2010-2014

The ten year long contract from 2005 – 2015 was an exciting time … for most parts.

As 2013 ended the band came out withthe information that 2014-2015 would be the end tour. And the band would rap it up as a touring band for good. It got to be a very strange news to take in. All I can say if I should not write a nove lwould be – okay last chance go see them, but not as much as I can but choose wisely so all details will be remembered and not just be numbers in the pile of shows.

Okay so I attended a good few but, not at all in the same numbers as I had done previously on tours. Cause I did not want to. And as we got into the last part of all that and the last handful of shows were announced it tured out to be Vegas and three last shows in Los Angels with the final one on new years eve 2015 going into 2016.

On the last two I clearly remembered my thoughts. I remember the second last day waiting in LA to get into the venue I thought a load about all the years of mine with Crue in it. All I have done what I have wished for and what I did not really ever win over now it felt like it was too late.

The last day of 2015 walking round the venue, in the shop, and further more just watching everythiing that went on round the venue for their last eveer show gave me really strange feelings. I remember my girlfrined had absolutely no understanding of this at all. We lived by some friends in Los Angeles on this trip and they could not fully understand me either. So I say I rarely meet any that can or do understand me. I gave up EVERYTHING for this. Litterally.

They show was nto perfect it was like an every other day show. No cool extras, no suprises, no new born cool memory except I go t to say I was there. I saw the last one. As the last notes of the last song faded out to ”Home Sweet Home” I remember saying to myself – do not go outside – do not go out.

The reason – as I do step outside then I will never ever be in an arena where I have gone to see the band live again. That one was a tough one to swallow., And on top of that Fuck – now what? How am I going o live and live for what? I am dead serious when I say this… and trust me the years to come after put me in a wild and dark place. I could not find my place so to speak. I just could not find it.

I could not see the light iin anything. Much les life. I really had no idea how to move on. I felt like I had to find a new thing.. and the new thing became a 2016 successful Motley Crue Exhibition in northern Sweden at the city museum for ten solid weeks it was there and over 8500 people frm round the planet came to see it. I was amazed. I was really thankful.

This shit gave me a good feeling and I had no bad feeliings as such doing this.

At the museum every Tuesday I held lectures / story telling nights of about two hours about my collecting life. Really cool to see people showing up for that as well.

After we had that atken down tons of people contacted me that had not been able to come – they all asked is there a website about this we can go to and check it out? Is there any way or form to ge t glimse from a distance for this?

That was a solid No sorry!! So a new thought for 2017 was put together that saw a physical beast of a result in 2028. A debut book. A oversized coffee table sized book about the Exhibition and a little bonus reading about me and my life lived. Strictly limited edition of 300 ex. And the first 100 sold would come in a goodie bag package with tote bag cards posters and all… Today a collectible for sure.

After that several years came to me and like said above mentioning I got lost in life after leaving the arena… My darkness was dark,. It was extremely dark. But I know what the things had cost to cover these last shows as well. It was not easy. And several of my friends that attended as well had sold their car, taken a loan, or other thigns that were simply tough facts to see oneself through if wanted to make a last show possible.

And the real bomb came in 2019 late and it said – Motle yCrue to reunite and take on touriing in 2020. What the fuck was my instant reaction. Was I happy? No nowhere near it. I feltlike I had been lied to and disrespected. I felt extremely angry. I cursed Sixx and his ego all the way to the moon. And have done so several times since then on MANY issues from him as well.

I had to ta ke a break but I think you can say the break came easer ly and all on its own. And it had a name. Pandemic – Covid. Fuck that Fuck Crue fuck it all. I have with the news of the reuniting lost all for the man. NS. Not collecting that has always ben a different matter for me. But touring was extremely much over. And still to this day 2025 I have felt the same way.

As the pandmic came I also saw their and all other artists tours being pushed into the unknown.

it got to be 2022 before anything at all happened and I was NOT onboard. I love the man John5. But it does not change a thing about my pain of the other two neil and Lee still allowing themselves to be Sixx puppets on a string. What the fuck are they so affraid of? Sixx seems to be the name they have to be involved with to have a high income and then I sadly when all is said and done see it as greed. Nothing else. No matter what people says. And it ruined my views and respect for them as rockstars of my life.