Diary 2012 | mcrueloyalty.dk

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30th Of December 2012, Last Yell Out
1:15 PM CET
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So here I am still torn and devestated over everything this last month of 20 12 had to offer me. I feel totally ripped from anything that is even close to fairness and warmth in any shape and form. I hate the status of the latest me the here here and now I. So torn and sliced. It feels almost unable to heal me. I have had such cool blessings to my name in my Crue life this year too but this is how long it seems to have lasted. Now it is nothing but a heartache and fucked up a slowly death to my being. I know its a speech from a hurting man how ever it is also a truth I can not get around. I am so longing to be freed from these inner very bad feelings.

I am here telling you there is no visual or thought of solution to anything that I sit with so the Crue life for me and the collecting side to things seems like it has flown away and by now to a destination I am not at all going to. Guarenteed not anytime soon at least. Everybody tells me not to give in or give up. All tells me to simply hang in there and just hold on to what I have and not do anything stupid with it. Rather call it a break in collecting and then pick it up as time alous it again no matter what that time will be. I totally get it I just can not seem to deal with the thoughtof it not being a part of the Tommy life I like and love so much. I have dedicated everything to this and to my lost girl - nothing else in life for a serious line of years have had as long a passion as those two things in my life. So now with both things gone I can not cope with life.

I have talked to several as stated above and two people makes really great sense in its own wicked way. I have met one that truely makes things nice. Nice in the sense that I feel there is a gateway to perhaps a list of new poepleto come into my life. A dude that is extremely open and straight forward. It is a truely great feeling this thing with the shared stuff he and I have. Truely came in at the right time in my life - even though that is kind of sad to say really. I will call him P. N. Bro you should know I am truely appreciating all you say and do. Your thoughts openly said in a well ment helpfull way means a lot. I am sure there will be great future somethings to be shared in the future. Again thanks for your advices and well ment thoughts and ideas.

Here is a situation where I sit alone with everything and unable to close this year up with a smile and a great feeling in my Crue life but i am not gonna do anything "bad" with it. I will try to hang on to all I at least have already and then see if there is a 2013 suprise coming my way that makes it possible to continue the collection shopping again. My new friend this P.N. mentioned too ... leave the Crue alone for awhile and try to build up this new you. New friends new framings and all. It will take time but I need it no matter what. Even if the Motley boys had not been there I would still need exactly this. So why wait on the work with that till later? It makes sense sure. I just do not know if I am actually able to have the focus it requires to get that going. God knows I need some new this and that in my life that is looked at as high quality cool and is being appreciated for all the right reasons. I think maybe I need to start doing things I have not done before. But at the time now as I sit here and am posting this I just can notreally get it in focus. I am so damn far out from other things and I am not fully able to see how I will manage the stuff I know I kind of have to.

There are things in the calender now that dictates it is new years eve tomorrow and there by the end of 2012. I am not ready to letting it go just yet. I am on the other hand really wanna get over and out about it. This year was so great yet it ends like was it a world ending. All from this fucking hacking and blamed and marked guilty from an innocense beyind anything I have ever tried before. Only this one took my girl my life and my happines with it. There went so much out the door with that accuse and I am not one of the people that will in a good days time go out of this and into the new .... year anyway happy. So you see this is well ment but not including my own self so I will just lay it on you in a friendly way but not feeling good myslef at all, thanks for all in the last 365 days enjoy yourself see you all in the new be careful tomorrow - happy new year may all your days oof the 20 13 to come be filled with all you love and look for. I need time myself to get past this inner torn soul I am carrying.

PS: Watch also for the new Sixx A:M release and tour to come.

Just had a full afternoon going through some DVD discs to get the stuff on there listedsoon ready to be on the site. I got to admit a million short movies ran through my skull and I went through the years of my collecting and especially the last two years and all the stuff in Crue life I have shared with my now ex girlfriend. It hurtsme to go through this with all the memories in my head. At the same time I felt all as a reminder boiling down to one thing, I just should not let go on this collecting thing I have going on this band. It would be wrong. So With a fake devilish grin on my kisser I say this .... hang in there enjoy tomorrow night and I promise I will get over the day and into the new year myself - stay Crued *** Mcrueloyalty.dk

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22nd Of December 2012, End Of An Era, Tough Lonely Future
12:12PM CET
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Saturday the 22nd of December not many days left of this year. A year I really had a lot of love for and from as well. Now the most and only way to look at the end of it is a disaster felt turbulent and lonely low emotional downfall. I am totally lost from a lot of shitty things that has happend the last couple of weeks and I seem to have drawn the shortest straw. I am not in any way or form happy about anything at all. My Crue life is what I choose to say over. I have no chance on earth to do travelling, buy big andother stuff for the coming four years. That is my price from what has been going on in the more recent weeks.

I am totally torn. I am totally a mess. A bitch slappin has been on a visit and I did not like it one bit. My life is pretty much over as I like and love it. Never the less there is a holiday season no matter what I feel miss and lost. I am not in a holiday spirit at all but there is nothingI can do about any of it. Thats the bottom line. I will have to sit in on the ride and just get through it the best way possible. I am not gonna be the jolly one this year. I miss my loved one a hell of a lot too and there is just no way around it. I have tried to do everything in my power to get through the times here and not thinking too much on the fact of lost love and my Crue situation. It has been hell for me and I am not able to at all get over it. I will down and low for a seriously long time I see. I hate this. I feel cramps and shit all the time, every day and I bet I am gonna end up loosing a lot of weight too getting sick and shit from this. EVERYTHING THAT I AM AND LOVEis taken away from me ... and I do not know how to deal with it in all honesty merry christmas. I hope everyone else has a great one. A few more things have been handled so there will be a few updates more in the coming days on the 2012 sections of shirts, posters, articles, this n that toys.

