and say the total oppisit thing. And change their minds around like totally. I am not the kind of guy that is fucking around with anything that has gotten anything to do with this band. So "HERBY" if you please could find it in you to come down a bit and focus on what we do. You selling it pece by piece ... you will never see it again you know already what I have of plans for it and you know already that you could end up seeing it all again and TOGETHER as one collection. I am more than begging you here . do not do this.

My diary is for all issues touching my Crue world this is too in a big way so its gotten every right to go on here. it is not with joy I post this but I had to.
The tickets and the tour is up now too. Lots of shows just not for me. I want these things and I want these other talked about items I have talked about with crtain people that holds a few here and there.
You all know who you are.

Sep 5th Mötley Crüe playing Germain Amphitheatre, Columbus, OH with Aerosmith
Sep 7th Mötley Crüe playing New England Dodge Music Center, Hartford, CT with Aerosmith
Sep 9th Mötley Crüe playing Post Gazette Pavilion, Pittsburgh, PA with Aerosmith
Sep 12th Mötley Crüe playing Darien Lake PAC, Darien Lake, NY with Aerosmith
Sep 14th Mötley Crüe playing PNC Bank Arts Center, Holmdel, NJ with Aerosmith
Sep 16th Mötley Crüe playing PNC Bank Arts Center, Holmdel, NJ with Aerosmith
Sep 19th Mötley Crüe playing Jones Beach Theatre, Wantagh, NY with Aerosmith
Sep 21st Mötley Crüe playing Jones Beach Theatre, Wantagh, NY with Aerosmith
Sep 23rd Mötley Crüe playing Tweeter Center, Camden, NJ with Aerosmith
Sep 26th Mötley Crüe playing Tweeter Center, Boston, MA with Aerosmith
Sep 28th Mötley Crüe playing Tweeter Center, Boston, MA with Aerosmith
Sep 30th Mötley Crüe playing Nissan Pavilion, Bristow, VA with Aerosmith

Oct 2nd Mötley Crüe playing Air Canada Center, Toronto, Ontario, Canada with Aerosmith
Oct 5th Mötley Crüe playing First Midwest Bank Amphitheatre, Tinley Park, IL with Aerosmith
Oct 7th Mötley Crüe playing Alpine Valley Music Theatre, East Troy, WI with Aerosmith
Oct 9th Mötley Crüe playing Riverbend, Cincinnati, OH with Aerosmith
Oct 11th Mötley Crüe playing DTE Energy Music Theatre, Detroit, MI with Aerosmith
Oct 12th Mötley Crüe playing DTE Energy Music Theatre, Clarkston, MI with Aerosmith
Oct 13th Mötley Crüe playing Verizon Wireless Amphitheatre, Indianapolis, IN with Aerosmith
Oct 15th Mötley Crüe playing UMB Bank Pavilion, St Louis, MO with Aerosmith
Oct 17th Mötley Crüe playing Verizon Wireless Amphitheatre, Kansas City, MO with Aerosmith
Oct 19th Mötley Crüe playing Starwood Amphitheatre, Nashville, TN with Aerosmith
Oct 21st Mötley Crüe playing Verizon Wireless Amphitheatre, Charlotte, NC with Aerosmith
Oct 23rd Mötley Crüe playing Alltel Pavilion Walnut Creek, Raleigh, NC with Aerosmith
Oct 25th Mötley Crüe playing Verizon Wireless Amphitheatre, Virginia Beach, VA with Aerosmith

Nov 2nd Mötley Crüe playing Shoreline, Mountain View, CA with Aerosmith
Nov 4th Mötley Crüe playing Hyundai Pavilion, Devore, CA with Aerosmith
Nov 6th Mötley Crüe playing Hollywood Bowl, Hollywood, CA with Aerosmith
Nov 8th Mötley Crüe playing Coors, San Diego, CA with Aerosmith
Nov 10th Mötley Crüe playing MGM, Las Vegas NV with Aerosmith
Nov 12th Mötley Crüe playing Cricket Pavilion, Phoenix, AZ with Aerosmith

More November and December dates are coming shortly!!! Now what ever will happen you will find out about on here as I am sure there will be positngs about and all. As i normally do...damn I hope I will pick the longest straw in this concern of mine.

Thanks alot folks, 11 more days and the new site is up I promise you!!!
Tommy

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18th of June 200SIXX, Who Said i Told You So?!!
1:33AM CET
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AEROSMITH's official fan club, Aero Force One, will make an official announcement regarding the band's fall touring plans on Monday, June 19. The group are expected to confirm that they will be teaming up with MÖTLEY CRÜE for a U.S. tour beginning in early September. So far, the following dates are up for the trek:

Sep. 05 - Columbus, OH @ Germain Amphitheatre
Sep. 07 - Hartford, CT @ TBA
Sep. 09 - Pittsburg, PA @ TBA
Sep. 14 - Holmdel, NJ @ TBA
Sep. 19 & 21 – Wantagh, NY @ Jones Beach
Sep. 23 - Camden, NJ @ Tweeter Center at the Waterfront
Sep. 26 - Mansfield, MA @ Tweeter Center for the Performing Arts
Oct. 05 - Tinley Park, IL @ First Midwest Bank Ampitheatre
Oct. 07 - Alpine Valley WI @ TBA
Oct. 13 - Noblesville, IN @ TBA
Oct. 15 - St. Louis, MO @ UMB Bank Pavilion
Nov. 12 - Phoenix, AZ @ TBA

Som now already also officially confirmed by Live Nation

The first rumblings of a possible AEROSMITH / MÖTLEY CRÜE pairing were heard in early January when CRÜE frontman Vince Neil revealed during an appearance on the "Opie and Anthony" show on XM Satellite Radio that the two bands would be hooking for a trek later in the year. AEROSMITH are currently recording their new album with producer Steve Lillywhite, who has previously worked with U2 and MORRISSEY. The band were forced to cancel a bunch of shows on their spring tour after singer Steven Tyler suffered a broken blood vessel in his voice box. MÖTLEY CRÜE are believed to have commenced the songwriting/demoing process for their new studio album with producer Bob Rock, who previously worked with CRÜE on their "Dr. Feelgood" and self-titled albums, as well as the three new tracks that appeared on CRÜE's two-CD "greatest hits" collection, "Red, White & Crüe". A March 2007 release is expected. But as we all know things have it wit ha changing all the time with them dudes.

Now there is as said a lot of doings and maybes in the air that really holds a ton of great ideas and things to be tried out and aimed for. I think people should maybe chill a bit to everything i post in here and just TRY to find some patience and let us see what happens alright? You all know me well enought to know I am so gonna try to get it all worked out. Till later in the new week to come, just hold your horses and we will do this updating thing and get more solid facts to the table. More emails about Corinna to me. She is to answer all that herself. She is still alive on here.... and things are taking a turn and change a bit from July 1st. al lthe gang members will also get more into it. There are so many ideas thrown around too for the new site. The only person involved in this thing here that will not be invited to deeper doings is the webmaster for reasons untold here. But the rest of us - well we are simply gonna ry to start a bigger kind of activity here...

You all enjoy your Sunday and try to stay out of the sun a litle bit folks.
Rocking the vawes - peace Lee

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16th of June 200SIXX, Just cause It Rocks, 101WRIF
7:33 PM CET
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I really do not have too much news of today. A LOT IS in the works here so it is going to be all good. Right now I just wanted to send Doug Podell a big HEELLL YEHHHH!!! That dude is a total fucking over the top cool of the cool Rock with capital letters radio rocking bastard of a DJ on 101WRIF rock radio in the motor city of Detroit!!!!! He is gettng my ass in gear every day and I do mean every fucking day. I am in holy land when he is on the air. No one can make me do anything. I am not to be disturbed once he is hitting the airvawes.

That shit he just pulls every day is worth fucking living for. It is also CRUE day on the 101 - every day, I at least try to make it that. Every day a Motley request every day he spins it. Gotta do gotta have or else.....

several replies from the man too....Gotta go to the motor city as the band hits the home of rock to see them but certainly also to see this man.
Simply have to. he is a fucking killer. fucking check it people you dont need any other radio EVER www.wrif.com

I sent you out some shirts and stuff
Doug Podell
Program Director Youre a wild man T
Doug Podell
Program Director Just for u......
Doug Podell
Program Director
Hail to uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu....wild T
Doug Podell
Program Director

Fucking ey man - Doug king of rock n roll radio
Fuck me man......Tommy Lee


"So im listening to WRIF because I live here in Detroit. Im rocking out to the Crue. And Doug Podell says this one goes out to Tommy Lee in Denmark who is a Crue fanatic! I was like you have got to be kidding me LMAO! I thought that was so cool! What are the chances of that! You rock! Hope you have a nice weekend!!! It has been great talking to you again! Hope all is well and things arent so chaotic for you my friend!!!! Muah Cat!"

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14th of June 200SIXX, Lifelong Appreciation, Fast And Exciting Times, All Real
6:33PM CET
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These days are so variated and so huge on things in the Crue world in my case right now. There are so many things coming my way in ways that I now am finding myself in a position where I am forced to choose what I am going to do not only this week but the next 12 months. That is kind scary. And it is cause they, the offers, are all really cool and hard to just look away from and say ohh well tough.... I am not like that. That would be as sayng to a mum "you have 3 kids" but you can only choose one" what the fuck would she do? Exactly, not possible to make such a choice. But I guess I have to and then live with the things and situations I would have to make a pass on. damn it.

The only thing I can say is I am right now in a motley sence living high feeling great and blessed. So I am in the right time for making these miss out decisions. I have things under my belt these days that makes it a litle easier to accept the fact that I can only have so much. Had I been in a depressing situation or something then it had been shit much harder. I hope the last few days adventure have been givin me so much I will be able to also part a litle bit with my pain from my private life situation. I have gotten emails about my reaction to Corinna´s latest posting. Let me say this on here. I will not say more about her and my involvement on the site. Only say Things will be dealt with and things will be a litle more strict from now on. For what ever these words will hold "its nessesary to make it work" then the, shapen up, tighten up is just needed - big time. No more sweet and understanding. Has to put on a litle roughness.

I think things on the every day basis is a financial disaster right now cause of so much I constantly do. How ever I will have no regrets about any of it. I still live high on all I have been doing in 2005. Fuck me went all over the place. All of europe, USA several times and Japan. How can I not feel excellent and lucky as fuck? I think I will enjoy the things to come the rest of the 200SIXX too. I will not be doing touring much but most likely focus on items to add to the collection here instead for a few reasons. One the tour is gonna be pretty much the same and I have seen tons of it already then rather wait till next year and see whats possible then. with new album tour stage set and more. Second I have so many huge cool offers it is just all together sick not to take some of them. They are never ever to be seen again if I say no thanks now or if I can not meet the sellers on their wants . So in the end I have kind of already predicted what will hapen havent I??
Shit - feels right yet it feels so ... ahh never mind I should not complain.

There are so many things that are new here now, that is not added to the site here. For the reason that we are trying to work solidly on the new site to come on. Awards, posters, tickets, tickers, books, shirts, CDs, Records, Promo items, and much much more (again). I still say, it can not be ready for July 1st then fuck it. I will not do it. Setting a deadline to see if we can work from a required and needed situation. And I have set my mind on a huge ringing "YES WE CAN". It is taking shape and it just has to be good. We need that for this site to even make it worth changing. But it is and it will be good. Wait and see. In short it will be up if the one single missing piece of man in the working line of this one would get his fingers out his ass and get things done.

Now we have a thing here and a chance to make the mcrueloyalty.dk bigger, better and much more fresh. And I intend to do just that. Nothing to be spared or done half way. This will be the coolest Motley site online when it comes out and once we have all on there. There will be a few things we will not have on here for the opening premiere but It will come. No worries. It just takes a lot of time to do...so it will be a new site in constant growth.

Right now the link in the gang that seems to be the one with the least belief or what ever it is is Corinna, She as I see it is not fully believing in the thing or does not want it as bad as some of us. But I just have to change that wont I? She has got to find the will and belief and get involved. Involved much more than she is or its hard for me to see how she can possibly online be a gang member. The other neutral and silent doings are not usefull in anyway. It is time for Tommy to be the not so nice and polite guy with this. Need to be the master swinging th wipe.

It is going to be just a good couple of day the next few ones here, where I can just sit back and let all the last few days happenings sink in. And try to find decitions on the many things that needs a final word and decition from me. With that I leave you we will meet again - talk soon, Tx

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Sunday June 12th, 200SIXX @ 12:55 AM
So DAMN jealous
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Well today he is off to see the Reaper, as I sit here watery eyed!! Just to make myself feel better I went & bought another Jack Daniel's bottle for my collection (another $200 I don't have!!) FUCK ME. Yes I know you all may not be sure what I am talking about but I also am not at liberty to say either. Let’s just say I am having an EXTREMELY hard time dealing with this one & not being there with him. But I made my bed & now I have to lie in it. So in short ENJOY T Boy cause this is a one chance thing. I'm so jealous; I really can't stand being me right now.

So many of you say I don't get the message in your posting. Well there really isn't a message I'm just letting you all know where I'm at. I have a lot of things to work through with myself. I can't always have things my way. I have to learn how to be patient. One honest thing I have to say is that I don't think I can just be T's partner on this thing. It's too hard. I have to be with him. So in short right now I guess I might be saying "Can you do this with me T"? Can you try to maybe not be so nice about things & kick my ass & tell me this is how it is going to be or it is not going to be? I guess I have a lot of balls asking this but like I said I really don't think I can do it any other way than being with you. I didn't tell him I didn't want to be with him because I don't like him. Yes, we are very different but I have to learn how to just think positively about it. Negative ness is in my genes. My dad is a very negative person. So having been around it my whole life what do I do? Just work on it I guess.

For the past week I have thought about how awesome we could have things. Like when I finally move back to CA. I will be buying a house of some sort hopefully. I just think of all the awesome things we could do together with it. I want someone there I know that loves me & I can trust. T I know you are the right one for that.

You ask what I miss. Well I miss you being here & just getting a simple hug & a kiss. I miss thinking that I have someone to share everything with just simple everyday things (not that I have too much going on in life other than work). I don't feel to say too much more on here.

I know that ppl are going to be all over your ass about this & all over my ass too. But I am trying to pull my head out of my ass & realize what I have here in T. Maybe it's too late & I have already burned my bridge & if so then well I just don't know. Maybe you won't see me around here anymore, I just don't know. I don't expect anyone to have anything good to say about this right now. So do we dare to deal with the Devil again? I guess it's up to T & like he always tells everybody how bad Do you want it?

On a Motley note, I have been talking to T as I sit here & post & he tells me tickets go on sale for a Crue/Aerosmith show in NJ here very soon. Am I going to go? Well shit do pigs fly!!! Of course I will do everything in my power to make it happen. Don't know if I can but I will try. Speaking of concerts I bought tickets to see Nickleback in Sept. too here in my town of Greenville. I think they're pretty good. Hoobastank & Chevelle will be with them. Also what the hell ppl why aren't any of you buying our DVD of the CRUE HISTORY? It is going to be awesome. The trip itself was awesome!! There is so much shit in it that you will never see anywhere else. I & T just don't understand why ppl are not interested in it. Shit I would be!! Get off your asses & buy this DVD!!!

This posting is short but I hope I got something accomplished & if not well maybe I only did with myself then. Well I hope this posting will give my own self a wakeup call & kick in the ass. I hope T can understand me & if not well then we maybe talk later. So off I go to bed so I can rest this little fucked up universe.

The oh SOOOOOOO jealous one. Tell the nameless I said hi T & enjoy your days. I truly am not taking this well. I'm having a hard time pushing the send button on this one because maybe I have pushed too far & this time I'm going to get shoved back.

THE DOWN & OUT ONE- LATER OUT THERE

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11th of June 200SIXX, Going, Going Gone But Still Working
00:03AM CET
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It has just passed midnight this Saturday evening. I should get a life and go out and have fun get social and all. But am I?? Fuck no. I am planning and scedualling my next few Motley moves. Unlike ordinary
people I have not gotten anything that even comes close to a social life. I am under a rock fucking 20 hours a day. Trying to figure out the best and most attractive ways to get to the planets of my dreams and goals set in mind. A mind that never ever rests from the rock n roll universe. It is just not possible for this dog. Wuff!!!! Loyal to what I have been doing since1983. Wonder what can fucking change that. A woman that would fucking stand by my side for the right reasons then yes maybe.....dont fully trust one with my life. They are like the seasons of each year. Never stay with what they presented to you at first. Pardon me - not that my own sex s any different. I guess only I am.

Right now I am on my way packing my backpack going away for close to three days. Sorry I should not say this cause I can not really say anything more except it is going to be nice all together. It is simply a cool thing. But I will not let my head and emotions for this passionate thing of mine rock my boat. Just gonna be all cool about it. End of story. But nothing will be done made or even looked at in here till Wednesday again. I have too much to think about to do and in the end of it all... I am just not here.

I have a thing that is litle by litle taking shape after all.... ofcause talking about the new refreshing site of the MCRUELOYALTY.DK
So MAYBE the threat about closing this mother is not gonna happen?!! It is so fully up to the people around me. The people that work close with me on this. There has been a good lot done the last few days after my fully outburts and naked truth about my inner feelings about this that was not going good at all...cause it wasn`t. It began to suck ass. It began to just be more of a pain that a pleasure. And that is when i am fairly good at just saying enough is enough!!!

But my soldiers have been givin a warning if you will and this should have so far done them better - they have shapen up a bit!!
And I do say this, it looks awesome the new site. So far cause there is still a hell of a lot to do. And I would need to have this VISUALLY in front of me as a finished project before I will say "okay folks we roll on".
It has to be fully functional but the new ideas and looks kills the one thats here now easerly!!!

There are things in the scanner and the camera that will not get on here but on the new one only since that is now the one we try to put most energy into.
People still ask me about "what is really going on?" This IS what is really going on. I am working my ass of on things Crue related and deals and plans and possilities. Putting so fucking many hours and all into this simply for two reasons. Trying to overcome and forget my pain caused by you know what and second I need to have things sorted and all the talks of deals and tradings and more ....all that needs to have its final set answers to what will happen too. I am giving myself a fucking bad health with all this. Went to the doctor yesterday and she said "T boy you need to change your every day doings, get medicin that will make you rest and relax or you would need to try to focus on something that can perhaps kill some of the pain and mess you bring your own body through. And if non of these things can or will help you, you should seek professional help". Ohh come on, eat my shorts. We may not be here for long but I am here for fun and adventure. If it lasts 50 years fine if for 20 fine too. As long as it happens.

But if you are feeling like you so not wanna wait till the new site is coming up and on here..... you can have a couple of teasers to look in on. They are as close to the final versions as they are gonna get. So enjoy till the actual one is up and spinning. I am sure you will love it. Its juts too hot to handle ...... hmmmm damn!!! Let me know in the kickstart section what your emidiate reactions are to these examples. Really hope you will like it as a whole once you see it. July 1st has got to be the magic date. It is what we aim for here. It is giving me a headacke but we hope for a succesfull scoor!!! Till then ....spin the rock n roll the best way you know how*****

"Thoughts reduced to paper are generally nothing more than the footprints of a man walking in the sand.
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9th of June 200SIXX, Face To Face And A Pull Off - After All
9:33AM CET
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So the 4 stringed man is to set eye to eye contact really soon and on top of that - news is happening. No further sayings on here.
Nikki is doing way, way better again after all that has been up and around. Thank god. No one wants to be heartbroken and suffer from it for too long. It simply is a sick and tearing feeling to be in for too long. Trust me I know this. But thngs are ones again up and on a roll. The filming of "the dirt" is taking shape and the things they have talked about are still in gear. Tommy` clothing line is soon ready. Nikki´s book of the adiction is finished and there are things on the table for the rumoured fall tour with Aerosmith. It will happen.

Starting the 23rd of September in Camden, New Jersey with a starting ticket sale on the 24th of June at 10.00 AM. AEROSMITH are currently recording their new album with producer Steve Lillywhite and CRÛE are to have commenced the songwriting/demoing process for their new studio album with producer Bob Rock, who previously worked with CRÜE on their "Dr. Feelgood" and self-titled albums, as well as the three new tracks that appeared on CRÜE's two-CD "greatest hits" collection, "Red, White & Crüe"

All good news I guess, part from the wallet of mine it is not happy bout it. But what can one do? Not much. I just wanna see a show or two but MUST have the new years show under my belt. That is a must for me no matter the cost. And then I have to see again with the merchadise for this one. GOTTA have it somehow. Boy oh boy the CRÛE life these years is not an easy things to keep up with. Well now you know so get prepared.
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8th of June 200SIXX, Stage Probs, Last KISS And Messy Bitchings
8:43AM CET
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Suck my dick has these last few days been aweful. If i do not get ill over these fucked up issues raining down on me i dont know what can possibly break me. I am torn still but i find some unknown strength and I face my emotional sitbacks unlike others that choose to just ignore and pretend. in short be fucking faking. And not dealing with things the way these things should be dealt with for a personal growing too. People just do not wanna face the hard times. Fake fake fake fake......... Fuck this is so low. Anyways having said that and trying to over come my shitty pain and ripped soul i can also say I have had a fucking blast with the 101WRIF on the internet. This sick Detroit rock radio is giving me the strength to carry on. 2005 pure rock in all ways and some staff cutties that rocks me sitting here in Denmark. 2 times now have they fullfilled my request with Motkey tunes and spoken out the web address on air. How fucking cool is this???? I have gotten no further your honour.

A couple of loyal fans viewers of the site and more have been giving me extreme credit this last 12 hours. Hell yes. I am forever grateful You fucking know who you are people. So thanks a lot. more than I can ever say. There is something brueing in the subways of my Motley universe. There may just be a cool coming lot to be added to this collection with in the near future guess the next 3 to 4 days could confirm that litle "maybe". I am nervous and excited. Tell you a litle later what it is or could end up being.

Now people have bombed me with questions to the posting of Corinna the other day. I see some have als oposted things online. I would not like anyone favorising anyone on here. I still choose to look at the GANG OF LOYALTY as one big motley family. And I know most on the list choose to share that idea with me. That we are one and all in on this together. But like brothers and sisters we fight and yell as all healthy families does. Now for her posting I have not much to say it is a personal matter and I have just chosen to say "I will let Corinna sit and make her own choices of what should happen and all. I am not in on that. I am not going to say shitty things about her either. my heart beats for her still. So in short I know this was real for me since that is the case and thats all I will share with you on here. call it a personal matter that has no longer anything to do with Motley.

The blitz of a war thing between me and the webmaster, well again as above its a personal matter but I stand my ground. i refuse to settle for less than perfection on the new site should I still throw it online. had this only been a "waysting time" thing then yes fine. But it is not. it is my god damn life we talk about here. I think I have said this and meant it for decades now. What it is some may not fully understand is not for me to even think about. I have talked clearly and spoken honestly and openly so there sould be no doubts to anything anywhere.

I will agree there have been messy bitchings going on but things are not taking shape in the sence needed so sometimes you gotta put on the crown and pretend to be the bitchy and play king. Talk to your soldiers and say "enuff z enuff". period end of all brawls...........

I have sold almost 98% of all my KISS old belongings. I have very few things left that were the cool of the cool in the collection that was considered one of Europes biggest in the day. Now I have a talk going with people that hold interets on my last three KISS owned and used guitars from 87 / 88 96 / 97. I must say it is like selling your children but can i trade or sell these off to get Motley itmes for them then ... that is what will happen. And that as said is something I may have going right now. I have as said a guy that holds several cool crue past tour items. Not the ultra cool things form way back in the day but more like new tattoo and maybe a lill further back in time. How can I possibly explain this without psycking myself up and without getting too dissapointed. Well.....

There are tons of used and unused drumheads and a mic stand. Platforms, back drops and more...I admit it for a guy like me I have to say it is without a doubt some cool shit that could get added to the collection I already have here. How ever nothing is certain and nothing is fully safe on my part just yet. How ever I hope seriously to get some deal sorted wíth this dude ....
I would be the proudest owner you can possibly think of with these things - now tell me I am wrong. Motley will be the death of me. I am aware of the situations I am heading towards. But without any love of my life and any partnership in that way I just have nothing to pay attention to other than this here.....
MY MOTLEY WORLD!!!!!
So that is what i am going to do. Why dont I just throw on some pictures of some of the stuff we talk about here.....

I dont know why I should ask you to but kindly cross your fingers for me on this one. Hope to hell things will work out. Fucking freaky awesome. This would be an honour and a nice good value to add to the total of the collection. How ever let it be said the guitars I am parting with to do this are fucking killer axes too. So hey people it is not coming to me easy if this should happen. I will never ever see these guitars again so it kind of takes a good poart of me to say YES too. But right now I am up for it and I would not cry too much if it happend fast!! I will kepp you all posted.

Fuck yeah!!!
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6th of the 6th 200SIXX, The Devils Day Or The Sixxter`s Sixxth Senced Sickness
6:26PM CET
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Hey tommy,

You're officially registered as a WRIF CyberCrew member which means you're that much closer to scoring tickets to the hottest shows in town, plus your chance to get dibs on RIFF contests, events, and special offers!

You might as well go back to bed now as your day isn't going to get any better than this. With the Crue just played to you - I see you are a serious Motley fan.

Thanks for being a part of the Crew. Keep your eyes open for deep, meaningful e-mails and free swag. Don´t forget . keep shoutìn "at the devil"!!!!
On today 666.

Doug Podell

Yes it is. The Sixxth sence - the Sixxth day in the Sixxth month of the 2000 and Sixx year.......How Sixx can a day be?
You got the answer right there .....Very Sixxéd indeed.
To all the believers and I guess the nn believers. Happy 666. It is an extremely popular and totally over the top blown up day!! Wonder and kind of still waiting for shit to happen. Where are the develish doings? where are the terrorism? The unholy actions? The . big bang. Ohh it is not happening is it?

Anyway I guess there are a couple of shouters out there that barks at the devil in their own old memorial black 1983 way!!!
The ways of how ot be spreading the SIXX SIXX SIXX today would be to make requests. I did so on world wide web radio 101WRIF Detroit rock city style. And guess what ... 3 cool songs and a Nikki salute got spread over the air waves hitting the space travellings to my labtop big time. Kickstart my heart, home sweet home, nikki, shout. A salute to the LOYAL!!!! They even spread the name of this devilish fan site on the air!!! Doug cool of the cool.....rocking DJ. Come to think of it I can do al land the exact same he does.. .I fucking should be doing it too......... 101 ROCKS

PS: To all the people that have mailed me or posted in the guestbook. Yes I mean it. I will pull the plug July 1st if we can not have it eady. Cause then we simply arent good enough for what we are doing. As simple as that. cant do a settlement for any reason what so ever. Then rather kill it all and stay low and collect in private. Hell yes....Nothing is really not more honest than that. And that is what I am all about. the naked truth. I do stinky shitty things and act like an ass..... i will admit it. I will give you guys the benefit of putting me to the floor. It is fine. But no one steps in and man handles my passion. you will die.
If You Want Blood you`ve got It........

Tommy

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June SIXX, 200SIXX 2:30 AM EST
Well this Might Be My Last Chance
Where the Fuck Do I Start?
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Well I guess first I want to wish my Dad a Happy Birthday, even though I know he doesn't read this.He is 54 today! Nothing of any importance to any of you but it is to me. So there got that out fo the way.

Where the fuck do I start in this dark screwed up brain of mine? I'm so lost I can't think straight. I think differently all the time. One day I think one way & the next I think to opposite. I don't know why I do this but I have always been this way. Maybe I have a disorder or somthing fucked up like that!! Shit there is a disorder for everthing these days including wiping you own ass wrong!

So anyway the trip to LA was great! I loved it & I would not choose anyone else to do it with other than Tommy. He thinks differently on that matter. I didn't want it to end. There were so many great places we got to go to. I loved the whole US Festival place. It was amazing! I want to see a show there someday. Woudn't it be fuckin' awesome to see Motley there this fall!! SHIT I wish. That would be simply amazing.

Coming back to reality sucks. T made that very clear on our last day. I was an asshole & being I don't know what the right word is to use, maybe selfish. T reminded me of something I said to him on the last day "I can't believe you ruined my last day". That was so wrong for me to say. T I am sooooooo sorry. I know my apology doesn't mean shit to you these days but I really am. I had no right at all to say that to you. I had just a few days before crushed your world. I was in my mind thinking about all the money I just spent on this trip, since the whole thing was on me, & was thinking you had no right to act that way due to all that I had done for us while being there. I guess it's just different for me. Not being able to see your everyday life & things you do make it hard for to imagine how things really changed any. I know they did but when something isn't visable to your own eyes it is hard to believe. That is why I say nothing has changed. I can't keep a straight thought here so sorry if all this comes out not making any sense at all.

I know that I shut everything out. I have always done that. It makes it easier for me & less bullshit for me to deal with on an every day basis. Right now I have so much on me. I'm going through a divorce, trying to get my house ready to be sold, my grandpa just died, looking for a new part time job, barley being able to pay my bills (which without overtime I can't), waking up every morning hating where I live, worried about my Dad's health (wondering when he will be back in the hospital), & the list is much longer but I won't go on. Then I have T on top of all this wanting me to do this & do that. Which I don't mind but he doesn't see my everyday living either. It's different when your just here or there on vacation. It is not the same at all.

This is why I keep telling T that I still want him to move here. I belive that if I could have an everyday understanding & visual things to see that things would be different between us. Also with the site it is very hard for me to see myself as a partner in something that is so far away. I am in no way saying that I don't want to be T's partner. Does anybody understnd what I mean or am I just fuckin' crazy & talking out of my ass? Just for the sake of saying but I know you won't do it, I really wish you would still go for the Greencard.

I have been informed that I will no longer be invited to any inside CRUE happenings. Not due to T's doing but others. This I got pretty upset about but like I said not T's doings. I guess I have to face the consequences of my decisions. My so unsure decisions always get the best of me & I wind up fucking myself in the end. These things mean just as much to me as the rest of our doings. I somehow feel not part of the whole thing with those things missing.

There are a lot of everyday things that I am scared of that have to do with being with T. Maybe scared isn't the right word maybe concerned about is better. If he moved here with me I kind of feel like he would be a big respnsibility to me. He doesn't drive or have a driver's liscense, he doesn't have a car, he doesn't know a fucking thing about a car (like how to open the trunk!)(which I have always had someone in my life that knows how to work on cars), he doesn't know how money & banking systems work here, the list goes on & these are big responsibilities for me to deal with. T says that if I want it bad enough I would not let these things bother me. Well I am a more kind of everday person than he is. I will not go without a home where he would. Can I put myself in that kind of situation with him? Well put it this way I won't. These are things that I think about when it comes to being together & living together. There may also be a few small personal issues but that's just me.

Right now things are not that great with us. There is a huge shut out to me from T it seems. But I don't expect anything less. He really has nothing to say to me & is quite cold & distant. Also very understandable. For the first time in days he said that he misses me right now as I sit here & type this. Well I miss you too.
Have you ever heard you want things you can't have & when you have them you don't want them? Why are things this way?

I would more than love to see what the new site has to offer. I am looking forward to it. But for some reason I'm thinking the Webmaster isn't going to cut it for T.
She has her own personal life too & it is hard to keep both ends of the situation happy when one requires more time from the other. This is a common fact. Also I would like to thank each & every one of you that keeps coming back for more (yeah that's you too *CRUESTER*) & for bringing new ppl in.

T mentioned going back to Hollywood for the July cruefest. I would so love to do this but as of right now money wise NO FUCKIN' WAY. But we'll see what happens.
If we do go back we I will not leave this time without going into the Rainbow Bar & Grill. Also we must make an appointment to go inside Tommy's childhood home.
Those are 2 things that I really want to do.

Well I'm really not finished here but it is 4:39 AM & I have to get some sleep so do I save this & continue later. No, fuck it & send it on. The one you love to hate!!
SEE YA

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5th of June 200SIXX, A dangerous Move, A risky But Open And Honest Loud Thinking
7:28AM CET
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It is Monday morning here. A holiday for the danes. i have had a weekend with extremely shitty issues. And extremely tough and harsh words. In short it has been a dissapointing weekend in the camp of the webstaff. Let me be the first one ot say it out loud. This site is in danger with the way the working process and the facts
have spoken the last 4 days. Between me and three other people that has something to do with this site there have been a line of unpleasing actions and non actions that gives me the feeling that I really do not wanna continue this if things for some reasons can not be bettering. I refuse to go on with a daily worry about who wants to do their thing have time for their thing or can do their thing. It is really a matter of how bad and honest does your wishes being involved in this baby come from your heart without exceptions?

Well for some, this weekend I have learned that if I, as the head of this whole idea of the site, can not get more out of my team AND / OR see a better flow or more will especially, then this is not gonnabe any better.
And I say this cause the site is on the edge of becoming better and bigger. And nothing can be bigger now which would mean more time into it. And that surely can not happen if people already now feels it is tight as hell or only a half hearted thing. So in short the biggest Motley Crue fansite that in my head, has some of the coolest and ultimate ideas right now will be shot down July 1st if things does not get bettered. And my crew will or can not give me better. No hard feelings just a saying or a comment to the fact of what is right now not happening but very much needed. if there is no bettering and there is no new site up July 1st then - you have been told. Mcrueloyalty.dk will stop. That is so far from what I want. I have huge and many goals with this, but my guess is that people around me just have the simple thing called a difference in priorities compared to my own.

Nothing I can or will fight against. Cause this should be a natural heart felt and honest wnated thing to do for those involved.
but you have another good 3 weeks to wait and see what the future holds for this monster. And if at all there is a future. In all honesty this is a posting
I wish I had never had to do or even get to think about. But that is how I am. jus tlay it all out there. let the people the loyal visitors of the site and all others get the
inside actions handed to them and not do like the ordinary business terms. Only telling the masses as the shit actually clses. NO!!!!! This is so out of the ordinary yes it is.
It is just as muchother fans website as it is my personal baby and pride. Now it is a risky posting to do - but you know what i am a risky guy.

What else can i say about this? Well a whole bunch but this here said basically tells the point. So pray for the changes and the bettering in this or the future looks
dark and cloudy for the worlds coolest fan site on Motley Crue. I simply do not wanna have half functional people in over my life long heart felt passion thing.
It is as simple as that. Then I would rather just be the dude in Denmark that collects in silence like every one else.

Right now in my private collecting life I am trying to see if the world will meet me on another hoped for dream to come true.
Going to th Cruefest in Hollywood July 15th. Going there as a fan and a radio dude. Trying to get the bands and the organizers and guests down on tape and makesomething cool about it. I can not really say as of this point if that will actually happen. I have an extremely low budget never been this crappy before in my life.
How ever I am hopefull still even though it is only like what .6 weeks ahead or something. Well I hope I will make it after all. Fuck I am not a happy dude these days.
Some guys have all the luck some guys have all the fun.. remember that pop tune from the 80s? Well that is not my daily tune on the stereo these days.

More awards in the mail too. There should be two. No idea what they are which titles and all that. But its a continueation of the deal I have - the trading of my KISS
ones. So it is all in all nice to get these to the address any time soon. Ofcause it is. Then we closes in on the final trade there too. Not many KISS ones left in stock here.
Next is then the original contracts of the Coffamnn days. And more. A few more things that I hope to get cleared and hope to see going my way!! I really need to
have the goals on a constant move or I die. I grow grey and fall apart. I am not extremely happy without these things going on in my life. So you will always see
me hunt and set goals for myself with all and anything on this matter anytime. till i some time one day may decide to just say "this is it its now time for me to
call it quits!"

Sory bout the breaking news or thoughts of the day, but I really need to get the shit with the people around me organized or just pull the plug!
later my friends.......there should be some updated and added things through out the day on the site too.....so come back to see us!!!
Solid loyalty, yours Tommy

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1st of June 200SIXX, Missing One, Updating And New Collecible Addings7:03AM CET
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I have for the second time been up all night here. I feel alright right now when it comes to sleeping. But it will hit me hard anytime through out the day I am sure.
How can it now with the state of mind that I am in. Happy birthday to a highly loved girl of Sweden today. Lotta Josefson. God damn I miss that chick.
"This is my life", well not really no more - but I have my most fond memoriess of that time and that works too. Long and to you all a rediculous story so I will not bother anyone. Hey hope you have a great day today girl. Hope your guy treats you nicely. The site is gonna have updates the next 2 days. New addings again that was
brought home from the USA last week. papers, picks, cds, scarfs, shirts, caps, tickets, posters etc etc. all gonna be up there in the next few days.
I have been seeing a few smaller items that did not really fit my cash holdings right now but what the hell. It is bought and I am now awaiting them too.
So more stuff coming later.

There are some new things that I will work on to get to. But I need to get my Kiss Paul Stanley guitar sold and my Bruce Kulick guitar too. Had that one sold
actually but the guy backed out becuase he is going through a divorce. I can only say it again DON’T GET MARRIED. Stupid move. Anyway I need to get that done.
Try to find some buyers for that thing. I need to get the cash in for them to do what I love to get done that right now is nothing but an idea a hope and a dream
in my head. So you know anybody mail me. lee@tdcspace.dk thanks a lot.

Now the new site is still worked on and I need to tell you all we have had major trouble with lost computer stuff so we are still looking in on that one. It will be up n running July 1st. HAS to..... I refuse to throw anything on here unless it really has the perfectness and no faults what so ever on there. That has got to go. The news of interest could be that a new chance to get the new years special Crue event shirt is now on Ebay again. GET IT. Also there is a pretty cool limited time offer if you
like DVD entertainment. Just listed yesterday and for a short time lisitings too there is a DVD set never before seen or heard of.

Motley Crue, Sixx, Lee, Mars, Neil - NEVER BEFORE AVAILABLE - LIMITED TIME ONLY!!!

You know what it's like. To sit and look through your books and magazines of your favorite band. Still nowhere to be found is the DVD of live pictures of the places that hold Motley history at its best. Well you have to look no more. We took a vacation and we did it all. Now a lot of the places the members lived, worked, and toured or had other happenings laid down is now available. It is a dream to get these pictures for the many. See the roads they traveled down and still travel down today. It is over the top what a great line of facilities this one holds. Plus the areas and surrounding nature of the boys' own backyard. Covers places in
Los Angeles, Hollywood, Santa Monica, Malibu, The Hills, Pasadena, Covina, Glendale, Encino and much much more. Plus the place the longest away from L.A. the exact spot and place today of the now legendary 1983 Park that held the US 83 Festival in San Bernadino. We are going try to throw more on the DVD set to everyone that orders this one. SET means this will be several DVD's as this will not at all be able to be put on 1 or even 5 DVD's. We are going to try to see if time allows it for us to go back out there to Cal. and Hollywood area in July to shoot more. So with that being said we will not be doing any shipping out till late July.
But the pre order for this "one of" will come a link to a DVD cover you can down load and print out for your disc as well. That is so far the plan anyway.
No fan seems to have done this trip until now. It is a trip that takes a lot of LONG and FULL days to do. It has a cost in car rental, gas, hotels, and more so with this it is a bargain. You save a lot getting this and save yourself a lot of worries about finding these places. You now have the first and maybe only time ever to get this on your DVD player to entertain you. If you are a loyal and TRUE Cruehead do you dare say no?? The over the top cool thing is a first time ever filmed talk that lasts
a good hour with Mr. Steve Dvorak who was Tommy Lee's first ever music teacher as Tommy was but a teenager. Hear how he talks about his memories from back in the days with his student Mr. Tommy Bass. And how he reacted when Tommy came back to see him while writing his book "Tommyland". This and so much more is what you will get that you will not find anywhere else. 50 SETS ONLY!!! Do you dare pass on this offer? Let me say again, this WILL NOT ship out to the winners
before end July..... We do ship worldwide, but DO NOT pay before you receive a confirmation from us to your win.

Pretty cool huh? I would buy it. Some pretty cool things you never really see anywhere. And certain things you are not to know about. Check it all out. Get yours. It is freaky cool. What else? Not much really I have been trying to figure shit out and I feel trapped in my pain. Trapped and banned from on going triumph in changes and new doings. I guess the truth is I simply need time. Time to heal. And I am going to allow myself that time what ever it is and how ever longit may be. other wise my body and mind will tell me not to fucking co-operate. And that I have tried a little too many times. I know that bitch ones it hits me.
So thanks but no thanks not again. I will observe and give time come out on the other side stronger than expected thank you very much. Time for breakfast here. 7:25 AM Good morning to the Europeans. And a long good night to the Americans.
Love to you all...always, T mutha Fxxxxx Lee

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30th of May 200SIXX, Back Home, Painful, Mind Filled With Darkness
12:55PM CET
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So I have been off of the diary thing for a good few days. Back home on Danish ground. At least that seems to make one happy and it is not me.
You do your guessings if you like.
It is a painful thing I am going through and it is with great sadness I have things fallen down on me like I cant even begin to tell you all. This is a returned Tommy to Denmark unhappy not really knowing what is next. Everything that has been done and worked on and passedon in my life here is in need of change again.
I can not really say what this will do to my Crue stuff. Most likely a seriously pause or something on the buying and doing side of things in that part of my life.
I think I have a long and good rest from it simply because it is now forced upon me. The new things and changes needed are gonan cost me and are taking my
focus sadly more than i care for to admit.

Now the saturday that became my travel day home was fairly alright. i felt shitty but no more change of plans delays or shit like that. The 5 hours in Seattle Tacoma
airport were long as hell. I tried to bury my mind in a book. Tried to kill the pain the hunger the everything. As arrived in Copenhagen I found out a plane to Aarhus
which was my danish final destination had a flight to here some what erlier than the one I was booked for. I asked if there was any chance at all for me to change
that if there had seats anyway? i got that. thank god. So a couple of hours were won there. I arrived at Aarhus airport and a neighbour from above my own
apartment was there to pick me up and take me home. Probably the best person to this that day. I was not in a cherry mood at all. Not pissed but sad and dissapointed.

Now I tried hard to let the evening go. Stay awake to get back on danish time 9 hours behind california time. It was tough still is a bit. But I have done it so far.
I think to be honest I really have kind of a feeling that the magic is gone and will take a lot out of Corinna to rebuild if she at all is interested. As said for her nothing
has changed. Kind of a cold and scarry statement ito my ears but what the heck. We are surely not alike. Thats is one givin guarentee. The heart is hugely torn and I
guess things will really take its time. My price is high she may think her`s arent. I cant tell. I really feel like the girl I though I knew I dont know half as well as I thought.
I had fully trust and belief in her. She was in my heart a soulmate for life had she wanted it. That sank fast to the bottom of the sea. Still ove her as my Crue partner.
No one I have ever met has ever matched her on that.

But what can be useful in that? When the same person gives you your own heart split in two on a silver platter - cold and untuched in the second of delievery of
such a messege. That is so not understood n my world. We have now close to 4 days after the split in LAX talked on messenger a couple of times.
And just as said in the diaries here nothing but Motley has been brought up. No, my guess if someone should ask me what will happen tommy what you
think will happen between you two?

My answer would right this second this: Corinna is not dealing with is not touched by this and wouold maybe never have been even if I said the "words we are
through". She will right now some how in some way inside herself HAVE to find an understanding that I am extremely torn and dissapointed and EVERYTHING
in my life was focused and piointed to one thing and one thing only. Maybe she never fully understood how much I have done to make this USA thing for us
happening. I hold things VERY FEW THINGS CLOSE TO MY HEART and this was a big one of them. And she torn it away under me and acts like it was nothing.
So if she can not find it some how inside of her to understand this and be a litle more careing she will if I know her right go bananas in her head and soon say
something like "this is stupid. I dont get you. i dont need this. I am out." Something like that is what I think will happen. But that is now in this second that I fel like this.
I should and will not after this comment and posting today make any more talk about emotions and feelings between she and I ever again.

Now it is tuesday, I have had a ton of bad karma today. tried everything to keep my minds off of this and done other things. I have not succeeded. i am not at all well.
All I stand for and all my goals have been thrown to the deeper end of the pool. Too deep to save and too deep for me to be able to fix any of it. I should let it go.
I know this and I will but it takes a lot of time and I am not the one withthe power to get it sorted over night. This will be a long a d hurting process. And my ultimate dreams have been vanished.

Motley crue - the new site that was created - the ground and main basics have been lost on the computer too hile i was away. So its fom the scratch again and it is
a new starting over. Anyway I will keep you guys posted on what is happening with me and the well... everything.
Love to you all. You kow who you all are.
Tommy

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26th of may 200SIXX, Sleepless In Seattle, God damn Torture Of A home going - Again

11:11PM Seattle Time
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The clock was set to 07:20 or so Am Friday morning. I knew we would have a long time to get to the airport. Morning traffic on a weekday and further more we
had to go by the car rental company that would then take us to the terminals we were getting off at. Me United and she Delta. Well that in it self was really no
problem. they were side by side and we had a long time ahead of us if we were lucky. But guess what we were not lucky. We got out of the room checked out
and drove off. Half way I said "I will miss my plane". it was a 11:15AM one to Seattle and she had hers to Atlanta at 2:30 PM. Like thought so happend. GREAT.
Fucking hell - it was just my luck.....

Nothing here would be going cool today. I felt it all coming down on me like a bad habbit. How the hell could this even be? I had no ideas ofr that one.
How ever this is my luck. One thing happens that hurts me. In my entire life I can not think of a single thing that actually has ever hit me alone.
When I go down I always seem to go down HARD!!! Fuck me. This is just my day. My god. I hate this shit. You guys have no idea what this is like. This is not cool.
This is not just a "ohh well too bad. lets move on" kind of situation. It always has been stinky when I get pushed through the living hell of things.

Well we did not really talk on the way to the car rental either. That was no ones choice but if it was anybodys "fault" then it was mine. i just did not feel like it what
so ever. I was not happy one bit about anything.
We arrived emptied the car and time was so bad now I was 99% sure that there would be no checking in for me for the 11:15 flight out of L.A. -Wonder what would
be next for the day. cause this was looking bad in every way there was.

10:35 Arriveing at LAX. Airport of Los Angeles. trying to check in, but just as thought i could not do so. Too late they said Check in for this was over. I could be
rebokked for the next flight to Seattle. It would leave at 4PM. See the thing was that I should have waited in Seattle for 5 and a half hours anyway. So with this new rebooked flight at 4PM I should still be able to catch the 6.55PM flight out of seattle to Copenhagen and that would bring me directly to Denmark. So what we did
was when i had checked in my bags two of them one of clothing and more and the other again filled up with Crue items to get added on here. We went outside
took a walk from terminal 7 to number 5 for delta departures. We checked in her two bags and went in through security. Upstairs and got ourselves something to eat.
It was not cool. A bad smelly wibe. I tried to be friendly tried to stay cool. But sure enough we both knew it was all in the air. I borrowed her labtop cause I wanted
to check something in my email and more. I did so and soon there after we went to her gate 58B I think it was and I said goodbye. cause of the way I feel for her
you have no possible way of knowing how hard that walking away was for me. It killed me. No tears but a feeling like someone was twisting my guts around.
I never looked back it would just not do me any good. So why burn one self even more?

I went back to my own terminal 7 and went through security check again. Then upstairs to sit tight for my flight at 4PM.
And to kill the long borring posting here the thing is when there was a good 80 minutes left, it said Seattle flight delayed. 90 minutes. Fuck me... the only flight of 33
on the departure board was mine that was delayed now. Which now even before leaving - meant that we would be too late in Seattle to make me catch my
Copenhagen flight out too. I would be stranded in Seattle. Perhaps even sleepless in Seattle. Fuck me.

I have no words for my feelings about the day and all the delays and los and more. I just felt like I was giving up. Nothing I but so much energy and time into comes
with an outfall to my advantage at all. Ever. It is really not a life with too much luck I tell you that. I have a few things that means the world too me and they are by
far ever easy to deal with. Said it before many times. now its sid again. I only get so massively hurt cause I have my FULL heart in the few things that I choose to take
in to my life. so when they do go wrong they hurt enormously. not nice to go through.

The plane got to L.A. from San Francisco finally and I got boarded. Felt lousy. Again did not wanna leave here but then again this was yet another city to get added to places with painful memories.
in Seattle we were so late i had no chance in hell to reach my plane. And further more no one knew where to locate my two suitcases. What the fuck was up with that?
I asked by baggage claim they said they had them scaned in as being on the plane from Los Angeles. but they also said they could not find its location.
I said I have a new flight some time out of seattle but which one I do not know so even though my bags were listed to be shipped with the plane to Copenhagen
and to my final destination it just could not be. As that plane had taken off already or I would have been on it plus I needed the suitcases so I knew they were with
me and so I knew I had my toothbrush and all. But no sure... that never happend. Lost AGAIN... what them americans do to my baggage sometimes like 5 out of 7
times now is so unbelieveable. It is not to anyones satisfaction what so ever.

I was told that SAS and its staff had closed and left for the night. that was the airline company that would take me out of the US. There was only ONE flight to
Copenhagen from Seattle each day at that was at Seattle time 6.55PM every day. So for all thats going now you know this. No other way for a direct flight.
Then I tried to get booked for another rute like through Washington D.C. or London UK or New York and on to Scandinavia. All sold out ....... bottom line I was
stranded at 10PM in Seattle and had no place to go. the United Airlines said it was SAS to be talked to about it. i said it was not. it was not SAS that was delayed
it was not SAS that flew me here causing me this situation it was United. After a brawl for more than an hour, I booked myself into a place called Quality Inn at
2900 South 192nd, Seattle tacoma, Washington.. Another expence. Another nightmare. Fuck i had nothing to do with and nothing to say that could be myself of
any help what so ever.

You tell me how you would have felt in this situation. They did (United) help me to be booked though on the Copenhagen flight tomorrow from here.
So I had a forced sleep over in Seattle on my hands.
The Hotel was a good 15 minutes away from the airport so a shuttle took me. And I checked in at room 111. had to check out again at no later than 11AM in the
morning. Greta that would leave me with a ton of time again in the airport. I really did not like this. My whole life and happiness was long gone. I had no pleasant
balance in my body as off this point.

Turned on the TV and watched VH1 for a good 30 minutes before shoting off for a night sleep.
Called Corinna shortly and informed her of the situation in case ...well I just did. Man I hated the whole god damn thing but I had now a roof over my head for the
night. Seattle was a cold 50 degree fahrenheit city this evening with hard rain and now a lonely soul to add to it. My Motley life was not giving me any comfort
what so ever no more - well it does but right now it was not on my mind. Understandable or not.
Goodnight

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25th of May 200SIXX, Hair Dues, London And A Fucked Up Bad day - Missing Out!!!!!!!!
11:20PM Hollywood Time
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What´s today? Well we were missing things to get documented downtown and a couple of things in the neighbourhood. How ever the last time we were in at
London´s we talked about Corinna geting her hair done. She wanted a tattoo on her back at Sunset we went and there talked to a guy who said what she wanted
was not things she could get finished in one time. So it would have to be done over two or three times. So she dropped it.
She then met London of Brides Of destruction and a brief talk about hair. He would be happy to do her hair. So she made an apointment for today at 10:30 AM.
She spent her cash there instead of the idea for a tattoo.

Now as she got up and took a shower I had gotten myself all messed up in my head. I woke up feeling extremely bad. The shit from corinna and me now single
totally hit me this morning. I did not have any lust of passion to do a thing. I tried to look at papers while she was in the shower going through what we could do
for the afternoon. Cause the plan originally was: hair done afternoon with last things to see and do and the evening time would be with Mandy Lion as a farewell
thing at the Rainbow Bar & Grill with a nice dinner. Mandy had a gift for me to bring back home. It was an honour again....like so much else on this trip.
But No matter how hard I tried to organize things for the day I just could not get myself in the mood. I was torn. Sad. And everything was to be dealt with from
when I got back home in a few days again. Starting all over with a numberous of things I had chosen to drop as all my time money and focus was and had till
now been to come to the USA living here with my girl. Ohhh yeah - think again Tomster. you got sacked and you have not a saying about it. Sucker.

Seems like this is the story of my life. How the fuck do I always run into people that tries to be showing so and so much of what they like to do and all. And in the
end I am the one thats loosing. I am sick of it. Sick and tired of always being the one that has to fucking pull the strings. being the one that always has to be the
traveller being the mover being the one that .... ohh brother the list is endless. In short the shit just hit me today from the get go of the early hours. So no!!! I was
not good about anything. I told her to go by herself to London. i really did not wanna do anything. Not go there and being down. then rather stay at the motel
and do the last few of my still missed diaries at this point. She got pissy from the get go too. This was to be the badest shittiest day of the trip it was hanging thick
in the air. Nothing to do about it. Well ofcause I could act and pretend that nothing was wrong or anything. But I did not. But that is not what I do.

I hate the people that does just that. She then started to get on my ass about how big a jerk I was. And thanks for ruining the last day and more.
I told her that I was sad. but that was obviously not a god enough reason for ruining her day too. So I should rather talk and drop the attitude. What the fuck? Is she retarted? Has she no heart? What the hell is her problem? Ohh I take that back. I know fully well what it is. I gotta say that I think I will never fully without hesitation
ever trust her words again. Not that she is lying. that is not it. But her words seem to have changed minds about a ton of things. Or many times she is but a talker not
a doèr. you know what I mean? At least towards me. And I honestly dont think i deserve it. You can all say that I say all these things cause I am hurt. And no one can
help that they dont feel the same for you as you feel for that one person. I agree but you see that is so far from what this is all about. I guess it all does not really make
a point here cause I am not telling it all. Well so be it. The point for the part of her doings and my pain to be involved here in my online diary to begin with is that it
touches so many sides of my Motley universe. You can only guess how deep. That is why. And with that I say all as I normally do, it hurts me and i am an open guy
that holds nothing back.

I got out of my own shower and I told her I could go with her if I had a chance to do diary at London`s place. cause I did not wanna waste my time sitting there
starring at the walls while they did hair. Period.
So we packed our shit and went out. Out on Hollywood Blvd. and heading South. We arrived and I asked the dude if it was alright? It was so I started my thing.
Did not interfer with them at all. They got their space and their thing. I thought it would be a good 2 hours or maybe 2 and a half. But fcuk me we sat there till what...
3.30 or something I think. Okay gotta be said that in the end after they were done we sat and talked for an hour about looks upon life and things. Emotional issues
and more. We are so alike he and I. We think and care for the same things in the same deep way too. It was almost fucking frightening. I dont know. But we took a
bunch of pictures and of the dude and headed out. Corinna did not get the thing done with the hair that she wanted so I go what the hell are you nuts? why the
fuck did you not tell him...okay now thats fucking stupid. Not my business I guess. So fuck it. he did do a lot of shit to it though the hair that is. Worked with it for
a long time. Anyway a nice talk and we were out of there till next time London. Thanks again man for being the brother that you are man. So appreciated. I love you. Thanks!!

As we headed out of there again we talked briefly about what we should do. i was not up to anything so I told her.
Really I felt bad. She just would not understand what the break meant to me it seems. I ask myself how can she not? I have been open and all all the way through it.

So in short we took back to the hotel. It was just not good not happening not nothing.
I was not very good. I said I thought she should do all she wanted the last few hours here. Her phone also started to fuck up. and people that had called us we had
not heard cause the phone had not been ringing. And we checked no messeges the rest of the day. We just sat there for the last few hours of the day except a quick
walk about for a snack to eat. It ended up being a slice of pizza. No rainbow dinner no going to facilities. no going to the Tommy rockclub 2 blocks away no
nothing no more.

I was not interested in going home but at the same time this was no good anyway. So I got on to do my packing and went to bed.
Thats how the tragic ending was on a dream trip with a dream girl. Fuck if I could ever get this out of the system for good. I will to be honest be happy to get past
these diaries from this trip so I do not have to make more posted self reminders of this thing. Corinna I hope you one day will change and see what the hell it is you
have done to me. I am not saying it will but I am saying there is a good chance that this will leave its scares between us for the future if we have any....Good night!!!

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24th of may 200SIXX, Going Legenary In The Highland, Valleys And At The Classic Glen helen
1:16AM Hollywood Time
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Holy fuck, what a freakin day. What a finish. What an experience. I am Proud honoured and forever thankful for what we did today. For what we went around for.
What we finished off seeing on this ride of the Wednesday this week. It has been huge. It has been a huge fucking time. Almost like the band does not need to do that
"The Dirt" movie. It has been playing in my skull all day!! All week a matter a fact. I have had film pieces rolling through my brains for almost every place we have
been at. For almost every place we have seen and visited. I think we are a good way into the motley history books with all we have done here.
This trip has not been a vacation. All and every day has been one long fucker. yet we have been doing nothing we did not really wanna do. Just all in all amazing.
Rough hard testings and a long and tons of driving poor girl. Yet very cool now we can begin to look back on it all and say you know what? We did it Crue partners
for life!!! Or maybe not? Hell if I know anymore.

Well we did start off at round mid mornings today too.
The amphitheatre, Burbank north of Hollywood. The classic frames for 1989 MTV music video awards and the GNR and Crue fight. The Home of Bret Michaels of
Poison on the same street as Sixx first house in his crue time. Rumbo Recorders, the studio that helt recordings of the girls Girls album , the first GNR classic album,
KISS recordings, Vince first solo album John Corabi`s Union debut and many many more legendary records. Fuck that was awesome. Going in there next time.
Talked to a guy and out of respect I turned the damnvidoe camera off. that was fucking shitty. Why did I do that? Fuck I regret that today. That had been a cool
story telling right there outside the studio. Got a cool brochure from the dude though.

Up in Sherman Oaks, the apartment of Lita Ford. She was Nikki`s girlfriend back in the day of Too Fast and he moved in here with her directly from the infamous
Motley house in Hollywood and later on to the first house on the same street as Poison´s B. Michaels. From here off to DENNY`s in North hollywood, burbank wherenikki and tommy met the very first time ever. The NRG studios also North Hollywood we tried to find that one but could not. There was a lot of construction
work going on here so maybe it has been torn down. It was the studio where Vince recorded his 2nd Carved In Stone album. Then on to the liquor store where Sixx
worked and stole booze like hell and where Mars one day came in in 1978 to say hello and invited Sixx down the street to see Mick play in his pre-crue band that night. Then to the grave of Skylar.

It was all super huge this day held so many places Pasadena the classic vinyl bootleg album recordings of the Perkins Palace .We found that too now called Raymond Theatre The classic TooFast days .. Glendale Civic Auditorium. Nikki`s other home and soon out as far out as to the open ground of Glen Helen regional park which in
1983 was the frames for the now legendary US festival 1983. Fuck me this one kind of took the price. I was shaking just being there. It was breath taking for me.
I could not believe it. We did it. We had tons of confutions to the received driving directions. So the picture I had of the cities we went to on this trip was like tattooed
to my brians. I had it all placed in my skull. Hollywood, Downtown LA, Santa monica, Burbank, Glendale, passadena, Woodlad Hills, Malibu, Encino, Calabasas,
Sherman Oaks, SanBernadino andmore. All was like a map in my mind as I closed my eyes. i always knew like where we were at from Hollywood whish as said
was our main base for the trip.

I can not explain it. It just was like that. I felt good and comftable about it too. We simply could not get lost .And we never were lost not one single time.
IWe had a few wrong turns yes but that was fixed in seconds and there were various one way streets we did not know of so ... .But in the bigger picture my brains
maps were working. Awesome feeling.
I could picture the happenings in the Motley history as the years wen on and as things changed where they were from when they started in school and as a band the
four originals. So in a way you may say I might have had the ULTIMATE cool ride this week here while we did things. Corinna had every day a lost feeling about
where we were AND WHERE WE WENT TO. kind of sad. She too would have gotten the ultimate ride with the same thing in her head had she been able to.

But in short we had a blast. We had an aweosme time on this one. The US fest park is now a park for real. A stage is placed here for good. they hold many festivals
here and there is a full park kind of build up with all kinds of cool things to do in the heat. Hell they have even build in a fishing watr and you can go fishing if you
like to. Not very rock n roll I know that but still there is a great park build in to thi s valley these days and for anyone that uold like ot take a ride out there some day.
I can say it is fully worth it. More than that! I loved it. I got high with this experience. I could see the bands there. I could feel that one weekend energy and see the
Crue boys walking around there being nervous as fuck. I could see the hole thing like was it a movie. So freaky awesome. And the story from the guy that got the
original idea for this festival is just extremely interesting I think.
We had the story found printed out and speke that in on video as the recording button was pressed and the lense circled round the area.
God dan YES!!!! YES!!! YES!!!

Thank you corinna for finding the strength to do it all. you were the driver. While I was trying to keep an eye out on the roads and ways we should go.
We made it. Maybe thanks to the loud car cruising music of the germans in rammstein. Holy hell what a band to go down the highways with on your stereo. Right?? Fucking eyy!!
Okay think that about does it for the day... the pictures below speaks for themselves. It was an awesome thing to do all this and I think it is totally honest when I say
this to my travelling partner you have givin me a trip I will remember no matter when I will die. It was monsterous. It was dedication to the full!!!! Took its toll. Took its energy out of us. But hell we did a good job. For all thats interested in seeing these places on film, well... there is going to be a chance to get it on Ebay anytime soon. Putting up a limited thing of it so....
I will perhaps put up a litle somethign about it on here as it comes to it. Till then enjoy the site the pictures and .just the everything. It rocks I know....
So cool....

Rock solid to the sound of a Motley fest. You are so damn cool on your way to nowhere .... peace.
Tommy, xxx

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23rd of May 200SIXX, The Santa Monica, Malibu, Calabasas And More. Still Not Jumpy But rather Calm
10:18PM Hollywood time
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A morning start at 9:10 AM is what we had today! I say it was the right counted for time to start this day. Cause we would not be back in Hollywood till around 8
something PM.
We did not really get any breakfast to start the day with. More a weird day to - again - the fact of me having to swallow the news of her decition towards us being a couple!!! A lot of things in my personal life saw a chance coming AGAIN!!! She was more than a couple of times saying to me "why do you have to change so much
in your attitude?" Well it is really quiet simple, I was torn, I was kind a like going "what the fuck dont you understand? Maybe things have not changd for you but
for me EVERYTHING has changed" I seemed likely to have taken our relationship serious and she not. I just chose not to get in on a long fight about understanding
and a verbal fight. Fuck it. I had tons of issues from that one burn off to deal with in my personal life. She obviously could not get that through her head.
So I just did not do anything. It was hopeless to teach her about heartfelt feelings.

We took off and I must say the shittiest thing we could have done was exactly that.
She needed the breakfast and a cup of what ever lemonade, juice something to start off her day. without it she would not be in a good mood, not feeling right and
further more not safe in traffic. I dont care what she may think or say when she reads this. She fucking needs to start listening to her body. We came to Santa Monica
and it was all heavy traffic. We had serious traffic problems and we had a line of bad happenings that could have gone wrong. But the ultimate could have taken us home maybe home in a bodybag or two. we went by Klown records that has held all recordings of the now burried brides of Destruction. And the surroundings for
Vince Neil`s vocals to the then new songs on the red white & Crue album last year. We were not inside it. so it looks kind of nothing from the outside but we went
as with so many other things and places.

We then headed down towards malibu at the Pasific Coast Highway. Here she was getting really grumpy and began to feel ill. I could very well understand this.
We passed several places to get her something to eat but she never wanted anything here there or anywhere. Nice going. what the hell is she so stuburn for.
No good at all that much I can say. we had done a few more locations like the "Reel In" place on the highway. A place the band in 97 helt an interview with a large
photo shoot from. had I not known this I would have refused to believe it if one just told me. It looks like a dump!! Nothing. How ever it happend back then right here. From here wwe were to crossthe street but something happend. I dont know what she did but things were really getting out of focus when it came to traffic. We were perhaps an inch away from becoming meat loaf of the Highway. So close and a full blooded miracle that we did not get smashed into by a couple of other cars that blocked their breaks big time trying to avoid us. We somehow quickly got of the highway and stopped. I was lost for words and she was shaking like I HAVE NEVER
SEEN HER. It could maybe have ended right there life everything. And she wonder why I keep telling her to listen to her body and stop pushing herself. But this girl I
say it again she was one stuburn selfish toad that would not listen to anyone. I hate it and it makes e sick thinking there can even be a real friendship in between
all of this at times. She just does not care about much I have to say. it is all always ... well that's you.... well that's you and that's you......no more.

Or the "Moonshadows" a piss away from the "Reel Inn" place. the moonshadows place was the place that Vince was at and drow back to as he was called from the children hospital about Skylar getting worse. He arrived 10 minutes too late after she had passed away. He then hit back here and drank his brains out. his way of
dealing with the pain. Also further down th street the court house holding several court rooms where Tommy has been at several times. incl. the time when pamela accused him for spautal abuse and sent him to jail downtown L.A. for 8 months.

The mini market that holds several smaller stores "Malibu Country mart". This one also holds the restaurent called "Nobu"!! This one had Nikki invited Donna out
to dinner after wards he took her home to his private place for the first time and the made out. Ths place had 3 police motorbikes and 2 cars there as we showed up. Wonder if someone was robbing the place or something. But no it turned out that Heather Locklear was on a shopping trip woth maybe some girl friend of hers.
Dont know for how long they had been there but trust me they were watched and taken care off by the police. My god. It looked almost sick to watch. A fame doing ordinary shopping and he or she has to be guided like a dog. what the fuck. How sick can things and fame and money be? SICK - I tell you. Okay, with that said it
was kind of ironic that it was her an ex-wife of Tommy Lee`s instead of just anybody. Cool......more bonuses. It was almost unreal.

We had a lot of places still to come from this day!!
It was all crazy!! We came by Ralph`s a place Tommy and Pamela used to do all their or many of their shoppings. Pam still shops here and also does Kid Rock and
others. many others that are somebody in the music or movie industry!!! We passed on to the home the most recent one of Nikki Sixx, Right up to his divorce from
Donna. Also the "Zenspa" that Donna had. And later on the school of where the "Smokin In The Boys Room" video was filmed. I could go on and on about what we
saw. but my diaries would never be ending. And a full photo album would kill the pages. Cause it really is all cool and all. BUT I advise you to go do your own trip out
there. It is a fantastic journey. And to see and go up and down the roads these people have done a gazillion times are just an amazingfeeling!!! There really is no
word for that if you are ike me. Totally unique. It cant be compared to anything. Even the many concerts somehow does not meassure it. fantastic i tell you.
And the drive itself the landscapes and all are fantastic. Tons of mountains and valleys and all kind of things. Man...........by far one of the coolest trips out here so
far in my life.

After the High School of the "Smokin" video shoot we took a drive cross the street and ate at DENNY`s ...again.
This would close our day of excitement. It had been wild it had been over the top in many ways. But things would not be forgotten in my mind. Plus there now was
a video and stills to back up the memories from all the places and all the actions. we headed back towards our base Hollywood Blvd. after our dinner. Dear god we
had another day tomorrow for the big doings. Wednesday was around the corner for us. then only Thursday left. And it was going home time again. Again with a sad hanging face on my shoulders. Corinna killed yet another HUGE dream of mine. I do not know how many times I have actually told her that I am sick and tired of
being depending on people cause in the end every single soul in my life have dissapointed me. now she could be added to the list. It simply was too painful But
stillI had a weird kind of balance that did not really make me break dealing with the fact.

Back around mid evening we started to try to burn down todays filmed stuff to the DVDs so we would have space for the last remainings out here this time anyway.
I had a lot of people listed and kind of lined up that we should have met with but that was not to happen. Time was too shot and I was now getting too sad to
even deal with it and try to put on a happy face. I simply stopped sending any mails or anything to Tracii Guns, LA Guns, Great white, Warrant, and so many more.
Just did not do it. I had more than enough to deal with right her e right now. The Crue history was more important than that. Till tomorrow you all take care ....
later, Tx

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22nd of may 200SIXX, First Day As A Single, Blondie, Crue & The Key Club 80`s Style
2:15Am Hollywood Time
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Holy crap so me night that was. Slept away like a baby. Must have needed it .Woke up at 9.20 though. Got my shower and headed down for me morning coffee in the lobby on our way out.
I think a lot of things could have been said and done today and kind of did too. Liked it. It is not my nature to go like it is all ME now and not care about what the
person or persons that I am with thinks or wants to do. But after the cold burn off I have to admit I would have smacked her silly had I had a temper but I dont and
I am not that kind of guy. So I did something else instead I continud to try to get my focus on what I liked to have done on this trip for me. She had been a belssing
and I will always be greatful for the fact that she got me out here. But also knowing that it was for her own selfishness and not anything else I did not mind doing
this now. To and for myself.

First thing would be Sunset Strip and the Guitar Center for the Blondie thing.
We got there in time and there were maybe a good somewhat 50 people or something. I stood ready to TRY at least to get the event on video best way possible.
She took care of a hoped for line of still photos.
Cool. This was really cool. An old band so unlike any other punk influenced bands from the 70s finally got this one too. A handprint at the Rock Walk. Crue had one themselves a long time ago. So year cool....
Fun to see how the cement got mixed together and all..... stuffed in a frame and carried up to the table on the red carpet for the band later to sink their hands into.
Guess what I got it. On video. not the best angle but as they did what they came for at least that got picked up and that was a quick event too. 15 minutes form they appeared tillthey were gone. Man these things are just not long time doings. Debbie never signed anything. the remaing two guys of the 3 did a few signatures
and thats it. But my god they all look like they could have been our parents now. All grey and old. Time surely does fly by like so fast. it is freaky scarry.

Then we got to et something. needed too. Subway sandwish. Parked behind the Whiskey to get some peace and quiet too. Then caried on with our Crue history trip.
Today would be the last big day of the local stuff to be going down on film. Then it was out side hollywood a great bit agian for the remains. But it was all cool.
All good. No complaints. I really have to say it was awesome. Places to be seen and places to have wanted to be at back in the day all so ....almost no words for
how much I would have loved to be there. But the days are long gone now and I am not having a thing to say about any of these places no more.
That is so too late lol.

The Tropicana building is huge still there but closed like a million yrs ago Tommy lee old apartment with his girl back in the Shout days is still there but not
holding him in it no more either.
That is kind of the way most part of these stories goes. just so damn many places that are no more around or many places that so belongs to the past of the boys
lives and does not have any relevance to them as of 200SIXX. Some places speaks to me others are more irrelevant. But I went and I saw. that is the big thing.
That is the one thing this actually was all about. I dont like to be without these travels. I to be honest dont think any has done em all like this way.
And then documented them to the public. It just is really weird. But Finally someone did have the balls to do it and I was the one. Still my life still my passion.
I love it. I just also think I have a line of undone business to attend to in the next couple of years before I may close this book of mine called my life as a collector.
It has been all my life but yet still so alive.

These local doings may have taken up about most of the afternoon cause as we looked at the time again it was almost close to 8PM. That meant time for our
event at the Key Club. We were so tired in our legs.
Could hardly stand up. we had been doing something today that was a litle out of the ordinary. We had decided to try to go to the Hollywood sign.
It was not happening the last time we were way off from it back then. just not close enoough and it was late dark and the beasts lol were out so nothank you no
walking around there then. but today we could. And we did. I must admit one thing. I felt a terrible thing in my body walking there. Just totally out of shape but that I knew. i did not know that I was so almost ill doing it. I at one time could not breath. I felt chokeing. It was about the single worst thing I have every felt in my body
if not sick. This was like holy crap dude you are gonna collapse on the mountain side in 300 degrees fahrenheit. Boiling to death. Did not happen though.
I took a secind and got back on track. back on my feet and walked on. The thing is we took a wrong turn and ended up onthe mountain top next to the MOUNT LEE
where the sign is placed at. Yes indeed. i was about to say fuck it. I did not have walking shoes ion and this could totally damage my feet. Corinna was on my ass
about it. but I did not care. I know my body and I know what is good for me and my feet and all. So just drop it I thought. How ever we ended up doing the long
walk back and found the right way and still did the walk to to Mount Lee top and the sign. man that was a huge one.

Aloud to be proud on this one. On a hot day like this? hell yeah. There werent many there either. No wonder it is sick to do it on such a warm day too.
You can fucking get a heat stroke or something. Guarentee it. But we did it and had we not done it now we would not have. Cause time wise this was the only
one to alou it. this very afternoon. in the peak of the heat and all. Tough.but done. Awesome......
Mount Lee I will personally never forget you.
As we reached the top we stood behind a fence with three other southern europeans and two of them and Corinna said they wanted to jump the fence and get
down to the sign. not me.!!!!! I was not in the right shoes or anything for this. And to be honest I was fine standing there where I stood. A few feet away from the sign.
Fine by me. I was not a Hollywood sign fanatic. the climing down to it would not make me happier what so ever. So fuck it. But I enjoyed the view andsuck it all in
waiting for them to return from their stunts.

After this as said it was back to car time heading off to the key Club. Time for some old school rock n roll. 4 guys that used to be big in the Glam days of rock
Hollywood style had joined forces for a 6 years long contract with the Key Club doing a Monday night show every Monday for that amount of time 6 years. It was
all a joke menat seriously though. They really wanna try to bring back glam and rock to Hollywood like in the day. They did what they could and covered a whole
lot of hits from Bon Jovi, Poison Kiss to Motley, Europe, van Halen and more. It was all pure fun. The event tonight though was a rather special one. here is what it
was. 4 bands on tonights bill An opening band that I have no clue who was and did not like either. the second was a debut artist releasing their CD this week and
they rocked they were cool. I think they can be heard from with time. Hell yeah. Then it was Enuff Z nuff the old 80s act still kicking. Man that was awesome.
both Corinna nd I almost felt asleep then but we were so tired. Sitting up there on the balcon of the Key Club. But I liked the Enuff part. Cool hearing the band for
the first time LIVE. I remember them well. Hell yeahhhhh ... rock n roll all the wat. Then came the so called Metal Skool. these 4 dudes that just wanted to have fun.
and Putting on a sexual show like none other. Like I said a lot of hits that felt cool to hear again but they did their covers extremely well. Wooww!! Nice going dudes.
The day also had its release day of the Oct 2005 Cinema movie "METAL A Headbanger`s Journey". Relese party today right here for this double DVD discset.
All in all a cool night. Lots of rock n roll - no doubt!!

At 1:52Am we hit out of there I guess the party was about to end anyway. We had to leave cause the parking lot where we had the car parked closed at 2AM so
after that we had no car did we not go.
Out time and Monday ended there and then. Motel time and off to bed.........Hollywood rocked tonight!!!!

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21st of may 200SIXX, Local beverly History & W.A.S.P. San Diego!! Another Baby C Change
2:45AM Hollywood Time
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We were beat the morning after the mandy Lion thing. I have to say though. i love the man I love the personality I love the music. I miss him already. mandy lion
is one special guy in amny ways. he is dear to me. has always been since the radio days with the interview and shit. I could not ask for a better coolness in my life.
How this dude can do what he does and seem so eased by it is so beyond me. yet again its oddly also the most obvious thing to me. for what it is worth mandy
from my heart I thnak you man. I wanna meet again. I love you. You will for life have a supporter and a friend in me if you want me. Thanks for the over the top
kindness and all you showed me. Thank you. You are as big a man as any of the motley members to me.

The Motley tour contiued around 12:30 AM. Ones we got our act together got out of the showers and hit the road. We went to DENNY`s on Sunset for breakfast.
This was the day I ones again had to confront my girlfriend about things that had to do with she and I. People may ask me why I put this in my diary ask me why
I do it in a Motley book of of passion. The answer is simple: I put everything in here that is motley related in my mind. And everything about her is. Last time she
sacked me I was so torn and so close to selling and ending my stuff on the collecting level.
This time it was time for me to ask her what I or we should do. What would she like for us to do next? The thing is I had gone to "level 3" of getting closer to our
fight for me getting a green card and getting my chance to go to America. A chased dream for about a year now. And since we started again as a couople I had
told her everything about us. And that she had to be more open and talk to me so I should not run around playing guess a thought with my girlfriend. I can not
think of a single person on planet earth that would find that alright.

here she was again. Knocking me off of my feet.
She was sacking me. Coming to USA and have a thing with her was all of a sudden out of the blue a burden for her.
What the fuck?? She has been fucking playing with my heart no matter what she says. I have been honest with her from the get go. I have told and done things
I guess most would have liked. We are not all alike so in short ... she was not loving me no more. I got sacked again. From here on I have to say I can and will not
ever again open up to her about anything outside the Motley world. She has been folling around and dropping me like a bad habbit. And the worse part is that
she did not even plan to tell me. Had I not been bringing up the issue of "honey the great news is I am getting there now what do we do?" she would not have told me.
I was too sencitive for her to lay that on me. I did find it extremely weird as I landed and met her in LAX.
Fucking not even a hug. Nothing. This is the last time she will ever hurt my heart. She is heartless a selfcenterd ego maniac that just dont care about anybody
but herself in the long run.

You may ask yourself what now about me then? Well I am not going to the states unless I get another heartfelt excuse to go. Right now SHE and US were the
reasons for it. I can always go there to see and do things I like to in´the music world. So that can and should not be the only reason for me to go to another continent.
Right now the USA thing is totally irrelavant. And I hate her for using me like a mob - clean up and put me away. Our bond has changed a great deal. That is a solid
fact. I do not trust her no more on heartfelt matters. She grabs chew and spits out as it pleases her no matter what we talk about. Cold. Not for me. Fuck that.
I am now single again.....well what the fuck would you know....

So we drove around took the next line of things to clear out before we had a ride south to San Diego for tonight`s W.A.S.P. show.
A lot of studios, strip bars, and historical locations that in one way or the other had a story to the band or a single member. It was really great seeing this and get it
down on video. that is just me. I love doing this. I knew it would be a shit lot of driving I knew it would be a shit long road and a half expensive thing to do. She did
it all and I am more than greatful for all she has done for me for us on this trip. There is the perfect example again. When it comes to Motley she is heaven to me but everything else she just stabs my heart. I can not have that going on no more. The old Tropicana (Girls Girls lyrics) was found too. Along with the corner of the streets
where Starwood used to be that burned to the ground now there is a restaurent. the studios the ohhh my god the places are many. But it was awesome.
I began to set myself first. my interest something I had never done with Corinna. It has always been what she wanted and what would please her most. I wanted to
do good for her. But I began slowly to put myself in the center. To find focus on something that just was not having her name on it no more. Loved ot go these
places again. I loved it.

Our Motley trip for the day ended just after 6PM. Then we said to ourselves we have to go to the motel and get what we need and leave what is not needed and
head to San Diego. It was a good 2 hours ride south.
So we did and it all just got to a bad start. The first 15 miles took a good 45 minutes alone. HEAVY traffic. I tell you. We were practically standing still on the highway.
It was unreal. But with time we got there and I was calm. As the opening band would maybe have finished by now but what could we do? Nothing. It was okay
though. The support act was Lizzy Borden. Nothing I was interesteing in anyway. How ever it turned out to our luck or whatever you wanna call it.
The tour buss of W.A.S.P. had broken down onth way to here so everyhting had gotten about 90 minutes delayed. Not cancelled or anything just delayed.
Even the support band. So we would see it all. nice.

Lizzy hit the stage close to 11PM I was kind of amazed about them still being around. I remember this band from the 80s the singer with the ugliest mug and this
crazy huge hair due. Now he was older and all black hair. Short black hair and the whole thing was a maskarade these days. he changed masks more than they
played different songs tonight. I felt nothing for them. But fun to see. The waiting till it all started was horrible. Noce going again. I could not forget the news
corinna had laid on me this morning. I am no longer with her again. The pain burned in my heart and I was having a full more week to deal with this here.
She will never appreciate anything outside her own litle bobble. But I will perhaps try to find a way to deal with this in my own way later in the week hopefully
and just enjoy it best way I can.

W.A.S.P. was about to go on. No matter what happens I also like ot see Blackie again on stage. he is an important music caracter to me and my soul. Long long story.
So I will jump pass that and just say this; their show here at a tiny club by the beach litterally was not the bst for them. There may have been what round 100 150 I
cant tell but not many. They played short and they did not fully do the best I sont think. Shit that hurt too. But at least I had gotten to see a show with them in extreme
club atmosphere. Just all weird. Besides since the last album and time I saw them last thetre is ONLY Blackie left ... again. # totally new members. It is just not W.A.S.P
no more. It is a Blackie project. Still lovehim though. the location was"Canes" at the beach amusement park or what ever it was.

Now late was what the time was. And we had a serious long way home and no more will to do it. We were tired. We could have stayed in San Diego we could have
gone to her dads. We could have done a line of things but she chose to get iritated instead and go all the way back to Hollywood. It was a dangerous decition as
the rain was heavy too. We saw a lot of car accidents on our way back home. my god we could have been one of them. EASERLY!!!
But some how some way we got back to Hollywood and was in perfect health. That kind of closed the Sunday in Hollywood for this trip.
The morning to come would have the Blondie thing at rock walk for the band getting their hand prints done. So if we can get up for that I want to go. We will see
right now it is a long goodnight for me though.
"Sleeping in the fire", Lee

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20th of May 200SIXX, Walk With Me ....In The After Light, Fuck YES!!
3:49AM Hollywood Time
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Okay a written diary thing started this day, doing notes and shit. With that we kind of did not really get out of the hotel till round noon. We tried to get things done so we did not get to miss too much time. I said said that I would like to go through London LeGrand to hear what would happen ... and surely also to get some few things signed. Hell yes!!!

We went and the story on that goes as following; he was busy and could maybe meet in a good two / two and a half hours. So I said I thought we should just go. Go clear all the local Holly weird stuff. All the attracions of studios, houses, cubs and shit the band played and lived at fought at and more up through their carreer. It was truely mindblowing. This time all on vdeo. That has always been something I would like to get. And now I do now I have and now I can. Fucking big.

As we got to the rock walk for the hand prints to be documented we headed inside to show corinna coolness. There on the window we saw that the 70s act BLONDIE was to get their star tomorrow monday at 12 noon right here. Now that we simply had to go see. Damn awesome. Just yet another free bonus on our way. Hell cool.

We got round the Sunset Blvd. and did most of these things. It was nice to finally have down on tape. I like to get things done and today had to be one of them days.
All went well till we decided that now it was time to get something to eat. Simply because we kind of got out of the move we had found ourself to be in. It was alright though. Tons of places got taken care of . Covered with again pictures and video. As the clock turned 2 PM we had been round all the Sunset clubs the porn clubs the Motley house, Old Tommy conduct and more. Sadly we will have to finish this off tomorrow before we role down to San Diego to attend W.A.S.P.

Dropped out of the tour (lol) and headed toward LeGrand. he had put out a nice bench on the sidewalk so we sat there waiting for a litle over an hour to get things
done with on his part doing someones hair before he came out and said i he now had a brief five monutes to do this. Now that rocked did it not? Sure shit yes.
He took us in through this building out in the back. Then he did some signings and and a salute to my younger brother. I think that was nice of him I only remember
he said he was extremely happy about the pictures he saw and was to sign. I am glad it got like that!!! Thanks my man. London you are always so beyond nice to me. Brother for life dude.

We took off with a maybe we see you briefly next week before we head home if we are not coming for having Corinna´ hair done by him. We will just have to see.
Anyway I liked the short visit as yu can maybe guess from this posting. Loved the signing part from the pen that fucked up again. Why does shit happen to me like that. Ohh well....

Okay so moving on from the universe of London to further doings on the Motley past and present tour. We really needed to get the Sunset and most of the recording studios done before we should meet with Chuck and Joelle. Another Crue fan and her hubby. We had planned to meet them at Kodak Theatre outside the Starbuck Coffeehouse. An easy place to kind of agree on meeting. We finished todays part of this tour and headed up to the motel again. Left some things and took others.
Then over to the Kodak. All the early hours were kind of more messy than this but I cut it short. At the Kodak Theatre we meet the two maniacs. Could not have
asked for a better company. And it should turn out that we had a mutha fxxxxx of an evening to share. In a good meaning that it. Ohhh jezz we had a blast. It was fun.

For two years now have I had contact to a guy that is fairly big around here. An artist called Mandy Lion. It was just all too unbelievable. I can not say it any other way.
He had with his band organized a concert only because I finally had a chance to see him rock live. Sadly at a stinkly litle hell hole with no people. But it was for me
and that is fucking unheard of. I could not believe it. Corinna and I got our selves a pizza slice and then we took off. Off towards Santa Monica. Some driving
Chuck you scarry mutha fucker lol nice moves dude. lol lol lol....

We arrived at this place "14 below´ MANDY LION in concert. This was unreal. We waited for the man to apear. And all of a sudden he did. He was tall dressed as
suspected in black. Totally BLACK. Unable to see his eyes unable to .but he was here and I was excited. Hell I cant remember when I have been this excited to see
a band like that. Fuck yes Mandy!!!!

Rise up!!!! Rise up!!! Rise up!!!
Good god it rocked. Hell this was so shit cool. Next time ohhh brother I wanna see this shit again. At a huge fuckin place. Mandy I wonder as with a few other
artists that I have interviewed over the time...What is it that made you stay in contact with me all this time. It was but a couple of radio interviews. Funny how things sometimes go its ways. But I am NOT!!! complaqning. Hell no I am not. Lion rules - not to be argued about. Fuck me a short concertt but a personal one. We stood
there tal;king about thngs after wards Corinna, Chuck, Joelle and myslef. Then we went outside the bnad was talking to some people out there and it just seemed
so unreal for me to be here Mandy Lion I say it again . Mandy Lion. My thoughts about Motley for some reasons came in over me and I was thinking it does not
matter if the band a local back allety band Mandy or Motley or anybody else I am lucky. I have a few good connections and they can all help me to ....I say no more.

Mandy then came up to us for a proper introdution and we talked about what to do where to go. He said the Hiollywood place is a weird one now a days.
People out in the world may think Hollywood rocks and never sleeps. Wrong. It sleeps at 2 AM Everything closes down then and you take your nap. Goodnight.
People were going like WHAT?? What was that? 2 Am??? Funny in Denmark shit dont close no matter.. the smallest god damn town dont close till 5 AM. Go figure.
Holly weird yeah not for no reason either.

So we headed up towards Hollywood and we ended up at this place...
Went in and had the most fucking bizarre experince from the waitress in here and the guy DJing if you can call it that. These people were no good for nothing people.
My go. But guess what. The full circle round the table the four of us Corinna, Chuck, Joelle and me along with Mandy his girl and some other chick we had a blast.
It was totally unreal. We laughed so hard at times and so often I thought somebody would piss themselves. Hey all hail the rap gangster.... (a little inside joke between the present that night) Some shit we pulled. The night was awesome and it soon got to be both 2 and 3 and more in the morning before we decided to split.

Said goodnight to Mandy and agreed to see him again Wednesday for a talk and a dinner at the rainbow bar & grill. Back to the motel leaving Chuck and Joelle
that still had a good hour home. Missing them a lot already. I see a loooonnnggg friendship here. Awesome people. Dont be strangers now hear? You better hear!!!!

That kind of raps up Saturday and Sunday morning for us.
Ohh boy this time the Hollywood trip is just over the tp of experiences....
Good night / some fucking cool day!!!
Lee

Mcrueloyalty.dk

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20th of May 200SIXX, Another Travel Down Motley History Lane Is...
12:15AM Hollywood Time
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So the day has been another long one. I guess all days will be like that. My god.
Well the start for this one was early. We got up at 7 to get ready for the return to school ground in Covina. Today we had a chance to talk to the music teacher
Mr. Steve Dvoraq in 1978 1979. I can not believe the chance. Simply awesome. That chance was a one of I thought. I wanted to make sure that we got this done
right without being too pushy.

We only had to get up this early as to my travelling companion. Its a female what can I say. they have like an almost full make over to do every morning.
Every day and it just takes a world of time. It has always been like that not just her. But with most females world wide. Feminism and all is a burdon I guess???
The male sex is just way more relaxed in general that is. I know some that are like women too. Call us slobs I dont really care.

Anyway all the this and the that got taken care of and soon we were on our way. Another day of rather good driving and direction knockledge. Not too many
wrong turns even though it was in areas we had not been in before. That too just felt really perfect.

I asked myself a lot of times here why is it I am willing to do this that I do? Why is it I do this that has so many costs and skippings in my ordinary life?
The answer still rang cristal clear in my head. It was not a hobby it is a life style. Only a coupple of times have I been emotionally hurt recently. When Corinna
has now gotten two items that I really wanted myself and that I had bought had I had the money. So there it is another shown proof of my passion. Crüe related happenings such as this loss to Corinna has been making me sad. We are together on this. I just know that we are not together as a couple forever that is not possible......

So there for I also know that I am not getting these items and that kills me more than I can find the words for. It is far far far more meaningful to me than I guess she sometimes is aware of. This is not a complaint or a beating to her name just opening up saying it like it is. I know she is not the full blooded diehard. So I am ofcause stabbed in my chest with this fact of not getting these things that I so dearly want.

For people that wonder what the hell I am talking about when I say "we will not be together forever" let me just say this. She and I are extremely different.
And she does not care (kind of wrong word to use but cant think of another) she does not care for boyfriend tender, kisses, sex, sharing etc. I am totally the opisit.
I am a very careing and emotional guy. And she does not show the slightest.... I say no more. How ever I am aware of the thing and the fact of this issue.
had she have the interest to make a slight change on that fine we would be able to be in a different kind of building process but no. And that too ofcause touches
my whole Crüe world in many ways. NO GOOD WHAT SO EVER!!!!!

Now moving in on Covina territory we come in to the Royal Oak Intermediate school ones again. This was not planned for yesterday. But as said already what a
great chance. We headed directly to the principal´ office. The principal here is Barbara Aguilar the sweetest lady you can imagine. Who can possibly fear to be
send to the principal's office these days. Not me...lool.
This principal rocks. I say it again she ROCKS......hail all.

We were told to sit tight wait and he would se us today. Now that was the single only answer that I hoped for to be positive and it was. Time went by as we sat there waiting. The school bells rang out and in comes the man. the man we so wanted to meet. Or at least I did big time. The guy that taught Tommy Lee to play the drums
in another way that just hitting pots and pans in the kitchen at home. A guy that gave Tommy the first ever opportunity to be in a band. Play in a band. Wooowww....

We were there with him. Guided into a room under 6 Sixx eyes. My god. I felt it coming the highlight of the day. He sat us down and was extremely open and direct
from the get go. I just had to take another chance with him. So I did. I asked him kindly if he would not mind me filming this meeting. He said "sure go ahead I dont
mind". There is was. For maybe the first time ever its a filmed documented interview or a talk about his crystal clear memos of the student Tommy Lee that according
to the band teacher Mr. Steve D. saw Tommy as the most dedicated and strickt focused mind on becoming a drummer not only a drummer but the best possible. He ... Ohhh man that interview or talk if you will holds so many great talks and information's from the 15 and 16 year old Tommy Bass. My god.

We had the chance here to be asking anything. And I tried to do just that but with a respectful feeling. I could tell he enjoyed this talk too. Nice one. We saluted the
man and asked for him to have a couple of photos taken. Again he agreed and off we went. well surely we stopped by the principal Barbara Aghuilar again to
show our appreciation and kindness to have taken us in to her school showing us around and seetig this meeting up for us. Barbara you are an awesome friendly
person never change that.

We then got some information from her before we left on a guy who's name was Robert. He was a board member and guess what he now lives in the very same
house Tommy grow up in and that he lived in as a kid with his parents. This was simply awesome. We took our chance and drove up there it turns out it is not more
than 5 or 6 minutes away from this school.

We did something that would have been a huge regret if we had not done it. We parked went up to the door and rang the bell ding a dong. Hoped for someone
to be home. A lady came out opened the door. We tried to explain what we wanted. This turned out to be the wife of Mr. Robert who at this time was at work.
Ohh well after a kind of stinky explanation to our being at this house we asked if we could take a few pictures of it. It was fine. We did and hell dude that was just cool. For me an inner gut feeling that kind of made it hard for me to breath right. Tommy had as a kid when they had concret laid in in front of the garage put in his initials T.B. (Tommy bass) still there. How cool was that?!!!


so some pictures and again video filming the house from the front and side that's all we could get so far. As we left we had our phone ringing that was Robert
well not totally out of the blue but kind a like arespond to our call previously when we did not reach him. He was told by Corinna who we were and what we wanted.
That we had met his wife taken some pictures and so on. he said that we may be able to figure something out about being invited in to the house to see it if ...
well.. just if alright.

So I say we like to call him this weekend and try to set up an appointment with him next week. If it doesnt happen well okay then that's cool too. respect to he couple
for even talking to us. The family that lives there now have had a visit from Tommy Lee in private at the time of Tommy revisiting the school as he was doing his book.
He then went by after meeting the son of theirs who also goes at this school. man I can only picture it all in my head. And this family seems to be the second one to live there after the Tommy family sold it.

Okay so that kind of closed the trip to Covina for this time I guess...
Nice one though. We headed back to the hotel to get a few things then off to see if London LeGrand was still available. He was not. Okay then we desided to try to do something else. Headed back to the hotel where I tried to get a over view of what was still to be done here. It was all fine. I can say this: tomorrow we have got to
do all the filming and photo taking of the Sunset Melrose and Hollywood Blv attractions Motley history related. We just have to get that cleared cause that is a
thing that's local but needs to go since the next few days will be really busy!!

Okay!! The evening and the darkness slowly came in over us and we took another drive round the Sunset for the same venues and things we will be stopping at
tomorrow. But this time to get them all in a night view with all the neon lights and things like that. We wont be doing that no more after this evening.