Mcrueloyalty.dk

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13th Of December 2012, Never Been Rougher In Life For Me
1:33PM CET
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The day and final sceptism has hit me now. Hard. I am backing out of the Crue life and the stuff that is me. Slowly step by step as it stands now I am going to redraw myself from everything. I know what this will do to me. I will age a lot faster I will feel empty and I will for sure not be anywhere near anything that is even close to comfortable. So why do it? I have a book of reasons. And most of them are either emotional or financial. But they are me. And they are required of me. I have no further chances to make any of my hoped for things and dreams come true no more. This was it. So close but no cigar. I can not fully say what is even of value for me no more. Everything seems like a hurdle more than a short period of time - bump on the road. Nothing will be even close to greatness for me again. I know what youre thinking. What has gone bad? Why you say this even if youre down? Everybody says this if they are down. Well true - but this is not gonna come around for me no more. The framings I had are gone and not to be regained. The stuff I have and love is now going against me for reasons that would be too long a posting shared here and sorted out. I am in a totally lost position here where there is nothing but cramps hurt lost love lost possibilities and what ever else.

I am in such pain no one can even imagine. Was it "only" a lost girlfriend I would have killed the miss you much in time but this is a thing that demands my whole life to be shattered and burried. Start over on a new field and in a new form and hopefully away from everything reminding me of my life the last 30 yrs. I need a brand new way to live. Not a desired and wanted way but I need to learn to love this new road to come what ever it may be. I have no really hope left for a regained love nor passion for things. I am so totally overwhelmed in sorrow and sadness it blinds me. Motley Crue - I have decided to rap up the ongoing deals and close them and sit back to find a possible useful way for me to move on and get a thing that just sort of reminds me of a life worth having. No words comes to my lips really more than these they say it all and I feel absolutely heart broken - unable to focus, unable to relax, unable to sleep, to eat, to have anything of comfort and value at this time, the site will go on till an unexpected positive or I am ready emotionally to kill this and move on!!!! Thank you all.

Mcrueloyalty.dk

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11th Of December 2012, Birthday & breakdowns
1:58PM CET
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It came around yet another time. Nikki Sixx turns old once more. The 1958 birthday boy is now one year older. I am sure he has a great day. Why would he not? Nothing goes in the so n so odd or negative direction so I am sure the bass player has a marvelous day today in the some what warmer day of California. Well compared to here anyways. A lot of things have been hard to get in place as stated yesterday n my diary it is still that same ol situation. Nothing has really changed in 24 hours. How ever I am trying to do what can be done here. But right now my back is really going against me major. not fully aware of the english word for it but my lower back is like totally bad. Ass huge pain and there are nothing really that can be doing anything for me on that account. Pills, doctors or anything. It simply has to have its own time to pass and be over with. I am truely not really getting any comparences to mind for letting you know what the pain feels like. It is the worst pain I have ever had. This is like my perhaps 4th or 5th time in my life now that this is going on. And I am considering myself dealing with a weak body now a days. There is nothing shittier than this. And all it takes to wake up and attack me is a one simple every day move a little too fast. I have to simply take it a bit slow in my movement to avoid this for sure. But fuck me its a pain you can not even imagine. Salute to him with this,http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hRKLDfdliyY

New stuff in the mailbox as well. I am really having a huge dream fulfilled here look to the left of this section of todays posting and see what dropped in. My Mars hat with bandana from the past tour. I am really not fully grasping this dream. But here it is. In the collection and with me for the time I decide to still be a collector. I am truely happy about this. Mick is a fairly hard one ot come by stuff from. Especially stuff that slowly over the years becomes his trademark like this hat. It is truely cool and I know you would agree. More stuff is out in the sections of new Crue merch. Cup, Shirt and Golf set. I am not really thinking too much of the stuff but I think the stuff is to be gotten - or is it? A lot of things are not really cool collectibles but kind of only trash really. But it is official stuff so... I might end my days here on the collecting part so we will see if there are things to get hands on or if its time to learn to forget about. A lot of things are really fucking cool. But cutting this HUGE part called M.C. out of my life is such a major part that will for sure screwme up and spit me out to a totally new unwanted world really for quiet some time if it goes down that road. have no answer to this yet about which direction life forces me to go down at. You will know soon enough.

The briefly talked about awsome rare 8x10 photos set of the 1981 leathur set of around 65 shots photo session shoots, live shots, video shots and so on - it is going to end in Denmark. It is a cool set I got to admit. This set is one to be highly wanted I think. Andit will be good to add too. I have a lot of things and thoughts to these things after successfully now holding and owning the first ever Cofmann live video tape. Starwood 1981. Jesus christ. Wonder if there is a great thing todo for me to avoid a drop out of the Crue life of mine should things burn me to the ground in thesoon to come near future? Right now I just can not see the forrest for the trees to be honest. I think some of my turbulence will come out in the veryend to muy own benefit really. But already now the life and daily doings are in changes for me and it feels as pointed out between the lines HARD and very uncomfy. not cool in any way but seems to have been a needed change for the time being and that is something I just can not avoid no matter what I think or want to believe or pretend to believe.

I have gone as far as to be asking (the wrong guy MYSELF) if I should perhaps look into what I am doing?!!! Am I going overboard on things with the band here? It is litterally like an addiction. It is like being on drugs. You reach for the stars taste em in the sense of high collectibles loads massive travelling and all.But down the line maybe I got so addicted there was noway around getting everything I possibly could especially since2004. I have tried to say I wanna try to cover every official released item that comes out if possible. Well for as long as I collect obviously since the infamous reunion. I got to have it!! It is like a well... addiction - it is like a fucked up thing that stears your daily living. from time to time in what ever your addiction may be in these clear short lived periods or sections of the daily living you have - we all have - you get to think and see things in a perspective where you weight you doings and you ask if it is too much. And how you can change it and what would a change do for you. You know what I am saying? I think I am in astate of mind like that right now. I am for sure in a some weird situation where I am thinking like, okay I am so clear in my mind RIGHT NOW that it frightens me major. I am thinking too clearly about the stuff that is mentioned in here the reasons for the overload of collecting the reasons for my passionate focus and so on. Are they okay? Are they good enough? Are they where they have reached my goals and I shold just fight to change and lean back on other stuff? Or what the fuck is up on all with this? God damn it. Let me rest for a little time and I get back before you know it .... my Crue life is thought through in a fucked up scary way!!!!

Mcrueloyalty.dk

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10th Of December 2012, New Life Roads & Changes
3:29PM CET
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December well on its way here for all of us. I have gotten to the decition not much live shows will be happening in 2013 for me with the band. Of my own choice really. Meaning I am not gonna attend much Motley Crue live gigs next year. I have other plans. I have some serious things and issues to attend to before I get back into watching the band live much. I am aware of there being a countdown going on most likely in the sense of the band slwoing down from now and that there most likely in my book will not be too many more world tours so I am kind of not too cool with the fact that I probably face very few chances to see them outside the US of A again from 2014 and on. So I am risking a great record hunted goal for myself on attending concerts. I do how ever need to get other wheels spinning in my life as I have thought ton about other things. I may have a good ten to fifteen more years in me to hold up to full time jobs, and having the energy to keep going on with my goals and adventures. So time is now limited for me in this life time. I know what you are thinking. It is a weird freaky way to look at life here and now. How ever there are no way around it. Life has its own clock and it holds its own time frame for what is good for what and for how long.

About the worry and confution for own untold reasons on here ..... that I may be throwing in the towel for collecting any further is stillup in the air actually. I am not fully yet decided waiting for final signs to what will be going down as we walk through this last month that I truely hoped would have been a long awaited loved holiday time for me but it is not. I am not at all well and proud not even happy and smiling about the whole thing but I am for sure in a very low and shitty felt tubulent time. I am delighted to sa ythe Cofmann tape holdng the first ever filmed concert of tarwood 1981 has now reached me. It is truely weird to watch it. It had a very high price tag but it is for sure the one that truely is a Crue collectors dream. It is a thing that is not very easy to even be seen on a TV screen. I know there excists more of the 1982 tour but this from the good few months with Cofmann and the now no more excisting place is in hand.

I have also a chance to get a totally cool hard to get 65 8x10 photo set from the Too Fast years before Elektra. Guess the price tag on that one? Man it is insane with these things are going for. I am totally in a zone over the costs of these things. I think there are a load of things out there that are simply too costy for me to even think about. But I may soon have bought my last Crue item we will see. I know I probably should not even say this but it is a thought of mine running through my skulll and the reasns its there is simple well for me anyways. But its reasons that are not to be even concerned about on here nor to be shared. We will see how it all unfolds in the next few weeks.

While sitting with the sadness and caotic feelings the coffee is brueing and there are tried different things to change focus for just a little while. I almost canguarentee that I will not fullysucceed. But thigns are still going to take the focus in the sense of getting things done cleared out of the way andall that we all have with our daily doings. I have to say there are so many things I feel so fucking fragile with it is almost freaking scarry to think about it. Ohh wonderful now the radio goes on with the "dont know what you got till its gone". A thing I am almost unable to handle right now. Too much unsolved buisness too much not rightly felt stuff that are just in my way big time to enjoy the season the weather the holidays to come.

How weird it may sound the most single important thing to me right now is one thing. One person. One individual. One girl. My girl. One only person I would change the world for as long as I would get told what to do and what was not too cool to have sticking around. I feel like my whole life is up for a drastic change. I can not fully say what is the right change or not. But I feel that there is something major under way and I am totally unaware of me liking it or not. God I miss things. Miss her miss the good. I am totally cool surroundings. I am packing like a crazy fuck here the old apartment and stuff. Trying to sort out the long way too long talked about movement. I feel so fucking trapped I do not know what is right or wrong here. My Crue life has been a part of me for so long - I smell it ending but I feel kind of terryfied really. What is behind the next door do I feel forced to open it if shutting the one behind me? It feels totally unreal. Almost wrong but I can not fully say anything else but all this sort of rubbsh thats posted down here. It feels like I have the need for writing myself off somehow but at the same time I need too to try to work on the here and the now as it is well... still here. You get the picture I am sure? Or have I already made things too complicated here? Sorry did not really mean to. Sorry!!

I am also in need of just letting myself get to the end of this month before making any tragic really down sad and shitty decitions. Some are not on my shoulders to make I have little to say about the hardest and toughest to handle but I am going to really hold on to the hopes of not loosing the stuff that can make the Crue life dissapear with it. I will not post any pictures or anything major breaking positive news in this todays posting sorry again - but I need time to figure this shit out. Hopefully with the few last postings this year 20 12 there wil lcome some really better typed lines in on here but I doubt it to be honest. Let me be proven wrong PLEASE *****

Mcrueloyalty.dk

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December 2nd 2012, Site Updates & Wonders To Collecting
12:17PM CET
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The average size of a diamond engagement ring is reportedly 1.18 carats -- but Nikki Sixxjust DESTROYED the average ... by dropping a SIX CARAT stone on his fiancee ... TMZ has learned. Sixx popped the question to 27-year-old Courtney Bingham during a trip to St. Barts this weekend ... and sources close to the couple tell us it was one helluva proposal. We're told the evening started with a candle-lit stroll on beach ... followed by dinner in a tent littered with rose petals ... and when the moment was right, Sixx whipped out the ring. Of course, Courtney said yes ... because ya know, it's 6 CARATS ... and you pretty much have to. No word on when the two plan on tying the knot.

Thats the latest Sixx news on personal living I am not really into these news flashes but what the heck it makes me think. I can not really say if this is the first one to succeed or not. I only know I feel totally neutral on it not posting congrats or nothing on their blocks pages and what else. I think it is one of them sides the human kind holds as life values we all change our minds about from time to time depending on where we are in life really. But what ever pleases the man. I have no problems with it.

The last couple of days has been hectic and more days to come from now on will be as well. I think Friday was a hard one not at all Crue related but my mind my emtional state of mind and more has been so and so torn and it has been to a certain point still is very much in doubt of what is to be happening. My love life is in its own way marked on it too so should things (long story not getting in to it here) come to a point of losing my basesuch as my loved one my radio job my other stuff I most likely will totally quit collecting. I should really not post this here and not yet anyways - but I promied myself the pages in this diary are to be hopelesly and brutally honest and open for myself. And the fact that is is actually shared with the world is just my task to bare. I can and will not put myself through this hassle should I not get a chance to get through certain things and overcome the battle it is then my crue life seems pretty much over with. SO do I think it is over? No I can not honestly believe this. I trust my life and my emotions to win things over and get out on the bright side just learning my lessons.