So another good 2 and a half hours went by. I had seen that the KeyClub had a special event going Monday 22nd. The 80s members of various bands now called
Metal School plays here Monday with 3 other acts incl. Enuff Z´nuff. We had to go by the Key Club looking into the ticket thing. man 12.00 Dollars only.
Sold to the pair known as the ultimate fuck ups .. just kidding. We bought our tickets and we could now calmly return to our drivings round the block. All good.

So tomorrow will be meeting with Joelle a fan somewhat outside Los Angeles.
Mandy Lion concert and after party it seems at the Rainbow Bar N Grill. Plus Sunday holds San Diego big time with a W.A.S.P. concert downtown there and then
Monday the KeyClub.

Looks like we will have to get some things done Sunday too.
On our way to San Diego. We need to try to get by Basson Gear too. To meet Shawn and so on. It is a great chance to do this now and a great chance to see the
place that Brides Of Destruction and Motley Crüe amongst others have their touring gear from. besides the man behind it Shawn Green is a totally awesome and
friendly man. So to meet him too would be an honour. Its all good its all fantastic. And with that comment we have passed midnight and its time to take a nap.
Morning calls and we will be heading round the Hollywood local area as said. Later to hit the road for Santa Monica and Mandy Lion.

Sadly Jesse of Boston called us today too by the way as we were on our way back from Covina. He had had an accident nobody hurt thank god but had an accident
with his rented car and time and all just would not aloud him and the gang to enter Hollywood in time for us to meet. Fucking rentals. Sorry about that dude.
We will meet some other time that's a guarentee. Hell yes.

And now day two has ended in the Motley Hollywood story. But sit tight we will be returning tomorrow again with more great news. Love to ya..
aren't you just green with envy? I would have been. Its a damn cool thing this time that is being done here....
Crüe Crüe Crüe Crüe.
Your host lee

Mcrueloyalty.dk

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19th of May 200SIXX, No Sleep, First Day, School Day
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After a long trip out here 21 hours travelling to this place I am here once again.
Arriving in LAX in Los Angeles and waiting for Corinna to arrive I had gone through things again that simply did not do any good. But Thank god not as shitty and
stinky as it has been the previous times but still.

Going from Copenhagen to Washington D.C. It is a fine easy nice flight out there and by god I had no sitting next to me. That is almost unheard of but this time
I was lucky. Nice trip till we actually ...well we were told before take off obviously that we would be having no captain to take us to the skies. Cause of a last minute
call in. The dude was sick.

So we called for another and got delayed again 80 minutes. I was sure I would be missing my flight out of Washington to L.A. But what the hell... I did not.
How ever I was not being givin my boarding pass as o the messege " we are full but I have checked you please stick around for your name to be called" Oh, lord.
What the hck was one to do?
Anyway the long stort cut short - I arrived in LAX and went for my luggage. Once again suitcase - missing. My ....fucking god.

Hell I have a thing with that one. Any way I was told to go to a different terminal and just try to look for the suitcase there cause they expected they had thrown
the good half of the Copenhagen passengers luggage in there for some really weird reason. Hellooo it was.

Now I could easerly move on. Corinna flight was about to arrive so it was me running back again two terminals to meet her. She came we met we ..took shuttle
to car rental and took off. made a quick decision. No San Diego thing this night. Heading to Hollywood found our place talked about and checked in.

talking a bit and then in the sheets. Some long day this had been.
30 some hours on my part as we in Denmark are like 9 hours ahead of the place we are at here. I had what I would call a no sleep thing the first nigh. Waking up
7.30 after only 3 hours of napping ... woke up to a hot room, long day and more. It was simply not great to stay in bed as we had tons of things to do today.
A shower for the two of us and we packed our things and headed out of here.

First thing we did was to head down to one of the major roads up here in HOLLYWOOD. To meet the one and only London LeGrand. Wewill again tomorrow for a few things. But today we just went by talked a bit set some things straight and pretty much got updated on the latest whats happening in the head of the guy. Hmmm....
well!!

From there on to Denny's for breakfast and then we headed out of town. We had today kind of only one thing on the Motley tour to do. The Old schools of Tommy
and Vince. But in between we went by Tower records on Sunset to say hello to my buddy Kevin. He informed us that MINISTRY had an instore there this evening.
So we were gonna try to make that too.

Off we went. To the great Covina.... I would say about a good 30 minutes drive north east of Hollywood. On the way out there we got a call from Joelle a fan too t
hat we are later gonna meet. Most likely Saturday. But yeah it was and will be a great and cool thing to meet with her. How was everything? Well I will tell you

We then hit the northern highway 110, today as said was school day. I think I really had to get these things put down first. These were the times of the boys first
meeting one another. This was a strange kind of feeling I took off with.

Barranca A, West Corvina South Hills High School was first. This was where Tommy Lee graduated in the day. After leaving Royal High Oak he joined the school
marching band here to keep his playing intact. We came up to this place it was like a small city of its own for me this one. We had free space to walk around and all.
So we took our pictures and we took our video shots and checked this facility out.


The feeling was kind of weird. So strange to go back in time like this. Way back to before anything was really thought of when we talk Motley Crue. But we got it
down on tape this time. We really wanted to be here back in the day to be a fly on the wall watching this guy as a teen.

Only 5 minutes away we hit up on Royal Oak High, man this was to be a good one. Walking in on the territory of the school which today was a school for younger
classes we were me by a lady there that asked us out on what we were doing there. All of a sudde nwe too were taken to the "principals office" lol lol but we had
not done anything. We were on the other hand about to. About to do some really awesome walk in the time of Tommy Lee´ highly respected years as a student.
The man´s first ever music class teachr was off today but we were taken there by this lady and the principal telling us all kinds of stories. It turns out a lot of known musicians has actually attended this school. Tommy Lee was one of them. his here was where he started out as a drummer.This here was where he formed his first
ever band US101. This here was where we we kindly shown the music master and teacher´ private office. And surely there was this weird feeling after attendong
the music / gym hall at the place that was exactly like it was when Tommy was a student here. It simply was a mindblowing thing.

We were shown the Class teacher´ personal litle mini office in there too that held a pictureof the teacher and Tommy taken a good year and a half ago or something.
As Tommy with writer of the Tommyland book went to see the old man again. A picture was taken by the one that guided us round. She said the whole school
freaked but rock star or not she took Tommy in to get his visitors pass......

Then the two of them fooled around and wanted to suprise the old teacher.
And that story we hopefully get omorrow as we try to get back here to meet the teacher of Tommy´ back in the day.

We kindly left saying trying to come by tomorrow for a chance to meet Mr Music teacher at 9.22 after class. I can not believe ths may happen. Awesome thing.
from here to the next school.

A school that Tommy and Vince got kicked out of....wonder why!!
Too much nastynes and skipping classes? Well any guess is a good one I guess...lol.
We only were here briefly filming and taken the MUST HAVE pictures. Awesome. I gotta say I would give a million dollars to see Tommy seeing a photoalbum
with pictures of all these places. He would kill...meant in a good sence. Man he would not believe this trip we are doing. It is Crue history at its best. Some how
this is just a little too good to be true.


I knew that Tommy had a brief but probably proud short livd relation to the final school in the area. He and his band US 101 played a show outdoors at the
stadium of ........So surely we had to try to get here too. I think we had a good luck so far but turning ourseves in to the office to try to get a visitors pass the lady that
met us just did not get our business there. How can some come from so far aware wanna see the school´s stadium?? Well dot ask girl just do. I guess it was about the
time we kind of gave in for explaning ourselves. So we did one thing . Crossed the lawn and went up to the stadium that had the school´ football team traning so
we were not aloud in there. But we got some pictures some video shots and then once again hading towards south west - Hollywood.
Finally the return to Hollywood came upon us and we headed down to the Tower records at Sunset Blvd.
I can not even begin to start telling you what a joke it felt like at times with the Ministry instore signing. my god. but it was not really cunted for so it was a nice
binus on the trip. Brutal band too. All stoned or drunk as helle as they came along. only the bass player came late and half the people that got signatures from
here that day had passed through and had now missed him on their item signed. Tough. And shitty forthe bass player not to meet the fans. he came riding in a
car alone drunk as hell. And went straight in after doing a rather wild kind of parking. holy fuck. But some pictures were shot from the event so enjoy....My god...
Ministry high on something on th Sunset Strip May 2006.

Magic day?? Sure in deed.
Till tomorrow ...hold your beath and stay loyal

Tommy n Corinna

Mcrueloyalty.dk
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13th of May 200SIXX, Baby C My heart Goes out To Your family, hang Tough
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Gave my girl a call. had things to tell her today about Crue and things to ask her about our trip. I felt something was not right like in a heartbeat. Felt she had bad
news for me like if I was being dumped by her. The situation was a little different. It turns out some in her family has died today. And elder and now her sadness is
topped with concern about that family members better half also. Will another elderly soul soon be lost? This is not coming at the best of times what so ever.
I really think it is shit bad to be honest. But I understand and feel for the family of hers. I am sorry for their loss. I am here if you need me day or night.

I know how these things are and can be. I have been there myself and I do not want it any more than everybody else. It is never easy to say good bye.
Life is just not always fair. Far less easy.
I hope things wont be too hard for anyone there but ofcause I know they will be. Corinna if you can find it in you remember to open up and talk to the ones you
need to talk to. I am but a shoulder on the side but I am here for you all the way no limits. I hope you get through it. My love and thoughts goes out to you and I
am here for every minute of the day.

Souls do not disintegrate and die:
Years pass and yet they do not fade away.
Memories are like a distant star
Pouring forth its light across the void.
All our tears and laughter do not lie:
Though we pass like dreams, our spirits stay,
Held fast by love , which is just what we are,
Yet in a form that cannot be destroyed.

Tuesday night next week is my personally last one here before heading out. I can not really do much but say it will be a huge pleasure to go out there and to do
a complete catalogue of all related stuff out there Motley style. Things have been set up and it is more than cool to have shit hitting my face every hour every day out there. This time it is going to be as riding on the big screen. Hollywood movie feeling. I promise we will tape every god damn thing there is to tape we can possibly
find. i have been doing days and days of work figurering out the driving directions and all to all these places. Man it is hell to go through it all and have it all sorted
out in the best possible way and order if you think about how and where all these places are actually places compared to each other. The stuff is fucking all over
the god damn place North east south and west of Hollywood and in the heart of holly as well. 5 more stinky days and I am rolling home......
Peace to you all, Jesse, Joelle, Mandy, London, Snake, and everybody else . see you in a handful.......
Tommy lee

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10th of may 200SIXX, Paypal Accounts, Burning Sun And Continued Work On The New MCRUELOYALTY
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I have to say i am thrilled about somethings dissapointed about others pissed at a third party.
I have as so many other fuckers a paypal account. I have reached my limits and requested a raised limit now to be able to get things cleared that I won and
chances for further shoppings.
I do not know how many times the Paypal staff now have emailed me the last week suplying me with requested this and that. photo ID, photo copy of my credit
card and more. All thah has been sent to them 3 times by now and still I get the same fucking emails. I Am totally not gonna bother about the shit no mor.
That can mean no more Ebay buys for auctions only set to wann a deal with paypal payments from the winner. guess if I am pissed. This is by far the only thing
that I am doing ll the right moves but they still dont give me my needs..... Corinna has an extreme hard time understanding this and she is like aqlways on my ass
about me doing things wrong or something. that is just not the fact here. I am doing all asked to do but still shit hits me and does not go my way at all. That is as said soooo many times before the story of my life. Everything that does work out is one of perhaps 15 tried out things. It is a constant fight.

but this paypal shit bugs me more than I can possible find words for.
Fuck that shit. It totally interfears with my Motley doings for sure!!!!!

The sun here in Denmark is hotter than hell now a days. I am gonna have to be careful now. I should not get too much more sun or my skin breaks and I would be
more the fucky than being the fucker!!
Got the picture? I do not have sex what so ever. I jerk off ones in while so fucking what? A man has his stupid needs. And that is the one and only way to get it so.....
go figure!!!
The sun and the weather in generel here this past week has gone apeshit. It is so steaming ... but it gives me a good idea about how the next 2 weeks are gonna be including the wek in Hollywood. It is shit stinky hot there. need my sleeveless shirts and have to find new shorts. Or I will die. Fucking no way possible I am gonna run around in longsleeve and jeans. hell no!!!! Might as well burry me alive.

MCRUELOYALTY.DK is having these huge make overs and I hope that in June it can be up on and running. I must say I have to believe that that is possible.
Further delays are not really too acceptable. Friday evening will or is so far the evening here where things hopefully should get the next BIG kick in the ass for the new edition to come.
We are gonna try to get some new ideas figured out and all. So hopefully there will be a good result from that!!!

Right now that is what I am focused on the new site and getting it up n runnng and then now this new possition again with a non excisting paypal account.
I am speechless. I fucking hate all that has to do with limits of my Motley world. It is almost unacceptable.....

have gotten the last new films back and the new 500 plus lots of tour photos are in the house. So we have many new pictures to work with too.
Its all good on that front!! And the Hollywood trip will be serving us plenty of great new shots too. Hopefully a lot od cool stuff will be able to get on the site so we
can have the maximum fansite the way I like it to be.
The video stuff from a fan point of view will go on there as well. There will be a page on here that has all these videoclips if we can make it work. I take that back.
There WILL be such a page cause we HAVE TO make it work no matter the fight. I really hope there is a great result both with the trip and the site. Gonna do all I
can to get it mindblowing.

Should anything change about anything or anything come up of huge affect to my Motley life before I leave you can find out about it all on here....
Enjoy the next few days, Crue style.....

Your host!!!!

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8th of May 200SIXX, Counting Down To Another Huge Over The Top Experience - Hollywood

10:04PM CET
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Home sweet home. Yeah dude and dudettes. Thats right. All I really have to live for these days are my passion for a handfull of things. And Hollywood can easerly
be one of them. i am heading out there again Next week. I think it will be a huge and cool event. So much is planned for this one already. On the new site there will
also be a truely awesome thing that is gonna be the only site to have it. Ohh in case you didnt know this site is getting a brand new make over. Trust me it will be
worth it. It will kick serious ass and all the new items will get added too. Yes there is a small stack of new items here that are not listed as off now.
How ever it will. And you will be pleased with the new.

Right now it is Monday - suck ass Monday. but it is okay (for ones) I have managed to look into some of the stuff and things we are gonna be doing out there in
Holly land. And let me just say in short - it is going to be mind blowing. We will have a long cool week there and 3 FULL days have been dedicated to be the
CRUE HISTORY any days. Meaning we are once again heading out on the huge LA Vacation trip to visit and shoot and film all these venues and all. Then try to
throw it all on here the best fansite around. For the first time ever anywhere ever get to see the places as they are and as they were. It will be a nostalgictrip in
mind but by god it will most likely also be the last chance to ever do it. A lot of the places are no longer here are no longer around. changed or moved or torn down.
Still we go everywhere and cover it all. the members childhood schools, the beginning area of where they started and up through their carrer till the very month of
May 2006 of places that has Crue landmarks all over them.

get to see where they lived and where the SmokinIn The Boys Room video were filmed. Where Tommy and Pam had their shoppings, where Nikki and Donna first
had a date and where Vince was as he was told his daughter died. Get to see the places and roads and streets the boys ride every day!!! Its all gonna be there.
It will be awesome.

You will enjoy I promise.
Further more we are going to meet and say hi and hello to Mr. London LeGrand, Tracii Guns, LA. Guns, Mandy Lion who is a dark heavy artist I used to do a few
interviews with for danish rock n roll radio. he is now kind enough to meet us there and have done the most unbelieveable thing I can simply not understand any of it. Mr. Mandy himself has organized a concert in Santa Monica on the 20th of May only for my sake. To honour me and our friendship. Fuck off!!! You have got to be kidding. Well....no !! I am not. I promise I will get some things on the Crue History tape for you all form the dark power himself. Als owe may get to do and meet John Corabi, members of Great White, and more. A recent found fan Joelle who lives a good couple of hours driving outside Los Angeles. The old Broadsyde boys, Snake and
drummer Chris now no longer in same act have also wanted to say hi and hello. We are attending also a W.A.S.P. concert in San Diego and more. It will be a
monster trip and it will be a huge monster movie to return home with. You have no idea how cool this all is going to be.

There is thank god not gonna be much shopping time on this one. but guess who is fine with that? I AM!!!!
I do not have any cash anyway. I am screwed and I am bare ass broke. But yet it will happen.

There is a cool trip ahead and it is fucking not gonna be wasted. It will have to be a tight scedual we can not afford to take lightly as we ride out there or else we will
not have the needed time to get through it all. It is going to be long days short nights so.... hopefully we will be okay and aware of the food and cold drinks. Because it will be needed far more than needed more than I can possibly express through a posting.

New things have gone my way and is as stated earlier in this posting about to be added to this on here. Awards, personal, caps, shirts, vinyls, CDs, posters and much, much, much more. I can hardly believe it myself that it is a fact. I fucking love it. Now I think I have taken the breath away from a good handfull with this information already so i give you all a break and return to you all later with more news. The Holly land countdown has officially begun!!! 9 days left!!! And I will once again be flying high over USA eastcoast. You would all had been invited if only I was a crue man. Money talks.
Love ya all......stay good. Fuck man its amazing!!!

Tommy

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2nd of May 200SIXX, What The Fuck will happen To The Crue man Now???

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I will most likely not be all calm and shit for a good while. This time not for the damn ordinary life that I lead oranything near it.
This time it is more a concern about the band and more. why? cause Donna D`Errico has filed for divorce against Nikki Sixx. There are studio times these days and
movie shooting so it is a lot at stake here I guess. How will everything go? Well it is not for us to say. It is not for us to even have a guessing about. All I am saying is that it is now extremely uncertain how much and in what direction the band and him as an individual will be affected!!!

so how can we even move on form that? well I guess the best way is not to post a shit load about it on motley.com and the board there and more. Actually I think it can end up being taken off as it is too personal and emotional for the guy these days. I am just saying it is not good. And for fans to even be wondering about the future is very understandable. It is with sadness and love for the man and family but also with fear for the time to come and our band. Man I could write for hours on here with thoghts and more butI wont. It is just a sad day now a handfull of days after things have been activated. it is not good times for the Sixxster and not good times for the fans.
This here is over. Who would ever have believed it. Trouble brueing in paradise well havent we all? But for them to actually step back end it and ........... just so hard to deal with. All the best and warm thoughts to the whole family. This hurts my inner guts
Tommy Lee, Denmark

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30th of April 200SIXX, Nothing but A Hard Time - Wins And Losses, As Always

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Not much to tell really. It has been a few damn hard days with mixed emotions and more for a lot of reasons. I am trying to find the light in a tunnel for myself again. Thinking about it all I am way too unhappy about a lot of things i truely do not feel I am on a positive side every day. Things are screaming out to me for doing some things that can please me outside Crue. I have done a few things and hoped for that to be the solution but so far naahhh!!!

I have also tried to keep an eye out on some things that could or would be great to kill time with at home. But it feels a bit like wasting time, See that is what I am not
good at. Waiting and killing time. Well I am but when it is with a wasting kind of feeling then it gets bad for me. I just dont know what is going to happen with me.
With that said I have also had some bad things going with my Motley universe. been fucked again on some deals that I had paid and never got the stuff. And last
night paypal was all of a sudden telling me to verify an account so I did or tried to. But now it has for some really odd reasons cancelled my credit card and more so
there is no way I can even pay what I won and the wins are now waiting for to get cleared. Ohh brother things really do not go down my way!! One of my old
best friends had birthday yesterday and the phone line was down so I was unable to call Sweden too. Tore my heart. She means a lot to me. But pearl here you go
happy big 3 0 girl.

You are a true adult now. You are heading into the coolest decade of our lives. Enjoy. Mine are over. It has been the best decade ever but its over now. lol. lol.

This Vince Neil award was the first he ever got for his Skylar Golf Turnement thing that goes on every year in Malibu.
Now I just need to get this sucker done and paid too. but a returning issue with paypal now is to get credit card and more back on track so I can do this again!!
A few other Ebay things are up there right now that I like to get my hands on. I really hope to win them. I have missed out on a lot of wants recently mostly because
I have not had the money for it or I have been outbid at the last few counting seconds.

I have gotten another award Switzerland Too Fast LP award too. It will get added on here in May as I once again have the camera to get the picture taking and all.
So just hang in there. The next three are still in the mail but just around the corner I guess. Once they come here there may be a short break before I can actually get
more from the guy. He seems out of Motley ones now and he is still missing a good 10 KISS awards from me so... its not over but it will perhaps be a while till I have
more coming my way again. we will see.

Right now I am only sitting here thinking, I feel lost trapped used and out of smiles. I want to get back on the dreams of mine. But I have not been able to get any of
that going either. Some guys on motey.com have told me they think one of my dreams with starting something in Europe - Fanclub or something would not work
out as the motley.com covers all needs basicly. Well if that is the case I find it sad. Cause there is not really a Fanclub as such around. There used to be a few they
werent great but they were there. Now its one official site with news and a store and a board. But what do I know? Maybe that is the modern form of official sites
now a days. Things change I know this. Maybe this really is the new and only needed thing. For Motely Crue? Maybe... maybe the people that turned to me with these thoughts are right. Just makes me kind of sad. Cause there would be nothing, not a thing to get involved in then. Only stick with the collecting thing that I do. damn.

Ohh well, I am out of thoughts right now on what to really do and say. Just got up. It is only 8 something AM on a Sunday for christ sake. I think I will make myself
some coffee and just hit the sheets again. I am not tired actually on top of a day yesterday with headackes and a lot of bad luck I feel rested and fine today.
Thank god.
Okay lads thats it - have a great Sunday where ever you are.

Tommy
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26th of April 200SIXX, Labtop Set On, Shout Blasting, Just Finished reading .Its Time..
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Just felt for it right here right now. i have just put down the book from PaulMiles, "What Crue means To ME". ´´

Well itws a fairly mixed reading. no doubt these 69 fans in the book has Crue at heart but it really was not the greatst feeling I had from reading it. In its ownway that just proved me right once again. You can not fully put feelings into words. Is that maybe why they call it a feeling? I do think some are claiming themselves more than they are. Who am I to say this? Well I call it as I see it. I miss everything today I think. A girl, the passion the everything. I miss too to find out what the hell is gonna happen to me and the things I want to do with and in the name of Crue. For my own life that is. I hav reached out to so many lately and no one seems to be into this like allthe way. I have there for set myself in a position where things are not exactly lose or comftable no more. I have done all i felt i could to gather the perfect gang to make things going towards what I would loveto do. Try to get something European started. It just does not happen. Every one I have talked ot are either too ordinary connected to life or too worried about every day life that they all need to have taken care of safe and settled.

man I do not know. I my self too is a little messed up on my own things. I am so looking forward to be doing the final Hollywood tour with my honey. I think we will have a final thing here if we talk 2006. Cause things seem to have taken more out of us than we care to think about. From previous doings. Financially too. I am not at all happy saying this cause I need this action to be a part of my life. And I want to enter the last few chances in the Crue world to really get a nice closing. See here it is again. Addiction, nothing is ever enough. You always want more. That is also why I do not do good in an ordinary living. Funny if I type what I am thinking you would all say go see a therapist you are far from well. But the fact is what gives me comfort is that you can leave this world when ever. You yourself actually has that power. I know - so dont sned me hate mails or helping wake up calls of any form. I know hat I am saying here. I just really feel this way. Life is a struggle for me far more than any knows. I would feel great and be perfectly balanced if I had even better chances for doing what I want to do in the world of Motley. but i can not do things on my own. Things have just changed too much since the 10s and 80s where basically everything and anything seemed to be possible if only you wanted it. now it is like you have to have a huge pile of cash for a small idea and then there is no guarentees plus you would have to have a line of good co-workers to get anywhere.

I ´feel I have a huge couple of problems that are kind of tough to deal with. I can find find peace with them. It hurts and it is a heavy weight round my shoulders to bare. I have as posted on here done new stunts new moves to get away a little bit from the every dy motley life that I lead. Itis a big test for me and it is as of now just not easy to get thehang of. There are so much non felt stimulation in the every day life for me. also said before. I jus really need it this time. sadly I do. To take a bite of the ordinary to slip away a bit from the collecting world. My woman doesnt even doit for me. Too much missing on that to give me enough belief and strenght to focus and enjoy the ordinary. period. And that troubles me. More than I can find usefull words for. It is just a hell to go through. I have been away fromt he ordinary and ordinary living ONLY for too long to feel pleased with that thing. What the can I do? I am out of ideas here.

I have rarely felt this pride in the collection that i have here at this address right now and I have rarely felt the huge pleasure in this way about that. but when i turn or close my eyes or something I feel insecure. I feel lost I feel sadness cause most outside my collecting world right now is not attractive and it is not satisfying me one bit. What the hell to do? Some may wonder whats up with my earlier talked about move to the USA. well I have paid another thing and I am once agaon one move closer to the big cance. How ever i am also very aware of what I need to have my eyes on. reality till the dream comes.

Here is a confession. I have bought the big ALLY DVD box. I have seen all 5 seasons back to back over a period of time one season over two days. Andso on... finished it today. Cried like a baby for many reasons. Always hated the god dam fact of soaps... cheap time aftersoon american gossip shitty TV series. But now watching this serie all of it so fast for the firsttime I thought hell this is about life. Added some humour. Fine but its about life and the bigger questions we all from time to time runs around with. Corinna is gonna hate me for this one. Weakling sencitive and careing. She more like me to be a rock should e really get to the bone of it all. I guess she would. But I have gained so much shit useful shit from this TV serie that just seriously havemade me look at life and my collecing thing in a fairly different way. It has affected a lot of the sides I have to my personality. Things have been always been so, so, so and so. but now it is like "where the fuck did the years go"? You know we dreama and think so much about so many things. I wis I had the power to just get to touch every living man on this planet. And sy the long thick heavy book in one sentence. GO FOR YOUR DREAMS ... AND DO IT TODAY. I seriously have a problem with people not doing that. Its over - life - way earlier than what we care for it to be.
ALLY gaeve me a lot. Even though its a fucking afternoon TV time killer. It spoke to me in a lot of ways and the poeple that really knows me like Pearl, Mattias, Tine, Mom, Brian, and a few others they know if they really listen to me and they sit alone watching this one .

Enough gossip on here I guess. But with the last ending episode in the boxset at 10:40 PM my local time here I felt like I was being chocked. Been loosing friends, missig old friends from real life. And more. It was hard it was and still is making me feel lonely. Friends and family and love to your loved one is half your life if not more. If you do not have parts of these things you are poor lonely soul. And I have been likethat for some time now for various reasons.

This posting has been stopped and continued over several hours today for the reasons of me having had a lot of thoughts to my mind today. I have had a need to go out walk about anddo things away from this posting and return and now 11:35 PM finally trying to close it. I am once again discovering a very sencitive side to myself that I have loved for been proud of for years. Why? cause boys dont have it. Ok, i take that back,. Boys do not show it. i can and I do. I am in need of being one with my inner slef and have the honest inner and outer balance with my being to express myself to how I am and feel on the day.
Motley Crue has been in my thoughts a great deal today on a worrying matter and on a pride matter. So be it. That was to be the last famous words for the day. Till next time - hunt your dreams. Dont settle, ever.

Tommy Lee***

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25th of April 200SIXX, Happy Bday - Totally Unreal Yet So Life Like......
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Happy birthday mom. Another year gone by and another year of you not understanding your boy about his heart filled passion. Mom you will never get it. But it is alright a lot of people around me dont anyway! I am willing to loose life and home and health for it. Totally aweome!!! Totally sick. Totally not mental!!! There will come many more days of this trust me! I think I love to do this more than there are words for covering it. I should seek help. Nearly agree with you all. It is a bit over the top. I will never have a so called normal life due to this.

I must have a thing said today! Things are gonna be a bit blown out of whats healthy in the coming days!! I must have a thing done to get some other things in place. And that will most likely not happen if it does not take a HUGE suprising turn in a couple of days more later .maybe!!!! I think I also have a bit trouble with getting things done on a couple of other deals another guy that had a part payment deal going with me has fucked me over, he had a good 2000 dollars received and was ow missing only one payment. I have tried to reach him now for 7 weeks. And his email account isno longer being resonced from. I think it still excists cause I am not getting them back my emails .... I have had this tried out with 3 guys before this deal too. fuck !!!! So much money lost AGAIN!!!!! Totally unreal yet so god damn lifelike.

watch out for the fucking back stabbers out there. They are many and they are everywhere. I can not fully say that I am sceptial with anybody. its always the other way around for me. I see the good in peope till they fuck me over. I never am sceptical with them and then they proove them better. Fuck I am weak on that point HATE IT!!! Promise myself that from today I will work HARD on that one. What the fuck is that anyway! People being nice from the get go. Who am I kidden? Tommy you
deep fuck wake up and smell the .... what ever.

Now I feel I have to try to get the best out of my dissapointment here but I think it may be abit hard to do!!! What can one say? what can one do? let time heal and dont think too much about it I guess!! Well Ill try. Back in a few days - enjoy it all,
Lee

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24th of April 200SIXX, Büch Dich, Noch Ein mal - Bestraffe Mich - Verdamt
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You tell me what s cooler than having a passion in life that leads you to all kinds of adventures? There is nothing is there? Hell no. I am extremely hooked on the times I am heading towards. I have found new goals in life too and I am filling up my life with new challenges in the ordinary everyday bitchy world of life. Boring, Yes most of the time but I am actually this time really excited about getting into things back to school and everything. I really think there are a few things that can take me in on a focused level with real joy outside the Crue world again. I have been kind of giving up on things. Searched but yet not found anything that I could find joy in. I think I have now. I also seem to have set goals for the next 3 months of May, June and July!!! I want to win some things with myself. Long story but I want to feel better and do better on some things. I also want to get things done that in the everyday life like when I just totally cleaned house here a couple of weeks ago. I want to give myself something that can give me smiles and shit so the ordinary life outside Crue is not so hopeless a feeling.

I have been extremely horney the last month or so. It is terrible. I can not say what has cost it but my god it has been spring hormones that has taken me by storm.
That has cost a bit confusion to weather Corinna and I have been or am right for each other too. Kind of a private story so let me just say, we do have a lot of different opinions about things and they are not likely anytime soon to change and reach a more shared command level. I have to say things are very often like fire and ice - extremely opposite. I need for her to face things so we can get closer too. But all that is a matter of will nothing but. We have a lot of things in the talks and we will have some awesome things to share as we go through the final couple of years in the name of Motley Crue. A lot of things have changed already in their time schedule too.

I think Motley will have a few things pushed according to other already set plans. Their 2005 plans for 2006 have already changed a lot of times. And it is without saying, not surprising at all. We are talking Motley Crue. Nothing is certain in that world, Period. Do I like it? No I don’t. It’s very hard for an ordinary working fool like me to make plans for things when that is a ruling fact of theirs. Anyway things have gotten to a point now where in my collecting world I have found myself to be extremely pleased with how the Tommy Collection" has been expanding here. I can not believe the luck I have had on things the last long time. And my award expanding situation has just simply taken even me totally over the top too. So glad I decided God damn it KÛSS MICH!!!!
I am just really, really happy about that one!!! It is a great self paid self given birthday gift of the year!!

I have to say I am not even going to ask anyone for a birthday gift this year even though it is the big 4 0.
Hell I still feel 25 but I am giving myself a ton of great things so I am pleased. I would due to the love I have for the girl excited about anything form Corinna, but she has in my opinion already given me a lot of great things. And I have a lot of the things received yet to feel even more pleasure from as it all gets nicely framed - for a lively viewing pleasure. You know what I mean.

On another note, there are a lot of cool things on EBay all the time sure there are but right now I have a few things I REALLY got to have. And I have an ongoing bid fight going with one guy about an item that i like to get, but it has kind of passed the point of command sense when it comes to the price for the item. I am not letting him taking it cheap, but he seems to want it bad. So I bring the fight and see what happens. I have one more thing to say about this and i am then letting it go. Bet some of you all out there now are thinking "why the hell is he posting this on here and why the hell is he doing these things?"
I tell you why!! I am going to and have been for a long time now trying to make this site the only really one where you all get to know the fan behind the thing. Every thought that affects my Crue world in a larger or smaller scale is being posted on here. I personally have always liked to get to read something about others that are telling one more about the things that goes on behind the curtains so to speak!! It is simply not seem and I allow myself for you to see me. So bend over bitches.... bend over and swallow. The Sixx used and accidentally damaged and now auctioned off blackbird bass of his bidding but giving up in the end most likely IF this other deal I work at will be seeing a solution and an agreement for me to have!!

But EBay right now have a line of things that I as said have to get - win and add to the site here. I simply have to. I have skipped a few things on the ordinary side to life lately a couple of endurances and more to be able to do my Crue thing. As claimed for years now NOTHING shall stand in my way for things in my passionate touched life. No way! LIFE IS TOO SHORT no matter what the hell you do. It just flies by and it fucking never returns. So grab your passionate wants and fulfill your dreams. Do not settle for any "ohhh I cant" "Ohh I will ...Later" "ohh I don’t know"....fuck that!!! Grab it - and grab it now. Live in the moment, not for the year to come you may fucking not be here by then.

Cant take the heat or cant deal with the full and complete nakedness about my being then feel free to not be on here. I have always found it to be an interesting thing when people would open up and let others in on a personal heartfelt level. No holds bore. No prisoners taken. No hidden this and that just lay it all out there. And that is what I am all about. I am happy and proud I am even able to do this. You have no idea how much freedom it gives me. To feel I don’t have to hold anything back just shares every single direct or indirect thing in my brains and life that touches my motley universe in one way or another.

I have also lately been thinking about the thing about women. I know it is a bit off now but what the hell is it that makes man a man? It is not the man himself. It is the woman that makes a man a man. Trust me. It is also the man that has the urge to win over most possible women. No wonder with the masses of gazillion of sperms his body produces on a weekly basis. How can one even think the male is a one woman only? There is no such thing. Males may not admit this shit but hell they see and they want. There are oddballs out there that are different yes... and at times I am one of them but hell, beautiful women are the prettiest species of the living. Fuck it!! Also, they are hardest one to settle with. Don’t send me hate mails it won’t do you any good anyway. I stand by my word.

What makes women so powerful? Is it the prettiness that makes them powerful? Or is it the powerful women that make them pretty? If you ask a man he would go for the first option. Simply because men don’t really care for the name the wealth the what ever they go for the first instinct, the looks. They get attracted and stimulated by it and that is enough for the male sex to try win over the other individual of opposite sex. Does she have to be smart, well spoken and more? No not really.... if she is it’s a bonus. For many, but for also many they don’t really care. I could say or type a whole book about these things I have seen men and women how they all act. Their body language and their loud spoken thoughts and feelings about things and situations now for years and I find it extremely interesting. I myself just know both parts have to face things and see that both have to meet halfway or else it’s a king and stall boy relationship. And then guess what happens. Its over before you can count to ten.

That is also a thing I use in my Motley world. I always try to find the rhythm and think twice about my inner wants and needs. What does it take to do so and so and so ... there for I have turned into this individual that often are in the middle of the next adventure towards reaching the goal I have in my head as a dream that’s important to me. And then people ask me HOW CAN YOU DO ALL THIS. It’s a priority thing, nothing more. I will carry you further than you think. But if you limit yourself you are about to stand left as the loosing party. No exceptions there. Okay people enough of this psychology thing right now. I am heading out doors for a relaxing cup of coffee and a nice snack.

Bück dick!!!!

You all be good, till next time enjoy they music, be good to each other!! Love ya all, Lee

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22nd of April 200SIXX, Raw Dangerous Yet Pure And Silky, Life - Pink - Life - Pink!!!
4:01PM CET
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Life - well what do you know? this Friday I feel fine as I did yesterday too but I look around and I see the world offereing a lot of sick things. politics,wars, crimes, frauds, low life excistence, poor dying people. Rotten societies twisted devilish religions and more. I have a really hard time wit hthe world we live in. It really is no world for me how ever there is no other world for me to go to so I have to kind of fit in dont I?

have to say this though this is a Tommy that has kind of finding himself one morning looking in the mirror and say you know dude you are not 16 no more. You dont nessesarely acting like one but do have kind of other prioities in life. Which are heading for the things that means something to me myself and not what anybody wants me to be or do. People are taking themselves way too seriously these days I am not. call me a dick its fine acuseme of having done some things actively and I will go for your throut.

We all are in the position where we kind of say:
go away come back get off me get back on... always. Surely we are all this way in bigger or minor ways. I love electric guitar but I adore accustic. Same thing!! We all have our moods and they are all having results in some ways for all of us. I wanna do myself a huge favour for the rest of my days. i am gonna be good to people I like an i am gonna be fulfilling all my own dreams. I am not gonna listen to all the bad shit that happens in the world. I have kind of givin up on that shit because it is not my task to deal with and further more there is not a shit I can do about the big picture anyway. So I am not really gonna even waste my time in life on these things.

I think what really hit me and got me in to this heavy thinking about life and getting older and shit was watching a conceert and listening to an interview with the artist Pink. It hit me. was extremely good by the way. no bad shit to say about it. Love Pink. Reminds me of my finish friend claudia too. Looks like her too. butthat is kind of a different story. but a lot of the things she sid was stunning. by the way her new album is her best yet and not only the best from her but also awesome in all ways. She has really made it with that. the lyrical universe on this album hits many I bet like a bullet train. And if you are bit deeper a person than most then you will love to isolate yourself for a short hour listening in on this one.

Life is just no good at all. On the other hand life is good. There it is again. Double twisted sides and effections to everyhting about it. It being life.
I understand there has been kind of a concern about Mr Lee`plans and side doings with the coming build band of his. Its all cool that they all have their side things to Motley as a band. But I too think Lee can be a hell of an issue if things turn out to be better than hopes are for the coming project. I so - but who doesnt - want motley to live on for a good while longer yet I think it will be a bit tricky kind of a on the edge thing.
Will it survive the next studio album and will the band members as individuals be able to stay focused and hungry enough for the thing to keep rolling??

Personally I am kind of tired of the Carnivals tour. Seen it now enough and I want a new theme a new stage a new whole thing.
I do hope they will not tour October, November and december. It is what I want. Just give it a rest let people be hungry again for them. Do not over do it. cause they are there soon if they do it.
Enough said about that I guess. I have a few things I hope for to happen in their name but I will hold back on that for a while. I think some things have been looking to be happening already but thenput on hold or even cancelled. hard to say!! Well the movie will come out next year and i begin to head towards one thing. I am going over in May to this Holly weird thing and then I truely hope for a July thing. And then also I may even say - a fall tour or not - I will wait till 2007 after July. Then head to the premiere of the movie and maybe tour so.....I think in the bigger picture that I would be far more pleased with. And then dedicate the remaning few months of 200SIXX to the framing part and more on the non touring part of motley Crue.

A few things were added to the site yesterday and there were awards added too. Another three is ready to go in the mail on theor way to me.
Right now HOLD ON .... I have 38 awards. It makes me sick. 38 FUCK ME.. I never even had this many with KISS. It has gone fast and it has gone over the higest expectations I could ever have on that single thing. 38 MOTLEY CRUE AWARDS AND WITH ABOUT 85 - 90% OF THEM PRESENTED TO THE BAND OR AMEMBER. Hellooooooo...............It stinks but its cool. It makes me sick!! laughing!!!!
The next three to come as said are about to get packed and shipped pout to me. they are also pretty cool ones I might say. And woththem another so far missed title will be added to the lot and we pass 40 in total.

original German golden Award "Greatest Hits" presented to MC with poster inside
original German golden Award "Shout at the devil" presented to MC
original Canadian platin Award CRIA "Dr. Feelgood" presented to Doug Thaler

I guess for now and for the daqy that´s it really.
dont really wanna waste your time on here with a lot of bullshit that has no relevance onhere anyway!!!
TILL THE WEEKEND IS PAST US AND WE ALL ARE BACK TO THE FILTHY BORING REALITY... have a good one!!!

See you on the other side.
Tommy

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20th of April 200SIXX, Fuck It The World Smiled To Me After All - By Gones!!
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So thursday the 20th came over me after all. I have been kind of fearing this day for reasons of fear for forcement to what the society wanted me to do actively. I didnt. I had a nice meeting and I believe it all ends with this, I will most likely get my ways on the so called meantime thing. Hopefully I am back to do radio and media. I am also most likely getting in on IT and Psycology classes. I will wake up smiling every day in case that is true. A couple of weeks will most likely pass from now on till i have the definate answers. But it is a great feeling right now.

Okay on the home front I have now gotten the awards the newly yesterday arrivals hung up on the walls. Rocation has been the word. I am happy abour the results. I live now in a dream of great stuff. I know I have talked about these awards like the single COOL in the collection and it probably isnt. but is in the top 3 or 5 thats for sure. my god they are awesome. Thank god for me keeping the KISS awrds for this trade once I in 2001 sold my KISS collection. Never have I been more happy about the KISS awards after KISS was over for me. Jesus christ - I am getting the greatest deal here with the trade. It is almost unreal.

i think maybe the other latest stuff that has come in to corinna for me the last week or so are great too.These days it is mostly small things small items but items that have been looked for for some time. And now they are here to be added to the site and single sections tonight.
It is more awesome than I can possibly express. It is a great expanding time for me and has been ever since the site got up and running on the internet. I now can not wait to get the new coming edition of this baby up and running. It will be damn well awesome. I am sick and tired of the lame faults that seems to come back haunting me on here. No good. Unacceptable. Period. so things have been split up and the webmaster and myself now take care of only parts of the site together. I think things will be better this way. the nrw guy in over this has only very few things to be master of so if he too can not fully make it work WHICH I THINK HE CAN AND WILL!!! Well then I will seriously think about closing this down. It is just a little too uncool for me as a person to have all the faults and shit going on. No bones about it. Not only do I look forward to this new site to come up n running in the summer but this here is absolutely gonna be a kick ass thing. This here were the best we could do the last time we updated it. I am now far more demanding for the visual results and thats that!!!

Next goal to me in the nearest future is the Hollywood - san Diego trip. weather or not the main goal for the trip will happen or not we have as also Corinna posted on here last time - we have a plan B that sucks in every way NOT!!!! It is a great andexciting plan that will and can be a memo for life too. I think things will be great. Also I do not know if any of you guys have ever heard about WWIII Mandy lion?? www.mandy-lion.com a dark brutal German that took of to USA as so many others back in the day and created a thundering meatl band. He and I have now been emailing back and forth for some time kind of lost contact and then this week we talked again. He emailed me assaid and said "you in LA in May? Thats when wewill meet. I willeven try to find a place to book a small show with the band. Dedicate the whole show to you"..well how can any debut shows by any band be more cool ?? Just asking. Fuck off nothing is or can be cooler. I wanna do stuff with London of the old B.O.D. too as I am there. Then we see what the rest can and will offer for us. It is going to be a great trip no matter what it holds you see.......

The Crue by the way will be touring a little bit in USA here is a date .. they did cancel another but this one seems to be holding water.
Cadott,Wisconsin - the Rock Fest 2006 July 22

I see that as a likeing to me. I mean Cruefest sucks but listen to this for July: the 15th Hollywood cruefest the 17th tommy Lee Dj job in Las Vegas the 22nd motly live in Wisconsin
Helloooooo.......wanna go? Well yeah had been super cool. Shit man. It looks like I am going to headhunt the chance for this to happen. Doubt it very much but god damn man...I no stinky way there if it should be a possibility for me or us if corinna would be able to also. These things are only pure dreamings but hell so has most of the things been for me. Are you lkidding me. I know of no one that has had so many different hopes realized and turned real in the same period of time I have had. I am truely greatful. And with the love and support of many things from you guys out there I am deeply thankful.
So thank you!!!

later pricks and bastards,
The smiling Tx

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19th of April 200SIXX, Coolness Arrived Today And The Biggest Site Makeover Is Starting
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Wednesday today. Yes indeed. Nothing special about it. Still fairly chilly here in little old Denmark but here at Osterbrogade 19 my home address it has been hot as hell today. What the hell is he talking about you may ask. Well, I got one of the coolest pacages today. 5 new record awards of which 3 of them are costum ones. Look in on awards in the "looks that kill" section. Fuck me are they cool and no picture of these awards no matter how clear they are can justify these babies. I tell you anybody serious enough about our 4 Crued men would kill for some of these awards. Simply irrisitible. Holy cow. I have now no idea how many awards there are in this collection but I tell you the collection just raised a good 7000 dollars today in value. If not more. It is a dream for me to have been even able to make this deal go down inmy favour. God damn I am happy about these awards. And in about 2 weeks or so another 3 should be shipped off from the one I do this with. Do not know which except one of them is a Dr. Feelgood one tripple platinum CD award presented to earlier management dude Doug Thaylor. But in all honesty I do not care what tittles. I just reach out and grab these babies. Totally crazy - unreal and a big life saving this is too for me. Holy hell this can become a good retirement .........

Tomorrow another day in my life will most likely see me hit a new low in satisfaction. I am unimployed today. I have been for some time now but I have also been very pleased with a lot of things and I have had some really cool experiences. Like a lot of time to do a lot of things here at home writing, travelling to USA sharing with Corinna, trying to pick up old friends and more. I have had a blessed 2 years the latest of my life. I have a few lines of things and dreams up my sleeve. I am in a process a long termed one but a process of moving to the United States of America. I will not let that dream leave my mind till I either am there or I have gotten a total denial of being let in to that country. I have a lot of geat things going for me especially in ths crue - Motley Crue world of mine. I have been told and I agree that I am more fortunate than most I truely have been getting a lot more than most the last year and a half. ButI als oknow why. And I know what it has taken of me to get it. A LOT!!!!!

Tomorrow I am having a talk to hat you could call society. They want me activated in some way to a lousy pay. And it kind of kills me. But I have build up a line of things to try to tackle them with And if it goes my way i am soon starting something new in my life. something new that could make me happier. Something new that could make me bettering a lot of thinsg and later on chances in life. If they choose not to listen to me I then say it now. BARE WITH ME - FORGIVE ME- but I will be low and devestated for some time. The USA trip ho ever from may 17th til 17th will take place nomatter if heaven or hell collide or not. Nothing can or and will change that one.

Still extremely pleased wioth the results of the sorting boxes the last week here Everything is just staring to make sense and it is a great feeling - well obviously. How can it not. I am truely trying to build up hope belief and more for wha tI am going towards. The first day of the rest of my life. Starting tomorrow I am gonna try something new as said above and i will do al li can to make it all happen. I will also try to make things go my way so I enter Summer 2006 in happiness. I am happy ight now as I type this. may be a weak short lived thing but then let it be so. Right now is the moment right now is the importnat one. So ...halleluja. I will get a fresh start and my motley universe will simply .....continue. Not fade out and go away. i talked to Corinna last night I talk to my brother and told them both I have a goal with this collecting thing. part from it being the most single important and natural thing in my excisting life, I want it to be in the end the biggest most bad ass hard core collection on the Motleys seen in Europe. End of story. No less will please me as the smoke cleares. Ill step on nails wak through fir and worse. I will have it as a goal. One amongst many in the Crue life that I lead.