Another idiot has tied to rip me off - I have totally sacked this dude too to save my own ass. Tragic so many are trying to kill others passions in form of these stunts really. So a few people are constantly banned from my life for life and it kills me al lthe time. I want to see the great and good in people and this is ust a sad thing for me to go through from time to time. On the good side the last 24 hours has seen a lot of addings to many sections on here .. A lot of Nikki Sixx solos tuff, incl Sixx AMM and Sixx Sense. Vince Neil his various sections, Tommys sections and lots of Crue. Mag covers, articles, shirts 2012, posters, CDs, This N that sections of clothings, toys etc. Loads of new shit It feels really nice al lthat has been laying waiting since April is now almost all online. Latest diaries and all. Looks cool. A good few more thigns comes the remaning time of year but not too much. I have things I needto get sorted so a fairly good part of December is to be site work free. Till later in the month be good everybody ***

Mcrueloyalty.dk

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23rd Of November 2012,
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So it is settled. I will have a trip to New York next winter 2013. Why? Well, As previously reported,Nikki Sixx, bassist of Mötley Crüe, is adapting his personal memoirs, THE HEROIN DIARIES: A YEAR IN THE LIFE OF A SHATTERED ROCK STAR for the Broadway stage.On November 15, Sixxtweeted,"I've been getting asked this a lot lately.The answer is: Yes,"The Heroin Diaries" book is being turned into a Broadway play." He toldBBCthat he intends for the show to open in "late 2013 or early 2014." The source material is his autobiography he released in 2007 which chronicled 1986 to 1987, the year in his life where he succumbed to heroin and cocaine and includes views from the people who witnessed the plummet. Each chapter is linked to a month in the year of his life with an introduction and afterword. THE HEROIN DIARIES was accompanied by a soundtrack from Sixx:AM, Sixx's other band, featuring 13 songs, each also based on a month in his personal journal. The book entered the New York Times Best Seller List at number seven. Read more:http://broadwayworld.com/article/Nikki-Sixx-to-Bring-THE-HEROIN-DIARIES-to-Broadway-20121122#ixzz2D1M1kXpl

Can only be a cool thing to see. And again another merch line. All these musical setups always have. A completely insane line of event stuff. Ohh dear. Tons of things to be aiming for. Maybe I should consider not really doing any or VERY FEW Crue shows in 2013.

It is so insainly cool but so insainly expensive at the same time to do these things that are on my plate as doings and offers already for the coming year. We still are only in fucking November. I am pretty shaken up about it all. It is mindblowing all that are up in the air. In a good few weeks comes my long longed for master tape of Cofmann he Starwood live concert from 1981 - how unreal is this? How cool can a year end? Last year it was a mindblowing finish and this year - well looks to be the same. Way too much for sure to win over and stick ones fingers in to but for sure yes - great year as well. Great experiences and for sure a lot of good memories to add to the Crue life basket.I am for sure not complaning. I have had a lot (thinking back) of turbulent somethingswith issues not too easerly covered. How ever I have worked like a maniac this year often in long periods and I am not to say it is all as fun as it could have been. I like to have more time off but then the price for that too is well - nto doing and expanding my Crue shit so much. You see what I mean? I am sure you get the picture. As said a lot of inner fights to cvoer most possible for myself but also a wide smiling "me" for all I actually did get to do. Shit. Stuff is coming in and stuff expand my Crue life - there are so many things to try to protect and shit it is almost insaine how much cash you are to be putting in on this crap to keep these items intact and mint best possible.

Nikki Sixxis bringing the "best rock on the radio" intoBest Buystores. TheMÖTLEY CRÜEbassist's"Sixx Sense"-branded mini-magazine can be seen at the"Sixx Sense Rock"displays in 700Best Buystores across the country."The Sixx Sense: The Magazine"features more than 40 pages of exclusive content from the radio show, new interviews withNikki Sixx, his"Sixx Sense"co-hostKerri Kasem, today's most relevant music artists, and much more. The magazine is also available for purchase onliBestBuy.comstarting November 19.Sixxstated: "I am really proud and excited to extend the'Sixx Sense - Best Rock On The Radio'campaign atBest Buywith a first-time-ever'Sixx Sense'magazine. This is a partnership based on passion and love of music."

In July, exclusive"Sixx Sense Rock"displays featuring a selection of rock albums curated in collaboration withSixxdebuted inBest Buystores nationwide. Since then, a select album from the display has been highlighted on"Sixx Sense With Nikki Sixx"andSixxSense.comat a special price each week, and consumers have been given the chance to enter contests and win concert tickets, including a flyaway experience to see"The Tour", featuringMÖTLEY CRÜEandKISS. Each night on"Sixx Sense", the international rock icon, founder/bassist/songwriter of the world-renowned bandMÖTLEY CRÜEand chart-topping bandSIXX: A.M., two-timeNew York Timesbest-selling author, clothing designer, philanthropist and photographerNikki Sixxdiscusses music and lifestyle topics as he gives listeners a backstage look at the world and mind of a rock star. Joined by co-hostKerri Kasem,Sixxprovides his unique perspective and attitude as the duo welcomes celebrity guests, recording artists and fascinating characters from all walks of life.

Status Quo manager Simon Porter said, “People have wanted this announcement to be made for years, and here it is. This is a real moment in the chequered history of Status Quo and it comes after almost 30 years of acrimony, and 10 years of law suits and court battles. Just 2 years ago the thought of the Frantic Four performing again was unthinkable. Now, 50 years on from when Francis and Alan first performed together as schoolboys, it is fitting that everything has come full circle for these unique one-off shows." -How can this NOT be a huge fucking night for me and my love for the boogie rock n roll not to mention for other Quo fans and the band itself. Away and apart as the original for decades now here and ready for a one off return to the limelight. March 2013. Fuck this is going to be massive. There are no way around it what so ever. I love this so if this is a one timer for them two weeks in modern time I want it - period.

Speaking of the Quo just got back from a night away in the middle of nowhere from that same feeling. The current modern time Quo live. What a cool fun rocking evening. I simply have to admit as I have so many times over this band is just another one to really make my evening. Love this type of music more than most other genres. How cool can it be open a live night wth "Caroline" moving through the monsterous classics and a few new ones here and there. Man I love this. Those 95 minutes made my day off from work for sure. Thanks Quo. Rarely putting me down. Your music and passionate way presenting it is just really cool. Bumped into a few that have been travelling shit loads for years to follow this band and I instantly got my own Crue path going as a movie running through my skull. Amazing what one is willing to do in the name of rock n roll. I have got to say Quo and cellebrating 50 years now is the beginning of the end in sight for these lads. And come to think of it I think it looks that way too for Crue, KISS, and others as well. Most of all that I love so dearly are slowly rapping it up and I am slowly watching life passing by for myself here too. Way too short life is - for me to be even close to coming by all the wished for stuff life has to offer. I see it now. I am constantly high on things to do in life. And I am nowhere near getting all well covered even if I got to be a hundred. Sad how passionate one can be about life when life itself is so short for the human race.