Well what do you know. Corinna just logged on. I guess fate has its ways of its own.
Now Another meeting has been taking place today and that again my dear friends was with the webmaster. I have settled on a new thing to try out today!!
Well it actually wont start till I have a few more days behind me. But from now on till late August the site here will have a brand new totally so far untouched kind of makeover. It will be the best result of this mutha till date. Al lthat loves this site so far will adore the coming version of it. There are like a gazillion things to look into on here so yes it will actually take this long to get this one done. I will have a lot of new things tried ouot a new kind of sorting for every single section on here and further more I will have a long hard earned better site that will make this one here look a bit like a Fiat when we really are about to build up a Rolls Royce. Think about it. And then just have patience. I have I kind of have to have it. patience that is. It will be well worth the wait.

I think we will have a few new things put on here too in the next few days. I have a stack of articles here, magazine covers, CDs and more. There is a way to get this thing bettered but it will come on the new updated version of the site. This does not mean that we will not put any more on this version of mcrueloyalty.dk ofcause we will. And tonight already it starts. I think I will have a long time coming with crap to sort out and clear out before I am way up above water again. But I am hopefull for a positive energy to find my way till it is all the way I hope for with my life. Things are not the coolest right now but so be it. I am extremely lonely from having parted with all the stuff that gave me the social life and music that I always loved to fill up my every day life with. I need some new build social life. Isolation kills me. No good for a guy that always loves the action. No good for the guy that loves talking and warm shared long talks between myself and any one I care for. I have simply not had that for a long time. Too long time. Life is so fucking short. You fail on something and boom a year or two can slip through your fingers like that. Try have a good 4 5 or 6 slips and there goes a decade of your life that can be shorter than you care for to know. So I need to shape up rebuild something that can give me pleassure outside my Crue world and the damn every work what ever it may be.

Well with my next few episodes of ALLY (dont send me hate mail I know) I will every now and then look up with the widest smile possible and look at these newly arrived cool awards not nailed to the walls here. Hopefully things then will go my way after a good night sleep and a fresh well rested Tommy in the morning. You see I have a good feeling.........Once again and as always guys thanks for looking in on here and pardon my excitement of the day if you yourself is low and pissed. Then there is nothing worse than a smiling son of a bitch. but today folks I am pleased to be that son of a bitch. without hessitation what so ever. Back sooner than you think,
keep cool, Tomboy!!!

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17th of April 200SIXX, Eastern Ends, Unfriendly Attacks & Site Refreshments
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So Eastern is finally almost over and Corinna got back on the dance floor with a posting. I said it and I mean it. Welcome back. I am fully aware of her time scedual ... let me jus tkill the Corinna issue here and now.
I am aware of her busy sceduals. Trust me I dont even know when we actually talk much together. And when I do get a few hours with her here and there its as if its ONLY Crue talk - I forget things to say cause I miss her much and I miss feeling I have a girlfriend. It is damn well hard enough to get things to work for myself with her as a boyfriend or something it is even harder to get things on a roll with positive vibes on anything else between she and I for the one reason that we are not having the best and biggest chances in life right now to be together. You know what I mean?

Okay with that said I also have to say that the old loyal guest on the site *cruester* has been posting tonight after he has seen corinna`s posting. I agree with him her ways of do and say things are easy looked at as somethig that could go down as a negative girl. And yes she does have a temper and yes she does need to work on her ego too. BUT!!!! I really do not like the attacking from anybody against anybody in here. So please no matter if you guys are playing or not please do not go there. It is a rock n roll fansite of mine for the coolest band on earth and I really do not like that there is personal attacks on here. There has been plenty of that shit on other official sites over time ....please stop it.

We are all suppose to be family for the same band of the same interest what ever you wanna call it.
Corinna may have been a bit too angry in her posting but please how much does she have to go through in being questioned on her activities on here. I personally wish all would just appreciate what she does do on there when she does. And between you all and me she is doing a lot in the Motley name between herself and me. I truely think she is and has been the coolest Crue partner in all ways I can think of.
We did have a nastyness in Atlanta you guys know this I posted it and it will not happen again simply for one reason. I will not alou it. Should we ever get more shit like that no matter who is to blame I will end it. cause no TRUE and good functional realtionships are supposed to have these shitty things happening. It is fucking not right!! I at time even question the thing we have for the sake of normality or at least REAL partners we should share far more pssion for each other than we really do. most of our time and talks are about the band. Not so much about us. Ourselves. Our relationship. I have admitted it on here several times. I need that I miss that or else there really is no togetherness more likely a stricht friendship. But that is for us to deal with not really the masses -- it is not a crise center for yours truely or anybody else on here ..... but sure ME personally it affects me big time when I have a passion for one person and that person does not have the will to give me what I need and what ANY relationship between two people deserves and are all about. ENOUGH SAID!!!

As you could also read in corinna`s posting we have a few things lined up for a May adventure that I will most like have several mixed emotions about. I really wanna go but have no money to bring for the things that may come to mind. I also would have loved to get my own new tattoo, but no money. i would have loved to get certain things from there now I get another chance, but I have no money. I would .....its an endless list.

THE SITE: I think we need to have things done - refreshing the site a bit so a small meeting took place on here with the webmaster and a new helping hand kasper. We are trying or going to try to fix it up a little bit over the next few weeks. I will try to get things changed for the better soon. i will try to get things split up in better ways on here and I will try to make the next new site a killer in all ways. I want fucking perfection. And I know there are a ton of faults again. We need to get that shit bettered. I have and am saying I am sorry way, way, way, way too many times on that subject on here. HATE THAT STINKY FACT!!!
A lot of the pages on looks that kill have no longer backgrounds and a ton of pictures are no longer clickable for enlargement. Dont know what the heck the webmaster is on sometimes or what ever is going on. But you are all right it can not happen. Its is not acceptable.

The new ideas are a bit of a test for me. As I can not really sit here and say that I fully believe in the results on screen. I just know what they look like in my mind. Also on the front of things coming in in the US of A, Corinna have now gotten the tools to get scans and shit send over so things will no longer always have to wait a long, long, long time for me to go get the stuff brought home. Now we can actually put the new stuff up on here as it comes - almost!!! that too is an awesome thing thats kind of new. As most of you guys out there knows; i have most of my stuff coming to her in USA for shipping savings and a lot of auctions and sales are for the USA only!! Sucks but thats how they are them Americans. Not always cool.

we are gonna try to build up corinna´s place to be the Tommy home and Crue museum part two. We just need a whole lot of money to do it with. cause things are gonna go through a pro framing transfer .... and that will cost and take a long long time since there are so much of it. But it will look stunning. I myself have no more room here. All I have on my walls are awards. In the living room, hall way, bedroom etc....
No room for anything else. And this coming week I am getting 5 more. Then in about I would say maybe 3 more weeks 3 more. Then we begin to be at the end of a HUGE deal. I can only say this it has and is still a non regretable thing i have done. Changeing all my KISS awards for the Crue ones. I have a hard time seperating with the KISS ones sure but no regrets. It is all good.

I think there will be a cool long time try out on the site for the summr and fall of 2006.
A lot of things will happen with it and more and more will be put on here. I have had a few more new Crue friends added to my life and it is awesome. I love that I love the socoal shit. Wish I could live from that. I would be in heaven. I love sharing I love dealing I love socializeing I love I love I love a lot of things. Nothing has changed on the matter of me going to USA more permanent. I just wish there was a chance to do it now. Only one thing can take me to the USA just like that, without waiting for months and months and maybe years. MARRIGE!!!
I do feel I am kind of in a position where this dream too will not happen for me. I am not giving up that is not what I am saying but rather saying I am in a position with little or no hope. It is just for a guy like me - so hard to sit with needs and wants and then somebody or something is in the way for me to get the wish fulfilled. I can almost not accept that. Had it only been myself that had had a stupid lame excuse for not taking the step and go for it then that had been more than fine... but I am as ready as can be, I am only asking myself how long can I actually hold on to the good faith and belive of this to happen?? I am a LIVE FOR THE PASSION - LIVE FOR THE HERE AND NOW kind of guy. Not all the other crap that is a long time plan for I may fucking not be here that long so stuf with all that crap, I say!!!

Now - mid April has knocked on all our doors and spring is finally here for real. It is raining alot but thats how spring is kind of .. nothing new. I seriously hope all our early summer dreams will come true. I am in a need of a BIG, BIG, BIG summer myself. I can not accept anyhting less. I say again be kind to each other out there life is fucking short and before you know it its half over. Stop being a dick burry all the ego shit. Get up and wake up. Be open, let people in and share the good. I really do not like the world that I live in. But what can a one man army do on the matter? You know the answer....
I love only this - and you all know wha that is.

Tommy Lee

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**CRUESTER** WTF- This Is Your Imaginnation I'm not really here
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Hey Fuckers I am so sick of hearing about why isn't she here anymore. Is she not on the site any more, she should be taken off here, me & T have broken up. WTF people. I said time & time again I work constantly. I get 1 day off a week & every other Saturday & Sunday- which most of the time I work one or both of those days cause I get paid more to work on Sat. & Sun. And on that day off I have so much daily shit to take care of I usually don't get home until 10:00pm. So in between that, paying bills, eating, sleeping, & daily must do's you tell me when I have time to wipe my own ass. So fuckin' LAY OFF!!!!!!!! Just cause I don't post on here don't mean I'm not here. I still other things for the site that you don't see me doing.

So on the Crue side of things, me & T are headed out again in May to LA for a hopeful event of maybe seeing some of the filming of The Dirt. But I did say HOPEFUL. This is no guarantee by far so we are not counting on it. But as we are there if this does not happen we have other plans. We still have many Crue sights & seeings to go to. I'm pretty excited about it. T on the other hand I think wanted to go in July instead & not take this chance. For one July 1st is T's Birthday & on the 15th is the Hollywood Cruefest & we have been invited! I am not too keen on that thing due to the fact that it seems not to have too much to do with Crue I've heard. So I chose to do the May thing instead. I mean shit I cannot pass the chance to see the filming of THE DIRT if it happens. I'm willing to take that chance. That is a once in a lifetime thing, CRUEFEST is an every year thing. We can always go to that. Do you know what I mean?

Plus while in LA I will get to go see my DAD. He lives about 2 hours from LA. I have not seen him since August of 2000. That's almost 5 1/2 years. I am close to my dad. I miss him so much. He is also not doing well at all. He has been in & out of the hospital for the past 6 years & he is not going to get any better. He needs someone to help him with dily needs too. In fact as soon as I get divorced & sell my house here, I'm thinking about moving there. This is another reason for me going, I want to check things out as I am there to see if it is possible for me to move there. SO, we'll se what happens with that.

About T's last trip here, well...............
It was good & it was kind of bad. We did get into it while we were in Atlanta. I'm not quite sure why still. I said one thing to make a decision he wanted me to make then he turned around & did something else & that was it. I never really understod what happened but no big deal. We did miss the Vince after party cause of it. But from what I hear it was cut short cause he ended up in the back puking anyway cause he was drinking so much & so fast. But what's new RIGHT?!! He is slowly (well I don't know about slowly) but surely killing himself. It's a dangerous thing he is doing to himself. But he is VInce Neil so he does what he wants to do & who gives a fuck. Anyway we got over it & everything was ok. T did get some stuff signed that he really wanted so that worked out. I got a picture of me & Nikki signed by Nikki but I was not happy about it at all cause it was VERY sloppy (like a kids drawing) & he did it right over his face. But on the other hand I got so what the fuck am I complaining about. SHUT UP! I also got my big meet-n-greet pic- that T had made for me- signed by NIkki, Vince, & Tommy & still missing Mick. So I am very pleased about that. I will get Mick on there if it is the last thing I do!!! I have to have it. Things I have to ahve I will get!!

On another note my home is a fuckin disaster. I moved in Dec. & still have shit everywhere. It is like a bomb went off in here. I just don't have the time to put stuff away. Imagine that me not have time for something. LOL Those are going to be my famous last words!!

Sorry to jump from subject to subjectr but I forget things quickly. So I have an idea when we go to LA. I have been wanting another tattoo. I want to go to the SUNSET STRIP TATTOO place & get the Crue logo from this tour. The circus logo that they have hanging above on the set at the shows. I'm not sure where I want to put it though. Maybe my upper or lower back. So T I know you don't like this idea but I want it so sorry. I really think I'm gonna get it done while we are there. What do you guys think? YAA or NAA?

Now to the other known name to this site every now & then. **CRUESTER**. I guess I made it before my 60th B-Day! Who the fuck are you dude? I always tell you to email me personally but you never do. I get sick of you telling all this shit to T when yo ucould just tell me without bothering him. Yeah that's right too LICK MY FUCKING ASS. You are the most jealous mother fucker I have ever heard of. I can't say seen cause I've never seen you. Why are you so afriad to talk only to me? I think your just a big FAT ASS Ugly PUSSY Mother Fucker! Why don't you get on the gang of loyalty? Are you scared or what? I bet your a real freak huh? What's your story? You are constantly on my ass about something, you must get off on it!! I see that you follow this site pretty closely & I thank you for that loyalty but dude it makes me wonder. WOW SLAYER seasons in the abyss- haven't heard this in forever. It's playing on VH1. Sorry about that I just got excited! So CRUESTER how about some answers from you.

T has just added another smashed BASS to the collection thanks to ME again!! I just couldn't stand for him to talk about it every day & how he was just this much short of getting it so I had to step in & help out! I hate to miss such fantastic deals just because your this much short!! I had to get it added to the collection!! So once again hope all well T Boy & we get this thing!!

I also have gotten T some other stuff too! I ordered him the Too Fast zip up hoodie, the orange work shirt, a karokee CD, the double disc Carnival Of Sins CD, the 2007 Crue Calander, a book with Crue in it- not sure of the name of it, but got it from here: http://www.mayhembooks.com/crue.html , & maybe something else I don't remember.

Today T has taught me how to use my scanner. Thanks!! So I was able to get some rhings here added to the site much soon than they would have been. I will also sometime scan some things that I have that T doesn't (yaeh you heard me right "that T doesn't have") & get them added to the site too. But don't expect it overnight cause that is not going to happen. As my work schedule is full again due to taking this vacation in May. Trying to make extra money too for the trip since itr is all gonna be on me this time!! I don't know how I'm gonna do it but I will some way or another!

By the way to everybody Me & T are just fine. Sometimes we may not think so but who wouldn't in this kind of situation. But T when I do see you again I must tell you one thing. It's not great but it's nt horrible. Don't bother me about it I'll say when I see you. Sorry ppl this is not something I wish to just say right here & now so tough shit for you!! Well it now 2:06am & I need some sleep as I have to go to work tomorrow on Easter Sunday. By the way here is a nice pic of the easter bunny:
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So on that note HAPPY FUCKIN' EASTER!!!!!!!!! Don't eat too many of those rotten eggs as you do know what they do to you!!

Until the next milenium your CRUED Bitch stay crued for life. LATER

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12th of April, No More Boxes, Complete Sorted & New Buyings - Will It Ever Stop???
1:22AM CET
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Who has the shittiest time around? i qualify!! i fucking hate this time in my life. It is filled with a whole lot of nothing. I am sick and tired of the so called normality. i have said this in the last few postings on here but my god nothing has been more true for quite some time. Let that be the final word on the matter. On to more positive things and atemted smiles. Right? Sure you all say. Right? Or I will say it for you. The god damn boxes have all been turned upside down and inside out. There has not been a Motley itme untouched the last few days. For 2 reasons. One is that I have been forced to look in on the stuff in the many boxes and try to get it all together you know what I refer to, all shirts together all posters together and so on. Guess What the hell doings have been met with my baby brother. He has been more keen on the sorting than I I guess. It has been hell with the changes on here in my life the last month but also all the items have for the first time in many many years now been put in one place on one address that has not happend since what ... the mid 90s or something ?!! So there is a cellebration in that alone right there.

Now the stuff has ben looked at and more for the 2nd reason for the sorting. To see what has still been missing to be photgraphed or scanned for the site. And ohhhhh yes!! There are a good lot once again. it fucking never ends. And to top it all off there have been made several new buys too today!! My god I will die doing this if it does not change any time soon. will it ?? hell no not in my lifetime. Blame the ones after me for not continueing the collecting business I will do it till my tooth falls out.

I hear too that Corinna has done some $ spendings on my part. Well what do you know? It is nothing new. She is excellent in doing that she is excelelnt in calling me andsay "hey you - you owe me money"
No wonder I will go to hell and never return. Well it is hot in hell so who can complain, Here in fucking little shit hole of a country called Denmark it has been cold and wet now for a decade it feels like. It is very easy for even me now to say ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!! I know what is coming. Holly weird and california. In may!! In 4 more weeks and it is happy days. Sunny days, away from the god damn stinky system of society. I will again be drawn from the pay check to make this move. But see if I care. I do not. I am dead sure that these moves in the name of Motley the next let us say 18 months will kill me littleraly. What can I do? Stop doing this? No!!! The funny thing is I at the age of 17 said i will most likely die at the age of 42. i am not suprised if that should really happen. No need to even try aiminfg for it . With the life that I lead right now it is going down hill and it is going fast. How was that again? One once said live fast die young? go figure.

I am rady with ALL the boxes here now and for the first time in years there is actually a 98% full control of what there really is in the collection here. And whats double and what is in what condition and more. Actually these past few days have been one great move. Hard work but well worth the trouble. I think my baby brother is getting over the Crue thing pretty good and it is doing him good. Actually only good. but he is also now on top of what is here and he has now for a long time too wanted to see the new stuff and now he sort of has seen it all. It is still with a good pile of items in the Southern state of Carolina that I go over there in May and I will again bring home a new lot of things to get added to this right here. the coolest site on the band according to many.

I have more stuff for you laying magazins, posters, photos, flyers, DVDs, CDs, and much much more.
I also know that the two new Australian books are out now www.cafepress.com/cruetime is where you can get these books. Yours truely has a smaller part in one of these too.

"Mötley Crüe Down Under"
This book is a detailed, first-hand account of Mötley Crüe's Red, White & Crüe tour. After summing up the Crüe's history from the fans' perspective in their first-ever live album six years earlier, Paul Miles finally got his chance to see the band live for the very first time. Travel across Australia with the author, sharing all his experiences with Mötley and their crew, the cities he visits, and the people he meets along the way. It's YOUR 'All Access' pass, taking you in and out of the strip club, the restaurant, the beach, aeroplanes, bars, arenas, hotel rooms, limos, shops, backstage corridors, nightclubs, dressing rooms - even the graveyard! Enjoy the humourous Mick Mars, the loud-as-hell Tommy Lee, the respectful Nikki Sixx, the classic Vince Neil, as well as cameos from Motörhead's Lemmy Kilmister.
Includes: $24.95
6 shows in 8 days across Australia with Motörhead in December 2005
Copies of press releases and the full press conference transcript
A unique insight into life on the road with Mötley Crüe
Photos by Nikki Sixx and other members of the crew
100-plus tour pictures inc. Mötley keepsakes
A short intro by Mighty Mike
Paperback: 200 pages

Binding: Perfect-Bound
Publisher: Chronological Crue (April 2006)
ISBN: 097581124X
Product Number: 26927891

"What Mötley Crüe Means to Me"
Like Mötley Crüe's band members themselves, their fans have also experienced their fair share of divorce, death, addiction, love, abuse, and incarceration. This book is a high-quality "by-the-fans, for-the-fans" collection, showing the impact and inspiration of Mötley Crüe on their fans' lives. They tell stories of how they've looked up to the Crüe as family figures, guiding and shaping their worlds, while fellow fans have become the cousins, bonded by the Mötley way of life in their veins. The Crüe is always there for them as a positive energy to celebrate with, to wallow with, to vent with, and to be inspired by. For it's the Crüe and their music that the fans religiously turn to for help to pull them through the ugliest and toughest of times. You will laugh at the things they have done; you'll nod your head in agreement with their feelings. Because as they say - Crüe fans are best, f@ck the rest!

Includes: $24.95
69 Crüeheads open up their hearts for the whole world to read
Fan contributors aged 11-41
Stories from across the continents of North America, Europe, South America and Australia

Foreword by Shaun Pollitt of Motley.com
Edited by Chronological Crue's Paul Miles
Paperback: 118 pages
Binding: Perfect-Bound
Publisher: Chronological Crue (April 2006)
ISBN: 0975811231
Product Number: 52589081

Like that is not enough. Also new people have been added or will be to the gang of loyalty in the next few days. And one guy is going to be a good sorce to get the site more lively. It wil ltake a few but it will change and change to the better one again. Just check in on here as I intend to say all the time. New changes to the site will come once again. Also we have new ideas for new things to get on here and there will be a late May awesomeness in form of writings and pictures documenting the Hollywood life of motley Crue from early 80s till well... now.

One other fan that has at times blown my mind and been my bidding hell hore on Ebay has also joined forces with us on here now Tina know as .. no I am not gonna say it. (Ebay thinkings here) But a warm welcome to her and I know she too can do some really great few things. Maybe even get some things added to this baby Here are some of her stuff from her private collection.


"the top left (picture 4) was EMI's (mick's ex) personal pass she had to have on her at all times when she was on tour. the purple ones were a private party she threw for mick's 40th birthday ( vince never showed up). the wristband was the last one she ever used on the feelgoood tour.....she gave them to me last year. she is a sweetheart! we write to each other all the time and she is supposed to come for a visit in june!"

I guess that is all you will get for now. More nasty stories to come your way later. I need to get things sorted here the last part and then I need to get my nextfew postings up on here and free my mind a bit.
I can inform ou this The last 3 days have been giving me emails with offers on things for a total amont of about 2000 dollars once again. You figure out for yourself what I have done and not done or this posting is never gonna end. I think there are a few things that can actually suprise some on here. A lot of things are going on in my Crue life right now and it is extremely hard to keep up with now a days for me too.
Later to ya all, We will be back shortly!!!

Dig it!!
To the masses I leave you with this ...
get a good jerk off seems to the only thing one can rely on these days!!
Tomster

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9th if April 200SIXX, Box Diving, Pleased Satisfactions And Unstable Erections
8:30PM CET.
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Sunday again!! Call me a bitch, call me a faggot, call me white trash but I am something you will never be.
Satisfied in a world of pure passion for everything I do. Why do I say this? I have had so much talk while I went out on town last night to people that are just so out of tthe ordinary. my god. They are all filling up their days stuff they do not really care for. And ultimately wish were not in their lives. My god i was looking in at zombieland. my god. I am so happy I am able to and dare be me. Dare be like I am. I have extreme friends out there in yahoo land that continue to tell me it is a mutha fucking coolness what I do. I bow to ya all. damn maggots. I love your asses. Wiped or not. I admit it. I need more social living. But I fucking now once again got confirmed why I feel like in a circus where ever I go. there are masses of clowns every fucking where. comedians that are simply hidding behind macho shit or a fake face of bull. Be mobscene I say!!! baby in my world. Fuck it. Still say and probably take it to my grave .. SO CALLLED NORMALITY sucks ass.
I have been box diving all day. What? Box what? What the hell is that? Well I have started diving into the many many boxes here with Crue in them. i have emptied some today and is FAR from ready.
But this is going to be awesome. i will actually have something that is going to remind me of a home When Iam done here. It is fully as awesome as anything I can think off. Sex? Nahh hippped bulshit. Unstable erections and shitty blowhjobs anyway!! Who givesan ass....I just wanna get this life in boxes dealt with and that is right now these days exactly what I am doing. And my god all the damn picks, stickers and shit that pops up from several boxes. I have finally gotten some things put together so all and each erea is now put together in this binder and that binder. As started off by saying it is awesome. I love it. I will love it. My next problem is going to be to find room for all the awards. I have no more walls here. On the other hand I say what the fuck. I own the shit and the rest is just sick worries I should not have. More shit is going to see south carolina in a good 5 weeks. As I once again hit the USA for some time with Corinna. Not staying there but hitting San Diego and Holly Weird once more. i do not give a rats ass about the things that needs to be fulfilled for this one to happen no more. I am just going and that my friends is the single coolest thing this or next month. I am not an artish i am a fucking work of art. You want it perfect? You got it fucking perfect. Whats my name bitches? I am ruleing my own god damn world. I am not closing doors I constantly incvite people in but once the door opens people gets scared and turn and run away. I got a shitty fantasy but the only thing missing is a bitch like you.I have had enough of rules and fucked up geeks that can not look me in the eye and tell me straight. Yes in case you wonder last night took something away from me.
ka-boom Ka-boom Ahhh kaboom Kaboom .what a fucking joke life can be. And what a shit sad world so many live in. No heart ordinary life living. Fuck - no wonder it is like a foreign farse hey you all hear it?? Ka-boom kaboom ahhh ka-boom kaboom ahhhhrrrrggggghhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well There are more shit coming on here shortly. I also have a new guy in over this one. The site that is. Casper, a guy of the ordinary yeah well what can you say? he on the other hand is a master at a few things on the internet so we will in the early summer months try to blow some life into the site. Just wait and see....Coolness coming. Frightning Yes!!! be afraid be very ... afraid. I will try to take this monster to even greater heights. But I say it right now it is fucking hard to go one man gang. No one can top the goals i dream of unless they are fucking already famous or filthy stinking rich. Which boxcan i consider myself to be in on?
I tell you NON of the above. I am a single low life fucking street bumb!!! Can not win much over alone. Or can I? I do believe youcan get what you dream of if you play your shit right and / or have the luck it takes to get there!! Okay then. So where am I in this stinker? I tell you. I am a gambler. I play to win. Period!!!!!! No more no less. I dont care bout the costs. DO I have the engredience I spend it. Do I not I go all the way to get it. Not a "NO" from anyone can count in this fame if it would you would loose right there and then. Not a word in my notebook.

Pleased satisfactions is what life is all about - well isnt it?
Whats a life without goals? Without dreams? Without heroes? Nothing, no place to be, its no place for me....
I think there is a chance to be truth to your dreams no matter where on earth they lay. But if you get to be depending on someone on your way be carefull. Try to always be one step ahead of your own dreams and plannings. Cause another being can fuck up or put a stop to your dreams in sanp of your fingers. I am not putting any down here simply opening up about what I think is a great advise Or play the safe game. Dont dream for aqnythng that is out of the ordinary. Ordinary seem to be going for most people. get your girl or yourguy and settle down with a job of any kind. As long as it brings you your monthly income get a house a home get kids and fucking smile.

I am here to tell youthat is just not a dream of mine.
I will headhunt my Crue dreams and then get the shit together called the coolest Motley Crue collection ever for any private single person. That is what i wanna do.
I am willing to go the disance then after that you can all let me die in peace. I have tried the other life a few times been givin it a chance but this here is a drug A drug I want no rehab institutional stayings for what so ever. Its in my blood. I have lived music as a kid of the working class since the age of 3 and I do´this till I die. Do not get me wrong. I have really tried. I have every time either been dissapointed - fucked over or been unable to let this world here go for good and atthe same time been extremely bored. Motley fucking Crue is my calling. I live this I breath this and there is no other way.

For the true believers.
Till next time kids
Yours truely,

Mr. Loyalty

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6th of April 200SIXX, More Grabbed Shit And A Rough Funeral – Still Crued
12:05 AM CET
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It is April and we have gone to summer time but yet … look at this it SNOWS!!!

Hail the dark and lonely nights. I would treasure company and a sweet holding hands and soft wet kisses with a loved one. Tonight is as most nights in my life. Lonely and at the edge of loneliness. I am fairly fine though. I tell you all why.

Are you ready? Do you really wanna hear this crap? Some of you out there may go, “fuck dude stop the tease and get on wit hit”. Alright, alright, alright ….easy now jeeezz!! I need a cop of coffee. Feels like I have a lot of things to say and yet not. Hang on a second alright. Let me get my candles lightened and jump in my pyjamas and get my freshly made coffee.

(3 minutes later) Now – I am sitting here nicely warm and satisfied with the day that has now passed. Another - for me ended day in the name of the Motleys. I have gotten about 35 new items paid today. Later to added to the collection I LOVE it. But it holds many unreleased posters and other DVDs, personals, shirts, this n that and more. I am pleased .I did not truly think I was able to get the money together for these things. I also have to say a few things was wanted like WANTED on auctions today but as so many times before other bidders took it to a level I could not deal with. I never got these items. I lost all three of them. It is always painful. But I know these are not off the lots that can be truly considered ONE OF A KIND items. Only they all were and still are fairly hard to find. And in great conditions absolutely even harder.

I think also there is a chance to find these items later on. Sure there is. So it was kind of shitty but yet it was nice that a lot of other things got to be paid and find its way to the collection here. Man I can hardly tell you all how great a feeling it STILL IS to be so dead sure that some things will just not happen for you and then when the smoke clears… Helloooo you sit there in victory ones again.

And the one that is the most but fully positive surprised is your self. I love it. Not often that that happens in my filthy little life.

Thanks mom that’s for all. Lol!!!

Now I have gotten another thing inside the apartment here today. A new computer. Laptop city baby!! With the goods to go with it. Speaker system and a blasting scanner printer fax machine all fucked up shit in one. God bless the needy! I was so in need of this. Have had a borrowed PC here for a long time now. It should be over as soon as this new stuff is connected and plugged in. Fuck the daily stuff today. I can not really be knocked out. I am on top the where ever you wanna put me. It is just an all awesome feeling. A lot has been touched today including a few more boxes of the Crue lots all over this god forsaken place.

Janine you make me smile a lot these days. Crue dedication always. But we talk so good these days about all in life. It is nice. I love it. I wish more people could be like you. Open interested and more direct as I and there for we have a cool bond that is simply unique. What other word could possibly cover it?? Awesome. I have a line of great people in my life. I have a line of people in my life I hope too to get to know even better. I have a few that means the world to me. Even some out side my fucked up Crue life. Yes you can take stinker to the bank. I do have a few breathings to be taken outside Crue still. It sounds almost as the biggest lie known to man right? But is true, believe me. I am so happy today fuck had I not known any better I would say I had either won a million or got laid. Yeah yeah it is dirty and stinky but I am a guy alright!! That is my lame little excuse alright so back off. Who said horny? I am not I was but I took care of it. NOT while listening to a Crue CD. NO!!!! Would not do that to the boys that’s gay!!! Hell yes it is don’t argue with me on it. Get down suck it.

I also think the so called US trip in May will be pushed for a more massive ding in July. The old fart of a host goes into “zombie” land in July. Getting old. Or is it just older? Hell I guess we all are only as old as we find our selves to be right? That means that I turn 22 in July. What a nice little figure. Look at it 2 2 (two two) almost like a little tutu train!!! Okay T boy it is officially time for a brains check in the morning you are loosing it pal.

So ton of great buying today and a funeral to be held for the now long time borrowed PC. Out with the old and in with the new one once told me.

What that was all about I have totally forgotten but it does not seem to matter much so…. Fuck it!!

Have any one anything to say to me about anything? If so say it in the KICKSTART section on here and get it over with. Pardon me!! Am in high spirit today! Lost wanted goods but the damn buyer does that to me a lot of times these days. COMPETITION city!!!

Now I will have to let you off the hook before I write more rubbish!! I am stinky tired and I begin to have twice the size of a normal tastboard here due to me seeing double at times. It is almost 1.30 Am and I have been out in the fresh air a long time today so I feel pretty cooked and over done if you know what I mean?!!

I will have a weekend off from the site from tomorrow as I need to get the last house cleaning thing done and then try to connect this new computer lot so I am rolling hard as hell once more!!
kisses and stiff dicks to you all!! No? well leave off the kisses then …lol

April SIXX 2000 SIXX 20 SIXX minutes past midnight!!!
I am officially off of here.
Have a good weekend you all.

PS: My 2nd home in South Carolina has as of today gotten its first wall decorations with some of my stuff that’s there. Much more will come and there will soon enough come a feeling of a Crue museum there. You just wait and see,

Your fucked up host - look at this chick .. how can one not smile???

T boy!!!

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4th of April 200SIXX, Fuckin Not happenin Helloooo

12:59AM CET

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See this mail is a bit unreal for me – Shaun, England you have just made a decision that makes my face crack in a wide hurting smile. Thanks man. Thank you. Long story guys. To save time and more, here it goes. Ready?

Nikki Sixx smashed bass number 4 or is it 5 fuck lost count. It is now in the collection. As of a verbal trust of this very hour I now say this is a safe. I can not believe it. It is fucking killer. A knock out of the classics!!! Somebody blow me. Jeeezzzz……….

Smashed in Memphis Tennessee 2005!!!

Home of some really cool thing legendary and all. The single one concert that Corinna and myself talked so much about attending after the AWESOME day in Nashville meeting the lot and had the best time ever. FICK DICK!! Yeah well…… right back at you buddy… Love it. Baby it feels like making love. Can you feel it? Been a life time for me personally but I feel it. Damn straight I do!

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3rd of April 200SIXX, Almost And Nearly – Neat And Acceptable

12:30 PM CET

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Alright freaks the site is almost uploaded with the newest stuff too. It will have its last few things thrown on here in the next couple of days. Not much left to go. Besides the items that are still laying and coming to South Carolina for me. There are still picks, passes, posters, books, magazines, caps, tickets, personals, CDs etc, etc, etc!!!! But that will go on as I get to the states the next time so I can bring it back here.

How are you all doing?
Me? I have been in the land of boxes and shit for a week now. I still have a shit messy apartment but have gone through a lot of boxes. Any female would have gone NUTS living here. And that was not meant in a good sense. It is messy limited space and all. Only cause of my musical interest. It is every where. If not hanging on the walls, then in a box. Let me throw you a few examples here are some pictures

It may not say much but if you look in on the site and start REALLY LOOKING you se how much is still not placed in its spot so to speak. A lot of boxes and crap all over. I will eventually get there YES I will. But my god it takes time. And lots of it. I can at least now walk round and get through that is a big step forward for sure.

I am also on a continuing journey with my story about the past in my life. I hope I get to do it all in a proper way some day. It just is not all clear in my mind when did I actually do what and where and why. It would take a lot of research on my own being but … at least this version should give you a better feel about what it is all about. And how and why I got this heavily into Crue and the collecting thing.

I am about to FINALLY get a new computer. Have been without one for a long time now. This one here is a borrowed one. And it kills me. I HATE I repeat HATE to borrow stuff. If I am in need of things I would much rather by it myself. I do not know what that is. I mean I am awfully grateful and all that but I just do not like dealing with borrowed stuff. I on the other hand LOVE to be the one reaching out and help and lend out. Weird.

I got a phone call that of cause ended up having a conversation about Nikki and the Crue boys too from San Diego last night just before midnight. And old I dare say friend called me. Snake Feider. He was once very dear to me. Then a lot ha0ppend and I kind of felt fucked over. Time heal all wounds? Well yes sure does. I still like to talk to him but things have changed. Now the thing about this guy is he is in my eyes a rock n roll star wannabe. And he could have been. But in my mind he just did things the wrong way a long, long time ago. He now is not fully cutting it if you know what I mean. And he does envy the Crue and their ways and success. And I can understand that!! He could have he should have but he did not. SO I think maybe his last train has left the station.

A thing like that kind of kills me. Only because I know what it feels like to want something but either don’t succeed or chicken out. I have had these shitty experiences close to my soul too many times myself. I know what I would like to do now a days or at least try out BUT!!!! I seriously doubt I will be blessed. Then again – what the fuck you only live ones. You have fucking got to try dude. Right? No? Hell yeah!!! Well Mr. Feider, depending on the results of the American jury called Corinna Hargrave I will have to owe you and myself the final answer to weather or not I will be in San Diego in about 4 weeks from now. Another personal and long story. I will spare you all.

Surely that had been a fucking killer week I am sure. But also I know it is not fully going my ways these days with much in my life. Buuu huuu stop the winning. Yeah well….. fuck off. I am open here and I dare say when I am good and I dare say when I suck Alright appreciate the openness.

Other than a ton of thinking the final touch to the updating of the newest items and house cleaning I try to get away from the Crue world a bit the last few days. By going outdoors prepare for spring in the backyard and garden. Looks shitty now better. I so long for the time now too. The summer to come. Get a bit out in the sun sit there with friends and just enjoy a cold beer coffee salad bar and grilled this and grilled that. Now that’s fucking life isn’t it? Hell it is….

More stuff in deals are getting closed in these next few days.
Same old story it never ends. A continuing, expanding collection on the 4 Crue men.
Bow to the dedicated!!!!

Yours truly

Tx

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1st of April 200SIXX, Life Sucks But There Is A Light – Trust Me

11.07AM CET

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I sit here asking myself where the hell did March go? It is gone never ever to return. Life sucks it is fucking over before you get things done. So I turn my self into a 7” and put myself on repeat as I have done a gazillion times before in life. Follow your god damn dreams. Take chances that are what makes life alive I guess .Play n the constant safe side and get bored a hell of a lot faster. I have the last few days been sitting here thinking “you know what T boy? You have been giving a blessing on a few things in life. You are so rich in adventures and experiences. You can lay down and die with a smile if you should”. That is damn right. I am a lucky son of a bitch in that field. I have done so much in my 39 years already. Having in mind I am coming out of the working class I will never find success because I don’t care for the things that perhaps could give me success. I live rock n roll and I will most likely die poor and shitty. But I did this and I saw that.

Recently I have ha heaps of troubled minds. I have wanted so many things wanted so much won over but for every 20 things I try I fail on 15 of them. Why? Because I dared trying. And I did not regret any of the failiours. What the fuck, I have such many other great things such many good people in my life. I guess my real treat in life is my collecting thing and the true friends I have. Everything else seems so uncertain. So living on borrowed time. I am not good with that shit!!!

Mom has been yes I did say mom even though I am getting old as a dinosaur. She has been a good support on my recent situations and been kind of a good friend in things going on. I guess she still hope for me to find my dreams and true love. She has never and will never understand my passion of the rock n roll music but she does listen when I come home and share my adventures. She thinks it is interesting though she do not understand it. I am missing a lot of people these days that used to be in my life on a more daily basis. And I am missing in a curious way new people I have met on my many travels around the world the last two years. I wish it should not be this hard to find a way to get even closer.

My ex-girlfriend and still friend Tine is coming home from more than 6 months in India. She is all changed she says but to a more life thinking individual. I can not wait to see her. She is truly missed we have been emailing a lot as she has been there. No, no, no, no she is not and never will be my soul mate as in a partnership / relationship. You wonder why? Long story. She too did never understand my collecting and there for NO!!!

I miss her ex after me Michael! He and I had some extremely good times if you ask me. But he then split with her and found other things just got lost in natural ways. But I miss him. I miss Corinna from South Carolina for more obvious reasons … wish I could just take my bicycle and go to her as I pleased. I miss a girl I used to work with on an independent record label here in Denmark. We have totally lost touch. That’s a bloody shame. Other people too.

Recently Janine of New York.
She is kind of new to my world but we seem to be so alike share and think and like to do a lot of the same things. Rare in my world I tell you. I miss some of the old Hollywood people and more. So frightened to see what the out come will be on that. The check up from Corinna on the much talked about May thing. If things should go bad on our Nikki thing then, then I will fell badly and she will most likely hate me forever. As I know she is doing this (if it happens) with an extreme hard worked on solution. And I do not know if I can bare that kind of miss out on my shoulders, there I go again always taking the bad in as if it’s happening already! I have had so many times of good luck but hey man it is also just as many times that I have had shit fallen on my head that could not be any differently even if I sold my soul.

On the more direct website situation, I can tell you all it is almost ready after all .I totally misplaced the time on this update on the part of me and the webmaster. We have had a week now with really good results not too many fuck ups so most is here already! Nice huhh!! And its April fools day. This is no joke though! Fuck no. We are all good here.

And look at it dudes, it is huge now. Damn the many cool things that got on here are proud possessions of mine now. Next dream is to get ok maybe I should NOT go there I will never stop then. But the Hollywood May thing is a dream with my babe and the closing of the awards deal too so I can feel FULLY safe about getting them all and all KISS awards did go out so I would not sit with 3 or 4 left and regret selling the shit cool ones and sit back with the perhaps not so cool ones. There are some more really cool ones coming to my door though. Holy shit. My walls are covered already. I can not begin to tell you how that feels.

As we get a bit more into my cleaning house thing lol, lol I will take some pictures and put up here of this hell hole. I do not have any more room for anything. Should anything even the slightest poster be displayed up on ANY of my walls I would have to take something else down from the walls. It really is that way in every room here. I know it is not the biggest apartment but that is because I do not want to have too much money put in rent or something as I often am not here anyways. But then again I did expand my Motley displaying did I not? Hell yes I did. I have started to cover apartment number two in South Carolina. Will that do it? No that too is simply not enough room to have all out and displayed. I know it sounds bragging and more but it really is the god damn truth too. The collection has grown and is expanding in a high gear and it is just not stopping. Uhhh that sounded good let me just say that one more time. …and it is just not stopping Auch!!!!!

Now I have other talks going with people that are selling stuff and that are thinking of giving up things I would like to have but the outfall of that I have no clue about so I can not really say anything. I could tell you what it is but I won’t either. So unnecessary to waste time and words on things that may not happen! But you all know me – I will try. I will go the line and damn well try the best I can. I will refuse to lay down play dead till the show is over. But it wont be till 2008 or 9. So there so. And then what happens? A shit load of coolness is going to surface and again I will do all I can to be there. But as I always say I can be fucking long gone by then so I live in the now and I will do all I possibly can to follow up on all doings here there everywhere. It is my life not a hobby!!!

To all the doubtful

Eat dirt

Txxx

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28th of March 200SIXX, Midnight Pop Classics & Settings Goals
1.10AM CET
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Fuck me look ya all…hey babe what’s for dinner …. Fuck me that’s an awesome love right?

It is just after 1:00 AM Tuesday morning late March. I am sitting here ending my last scanning for the day. I have done a quiet good job on here with he adding and all to the site with my webmaster. We have tried to do most possible and tomorrow or actually today will have the last HUGE actions taken on the site for this time. I do not say it will be the last it is just our last day with a chance for doing much in one day. I am totally of from work well I seem to be so for a couple more weeks. Because I am without a job and it is a tough situation. And the Webster is only having a half day tomorrow. So nice for the site bad for the pay I guess.

I am listening to old pop classics on radio 2 here in Denmark not a thing I normally do. I do not like to listen to pop radio. Not pop period because I do like certain pop. Shit there is a lot of good quality pop out there too. So with the radio on my scanner has gone red hot for the heavy burn on there today. It has been a hard long time today but my god a lot of things and areas have been updated today. The pop culture has been a nice break from the loud guitars and black leather for the day. I have gone mellow in the late hours. But I like it.

I am trying to set new ideas up in my head and I am also trying to find new and small ideas for bettering of the stuff already on here. One thing that is totally new is the font page that now has on its left “SHOP CRUE HERE” – Yeah indeed mcrueoyalty.dk has been giving green light from Mr. Shaun Pollitt and the staff at swagrox.com. Fucking get your official Motley stuff through the site right here now. All buyers count and help your favourite fan site (THIS ONE HERE) for greater heights and more. So keep supporting us and get involved to if you like. I am still looking for the TRUE dedicated people and crue heads by heart to become a new and expanding member of the gang of loyalty. Have had a few on here that did not seem to care for other, than the fun of being listed here. I can not use that for anything. But there are involved people on here that truly are amazing and now have become good friends that I truly hope I will never loose.

There are a few balls up in the air that is new items in the mail too.
I have cleared a good 800 dollars of shit again and it is just a great but hard process due to the short financial holdings. I think some of the new things I am working on could be awesome if they actually could come out as a success. I know it will be hard work and I know it will be an amazing long road to try to win over. But as you may have seen till now I refuse to give in. I wanna die knowing I at least went for it. I am not going to die saying I wish I had done so and so. Hell no!! Life is not very long so live to the fullest and try to be true to yourself and the most important people in your own life. It is such a blessing what you can actually get out of it if you stay true loyal and always set and aim for the goals of your dreams.

I keep getting emails about the awards and what the BIG deal is all about. Well I as some of you know had an offer early in 2006 that said “I have about 12 – 15 Crue awards of extreme interest since they are all Motley Crue old belongings. 90% of these are presented to a member of the band.

And most of the different tittles are in the lot too. I went sure there is no doubt but this lot alone had maybe cost me a grand total of more than 20.000 dollars. So guess what? Thank god for my old passion in the masked foursome KISS. I have or rather had 20 to 25 plus awards on the New York shock rockers. And the Crue seller was and still is interested in doing trades Motley for KISS so that is what is going on. Half of my KISS pride and decades long hunt and search in these awards are long gone. Out the door already! I sold 85 to 90% of all my collection in 2001 and kept these awards along with a few more things. Now that stunt is doing me good. No its doing me GREAT! I am so pleased. I would say the latest 5 awesome Motley awards would be listed in the award section on here in a good 12 hours.

The total awesome and old stuff from the first ride into the Motley world back in 1981 Leathur Records. That section is on “This N That page 1” top line. That too has finally had a few of its added stuff. Old original notes documents, memos and cards, stickers and demo cassettes. Love that little section. Who the fuck would not?? If you are a Motley by heart that is. Damn expensive stuff sadly. And now that I have it maybe it goes “thank god” I begin to say my pension is not a bank saving on a small piece of plastic in form of a credit card. No it is on my walls in my this and that and everywhere. Fucking love looking at my money when money looks like this and not just a paper stack with old dead men and a figure on them. It is fucking awesome.

I guess right now it is just a talk fee of mind as I sit here in the dark closing this day after a warm midnight shower and clean sheets on the bed. How could any ask for more? Well had my honey been here I would have been in heaven. But she right now is rushing through the halls on various floors at the local hospital doing what is her job. No good for me. Hell no. I am not going to the USA again as it looks right now until October or something. She is though, trying to get me over for mid May. I would surely adore that for my own reasons. But I doubt it will happen. It simply is not an easy thing to make come through this time around. But we will see. She is an amazing girl in many ways and she is unlike me one that mostly gets what she aims for. Her mind works in a way I can not really figure out but what ever and how ever she does it she always comes out as the winner of most!!

Well just a few last night words guys. I will be back here shortly and surely for a long day of hard work on the site tomorrow. I love it just as much as you do have no doubt about it!!!

Seen all the latest tour merchandise is on here now? Shirts, smaller things on this n that and more. New 2006 flyers and things in the solo member sections too…..enjoy

Love all you bitches

Tommy

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26th of March 200SIXX, So You Wanted To Know Huuh?? Well Let Me Tell Ya…

5.13AM CET

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Some questions people have asked me, I will honour these by setting up some answers for you right here right now. Let me just once again quickly say thanks for the great support you have giving me through out the last year that we have had this site up and running. It will continue to run and continue to grow. My passion for it is too big for anything different. The questions I have chosen to reply to be the questions I guess would cover most of who and what I am all about. Sit back and enjoy your coffee or what ever you may have, here we go……

“What are the limits for this site?”
There are no limits. I would love to go through the roof and to the moon with it if there were money enough and website sizes big enough to do so. I am as passionate about Motley Crue as I ever has been. I have never spent so much time or money on the band in all kinds of ways since their reunion. I always said I would like to end my collecting thing with a bang! Well, did I not just do that? I guess I am doing that. It is just a long and hardly never ending finish I guess lol. But there is nothing on here I would not have or do. Part from a Motley news section. I simply think too many fan sites have some latest news on the band kind of thing that is what we have the official site for in my book. SO there really is no need for all fan sites to cover the activities in the band camp. It just gets too boring. Plus I will never list my Motley photos. There are way, way, way too many and absolute never ending area. So no….

“What is my single most pride and joy in my collection”.

I do not have children but had I had some well, in all honesty. Who would my favourite child be? Can not put it like that. Some just has a more value in dollars than other stuff on here and that I guess is that. I love the back patches as much as I love the worn outfits. It is just a different kind of feeling. I can not really pick one like that. I would say though that the items I have though that has been the biggest fight to get and own are obviously more of a sentimental value to me than other items in the collection. Good enough answer? Hope so.

“Why am I willing to do the many sacrifices to do this?”

Well it really is only a one line answer. It is my passion. In a longer version kind of answer, well I am not too fond about or good with the so called ordinary life. I do not mind people doing it. It is just not for me. I get bored and I hate it. I do not fancy a 9 to 5 job that gives me nothing but a pay check every month. And then kiss a wife and take the kids under my wings and go on a Sunday drive family style. It just never has been my way. I am way more into the ones that dare things. That has hunger for following or trying out their dreams and passion for something. I have always been interested and fascinated by people collecting. It is so extreme at times that it kind of takes over everything in somebody’s lives. And it is amazing to me that one thing can stick and come from the heart for a good lifetime for somebody. Always there always the one thing you eager to expand some how in some way and the hunting for the things you are missing in the field you collect. For me Motley Crue and music in general I am willing to give up everything for it. It just is like that. I kind of in an extreme way live in the now I guess. I can not really deal with the ones going ohh but we can not do this and that now have to think about July and Sep even though we are only in February. Hell no I can be dead any time for all I know. I live now hope I will tomorrow but use the knock ledge of what I experienced yesterday! It is the way I have been it is the way I will be I guess only course I choose to.

I do not fully think I could stand being around if all was just rules work and obligations. And no chances for having a passion that was truly heart felt. I love my life most of the time. I too course I am a human being have my downs as well as my ups. I too have times when I think God I could have had so and done this and done that……. But then it hits me. My life and my musical interest has giving me way more already in my life than many experience in their whole lifetime!!

“What do I personally see Crue do in the future?”

I think the band will have some heavy bumps coming on their roads in the next year or two. Why? Course there will be things from who and what they are individually that can course things and I feel not sure not too sure anyway about Mick’s health and all. The same with Vince he is way too much into alcohol if you ask me. It hurts my guts to see him destroy himself like this in this way!! I can hardly bare watching it anymore. It is just too painful a task to deal with. I love them too much not to care I guess. I say it is not just music notes to my ears. It is a hell of a lot more. I see them try doing their best album but will fail .I do not think they can top their earlier stuff .Not because it is unbeatable in quality. More because what they did were so right for their time. And 2006 or 2007 just do not have that same kind “demand” in type of music style and there for it can be an awesome album to come but never top masterpieces. So there so…..the market the youth of music lovers today is just all the way different.

“Would I give up this for anything?” Yes I would ….. If I got hurt too much I would. I did with KISS if some of you have read the ABOUT ME thing my life story KISS meant the world to me and I got hugely hurt and disappointed in some things and I stopped. It was the hardest thing in my life to do but also the only right thing. Could that happen here too? Sure it can!! You can always get hurt in so many ways. Right now I am fine. I do not agree in all things the band does or anything but that does not hurt me in that kind of way that I here speak of!! So for the right reasons I guess…yes!!!

“Are there limits for what you would pay for an item?”

I would overall say no. If I have the money I do not care about the money. I care far more for the item than for the money spent on it. Makes sense I hope so. No other way for me to explain that one. Would I be willing to pay 200 dollars for a Dr Feelgood pick? No!!! Then I would rather pass on it get it later and do something else. SO it is kind of complicated for me to explain as you can plainly see. But if the item is of big enough importance to me I do not care do I have the cash for it. There it is again I live now maybe not next week .So I also DO NOW and worry later if that is also what it will or can come down to. Thanks for the questions and interest guys. I think the last few days here in Denmark has been nothing but unpacking scanning and sleeping. I am slowly getting back on the central European time. Live so long after a home coming on US time still I often spend a good 4 to 5 days to change around again. I am pretty sure it is because I am bored here and unhappy kind of. Not miserable but unhappy. Everything I stand for and want is so far from where I am at so I guess I get too hard a time than I other wise maybe would have had in time changing had I lived and had a great life here too.

The scanning and the adding to the site of new stuff are still going on massively.
Look in on all the pages and see something new. Soon it the section for the Official merchandise coming up THIS coming week that is a guarantee. Also coming up are some new details to some pages and there are a few new cool doings going on. I think there could be a line of thing done to it all. And time will make those adding and changes in time just bare with me here. Things take time a lot of time. This is self made and self published so … sit tight you love this shit already it gets cooler for every week there passes. I too am overexcited about the whole thing too .I love this shit. Had this not been my collection or my site I would have reacted like most of you. It is refreshing to all other sites and so damn much alive like all the time .And that is the SUPER COOL thing about it I think.

I have gotten to know so many cool people and so many are helpful in many ways to my Crue world and there are just so much cool in that side to my life. Love it Short and simple. The latest is as said the new stuff to get on here. If I should talk about the site. In my personal Crue life well I want to get more stuff. I want to get more into the framing of the historic and awesome one of kind pieces. Kind of need that to be the next step so all the golden pieces do not “fall apart” and get nasty!! You know what I am saying. Let that end today’s new thoughts and all Now back to the work and sorting out things in these many damn boxes invading my home.

Later brothers and sisters. XXX

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24th of March 200SIXX, Tons Of Added Stuff & A Thank You

1.40 PM CET

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So Friday is upon us again!! Hot damn how time flies. I am shit busy been clearing shit from the floor of my apartment so I at least have some sort of ground to walk on. Fuck almost forgot the colour of my carpet on the floor. Shit!!!! Now I begin to see parts of it everywhere. Have not slept a great deal been killing my scanner and all to get the new shit ready for listing on the site these two past days! And it is going shit much faster than expected simply because either I or the webmaster has too many problems for some reason this time. And that trust I when I say is NICE!!!!

Much of the shit that’s gonna be added here is so cool. I love the fact that much of it all has been so successful for me to get. In that sentence I would like to express my gratitude towards Corinna. She is in just as shitty a situation now as I am. Due to the trip we just did and trust me I don’t regret it. But have to say certain things were not worth it. And had we known of some of the things like Tommy not playing after all in Miami we had not gone there. Had we known it was so damn hard to stick with kind of set arrangements and plans meeting the boys in Atlanta we had NOT stayed at such an expensive hotel like the Ritz-Carlton with all them extra fucking fees for anything and everything. Like I said no regrets but had we known then the story and the money situation had been way different.

It is just not all the stuff that is worth the dollar. Guaranteed.

Corinna has as she always is on the matter of Motley and me been a shit cool partner and I would not trade her in for the world. I know I have said things in the last few diaries abut her that sounds bad as hell but she is fucked up on the matter of being an open person and in dealing with stuff out of her reach like passion and emotions and openness!! She is how ever the coolest of the cool to team up with when it comes to what she and I are doing!! I will give her 9 and a half out of 10 on that one. Fucking awesome job girl, thank you. We have so many things to do still in their name. But right now we both need to find a fresh breath to be even able to move on in the Motley world. It is a shit expensive one these days especially the way we do it which is trying to cover all or most of the happenings since late 2004!! And I / we have done just that!!! Covered the damn activities. And I am proud of it.

When it is all over with I can surly say I came I saw I did it all thank you very much!
And so can Corinna she has never been this Crue busy or anything before she got to know me. So a lot of things and places have been seen she most likely would never have seen was it not for the bond we have. I know how it was once I did not have the contacts the bonds and the information I have today on the band!! Cool to do cool to see cool to look back on I guess that would be the short version to that story!

I have also to thank Shaun of motley.com and swagrox.com for some awesome chances for different things I will not really wanna go in on here it would take too long a time. But there have been some cool interesting things lately I am so thankful for. And while I am at it thank you to the fans of the band for the support on here too. It is a cool feedback I get almost on a daily basis!!

Just all in all awesome!!

I hope things will be cool as we get a little further into the coming week too. There are so many things here but the way it all goes maybe I will have the most of it up and on here by mid next week or end next week. Sadly there are a lot of society shit and working situations to attend to also on my part. Need to know what the fuck to do from now on. USA is not an obtion as hoped for for a good period of time. And I will not do it anyway would or should there be shit between Corinna and myself. I do it for us. For our relationship and that’s that. So I guess the next big test will be arewe honest enough to each other and wanting this bad enough to be able to hold on and hang in there for the move as we are offered the chance? Well I am. I am fucking as ready as can be.

Now back to all the scanning and picture taking and shit.

As you can see from only PART of the many things all over that are new ( see pictures above ) there are many things to look in on!! And I will get it all done. It is all the stuff that goes in the scanner that I do first. After that comes the awards the shirts the bigger things. So bare with me if those are the items you are mostly waiting for to see!!

And also a warm welcome to the new and latest member of our gang of loyal crueheads: Jesse!!!

As with everybody on there you can reach Jesse at his email listed if you like?!! I am sure he and I too will become close and have a cool time on here.

Bets of all greetings my fellow cruesters

Tommy

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23rd of March 200SIXX, Home Coming & No Passionate Drive

12.02AM CET

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It is as always a long, long road going home when you try to save a few bucks on the travelling part. I have done so this time too simply course I do not wanna spend too much on a seat n board a plane or give several hundreds more for saving maybe 4 hrs travelling. It is just a too shitty feeling!! Hate the shit. Well I had a long ride back to Scandinavia. No need to tell all about it. Like what route and all the boring stuff. Much more interesting telling what was going on in my head.

I think it is a hell of a shitty feeling to return home with for mainly two reasons.

One I have no absolutely no idea when I will go over there again or no idea where to get cash form to do it. I am now on the bottom of my where ever I have kept my cash!! Secondly I have gotten much, much more information to my dreams of the USA moving. It is also not looking good. It will guaranteed not be this year!!! Too many things and shit to connect like an impossible puzzle almost.

I was sitting in the airport of Newark, New York and things started to feel a little hopeless. Also a little bit even though I may not have a reason to …course of the way Corinna acts and choose to do this. How she is and all. Just a totally different way than what any living soul would say when it comes to two people supposed to have a thing going. I feel fairly alone on this one. She has done and been helpful I know and for that and more sure I am grateful. I am just way too passionate a person to understand her ways. Wonder if that will kill us. She needs to get more open with time. Let me in much more. Anyway Newark airport had my mind spinning a million miles an hour. I really did not like it. I felt totally lost and had a serious shitty afternoon alone in a huge place.

I felt also through out the day of my travel a need to get more clear things and a more helpful calm hand from her so I could find and feel rested and secure if you know what I mean. It is a very often solo kind of feeling again course of how she is. Hard on me. Should not have been this hard with a girl you love. Damn.

We have talked about a few things through out the year of 200SIXX already but many things will depend on it if these things should actually happen or not. I guess on my own part I will need a job and I will need n like yesterday to be even able to have time to save up for it. Course the things we have talked about are huge. And many!!! I tried to rest my mind but with out success in New York. We took of and again onboard I saw the movie Walk The Line the story of Johnny Cash my favourite movie these days, Man I love it. And I like to get it. Did not buy the official movie release in the US simply course I had so much to spent cash on. Shit. Corinna if you hear me… This is truly what I like to get!! I simply love it. Okay, okay I know she can not give me all. But that movie is a master piece and right down my alley. Its so … beyond words.

In Holland the last stop before Denmark after solving yet another bad happening on my travelling (long story) I once more took time to think about what to do as I got home. I had a gazillion Crue items to get sorted and all too. I do not know how on earth to find time... For all of you that like to see the newer stuff I gotta say I think it will take most of April to get on here …..There are a lot. And also at this point I hope all the items are cool and okay course I have not unpacked yet I have also only seen my 5th suitcase damaged like TOTAL even though it WAS a hard box suitcase... the 5th lost on 6 trips. That has fucking got to be a record. Right?? I think there is a lot of neat stuff to get added too. Almost like the last two times all areas of items will get coved all solo pages posters, shirts, passes, awards, 8x10s and more…the whole lot. There simply are tons!!! You will love it I promise you. Now what will get done is the link and more to get your official merchandise too. Ordered from your fave fansite right here baby!! In case you wondered yes I did also get the full lot of the new tour merchandise except one thing whish is in order as I post this. So it will come on here too….

But a lot of concern and a lot of troubled minds are what I basically bring home with me and 2 full suitcases stuffed to the max with new Motley shit. Still have stuff over in the states. I know this would be my 10th full suitcase to be taken home and still stuff there. And about 25 more items are in the mail to get to South Carolina too. So it is a continuing never ending thing.

So for now just keep coming in here through the new month to come and we will get the stuff updated as often as we can, you will not be disappointed.

For now from a dead tired host, let me rest in peace,

T Lee, xxx

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20th of March 200SIXX, Seventeen Hours, No Hunger For Return
11:43PM CET
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So I wanna finish off the diary. The last posting from US of A this time around.
It has been fairly cool being here. Not done hak of what I wanted to do but well half hearted decitions I guess. Could have did not. Now there are like 17 more hours till the first of a total 5 flight will have lift off to take me back home. It shit sad. I hate the feelin. And what do I go home to? Nothing. I have no life there. All is such a waste. I dont even wanna try hard no more to make anything out of anything. I hate the feeling of staying there. It sucks, and I can no zippo about it right now.

I think the Motley Crue 2006 tour is a bit dissapointing. There are a lot of songs that has been cut out of the show and there have been no replace of any other songs in their spots. That to me is just a cheap shot. But then again the fans seem to continue to support no matter what the do or not do so surely they just go on with all that's easy now.

Tommy is a killer in the live shows.
He still carries the shit live he still is the monster beat of the band. And he is a cool showman. Off stage he seem to care less of the four about the fans wen it comes to meeting them. I was lucky I am not saying that in any way I met him and all but I speak like in generel you know.... Mick is just now on this leg of the tour hard as hell to meet to. Out of 50 fans I would say it is lucky if 3 or 5 meet him. I can understand from his illness that he may need and want the rest it's just hard on the part of being a fan not to meet him.

Nikki is to me always the sweetest guy. He has my loyalty forever. He is and will always just be the shit. He kind of knows me quiet well. He also seems to give me the time as I do bumb into him. Carefull with his signings to me and all no slobby shit there. I appreciate what he does for me and how he treats me no doubt about it.
Vince I adored his work 2005. Now every single time except ONES in 2006 that I have bumbed into him he is drunk. At times very drunk. I mean like he cant focus looking at me. He just dont seem to care. Not about the fans but about himself. I say he can be the first of the four to go down. Like really go down. More than on one ocation he has been throwing up blood. Thats a really good sign. Vince I wish the fans could get to your heart dude .You need to lay off that drinking. You will kill your self before time. And we are like 1000s of fans that have dedicated our full excistence to your name. Please hink about it. You have mostly been extremely friendly and sigend what has been thrown in your face but then again wedo need you to stay healthy too or the things that comes with your being will end before any of us care to be faced with. We love you man. We care and its just an all in all bad feeling for me as a fan to see you like this.

The show needs to be changed a lot if the fall 200SIXX will be like it is now we will be in trouble I think. Some changes has to come....
damn.....

I have now again been in all states in the south east corner of American and it is time to movein on other states the next few times I come here. I weould love to go to states I have not been in. But surely it all takes cash baby. The one and only thing I do not have this time around. Let us just see what kind of things will and can possibly happen of the hopes and dreams we have next in line Corinna and I in the Crue world.

I have now packed my two suitcases and ones again there are a two stuffed cases with Crue items waiting to be added to the site as I get back. It is a hell of a lot this time again. I can not believe it. It just keeps coming. My god. What is up? Well what ever it is I like it. There are but so much still I needot get I am so behind on most things. And they all costs .. $ baby. So yes of course it is .. HARD!!! but what can one do? Hell I do not know. I think maybe it is a little bit shitty thinking about it. Jus tdo it and enjoy I guess. Thinking right now is what I have been doing most of today. Course I can not find out whjat to do as I return. I guess there are a few goals but the motivation is so gone. And the girl I have and the way she is dealing with things and showng things does not make things easier on me. Fuck no!!!

I think I need ot at least get the boxes in my appartment solved sorted and looked at. My mum has been watching over it and emptied my mail box and more the past month i have been away. I think it is fairly shitty how the place looks now. She says there are so many boxes all over now there is no way in hell there can be any movement anywhere. I guess I agree. A lot of shit has to go. I am going to throw some stuff out change it all around a little bit and hopefully get just a little bit out of it all. You know what I mean. It is time to get the shit looked at. I fucking need to feel it is a home too. Instead of it only being a store house. Damn man...

Ok I guess things are just not gonna be better byu sitting here and whine. I need to put the gloves on and get to work as I get home. Period. Need to find a job and need to find a better every day life than what I have here right now.

Motley is having a long time off now so maybe things could be a bit better with the shit that is now to come. No time Crue for the summer season. I doubt it. But I can always hope lol. Alright guys you all tak care out there and dont forget it now. Even though I sound like I ma in yahoo land and totally out of it ... stay loyal to yourself you band and dont
shit from anyone. You god damn only live ones.

Later brothers and sisters
Talk to you from Scandinavia the next time.
Your loyal host,
Tommy Lee, S.C. USA

Mcrueloyalty.dk

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20th of March 200SIXX, Pancake country and Festival Anger
2:35PM CET
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It begins to be a couple of days now since the last trip round the block took place after all. The Miami Global Gathering festival. She, Corinna decided for us to go after all. It was a mixed feeling on my part with all the shit that had been between us for them 2 days in Atlanta I did not feel much for it. And further more, I felt nothing for the festival as such now I was looking forward to be driving through the state of Florida though. A loonnnnnnnnnnngggg ride that is. My god. But I have to say that part of it all to see everything from a car instead of just sitting on a plane or something was awesome.

Also my moving over here has had its fair share of new information to it all and I feel really informed but also it all sets me back even more cause thereare things to get done and looked into that will simply not be anytime soon. I am fom the new information most likely not looking at this thing caleld US moving any time this year. We really try to hold on to this thing and we really try to keep faith, but I am the one of the two of us that has to do all the work as I am the one moving and going through the changing.

I have no idea how or where it all comes from but sometimes we get weird ideas Corinna and I and surely already the next 3 or 4 things to do in the name of Crue have been talked about. I am also going to have some things done about the framing ... more about that later I had the huge BOD signed display from Hollywood Tower Records and the release day orderd for framing remember? So as said more in a minute.

We wanna try or rather Corinna is totally possed about us trying to get a May thing set up for us to meet and do something in Hollywood a Crue thing that is beyond normality. And we want to try to get things put together for a fall / winter tour going to a handful of shows there too. Also we wanna be at the opening night of the Dirt movie what ever city it may hold theCrue at. Los Angeles or New york. Doesnt matter. And the show on new years eve, which I am pretty sure will happen in one certain city for one particular reason only. I will at this point not say anything else. Sorry kids cant do.

We got up round 11 AM local time on the 17th cause we had gotten back fairly late and were mentally beat from the days in Atlanta assaid. They could have crushed our thing right there and almost did. I felt bad but we are as said betr again. Just one of those things. No killing no ended anything. Just one of the things that every now and then I guess happens with people as they are bonded.

We got up late mornings took our time and started doing the shit we had to do before we could hit the road. Laundry, eating, packing, taking care of things like paypal payments, Ebay, mail, all these thingswe woudhave to do anyway. And we did them now as we knew that ones we got home from Miami we would have only that one last night on Sunday together cause Monday morning (now as I post this) was back to ordinary working day for Corinna and tomorro Tesday at 11AM my plane is leaving taking me back home to Denmark. Whisch is one thing I do not really fancy thinking about. I want that part of my life to be a past. It makes me sick thinking about it.

Okay so back to the thing on Miami. Tommy Lee was going to be playing there and we had no idea when he would actually be on. That was just one of the things that kind of killed the planning. We weould pretty much have to be there Saturday the 18th round noon when it started to make sure. On the other hand it felt iritating that it may not be untill late that he actually would go on. Fuck - but e could do nothing about it. Only go.....

We called the car rental company even though Corinna does have a car wenever take hat one to these long distance things of ours. Never just in case things happens we just go rent a car and get us all covered. Period. So thats what we did too now. From the car rental company that we had yesterday just delievered our first car back to we now picked up another. Or Corinna did. I took my shower and continued the doings we had to do.

I saw us ready around 5PM and then we left most of the hard traffic would be over with by then but also would it be easier casue of the heat. We were fine. All got packed and off we went. Slow rain and fairly cool wheather and the sun was low. I felt a good vibe now we finally had our shit together and the door was locked behind us.
The first 3 hours were fine then we reached the 5, 5 and a half hour mark and we needed to go. Pee and more. So starting to get a hunger for sweets or something. Tahnk god we brought my apple pie. Hmmm loved it. Picknic on the orad. What can possibly be nicer? I do not know. But we stopped at this place took a piss and ate. Stretched legs and more. All a good feeling it was closing in on midnight so we decided to see if we could maybe go a bit into the state of Florida find a place to soend the night and move on in the morning.

We did just that and it was a weird fucker in the reception I guess wecould call it. A chinese guy that took about a good 30 seconds for every letter typed in on his data. Fuck me. Could you just give us the god damn room key please ... no we have no pets and we do not want rise with that thank you very much.
Aright. The resting for the night was way up the the north of Florida.So e would still have a good 4 to 5 hours drive to attend to in the morning. Peww lkong ride. But it is a pretty ride. Palm trees and all kinds of shit everywhere. Loved it.

Woke up on the 18th in the mornng with a wooowww HOT!! No aircondition in the room had been switched on. Fuck. Went to take a shower and then packed my shit for the car. In the car it was actually cooler NICE!!! loved it. It was perfect for the next few hours ride. So the morning meal with just a stop at McD. gave us a meal a little unlike McD. back home. I am not too cool with the stuff at the fast food stands what so ever. But thats what we did and now it was on to the driving ones again.

I found Florida to be a hard one to travel through even though I loved it. Awesome to ride there. but hatrd in the sence that it was ONLY long straight highways and no turns. No turns what so ever. All you could see was road ahead of you for as long as your eyes could take you. I felt like - boy oh boy was this tirering. I felt sorry for Corinna she was the only driver here. I could perhaps have done ot but I do not have a license so... she was getting tired many times. All there was for her to look at was the license plate in front of her. Had she been more of a talker and all it had been easier. but I can not talk to a door for 12 hrs. Andonly ones in a while get a few short sentences back. Doesnt work that way. I find myself to want so many things with her that she is not willing or cabable to do with me. And she is not willing to do much of a try either. She is pretty much what I posted as I was angry with her in Atlanta a "my way or no way" kind of girl. That sucks and she should know that.

We drove the last hundres of miles to Miami and we enteredthe city by the beach area ound 1Pm. It all started at noon. But we felt okay with that. We had VIP tickets here too. So we of course had to find out more about how they worked too. As we finally got the car packed paid the parking fee of 20 dollars for the day we walked out to the festival . I think maybe we were lucky cause these parking places we had found were only like 5 minutes from the event. Thak god. Course it was hot as hell. Damn man no need for anyhing else but shorts and a tanktop which I of course had nothing of with me. Shit man I was not ready for this heat. Well nothing to do but drink plenty. After having spent plenty of dollars on food and drinks we found the VIP area and found out the food and shit there were free., Nice!!! And at the sme time "god damn" Could have saved a few bucks there too. Ohh well, nothing to do about it. Well there were nothing of my personal interest that I would have ided to get to see. I did how ever see Lacuna Coil and Coheed & Cambria. Before more food had tobe taken in and all. Corinna and I did not talk much for two reasons she claimed she didnt know what to say (all that is so beyond me) and also due to the volume of the music in the VIP area. It was fucked. LOUD andfrm all 4 stages plus the areas own fucking speaker system that blasetd out disco sounds like I dont know what!! All mixed up in one. Holy fucking shit. BAD!!! that's what that was. We did not se too many known faces there but a few were there maybe the most cool ones were the two people of the mighty Uk act legendary Rolling Stones. Never asked for autographs or anything did get to get down with them for a few if we wnated it . so here you have it... COOL!!!!

Keih Richard does not what so ever seem worn out in real life,. It is by farmuch worse in the videos or live. He actually was very very cool. Thanks Keith for the kindness you showed us. Awesome man. The next things on the bill we wanted to go see was really only Rob Zombie, Nine Inch Nails and surely Tommy on top of this long long long day was to play last after Nine Inch. Fuck man it was to be a long day!!! The merch was nothing. There were two shirts that had the event one was bought the other not. Cause that one only had the logo nothing else. The one I got had all he bands and has Tommy listed too. Nice one. No concert rogram as such more like a folder with the time sceduals and all that in tit. You can find these items on the Tommyland page on here.

Anyway time flew and we went down tot he stage side to see Zombie. It was as it is with his music awesome beats in his music some brutal players but he himself was not too impressive to me. he was kind of foolish and had his weird shit and bad breaks in between the songs. But the songs were awesome and well played no shit there as it has been with Crue frm time to time. Id give it a 7 and a half out of 10. Good show. Nine inch were later after Zombie. And it was at this time I sid as a joke to Corinna you know what they are behind scedual already Nine inch goes on 45 minutes later than they should have so I do not think Tommy is going to play. Why did I say that? Thats fucking bizarre. Well we stayed up in the VIP section looking over the complete festival place and saw NIN frm here. Thy were agressive and they were loud as fuck. We again went for drinks and soe fresh fruit to eat. Nice and cooling....for myself anyway.

It was about 11.50 as Nine Inch said thank you and goodnight in the folder it said Tommy Lee & DJ Aero 11:15 - Midnight. Okay they were running late but guess what. The next thing on the big monitor screens said "THANK OU FOR ALL. THANKS FOR ATTENDING THE GLOBAL GATHERING FESTIVAL 2006" What the fuck? You have got to be shitting me? No Tommy?.. That's right no Tommy. he never played. The only reason for going down here. 12 hours riding in a car in heat and hundreds and hundreds of dollars each in spendings to get here. FUCK this is just another number in line of the many, many bad cases on me trying to attend Tommy solo things. It alwys goes fucking bad. We were pissed. I felt shitty we could have saved a long two days which also were our last days together this time around for Corinna and myself. Not to mention the money. Fuck man this was bad. An extremely lousy feeling on both our parts. Trust me. Can you even imagine?? We could have had a nice time back home in South Carolina and had much more money to it too.

So what I got to see Miami, but it was not really why i went in the first plac and not that we got to see thecity too much either. In stead we got off of the festival ground extremely dusty and tired. Just to top it all off we lkft the parking lot as we could and it took us almost 3 full hours to get out of the local area. It was shitty. And the highways had been blockled from 10PM till next mnorning 5Am. So that also took us in on a rerute that jsut made our night eve nmore fucked up. We did not get aything out of this trip At least nothing that was the purpose of its actions. Good damn it. We had had just about enough of the shitty tarfic and all so 3:40 Am we took an exit and parked somewhere in a parking lot. Went to sleep. In the car. we simply had to ... w could not stay awake no more and it was no longer safe to be driving.

The 19th of March which was yesterday we woke up with the sun burning in our eyes at 7:30 AM we were ready to take a piss get something to eat and drink and then hgeading home. We had a good 10 hours drive still to do. If no unforeseen things to slow us down. We looked and felt nasty. Shit sdirty still no shower no nothing dust and shit in our eyes ears and all over. Sorry but this was bad.

We talked a bit back home and were also wondering what to do about everything; the tour to come in the fall the May thing, framing and all kinds of ideas we have talked about. Us me here the time bewteen us that we dont get to share the disatnce thelaw the ... ohhh there were tons of things. Bout the framing. we caleld this place in Greenville caleld Michaels a framing place where we had the huge BOD sign stored in order for framing. They said it was ready for pick up today Monday but we were cuious to hear if it by any cahne were done already. It was workd onas wehad them ion the phone. If it was ready before closing this Sunday we wold be receiveing a call from them. So a good 90 minutes passed by and they called "you can pick it up if you lik"e they said. We had a good long drive still we were about 60 miles south of Columbia South Caolina and from there we had another good 105 miles to Greenville. And in all we had about 2 and a half hours till closing time.

((BOD framed sign))

To make a long story short we made it. Tired, dirty and laughing we turned in on their parking lot and said we are here to pick up opur piece. My good its huge ramed. Wonder how it looked. Would not see it till we got hom. But wait a minute how should we bring it? it was huge would maybe not fit in the car. We walked out shot the back seats down and tried. Guess what? It just fit. Like a glove man.... so lucky there. Holy shit. Now in aroundf KFC for Crinna she was hungry I wasnt. She did her meal order for the evening and that just about did it for us. HOME SWEET HOME.. please a shover and a rest!!! Thank you very much!!!

I was only in the door as the car had been emptied and then it was straight to the shower. My god that shower felt good REALLY GOOD!!! fuck me.....

I felt done for. Was so tired. As Corinna tok her shower after her meal I laid myself down on the coutch and I fell asleep. Greta the last night together and we were worth nothing. I missed her already. but I missed more the closeness that I had not ever goten on this trip with her. It was just not to happen. She dont care about it. It means nothing to her. Nothing in the sense of hat all other people think of when they say we are a couple and we are together and we love it. Well that about does it for the last time out on the road this time. I will make a final short posting here for the diary about the day today Monday later on with my thought final remarks and all and the next time after that you will hear from me will be ... I am sad to say form Denmark!!!
Tommy


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16th of March 200SIXX, Kiss n Make Up & Last Show!
6.30PM CET
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So Tommy and Corinna how are you today the day after the war? Better!! Had an insolt of a kiss and made peace. But fuck me I am not going to do this again with her. I still say we do not agree on the issues that came up and caused all this but I felt torn. She probably too in her own fucked up way. I felt I had had my time here. I had my last hopes running out of my body for us to stay together and do what I still say is cool. We are good together but we need to find will to give up a side to our egos as much as we ask each other for the acceptance of the same. Did that one make sense?
If not never mind. This is a god damn Crue fansite not a shitty schrink class.

we did not really say or do anything after the clock stroke 6 PM local time in Atlanta, GA. We were about to do things but never did. I cleared all hopes and neesesary thoughts for this to pass by so we could this trip back on track. we took no actions to even get the shit solved I was banned and she went to bed.
Hardly a cool evening at all.

I was doing the posting before this one here then, and I could not as you see have it full filled. A million thoughts ran through my mind. I can not even begin to tell you how bad I felt. The Crue had nothing to do with it. But I could not fucking deal with it. Crue got affected in its own way though. What now? Where next and what to? Had no answers to any of it!!

I ended the surffing on the net and the diary posting and went to bed.
Fuck me this was a shitty eve. Wednesday morning, the 15th - show time day. The last show for me in a good at least half a year. What a great way to end it all. Still no making love, no soft touch kisses or shit only two hateful bastards and my last Crue day of the trip. I felt ill just thinking about it. Why would stuff like this even come between us? I was fucking even ready to NOT go to the show. On the other hand she had a 2nd row seat and I only had a row Q in sec 103 which was at the end of the back of the arena. I could not be any further away from her at this show. It was a shitty way to do the last show but under the surcumstances probably the best way too..

Today was with the arrival of one person Corinna has gone to shows with erlier. One I liked to think of as a future friend but a thing happend and lets just say I had an outcome with this person from a simple asked question on my part and the person tripped liked big time that made not even wanna be close to the person. I refused to even be around. Corinna felt I was taking it or we the two of us actually are taking this situation too childish. Fuck that, I dont like to be around people I do not like.
Corinna does from time to time but thats her buisness. I will not get myself involved in that. Just dont let me be around. So the person called before the Atlanta show at the Philips Arena, said that this person would like to hang out. Well fine I said, you hang I do something else. I was no to be round. Surely Corinna made the arrangements for meeting up and then what?? Well never mind really we werent that happy together today after all. So feel free to do your thing I said. They met up at the arena and they they split with me. Thank god. Everything was just so fucking much easier then. I went in, they went in and for the next 150 minutes we could appreciate the ongoings..

I bet she looked for me. I bet she did feel enough sadness within her for not sharing this last show together. I would have if I was her. I did not look for her cause I knew where she was to be seated. I had tried to reach a certain Darron for a upgraded seat for myself but without any luck. He never replied to my left messege in time. The show itself was fairly okay if we should judge it from its energy. But Vince was always a note or two behind he did this shit and it fucked up the songs really good. Thanks Vince thanks a lot. The show as a whole was okay if you did not look at it in details. I think there were a ton of shitty things going on but what the hell. It was as it was and again to end it like this was just all in all sad. There was a Vince Neil afterparty thing in town we had two VIP tickets for it, but we never went. It was simply too fucked up a feeling I was sitting with to be even able to have focus on the event had we been going. I am sure later on maybe in a day or two I will regret it like fuck. But right now I know whay I did not go and its fine. Think Corinna was kind of torn for us not doing this. We could have done tons more than what we did the last two das but no..

This person I referred to erlier did never ever get my attention for even a split second. She had been calling Corinna like all the time to ask this and that. Why Corinna did just not leave me at the hotel after the show and gone to the event and more is so beyond me. I hate her fucking ways sometimes its me, me, me, me, me, me, my ways or zip. Fuck in hell its crappy. Hate that cock sucking shit.
But in short she stayed at the hotel and we had another verbal fight. What got said was hurting both ways and was nasty. Not even going there. All the time in my head I was ready to throw the towel and call it quits, The shared collecting thing the relationship even the bond to her. This was just way way too much for a prick like myself to deal wtih.

I had one thing on Ebay I really wanted to have - some radio CDs but I lost there too. I really do not seem to be coming out as the winner too much these days. Fuck it. Was mentally exausted. No wonder with all the shitty happenings between the two of us.

So For the Atlanta show day ... good night - thanks for nothing.
This Thursday morning she gently woke me up asking me if I wanted to give it a shot for meeting any of them here at the hotel one last time before we had to return to Greer South Carolina. I was going "sure why not". So she went out to the car paid another fee for parking and I took a shower it was 7:30 AM. I think we could have had our luck cause the boys often seem to leave hotels at that time or between 7 and 9 am but not today. We sat there till maybe round 8:45 in the lobby and then decided to just call it a day. No more Crue for now. But unlike a ton of fans we had gotten to meet 3 of the 4 and that was a lot. Had been seeing several shows again and we had been having a good time and shared a few things up till the sick Atlanta story just told to you all.

Feel so sad about that. Back in the day I swore this girl I will never argue we are as people so good together and all.. how can we possibly be ending up in an argument?? Not happening. Well ones more in this filthy little life of mine I was wrong. DEAD wrong. I am sad to say. I posted in here yesterday that i have givin up having Corinna posting on here. I still have that givin up feeling. I will also not do the interview. I feel I should put my energy in on something else. She does not have the urge to do these things. So fuck it. I am back as a single one man gang on here for some time. Should she decide to make some postings one time fine welcome her, I will. But I have stopped asking.

On our way back to the car, on the road heading home we were fine again. Well thats how I see it. A small hotel lobby kiss and a half hearted hug was all we gave to each other and off we went. She does not wanna have them the kisses, love making or hugs so I say to hell with it. Not going there no more either. But we talked and for now its okay again. We will most likely never get what 999 of a 1000 people would even call a relationship but I am slowly beginning to see that my hopes for her to be my closest friend, lover and soulmate will not happen. Not even Nikki' words to us has any effect to her on these things. She just does not want it. No other way to put it.

We arrived at Greer again at round 11:20 emptied the car and took it to car rentel return. Got a ride back home and here I am now siting here typing this for the day as she is taking a nap. As she is getting up I will take a little nap too I guess. Before looking in to unpacking, laundry and all the shit that is about to be dealt with before Nine Inch Nails concert locally here in Greenville just outside Greer. Fuck it.
The Miami thing ... she all of a sudden claims again today now that we talk agin that the trip south for the Tommy Lee DJ show will happen for us after all. I do not really wanna go. Fuck it thats what I say right this minute. Give it a day or so and we will see.

Now my Crue thoughts have been really messy the last day. And it tore my heart that Mick after all never show his presence for the guitar to be signed thats fucking bad. Ohh well the guitar is still here and there is a chance in the fall for a few more concerts so... as they say out in the big wide world - to hell with it better luck next time.

Now time for a rest and a unpacking.
See you back here shortly...
Things are fine.

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Tx

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15th of March 200SIXX, Final Show For A While. Thank God
4PM CET
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Well The show of in Galveston, West Virginia was a good show. The show before this one on the 11th was as said really weird and all in all not a great feeling. This time I think it was a far cooler feeling. Everyhtng more or less seemed to be havin a much better flow and all members seemed to be more up to this than the night before.

Before the show we had been been arriving at the venue parking lot around mid afternoon. Some few fans 4 or 5 had already arrived there. Staying waiting like most hopefull fan always does. They just want that 15 seconds of greeting and an autograph. Thats all. They ae all so hopeful like all the time. I did get to talk a few of the people there really nice people. We just went through the Crue talks like I always end up doing with new faces. At times its like wow cant we really tak about anything else and I start laughing inside myself. But then again for the day just for that one single day it is all in the name of that band and the name isnt it? Of cause it is. I hope truely some of these people will keep contact. Its always cool to meet new faces and you very quickly get the feeling if they are "attractive" or not. Not in a sensual way but you know some are just fucked up pain in the butts. And I hate them. All of them. Its just not my style.

Anyway this guy and the girl I talked to for most of the late afternoon were both so nice. We shared a few things and went online in the car with the computer there to let em get a sneak peak f the site. I just thought they kind of had to see it. Think they loved it. But then again any true crue fan ...who wouldnt had it not been my site I would have loved it too.


We all stood by the fensh right by the busses of the band. It was a waiting for the 4 to show themselves. We were told that Mick had walked by and in to the arena just 20 minutes before our arrival to the parking area. Well tough!!! Cant win em all. We then with the new friends found talked and shared while waiting. And then we got to see and said hi to one of the "crue gang folks" notthing but a hi with a distance. Kept standing there. I felt fine about the situation. Lets just say it was one of them days with the feelings of postive vibes. I think it all turned out finetoo. One ofthe dancers walked by there like so many times we finally called her over said hi and hello and then she signed for a few and that was it. Sixx was being introduced to a bunch of people a one time when he finally stepped out of the buss in his white tennis socks lol ...he was all fine. Looked to be in a far better mood than yesterday at least.

Okay well it was one of them things...he walked back in the buss and came out again a bit later. Also Vince did the same thing. Some hoped for shit. Nikki saw me and saluted. He promised to come back out with Vince and say hi a few minutes later. My god people were on my ass about ohhh do youthink he will or was he just sayin, you know the drill. A never ending story. Same ol same o...

Gues what - they did they cme out together. Vince had most likely just fucked a girl or two in his buss. He was all shitty with his looks and he was drunk. AGAIN... fuck in eyyy Vinnie. Get that shit straight. You will end up looking like you did 2003 or 4. Fat, out of shape and a stinky singer, you did so well last year dont do this fucking crap to yourself. Ahh well what the hell do I have to say about it? Nothing. Im just kind of sad that he seem to dont really care.

Now they both came over I was missing one signature on the new years banner and that one missing was now complete with Vince. Also Nikki signed the huge special shout banner of mine with a friendly messege. Nice...


The signing was cool... the thing with them were good. Nikki was in a good mood today.
I know he appreciats the thing I do and the way I am. Makes me feel good that I am able to be that way or more directly it feels good that this is my natural side to me. Fuck yes.
Well the 3 minute hi and hello with the two ended and we put the shit back in the car. Corinna filmed the signing... wanna see it then press the link right here:

((video link to come))

We all were smiling. Yeah thats what a little thing like this does to the masses. Weird.
But surely nice too.
There was not a thing to say about that. Nothing bad anyway. We got inside and we needed food were shit hungry. I have gaind weight or feel fat and slobby anyway form not doing a fuck over here. I always fall apart not doing things. I feel bad about myself. But fuck it. We got our PIZZA slices inside the arena and we got our hunger to end found flyers and shit and went in found our seats and sat our asses down. It was good. All good. Fine seats on the side in the middle of the arena. We did this for a couple of shows to have money to cover the high expences a the hotels the band stays. In hope for you know.....

The show as started of by saying was quiet cool. Most of their things went well they played better and the crowd was all fine. Still cut shit though. But the tittie cam and maybe one skiped song from yesterday came back into the show. Things are just really weird at times.

As they were about to do their last song we left our seats. Went to the exit at the back of the arena and were ready to leave the place in good time. We were short on gas so while we went to a gas station near by we saw 2 busses leave. Nikki and Mick. All was fine I guess. I think it was also fair to say that this would be our second rough night. We were heading out on a close to 7 hrs drive towards Atlanta, Georgia 3 statres below our current spot on the map. We took off no buss no nothong ot follow. Just instinct .. go go go go!!!

At around midnight i felt my eyes closing told Corinna and I took a little nap. At around 1.30 she pulled over on the highway and we decided to just sleep there in the car. We did.
Awesome but tough sitting up sleeping. I normally hate that. Thank god for her brought pillows. I woke up at maybe what 6 or 7 AM?! She too and she said she had not been sleeping at all. Weird. Why she and so many other females are so unable to shut noices out when going to sleep. Well I slept so .. lol
We decided to take a good 150 miles moe and see where we would be then. It turned out we were so close to her house that we instantly decided to go by the reseve a night at a hotel and jus t head to her home leave all the shit we were no longer in need for and then take a shower and head to Atlanta. We did just that. The final show otf the tour for me in a long long time. I dare say this - thank god. It has totally ruined me and it is a tireing process. I thought and hoped for things to be awesome but the night time of the 14th just did not turn out that way. Corinna and I .. just not going good. I cant stand her ways on a few issues and she obviously dont wanna meet with me on a level off of her own level on things. In other words she is like she is and nothing is going to change things there. She expects the world and everybody in it to change to her likings and not the other way round. I can not have that. Fuck it we have not talked about it but i think she is a two faced one at times. I will not do this again if things are going to be like this. Misami, I think I will just ask her to offer my ticket to a girl named Page to go with her if she can and will I am selling mine.

No need to be with her under these cercumstances. Fucking haste that fucked up shit. her friend or whgat ever it is Page a former gang of loyalty member I thought we would have been able to get some sort of friendship going but she is now ((long story)) not talking to me no more and she is siad not to like me. Fuck it. She is coming today and maybe thats a good hing for Corinna. They have tickets side by side so they can perhaps have their fun I guess. I am not and will not have her around me. Should Corinna decide later on today to invite her to the hotel or hang with this girl I see Corinna later. What Corinnas thoughts and sayings are to it all I will leave out of this and leave for her self to tell if she wants to. I have kind of givin up on her. She is not really gonna do too much on here I do not think. Ohh well, she obviously is not too interested either. Not in that part of the "show" we have going between us - after all...!! here too I have to say fuck it. I am so tired of keep asking her to do something and I have also emailed the radio station for a continueation of the Crue radio serie. I will not have her doing it. She has several times now said what should we do now what should we do now .. well.. she knows what was to be done .. but I dont wanna keep telling. So I just give in I gues you all would call it. Fuck it. Im done...

Anyway that was a little opener for the day of today I guess .But as our short little hour long visit by her home address yesterday was over with the car was repacked and all we just decided to head out. Corinna was still tired. We took off anyway had to. Reservation at the four Seasons in Atlanta thats where they stayed the last time. The reservation was called in for a cancellation. Why?? Cause they were not staying there now March 200SIXX. They now stay right as I type this at the Ritz-Carlton hotel in Atlanta. 181 Peachtree Street, N.E. We are in room 1918 thats room 18 on the 19th floor. Really nice hotel Well what did you kind of expect when the boys multi millionaires lives here. Right? Right!!


We got here yesterday afternoon and we did not really know if there were any rooms available or not. There was. So we booked two nights here. yesterday to today and today ill tomorrow. Today is their show day. Had an off day yesterday and we met Tommy. He too reconnized me and was all cool. So all the hard work of becoming notized and shit has kind of paid off. Tahts right. But look where it took me. To the gutter. Huge empty pockets and shit. Well tough....dont cry over taxes after winning the lottery. So I wont.

It got shitty last night after 6 PM. Depends on who of us being Corinna and I ou ask but there is just bad wibes going on. I feel for saying fuck it but I cant and I wont. I will rather say as stated above .. this may not be haveing a next trip coming kind of thing. I dont see how two people that care for each other or share that deep a passion for the musioc thing can get so wrong. They ought ot in my mind to be able to talk about things an sort things out. She does not liketo do that in my mind. Rather leavethe shit unsolved and then forget it. Yeah its shitty alright. Tommy ...we did meet yesterday. I had a Theatre awards with me for signing Of cause did not have my Schecter guitar with me at this one time cause thas the one I really liked to get sigend. Like REALLY!!!! Not happening. And the silver pen used outdoors on a cold front glass of the awards made the signature shitty so that oine is being wiped off of there again. No shit,....

Also what else but a few things can I say more here about last night that does not feel to borring to readabout on the site for you guys? Well not much I guess. The atmosphere in Atlanta is shitty. The weather is nice but the temp. between us is steaming hot. And its not with love and affection i here talk about. I tell you that much.

LET ME MAKE A FINAL POSTING about todays show and the day in generel later on after the show is done alright? Cool with you guys? Has to be .. Tommy

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14th of March 2000SIXX, Hard Security Yet Meet And Greets
6.58PM CET
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Okay it has been a few days now since I was last on here and also a few days into the Crue tour again for my part. We left at start of the past weekend to the state of Virginia it was a trip that should have started round 9 AM or local time South Carolina. But two things screwed up. One the car rental company took its time and then the thing with the female doings. You all know how it is. A fucking pain in the ass. Always have to do a ton of things before doing what they are in for. My god. Go shopping for a gallon of milk and they constanly have to bring a full packed suitcase. It will for ever no matter how old I will get make absolutely no sence to me. The female sex is never and can never claim to be away from home cause they fucking have half their home with them no matter where they go.