I have a lot to think about for thecoming next six months. I have such a load to getsorted and make decitions to. I am totally in to this but for fuck sake there are so many things to grasp and pick and chose from. Only able to be doing so much. Wonder how things are to be for me course it sure as hell is going to be a heavy yearcoming. 2013 already sees a lot of planned stuff yet unshared to the public news to come too from the Crue and other stuff I like to be part of. It is fucking not the easiest thing for me to cover really. Loving life and being so "hunting for goals" all the time is really making my life quiet exciting. I love that I am constantly on a go and aiming for new stuff new adventures new stuff that shapes who I am and all. How totally wonderful is it really to go through life and all the time be busy with things that makes you smile.

Its not all pink and bubbly not even close but still you know. Iam so greatful that I have learned to live and to love this so much this thing called life. You eat, shit, fart, sleep and work but thats more or less the needed ingrediences to go and to get through life really. The stuff that you grow kind of sick about with time. So ones you learn to do these things automaticly and then go from that to having focus on all self - out pointed - wants and more you get to have a fairly great living. Ones again are closing in on the final month of yet another year and ones more there seems to be these ex wives and girlfrineds of the band comng to surface and clearing out garagae and attics with old band members stuff frm their time together with one of them. The latest on the tree of Ex wife sellers is Sharise Neil she is now clearing out of all her old kept stuff with Vince Neil. There are a lot to come it seems and there have alreayd been some rather cool stuff like the 1981 82 chainsaw and more. This time there are a few awards and some tour itineraries and these snake skin chap sets fom the stage performance with Bons Jovi in 89 I think it was. I can not grab any of her stuff as I have things lined up before she came crawling out of the dark and offered stuff. That is more or less an exampple of what I was refering to above here. Too much to dotoo many goals too little time too little money, it will most likely never change for one like me, till next time - Crue for life ***

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17th Of November 2012, Corabi, Dublin, Stuff & Fustration
5:46AM CET
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Good morning people out there in this great wide world. I am posting or should I say starting this in a really shitty state of mind. I have been in Dublin Ireland the last few days and returned home yesterday only to go directly from the airport in Copenhagen to work directly for the fist night shift after some days off and a little off time and vacation on my behalf. I have just gotten out of the shower you have only little idea of how bad I feel I am stinky tired and totally out and over the edge to whats both good smart healthy and wise. Now ohh my fucking god I see almost tripple it takes for ever this here - typing and posting. I am better off breaking this down to be sent off to get added after I get up again later in the day. Maybe I should do that? Would be a smart wise healthy move. Okay, okay, okay I will - I have so many thoughts and all from the last few days. Keep in mind it involved yet another Crue member in its own sense. So cool. Fuck I can not do this. I am way too out of it. I will be back to complete this later in the afternoon here - sorry lads sorry - I will be here later. Shit can hardly sit up straight.

Up again - for fuck sake 5 hours on the lazy side and I come back with a headacke. Marvellous. Damn it.So a trip was on for Dublin Irelandfor a good day and a half. I went came back as posted and then the bell of reminding me of thiswork work work work - a thing in itself that I like okay but this job that holds my daily somethings and eats up a fairly large portion of m days here is not a bell / reminder of the greatest. So thats about it on that in here today!!! Ohh god I am not the happist guy alive with the job one has. Okay well, I had still a joyful thought towards the day of Tuesday. My Germany trip was as mentioned short but a well successful pleasure. It was not just to get erased from my brains just course I had a Dublin trip to go on Wednesday. It was a bit bigger thing than that. But Wednesday passed on I had been on a few hours with my girl. It ment the world to me. I treasure my girl more than most things in life. I am just down about one thing when it comes to things about her. I do not have time enough with her and I do not have the feeling of ever getting close enough. It is my own what ever something to work out so I will become alright about this detail. But I simply love her too much. My problem again. Lol, lol, lol. Okay so one hour or so together in the Capital city before sending her off to the show with some Swedish metal Katatonia and myself on to the airport for the Dublin flight.

I seem to always have a deeper wish for getting closer to my irish brother B. R. too. Something somehow seems to be a barrier to do this for us. We are having extremely different sides to many things. And those differences will be the barrier for us to get in that xtra deep of sharing I think. I am way deeper than most do see. Or have willingness to even spent time to get to see. I miss it with this guy. We do have a special bond and we do have that cruecial something shared for sure but the depth in it is not really that deep. He is not a very emotional sharing individual. The inner feelings and thoughts that this brother has he keeps to himself. Like most people I have to say. Me? Well I always just lay it out on everybody. I feel and I see I want I miss I care for and all. Never really hold any motions back. Sorry but that is something i miss with most people to be honest.

That was a chapter in here that has nothing to do with Crue and my Crue life as such yet it is all and everything. Crue is emotional to me. Life is. Most of my doings are. And I dare it seems to say and share it with an openess that seems to be not all normal behavious to the modern day individual. Certain things have changed to and for the man that mention above and it is rather nice yet very strange to withness since there have been so much negative said from the same person about a certain subject he now holds in his daily life. Sorry but the denial to things and then all of a sudden things pops up in ones life and there you are - denying but still showing things and sides about yourself you dont like others to see too much it seems. Remember the two new Crue shirts too in the officiAL Crue Store online.

In Copenhagen longing for lift off. I had 90 minutes to kill after I had done all that security check and stuff. I was so and so lets say bored by the fact of waiting. I had nothing with me was too cheap to go buy me things just to kill time. Anyhow as we were to board I placed my ass in seat 29A. And I wanted to at least try to really relax best possible but my seat in the plane was stuck. No rest no nothing at all. I did close my eyes not to sleep but to totally set the world out of mythoughts and not be anything but relaxed.