Anyway we finally took off and it was a good 6 and a half hour ride north, we had a nice trip up there and we have rarely eaten that little. I dont know why that is and when we did or I did I felt terrible. I eat and I feel like a fully blown up balloon. Really hate that shit. I cant stand to feel bad but I did so I AM STILL not eaten much. Some I do sure but not more than what just gets me through the day. I drink a lot though. On our way we had a Tommy convesation with me saying a lot and she not saying much else but "I need to pee" "I need to pee" and "I need to pee"... what the fuck. Imagine that having a girlfriend that doesnt speak dont like sex and just wanna mind her own buisness.

I tell you guys something is not out of this world. Ahh well you learn to live with that crap some an uncertain period of time I guess. When it happens I just pay attention to nothing but my Motley world in any way possible. I know that I have had a lot of hopes for the time here with the band and myself. At time it changes and at time it kind of holds water with the things Nikki tells me. It can be a hard thing to figure out sometimes. But you have to understand things changes with this dude all the time going 300 MPH in the fast lane. Things are a bit tricky when it comes to that part it can chance like in a heartbeat it feels like.....sometimes.

But we got to Virginia and to the city of Richmond. It was kind of a weird thing for us to be here. Small town gig and yet a good feeling this is half of why I got over here in the first place. Motley tour and what is going with it. We came to Richmond late in the afternoon and were not far from getting in to the arena. So what did we do? Well we looked around now that we were there the band had already arrived so things were a little hectic on our parts. We had gotten unsure of where they were staying at, so we just decided to stay easy and see what happend after the show. Now inside there were from just a few weeks ago another new 4 shirts part from the 10 new ones already selling on this leg of the tour. My god for a split second I thought will this never end? Will it never end that they do not go and make new shirts 2 3 times on one tour. But this year and last year they sure do and did. I did not buy these new shorts though. I did that the day after - got a bootleg shirt though. Also the show was really weird. Standing with front row tickets this evening show was so in our face we did get to see a lot of things. In short it just all made me wonder - what the fuck is up tonight Nikki seemed like he could not care less about being here today and Vince looked his way several times with a look I can hardly find words for. Wonder if there has been a bigger argument or something between some of them or something else is going down. Who knows? I do not know!! Who cares? I do!!!

Now the show was cut short extremely short compared to what the set list normally s on this tour, no "Too Young To Fall In Love", no "Glitter", no "Helter Skelter", no Tittie cam, no ... well no a lot of things.

The show was over and they did not play too great either. My god. Lots of wrong doings, tonight was just one of them things that really did not do a one time concert goer much good if you ask me. Shit no. The band did not reach out and touch anyone. We left the arena with a part of Nikkis smashed bass ones again .. yeah yeah I know. Tough shit.
I think we will be good collection wise with this one piece from the Richmond show. It is all good. Still no signed stuff though. It simply was not the day for it, it was in short and as said a band in anger what the fuck was up?!!!!

We took off and stayed put in the car. We wanted to take a nap and then with the known fact that they would go from Richmond cross state to West Virginia during th night was a hard one to swallow as we had been on the move all day and more. We just wanted to make sure to go with the busses as they left. And so we did. The nap in the car of ours was 5 mins Mick Mars' buss took off. We started our engines and took after them.....
Boy oh boy this was going to be some night.

Never ever have I been in car ride this risky. It was with sleepy minds and more that we did this. In mountain coutry and duing the travel another of the busses had catched up and was now playing with us or tryng to scare us. It wanted to pass a lot of times or so we thought. It often just went from side to side staying on our tail. Switched on the bright lights on us so it was really uncomftable. But what the fuck. We did not give up. It could have gone really bad. Hell yes. But it did not and there for we I guess are still here today. Guess them buss drivers just do not want anyone near them what so ever.

After a hell of a long night very close to fall asleep both of us many and I do mean many times we finally arrived at he Marriot hotel in West Virginia round 5.30 AM. Tried to get the room we wanted at the Crue hotel. Long story short we could but only from that time till noon. 6 hours for a good 120.00 bucks. If we wanted another night as we did we would have to call hotel reservations after 8AM. to check cause they were at this time out of rooms. So we went to our room and hit the sack. Man we were shit tired. We could not get anywhere with this shit did we not sleep. we did ...also called and got the xtra night. We were sure the band would stay here till tomorrow. But heyyy what do you know (again) no they did not. So what did we do? Well as we got down the lobby again we saw that the busses had left outside the arena so we thought they would be doing one of several obtions. They would be going by buss though the arena was just cross the street. To avoid the masses that knew they stayed there and fans did stay here at this hotel. And lots and lots of hem too.

Or they could be heading out of this town after the show. Even though they only came and checked in for a shower and a nap and perhaps a bite to eat. Not much .....
But we could not really tell. We did ask though and one lobby personal said no they were gone. So we talked alot about what we then were to do. Have in mind I still had things and hopes for this trip to get certain things signed and to meet all four of them not just Sixx. As this would be my last shows in a long long time. I felt I had spent a lot to get here and when all has been counted for this trip is by far he most expensive one I have done by far. The reason well....not really any of your buissness lets just say it is.

So we talked and talked about this and ended up saying we stayed at our hotel already paid cause a bed for he night instead of going with hem would be the wisest thing to do for ourselves. We had a bed a shower and more......the morning was gone and we went for things to eat. I felt shitty no I felt extremely shitty. Bad bad headacke and felt fucking sick. Like really sick. We went cross the street next to the arena for the tonights show. There was a mall. And we went to a restaurent and we eat, or rather ordered but then didnt really touch he food paid for. Why not?? Cause we were both so hungry it hurt so we could not eat anything. I ended up eating a few pieces of the thing I ordered and felt and said out loud to Corinna I would be sick and did not feel I would be able to hold the food in me. We left after I asked for a box to take my paid food with me in and then to the parking lot to get the computer and more. I threw up. Lol, I know it sounds jucky and it was. But I did good. I did not puke on my shoes. Lol lol lol....Corinna was shit tired did not feel too good either but now that she had aten just a bit it was better for her. We went to the hotel room again no Crue show posters to be seen or anything. It really is not like in the 80s or 90s there were promo gig posters all over the place for all gigs. Now a days no way...

At the hotel room I washed myself up drank a little and took a pill then to bed again. Corinna was doing the photo taking and Ebay listings of our latest idea... grab all we can from every where sell he shit on Ebay and save the what ever money we will make for a fall our of his year - sounds like a plan to me. I know already by now that I will be unable to get too much saved anyway. So I am selling out. Therest of my rare KISS shirts are going on Ebay too. One of the totally 31 shirts is gone already 2nd one up on there. I need that to go well.. I will make a listing of thoughts and more about the show on here a little later today and then maybe ad some taken pictures while I am at it. Just keep watching here alright?

Later my loyal web hores......
Corinna is driving right now and her word to you all for now is "Fuck you all"
Guess that was said in a time of another need for a pee pee....I will try to make her post a little tonight. Watch for it...

I will be back later in the day with the rest of this days adventure and then the 13th while we are at it.... Suck it dudes....Tx

Mcrueloyalty.dk
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8th of March 200SIXX, Live CD Re-release and More
9.03PM CET
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So the first week of the USA visit this time is over. Corinna and I seem to have a cool time together. And we are about to do a lot of things the next coming week in the name of Motley Crue. We will leave for the first going away part from Friday not being around the house or area for 5 full days. We will be out there living at hotels and having a concert life. Nothing new there either.

We have found out the 2 single Volume 1 and 2 of the new Live CD "carnival of sins" is now also out a a double disc release so I will be picking that one up any day too. We have also just gotten home from "Michaels" which is like a costume framing firm to get info and numbers of what it will cost to frame a lot of my stuff. It is about time to get started on that shit too. What I did do today is leaviung the firm my Hollywood Tower records release date huge cardboard display of the B.O.D. for framing.

Finally it will be done and hopefully never get to be any further damaged than what the seller of this baby did to it. My god it hurts my heart to see it being bend. Well it will be taken care of now. Thank god.

A lot of people have been on my ass about the win of the "Black Widow" 7". So fucked so screwed so this so that. I believe I dont really care about the money I just wanted it cleared never to be thought of again. And its done. Now what does worry me is the tour to come. Cause I do not know will I have enough money to get things done as I so hope for?

Well time will just have to tell wont it? Yes indeed.
I have done a few more shoppings so ones I get home again there will be new posters, displays, CDs, shirts, this n that, awards, audio video, 8x10s, vinyls, and more much more. I guess in Crue words.. its the same ol fucking situation baby. Right now I hope to get a few positive answers from my doings I have going here. Sorry about the delay too on the Corinna interview it will come on here. No worries. I think it will be just fine. We have just been blown away by the time frames. Have had way too little time on our hands to get it all done. Will be done as I am here though.

Alright guys and girls - for that this will have to do.
But the framing bit has gotten started so I am so hopeful for more of the personal stuff to SOON be going through the same treatment so it will no longer be just laying in a box. It deserves more and it NEEDS more not to get damaged or anything. WILL be done just tales a lot of money.

Thanks all also for the many postings on the Kickstart section. And I a\see a few new people on there too... thanks for looking I appreciate the mind blowing feedback thanks all. There will be more to do your eyes pleasure I promise.

Your native little beast
Tommy

Mcrueloyalty.dk

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7th of March 2000SIXX, Did Somebody Say A Golden Egg?
93.55 PM CET
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So from the most wanted list the 7' ended during the night here US time. I sat the alarm clok and it was with small eyes that i opend the computer to see what would happen with this one. Always with item,s like these as said before there are like 4 Ebay members that simply takes all the heavy collectibles and just dont give a flying fuck about the final bill they end up with if they should winthe item listed. It happend again with this the rarrest of therare of Motley Crue vinyls.


I sat down followed it how it went through the sky price wise and then I made a decition.I bid 30 secs left... 20 15 10...
Final screen picture? YOU ARE THE WINNER OF THE FOLLOWING ITEM....
It was christmas all over...just wantee to share the passion and the joy with you all on here ... it was a good 650 US dollars for a single reciord. But ... ahh never mind. Won it happy. No shit.....
Now - what else is to be won over...well keep coming back I feed you with my sick minds activities

Hell Yes
Tommy


Mcrueloyalty.dk

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SIXXth of March 2000SIXX, D.A.D. Danish Dynamite & Tour Plannings
3.26PM CET
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Ohhhh Jihad...Im getting mad... and there is no fuel left for the pilgrims. FUCK YES!!!!!
Danish rock at its best. Dig it? D.A.D. Point of View, Sleeping My Day Away and Aint No Fun Making Fun Of Money .. damn the whole fucking back catalogue. Hell yeahhh....Guess who would have loved to be at a Disneyland After Dark party right about now? Fuck it .. I would no second thought bout admitting that littlke brain fart.
All hail the disneys ...

What the fuck was that all about? Well I am down on all four sadly not in a sexual act more like in a kitching floor scrubbing act. has to be done I guess. And what better activity to do on a USA holiday little fucked up vacation in March huhh? Its all shiny and smelling nicely now of the chemicals all overthe fucking floor. Any way we have had a long long night corina and I here .. no no sex. I am not that lucky. How ever a lot of smaller details have been looked in on and the coming weekend and week to follow will be a hell of a ride. it will all be a good closing in on the 2000 miles mark each way in that week .. for our crazy ideas and Crue doings. Amazing isnt it? hell yes it is.

Crue tour Marc 200SIXX will be the last in a long long long time for me so I have a hard time letting this one get screwed. Simply can not alou it. I think ther will be a lot more tlking and all before the actual take off from here next week-end. We have so much to get planned out. I am getting more and more psycked about this one trip I tell ya. hell its going to be a blast. No sorry its going to be a ...B....L....A...S...T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

To the Miami thing we will be heading ot to the coast line on the east of Florida when time comes and ride by the ocean. Totally fucking awesome. Cant wait for that one either. Man I lovehis team of me myself and Corinna. We are the suff. In many ways no matter what her fuckd up mind at times tells her and what ever her shit at times plays her with. We are the package. A very and extremely alternative package yes but an alternative package that fucking works. And there is non other than she this hellkid could or can get the same enthusiasm from or with for that matter. She loves me in a fucked up way and i plan on making her lovingme even moe. may take a brain digger to better thaqt sitution. Who the fuck knows.

-God damn it ,.. D.A.D. "Overmuch" fucking my hearing up here. Jesper, Stig, jacob and Peter doing their shit. Fucking up my Motley focus right now. Hell ....
You are not by any chance sitting out there thinking who the fuck is D.A.D. are you?? if you are do your self a favoure and get a Cd by the boys. I am sure after a few spins you get to appreciate the major simplicity in the danish rock act.....damn it dont know what is wrongwith this male today. Its just another fucking Monday in the name of floor cleanings. Well..... I guess I just fully appreciate the shit thats happening in my low life small time excistence here. Love it.

I seriously hope the Crue boys are going to be in a good mood and fairly rested somewhere on the damn tour so I will have enopugh luck with my signings . I so want the Mick Mars guitar and Tommy guitars signed the large Shout banner brought herefrom the danish fields and the latest addings of the show banner shit huge from the late August show 2005 of some city. Would really appreciate thaT ONE GETTING FULLY SIGNED BY THE BOYS AND THE GIRLS MIGHTY MIKE AND THE GANG. Dont fully believe in that luck but hey who knows man who knows? Nothing is impossible and on the other hand nothing is a promise either. I just want to be doing this thing right and have my small time success with these things. Cause as said on here many times now I will not have more coming my way of touring this time around till in November but then I will fucking kick back and do what s needed to come here again. It is just one of thm things. Wit hthe band ending their carreer 2008 after the next album and world tour 07/08 its time to collect ll you fucking can right now. And that TRUST ME is exactlywhat I am trying harder than hard to do. Its the disneyland law.....I'll do what I please. Just trying to be one here with my personal hell dog in a female and its all coming downto the ... we dont care NO!!! its so far out but its so far right its just .... the disneyland law - we do as we please. Fuck it!!!! Fuck normlity. Its the beauty of the duty.

The Crue life in GREER South Carolina is well cool. As said I am getting psycked about it all and I so do not wanna miss anything. Have looked through yet another couple of boxes of shit to bring home as I leave ... there is yet another HUGE hard box suitcase of things to go so there still is shit much to bring home. It really is great. I love it all. You should see the things in real life. Especially at my apartment now its nuts!!! I begin to need a casel for the shit. especially if all should be displayed nicely and at its right. Time will get to that one but right now I just see myself gathering my filthy hands on all I can possible grab. I know a few of you out there are so not getting it how the hell can I? Even though I have tried to explain it in a pretty simple way. I do not live my life like the ordinary people. That is why it is possible. And I do not really care for it either. But of cause as it is for you all I too have my limits ... the natural limits that hits me like a ton of brincks at times. I am getting there but I am also fine with it.

What else is o be said as of now? Not much really... Sixx is on my mind these days and there is a reason for it. But there is also a will a constant will to go deap shit and then return or revenge as I have doen the last what. 20 months almost now. I would so love to try to go tot some american media and let them do my story. I as a radio DJ myself ...of the media world I find the story and its extreme very interesting. Fuck man that had been a shit neat thing to do. I will have toi try to figure out how to do that shit.

But for now just enjoy the updates on here with things and and postings. I am proud to say its getting there now with the fixing and the right doings. There are now over 15.000 pictures on this site and its still growing. Just do your self a favour if you truely are a cruehead. return to this shit like maybe ones a week and there should be something all over to look at. talk to ya soon guys.

Later homies....
Your southern bastard
Tx

Mcrueloyalty.dk

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4t hof March 200SIXX, How Cool Can Cool Be? That Cool
1.48 PM CET
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Alright my little hores. It is absolutely one of them days when it helps to have patience and being nice. **cruester** your dick will fall of from this information going to you. Friday evening has turned out to be a blessing. A night with a cool outfall. Over the last few days there have been a few talks and a lot of shared thoughts towards what I was thinking about the Ebay auctions that I really wanted to end up being the winner for as they all with in the next week would come to each their endings.

Well the display got to be mine. Paid for and now waiting for. The same with the Japanese 1987 tour only special 68 pages over sized cool collectible book or magazine. Then the starp from 91 that dude .. I cant tell what is going on with him. He seemed so cool. He seemed so nice but all of a sudden he ignores my emails and more. I find it a little sad. I am sure he reads this on here too. So he should not be suprised when I say: "I STILL WANT IT". But he chose not to keep in touch thats just all shitty. Hope he will one day get back to me. He is in need of cash and that part I fully understand too .But the things he has up online now are not going to sell for those amounts. I am dead sure .I at least will be the first to admit I didnt think so if they do. They are way to high priced. Signed guitar and a Sixx auction signed shirt too. No too much .. absolutely way too much.
But the strap I still like to buy from him.

Then there is the Guild Shout guitar and the 7" left in my I WANT BAD ITEMS.lol...
Both of them two ends officially next Tuesday. My pushing and my begging and my shit last night ended with a "Alright Tommy you can have the guitar" So my baby came home and she was told over the phone erlier that this guy would be willing to do it this way so I in time for the concerts can have the guitar with me for a HOPEFUL signing by Mick Mars in person.
I really hope that will happen. She said (my baby that is) "can not pass on that one either. We just pay it as done before with my possibilities as I get home from work.". I could not even share a tear in joy .. I was beyond that point. It was just a really cool feeling. And 20 minutes pas midnight the guitar was paid in full and it will be shipped from I guess Canada today!!! Fuck me I think this chick should have a medal. **Cruester** ...did your dick fall off. Did your chin drop to the floor? I hope so. Go get a bisket and a glass of milk and feel better.

I am sure today is the day when Corinna will make her posting too. It will be a pleasure to even see her doing it. I know. But what she has to say will be even cooler. No I dont know already what she is going to tell you all. But I will have her making one. And there is soon to come a new section to be on here about you people. If I get to talk to you all in interviews and shit I will have a new page made on here for all to see ...

So so far 3 out of 4 Ebay things has gone this way. Now only the single is left. I will go through hell to get it. Though I doubt very much that that will happen. There are 3 guys out there that will kill for it and one in particular will get it I feel so sure about this. Okay much to do today so there will be a busy time for me today and Corinna has only one thing she has to do. So we will be doing a lot today. Interview with her. Puttiong my stack of unworn KISS shirts up on Ebay and more. Going to town to pick up yet more boxes that has arrived with Crue things. Ohhh yeah there will be plenty of shit to go through still. It is a mind blowing trip this 2005 200SIXX thing. Just have been a little too high on spendings I tll you that.

I see Corinna today as a bit ..... no I guess I will save that oneforthe interview to come...You all jus tsit tight and dont worry about it. It will all come to you shortly.
The webmaster as promised before I left is sill updating things on the site and there is going to be full order and control on every single thing on here this month. We have to. We are loosing too many GOLDEN opotunities with the shit that is not up to date on here. ASnd that is no longer acceptable. I personally will say sorry for the shit that has been teasing us all in january February but this is the month that will see an ending to that crap.

Time flies when you are having fun, so this dog needs to go.
More as the things are happening you all have a nice week-end.
Your smiling fuck,
Me

Mcrueloyalty.dk

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3rd of March 2000SIXX, First Day Feeling Fresh
4.05 PM CET
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My god yesterday was a hard one ot get through. So beat so tierd.
I got myself a good night sleep but got up before nine again. It is too hot in that bedroom here. Not that any of you care - but it is. I am way too hot blooded to get a decent sleep in a warm bed. I need cool. butI have just had a fairly cold fresh shower so I am reayd to take on this day. My stomac is not too good. Not that its hurting or anything just blown up like a balloon. I need to get out fresh air and walk around a little plus I need good food.

Corinna and I are misisng one last set of ticketsfor our doings on the concert side of things and that is surely a need that will get covered. Just missedout on a set on Ebay. We will get the ones hat are still on there tomorrow mid of arena but its okay with the lot that we are doing money needs to be savedon somethign and these tickets forthis show missing will be one ofthe things we will save on.

I have had a guy offering me the New York coin from 2005 today too have emailed him and hope he still has it cause this is another I WANT FOR SURE thing:
"MOTLEY CRUE Red, White & Crue NYSE Tour Medallion (2005 Official Medallion issued on March 2, 2005 by the New York Stock Exchange to commemorate Motley Crue’s prestigious appearance on the floor of the NYSE that day to ring the closing bell. This stunning and heavy gold medallion is custom etched and engraved especially for the band, and features the beloved NYSE Bull logo on one side and the New York Stock Exchange Building on the back. Presented in a custom, sturdy black case"


Things are really not onmy side with the items I want. People are the last 2 to 3 weeks really been saying a lot and then changeing their ways the last minute. Hard to deal that way with anybody. Hopefully this one will go my way!! I have wanted this one since the day after the ceremony in New York.

The first lor of the bigger Coffmann and Coffmann deal has been coming to this addres today in the mail. I like that. Still a long way and a lot of money to go before this one will actually be done and dealt with. The deal is not getting cvlosed untill mid November 200sixx.
But trust me I am pleased with the deal big time. It was a lot a money and it is a painfull thing to try to cover it but I willdo it. And things will be fine in the end.

Today will be another day too in the bidding section of the earlier pictured items that I like to get from the Ebay listings. The guiar guy on there with the X88 1981 guitar I have had a longer conversation about the guitar with him. He is willing to letme have it but my financial situation right now is not alouing it in time for having it here for a Mick Mars signing thats stinky shitty. Ohh well cant win em all I guess. I still try to win it and then see if it can be brought to the band in November or Decemebr case i most likely will not be over here again till then.

It hurts to admit it and it sucks to know but I am alkl alone ofn the covering the expences on all actions here. Again a long borring story for you to get in on but its the fact.

How things will go with the most wanted Japan book I am missing on Ebay that fom now on ends in a good 2 hours time .... well I think it will be fine. I will get that one I am almost dead sure. Then only he guitar and the first 7" are left thoseends Tuesday and its gonna be a killing thing. I see the 7" go into a good 700 - 1000 dollars alone.
The guitar cant tell maybe a good 1000? Damn that sucks ass.

While I now try to get this thing called brains to calm down a little over that fact Iwill go eat my morning breakfast and then ....figue out todays scedual. Corinna is still sleeping and the Crue and the doings are on her mind too. But the financial side tothings for her as well is not the easiest thing in the god damn world right now. Holy fuck.

Some people have not been the most effective on the gang of loyalty and there is no bitter ness or anything to it but the ones I am talking about have been taken off of the "gang of loyalty" section on here and they I am sure dont really mind. Of cause I wanna thank them for the time they did find it interesting and I wish you all the best with what ever yu decide to do in Your CRUE RELATED LIFE from this day on, thanks again guys

Probably will post a little somethign for you through the weekend too my dear friends.
The wacked, hopeless but smiling host
Lee

Mcrueloyalty.dk

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2nd of March 2000SIXX, Ameriacans and cerial
7.22 PM CET
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God damn it Cruester you little piss ant. I will not ban you from this site I know you do not mean harm or anything. Jealousy what a word huhh? I will send you another good 10 pounds of it shortly. You green eyed monster. Corinna.. .not amking comments on her or about her here she can do her own speaking. I hope just as much as youthat she will get time to make a line of things on here shortly. But since your ass is hurting you so much about things on here...why dont you try take a dump. Set a really big "boat" in the water. You may feel better or get your self some yougurt. Corinna LOVES you that much I know. Happy now? I will commit murder if she should end this and do you. So watch out.

I landed here late last night and I had again had my shot happening on the way over here. The flights were kind of alright. Aarhus to Copenhagen went smoothly. Copenhagen to Amsterdam also. Then I had like 3 hours in Amsterdam that turned in to 4 and a half due to delayed flight out of Holland. My god. That would give me trouble in the USA I thought.
In Amsterdam I got to talk to a young girl uhhhh!! Nice little pingwine. Jana 22 ys old And what do you know she got to be my next seat travelling partner on board from ASTRERDAM to NEW YORK. This flight was not as long a journey and not as full as earlier flight to this god forsaken place. SO all in all nice.

I was shit tired but no one puked on me this time and no illness either .Just all in all tired. And MY nicest surprise of the day was that my union in Denmark had called me in for 2 meetings as I am now done working at the restaurent in Grenaa Denmark. I had told them 3 weeks ago that I was taken this trip but their info had gotten lost so if I still planned on going here and I was I am I am here right) I would be taken the monthly pay of March. No pay check. So it is now going to be even harder than expected this whole thing. In short this trip with that loos now costs me about 4300 dollars. Kind of stinks dont you agree.

And as Cruester has pointed out and that Corinna showed me yesterday on the computer as she picked me up. The guy with my much wanted bass strap has now eneded his auction too. My guess is he either regreeted it or he did not think he would reach the price I offered and we set a deal on back in time. I so want that but he is not replying to my emails for some reason so it kind of kills me. I respect ppl that changes their mind if it is all maybes and ifs and all that but I am not too good with killed steady deals.

Now I have the japan book and the 7" and guitar left to watch for on the Ebay site.
Corinna yes she picked me up after several hours of waitng in Spartanbug Greenville airport. She had been working and I had been sleeping there. That was a 26 hour long journey till I saw her. I miss her. What do you mean you may think? Well yes I am herre but I miss her. We are not close like that. Hope things will come. My body is sore today like hell bad sleep way too hot in the bedroom for me. And way too shitty naps on the planes and in the airport., I feel like I could just beak any minute.

She Corinna that is did seem fairly pleased with me here. She even smiled yeeeiiiii thats sumthing huhh? Lol... As we got here to her place. I wanted to go at her so bad, but i did not, have not done so. I have been a stinky sorry excuse of a male there too. Now we did get to see a few of the Motley things she has gotten for me lately. Kind of pissy cause it just reminds me of one thing... never mind that.... non of anybodys buissness.

SO I guess all I can say right now is that I am here Corinna has gotten her gifts. I always bring her gifts as I go here. Always. I have gotten a few hours sleep my first shower and my cerial. Nice one, Uhhh what was thatnoice. Corinna is up I think. Heeyyy honey slept tight? (she didnt hear) .... now forhte next few days I have things to get organized and then planned out for what to do when. But this trip now ia a thing with a looootttttt of adventures. I will rtry to throw you all a little something almost every day fromthis trip. I will be buying shit today too in the name of you guessed it MOTLEY CRUE.

I love you all even you you shit sorry sad little fag *Cruester* ....
See ya all shortly. And this time too I promiase a lot no a TON of new pictures will be gong on here too so you all can see what the fuck is happening alright?

Your half ameriacan dane
T boy

Mcrueloyalty.dk

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27th of February 200SIXX, Mutha Fucking Part Two Of The Day
6.33PM CET
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God damn oh lord. This day has been hectic long day working then a bit shopping things that were needed and things sadly that were temptations to my eye. Well it is done with now .The webmaster is doing a line of tryouts today and she is also ending up with success with her doings I think?? Not all sure but ….plus we will today get a few more things updated here on the site info and pictures.

I have been warned today too about a snow storm to hit Denmark over the next 30 hours.
So maybe this will please THE PIMPLE ON MY BUTT CHEEK from “kickstart my heart” the dude calling himself “Cruester”. I may get trouble getting out of Denmark as scheduled. Thank god I have planned this to be an early going to the states before all the arranged activities Corinna and I have planned so far to happen. Those are only days and days later after I actually get there. But still what a fucking pain in the ass. Every god damn time I go to the states there are things messing with what was originally set up. It is very tiring and frustrating I tell you.

SO I may be heading out of here after my last day at work tomorrow already. Meaning going to Roskilde at my brother’s place and stay there the night so I at least can get the Copenhagen airport in time for my “out of country” flight. That is my main goal right now anyways.

Right now I am extremely worried about a few things. Financially it is a mess ones I get going cause I KNOW what will hit me. Tons of doings and all. But I am ready and willing. No one can put me down. Another thing a few guys actually had a deal with me on items they each have. Things got screwed up somehow and these items now are on Ebay for all to bid on. I so want the lot but me won’t get it all. I know that right now. What I truly want are the things below that I have marked on Ebay too:

I am sweating fat here cause I do not as stated above believe I can or will get these things now with official auctions going on. Hell I am up against the fucking world here. And 3 of these things will have one of 4 Ebay IDs in the end I am sure of it. Kind of hurts my little heart here. But it aint over till the fat ass is done screaming her heart out right? Right!!!

Will I be able to get another posting on here in time before I leave well I can not honestly tell cause if I all of a sudden will be FORCED to leave my home to go to Roskilde as I get off from work I will have major trouble getting time to do anything so TONIGHT is the only time to do ALL that has to be done before I leave for America. Kind of weird and a bit of a stressful feeling. Holy shit.

Also on another note – the stuff picked up from my baby brother 90% of all that is already on the site here in case some of you were wondering. But there are still lots to get added. It is a baby child that will and can never stop growing this site. MCRUELOYALTY living up to its name like non other or maybe some disagree. But that’s fine too I am not filing any complaints to that one at all.

Some may also ask now that I will be out of the country all March will the site go dead in that time? The answer sadly is NO!!! A big Hell NO!! I will feed the webmaster with things to get on here and she already has a list from here to Bastaa Huhaa with things she needs to get done or change or try out on here as I am gone .And communications will go on, on almost a daily basis. That I promise!!!

Now my stomach is troubling me so I need to stuff myself full of something and there for end this. I guess I will have a lot of things to do tonight will be a weird evening wit hall the “not knowing” controlling this Monday evening central European time.

Your Crue Horny Psycho

Lee

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27th of February 2000SIXX, Packed Car And Sunsets
8.59AM CET

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The week-end flew like crazy!! What the hell happened??
Well all the stuff from my brothers place of Motley Crue is now picked up and there are another ton of shit to go through!! It is simply a lot that kicks ass. I now have absolutely no room to walk on here at my apartment till I get this sorted. SO to escape from the madness I am going to work long today!!!

I then have 36 more hours till USA is calling me up again. I will get more posted here later.

The webmaster and myself have had a long good talk yesterday too about new ideas for the sites and more. Ohhh boy just sit tight and you will be handed it all on a silver platter here over the next 2 to 3 months ..have an awesome Monday, 27 February 2006

Your “cruester” buddy and host

Tommy Lee

PS: “Cruester” be carefull Corinna too may kick your ass any day now? LOL….
One day I will slap your little naked butt

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24th of February 2000SIXX, 100 Plus Items & Horny Feelings
4.54PM CET
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*Thank God It’s Friday* a disco movie of the 70`s. God that reminds me of the thundering Donna Summer song “Hot Stuff” Or Amii Stewart “Knock On Wood” I know, I know what the fuck does disco has to do with anything. Well in spite of me rarely throwing or attending a party disco ones was cool I think. I actually still think some of that sex magnet music genre can be quiet entertaining.

So… shoot me. Anyway it is Friday. God’s will or not, it’s here and there is nothing we can or really want to do about it now are there? Hell no!!!!!

The last few days have had tons of added things on here just look at the rolling news banner on op of this site. Says a lot does it not? Of cause it does. And it is not over yet. Later on today and tomorrow we should have many more Posters and Shirts added too. I will do all in my power to full fill that promise. Simply because we are also running out of time to sit together and do this the webmaster and myself. The weekend is with out any chances for that and Wednesday I am out of here for quiet some time .Going to U.S.A. again. As most of you all knows. So we better work our asses off while still time.

I have received several personal sent emails from many of you out there about the blown away feelings you are sitting with going through this site. Well I say the same I too am at times blown away. It is a shit cool feeling to won such a great collection. And it actually just hit me hard about an hour ago. God T boy you really have a cool collection. Sounds like I am polishing my glory? Well not really. I just think it is a hell of a lot I have managed to gather over the years. And I was so close to give it all up just because of a girl a couple of months ago. What the hell was I thinking?

Thank god I am back on track in my head - but with her too.
It hit me so hard the appreciation of my own doings I had to call her and say THANK YOU. For making me see things. Thanks. Now we are so close to get on to round 4 or 5 or is it 6 (lost track) of a new line of shows and I can not believe it. I can maybe especially not believe it this time since it will break me financially. And in spite of knowing this way ahead even before booking the flight I am doing it. I will be shit ass flat broke and can not do a lot from late march till November.

I will be having ALL the 200SIXX merchandise and much, much, much more brought home like I normally have when I return from the states. But I am not a rich dude but I have sold a great lot of high priced KISS collectibles and saved ever nickel not buying shit done shit and eaten as little as possible for being able to do all these things the past 18 months. Plus the great certain guy has helped out a great deal. Who? Who are you talking about? That is your question is it not? Well I am not telling. If you know you know, if not well it is all fine too.

More than a 100 new items have been added to this site this week alone and to me personally it is a feeling fucking like being horny as hell.

Not up for discussion. Yeah well….I get laid too little what the fuck is new there? I know how it is. I am male right it is our hormones they need that kind of satisfaction. There is a reason why women have their shit ONES a month and we males produced millions of sperms fucking every day!!! It is all only natural we need to get the release quiet often. I am just not amongst the guys that have it. There is no release ….I get it from my Crue world I guess. Better than sex and safer. No little Cruesters coming out of that act. Lol!!!

The guy with the bass strap has for some reason totally misunderstood me and now has the bass strap up on Ebay. I still am going to try to go for it. Fuck dude, that is fucked. I want this one and it bugs me the guy I have had such great communication with now fucks this up. He knows what it all means to me. But what the hell money greed controls most people. I do still want to get it. And another guy Minnesota Cruehead Tim has a great few items he due to financially tough times as I post this some items up fro grabs. Kills me not being able to get these things. But we are fucking talking 1000`s of dollars here. I do not have a money tree so….. no brother can not do!!

He has the Vince shout glove – London poster and shots – uncut cover layout form Stick To Your Guns single and the artwork for the printing of the Dr. Feelgood album. Shit man I loved to have had these items. But money talks a little too much at times sad to say!!

-A lot of summer rumours are floating round these days. Crue is supporting Guns N Roses in June in Ireland and Crue heading out on the road with Aerosmith. Well so far these things are true weather the management will tell or not according to other inside people. But as ever things changes so fast in the Motley camp it is not really sure until up to I almost dare say the day before these things are planned to happen. So just hold on and keep your eyes open. Shitty happens before you know it and the other way round too. Gets cancelled always. Now a few new ideas have been talked through amongst the staff of the site and I dare say this; the coming months new things and tons of new items will get on here so keep coming back people.

I am sure I will have one or two more postings on here before I leave for the states Wednesday morning central European time.

Your personal filth and sexual frustrated host

Tom boy lee

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20th of February 200SIXX, Punkass Step dad & Crue Actions
7.09 PM CET
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Sitting here Monday early evening. The day that a few new Crue activities seem to have taken shape. And the day after a hectic confront with my punk ass step dad. He is so screwed now. He and mum are splitting thank god. Every single living soul has waited for this move on her parts for years. Yesterday mum got her final doubt buried. Going to her for a visit with Motley in my headset. “She’s got the looks that kill…” you all know what I am talking about. I was fed with energy right there so when the punk ass prick of a man started his discriminations towards every living man in the family and he started big mouthing about me, I stood up told him face to face that if he had anything to say he could do it now while I was present. Fucking idiot.

He could not handle his shit verbally so he heated up and sucker punched me three times in the face.

The song really should have been B A S T A R D should it not? Hell yes. I never punched him back but fucking threw him through the kitchen telling him to never ever as long as he lived to talk to me or touch me or else…..SO no reason to go all the way to Detroit and be famous for having a Tommy Lee experiencing the sucker punching!!!

On with the Motley “ten Seconds ….” Yeah well, no love in that house. Fucking stupid needle dick hore of a male. Enough lines about a creep on this site. Can not even begin to explain how low I think this dude is!!!!

On a more positive and satisfying level is; The site has finally had some FUNCTIONAL updating. God if one wants shit done one has got to take actions himself. Know what I am saying? Now miss webmaster, live and learn. FOCUS is the key here. Learn the fans visions and wishes. Anyway we have done a hell of a job the last few days so the following are as good as fully updated right now,

Nikki solo, Tommy solo, Mick solo, Vince solo, Displays, Picks, Audio, Video, Passes, Laminates,

Cruecial Injection, Diary, Tour books, Magazine Covers. And the rest HOPEFULLY will be done and ready with in Saturday. Cause that is just about the last day we have before I leave (yes “cruester” from kickstart I am going) but if the poisoned fluid of a guy gets his wish I may never return in these times of terrorism? Lol……

Corinna and I have talked plenty the last days and it feels all good.
Think we speak for the both of us. We are going aggressive on the Crue actions to come in March and we do have a line of things to go to and more. It will tear my head off financially but hell I want it so bad!!!! And it is the last time on this side of November or something. Hell yes.

She had just been buying us VIP tickets for the earlier talked about Miami festival with Tommy Lee guest DJ. Not really my style or wish to see him that way but fuck it. Seeing it one time and that is it!!

Rob Zombie and Nine Inch Nails are there too and the summer heat is there so fuck it.

Gonna be nice experience as a closing thing after a line of Crue shows up north and around plus the Nine Inch Nails concert in Greenville, North Carolina. Plus all the days we will have and further more meetings and checking out chances for going over there to the USA on my part a little more permanently!!

I have gotten an offer to get this 1991, 92, 93 bass strap of Nikki`s from a very cool guy that is still collecting our heroes. I so want it and I so wanna own it and add it to my own collection . I am 99.99% certain that that will happen Hopefully round the 1st of March as I then can bring it to Sixx and have it signed maybe!!! Cool huhh? Damn right it is. It is awesome. No doubt what so ever.

Also carved in stone today is the next trade of the ongoing KISS and Crue record awards. I am next time getting these two super shit cool looking monsters. I can not wait till I have all from this dude. That also means I am way out of all my KISS ones. But what the hell? I am a gambler and the memories of my KISS days can not be taken away from me. Not bought or sold. Just forever there but the Crue is now in my life so I find bigger pleasure in having the Motley Crue awards on my walls than the KISS ones as of today. Makes sense right? Of cause it does.

That’s fucking all for the day my friends,

To the band …hail….to the wild side!!

Sucker punched Lee!

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17th of February 200SIXX, Sorry To All That Has Love 4 The Site

7.16 PM CET
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I am here today Friday the 17th just ate my baked potato. Coffee is just ready fresh and I am fired up cause I now have a few days off from work to do a lot of the things I need to get done before I am airborne ones again and most likely one last time in a long time. I am out of a job this 1st of March too. So things will be a little different. I am not gonna comment on the posting Corinna did on the personal matter of her and myself. We are trying again that is all I will say. Trying to find a bond to make this boy, girl thing work. That is it. I am just filled with a gazillion thoughts and I take them with me myself and I and deal with it. Corinna is too good and too cool a person for me to wanna let go. And we have something when we are together that is out of the ordinary. Then again WE ARE …out of the ordinary!! Enough said.

I just wanna make this final statement to her; We keep proving in our own fucked up ways we are great for each other and all you have done for me this year so far has been awesome. No one I know would do it with me or for me. I am grateful. There is no other word to say it in short. We have some kind of magic that we both every now and then seem to like to deny but when it all is said and done we most likely should not deny a thing. But be grateful for what we are about and that we do have a chance to get and share what the two of us does. It is a shit rare thing. We have both tried it several times. And that is it. It never fully worked. This can and this will if we want it to.

To the sickest chick of them all. Corinna you are poison to my wallet poison to my mind but honey to my heart.

She had a stinky cool time inspite of certain things I will leave for her and me to know at the shows she has already attended.

Now I am coming over and I will have a trip that will be a shit important one. In most matters. Really. I have today paid my Green Card fee of 135.00 dollars and I hope to god things will end up going my way! I need to get it!! I have also with Corinna agreed on doing a thing we or at least I never fully wanted to do. Go to see Tommy Lee at one of his DJ shows. Yes he is going to do DJ show in Miami on the 18th of March one of the last days I am there on my next visit.

He is part of the so called Global Gathering Festival. Rob Zombie, Nine Inch Nails and many more are there too. Awesome. Actually Corinna and I will see Nine Inch Nails in South Carolina on the 16th the day after the Crue show in Atlanta. My ohh my are we gonna be busy the time I am there…lol lol nice one.

I have had a line of shit going on with the webmaster. Sorry to all and for that matter also sorry FOR ourselves. And to ourselves. It has simply been a shitty hard time to get all the wrongs and new things up on the site. First of all, all has been for some reason been forced to be put up on again. And then as it has gone up on here it has gotten messy. It has also gotten fucked up and all rolled up in each other. NO GOOD I know that much.
I also know the webmaster is not really capable of handling stress and busy times. Her mind is not made for this kind of stuff. I do not know why she wants to be a serious web designer cause she would have to take a lot of commandos and a lot of pressure. Sorry hon, that I do not see you being able to. But I have had a few things talked over with her and the site has just gotten refreshed money wise meaning we have paid our fees for still having a continuation on this one. So she can not quit now no matter what the fuck hits her, she is not much of a gambler she is not much of a dare with things. So in short I guess all her promises about things are updated and will be fully ready and functional this weekend and that weekend just is not happening!!!

She and I are forced to sit together to do it all. Cause she well… fucks up a lill too many times so it all goes into a redoing and another and another. That is tiring us both a hell of a lot. Plus it is time that we easerly could have used in private on other things. Just not good. Actually then in that way, this site and the whole thing gets to be more of a bunch of troubles - than it is a pleasure and pride.

And I refuse to let that happen.
I have about ONE more week to do this in before I leave .. so next week HAS TO HAVE A LINE OF cleared shit going on. Or else we will be way behind and it can cost us all you guys that do not really want to get back on here because of the things that are constantly wrong. Again I apologize.

Further more I have also gotten a few more items in the door for adding to the monster. But it will take a little time. My brother that old fart has been seeing me and we have shaked hands about the deal of his collection. He is no longer having a Motley home. It is all out of his life. That felt kind of weird for me too but not in my heart. I know from his life and how he is that this was the RIGHT thing for him to do in his life. Still a love for the band as I have love for the old KISS geeks…
But this was not right for him as a collector no more. But he can always go here and see the shit. It is not a problem. Corinna and I will try new things in a command Crue world.

We are trying to do this together as one and we will try to somehow get the attention in the states with a few of the cool networks to hear if they should have an interest in making a profile on this Crue madness of mine.

Would that not be a hell of a ride? Sure it would. Man……

Okay for now that is it really. Tons of things to write about on here later.
Also an interview with Corinna coming up on here in March!!

Watch out!!

Now don’t 4get, MOTLEY madness 4ever.

Your idiotic host

Tom boy

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HOLY SHIT IT STILL LIVES & BREATHES
February 15th 1:10 AM
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Ok here it all goes THE BOMB................................................

Hey all, it's been a fuckin' long time huh? I do apoligize but my life is just all fucked up in some ways. I did get moved to my new apartment (almost). I still have some things to pick up at my house but that's ok. So as I said before I have something going on & I didn't want to tell you guys until I felt ready to. So.............. here it is, if you haven't already figured it out (it's not too hard) I'm married. Yeah, I said married. I know WTF, right? Well it's true I have been for a little over 5 years now & very unhappily. I finally had enough one day when I got back from an Alaskan vacation in June of '05. I told the guy that's it I want a divorce. Then finally I moved out at the end of Dec. '05. No papers or anything have been filed yet but that will come in time. I'm just trying to keep the peace & make this whole thing go over smoothly because he can make things go very bad if he feels the need & I don't want or need that. I don't hate the guy but we are just two different kinds of people & have very different interests. So there is that. I'm happy to be all on my own again.
It's hard but I'm makin' it. I'm still bustin' my ass at 2 jobs & trying to get another one at the same hospital I already work at & if I get it that will be more overtime for me!!

So on to the subject of the Motley Boys & their shows huh........So New Year's was fuckin' great!!!! But that's kind of old news by now
but I just wanted to say that. But I could kick myself in the ass real hard for sleeping too late the next day & missing the guys by about 10 minutes, right T!!!!!!!?

This posting is going to be kind of fucked up cause I will just type things as I think of them & not in any order. So sorry if you get confused.

This past Friday I went to Columbus, GA for a show. The girl I have posted about on here before, Lisa from Las Vegas flew here & went with me. I picked her up at the airport & we went to get the rental car & then went to the Waffle House (which Tommy calls the grease pit & hates) & ate breakfast. Then dropped my car off at my apartment & then headed out to Columbus. It was about a 4½ hour drive. Well on the way there guess what? I saw one of the busses so we just followed it all the way to the venue. Then we went to the hotel she booked 5 min. down the road, checked in, & put our shit inside. She wanted to rest cause
she flew all night & didn't get much sleep so I left for a little while. I went back down to the Venue & took some pictures & then went on a newspaper hunt. I didn't think I was going to find anything & then finally I found a newspaper from the day before with the Boys on the front & I grabbed a couple & got the hell out of there & went back to the room. Lisa
didn't rest any & was getting ready. I got ready & then we left & went to the Venue. We ended up meeting Angie (from the site) there with her friend Nichole. We all waited outside in the cold to be let in & finally the doors opened & I went straight upstairs & bought every new item they had. A BIG $428.00. I had to though for T. I didn't want to take the chance of not getting something later. The guy was real nice to me since I bought everything & said he would keep all of it for me until the show was over so I left it there & to the bathroom we went & then down to our seats. I asked one of the security guys if I could have Vince's set list after the show & he said he would do what he could. 8:00 came & here comes the video & then Mighty Mike in the huge clown mask, the show has started. Everything was going great except Vince's mic wasn't working a few times throughout the show, but other than that no problems. Tommy did his drum thing out over the audience again just like in Detroit on new years. The boys sounded real good & did things a little differently this time, not much but a little. They did more interaction with the audiance this time. Lisa kind of didn't seem like she was having that good of a time as she could have, but maybe I'm wrong I don't know. They started "Kickstart" & everyone went crazy. We got knocked down. I was standing
on a chair & fell & got quite a nasty bruise on my inner left leg, all purple & yellow & shit. But it's all good!! I didn't care I was having a great time. After it was over I ended up getting part of Vince's set list even though Mighty Mike told the guy that he couldn't give it to anyone. During intermission there was this little blonde girl that came up to the front row & was let to stay there. As the guys started playing again they all acknowledged her like they knew her. Well indeed they did know her. They pulled her up on stage & she went straight to Mick, said something to him, & then stood in front of the drums for a second & kind of showed
off & then security took her back stage. I think I heard Tommy say this is Mick's soon to be ex-wife (but I'm not sure so don't quote me on that). At the end of the show there was this guy, I'm not sure who he was but I think he won something from the radio to get up on stage & eat some kind of small live shark fish. He had a red plastic fireman's hat on &
I got it too. All in all the show was fuckin awesome!!

All day on the radio they were saying Tommy & Nikki would be at the after party at this place called Oxygen. Well when the show was over Lisa wanted to go back to the hotel so I took her back & called Angie & Nicole & asked them if they were going to the after party & they said yes so I met them back at the venue & then we all went to Oxygen.
On the way going back to the room we saw one of the busses again but we didn't follow it. I knew it was going a long distance & I save those kind of things for me & T. Angie had told me that Donna & Frankie Jean were at the show which would explain why Nikki stayed to his side pretty much & didn't have much to do with the girls in the show on stage.
So I knew he wouldn't be there at the after party, but I thought Tommy might show up but I was wrong. I didn't really want to go but there was this banner that the radio station had & I wanted it & they told me I could probably get it if I went there so I went. Well I asked one of the girls from the radio station if I could have it & she said let me ask my boss &
she did & he came over to me & told me that I could but he had to find the guy with the keys to the Hummer outside. So I waited and waited & waited & then waited some more. After sitting there bored to death, listening to shit music, & putting up with cigaretts I went & found the guy & he kept telling me hold on still. So I waited & waited & waited again & nothing. Finally at 2:00 we went outside & the Hummer was already gone anyway. So I didn't get the damn thing. It was raining & we had a little ways to walk back to our cars so we just did what we had to do & dealt with the rain & we walked back to our cars. I was pist about not getting that banner, but what can you do, right? Fuck it! Then I headed back to the hotel room & downloaded the pics & videos I took & went to bed. So that's how that night went.

The next morning we got up, & this fuckin' place-hotel- was pretty shitty. Not much of anything looked too nice anywhere around there. Anyway there was no fuckin' hot water. I tried to take a shower but just couldn't handle it, I can't do cold water. I was fuckin' pist. I complined when we checked out & Lisa got $10.00 bucks back. Well it was better than nothin'. Then we headed back to Greenville, SC. We got back & stopped by my house so I could show it to her & then back to my apt. for a minute. Then it was time for Lisa to fly back to Vegas so I took her back to the airport & off she went & home I went & slept for a little while. I was beat.

Ok on to the next show Columbia, SC 2/12/06. I still havent received the tickets for this show yet. Etix told me they sent them out on Feb. 1st but I never received them. Etix told me they would have reprints waiting for me at the box office. I gto up around 11:30-12:00 & got ready & headed for Laurens where I would pick up Page (from the site) & her daughter Ashlyn which is about 11 yrs old. Then we headed on our way. It was about an hour drive. We stopped at a gas station so I could get a newspaper & the girl in there told me that the show has been postponed. I was about to shit. I was fuckin' pist & worried. So I got the paper & we drove down the street to The Colonial Center. The parking attendent told us that it was only postponed for an hour. So instead of starting at 8:00 it would start at 9:00. I was like THANK FUCKING GOD!! I thought it was going to be
cancelled all together & come to find out at the end of the show, I was told by a little birdy I know that it almost was cause they were running so far behind. So we parked & I went up to the box office & thank god they had the tickets! Also they had a bunch of different colored minni flyers so I grabbed tons of those & also a minni poster off of the front glass. Then back to the car to sit for a little bit. Then we all decided to take a walk
around the place & see if the busses were there & they were. I took some pictures & we went back to the car to sit & wait. After a while we went inside the venue but they were not letting anybody upstairs or to their seats yet. Finally about 7:15 they opened all the food, & shirts, & shit, but still couldn't go to our seats cause they were still seting things up.
At 8:00 we finally got to go to our seats. Then we still waited around for the show to start.
I saw 2 girls that I saw at the Columbus show. 9:00 hits & the lights go out. The claymation video plays & then here it comes "Are You Ready" the show starts!!! Everything started off perfect. the first two songs were killer! The third song is going along fuckin' great & then BLAM right in the side of the face Vince gets hit with a bottle full of piss (so I hear it was piss anyaway). He thinks for a second & then throws his mic. I don't know if it actually got thrown off the stage but I don't think so. Vince walks off the stage. The band is still playing for a second & then they stop too & the lights go out. FUCK FUCK FUCK. Everyone is yelling their asses off at this stupid fuckin' mother fucker who hit Vince. I just new that was it for the night-SHOW OVER. But I was wrong. The funny thing is I had been telling Page all day that I had a bad feeling about this show. I just new something was going to go wrong. Strange how I get a feeling for these things. Nikki comes back out & says why should all of you have to pay for one stupid Mother Fucker. Then they all come back out & the show starts again. I couldn't believe it. If it was back in the day the show would have been over. Man the rest of the show was just kick ass fantastic!!!! Page's daughter got let up to the front row. At one point Nikki reached down & touched her hand! That was awesome! I wish it was me but it was still cool as hell. I had a better than excellent time. Vince threw one of his pics to me but I didn't see where it went & I knew nobody else got it.
So for about 20 min I was looking all over in between watching the show!
Finally I looked 3 rows back & there it was laying under a chair.
I jumped over the chairs & got it & of course coming back over the last set of chairs I fell on the same leg I had bruised so badly 2 nights before but this time it was my knee.
But again I din't give a shit I was having a fuckin' to die for time.
Yes I was being one of those fans that just sings along & goes crazy & gets all excited. I usually don't do that but there was just something about this show that brought it out in me. The guys were just being so interactive with the audience & having fun amongst themselves (being playful if that's what you want to call it) on stage too. There is no way for me to describe how fuckin' great things were going all the way around for the audience & the band (in my eyes anyway).

At the end of the show NIkki again leaned down & gave Ashlyn (Page's daughter) 2 picks. A grey one & one of the FUCK OFF ones. She was so lucky! I love that he did that for a kid if you know what I mean. Even though she wished it was Vince cause Vince is her favorite she was still thrilled to death. So even though I had bad doubts all day about the
show it turned out better than I ever expected. I did get some short videos with my camera & a bunch of pictures. In fact I was told if I take one more picture I would be asked to leave. LOL. Well I did so fuck you mother fuckers!!! So that's that & all is good.
THANKS GUYS!!!!!!!!

Now I bet you all are wondering about the whole me & T thing right?
Well......... In fact I'm kind of sure he is too. Right now I just don't really have an answer. I do love the guy but in a lot of different ways. T please don't ask me to explain this cause I can't. In fact just leave it as it is posted here & no response or questions to it.
I just need it to be that way. I don't like a lot of questions & bombardment.
If things are going the way you want them to go between us right now then just leave everything alone & let it keep going as it is. There is no need to worry I will not be going anywhere or looking for anything else. I am perfectly happy right where I am at. But please since I have given in on some things & you know what I 'm talking about don't smother me.
I cannot stand to be touched & pawed at all the time (now rubbing feet is not included in that-LOL, sorry). If he cannot just leave things the way we have them now then he will only be dissappointed in the end & not get what he wants. Maybe I'm wrong for being that way but I will not feel like I am owned by another in any way like I have been for the past 6 yrs.
To me things are great right now so why change it. In my fucked up head things are better left unsaid & better to just know than have to state it out loud. Some how I feel more comfortable that way with things. I know, not normal but I am far from normal anyway. Does anybody understand this? If not well it's not really for you to understand anyway! Sorry T if you don't like it either but WTF can I say. And if one particular guy happens to read this which I doubt you can be for sure you will see me & T together in March & you can say that yes we are together, but just like you, not always on the same page with one another!

Well I hope all of you are at least somewhat pleased with my posting. I know it has been a very very long time, but that's just it TIME & it's not on my side. I'm sure it will be a while before I can get back again so if anyone wants to get to me or ask me anything much sooner you will have to email me at corina1965@aol.com . Please don't email T with questions to where I am at, if you want to know email me. Thx.

Until sometime in the future,

Your fucked up little Cruejunkie

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11th of February 200SIXX, My Pain, My Happiness, On We Go
1.10 AM CET
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Corinna is at the Crue show right now as I type this. I am in Denmark sitting alone ready for a weekend having a major cold.
Guess how happy I am with that stinky situation? Not one bit happy and you can take that to the bank. SO wonder how her story is form the show tonight. Major radio thing going on outside from what I can understand. YES!! We have spoken on the computer
and phone. We are in this together like the soul mates we are weather we like that fact or not.

I can not believe that I am not able to share this with her. I think there is a ton of crappy feelings about this. I feel them all.
And it hurts. She is there with her long time internet friend Lisa from Las Vegas. And she I dare say has a lot to live up to.
So very different from myself and Corinna when it comes to Crue. But in short and this IS WITHOUT!!!! Putting anyone down incl.
Lisa what so ever and I mean this ….it will be hard for Corinna or me to find a more fit travelling partner than each other. Period end of discussion.

I hope so much for a posting from Corinna on this the new 2006 tour. All the details. I would like to know before the shows hits me in March.
But what I can share right now and what kind of does take the air out of me is the new merchandisecatalogue for the spring tour.
Holy mother o god. It is way over the 500 dollars mark. That is going to be a full time stinker. I have not the possibility to cover it all as I see it right this minute. And I bet some will get sold out before long too. IS always like that. Man this is so not cool. Well it is but I have just paid another 2300 dollars to cover buys and my US plane ticket to go March first. And I am still in need of tickets and more.
Sounds like a nightmare? Well it is. Trust me. I can not really say much else on that!

I have said it before and I say it again. If you are a TOTAL COMPLETE SICK IN YOUR HEAD SERIOUS
MOTLEY CRUE ALL ROUND COLLECTOR – you are being tested in these times.
There is so much shit and you live so ordinary with an income from a job that can only give you so much!! I think it sets its limits with in
a second or two. It is mind blowing. Fuck, money goes like nothing on this band now days. I will fucking try to cover all I possibly can.
Watch me. Here is it. The nightmare of hell and painful headaches like you will not believe.

To all that is watching this reading this send me your. ALL your spare energy I need every little bit of it. It is going to kill
me this here. And I know it. So what do I do? Time will tell. Your all time loyal Dane,

Tx

PS: Miss you partner……

PS: Only just got done typing this diary posting in pain and more before the phone rang here in Denmark at 1.34AM CET It was Corinna.
I go “Tommyhello” all I hear is “$428.00 please” I go what? I could hear it was her but I had no real idea what she was talking about.
I was in a mess in my skull with this ALL NEW info. Hitting me like a bullet train. But to clear the doubts of where we were going in our
conversation she went; “Yep you owe me 428.00 dollars I just bought you the grand lot the sale stand had to offer. All new items I was
speechless. This is what my honey does to me sometimes. She rips me, kills me, then burry me in happiness and helpfulness.
I can and will never ever love anyone this way. I love a lot of people but this bitch from hells kitchen takes the price.

-She did say something about 10 shirts bandana and more of the smaller stuff no Too Fast hooded shirt though. Was too expensive or sold out. We will get that one from somewhere else. Fuck me she damn well did it. It is all safe. It will be mine. If she does not take me as hers now I will freak and never fully want to feel love ever again. Corinna you are the shit. You are killing me but you are the shit.
I will sleep snotty sneezing and smiling tonight! You are the …. Ahh forget it. I bow to your feet.
Or better yet I will rub them like every day for 21days how is that?

T H I S B I T C H I S L I K E N O O N E E L S E

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9th of February 200SIXX, Engines Up And Running (Again)
2.59 PM CET
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I am getting stripped to the bone financially here this time. I am not letting this pass on me anyway. I have gotten my ticket to ride the skies again March 1st. And I have done a few ticket buys and all to the first leg of Crue 200SIXX over there.
God damn it dude, I can not keep this up. Anything goes wrong in my life to the freezer blows out on me or something what ever happens over the next 3 months will not be fixed. I can not do it.

I am as screwed as is possible. Had been nice to get screwed in a different kind of way. I am so not doing a wise move financially. But I am still loyal to the music and loyal to my heart here. So age does not do me any good. I still go FUCK IT!!! I live for the day and can be dead for what I know by tomorrow why hold back? I refuse to.
I think there is a great inner demon in me that am so demanding my doings. I should be hospitalized for some sort of obsession and get the largest heaviest
fucking pills known to man. I would not take them but I ought to be getting the doctors paper saying I should.
All in the name of rock n roll I guess. God damn it move, don’t be a fool, all you
party animals god damn it move…….
Yeaaahhhh!!!!

I think it is going to be a fairly cool trip after all.
I need answers and settlements BIG TIME as said earlier on this visit.
Extremely important.

Fuck me!!! Again the god damn Electric Boys controls my ass.
The cool Swedes just won’t leave my ears alone. LOVE IT. Do you wanna dance do
you wanna dance do you wanna take a chance tonight? She is all lips and hips, knows how to use em to make you flip. Soooooo booogieeeee woooggggiiieee who can not love this shit?? The webmaster maybe, not this dude. I love it. Anyway need to focus here. Damn it.

Reminds me of Mr. London LeGrand the new master of the youth n rock n roll. Now sacked for a good period of time Fucking B.O.D. and their non excisting shit.
Fuck!!!

Now I think there will be made a few payments from me to a step on to US ground. I need to get settled in mind of what to do. Moving there or not. Gathered so much information and need more. I need to figure it all out. I have actually also been thinking about talking to Corinna about this whole thing. But I dare not really. Cause tit would be an issue holding her having me in her life on a daily basis. And I do not know if she would actually fancy that shit. SO maybe now as I am done at the restaurant Feb 28th , maybe I should just try to get me self a stinky fucking crappy job for the summer work my ass off save all cash and go bezerk in Hollywood December? What do you guys think? I am glad the band is going in the
studio now cause this shit has to get a pause!!! Lol…..

This coming Thursday (one week away) is the day and date of the short trip to Roskilde. Picking up all Crue at my brothers. So it is set I n stone now. He is done. Giving it up trying to get a little normalcy created here. Will be good for him. Said the wicked, not meant to be rude. I do not want normalcy but it would do me good. If nothing else then financially speaking.

I think I just for now take the next few weeks dedicated to the site getting all the new shit updated and then think and focus on the South Carolina thing and Corinna and my Motley world. Then I can try to dig out a few answers and spread some light to my mess!!!

Am almost done scanning the new shit. The new that are here all over my god damn apartment waiting to get on here. Still need to take a good ass load of pictures of shirts, posters, awards, and other stuff not fit able in a scanner lol. But I am so in only having so and so many hours in a day now right??

Your damn tumour – still loyal to ya all though

Truly Tx

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7th of February 200SIXX, Got It Today And Things Have Started

8.43 PM CET

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Some odd day this has been. Again the whole everything called life is a bit blurry. I need new structure for the sad thing. Life that is. I have talked to so many people of the ones that should know a great deal about this thing moving to the USA. But I keep finding myself in a dilemma. Do not really want to unless one certain person is in this life of mine. And that I can not tell what so ever. An extremely weird feeling.
Well I guess time will tell. That was what I was told a short while ago.

Now while that is going on I had another few adding to the reasons why this day is actually really weird. I have packed 2 KISS awards down and shipped of to Germany for the huge KISS 7 CRUE award trade today. Boy that felt hard to do. I have also an understanding for this one thing. That had I not done so I would NOT get the Crue award lot. Now I will get them all. That is awesome. One of the biggest Crue awards in a private collection will be mine. And KISS is a part of my past. I do mean past.
Love them to death the old KISS still but I have to part with them to
carry on in my life. So that was started today. Plus I have set a rock solid deal about
my Gene Simmons axe bass. SOLD IT!! Well sold it in a future to come deal November 1st. Shit that made me cry a bit after the phone was hanged up. Damn it. My baby has been abandoned.

Again deal done for one reason only, to get Motley stuff. I had sworn that I would be buried with that bass. Fuck. Well it is set a side now for some coolness in a lot deal of Coffmann stuff including original contracts and more. Shit I have wanted them for years……

Now in November or December they will find my way!
Awesome to know. But also a little unreal. But guess if I like it. So you see that is all deals for the fall. But no worries there are plenty to come before that shit happens.
Yes mama.

Corinna my partner in Crue criminality has today gotten me the new 2 Live CDs. Look in on here tomorrow the adding of those and scanning with all details will be on here. The latest I have heard is that those are Wal-Mart only releases. Wal-Mart being like a huge ware house kind of thing in the USA. Wonder if it really will not come out here then?
Well fuck it now I have it. And I am really happy about that. Also one other thing has happened today. Ebay seller provided Corinna and me with FRONT row tickets for the show on the 11th of March. I forget where that is. But we are so going to be there. Hell yes!! We are going to do 4 shows in March and we are going to do them as most
likely our last ones till November or December.

So we have a plan for this final on our parts. And we will make it fucking happening. I can not wait. But for me this time also HAS to be holding so much else and not least
a lot of answers to all my doubts to things. Simply has to. Cause I have not gotten money to make this a simple vacation either. Corinna knows this fully well. More than 5000 dollars since September 2005 has been gone towards airline tickets no matter who has been billed – now that is a fucking lot of cash. I have tons of greatness to look in on with the stuff that these days massively are being added to this site.

The one not to be amazed is a sick puppy. Even I begin to go holy fuck this is not real. I want a collection like that. Wait a minute it is mine. Fuck me yes, yes, yes so damn cool!! Sounds like a bragging to you? Do not mean for it to be so. But I got to admit it is getting rock solid this monster. Simply love today all the risks and moves I have done to make this happening. Kiss my ass it is cool. Corinna too has begun to say “our collection” now that is a completely different story but yes I am holding her as my legal partner in this. And we will make it the single coolest lot around with the years to come. I would not have it any other way.

Have had a little this and that with Mr John Corabi too today.
He has some shit stored away from his Crue 1994 95 days. Trying to figure out what there is and what my filty empty pockets would have to be filled with to let these things be mine? Cause I do want them. He will get back.

His email;

“Tuesday, February 07, 2006 8:41 PM
Hey Tommy,Hope you're well, and had a great holiday!! I have to find this stuff buddy. Alot of this is in storage. Its been there for years. I've been pretty busy lately, and haven't had the chance to drive up to the "old neighborhood", and dig for the stuff...As soon as I find anything I'll let you know...Peace and take care
Corabi”

That is my boy. Thanks a lot Corabi. You know very well it is my life.
And I treasure the years where you were onboard. Over the top album.
No news to you. Thanks again.

My god I need a shower and taking a piss.

This is not good. But I like the CD spinning while typing. Ever get a chance and you like groovy rock? Electric Boys are your stuff. Swedish perfection. Fucking brilliant.
Now I think there will be a ton of cool things on here and I think the next and last few weeks of February 200SIXX will prove the insanity of my being when you see all the things that this collection holds now a days. Tommy you ego minded deep shit. Well if you say so. I can be one. I do not care. Guess you would somehow have to really know me to find out if that would be your final words to put to my name. Lol.

But as you can tell a lot of happenings today. I think it is really a cool thing to have this Crue in my life now that things are a bit blurry. Love it.
Easy to say easy to mean easy to tell.

Your groovy host,

T Boy!!!

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6th of February 200SIXX, Homerun And A Sore Mind

12.19 AM CET
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EXTRA**********EXTRA**************EXTRA************EXTRA
I fucking know alright!! No comments. No answers to the questions coming!! The jacket ended. And it is fucking awesome. Had to call the one and only Corinna to help her make me shut the computer down with only 12 minutes to go on this one. Of course I could not do that either. FUCK!!!
Well it ended and I did try my luck!! I can only say SHIT!!! to the fact I did not get it. On the other hand.... THANK GOD!! Cause now I do have the chance to get that xtra special something I was posting about up above and a line of the smaller things!!
If you know my eBay ID or can guess you do not have to be the the smartest to figure out who I am. Damn..... This was t he last few minutes of that one auction!!

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6th of February 200SIXX, Homerun And A Sore Mind

12.19 AM CET
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Super bowl or not. I do not need a TV show or a sports game to wear me out. I have travelled 25 hours to get home. The god damn trip was just as much waiting time in 4 airports as it was quality travelling time. My god. But have I said it a billion times before I gladly say it again. Part from the financial situation I gladly do it all over again!! Hell yeah!!!

For the Crue I am dedicated. I have come home after a rather shocking part two of the travelling part. You may remember I had a sick trip over there? All was fucked up delayed and cancelled and rearranged and more. Well not quiet as bad but bad enough on the returning to Denmark as well.

I got to Spartanburg airport Greenville South Carolina in time. Actually in really good time. Corinna took me and I personally think it was a bit sad to say bye, bye. We had just had the time of our lives. What a fucking killer of a trip. Always every day. Nice one. Thanks again Chico. Look The S.C. thing was okay started of with a 40 minutes delay that was cool. No problem I was going to Newark N.Y. and would have a good 5 and a half hours waiting time there any ways. SO we got there and my
mind was beginning to be killing me. Headache like a mutha fucker. I should have bought drinks and done myself a little something from the house before I left.
Remember that next time Tomboy.

Now in New York I was having my feelings that some shit would go bad.
The changed ticket as I checked in I only got a so called E-ticket and the boarding passes from S.C. to N.Y. to Brussels. That’s right. No further . They said in S.C.
that I could claim the rest of boarding passes in Newark. We landed in Terminal C so I was asked to go to terminal B which was a rather long way in my condition.
I was hurting hungry and more. Well get something to eat there boy you may think? Yeah well guys you see Tommy did what Tommy always seem to do. He gave the last dollar away to Corinna to get him some Crue shit.
I know I know self to blame.
No need to bomb me with GET YOUR MIND STRAIGHT mail. Hell no.
I am aware. I just wanted that Crue shit so… of cause I gave her I though hell I have done this trip so many times before I will be just fine till we get to eat onboard.

Well the lady at the Continental desk says no, no, no you have to go to SAS. I go to SAS and they say too no, no, no, go back to Continental. I go again makes my mind up for this to be the final walk of mine. Damn it. Finally they say “well you have to get your passes in Brussels”.

WTF?!!

I headed all the way back to Terminal C think I killed a good amount of time but no. Only 40 minutes. I am starving. My head is going nuts. I need to get a serious rest or a production of a days aspirin. God damn. Okay time goes by I have called to say I was in N.Y. to Corinna kind of promised that little notice to her. Now Boarding time. I felt really bad. But what really took me out was the time we started rolling down the runaway. My seating pal seems to get panicked and fucking for the second time just as in September Tommy your site host gets puked massively all down the front ones again. And I had a good 8 and half hours of flight time plus Brussels plus Copenhagen and more. My god. No, no, no, no. Not happening. A lot of stinky sticky shit all over me. Man I did not feel better with that happening. I had only my jacket soaked in the shit my t-shirt soaked in the shit and my WHITE shirt on. Right that was hit too. Well done partner like you a lot. I took off to the rest room and took all of. I had to wash my white shirt and put it back on and let the rest go in a plastic bag. Can you at all imagine how I felt? And the stink?

There I sat.. My mind about to explode and was doomed to sit there in that... Ewwww….

I tried to think Motley or the trip all I had experienced just something that would make me smile. I did not really succeed. I tried to take a nap. I have been gone for a little time here and there. But so surely not enough!! Came to Brussels. Headed to the men’s room grabbed my backpack changed shirt. This was now Tommy in minus degrees and snow in t-shirt. For the rest of the trip. I was eager to now get my boarding passes for Brussels to CPH and CPH to Aarhus. Again headed to SAS. She printed them out easy!! But then said can I just see your paper ticket sir. “Sir” was one thing but a paper ticket was another No one ever gave me anything but the E-ticket. That was no good with SAS she said. We and Continental do not work together on those things. I so went WHAT THE HELL….

She then said we could go to SAS checkpoint and fix it. Same message. I was beginning to think I would not get home today either. So the first lady said let us together go to Continental and make a complaint. Sounded fine in my ears. I felt better now but not fully an okay just yet. She then FINALLY printed what was needed. Thank god. What an excellent service. SO to all travellers … make sure all shit is good if you cross between airlines on your future journeys. Jesus Christ. And no he had not gotten anything to do with it either. Thank god.

To the gate took my pictures out from the backpack of the Hollywood thing. Man I would remember this one till I die. What a great thing. What a trip. What a blast. After having been sitting there for a good 90 minutes was meant to sit there for 3 and half hours. All of a sudden the sign got changed. DELAY!! Hell dude what is up with the world and flights these days?!!

Delayed 40 minutes. I could still IF no further changes would show up make the Copenhagen flight to Aarhus at 2.40 PM CET. And guess what I did.

All the way I slept. Or on off that is. Felt like shit and needed a toothpaste deo and a shower. Clean socks and FOOD. My god, Food. Now Motley Crue was all over me. I could not think anything else. Awesome.

Came home had coffee a toast or two actually three and then STARTED TO UNPACK. Man was I happy to see all the shit here. So not unpacked yet. I will not either till I get up in the morning. Then I will start scanning of the new stuff and the webmaster will have her things to see to. LOL. Well this is it this is now and The Super Bowl runs on TV as I type this live. Do not really care my ride home was Super Bowl enough for me, thank you.

Remember Tuesday 2 new live CDs. And also right now:

Motley Crue (Paperback) by Seamus Craic.

Price; $ 20.00 & eligible for FREE SUPER SAVER SHIPPING on orders over $25.00

Paperback: 128 pages

Publisher: Artnik (July 30, 2006)

ISBN: 1905382235

Book Description
A fully illustrated biography of this phenomenally successful iconic band. Authored by best-selling Seamus Craic, pictures by rock photographers. Collector's item.

Fuck yes!!!

Get the son of a bitch.

Your happy freak Tomboy

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3rd of February 200SIXX, Another One Ended & I Am Skyborn
6.42 PM CET
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It all is bit weird for me today. Almost feel so good here this time I would have called it home. The daily thing is knocking on my door again and tomorrow is another ending of another US visit. And I go 30.000 feet up in the air again to return to Denmark for a good 3 and a half weeks. I have plans for the March first to be my next and last trip over here for the most of this year. So I know it is only a few weeks till that happens but again I am also out of a job then. My end is near at the restaurant too. Last day is end February. There for I need to figure this out as fast as I can. I have been at the Immigrations and gotten a few papers and all. But still need information to a line of things that can make me go for the move of moving over here or put that idea fully to rest.

I have had a line of things in the name of Motley Crue again that have just been awesome this time here. As you can see from my diary. I have also been in over a line of things with Corinna about Crue and other things. We need so bad to be figuring out what to do with the coming things. I have a few things in the name of Motley Crue that we have got to look into for March. But returning back home to Denmark would be the single one thing that should absolutely kill all doubts about what is possible in the coming month.

I know for a fact that Coinna is not gonna have a lot of time to come over to me. Still not. It jus t will not happen as I see it. Too much work to do for things to be dealt with for her. And besides the Crue things are going down over here so. The band is in Europe in June as suppotrt to The Rolling Stones but I am not going. You read that right. I am not going. I would rather save up and come back here for my Nov or December trip to go see the band then and then see do round two of our Hollywood trip too. Just much more interesting. IF as stated erlier I have not already moved here. So many ifs and maybes to that one. Damn I hate it. I would like to get it all solved. It is kind of a future i need to be building up. So surely I need to figure out where to do it.

The Sixx clothing auctions have ended. It was a battle for the ones on there. These things are not cheap. Sixx auctions off a lot this year too.
So if you did not win any of the 4 this time around. There will be more.
No worries. You can not really do em all anyways. So hold your horses
and go for the next round. Wont be long I am sure.

Nikki Sixx 58 Workshirt Autographed $760.00.
Nikki Sixx Counts Kustoms Workshirt Autographed $801.00
Nikki Sixx Autographed COS 2005 Vest $1,524.00
Nikki Sixx Autographed Red White 2005 Vest $1,525.00
CONGRATS TO YOU ALL. I think it is a little to much for these things.
But what the fuck they all went and I did not go for it. Good boy T dude.

-There will come a few things up in the coming week on the site. But maybe it will be a little while with the things that are brought to Denmark tomorrow since there is a time difference I needto get back on and there is a job I need to have going for me. For a few more weeks. So I need to have these things clearly set. And get back on danish time. But it will get on here. Posters, shirts, tommy solo, sixx solo, vince solo, picks, this n that, cds, and more. Always something. I know it seems endless. And it is. It is my life Not a spare time hobby. Its an attitude. A lifestyle. So no worries. I will have it up and there is a constant new adding this year too. Trust me.
I already now expect a good 30 more items that has still not arrived here and there is still a good huge bin that holds things I still can not find room for here to bring home. So that will be next time. I will how ever leave the dispalys and the guitars here. I think I am gonna try to get my Tommy Lee signature model SCHECTER guitar signed by Tommy in March too. That had been shit cool.

I think there will be a little something on here as I get home again.
But right now this is all there is till I have solved a few things so it is more of a fact what WILL actually happen. I am not gonna say anything on here no more about Corinna and what is going on with us. It is not a thing that no longer makes its importance on here. We are fine and I thank her once again for all I have received and shared this time around here.

So this coming Tuesday at least in the USA the new 2 live CDs are out. The CDs does not have an offcial European release date yet. But the ones that are curious about whats on there. It is the same as on the DVD live release that recently got out. So if you do not want only a audio version of the DVD stay off of this one. For the rest of us the collectors and more... This is what the two covers will look like. Thats just awesome.
Also there is the new Sixx shirts out now the first 3 are up for orders through swagrox.com. And Vince has just had his "girls girls girls" DVD out. Plus in the end you can now also order the 125 minute long TOMMY GOES TO COLLEGE" DVD. It has a USA release date of April 25th so far. So the Spring time if you are going on the USA tour or not there are plenty to choose from. Also this is only the first of a line of new merchandise thats is licensend and ready for future releases.....Enjoy!!!

You beautiful host
Crue loyal 4 life!!
Tomster

Mcrueloyalty.dk

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1st of February 200SIXX, Fuck It We Only Live Ones
4.16 AM CET
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I have planned it all in my scull already. The situation with Corinna is good. And we are on a better level than ever before. I will come over here again in March. I will have a lot to do to make that happening but I will do it. mark my words. Crue tour is up and I will NOT be left out on it. I have kind of promised myself NOT to go on the Rolling Stones european tour with them as support act. Save my cash and do the March thing plus come back IF I HAVE NOT MOVED HERE ALREADY in December to do gigs and do the Corinna and Tommy second leg of the Hollywood visit!!

There are so many thing I like to get too.
I will have to see if I can get this bass added to the collection too. I have no idea how or anything but I will make it happen some how. TRUST ME. Just a little too many things to bite into right now. And shit load of deals to close up too. I think there will be a good fair chance to get this one actually in a short time. Maybe I should just sell my KISS Gene Simmons axe bass to my friend that has been wanting it for sucgh a long time? Would break my heart klind of but then again what the fuck. I used to have this KISS passion and they are still dear at heart but collecting wise I have to keep the gained level of not buying no more KISS. Well part from music when and if there will come any more new from them. Paul Stanley is to come out with his solo album this month so....

Then up for grabs right now are also a line of new SIXX worn and owned stuff. Of cause those had been nice to get my filthy hands on too as well but no it will not happen not if I should come back here in March. And close all the deals I have rolling right now. I ahve a good lot of Coffmann shit too on my hands that I have a d3eal on and that is a one off so if I blow that one out I will not get these things again. Like Original signed contracts and shit. 1981-1982. I can not alou myself to miss out on that lot. Can I? If I screw this one up please someone come to my house and kill me slowly but surely. So the shirts up for auction I guess they will all laugh at my face and just kind of go:
TOUGH TOUGH TOUGH TOUGH TOUGH TOUGH TOUGH TOUGH TOUGH

Also up for grabs is the Harley D. of Sixx's.
This auction is for a custom Harley Davidson motorcycle from Motley Crue's Nikki Sixx. Nikki will donate 100% of his profit from the sale of his bike to "Running Wild in the Night", a fundraising initiative through Covenant House to help at-risk youth on the streets of California and around the world. "Running Wild in the Night" will be a creative arts program, with an emphasis on music, to enable Covenant House to help homeless and displaced young people discover and nurture their talents. Nikki's autographed bike is currently on display at Mad Dog Custom Cycles in Agoura Hills, CA. If you are in the California area, feel free to stop by and take a look at Nikki's custom ride!

Specs on Nikki's custom Harley include:
1. 2000 FXR STYLE CUSTOM FRAME
2. EVO MOTOR
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14. NIKKI SIXX AUTOGRAPHED GAS TANK

If you have any questions regarding this bike and are serious about placing a bid, please call Marty at 818-706-3641. How fucking cool is that? Well I learned years ago you can not win it all. But you can fucking win a lot. So do not let ONE or TWO failiures take you down. It is too short a life for all that. I think seriously life should be lived to the fullest. Buit then agin all that same ol song and dancde you have heard a gazillion times form me already. So just enjoy the pictures and weep. God damn it. Sixx you need to offer me some shit off of public auction houses. These official ones kills me financially, lol.

On other fronts, it seems like we still in spite of the webmasters posting on here the other day have a few problems. There are still shit on the pages of the collection that can not be seen . And we are aware of the tons of missed out text to the pictures. No worries the webmaster will have it up and running again within the next week or so. We do not really have a choice. Things with the way we are on a roll here now can not afford the situation we have right now. It will be bettered. Thanks for all your patience. Everyone. Thanks. Now after that has been said, I say this too to you, there are a lot of activities here to come in the nxt 3 monthsand we have again for the new year 200SIXX some ideas and improval freaky thoughts to try out for the site so it will be a big year for the MCRUELOYALTY.DK and all the support and espcially to the members of the GANG OF LOYALTY are highly appreciated. Thanks a lot folks........

To you all, later brothers and sisters, Your goal set fighting host,
and hopelesly devoted collector Tommy Lx


Mcrueloyalty.dk

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30th of JANUARY 200SIXX, A Diary In The Name of Glamour
3.17 AM CET
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There has been a line of days with plenty of great experiences. I am right now here still in South Carolina. I should have been boarding the plane in New York this hour. I am not. I have pushed my returning ticket to Thursday. Now changed again to Saturday. Since the flight company booked me in on an overbooked flight from Brussles to Copenhagen. All only because I got a nice suprise from another so and so important couple of people in my ordinary every day life. And there by could do this. And also of cause after a brief talk to Corinna about it. She too wnated me to stay. Now it is therefor a chance for me to stay here with Corinna a few more xtra days. And I am pleased to say it is great.

I think I will have some long days here in many ways but it feels good at the same time. I would like to say thank you to her for her well..everything at this time. I have a good, good feeling about many things right now. Remember the word "no" means nothing the word "yes" means everything. Always more not less. A winner never rests on his laurels. He never sleeps. Again "no" is created as an excuse by loosers. Winners live of loosers and a winner failing will never stay low on a strike. He will come back and swing that bat, going for a homerun. So will I. I refuse to give up and refuse to hear a "no" and take
that as a final and ending statement. I go for my goals. I only have one thing I have not fully won over yet. A dream job.

I on the other hand, is trying hard to give my heart all the gas it needs to have enough fuel to keep me going for reaching my goals. I think you have to make a spreadsheet with numbers and ideas that kind of adds up. You know what I mean? If you do not do so in my book you will end up going overboard or have a status of loosing in what ever you intended to do to begin with. I think life is too short for "no's" I wanna and I try to live a life filled with as many "yes'es" I can possily find. So do not take no for an answer. Not if it is a no to a thing that means the world to you. Enough said we are suposed to all be
fairly intelligant people of the human spieces. You will figure it out.

I came here to the US this time on a Motley Crue matter - for the Hollywood walk of fame thing. I did see it. I am glad. So is Corinna. But as said she can say or tell her own story. This was the 2,301st Star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame at 6752 Hollywood Boulevard in front of the Musician's Institute on Wednesday, January 25, at 11:30 a.m. I like to get a thing or two out of her in a n interview I will do Wednesday. I also like to tell you all that what we had planned for the few days we were stayig there was to get a good look into the Motley history of the Hollywood bad boys. We had scedualled ourselves with as many things to be seen as possible. There is nothing I this time wanted to miss. But of cause the time limits of 3 days there did not give us the time we could or should be in use of to get to all places. But we did all we could with out feeling too stressed out. you see pictures were taken in the tons by the good 600 fans that showed up. We were amongst the first 15 as we got there round maybe 8.30 AM. No pushing no rush no nothing. Chilli morning but well worth he wait. Corinna that sweet lillte sorry excuse of a hobbit were cold. So she did a really nice thing for both of us. She went to McDonalds and got us some breakfast and hot coffee. I loved that cup of coffee no shit. As said she has been really nice this time around. I really wish I could say out loud again she is so mine. But this time I have decided should that happen ever I will not say it to more than a handful. I just have my reasons.

But as we stood there in line we saw the staff that was there setting it all up. No shit!! From scratch till it actually was holding the four men that for the day was to be the spotlight. It realy is all build together form and out of nothing. Pretty interesting. When you think uuuhhhh woooowwww it is Hollywood. Well a lot of the glamour and shit is fake and hype all together. But when it is happening it looks like a million dollars and that I guess is what counts when it all is laid out in front of you. And we the people of cause suck it all up as if t really was a million dollars worth.

Now standing there thinking "Tommy you have done Puerto Rico 2005 you have done USA 5 times 2005 you have done all of the european tour 2005 and most of Japan 2005. You have bought everyhting there has come out with the bands name on it of official products 2005 you have done a ton of deals and buys and wins in the name of Motley Crue 2005. You are now here January 200SIXX with a heart felt wish that is being put together and will hold your heroes up on that mini build stage in a good 2 and a half hours. What do you say?" -Well what could I say? Corinna said it best I guess when she said "Tommy I have never seen you so happy" Maybe she was right, I mean I did not in a million years think that I could do the trip like just 10 days before it actually was time to board a plane again for it. So yes of cause I was happy. I was shit happy!!

A WORLD WITHOUT HEROES IS NO PLACE TO BE - ITS NO PLACE FOR ME, A WORLD WITHOUT HEROES.
You know what I am saying? Of cause you do. The band when they actually did come out were all smiling and very excited. Now they all show things differently. But I would say Tommy and Vince were maybe the ones that seemed to be most happy about it. It is just something I think. I do not really have to be right. And of casue not saying that Sixx and Mars did not even care. But the two V & T just showed it differently. I know the fans were all very excited about it all. Fuck dude, they should be honoured it is just a stone with a mark on it but man it is also a sign of approval by the so called important people in the damn buisness. And they looked good doing it. No doubt. I meet a few there that day that really meant a lot to me. They just do man. People that are fans and long time friends to me in Hollywood but that I rarely get to meet. Kind of makes me sad. I miss a lot of them a little too often. SO it felt good of cause it did. The whole thing was documented very good with photos and video and more. It just was a cool thing. And more importantly they will never ever get to do this in their lives again never. So I was there - thank you very much and good night.

On the stay in Hollywood we wanted to get to do stuff that at least she had never seen or I maybe had not seen in a long time. Other stuff never seen yet. So we tried to set a game plan. Simply cause we did not have too much time on our hands. It felt weird. But we did it. We actually started out by going to the north of Hollywood. And then a little further. For what? We wanted to try to find the place in Pasadena that was the club of where John Corabi played his last ever gig with Motley Crue. This was 1995. We never found it. Think it is no longer. We also tried to find the grave of one Skylar Neil. We did. It was a weird actually a really weird feeling sitting by her grave. It was just a sad and almost bad feeling. To think about all that caused Vince Neil so much pain and a lost balance in his private life was burried right here in the dirt in front of me. It was a strange feeling that was not of good vibes. It kind of hurt to be there. I did how ever over come my respect or what ever it was to video tape and take a few shoots there but then I had to leave. It was a beautiful place though. Wonderful surroundings. In the mountains looking over the city of Universal pictures.

But we went back to Hollywood and got something to eat and then a little cruise in the streets. A walk round the stores near by and so on. I found myself a cool jacket - I bought it. It was so awesome I could not believe it. That one is to be my future rock n roll concert jacket. Period. I love it. Corinna made a buy of other things, shirts, shirts and what else I do not even remember. But she had a blast. Earlier on in the day we went to a place on which I will not mention the name but street was Melrose and we did it to see if I could go see and say hi and hello to my missed man in rock London LeGrand of Brides Of Destruction. I was told he was not there for the day. But to come back in the morning as he would be there then. The chick promised me to tell him I was coming. That felt so good. I can not even begin to tell you. Now we had a good few things to do too outside the Motley world and that was kind of pleasing. To me anyway. It is always a good mix. Not to go for only one thing and then stop. Why? Because you will learn to appreciate the thing you actually go for - if it is long distance - if you have other things to kind of support the bigger adventure with. If you do not have a clue what I am trying to say here, well try it out a few times and you too will hopefully experience some of what I here am saying.

-We tried to cover all that had to do with the Skylar life. That was located in the area. So we passed the hospital she constantly was taken to and died in. Which happens to be the hospital that is wall to wall side by sdide to the hospital where Vince Neil was born. We were taken a few pictures here too. But I tell you we got stopped after (thank god) I had some pictures taken. Before a security guy came up to us threatening with a ticket. It was fully illigal in the state of California amongst others to take pictures of official buildings. Due to terror threats. Ask me if that felt weird. America is no longer a so called free country. That is for sure. I could not believe it. But sure we stopped and took off. We were by the way after talking to this guy not handed a ticket. It was really not a good experience. Not because we got stopped but bad because it really reminded us why USA is not the easiest place to be in these days.

We did of cause what all do when they are in Hollywood. Going to and by The Whiskey, The Roxy, The Rainbow Bar & Grill and the clubs the rock n roll fans know by heart. And with that said of cause you can kind of say the live stages were kind of covered venue wise,
part from the Troubadour and the no longer excisting clubs. We went to see em all took our pictures were taken and then surely, memories at least in my own guts were running through me like hell. I thought back to the days when the band actually were here. The stories I
know from back then and the books I have read about these places and more. It simply is great stories. I must say it is a nice trip to take all these places and buildings if you wanna have a visual thing attached to your read stories. So I think you can say our trip
round Hollywood was so extremely cool for at least me. Again you will have to ask Corinna about her inner thoughts and experiences if you are interested to hear her version. She is really not a person crazy about sharing words. Still think she can if she want to.

The single most wanted thing to see for Corinna was the infamous "Motley House" on Clark Street. Just next to The Whiskey. I said it wasone thing we would do as one of the very first things. And it was. Pictures were taken again and on a video issue I can only say I wish I had shot much more video but I guess I will somply have to buy a video camera to have here in the USA at Corinna's place so I will save a carriing of my own one in the future. Damn it money, money, money always.

Hollywood has most likely one of the coolest ever record stores. Placed on Sunset Blv. I can tell you this one thing. I think there are a ton of things you can look for ofrever and maybe not find. This one place may have it. It is like a flee market only with music in all aspects. I got to tell you guys it is heaven for any collector and price wise unbeatable. My god. I also think I am the single one that was suprisedhere. Cause I have never ever been in Hollywood and this store not buying anything. I eventually as I returned the last night bought 2 CDs. But yet that is quiet unheard off. One LP was not bought why? cant say but I do not think I do have it. A version of "Shout At The Devil". Before going in on a long story on that one album not bought, but it felt nice to go there. I love it. We went to another record shop in Hollywood Tower Records. I think this place holds an exremely important single memo to me. B.O.D. instore and release party. Back in 2004. Man how time flies by.My good friend ther Kevin still works there you who reads this ... if you ever go there say hi to Kevin from Tommy Lee, Denmark. He will smile and say thanks. He is really a cool friendly guy. He actually gave us a gift an older "Red White & Crue" cardboard display. Or actully two of the same. I do not know what to do with the one of em. Lol..Corinna is hopeing to get it, so of cause beig the GOOD guy that I am she now experiences what a guy in Detroit did I give people material. I love ot help out. I amn not a selfish ego piss ant prick that will scratch with all claws and nails. No mam. I am absolutely a different kind of guy. maybe that is why the really important contacts and bonds to people in and around the world are all kept safe purely because I am like I am. The "I am" way that I am is the exact same way many do not understand including at times Corinna Hargrave. I got to say it is thank god a way that perhaps is the only reason why I am able to keep these contacts and both parts feeling good about it.

-We never really went out to eat nicely. Which is one of the things I liked for us to have done. But then again Corinna is about the most "I doint like this I dont like that" when it comes to food. My good. It is the weirdest individual I have ever met on the matter
of food and eating. I love food. I love various choices. Life is just too short to skip all the good stuff. I keep saying life is short. I stand by my word. No matter what the hell you can think of is absolutely included in that thought. Life is too short. And I like to do much more than I will ever get around to.

We tried to do more in the Holly land and it was seriously becoming much more to us than just a Walk Of Fame thing. It was "yes" the single reason for us even wanting to go there but so much was added and it just made the trip far more exciting than a one hour on the Blv. could ever bring us.

Other stuff we drove round for were recording studios. it was a seriouosly nostalgic ride round the streets. And there were so many things to see. I think one of the really cool places to go by not as a building but rather just to be there was the studio where they
recorded the "Shout At The Devil" album and parts of the "Theatre Of Pain" album. I could almost see the guys walk up to the place and the studio sessions going on. I think I could say in peace that it was a lot of cool and emotional times in the streets this time around. I also think some if not all in generel has been too much of a mouthful for her to do this. Not much of it will stay on her mind as clear pictures. In a short while I am sure she will have a hard time remembering it all. I suck it all in as non other I guess. I just do not alou these things to be a quick 15 seconds experience as it simply means too much for me personally. I love it.

Also one other thing as the evenings rolled in over us we talked about how to spend the last day there. What would she and I both like to go see? Well too much to choose from I personally think. But the old high schools from Tommy and Vince.. were some things we would both like to do. We started to do it round noon the last day there but there was such a heavy traffic that we on our way out of Hollywood dropped it and took an exit to take us back to Hollywood Blv. We had already checked out of the hotel too so the last hours there were to be in our rented car. And it was okay. We took a chance on finding out another huge part in the Crue history. The Nikki Sixx overdose. We got to the hotel where to he was taken and did his own self checkout. Only in his leather pants. Shot a few and then tried to find the hotel at where the overdose had taken place. It was right next to the place we stayed at but the actual hotel was not seen. It could have changed name or something remember this was 1987 so a good 18 years has passed by. But it held Robin Crosby of Ratt that lived there and Slash of Guns N Roses. In short a hell of a street to just drive on with the story in mind if you are a Motley Crue fan. My god.


I say again there is so much to do and see for al lthat has the interest of heart in the bands history. but a lot of the places have either shot down or moved out. Tons of things will be gone in a good 5 years or so I think. So if you wanna do your Hollywood Crue history tour I for one advise you to start saving your money for a ticket out there and do it now. Man I can not believe so many great places form the erlier years or even form the late 80s and erly 90s are no longer there. Hollywood is not Hollywood as many think no more. It really is not. It is a dusty souvenier gift shops orgie with no really cool old school feelings left. Yet I love it. I want to go back and so do my girl of choice. We will go there at the end of the year I am rather sure. Still ahve all the missed out things too to do so, we will hit Holly weird ones more. Hard to leave it was was it was.