Arriving at the gate in Dublin it was black as hell really dark now but my buddy B.R. was there to pick me up. Alone. Suprised. It was nice. It was a nice meet up and a really nice to see him again. I can not say why but I think about this man a lot. So the drive to Baltinglass north of Dublin was the location for a nights sleep. I hadgood night it got late to say the least before bed called upon me but I was at least having a cool room to sleep in and there by I would have a good sleep. I sleep the best in a cool not cold but cooled room. As I tugged in I had a load of thoughts on my Crue life and a lot of thoughts towards tomorrows event and the reason for me being here. In ireland. It was for the accustic set of John Corabi. It was for a night with the Ex- Motley frontman. It was something I had a lot of different thoughts to actually. Some were like irrelevant others of the most important meanings and more. All in all it took a good long time of me before I fell asleep that night.

Morning hours and up on a go. You see I was really in for this today. I had a few thigns I would love to get covered too in Dublin as we got in there at least check out. So as we got there I looked into things that I truely would have loed to get. I did not succeed. I also had a line of texting to my girl course I ALWAYS wanna come back to her with something. My brother wanted christmas cards from here again - we are liking tose old fashioned doings around holiday seasons. I like christmas my girl hates it. Again never mind that I am just letting out thoughts and brain farts here really.

We tried to get a hold of the john Corabi event poster. I found it got it. It is not THAT important but still now it was possible I had the chance .. we got it. Nice. We did get to talk a bit in th city my friend and i. It felt really good. I also had a thought about getting what Corabi was selling. Or at least trying to get a thing or two was it something good. I hoped mostly for his new "Accustic CD". Turned out he had that sold out. Brought 400 to Europe in total but all sold out in a week and he had been here now for close to three. The day in general had a lot of waiting time in it. Something that truely took a lot ofut of me. It is not that I am inpatience or nothing but I get tired and shit from doing nothing. So why did we do that - the nothingness? Well we tried to wait around for Corabi to arrive and get a picture and a signed event poster. The man was to be up on stage alone solo. Him and his guitar. Again - I had various thoughts to this event. Did not really know ifI should exect something really neat or just a night in his presents. Something that mostly does not cut it for me. So what to expect? Would not be able to answer that but rather tell how it felt afterwards. Yeah man. Corabi surely had me curious here today. Time passed n by and the hours on the clock only said tic tac tic tac tic tac and all of a sudden it was like eight PM. Outside the man stood out of the blue signing shit for people. we went outdoors and waited for the two remaning to get about 15 CD covers signed. I was like what the fuck. Corabi signing various Crue covers and more. Okay it was kind of weid for me but hey the man signed every single thing these lads had bought with them. Me I was not like that. I had the poster and the show ticket. Enough for me. We got the picture taken turned out really lovely in the night light and all.

We went inside again another round of beers and waiting. Talked a little bout him outdodrs and killed time - funny how much time in and of my life I have been in the waiting process in ques and lines and shit over the past fifteen years for things like this. Oops another brain fart. But it is kind of crazy to think about really. I have a lot of things in my head all the time on a daily basis. Now we waited around for things to be happening waited for B.R. new found girl lol, lol to to appear too. She had gone to bed like certain others I know - never fully got it - but they seem to need it and then I just smile a little and go ohh well sweet dreams. This chick got a round to "The Pint" round maybe 7:30 PM - here things were to be with Corabi we waited and after about a hundred short going out doors for a smoke. How really fucked is that wit the smoking people. They can not be at much without taking breaks from the on goings without having to get a smoke or two. I both laugh and cry over it. Damn.

We had to go upstairs to see this show. So we did. The first two live shows were short really short. The first a Dublin gang of five - not for me but they had their local friends to support them. The second was a guy sounded American but I could not surely tell. But I hated it. The third well.. the man himself. He turned up hit the small very small stage and gearing up for the night. I was thinking about hte last years event here course I had been here before. The last time it was for the swedish Crashdiet. I filmed that for my brother he is as far as I know the only one havong that show on DVD. Tonight I was a little in doubt of what to do. Shoot the show on video or should I just shootlots of pictures. I was tempted to both but could only do one. Ones it started it was too late for the other not chosen. I leaned towars photos course I did not think I would watch it did I film it. So I took pictures. But as it ended I have to say I regret I did that and not filming. It was truely great truely. Loads of Crue in there and many stories to the songs such as the Crue ones that just will not come back. Shit. Should have filmed it. Ohh well too late now. Fuck.

The show had songs from his Scream his Crue and his Unipn days also a few brand new things. I dont know how much the few that was actually here had of thoughts watching this. I myself as I always do was listenign in to the music the stories and thinking of all I know about this manhis down luck with women, bands and life from time to time. A lot of things made this set personal for me. he made the songs and the setlist as such like a book to his life. Not just an accustic rock evening for the 30 that had turned up. Yes you read right there were really few there. Weird but okay I was fine about it. His life and his path in music has been a raterh turbulent road. I think his ways and chosen doings have been all fine I think personally and with golds and heart in all decitions. But others have ended thigns for him more than he has ended things for himself I believe. Kind of tragic and sad really. But damn what a talent. I think seeing a man like this doing what he does accusticly is showing the real something in anyone.

Mr. John Corabi has something of high quality for sure. Mr J.C. you made it a truely great evening for me personally. I was moved in many different directions and though an emotional ride like I often gets taken when it comes to some Crue related things. Sadly also things I can not share with other people. They just do not get it - at all. I am too what ever for them opening up with talkes and shared thoughts when it coemsto that. My girl Tine is one that I dare say also do not fully get it but I know she has been told so much now that she is the one that for sure kindof tries to get me on this point.