The meet with London LeGrand of Brides Of Destruction was on the second last day there. We went in around I would say 5.30 late afternoon local time there and he was not busy. that was kind of a relief. So he had time for me or us. Wha did I tell you Corinna what would be the first words out of his mouth? "Hey man how ya doing, good to see you". Word for word was he greeted me with. The nicest guy ever. We talked and he told me a few things. We talked abiout how I was how he was and of cause BOD and briefly Nikki Sixx and the Walk Of Fame. He surely misses Nikki. But he did also say he had been thinking about me and how I was. For all that wonders, B.O.D. is no more. At least not for the moment. It was a bad bad call wit hall the new people in over the name of B.O.D. to control their buisness. Fuck man there goes another great act down the drain. He was really soory for that. Sorry for not having that band active no more. Me too. Are youucking kidding me. I could easrly seethe dissapointment in his eyes. He deserves so much more than this here. London is the ultimate 2006 frontman. I do not care what anybody says. London my man - here is to ya, YOur rule bitch. God damn it. Thanks as said before for your forever ongoing kindness.
I love you brother and I miss you there on the stages rocking my world. Thanks again.
Dont be a stranger man.....

Other guys as said was seen and it all was a blast for this old fart. (me) I had such a cool time it was almost not real. Of casue had Corinna not been this nice and all it had been hell I guess. I miss her ass big time but I lay low and find a balance with it. I remember when we left Calirnia sitting onboard the plane we had just happiness in our eyes. What the hell can possibly be so hard forany of us having a relationship.We are I say it often I know ... so good together. Now as also said it is sady her call. Like with everything in my life when I am depending on another person about things they almost never go my way. Andthat you can take to the bank. Pisses me off inside. So fustrating. Damn it.

To write absolutely everything would take up a good double the size of the posting as it is already. Let me just say that we had a blast and we will return later in the year. And that is a god damn promise. I will fucking not have it any other way. Got to hang a bit with Nikkis bass tech too, the latest chick of GANG OF LOYALTY and many more. If you only knew what this meant to me. I am thrilled to have gone there and that all just was so god damn awesome was a treat. The weather was nice all like if it was a dream. Plus ahh never mind as said I could go on and on about this forever. Just gotta say this: can not wait to go see Hollywood again late this year with this girl. I hope so damn much it will be under other bonds between her and myself butI am not the judge to make that decition, sadly. Love to you all and Crue 4ever.

From Greer, South Carolina
Your trippin host

Tommy WTF Lee

Mcrueloyalty.dk
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28th of january 200SIXX, Shit Things Have Changed And Expanded
2.51 AM CET
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How cruel life can be, we all know it. But these days I am in bloom. I have the days I wanted to have. I am one lucky fucking son of a bitch. I should and will not complain. I have the best time in a long time. Have from our extremely nice togethernes just called the airline about my home ticket for the morning to come. Changed it and will now stay here till I leave Thursday instead. Fucking cool. I do not give a shit what any says ....Corinna is the shit. She is on no better boat than I with all financial bullshit and more but she is really taking care of me like I was her long haired cheep dog. (hope she likes those or else I just made the fucking most stupid remark )

Now I will have a bunch to tell you all and show you all in the next coming days .. on here in the diary section. Ones again thanks a billion to Darron in California. To Kevin to mr nice guy London LeGrand, Nikki Sixx, and today Mr. Eddie Wedoo of New Jersey. Thanks fro the cool invite dude. I will take you up on that no sweat.

Now the Ceremony at the Hollywood Blv. was as stated the other day great. Nice to have witnessed that too. I think there is a lot to come and be part of but this here was a damn one of and there is nothing to be givin a fan a better feeling than the one offs. Say what you want but thats true. And as many knows I always try to be at most happenings possible. It is fucking not easy and it just takes more and more of me to do it all. I have already with fairly epty pockets agreed to come again to the US for the tour and few shows of mid March so... damn ...!!!! The Hollywood thing was like a little extra sumthing for the fans to attend. I think there were many thwat would have loved to do the visit. All members said a few words and to hear Mick was just great. Tommy started crying and well it was just all great. No rushed time limits it felt. Good memories to take back hoe good video good pictures, it is all just awesome. And now the thing is about to get even bigger. How on earth this thing will give me a chance to ever get back to normality is so beyond me. There was kind of a little hope for a far more silence and shit for me in 200SIXX but hell no not happening, This and 2007 and 2008 will be just as busy as ever for me. How this collection of mine will end up is a mystery. Things gets added here all the time.

There was so many hopes for finding flyers or papers with something in it with the star on the Boulevard for Crue. But we found nothing. If anyone out there should have managed to track something down and would help me getting it let me know.
But then agan we got to see and do so much more than the star thing. Also got to meet up and say hi and hello to the new GANG Of LOYALTY member. Angela. Thanks gil Awesome you would do that. We will meet and talk again. For now.. Be yourself - fuck ordinary. Too boring for the Crue fan at heart.
Love you all, peace
Tommy "LeGrand" Lee - lol


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27th of January 200SIXX, Hollywood Heaven YES YES!!!
11.19 PM CET*
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Suck my dick was that great. The Hollywood trip of Hollywood trips .. almost. My god this was awesome. Corinna and i went as you all know who follows the diary to the Walk Of Fame ceremony with motley Crue Wednesday 11.30 local Ca time. I think I can only talk for myself but Corinna will most liklely agree see if YOU guys can make her gove her own story of this trip. But it was a fantastic few days. I am dead sure it was one of the best trips there in my life so far. We just had the most awesome time and did what we hoped for or not al lbut some of it and got so good along and all. Lots of shopping and lots of going round.
So this is only going to be a kind of teaser thing for the postings in the diary coming the next few days. Hold on okay. Casue them pictures can back up words so good it is freaky!! We went many olaces, Hollywood, Los Angeles, Pasadenna, Burbank, Santa Monica, Malibu, everywhere....and talked and shared and experinced a lot. met a few people that I have mossed for some time and not seen in an even longr time. Halleluja!!! Damn my man..

So stay on here 0R just come back to get the stories and the pictures. Its all good. Lots of memories for the scrapbook.
I love it. Corina has been a far cooler person than what I thought possible oops sorry hon, not easy to compliment a person that prefers to polish a reputation of being a bitch lol lol lol lol...

Now part form the sightseeing, shoppings, meeting people and more it was a good seramony that the band should be kind of proud of. All the members were there. And the day before the event i had gotten myself some inside information that did not sound promissing but on the actual day it was thank god - put to rest and most of it all was just a cool little hour. Awesome. Glad I went through hell to get it to work for me. Going there was just a neat thing to add to the book of memories of the fucked
up Hollywood act Motley Crue.
Now as said the thing was awesome and I am rightfully happy about everything about it and WE WILL GO AGAIN CORINNA AND I AND HAVE A ROUND TWO. The lost and kissed out issues will go down next time... Be ready be excited and leave us your comments to the coming thing!!

Your Hollywood hore
may London be the next city mayor
REVOLUTION!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thanks again for your never ending kindness my man, London LeGrand
Peace / Mr. Asshole

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23rd of January 200SIXX, Welcome To United Bluff - Jesus!!!!!
12.23 AM CET
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Kiss my mother fucking ass what a side show the trip over has been. Not for the weak. My god (no longer believe in that dick). He made my life a fucking hell. I can tell you the whole story if you like:
I strongly advise you to get your coffee or something. This is for the few hat have no other plans for a good half an hour. Or well we will see. Damn some trip man. Are you ready? Are you fucking ready? Well are you? I guess I have about the best evening I have had in a long time. I had not much hope for getting the chance to do what I now am in the middle of. GOING TO THE STATES AGAIN. Fuck I was here 2 weeks ago. C mon lads. It is not a fucking multy millianaire you are sitting with here. So how was this possible? Well the only explenasion is that I sold out of the last goodies I had from my past KISS life. As most of you know I collected KISS for decades and sold 90% of all round 2002!! So I got lucky found a dude that wanted some personal belongings form the past and I booked myslef a ticket to this freaky trip of mine. I actually no matter if I had had the money or not had told Corinna that I was not fully sure I would go if she would not join me. This was one thing we had talked about a bit we wanted to do together. And the time for the WALK OF FAME is now. Wednesday. On Thursday it is too late never ever too return in life no matter how old we all are gonna get.

So really what is the chance for one of Motley Crue biggest and serious collectors and fans for NOT joining in and watch the seremony? I would say rather slim when it comes down to it So I started a fast thinking process and sold the last things I have part form Kiss awards but they too now are considered gone. All going to be traded in for Motley awards and thats final. Then a few guitars are left and then not much else. 23 years of KISS is then only a memory. But then again that is so okay with me. As you all know. It is first and foremost about being loyal to myself and then the rest in all my doings. So if I sell KISS it is beause it is quite alright in my heart for doing so.

Paul Stanley is about to join Motley next month on tour here in the states with Aeosmith. Fuck me I wanna go. Corinna and I have talked about me coming over again in late March. How that will be even possile in thoughts is so beyond me. BUT I wanna talk to her about it anyway on the flight out from here to Holly weird tomorrow. It will be nice. She is such a cool and nice person these days. I got a feeling she have actually been really excited about me comeing out here again. There (sadly) is nothing in this world I would not do for her. Love or no love. Together for now or not. Fuck it. I really want her. My other love (is that the right word) can not find peace and get the shit together so I bet on my horse in the USA. Of cause I will not get Corinna back. I simply do not believe it. But if I have to give her all the time in my life so be it. Tough.....I know what I go for I know what I try and why I try things out. It is heart felt. I lay things down to people and then it is up to them to get their asses off and let me know how the world is spinning.

Now the evening before I was about to leave I could not really find rest. I missed USA. I missed Corinna and I was excited about seeing the band again. I was fucking thrilled I even had made it possible for this to happen for me. 10 days erlier I did not fully believe it. SO guess how I feel sitting here in South Carolina USA and write this posting?!! And I said 2005 was an awesome year for me? Look how the new one is starting!! I love it. Well dont get too excited now T boy things can go wrong so fast. Yeahhhh dude tell me all about it. That brings me back to the actual trip over.

Now I was so about to get mad as I had not been able to fall asleep. So I got up one final time before I actually did find rest. This was not meant to be. For me to get up but I did. And my friends in Sweden Mattias and his girl had send me a messege asking me to check the website of the local airport that was to be my first stop in the morning at 5 AM local time in Denmark. It said FLIGHT CANCELLED. Now I can tell you all that we in Denmark and most of Scandinavia have had tons of ice snowfalls and shit. It has all caused trouble like MAJOR TROUBLE in all airports and tons and tons of cancelled flights. Well What now I thought? Well I could do nothing but try to call the airport. So I did. I was told it was correct flight cancelled so I would be givin a number to call the airline or get info on further actions. I did - and that kind of ended with a Tommy you have been booked for a better conncetion.

Now my orginal one was:
Aarhus / Copenhangen from 06.40am
Copenhagen / Amsterdam
Amsterdam / New York and then to Greenville, S.C.
This new one would be :
Aarhus / Copenhagen from 10.35 AM
Copenhagen / New York
New York / Greenville, S.C.

No shit this was a dream and for the same money. So why had I not booked this one myself to begin with then? Well one reason only it was about 200 dollars more expensive. And with all the shit I have going I have found major good scills to sit and wait in different airports to save the extra money!! Are you kidding me? Well never the less I now had a longer sleep or at least a chance for one. So I smiled said thank you and went to bed. Of cause after having called Corinna with the info first so she too knew what was going on.

As excited as I was I got up long before the alarm clock was ringing. Made myself the coffee I wanted toast and took my shower. A long one longer than normal not because I wanted it to be but becasue time flew off as I stood there thinking. Tommy you lucky son of a bitch. You have not only the trip itself and the walk of fame to look forward to. It is so much more than this. You get things in hand and will meet people that ... ohhh god the list is long. And you will do the long sort after interview with Corinna and more. It is truely going to be an amazing thing. And as I started of by saying. To do this with Corinna now the way she is and all fuck man, nothing could be better. Except if she was mine. I so wanna touch her and so wanna ..... well fantacy can be good sometimes. So I leave it all up to you. But I was / am honest here. It has a big impact in my life and my Crue shit so... have to fit it in here somewhere.....

I got up and we got to the airport. So we sat there had a cup of coffee and waited. Then all of a sudden the days greatness started. "We have a messenge to the people travelling to Copenhagen at 10.35. The plain has been delayed. New time is scedualled to be 12.00 noon. Awesome already here would I be missing my flight to New York. So what the fuck stay calm smile and enjoy life right? Right. I was so thinking this is not good what the hell do i do? Unless the New York departure as every other plain seems to be delayed so can this. The time went by slowly and I think the only thing that actually held my head up high was the fact it would happen I would go and I would have this dream covered too and I would be with Corinna. Fuck it. Be delayed. I am fine with it. We boarded and got to Copenhagen my mind was spinnning in excitement but also in wonder of what the hell would happen from Copenhagen and on?

We got there and there was no longer a New York flight ot catch to make that part of the story shor. SO I went to the front desk of SAS airlines and asked them what the fuck could I do? How could I make sure I would get onboard that plain to Greenville form New York? Well in short I could not make sure of that. Cause there would due to weather conditions not be any other flights from Copenhagen to New York that day. So they could offer me another rute. Going : Copenhagen to Chicago to Greenville. My god well okay but I refuse to pay extra for things like this. "Sure no problem we take care of that, shall we book it?" "You will have a good 1 hour and 40 minutes in Chicago to make the domestic connecting flight there." I said "no no no no no no that is not gonna happen." The lady said "sure it will evertything is booked in the computer to fit perfectly." I asked her who made these rutes. Cause not a traveelling person has that is for dead sure. It is not possible to catch that flight going through costumes and all.You need a good 3 hours if you should be absolutely dead sure. well I took the offer and hoped for the best. I got to the gate of the Chicago flight and BOOM!! a new messege was heard " to the travelling to Chicago. We have a delay of 30 minutes" Nice Now I was pretty sure to get stranded in Chicago. I called Corinna and said look baby I do not think I will see you today after all, gave the story so far and then said I would call her in Chicago after I found out more.

So after this I went ot look for more Jack Daniels for her .Yes she sort of collects that too. I know I know it can not be full hearted doing two things but some people are happy with that. So fuck it. I want to help her on that getting jack Daniels. Actually I have bought and gotten her gifts that I brought too this time. At wrting point we have not had time yet to hand her the stuff and for me to get a reaction. But I will Just wait a while. There was only one bottle a 1 Liter one but does she have that or not? I could not tell so I decided to wait and just see when I get there and then buy it for her on my way home IF she wants it.

Long, long, long flight to Chicago but I saw movies and I ate and I felt rather good. I could not be stopped. I was in good faith only tired. Why the good mood with all the shit going on? Again becasue this trip and the togetherness with this special person made it all worth while. I can not say anything else to it. Some may say my excitement was abit anoying. The buisnessman in suit and tie and the whole lot had enough and asked for another seat at one point. So fuck it. I was ignored for a good half a hour by the staff but I got carried to my destination and I was happy. Fuck what ever was added or taken from that. In all honesty the single thing that would probably kill me and the excitement would be if me and Corinna ended up in a fight or something. But you know what people? Not happening. Cause I will not alou it. Another thing is I had all of a sudden that extra space next to me. Cute Mr. Buiss. Saw "Proof" and some other movie onboard. The first one was actually really good. Heard some music on the load of channels to choose from and I think as I always do when I go to the states I hear one or two new songs that I then wanna get and there by they will kind of represent that particulour one USA visit. I like that idea. It has been like that since 1993 for me.

We landed in Chicago I felt a wide smile coming on my face. I was okay with ending up in Chicago for the night and I felt I could be anywhere in any conditions and it would be ... .
F - I - N - E!!!
As we got off in Chicago I did not have a fucking clue what to do or where to go. All I really wanted was to move. My legs were killing me from all the sitting and the delays and shit. I wanted to call Corinna a few times but I did not do that!! I was kind of a good boy. LOL!!! Anyway I think I should be happy for all no matter what. So I was. Did not think too much about it .Followed the flow and ended up asking what to do and where to go. We that is a bunch of us that due to delays would be forced to spend the night in Chicago were packed in a buss and taken to a hotel a little outside the airport. I was standing back in line actually second last which ended up being a good thing. All were told they would be picked up at 08.00 the next morning no matter their departure time from Chicago to any destination if they wanted a free ride back to the airport. Except the last three. The hotel did not have any more free rooms. So we drove back to the airport parked outside HILTON hotel and were booked there for the night. FULL LUXURY!!! No missed out needs or anything . Hell I got to get a message and a long bath. All I could drink but missed my meal. So what. I had a blast still Missed being somewhere else but that was to come. I still felt fine. had never really stayed like this in Chicago before so I sucked it in like nothing else. Emptied the room for all Hilton pens and paper and bathroom articls like I always do. Damn it has gotten to be so much I hardly have room for it back home lol lol lol.

I was told my next morning flight out from Chciago would be the 08.30 AM flight a direct one to Greenville / spartanburg airport. The final destination ... for a start.
I was still excited took a shower tugged in turned on the TV saw a bit and then heyyy tried to get some sleep. Well it was a successful try. But the ordered morning call at 06.30 did not happen I called down and dropped the request at 05.10 AM. I was awake already excited again. It was kind of bizarre since I had at this point not really gotten too much sleep. I could not help it. For ones I did not have a worrying headacke either. Thank god. I always have. I guess the satisfaction in having a ticket over here alone was a blast for me this time. And maybe because I just was here 2 weeks ago? It is still ureal to me. So much money for so fairly little.

Walking round the hotel with the world sleeping I felt like a king. I was so lucky. My American girl was fine my friends back home were fine I had talked to the important people in my life before take off I had a lot of Crue things set in gear and some were to be dealt with here now as I was here. I could not believe it amazing. No more than that .. stunning!!! I felt ready in an od way so I retuned to my room fifth floor room 5010 took a shower again and went to the lobby checked out. I decided to walk with all I had of luggage and just go to the airport. Try to figure out where my 08.30 flight was going to be. What gate and all. I checked in my one suitcase grabbed my backpack and one plasic bag and took off towards security check. Fuck me was I about to get looked at. As we stood in line one came and asked of my passport I showed her and she said follow me. I felt like she had handpicked me for a criminal or something very stricht.

Now take off your shoes and jacket I had already doen so. have been in the US too many times not to know the procedure. My god.
She then asked me tons of questions as a nother guy started to open my backpack. He said look you are carrying too much liquier here. What are you gonna do? Where are you going and what are your purpose there? Damn man eat me alive will you? Well I tried to be nice answer his and her questions and all I did not fully understand I asked in too. But then I was told not to rude or bring on an attitude. WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!! I have been the fucking only calm kid in the line as far I could tell. So go bite some other ones ass. Please.
Now to make these 20 minutes in secutity check short in writing I was asked to get a body search twice and strip down ones on top of that. They found not a pin on me so I was let go. I have no absolutely no idea why this was brought up. I even got to go with my bottles I had for Corinna.
My god. What the fuck were their problems today. Jesssuuusss / welcome to United Bluff. I mean States. Holy cow. Passed the security checkpoint and tried to figure out where F2 was supose to be at. Cause that was my gate. F2. I located it and had a good 90 minutes. No wait holy fuck this too had just gotten delayed. WHAT!!! Well another call to Corinna was needed. I would now get to Greenville round 12.02 I decided to call her in a good half hour. I too a tea and got myself something to drink. 20 minutes later a message call was in order it seemed. Ladies and gents we have gather here to day into this thing called life .. uuuhhh wrong tune brother.... We have a message to all passengers that travels towards Greenville. The plane will deaprt but now from Gate F2b and at 9.45. That meant a new arrival time in S.C. at 12.45 I caleld Corinna again and told her. This time I felt like this could not get rescedualled again. For fuck sake this was my last flight out so far anyway.. .for god sake take me there and do it yesterday please. Time came and we boarded. Finally - it worked I was on my way. 2 hours and 10 minutes flight time and I ones again stood in the airport of So many memories and thoughts. Called again Corinna told her the impossible news. I was here. She was at work would try to get off early and pick me up before she again had to go for her other work at the hospital for the evening. It was all good with me. I claimed my bags and all was fine sat down rested a good 25 minutes then went outside and waited. Wanted fresh air, she came a good 45 minutes after that. Nice to see her kind of rushed out but still nice to see her. Threw everything in the trunk and headed to her place. The place I love so much. Fuck I wanna live there. She took off again and I started looking in on my stuff. Unpacked and repacked for the Hollywood thing tomo row and have since then had a few calls from Corinna from work. A little detail I really like not to say love it sounds so girly doesnt it? I may not have the biggest dick in town but I am still a boy. I like to think of the times to come. I am right now right here as I type this line so extremely tired. I want to see if I can stay up now as it is 9.22 PM local time S.C. but she will not be here til round quarter past midnight or something. Then we have to get up round 4 or 4.20 am CAUSE WE HAVE A VERY ERLY MORNING FLIGHT OUT. Shit how will I make it with what I have doe till now. I need to rest. Tommy get a grib no rest for the wicked boy.

I will do the last bit of whats needed and then go lay down I think. I need a good hour or so before she comes and then try to get rest. I so want to give her the presents I brought for her but in all honesty I do not think I will have the best chosen time tonight. WE BOTH need the most rest possible. Shit.....

Thats the exciting trip so far. It will get to be a killer. Do not think anything else. My god. It will be amazing.
I only have a little doubt about when I will actuially have time to do the interview and for Corinna to do her speak for the radio I so have been in need of too long already. Damn.
And we need to get paypal payments on their way to the sellers so we do not get any problems.

I am as beat as a hung cat. So pardon me but I have to end here for the day.
I am really not doing too well when the shit goes down the next couple of days if I do not get rest...
So from the sunny southern states of US - the circus has begun, sit tight hang on cause the next couple of days is gonna be a rollercoaster ride you will not believe.

Your wipped and wicked host
Mutha Fucking Lee

Mcrueloyalty.dk

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21st of January 200SIXX, As I Normally Do I Will Again

1.23 PM CET

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What? What the fuck am I talking about, right? Well, what I am saying with a headline like that is that when ever I go somewhere I always leave you a ll with a few final words right? So I will again. I am about 16 hours away from leaving my home for the god knows what number of trip to USA again. It is Corinna time. It is Crue time. It is almost like an “I am coming home time”. Fuck all the money I could have saved had I lived there already! It is something I do not even want to think about. Hell it is a mountain of money. Only in transportation. Okay enough wining.

I will land at Corinna’s place round 9 or 10 jeezz at this time I cannot even remember but their local time anyway. We have talked a bit lately and I thin k I can safely say this; we are perfect for each other to do this. It is a hard and jam packed little visit to the city of dreams, Hollywood that is, but we will have a blast, as long as I can get rid of my headaches. I have it all the time. Maybe I should see a doctor when I get back, could be a health thing. Fucking never know.

I say again I am really not making any moves on her but I want her again. And I have done a good job for all of you that could be wondering of what the fuck will happen with that little thing. Well I think it is not my choice. I love her and I want her but I seem to have found a fairly okay balance to work with for myself to get through this. The hard part is the stay off of her all the time.

Motley items are on a continued adding to the sections on here as I am gone. The webmaster is the one that deals with that. And I only hope that we will have all remade and added to this site in the next week or so. It would be best for the site as such. But it is coming, just have patience. Sorry that word is not legal in the IT world I know. We want things NOW and we them to WORK NOW and we do not see ourselves willing to sit for 2 point 2 seconds for an information to pup up on the screen in the computer world. Well all my sweet and loyal babies you simply have to. The site here has so many pictures and more in short it is getting so big now that we can only say it has to take ti me. And low and behold it is so far, far, far from complete. I will always add on here. And when I get back from the USA I will again have a FULL suitcase or two with shit to get on here.

What can I say more right now? Hmmm, I guess not much. For all of you that will not get to the Walk Of Fame next Wednesday well I guess the next thing part from all the goodies to get added here will be the Carnival Of Sins, the live-concert 2-DVD set documenting last year's infamous top-grossing reunion tour is now available. The live companion CD to the DVD "Carnival Of Sins Live", Volume I&II will be in stores February 7. Additionally, a special pay-per-view broadcast of "Carnival Of Sins Live" will premiere March 24th at 10:00pm EST/7:00 pm PST on Events In-Demand Pay-Per-View. So watch out for that one!!
I am off from here the next time you will hear from me will be from the US. I hope it will all go as great as I expect it to. I know there are a line of things that will be filled with excitement so……
Your (still) screwed up host
Lee

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19th of January 200SIXX, Damn That Man & Updates

10.23 PM CET

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It is a damn good time of the week. I for being a half Norwegian have finally gotten snow around here. Hang on there is a chance for documentary damn it....hang on I will take a few pictures just fast!! …………….Okay a few from the normally sunny summer like backyard and the now totally covered fire place. Grilled snowball anyone?

I am sitting here too now adding shit on the site like crazy. The webmaster and myself have had PLENTY of bad luck and messy doings on there lately. Can not figure what the hell seem to be the thorn in our sides. Fuck!!!

How ever it is winter like W – I – N – T – E – R here now and Mr. Looney here is having a ball. I can not think straight about the fact that in 6 days I am in Hollywood – sunny and shit when I finally and today sit here with SNOW as if it was never ending. So I have to also be a bit careful with the weather changes or I will get sick in the next few weeks. But so far I love it.

Look the website here is about to get bigger. And it will continue over the next good handful of weeks as said. What ever you think could be interesting to enlarge (nasty) of any section on here most likely will have its adding. I plan on doing so much over in the states in the little week I am there and as said earlier on here too I will bring home a lot of more new stuff.
It is all at Corinne’s new place. But some will most likely stay there for a very long time to come. We have talked about starting some sort of a larger “display” kind of thing.

What?
Yes, well I still hope to get a collection WITH her some time some day. She means the world to me and I am hopeful for a ton of things. But right now I need to get my shit together and be good to myself while try healing from the loss of her. I want her back. But it has got to be under different terms. Ahh, fuck it - long story all boring to you all.

I would appreciate if you all would do me like a huge favour and email the webmaster if you have any trouble with shit on here.
Use; loyalty-master@bertelsen.mail.dk do not email ME! I mean I would have to email her about it anyways, so hit for the guilty. Do not blame me. LOL: No but seriously it is the easiest way to get things all good and fixed again. Thank you very much!!!

I have packed my shit and I have packed all the needed so Holly weird I am ready for ya. Now give me that huge mutha kick in the ass … I beg of you!!!

What else? Well tons. But I would never get done so let me rap it up by saying two things:
One – the asshole to a male of my mums is sacked cooked and boiled. We took care of the important part today. Gives me great pleasure to tell you all – THE STINKER GOT STUNG!!!
Secondly – I have gotten so many great things to come and some deals and offers have carefully been put in place se they will happen. They will milk me BAD financially and the March USA tour t4ip is in HIGHLY danger. Corinna if you hear me here YOU better think out a great way to have this wanker (me) find a way top do all. I have set myself in … ohhhhh so much it will not be done dealt with until 2008!!

That’s it and that’s that …..

Your 4ever hopeless loyalty

The T bird!!!

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17th of January 200SIXX, Fuck Me It IS Unreal

5.06 PM CET
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That is more than just right. I can not believe the shit of bad and good luck that happens to me in a matter of 48 hours. The bad news is a more personal matter but can affect me a little bit financially and about having focus for a little while on the Crue. The ultimate dick of a male
(I choose on purpose NOT to say “man” here) of my mum’s guy is being sacked. NEVER LIKED THE STINKER! Finally she too has had enough and he is being sacked.

The idiot he is - he is now growing cruel in a bad way and his next move is to try to milk mum for the most he can.

I will dedicate my time except the trip to US in a little less than a week to help her and support her like my brother and sister does too the best way possible. That is the short version of it.

Be not surprised if I get arrested for punching this prick does it get to be too much with his stinky behaviour. Fuck me I hate that total looser. Be fucking careful for what you and who you invite in on your little lives. It is too short to mess with. I mean that from the bottom of my heart have been there myself.

The excellent news is that an exclusive extreme ONE OF A KIND thing from the latest Crue show and tour is going to be mine. As of now I can not say what it is or what the price is or will be. Simply because this item is REALLY NOT FOR SALE!!! What? What did you say? Not for sale? Yes folks that were my word. Not for sale. It really should not be a thing that for just an ordinary guy like myself to even get offered. It is neat. Only second to the best… okay I hear ya, if I can not say more you do not fully get what it is so I will just shut up. But now you know. I am happy. Well part from the financial mess I am getting myself into here. It is a damn tough year or two this is going to be. But… to hell with the consequences!!! I live and love what I do. And only one person can make me change my life. And you all know who that one person is. So…..I rest my case.

Now give me that – HELL YEAH!!!

Fuck yes!!

I will have a lot of money going out the door this year. But the collection with the things I am in deals with right now makes my Motley Crue collection go up with I would say about 15.000 US $ alone. And after the things and deals have been closed and shit has landed in my house, well watch me!! I am pretty sure the getting, buying and shopping only continue!!

I am really excited about the coming Sunday. Corinna and I are good together in spite of what the fuck she says. LOL!!! No seriously we can be even better and the Hollywood thing next week will prove my words. I will make sure she gets the ride of her life. I will be hugely disappointed if she tells me otherwise. Her passion too for the Crue will come to the fullest if we speak Crue history here. No one will ever give or take her on the ride she is about to get. And that is a promise.

There are a good 39 minutes from now till the Nikki Sixx worn and promo shoot use will end on Ebay. Kind of a hard one to swallow. Tight now just for the fucking fun of it I bid. With out common sense and was outbid. $2475.00 – damn!! What is this dude willing to pay? I seem to be in a no win situation on this one, can I say FUCK, SHIT, DAMN IT? Well I just did!!! This will NOT go to this address. I can not do it.

PS: The webmaster has promised to get down and busy till the fucking few problems are eliminated!! So I have to go back on my word to you all, it will not ALL be added on here in time for the coming Saturday. But it will come on here slowly but surely. And the wait is worth it, promise. Your fucked up little Crue freak!!
Tomster

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I fucking know alright!! No comments. No answers to the questions coming!! The jacket ended. And it fucking awesome. Had to call the one and only Corinna to help her make me shut the computer down with only 12 minutes to go on this one. Of cause I could not do that either. FUCK!!!
Well it ended and I did try my luck!! I can only say SHIT!!! to the fact I did not get it. On the other hand .... THANK GOD!! Cause now I do have the chance to get that xtra special something I was posting about up above and a line of the smaller things!!
If you know my Ebay ID or can guess you do not have to the the smartest to figure out who I am. Damn.....This was the last few minutes of that one auction!!

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16th of January 200SIXX, It Is A Promise People

7.56 AM CET

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Talked to the webmaster last night. The new stuff is wanted on here like yesterday. I have seen all your postings in the guestbook. I thank you for the interest. The webmaster has promised to go ape shit on it over the next few days! So by next weekend everything SO FAR should be on there. I know there is a lot more than what has been scanned and photographed on here to still be dealt with

I mean look at the boxes in these pictures alone. And that too is not all!! And let me tell you these boxes a big bad ass boxes too.

Have patience and check in on here every now and then. I know there will be a line of cool things to see. Almost every section will have a added something, Personal, Posters, This N That, Awards, Shirts, 8x10s, Nikki solo, Tommy solo, Vince solo, CD`s, Vinyls, Books, Magazine covers, Articles, everything!! There is a whole new kind of small collection to be added lol lol lol!!!

So come back ya all, ya hear??
I will try to cover something cool with a good story and pictures too going to the Hollywood walk of fame thing in a week too. I will with the girl you all miss on here rent a car and take the complete CRUE history trip round California`s LA area. Everything with a Corinna interview for the site will come up on here. She is still with me. She is gearing up I guess. She is having a lot of “ordinary” shit to pull herself through but she returns before you know it. So hang in there. Okay folks that’s all I guess… later

Your financially lost host

Tommy (where did you go B.O.D.) Lee

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14th of January 200SIXX, Things Starting To Take Shape

3.00 PM CET

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It has been a time with worry concern and brain pressure like I can not even begin to tell you all about. Now just ONE of the things that were biting my ass actually two have been finding its solutions. Nice. First off the Walk Of Fame in Holly weird. It will happen. I am there already. All is in place. All expences have been taken care of and is a-okay!! That gives me a huge satisfaction.

Sat and talked with a couple of long lost friends last night my local time.
They both said they were extremely curious to how a one lonely dude can do all the shit I have posted and documented the last year can be done. Or have I have been able to. I say it again for all that doesn’t seem to care reading the answers in the stuff that’s on here already lol – I skip all or most everything else in my life to do this. Otherwise I could not. Pure and simple. Ask me and I say; THAT is the one thing people do not seem to get. They can and will not drop the so called ordinary living to see the band or get items by the band or something even related to the band if the price is you have to not be social, you have ot not eat as much, you have to see and do nothing else for maybe 4 months, you have to be willing to put your safety net at risk, home, car, girlfriend and more……..
That’s really is the situation I have lived under to do all this that I have done.

Now the other thing that is really going good for the time being anyway is the huge award deal. I so wanted the lot from this guy. That guy seems to be willing to TRADE my KISS awards or at least some for some Crue. Nice one. I have received two of the lot already. Getting two more packed by him next week. That financially helps out a great deal that I only have to be worried about the shipping for the KISS ones to go his way is really helpful. Do I get all the Crue ones in time then god help me this collection in value has just gone up about 10 to 12000 dollars then!! Damn that’cool!!

In case some wonder. And there have been a few that have emailed me about it:
Yes Corinna is going with me to the Hollywood thing. And we will have the coolest time I am sure. I am still fucked up crazy about her and all. But I also know I am gonna do the one thing I never ever do. I hate it. I am gonna play the “innocent” game and be the good puppy!!! Fuck it. The thing we go for means a lot to me. And a few weeks ago I would have ended it all. The collecting thing, contacts to her and more. But then a few people were extremely helpful supportive and more the first time I was so fucking hurting about the hole thing.
They actually called me long distance and more and gave me a few lectures about ME and who I am in life and what drives me so….I am holding in there … Still on the MOTLEY CRUE RIDE!!! Overdoing it as always. I know, I know!! So shoot me.

Now the latest news seems to be worth spreading. I refuse to have a Crue news section also in 200SIXX since there are plenty of news boards on the net about them. This is not what the site is meant to be. As said in 2005. Damn I have so many things to things to TRY to cover in the next year. Even though the boys will not be touring much there are a ton of happenings to ht my face.

A brand new line of merchandise to come. Part from the new tour merchandise. So heyyy help me!! Damn I will be so not having a life out side this again for a serious long time. Did someone say dedication?

1. Tommy is doing another reality serie on TV soon.

2. Tommy college DVD official release is the 25th of April

3. Crue paperback book coming out (if no delay) June 30th + the book of John Corabi biography

4. Action figure set nr 2 plus the “Music To Crash Your Car To pt 3” so far set for a late Sep / Oct release

5. Sixx clothing line to come this summer and Tommy clothin line too

6. Latest tour coming in a few weeks: With Aerosmith and Paul Stanley solo.

7. Vince solo album

8. Sixx and Corabi books in the summer

9. New live CD in March

Want more?? Hell save your breath and come back on here. I will be covering most of it with a personal view on the lot. Now we will talk again, The site as you can see in “Kickstrat My Heart” the guestbook section should again be up and running. A total remaking of every page on the entire site is being done. Webmaster just as busy as I but we have to. It is all worth it to have the coolest and biggest Crue site for ya all. Come back again!!

The retarted

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12th of January 2006, Take The Heat Of Me, Just Take The Heat Of Me

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I am cooking here. Not a meal or anything like that. Just fucking cooking on the inside. It is a time of stinky many things happening all of a sudden. I have the last 24 hours gotten so much new information and so many new offers that I do not know where to turn to. I am in heat. Damn it take it off of me. Corinna has been informed about most of it. Why not all you may ask. Well we have not had time to talk that much. Last night we would have had time. My time. But I over slept myself. Stinky tired always returning from the US not going over never a problem. Guess the reason is cause I know what I go to and I know what stinks when I return. Anyways, I have the ticket in pace for all US end January, hotel and more. All set. Corinna seems thrilled having me back there I am glad for that.

Looks like there could be shit happening on the day of the Crue star walk of fame?
Nothing is said or anything (teaser) but what if anything I guess we will just have to see as I get there. The band is going into studio in early May – real curious to hear what it will bring us. And the Late April US tour and Europe May seems to have been cancelled or what ever you want to call it. Due to them doing the album shortly after I guess. And the support for Rolling Stones over here.

Do not know if it even matters to you out there but there are some cool things going to happen later on in the year MAYBE. The boys themselves seem to have ideas thrown around. And the new 2006 Sixx clothing line and the Tommy Clothing line and the soon to come live album and the recording of the DIRT movie in February and the Vince solo album and the Sixx book and the Corabi biography and the … shall I go on? Shit. There are tons of things happening. All in the making. Do not know how the hell I can or will get through it all. But I have to. And grabbing most of what I can while travelling 200SIXX. So ……

Ohh yeah the 1989 bass used on tour and now fully signed is ending today / tomorrow depending on where you live:

The The Sixx owned HOLLYWOOD FRAMUS guitar is ending too

Next week has the extremely known and sort after jacket from the promo shots 2005 ending too.

What will these hands of mine get to touch of it? Most likely nothing. How ever the stuff is shit cool. End of story. I have so many things in store through out the year, I always knows what I am gonna be doing in this music world about a year ahead. Sometimes that is kind of neat other times … well no!! But that seems to be the case too for 200sixx. I rest my case for the day!!!

Your financially troubled host!!!

Tommy

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11th of January 2005, Sorry Bout The Delay, Enjoy
8.21 AM CET
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Sorry guys, It has been turbulence in many ways. Here are the promised pvt recordings of the New Years show. well a few features anyways.
Hope you enjoy em. They are awesome. Good view too.
Not fining it better.
http://www.kitchweb.com/corinna%20movies/

Next stop - the scanning of the tons of home brought stuff and addings to the site.Stick round. Tons to come over the next 2 months.

Peace (of your actions??)
The retarted
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10th of January 2005, Next In Line And Still Searching
7. 13 PM CET
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On this the first Tuesday in my life in Denmark 2006 I have gotten a few things set in place again. There have been talked and now it seems to happen. Motley’s Europe tour 2006 will be some support jobs to Rolling Stones on their June tour of the year. It is not the best of news as the tickets for that has more or less totally sold out through Europe. So I have done another thing. I have today made sure that I will be attending the Hollywood walk of fame thing on January 25th as the band gets their star in concrete on Hollywood Blv. I am going to do a lot it seems with the one I miss in my life – Corinna Hargrave. She is on this too joining me.

I can not even begin to explain the things I have to swallow and keep within me. It is emotional and a good heartbreak. I can not say more than that. It would be kind of pointless. I just feel really bad. But things are tried be giving the focus it needs and deserves. I am so hopeful to get over this sooner than later. I will always hold her in my heart though. I hope she one day will and can notice this. But for now I seriously need to get the shit together and get things in order for a good and fast starting 2006. This is not good for me. One of my Ebay “enemies” has been really nice and supportive to me after things have been put up for grabs on the motley.com site. I thank not only that person but all that have been giving me the lecture of things to stay with this and to stay with the stuff I have going. No person could or should change that. Well this is what happens I guess when you meet someone that is stealing your heart. You go out of it. You go blind. Or what ever it is.

I am now on my way to Holly weird in a few weeks and I will then have a long rest for more travelling in this, the year of 200SIXX. But it feels okay. I have a lot of things coming still many actually too many deals in the works and I have some really hard needs for a “backing off” from it all for some time. Yeah well of cause that most likely will not happen either.

Motley Crue is set to come by us here in Europe and as said earlier in postings here in my diary last year things can so easy change. Especially with this band. And it seems to have done so without being fully sure. The band comes in June as a support act to Rolling stones instead of own tour. Nice to know, now all the Stones shows have been sold out like forever. Really nice.

I am still scanning like hell to get all the new things brought home from USA online. It is only about 30 % of it all I guess but there are maybe a good 150 items here if you count everything a single piece. SO there will be lots of shit to look at shortly. The webmaster is being tested hugely these days. Something is totally fucked with her computer. Maybe it is time soon to only have an extra or get an extra computer for this site here only. It is growing like I do not know what.

Well that is the latest from here and I will not have the date or anything for promises to get this all added to the site. Just check in on it every now and then.

I still am trying to find myself after the HUGE trip I just returned form and I am still trying to let things sink in. The new year show the Presley thing in short everything. There have been so much and all the thoughts and pain is wearing me out big time.

One final thing though. Sixx has ones again done things to chock me. Another item is up for grabs. The jacket greenish like he wore in the photo shoot of the reunion session number one. In front of the American flag. We all know it. Fuck I would like to have that one. But…..

Your impossible no hope in hell for bettering Lee

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9th of January 2005, Now What - L.M Presley And A Crue

10.52 PM CET

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While the “Now What” the latest album by Lisa Marie Presley spins my CD player I sit here try to get a closing on the US trip down as a posting with my Crue thoughts of the day mixed in there too.

I sat on the 6th of January with the most important girl in my life right now Corinna by my side in a car in MemphisTennessee A Thursday morning. And my biggest musical dream was about to happen.

On Wednesday we had a visit to the jack Daniels Distillery of Tennessee, a long dream for her to see. I was getting a little lighter on the whiskey that I guess rules the world. But my day was this Memphis the dream of getting to see Graceland. Elvis Presley had been the single one dude that has giving me this huge interest in music. And been in around Motley, KISS, Marilyn Manson AC/DC, W.A.S.P. and others I simply never let go of Mr. Rock N Roll – E. Presley.

The tour I chose of three was the big package and it was a good $55.00 for the day. Fuck it. I wanted it and I wanted it bad. I was moved to tears just thinking about it. Again I am all about heart felt things and doings. Fuck the tomorrow I live for today! I need someone like Corinna in my life to hold me on a leash if I should not kill myself in active attractions and bankrupts.

Here I was Crue was running through my mind. And I was thinking I have been blessed with many dreams in my 39 years already fulfilled. It felt amazing. I have been lucky in my life in many ways. But the costs have been plenty. At times more than I care to think about. Very extreme. Now Presley was the man I wanted to see but never will. I could now on this day visit his house, his airplanes his cars, his backyard his grave. Everything was so unreal to me. I was here.

It was not really real for me. Man I felt so out in space. Corinna could partly understand this with me. She never was an Elvis fan or any way near it. I was and have been for my entire life. Not a collector but a fan. I would never had gotten such massive interest in music no matter what band we talk about here if was not for that one man.

We got taken onboard the guide van and were taken cross the road and through the famous music noted gates up the driveway to the front of his house. I felt my stomach tighten in. A hurting feeling. Can not even tell how I felt. We were told a gazillion rules and introductions to the whole thing we were about to witness. Crue was not in my mind just here. It was somehow a totally different world for me. I did not even listen to what she said the guide for us. I was thinking right there 1958 Elvis stood there and right there on that 2nd step to the front door was he sitting arm in arm with his dad as the news broke his mum had died. It just was not real .The king of rock n roll.

Fuck I felt it all.

Then the front door opened and we were invited inside. How can I even use words out of this world for a description of it? I can not so I will not even try. I had my camera with me. Hope the stuff turns out okay. I never got the rolls of film made yet. And the camera is still in USA by Corinna. So I will not know for a good while still if they are okay or not.
I only hope they are truly. I will most likely not return there.
Not because I do not want to. But more because I want to keep that single one visit in my memory for life. Boy I was there – the home of a legend an unbeatable artist fro as long as music is around. Well in my book anyway. Awesome.

The tour round the house was so strange. The smell of old.
Old in the sense of …..It has been years since he was here and since
there had been anyone like living here for real. It was just simply legendary. I felt his walking round the house the many stories and happenings I know about this house. I felt like I could just have sat there for a week. It was so not for real. My experience here can not fully come into words – but I am grateful to Corinna for taking me and for putting up with a wish I never fully believed in would come to life. And she of all people maybe part from my mother is the single one I wanted to share this with.

I told Corinna that day that there was not much she had so far fully understood about my being. There was nothing in the world f Motley I would not share with her. A few stories and more I can not share with her as we are not “closer” than we are right now. I have been told by a few I still love her. Yeah no shit. It is not that I want to be a slave to her or anything but if this girl comes in trouble or in need of what ever I will be there doing all in my power to help her out. No limits. No questions asked. She means a lot to me and I am not holding it back. I want the world to know this.

It was a few special days that were shared together away from South Carolina and away from all daily things. We both had a blast. I hope.
I did.

The Graceland tour was ending at the grave of the family.
I had a seriously hard time to walk up there. I was in tears. I was standing maybe 10 feet away watching over the land of the whole thing. I really felt touched and emotional. I finally walked up there and if Corinna saw my tears or not I have no idea and it does not matter either. I had my own private moment and would not be rushed. It was a once in a lifetime minute for me. And a 17 years long dream that was alive for a very short time. So …….. I took the moment and was alone with the many others there. On this day 2 days before his birthday 2006.

A few snapshots and I and she were on our way out. I wanted my ONE thing. One memorabilia. Got it. A book; By Lisa Marie Presley “Elvis Presley Graceland.” Neat book I think. No regrets. Only thank you thank you thank you……..

On to Memphis downtown a quick trip to Sun Studios getting a 50 minute tour and shots. Awesome ….. Highly recommended for all true rock n roll history lovers. Serious cool.

Our way home to South Carolina and my last day of the USA trip for this time was having a good 20 more hours left. So we had no time to get lost or do other stunts. Just head home. Corinna is the most excellent driver I have ever been in a car with so it was a smooth ride.

I guess all in all I was torn leaving a girl behind I care for this much. Missed so much all her touches and her kisses. It was a generally great USA visit again but with a broken heart. But I got things told to her that I guess she now has a better understanding for when it comes to me. At least I hope so.

Now it is back to reality. Back to every day life for a good two weeks then I go again. To her. To go together to Hollywood. For the Motley boys to be getting their walk of fame, sidewalk glitter star in the concrete. That is a one of day in their history no matter when it ends. So sure have to go. Come hell or high water.

So As I now sit here scanning in the first lot of MANY of the home brought items to go on the site I try to get real again. Finding myself and let the last just ended trip sink in. It was a special trip in so many, many, many ways. Feel sad for people not having my adventures – to feel fully alive.

Your Dane with an American touch of heart

Lee

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Wednesday 4th of January 2005, Burned The Old Plans For The New
7.27 Am CET
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We got to our gate which was C37.
About to board the smallest plane I have ever boarded. 19 seats in total. Arriving at the gate we had like a good 90 minutes to kill. Corinna got a good rest took a nap. I was out for a few minutes here and there too. We boarded and did not do much else but sleep the good hour and a half it took to get us to Greenville South Carolina again. Home sweet home.