I greeteed Mr Corabi afterwards too and thanked for this. I told him in short how I felt. And asked in on his recent relased signature guitar. He seemd to get me might even remember me from the times we have met before and done radio twice. I know it means a lot to me but I was truely not really sure what to expect form his tour here. I was not sure at all actually. But it tipped me over. I know there are not many gigs left but if you see this and you are to go you should think about this. You like his bands in the past and the music he has been a part of then you now know you are in for a real treat. It is that good. At least I think so. Loved it. Hope he will consider a possible DVD recording of this. It is amazing. Good time travelling towards music I love and never other wise would have a chance to hear being delivered live again. Sadly. Take care ***

The show had songs from his Scream his Crue and his Union days also a few brand new things. I dont know how much the few that was actually here had of thoughts watching this. I myself as I always do was listenign in to the music the stories and thinking of all I know about this manhis down luck with women, bands and life from time to time. A lot of things made this set personal for me. he made the songs and the setlist as such like a book to his life. Not just an accustic rock evening for the 30 that had turned up. Yes you read right there were really few there. Weird but okay I was fine about it. His life and his path in music has been a raterh turbulent road. I think his ways and chosen doings have been all fine I think personally and with golds and heart in all decitions. But others have ended thigns for him more than he has ended things for himself I believe. Kind of tragic and sad really. But damn what a talent. I think seeing a man like this doing what he does accusticly is showing the real something in anyone.

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14th Of November 2012, Aussie Tour, Xmas Gifts & Dublin
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So Austarlia are you ready for this? The Aussieversion of THE TOUR from the USA this summer.
A special “KISS Hot Zone” limited number ticket has been created for fans for the Sunday night concert for access to an exclusive section in front of the stage. This special pass does not include entry to the circuit and grandstand, corporate platform, and Trackside ticket holders can purchase the “KISS Hot Zone” passes at a price of $80. All Sunday Clipsal 500 Adelaide grandstand, platform and trackside Sunday ticket holders will still have free access to the concert oval. The special “KISS Hot Zone” passes will go on pre-sale to the following groups: Price Cap members from 2pm 19 November to 5pm 21 November. (SA time). Capacity 800. Limit as per Price Cap tickets held Public Sale from 9am 23 November (SA time). Capacity limited to remaining capacity. Limit of four tickets per transaction. A local band will also be part of the Sunday Concert line-up selected in conjunction with Music SA. The 2013 Clipsal 500 Adelaide will be held from 28 February – 3 March. Tickets are available from Ticketek on phone 132 849 or onlinewww.ticketek.com.au.

For more event information visitwww.clipsal500.com.auFor further media information contact: Mike Drewer Clipsal 500 Adelaide Media and Publicity Manager: M 0419273333 Em.drewer@bigpond.comKISS ARMY PRESALE IS ACTIVE NOW! Get the best seats while you can! Premium KISS ARMY Members LOGIN athttp://www.kissonline.com/service/loginand visit the tour page to get information to access the presale. If you are not a premium member of the KISS Army and would like to participate in this presale,JOIN NOW!

Feb 28th – Perth - Perth Arena
March 3rd – Adelaide - Clipsal 500 V8 Supercar
March 5th – Melbourne - Etihad Stadium
March 9th – Sydney - All Phones Arena
March 12th – Brisbane - Brisbane Entertainment Centre
March 16th – Mackay- Virgin Australia Stadium

For additional information on KISS' Australian Monster Tour, visit www.themonstertour.com. General ticket onsale begins November 22. THE WORLD’S BIGGEST ROCK BANDS ON ONE STAGE Rock’n’roll doesn’t get any bigger than this! KISS and Mötley Crüe. On the same stage. On the same night. It‘s the news Australian fans have been waiting for with the spectacle of all spectacles announced today, KISS with very special guests Mötley Crüe will tour Australia in March 2013. Presented by McManus Entertainment, the summer’s biggest, baddest rock tour will hit Sydney, Brisbane, Melbourne, Perth, Mackay and Adelaide with guests Irish rockers Thin Lizzy along for the ride (*except Adelaide). KISS and Mötley Crüe’s 45 show US summer tour has already gone down as one helluva rock’n’roll extravaganza and now, finally, its Australia’s turn. Not only has it been five long years since KISS last toured Australia, but 2013 marks a very special milestone for this great band – their 40th anniversary. In all their bombastic and unstoppable glory, KISS will perform fan favorites from their treasure-trove of hits along with tracks from their just–released 20th studio album ‘Monster’, which debuted at #7 on the ARIA Charts. Gene Simmons and Paul Stanley, with longtime members guitarist Tommy Thayer and drummer Eric Singer, are at the top of their game on ‘Monster’, which embodies all that is KISS and the music that first inspired them to pick up their guitars and flame-throwers and don makeup to entertain millions.

Its Wednesday now. I am sitting here getting ready to hit the airwaves in a few hours. Dublin calling my name for two days. Not a vacation as it rarely is with me more like a good vicit fast in and out and then having witnessed yet another Crue related something. Tomorrow night it is live with Jon Corbi and his world Unplugged tour. Will be looking forward to that for sure. I will try to snap a lot of pictures I think. We will see how it goes and all. but that is tomorrow. I am having a fucked feeling today with myself about something rather personal nothing about the Crue or nothing so I will keep this to myself and not bother the diary pages with this but I can easerly say it feels like it effects me big time. It is an emotional matterand Iam not actually never good with ignoring that kind of thing much. I truely hope I am not looking at a down time in Ireland since I know what I am returning to after that on Friday it is directly to WORK and night shift hell once agian. No time off til lthe 1st from Friday and on except the 23rd but that is trave day to another placein Denmark for Status Quo live. by the way their NEW release DVD Hello Quo a DOCUMENTARY IS highly RECOMMENDED really good. Then again the 28th but that too is trvelling day home to Grenaa for me rap up more boxes and shit and then back to work for some more ...

Yesterday hadme wisitinggermany for something quiet personal and out of the publics eye. It was along hard road .. trains trains trains for nearly 12 13 hours total as I headed back same day. But I had a short lived good maybe 40 minutes at a location that I truely appreciated and was handed my first 2012christmas gift as well. A fully band signed blackbird bass by the band. How cool and unexpected was that for this Danish lad? You bet it was. It felt nice it felt good it felt overwhelming truthfully. There is really nothing I can say to that that would rightfully give me the feeling of covering my feelings and appreciation to the gift received. So I guess a wise move would be - dont. just smile and feel good about it.

I am so looking forward to be sharing the Corabi and Dublin experience as I return watch for it round the coming weekend. I think it will ready then. Nothing can be made pre Saturday writing anyhow. So it is really hard for me to any earlier doings on the posting side to things. Now we are ready to say Dublin next. And there is a longed for company awaiting and hopefully a nice cool time in Dublin tomorrow and the day after before the damn job once again calls me in - you be good till I return enjoy life. Hugs.

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9th Of November 2012. Site Sections Updated
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Finally getting a bit updated this site is. So it takes a good while course there are so much for many single sections. Tickets in all sections have had several new ones added and so have the sections of 2012 shirts, articles of saints, Dr, Girls, Too Fast sections. I hope we get to come by a few more things before I am leaving late this afternoon. You see we have so much to catch up on here with this baby and sadly what looks to be so- lets say - stressful to catch up with whatis somewhat nessesary for the site to catch up on all the lost this year. Never the less as said hopefully we wil lmanage to get througha few more sections to feel its graspy - so and so okay to deal with. Enjoy the new - there is a lot more coming for sure. Including lots in the solo sections. I have had a really good few cool mails and news letters comingmy way the last couple of days.

I am going to have a really good week the next one to come. have a few set ups with people in my passionate side of life lets call it that and I know already by this time that it is all going to be really awsome. There simply are no chances for dissapointments in any areas of any of the coming activities. How great is that for a promising week? Not too often things are like thatI canhonestly say for all that reads this right? Yeah. So I am wondering again about a few things more now. New things - to go get or ... not? Yeah I know it is a pain in the ass really.Loadsof things there that can be VERY exciting how ever I keep my past saying lol, lol I simply can not afford more than I already have going. But godknows as so oftenbefore there are such greatoffers out there. I almost do not wanna post this no more course it is weekly news for me. And trust me it is not at all easy tojust close my eyes from these splended offers. I better start getting better at facing the impossible and feeling good about it. ohh man it is fucking not just something I feel easy about.

Yesterday I finished paying my Coffmann video master tape and on the 24th of November itis being shipped out of the US and heading to Denmark and you can haveonlyguessings to how muchI am actually looking forward to this tape(s) coming here. That is an investment not a buy. I have alsomade a deal on Sixx originallyreceived Ovation half accustic bass you know the one - made in grey and wine red colours. I as of now do not have any of those in any of the two colours and I have wanted them since they got out. Now one and HIS is goingtocometo here at least that is what it looks like at this very minute. Other stuff other deals or possible deals and what ever else in the name of buying delaing Crue you will have to just come back and see in on here. I am fairly happy with the things that have been going on the last let us say good fourfive months. So much have been won over that I didnot fully believe in to run in my favour. This summer has truely been good to me. better than hoped for inmany ways. I got to remind myself too about the VERY expensive couple of shows covered onthe so called THE TOUR with Crue and KISS. Something I did not fully believe in to be witnessed. And After that I did not believe inmuch. So yes there truely have been a lot that I am so cool about thinking back on it all. I must say there have been a line of years now in a row that have given me a load of things and adventures - truely - it has been fucking amazing. But I gotta say man, it has been a really greatful time for me. Hard work yes loads of overtime and shit to do and get all thats been -yes -but I do not regret any of all that. I feel I have beenblessed and for sure gotten more than I actually ever really expected.

Good morning people, so it is Friday a last adding break and some fresh air and a walk here in a few minutes but we surely have sorted many more things to the site. Posters, this n that, cards, tour papers documents, personal and much more - really cool. Love that we gave it a long good beating so many things have been added good job on part of my webmasterreminding myself about her shoulder and operation in that area. Indeed we have done good these last two days. I gotta admit that we still have a long hard road to catch up on all the solo stuff from Sixx, Lee and Neil have not been touched yet so yes much more laying waiting. It will come not to worry. I think it has come to a point where this site with the awaited stuff will for sure be a really good blend of new cool stuff as a whole for sure. Wait till you see all updated this and these sections online are so really great as a total now. The site has come some what larger than expected and also in the sence that a lot of really heavy items are making this dog behind the site prouder than before as the holder of this beast named Mcrueloyalty.dk make no mistake about it. Andwith the agreed stuff in form of ongoing delas and worked on deals so much more on the high end of items that holds a value this site and colelction grows monthly on a quiet interesting side of things I must say. And it is not because it is my site my stuff my collection. No. It simply is a mind blowing bunch to go through.

This coming week as mentioned, I am heading to a meet up on and with a passionate quarter of a my Cruecial universe plus getting an early christmas present and fucrther more a two days get away to Dublin Ireland for a show o nthe accoustic tour of the 1994 voice to the gang John Corabi. That too will be very cool and interesting for sure. I am deeply looking forward to that for sure. The new CD from him will be grabbed over there new pictues taken and year most likely a meet up with the man as well. I have not much doubt there. There is so much to actually get in around the next week from now before a massive period of work is ones again coming in over me demanding night shifts and overtime to cover financial somethings for everything I like and want to do in my so n so exciting life. John Corabi should be interesting I think. There will be some sort of an after party thigng from what I remember having been told by my old time Crue partner of Ireland. But we will see how things unfold and then yeah... enjoying the suff being handed to us. I look forward to the thing for sure. Not worried there will be any reason to be dissapointed or nothing. Nothing will or can go bad I do not think. Im all up for this.

As some of you may know my younger brother is collecting theSwedish Crashdiet andI have never really been given themmuch thumbs up how ever I have ordered the new to come late November Crash DVD it is up for pre order right now actually. The brand new Crashdiet DVD 'Shattered Glass And Broken Bones' has arrived, featuring over three hours and 20 minutes of live and backstage footage from the 'Generation wild World Tour'. This amazing DVD is filmed between 2009-2012 and covers everything from the departure the of vocalist Olliver Twisted to the first auditions with Simon Cruz to the making of the 'Generation Wild' album and much, much more. The live footage includes multi-camara pro-shots as well as fan-submitted videos from around the world. If you pre-order the DVD now atcrashdiet.orgyou'll have it delivered before Christmas as the DVD starts shipping on December 4th. Crashdiet recently completed recording the follow-up to 2010's 'Generation Wild', set for release in early 2013. A pre-order campaign, that ended in October, saw the band sell over 1,000 copies of the upcoming album. Not absolutely a deadly imortantthing for me but let me giv it a chance this time three albums in threedvds in and see how I take it in focusing on my own watching. For now this is what we mangaed to get in around so enjoy the many sections (look top rolling banner front page to discover the new) and as always I will be back soon. If not before then next week with a round up on all this that the coming week holds for me - take care. **

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